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Hello, my name is Artem im from UKRAINE i want to ask you our friends from other countries for help. If somebody can help to find or create any courses for Ukrainian Students or after University period people who still have no job to learn some new things for working remote in other countries or working with companies beyond the cordon of UKRAINE in WAR time. We need to help economics of our countrie and make money for basic needs as food and home. Also I urge all even not Ukrainians to help our army! Espesially if you will get money with this topic courses . Best regards SLAVA UKRAINE

8 years down the drain. Poof
They're getting married. They've been together for 6 months. We've been working on things, going on dates, spending the night together, and having sex, on and off pretty much this whole time.
I thought he was just a distraction. I thought things would work themselves out and we'd get back together eventually. Just had to iron out some issues I thought.
It's over. He proposed. She said yes.
We said we were each other's best friends. We said no matter what happens we'd be in each other's lives in some way.
I never preferred that option, obviously, but I felt like I could deal with that if it came to it.
He told her he doesn't want her to talk to me anymore. She actually fucking agreed to this.
I feel abandoned. I feel like the break up all over again.
I know where he lives. I know what he looks like. I want so badly to do something stupid.
I won't. I lost. Loved and lost. It's really over now. I gotta move on...
It's shitty and fucked up but I take some solace in the little victory being that the whole beginning of their relationship she was fuckin me. Ik. That's shallow and stupid and really sex isn't the important part but whatever. I'm grieving. So fuck you Lloyd, I fucked your bitch. Your "fiancè. The entire foundational period of your relationship with the love of my fuckin life was built on her getting railed by me.
Does that actually make me feel better? No. Not at all really.
Aight that's it. Peace y'all

I'm autistic with Asperger's and not the best when it comes to social skills. So maybe someone can make sense of this situation for me.
But today, I passed through the tea room and there was a guy and a girl chatting in there (Greg & Lucy). And another blonde-haired girl by herself. When Lucy saw me she ceased her conversation with Greg to begin chatting with me for a few moments. The conversation was playful and so I told her how a co-worker of mine named Ben has a crush on her.
Lucy began blushing and Greg began laughing. And that's when the blonde girl interjected out of nowhere: ''YOU'RE NOT SUPPOSED TO TELL HER THAT''.
Greg began laughing even harder as I shrugged at the blonde-haired girl and said, ''Well I just did''.
I then said goodbye to all of them as I was heading out and the blonde-haired girl got up and quickly followed me out of the room and then overtook me. And then stopped in the archway like she was contemplating something... Then she looked up at me, then back at the ground, then back up at me.
I tried to squeeze past her and she then apologizes.
And as I began to walk down the aisle, the blonde-haired girl began walking alongside me, and randomly goes, ''You know, you look like a Calvin Klein model. Your face and everything''.
I got really awkward and just said thanks and that I liked her hair and then nervously walked off on her and left the store.
Was this woman hitting on me or just being friendly?... It was just so random and nobody has ever said anything like that to me before.

I found someone on this sub befor; and though we had a great time, it ultimately didn’t work out and we remain as friends. So I’m back and hoping for another success. Hopefully an even greater one.
There’s a lot of things I can say about who I am or what I like. But I think the best way to do that is by sharing what I’d like to build my life towards:
I'll become a traveling author writing a fictional epic who wanders through towns in different countries. I’d run through my giant backlog of books, anime, restaurants, and games— and also become a massive donor to a bunch of aquariums because they’re beautiful places. And I want to create a nonprofit that teaches kids and young adults things society has forgotten or doesn’t know to teach: personal finance, understanding and being comfortable with emotions, finding meaning in life and being kind. Then there's family plans too, but all I'll say on that is I'll be sneaking the kids out of school to show them theres more to life too much; and become their teachers' least favorite parent.
Let's start slow, chatting and getting to know each other. If we just stay as friends, that’s OK too. If it does get romantic: I’m pretty free-form; I dont have an age range as long as we have similar values. You can be taller or shorter. You can be unemployed, or studying, working, or changing careers. My strongest preference is that health is something you prioritize, and ideally you exercise and are fit. And that you're a good person: kind, empathetic, and looking for the same.
Me: 28. Male. American-born Chinese. Cantonese and Japanese (worked and studied there for a few years). 5’7 with a lean-fit body type. Open to trading pics or video chatting. I live in NYC but am open to out-of-state as long as you either travel here sometimes or don't mind moving. If you’re interested; DM/PM me about yourself— age, location, and what your dream life would look like.

