I’m a 45m with a fairly decent history of gym attendance with a heavy focus on lifting.
I’m around 245, and using a eVolt scanner, I’m around 195 lean body mass. I’m looking to get down around 210 or so, so it’s not Terribly long journey.
I dropped to around 220 during the pandemic, a result of very little to do in the way of drinking or eating out, and rebounded with work stress causing bad habits. I find I just am not getting traction on losing weights this time around.
I’ve been trying to push closer to a 2lb a week deficit in calories (so roughly 2500 calories/day, 1.2g protein per pound). Mostly work from home, with a strength routine at a gym consisting of isolating routines (chest/shoulders, back, legs twice a week, then auxiliary movements or more shoulder work), basically a P/P/L split spread over 5-6 days a week.
I just feel like I can’t get more than a week into a serious push without mentally stalling, feeling like I see no changes, the scale fluctuates but stays relatively the same. Leads to mental fatigue and cheat meals/drinks.
Is it the age? Should I be backing off strictly to 2-3 sessions a week? Am I eating too low a calorie count?
Just feeling a little lost. Love the gym, would like to lean out after years of hard work and building a lot of strength.

Greetings! This chapter sets the stage, does a bit of worldbuilding, and expands on our absolute cinnamon roll of an alien deuteragonist.
Anyway, as always, I hope you enjoy. :)