It's counter-intuitive, but in most fighting games "casual" matches (which would include the hub in SF6) are places where little or no attempt is made to match the skill level of the players.
Ranked is where the game will try to match you with people around your own level (after your first 10 matches, which are all across the spectrum). The best way to improve in street fighter is to continually play people who are a little better than you are, and ranked is the best way to get started on that process.
One thing that makes people not want to play ranked; "But I'm bad! I'll lose all my rank points!" - that's true, but rank points do not matter. Play, lose a bunch, and keep playing. Once you get your fundamentals down and begin to improve, you can watch all your rank points shoot right back up. In theory, your ranked points are always slowly catching up to match your skill level at the game. Play to gain skill, not keep ahold of some rank points.
Casual matches and hub matches are where you'll run into someone who's not just on a higher skill level - they'll be ten or twelve leagues ahead in many cases, and it can be really hard to learn anything at all from these matches.
I say this because I made the same mistakes when I first started going online with fighting games. I put it off forever, scared I wouldn't be "good enough". And when I finally did try casual, I got matched with the equivalent of Pai Mei on the mountaintop wrecking my ass when I could have been running into new players if I'd only gone for Ranked mode.
New players: learn from my mistakes! Go online and have some fun, especially now at launch while there are tons of new people just like you learning the basics together!

CW: politics, homophobia, mention of racism, mention of past suicidal ideation
I spent seven months in Los Angeles without a job. I picked up dogwalking and was making it work as best as I could, applying all the fucking time to jobs, until I crashed my car. (All were safe, no passengers). My ex kicked me out a month before my lease was up, my family had to traverse across the entire country to come get me, I now live with my mom who was abusive to me as a kid.
Got a job. Good, right? Nay. 10/hr 9-5 is not enough for me to live on when I take into account saving to GTFO, therapy, and caring for my dog. I have $28 to my name at the end of every week, and that's with my therapist's special emergency discount rate, due to end in June. I will not be able to afford her once that ends. At the time of employment my boss said we would have a re-negotiation of wages after three months, now he's acting like that was never ever said when I KNOW it was. I am doing the work of three people, at *least*. But it is the only available job in this shithole that is *remotely* relevant to my field.
Now I have to take up waitressing on the weekends, and dealing with the racist-homophobic-overly religious-snake handling Pentacostal public at large here is NOT it for my mental health, not to mention time lost to take care of any personal needs. I'm saving my after-work hours for a potential job in arts education for kids that would actually probably make me happy, but would pay the least of all. (Not excited to be living in the closet because if I work with kids as a gay human, it is actually *likely* here that I'll be injured in some capacity. We had a lot of local folks arrested on Jan 6th. I already had some guy lean over my table and ask me threateningly if I 'knew of any democrats around here' - me, with purple hair and tattoos and piercings - he knew what he was doing and who he was threatening).
On top of that, I am somehow ineligible for state benefits with my current 10/hr pay, meaning I do not get my anxiety medication much less the dream of getting medicated for my diagnosed ADHD. I nearly died last year without treatment for my anxiety, and that was while living surrounded by my friends and loved ones, places to go and things to do, sunshine to walk in. Being gay in my homophobic bible belt area? I see that working out extremely great for my mental health.
I can't find a decent used car for what I have saved, I'm stranded and beholden to borrowing my mothers to get to work.
And also, THE POST OFFICE HOURS HERE ARE 8:30-3:30. I needed to pick up super important certified mail *precisely* at 8:30 to be at work on time. I get inside and wait five minutes and I can hear them banging around in there but they won't open the fucking window. I didn't say the curse words I wanted to, but *fuck*. That was the cherry on top of my morning.
I hate it here, I hate my life, I fought so hard to never ever fucking return here and *here I sit*. Fuck me gently with a chainsaw. (reference link)

As the title states - I'm in a metal band from Rochester NY. We're booking a tour for this September, and we'd like to come to Pittsburgh.
What's the best venue for metal bands in Pittsburgh? I have Gooski's and Jekyl&Hyde on my list of recommendations, anything else?
Link for reasons (not an ad): https://open.spotify.com/artist/5gFClKH4aV4iHQGedSKFwD
Any/all help is so appreciated. Cya soon, hopefully!

Repost from yesterday since I only got 1 comment.
My daughter will be 8 this month. Our next door neighbor has 3 boys ages 14, 12, and 8. The 8 year old and my daughter are best friends. They sleep over each others houses, go to church together, and play together all the time.
They have started to get comments from other kids. It is the typical "Layla and Blake sitting in a tree. K-i-s-s-i-n-g" kind of thing but it is really upsetting my daughter to the point where she only wants to be friends with Blake in secret. My husband was supposed to take her out with the neighbor boys and their dad this weekend while I stayed home with the toddlers but she was crying before they left because she wanted to go but didn't want to get teased for being out with Blake.
I don't know how to help her deal with this. Any tips?

I'd strongly prefer not to get into details about it because honestly any detail about it could reveal who I am, so I'm going to talk about this in vague terms. I'm not famous but if anyone were to figure out who I am then it's possible that this could end up further negatively affecting me.
I really wish there was a place to talk about false accusations and how damaging they can be both to the person who gets falsely accused but also for how much a false accusation hurts the group of people being used as a weapon by the person doing the false accusation. In this case, a breakup resulted in my now ex-girlfriend weaponizing the fact that she was a woman and I'm a man in such a way to try to ruin me, and she did so somewhat successfully. She was smart and didn't claim violence, but she did claim what I guess you could call invisible abuse, such as emotional damage. We were together for a very short period of time, which is one of the reasons her reaction shocked me so much. I'd been through more mature breakups with girlfriends that I was with for much longer or similar amounts of time before I had been with her, and she was older than me by a few years, so I thought we'd just go our separate ways. We weren't miserable with each other, and it wasn't an abusive relationship by any means; sometimes two people just aren't good for each other and I didn't want to continue to be unhappy or to continue making her unhappy, so I said we should break up and thought it was going to be a good thing, as breakups had historically been for me up to that time.
This is where I need to start talking in more vague terms. She freaked out and became furious with me and told me to get out, which I did. Then she came back and called me wondering why I had left. I told her that she had asked me to so I did. Days of angry phone calls from her followed that, and honestly I should have probably just blocked her number but I kinda just figured she was taking it hard and felt rejected, so I would let her vent and eventually the whole situation would cool off. Then I found out that she was telling people things that weren't true about our relationship. If this was high school then it wouldn't really have bugged me that much, but we were both in our late 20s and she was telling my supervisors, other co-workers, friends and family. Most of them didn't believe her but they were understandably frustrated by the fact that she kept doing it. I ended up having to leave my job and get a different one, which sucked because it was something I really thought I had a future in. I have a great job now and I'm very happy with it but the path I'm on now is totally different from what I thought I was going to do, which is fine.
All of this ended up fading eventually, but I lost some friends and I had to have some uncomfortable conversations with my family that has sometimes affected the way they look at and talk to me, and I don't blame them. I hope none of you ever have to have a conversation with your mom where you say "She's lying about the emotional abuse but she isn't lying about what we did sexually. We were both into that." As far as the friends go, I'm kind of glad there are some of them that don't talk to me anymore; I'd never call myself a perfect friend but I do actively try to be a good friend to the best of my ability, and the fact that this is what it took for them to want to throw away 10+ years of friendship tells me that they didn't care about me as much as I cared about them. I'd rather not have friends that are keeping track of every indiscretion, waiting for a moment to end it. That isn't how I do friendship. As far as changing careers go, I feel like I've found my people in the business world and I love what I do. And regarding love, I got married and have a beautiful daughter now.
What I think hurts the most about the fact that it happened is that I've always been a proponent for female empowerment and I've been in environments, be them family, work or friendships and romantic partners, that could probably have been seen as abusive, though they didn't necessarily feel that way to me. They just felt shitty, and because they felt shitty I've never wanted to make anyone else feel that way. It's a shitty thing to have your good nature weaponized against you. I can understand why men who support women would go through what I did and end up being anti-feminist, or misogynist, or just in general not wanting to support women. That isn't what I ended up doing, but I get it. It's like, if supporting someone means getting my hand bit for doing so, then I could justify not supporting that person anymore. I'm just more careful now. I have a little more anxiety (or maybe paranoia) about what I say and how I say it, to the point that I started therapy last year because I developed a stammer, which I've never had before. Now I'm past the stammer and I'm back to talking normally enough, but the guy I was in my youth that was all "fuck other people's opinions" is not as loud as he once was. I liked that guy, and I enjoyed being that guy for 25 years. Today I'm being honest with myself in hopes that putting it out there will help me maybe take the next step past this experience: I do care what people think, but not about things like what they think of my body or my personality or anything like that, rather that I care about being falsely accused of something that I didn't do and having no solid evidence to prove that I didn't do it.
You all reading this have no reason to believe that I'm not an abuser. I guess I'd hope that the fact that I'm here anonymously means that I have no reason to lie, but people still do lie on here just to get attention. So, take this how you wish, but it is the truth, and I do wish it wasn't so stigmatized to talk about the negative effects of false accusations.