CHAPTER 2

15 minutes ago
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Y’ggdrasog nervously whistled to himself as he remotely piloted an unmanned stealth drone from his cloaked ship in the upper atmosphere of the alien planet, yet every so often did a happy little wiggle in his seat at the terminal. Despite the danger in what he was doing, he was shaking with excitement and literally glowing with glee (which, if you were curious, happened to be a lovely shade of banana-yellow).
But my apologies, dear reader; I’m getting ahead of myself.
You see, Y’ggdrasog worked as a galactic interplanetary system scout, colloquially known as a “spacer” among the citizens of the Ul’dril Galactic Collective (a governmental alliance between a wide variety of different sapient species that also happened to be his employer). His main function was piloting his personal scout ship to uncharted star systems to summarily un-unchart them.
While in this line of employment, he had been witness to countless wondrous things. He had seen stars go supernova, witnessed space dust forming beautiful nebulas tens of lightyears wide, and caught the frosted trails of comets slinging close enough to a star to off-gas their icy payloads. But nothing even came close to this, to every spacer’s wildest, most fantastical dream discovery:
LIFE! And not just any life, SAPIENT LIFE!
As the drone flew through the sky, descending towards the surface of the planet below, he reminisced on that fateful day approximately six planetary months ago…
He had been scouting the ice and gas giants in this yet-uncharted solar system, scanning their composition with the unmanned probe-drone he used to sample geological deposits, take gas samples and so on to determine if they could be possible new sources of rare elements to harvest for the Collective. He had just finished probing the seventh planet out from the star when he suddenly picked up multiple abnormal readings originating from the ocean-planet of the system. He sighed, figuring it would just be the usual; some leftovers from a solar flare that affected its magnetosphere or some such.
As he listened in through his radiation wavelength analyzer, he expected to hear the meaningless, purposeless static he had heard hundreds of times before. Instead, he heard strange patterns. Hang on, was that… were those- They were! Voices, in a language he didn’t recognize.
He recorded a sample, then pulled up his auto-translator and had his ship’s analytical programs study it, in case it was a distress call from some poor sap who had crash-landed their spacecraft. …But not a single known language was a match.
He scratched his head, puzzled. Could it be a code of some sort? It wasn’t uncommon for smugglers, pirates, spies, and other “off-the-books” types to hole up on uncharted worlds and use coded verbage to prevent detection by Collective authorities. He had the ship analyze it to at least determine what Collective species the vocal cords that produced them were, but again, no matches, not even when he had it scan the audio samples for possible voice-altering.
He sat back in his pilot seat, stumped. Then, he started connecting the dots.
If the vocal cords producing these noises weren’t recognized as a species already included in the Collective, that meant these were the voices of a species unknown to the Collective. An unknown species, but one that was was nonetheless smart enough to use radio waves…
His eyes flew open, and his bioluminescence began to glow the pure white of sudden realization.
…BY THE SPIRITS, IT WAS A NEW SAPIENT SPECIES!
He leapt up from his chair, and would have nearly deafened anyone nearby with the joyfully excited noises he started to make.
…Luckily, however, he was in space. And after all, in space, no one can hear you squee.
It took him nearly an hour to calm down enough to call it in over his quantum communicator and provide the audio samples he had recorded, then another hour to reassure his liaison on the other end countless times that no, this was not a joke, this was not a lie, an elaborate prank or some such- yes, he would be more than willing to testify to the truth of his statements in a Collective court, and yes, this was in fact the once-in-multiple-millennia moment he and most every spacer in the entirety of the Collective always dreamed of:
THIS WAS A NEW FIRST CONTACT!!!
…As Y’ggdrasog left Memory Lane and turned back onto Present Day Boulevard, he let the controls go for a second and proceeded to spin around in his chair in sheer excitement whilst giggling like a madman, literally glowing with giddiness, before swiftly grabbing the control stick again before the drone drifted off course.
HE found a new sapient species! HE did! He’d be in the Collective history archives for the rest of time!
…Months of preparations had to be done beforehand, of course. He had to wait a few long, loooong days on the outskirts of the solar system with his ship in full stealth-mode (so as to avoid attracting attention from the new species until the time was right) before a truly staggering amount of Collective ships arrived, chock-full of top experts in all sorts of social and scientific fields to fill any conceivable role in the analysis of this new species.
While he wasn’t allowed to participate in the work himself or see most of what they were doing, he was nonetheless ecstatic with the knowledge that the work was being done all because of him. Plus, at least he could attend certain intelligence briefings on their main findings as well as look at heavily-redacted versions of some of the results of their endeavors.
Various scientists from the myriad Collective species and dozens more scientific disciplines had gathered together, set up shop within a day and gotten to work. They performed long-distance surface scans, mapped the planetary geography, and analyzed their atmosphere and planetary conditions to determine what Collective species might be compatible for potentially cohabitating with them.
Y’ggdrasog was delighted to learn that they utilized oxygen for respiration just as his species (lumigog) and tens of others in the Collective did, in contrast to Collective species who had to have, say, an atmosphere mostly composed of carbon dioxide, who were out of luck.
Additionally, they drank the same liquid water for fluid regulation in their bodies as his own people did. …Though admittedly, at a much narrower spectrum of salinity than his own species was capable of tolerating. He found that a bit tragic; there was so much water to be found in their homeworld’s oceans. Yet unlike his own people, who could drink from nearly any water on their homeworld, these “humans” could only drink what they called “freshwater.”
However, any sadness he felt about their situation faded when he learned that the gravity of their homeworld was only 1.04x that of his own species’ homeworld; this meant that at least in the case of lumigogs, the answer of cohabitation was a very solid “yes!”
Moving along, the scientists in charge of engineering and military endeavors surreptitiously analyzed the humans’ levels of technology to determine their capabilities, if they were a potential threat to the Collective, and so on; they were deemed, to quote the spokesman of the Collective military, “mostly harmless.”
Y’ggdrasog thought this might be a bit unfair. …That is, until he read the reports, and found yet another reason to pity them. From what little he was able to read of the heavily-redacted documents, the humans were very, VERY primitive. Spirits, they hadn’t even developed fusion yet!