Hi everone,
i have a problem wie autotools Json Read. The following json i get from my Netatmo weather station.
JSON: ...{"_id":"05:00:00:00:fb:22","type":"NAModule3","module_name":"Regensensor","last_setup":1417190898,"data_type":["Rain"],"battery_percent":69,"reachable":true,"firmware":14,"last_message":1685708212,"last_seen":1685708206,"rf_status":82,"battery_vp":5312,"dashboard_data":{"time_utc":1685708193,"Rain":0,"sum_rain_1":0,"sum_rain_24":0}},{"_id":"03:00:00:01:e9:5e","type":"NAModule4","module_name":"Schlafzimmer Munzi","last_setup":1434868120,"data_type":...etc.
What fields do I need to specify in AutoTools Json Read to get the rain values? All other values work fine. Many thanks in advance for your effort and best regards Seppi

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Curious on people’s preference on where to stay. I’m planning on weekend of June 30th. I’ve got comps at Horseshoe, Paris, Flamingo, Planet Hollywood, Linq, Harrah’s and MGM Grand. The obvious choice is of course Paris or Horseshoe. Do most people that play stay here? Can imagine how crowded the elevator banks get and taking forever getting to room and extremely long lines for coffee in the morning.
Planet Hollywood seems like a close enough walk, that shouldn’t be an issue (concern is the 110 degree heat). MGM and Paris both have Monorail stations, so could work.
I may be overthinking, but just looking for the best room/property that is not too far away during the sweltering July heat of Vegas.

AOA,
I need quick responses from Allah on guidance and help on as to what to do about a situation. You can check my post history for what I am talking about (that is if I haven't deleted them).
What's the best way to guarantee a clear cut and quick response/sign from Allah about what to do in regards to a certain situation.

Unveiling the SECRET MONEY Making HACK turning Old Flash Games to MONEY PRINTERS
Remember the golden era of online gaming when platforms like Newgrounds captivated players with a plethora of exciting Flash games? Unfortunately, the deprecation of Flash has rendered many of these games unplayable. But what if there was a way to revive these classics and even turn them into a lucrative opportunity? In this article, we will reveal a secret money-making hack that no game developer knew until today. Brace yourself as we delve into the world of resurrecting old Flash games and capitalizing on their nostalgic appeal.
I am a man on a mission of unlocking the infamous "Passive income" a though it has been alluding me for years I think I have found the answer. Sparked by two videos by great game devs I set out even more feverishly to finally succeed. While spending a little more time procrastinating on the development of a card type inventory system for a game I am developing I decided, as most do, to partake in a few YouTube videos all about game development and eventually stumbled upon videos by Jabril who in his video was remaking a legendary DBZ game and HelperWesley who had finally released his rouge like game and amazingly was paid by Newgrounds. NEWGROUNDS??? HELL YEAH. So I got right to work...
Before we dive into the money-making aspect, let's briefly understand the demise of Flash. In 2020, Adobe officially ended support for Flash Player, leaving countless Flash games inaccessible. The shift to newer technologies like HTML5 has rendered the Flash format obsolete. However, this presents a unique opportunity for savvy entrepreneurs who can leverage nostalgia and rekindle the magic of these forgotten gems.
To begin this money-making journey, you could research and identify popular old Flash games that hold nostalgic value for players. Websites like Newgrounds, Kongregate, and Armor Games were teeming with such titles. However Jabril did the work for us deciding on DragonballZ Tournament from Cartoon Network's old collection of flash games. The best part about that video is he somehow managed to not finish the game! Linked Here:[https://youtu.be/JXp7y-JE-e4] So that means there are still not many ways to easily access this classic title. Unless you follow the link at the bottom of the article. Wink wink nudge nudge. No it's not there yet and I'll tell you why as the article progresses.
This article is here not for views but to get you a game up and running on the app store, Google PlayStore and other video game market places as fast as possible so that money can fall into your pockets. In my personal opinion I think that targeting the mobile market is where the bulk of money can be made due to everyone having at least one smarphone.
To maximize the reach and potential revenue of your revived Flash games, it's crucial to optimize them for mobile devices. With the majority of gamers now playing on smartphones and tablets, adapting your games to this platform is a smart move. Consider aspects like touch controls, screen resolutions, and performance optimization for various devices and operating systems. Investing in responsive design and user-friendly interfaces will enhance the gaming experience and attract a larger player base.
When it comes to this game, yes I did literaly just copy and paste the art assets using PicsArt and my Samsung galaxy s23 for editing. From there I imported the pictures to a game engine known as buildbox which is good for prototyping games but due to their high price on the softaware you would have to be certain your game was going to make at least $200 dollars this year to cover the cost. More on circumventing that later. Next is getting the character models which is easy with the hardest part being which models to swipe from the Video game resource sites. 3D models are chosen over 2D because of the ease of animating them using Mixamo or anything similar. For saving time I am only going to program 2 characters while using the silhouettes for other characters "coming soon." Hopefully this kind of advertisements will keep the app on people's phones long enough for me to complete the game. For even more speed I'm using one model as the base model for creating animations and then using the other character's parts to represent those specific characters and provide possible character customization system in future updates. That is of course if I can refrain from being sued.
That part is probably the most important part so let's tackle that as best as we can. First and for most, at least starting off, forget about the money. The longer you aren't making money from your project the more likely you may be able to fly under the radar. Look at the market and see if there are people already using the IP or something similar and see how they may be getting away with this. They may have a licence to use the IP, in this case DBZ, or they may just call it by another name and make the characters look just different enough that you as a viewer couldn't confuse what you've made to be something the official company owning the IP has made. For those who are "getting away" with actually using the IP somehow study just how they are doing it. If, however you have chosen a flash game that is not really owned by anyone officially you need not worry but there may be some flash game creators who have had their work copy righted so it is your responsibilty to investigate further.
Now comes the exciting part—monetizing your Flash games. There are several proven strategies you can employ to generate revenue from your resurrected titles:
a) Advertisements: Implementing targeted advertising within the game or alongside it can generate consistent revenue. Consider partnering with advertising networks like Google AdSense or incorporating rewarded video ads to incentivize players and enhance engagement.
b) In-App Purchases (IAPs):
Introduce optional in-game purchases to enhance the gaming experience. Offer cosmetic upgrades, additional levels, power-ups, or exclusive content that players can purchase to support the game and gain a competitive edge.
c) Sponsorships and Partnerships: Collaborate with relevant brands, influencers, or gaming platforms to sponsor your revived Flash games. Cross-promotion can help attract a larger audience and provide additional revenue streams.
d) Premium Subscriptions: Offer a premium subscription model that provides subscribers with exclusive benefits, such as ad-free gameplay, early access to new releases, or special in-game rewards. This approach can create a recurring revenue stream and foster a loyal community of players.
To ensure the long-term success of your venture, actively engage with the gaming community and leverage social media platforms. Interact with players through forums, gaming communities, and social media channels to gather feedback, address issues, and build a loyal fan base. Regularly update your games with bug fixes, new features, and content expansions to keep players hooked and excited about your offerings.
Lastly release these games to any and every platform you can find. Since the game market is so satuarated these day it is not gaurenteed that your game will be found but if you're very lucky you could be generating money from one game on several platforms. Using the flash games of the past as a template or blueprint also provides for a better approach to learning programming and game development. So it is highly probable that this could be the best business venture for a beginning game developer.
Reviving old Flash games that were once lost to the deprecation of Flash provides a unique opportunity to capitalize on nostalgia and tap into a dedicated player base. By following the steps outlined in this article, you can breathe new life into these classics and turn them into a profitable venture. Embrace the challenge, unleash your creativity, and let the gaming world rediscover the magic of these forgotten treasures.
Now I know that you have now come to the end of the article, and if you have made it this far, I greatly appreciate your views. I had spoken earlier about the high cost of Buildbox's business model when it comes to game development and Buildbox as a game engine overall. In order for one to be able to release games to the Google Play Store or the iOS App Store using Buildbox, it is important that you first pay the $200 a year fee for the software that allows you to distribute your game to platforms like Android Studio, enabling you to place it on Android phones via an APK. However, this cost can be a significant barrier for aspiring indie game developers who may not have the financial means to invest in the software.
Therefore I have two choices. I could make the switch back to Unity3D now or continue to use Buildbox of which I have made the most progress with. I'd much rather continue with Buildbox but I have decided to allow others to help me make that decision by asking for a small contribution to this link [cash.app/$GoodGamerGate].
In a months time i'll be reporting back with the results of the project and this article and if within that time the funds haven't been raised I'll be taking the project to Unity3d. Thanks for reading and let me know what old flash games you would like to play all over again. Maybe we'll make it.