…Still, that was all the more reason to help them; and to do so, they needed a proper line of communication. Countless diplomats, ambassadors, emissaries and representatives of every Collective race were attending seminars on all the sociological experts were learning about the species’ social norms across distinct cultures. And most importantly, the linguistic experts and etymologists got the ball rolling for the true-AI algorithms of the larger vessels (far more complex than his own ship’s operating systems, which only measured in at a few paltry yottabytes) to sort out the languages these “humans” used.
…Speaking of, just how many languages did they need?! With each additional language that was added to the auto-translator databases, he thought surely this one will be the last, but no! You couldn’t swing around a “noodle” of “spaghetti” (the humans always seemed to choose such silly names for their food) without hitting someone speaking a new language!
But all the pity, sadness and frustration he felt was outweighed by the jubilation he felt knowing that all these countless man-hours of hundreds of individuals per each and every Collective species were happening because of him. All these people were here because HE found them, and he was ecstatic at the impossibly exciting prospect of welcoming this new species into the Collective- or on the off chance they didn’t wish to join them, it was determined that it was safe to at least uplift them technologically so that they could be potential new allies, as well as potentially provide new avenues for trade and commerce of never-before-seen exotic goods. After all, there was hardly any risk in doing so, as they were quite literally outnumbered by over a million to one by the allied races of the Collective.
…And after all that, when they had quadruple-checked everything, then quadruple-checked it again to be absolutely sure, the day of first contact FINALLY came. Everyone brought out the celebratory drinks, snacks and party favors. The diplomats sent out their messages in hundreds of human languages declaring a desire for peaceful contact, promises to assist them in the technological uplifting of their species to a post-scarcity way of life and an offer to join the Collective for the benefit of all parties involved, and THEN…
…
……
…Nothing.
No response…
After a few nervous, awkward hours of sitting alongside the other low-ranking crewmates of the larger vessels, he and all those around him got orders of radio silence from high command and for all the “non-essential” personnel to return to their ships and wait for further orders.
As he remembered the sinking feeling he’d experienced at that moment, Y’ggdrasog unconsciously gripped the drone control stick much tighter than necessary.
…All that waiting, the agonizing waiting for them to greet this new species, the one HE found, and for what?
More. Thrice. Damned. WAITING.
…But this time, there wasn’t even a payoff to look forward to, and no one above would tell him what was going on. He didn’t know why there was suddenly so much smoke in the air of the planet, nor what all those bright flashes lighting up the atmosphere midway through the first day were- and there were certainly no answers coming from high command.
He had to sit there in his spacecraft, and just… wait.
One planetary day passed. Then another. Then another, and so on.
In the downtime, he read and reread the guidelines for first contact back to back over and over again, trying to find out what the possible reason for the wait could be. …Unfortunately, all that availed him was eye strain and an extreme amount of boredom from trudging through all the legalese.
After a week of sitting around, watching the planet slowly spin beneath him while in orbit, he couldn’t stand it any longer. He needed to know what was wrong. He NEEDED to act- if only to silence the creeping dread that had slowly but surely permeated his entire being. A dread born of the worry that something had gone horribly, catastrophically wrong…
And thus, an idea formed: His drone.
He knew the humans’ tech levels; there was a smaller chance they could detect him than the literally astronomically low odds of him finding this species to begin with. …Instead, he was far more worried about the potential ramifications if anyone from high command knew what he was up to.
Long before the radio silence commenced, he was told in no uncertain terms that no, he couldn’t scan the planet, no, he couldn’t act as an ambassador, YES, they really meant it, and NO, it didn’t matter that “he really really REALLY wanted to help somehow, please please pleasepleasePLEASE-” …and after that last bit, they shut down his outgoing comms to high command for a full planetary month.
^…Jerks.
Er- more importantly, he was told that while no, he couldn’t help in the preparation process, after first contact commenced his main function would be to do what he did best. Scouting and scanning to tease out any additional information he could on the planet’s natural resources in order to assist with the technological uplift process.
The thing is, they had given no specific time frame- …just “after first contact commenced.”
Technically, the current time frame satisfied that condition.
So technically, he wasn’t doing anything he wasn’t supposed to, he was just- ^…uh… …t-taking initiative!
They couldn’t court-martial him for just doing a little scanning here and there to get ahead of his own workload, surely.
…And it would just be an entirely coincidental, happy accident if while doing this he managed to find out what in the name of the spirits above was happening.
And so he had slowly, carefully moved his ship in such a way that he was currently orbiting in what he hoped was the blind spot of most of the ships of any higher-ups.
…Purely so as to, uh- better position his drone’s entry point into the atmosphere, yes! Rest assured, he was only motivated by- um… a-avoiding negative weather patterns. ^{…Or something like that.}
Once in position, he released and directed it towards the planetary surface.
If lumigogs had sweat glands, his would have been in nervous overdrive as the drone descended through the atmosphere.
Would he be detected? Would this all be for naught?
He waited, glancing between the ships around him and the drone’s interface on his monitor, but from his readings on the other vessels it seemed like all the command ships’ sensors were focused on the bigger population centers of the planet. He let out the breath he didn’t realize he was holding. He was safe- if only for now.
…He’d have to focus on a rural area. Despite every loophole and excuse he could come up with, he’d still be much better off remaining undetected and not interfering in whatever might be going on in more concentrated pockets of the species. It would likely take much longer to gather information this way than heading towards the larger population centers in search of clues, but he could still poke around on the sly for any information he could tease out from the surroundings.
…And hopefully then he could finally get the answers he so desperately craved.
<“Alter descent velocity. Slow to 50% speed and activate autopilot mode.”>
Y’ggdrasog looked at the aerial scans, deciding that what seemed to be an area focused on harvesting crops with a long road running alongside it dotted with the occasional primitive ground vehicle would be as good a place to start as any.
He highlighted the road with a flick of a clawed finger.
<”Descend to 100 meters above planet surface, then follow highlighted path at 20% speed. Proceed.”>
As the drone dutifully obeyed his commands and traveled along the stretch of paved road for a time, he was surprised at the lack of humans to be found despite the vehicles present. Each and every one had seemingly been abandoned; they all sat still, unmoving. His curiosity piqued, he highlighted a few of them in the control interface.
<“Halt forward momentum. Descend to 50 meters from planetary surface. Scan and analyze condition of marked targets.”>
As he finished his verbal command, the familiar synthesized voice of his drone’s onboard computer blared to life from the speakers of his terminal.

He shook his head, puzzled.
<“What happened here…? …Alright, ascend, 300 meters from planetary surface. Continue forward movement following the highlighted path, 15% speed.”>
Farther and farther the road stretched, but he didn’t see a single human upon it, nor in the surrounding area. He sighed and absent-mindedly gazed around at the surrounding environment. He couldn’t help but marvel at how- well, alien it all looked. The taller plant life he saw appeared to be quite complex, their stems covered in thick fiber and their extremities full of- oh, what was the word, “leaves?
…He hadn’t paid all that much attention during the portions of his schooling that covered exotic alien plant life found on feral worlds and the various homeworlds of the other races of the Collective. He figured he’d never really need to interact with much beyond the giant fungal pods, great lichen growths and so on of his homeworld. He was a spacer for spirits’ sake, not a xenobotanist, and-
…Wait, what was that?
<“Halt forward momentum. Reverse 50 meters. Pan visual sensors left, 30 degrees.”>
He squinted at the incoming visual feed. He was right, there was something laying in that ditch! Probably just a random piece of detritus, but better safe than sorry. He highlighted it.
<”Scan target. Assess.”>

<”...Descend toward target, 5% speed.. 2%... halt.”>
His eyes narrowed further as he zoomed the forward visual lens in. Whatever it was, it looked to be a biped, and-
…Wait a minute, he recognized that body structure! Spirits be praised, this had to be one of the members of the new species!
It- they, he corrected himself- had pale skin, long, dark brown fur atop their head, and were wearing clothing covering their torso and legs- though much of it was stained red, running all down the left side of their body.
What were they doing all the way out here in the middle of nowhere? And why were they laying in a ditch, unmoving? …Were they ok?
<”Scan target, and establish connection to ship auto-doc subsystem. Assess physical condition and cross-reference with known anatomical data of species designation: human.”>

Y’ggdrasog nervously swallowed, trying to center himself and focus despite what he had just heard. Well, that certainly answered that; no, she very much was NOT ok. Whatever had happened to her, it really messed her up.
<”Analyze if damage sustained is life-threatening without intervention given circumstances and location.”>

He swore under his breath.
<”...Expand and clarify analysis.”>

<”C-certainty of analysis conclusion…?”>

He put his head in his hands, his bioluminescence flickering between several colors- none of them good. Spirits above... She was going to die unless someone helped her!
…
…But he was in no position to do so…
He knew deep down that he was deluding himself if he thought he could get away with this if he was caught. No amount of loophole abuse and“legitimate” excuses could save him from severe negative repercussions, not when it came to something as serious as first contact.