I’m of the opinion that in my ideal society, gender would be not a thing and we’d all just be people but I know that’s unrealistic. Cause traditions and culture are strong forces and the best outcome for me is to embrace it a bit.

I am not entirely sure of this yet. Of me, of the things I'm doing, and unfortunately, of my relationship.
I have been keeping my mouth shut for the past weeks. I let her know that I do, but I wasn't ready to say it yet. But it came out last night. The skies were clear, and the full moon felt like a big green sign to go. Just say it. I chickened out—scared of whatever happens next. It was such a big step. Passenger Seat played in the car, a little celestial joke from the universe. I blurted it out inside a 7/11 a little while later, and she immediately stopped filming us a little selfie. "I love you." I whispered, embarassed the phone would hear. I kissed her shoulder and powerwalked to the next aisle in a panic, both of us reeling from the shock.
I just really felt it, in that moment. Half drenched from the rain and tired and sleepy and waiting for the slurpee machine to finish slurpifying orange blast (or whatever its name was). Even in such mundane acts like picking out snacks make her look divine. Beautiful. Nahulog na nga talaga ako.
It felt good to say it, finally. I've burst, and then deflated. It also felt wrong. Terrifying. Like fanning out concrete I've stepped into. She said she loves me back, all smiles, elated. Ang lakas na nga ng aircon sa 7/11 pero ramdam na ramdam ko pa rin yung init ng mukha ko. So I say "Okay," and look away. I couldn't really say anything else, and the knawing feeling that something was wrong wouldn't go away. I was quiet the rest of the trip home. Confused.
Shouldn't I be over the moon right now?
I am chewed out, swallowed, and spit. Coming from two consecutive horrible abusive relationships, I've finally found someone amazing. And I can't give her what's best of me. I feel jaded, and terrified. Is a relationship really what's best for me right now? Does she deserve what I am capable of giving—which right now isn't a lot. Is this the PTSD? Nagiinarte lang ba ako? Bakit hindi ko kayang maging 100%?
Nakakagalit. It's not fair to her that I'm still held back by things outside of her control. I am not a secure person anymore. In the safety of her arms, I am terror personified. And I still don't know whether it's okay to be here in this relationship, regardless of her staying with me through depressive episodes, bouts of anxiety, insecurities, and how I'm so easily spooked by the entire concept of dating. Why does she love me when she's seeing me firsthand at my worst? What's so good about me right now? What does she see worth staying for? Nagpapaka I-can-fix-her era ba siya?????
Frankly, I'm just scared I'm not good enough for her. Regardless of what she tells me about being the best partner, of being a good person. That I am beautiful, and smart. Those can be just things you say. She's not one to lie, or embellish, but trust is still something I am working on.
Sorry. Sorry pinasok ko to with you kahit alam kong hindi ako ready. Sorry natatakot ako. Sorry kahit sa lahat ng reassurance na binibigay mo, hindi ko pa rin kayang maniwala. Okay na okay ako on the outside, alam ko naman kasing wala naman dapat katakutan. Pero sa loob sumasabog na ako. Umiiyak na ako dito habang nagsusulat kahit wala namang problema. Ang saya saya pa natin kanina bago ako umuwi. Tanga ko, diba?
Dapat lang talaga na isolidify tong semento. Fan out lang ng fan out. That's what we're working towards naman talaga diba? Seryosohan. In it for the long run. I want to be. I'm working it out. I may not be worth it right now, but you are. Hindi porke mas matangkad ka sakin eh pati dito tataasan mo rin ako. I love you. Walang sugat na hindi gumagaling.

I sit down at my desk in the morning. I put my iPhone next to me. I want everything I say to be transcribed. I don't want it to store the voice, just the transcribed text. I don't want to have to provide a keyword to get it to begin transcribing. I just want to be able to turn it on once and leave it on for hours. I don't want it to be always recording, only listening -- it should be prepared to begin recording as soon as it hears voice even when it is locked and the screen is dark. I want to be able to do whatever else I'd like with my phone while this operates in the background.
How can I best do this? If there is a different subreddit that would be suited for this question, please direct me.
There is much more functionality I'd like as far as what is done with the transcription (ultimately I plan for AI tools to take care of all that), but this is where I'd like to start.
Thank you.