He was already risking enough as it was…

Maybe he could let someone in one of the other ships know- no, that would give away that he’d been poking around on the sly…

Maybe- maybe someone else would find her in time, and they could save her? Or maybe, despite the odds, she might just get better on her own? Even if it took her past the 1.3 cycle mark to do so, there was still a- his brow furrowed as he did the math- 0.0000028% chance that she could survive, and a chance was a chance! …Right…?

No one would know if he didn’t intervene. It would be so easy- no chance of getting caught, no risk, no danger, just pull the drone-prone back to the ship, return to his original position, scrub the flight logs, and-

…
……
…No.
No, she’s not.
He opened his eyes and spoke, voice full of grim certainty.
<”Descend to two meters above highlighted subject. Very, VERY carefully use stasis field to attach to subject, entangle her matter with an equivalent mass of carbon from the fabricator hold, then return to quantum anchor point with cargo and safely lower the subject prone beside the drone chassis. Proceed.”>

He got up from the terminal and took off for the drone bay as fast as his taloned feet could carry him, one thought repeating itself over and over in his head as he went, a mantra of sorts:

I'm Autistic. My husband Jareth is disabled. Life has not been paradise, due to his disability, plus brain damage from it makes him TA often. For the most part we're happy. He's never cheated but in the back of my mind he's never had opportunity to do so. Previously, a problem with Jareth was he used to ignore all my calls and texts & it was annoying, he's always home. He'd answer everyone else's texts/calls but he'd ignore mine. I confronted him about it, & he worked on that. My looks are not what they were when Jareth & I got together. I've aged &very insecure about it. Jareth tells me all the time how beautiful I am. My friend, "Martha," totaled her car last week & started calling me for rides or to pick things up for her. She pays gas money, of course. Martha's my age, looks similar to me, but I consider her beautiful. Martha & I had been busy with life, so she didn't meet Jareth until three days ago. Martha told me he's hot. Well, one of her two roommates "Rag," started drama with her and was on something. The other roommate, "Drew" asked me if Jareth could stay the night over there, to simply make sure Rag doesn't jump Martha again. Also, Drew can't fight. Before he became disabled, Jareth was in the military & can fight really well. He still can. Rag is afraid of Jareth. He suddenly behaves when Jareth is present. Martha was bruised really badly on 60% of her body where Rag intentionally hit her where she had been injured in the carwreck. I dropped Jareth off at Martha's, made sure Martha knew the details of his condition/what to do in an emergency. I was curious about Jareth's sincerity in his vows. So, Jareth calls me & I jokingly ask if he did anything with Martha. He openly said that he rubbed her back. This pissed me off I didn't lose my cool. Last week, I asked him to rub my back because I have pain issues & he complained he didn't want to, etc.I didn't get a backrub when I needed it but he rubbed hers..it rubbed me the wrong way-Pun intended! When Martha heard me throw that in Jareth's face, she started joking around about it. I have texted Jareth a few times since he's been over there. Nothing harassing, just cute stuff the kids did & some reels that would make him laugh. He has ignored all my texts after I spoke to him and was told about the backrub. I confided in other friends about this. They say I'm in the wrong. I'm getting told now by others I have confided in that I "set him up," that I'm overreacting because I didn't set boundaries and she's injured. I'm indifferent towards Martha. I've been cheated on before by exes & it's futile to get mad at the female. Happy men can't be stolen. Period. Martha doesn't owe me loyalty. She didn't make vows to me. I don't have all information, yet but I'm not chasing something that wants to be gone. But AITA for using my friend's situation to test my husband? Is Jareth TA for rubbing an injured female's back when he recently refused my request?

As I'm about to turn 30, I've been reflecting on the past few years of balancing work and grad studies. In doing so, I realized that my physical appearance has not always taken precedence, although I have not entirely neglected it either.
Over the last two years though, I've been incorporating a lot of good self-care habits (many of which are mentioned below), and I'm proud of the progress I've made.
That said, I want to start investing more time and effort into my appearance because I've noticed how much it boosts my confidence and makes me feel put together!
I'm a huge fan of aesthetics in all aspects of life, whether it's art, home decor, or personal style, so putting effort into my appearance feels like a natural extension of that passion. :)
Anyway, I decided to use ChatGPT to create a comprehensive glow-up plan and thought I'd share it for inspiration. I absolutely love seeing what others do and learning from their experiences, so if you have any recommendations or plans of your own, please feel free to share them!
Here's my plan:
Daily habits:
Eat cleaner
SPF & skincare
Meditate every morning
IF Daily from 8 pm to 12 am
Never stay up past midnight
Use mouth taping every night
Oil lashes & brows every night
Journal & list three things I'm grateful for
Bi-daily habits:
Use tret
Drink matcha
Drink bone broth
Practice yoga & exercise
Weekly habits:
Oil hair
Face mask
Use clay mask
Oil face massage
Exfoliate skin & moisturize body
Fortnightly habits:
Therapy
In-home massage
Swimming & sauna
Monthly habits:
Microneedling
Laser hair removal
Scheduled events:
Go for a blood test
Go dermatologist for a consult
Go for a trim, blowout, and facial
Go shopping for nice wardrobe pieces
Get professional teeth cleaning & whitening treatment
PS: I'm not sure how many of these I'll be able to commit to long-term, but having a plan def helps me form good habits!

Sorry for the long post. I'm currently sitting in the bathroom trying to cry silently because my partner is in the other room. I (22F) am the HL partner and my partner (27M) is the LL. We've been together what will be 3 years in May. Our relationship is amazing and he's everything I've ever wanted. I genuinely believe he is my soulmate.
When we first started dating, we would be having sex 2-3 times a day- we couldn't keep our hands off each other. As the years progressed, our sex life evolved to maybe 2-4 times a week, but still adventurous, exciting, fantastic. We'd have sneaky quickies mixed with hour long sessions, still discovering each other and finding out what each other liked.
Lately though, maybe the last few months or so, that's changed. He's always been the LL, and his libido would be affected by things like weight gain, back pain, being tired from work, eating too much, etc. I was always understanding (for context, one of his exes would constantly push him for sex, getting mad if he wasn't in the mood, and she eventually dumped him for not having enough sex with her. I'm trying my hardest to not be like that at all). But lately it seems like he's never in the mood. The last three times we had sex he bent me over and finished in less than two minutes, without any regard for my pleasure.
He would never be in the mood whenever I initiated, so for basically our whole relationship he initiated whenever he was in the mood, and I've been so desperate that I just drop everything for it. He also jokes a lot about it, like "come here, I'll make you late for uni" and then never follows through so I'm never sure if he's joking or not. He's gotten upset a few times because I've laughed it off thinking it was a joke when he was actually initiating.
My sexual background I guess you could call it: - I am not at a healthy weight and my body confidence is below zero, so initiating is something way out of my comfort zone while being rejected feels like a soul crushing blow - I was sexually assaulted before I met my partner and a lot of issues come from that like equating sex with love and worthiness - For me, sex is the equivalent of quality time together and a way to be close to my partner - I would gladly have sex twice a day, every day, but would honestly take once a week if it was truly fulfilling
Today, he was out. I got up the courage to initiate over text and tell him I wanted to have sex when he came home. He seemed into it and excited. I shaved everywhere, put makeup on, did my hair, and put on lingerie (again, my body confidence is below zero so this was a big deal to me). He came home and was tired, so I pampered him a little, took his boots off, got him a drink, offered him his PS5 controller so he could unwind. He was aware I wanted to have sex, but I also reminded him that I wasn't pressuring him and we didn't have to. He said "I know" and "you're hot" and grabbed my ass. I went into the bedroom while he played, lit candles, got some toys out, and put some music on, then waited. And waited.
I eventually went back out to give him a kiss and kind of remind him I was there and saw that he was tired. He apologised, which meant it wasn't happening. I said that was fine, and it was, I don't want to pressure him, but then I had to blow out the candles and take my lingerie off, and I bawled my eyes out. I feel like shit. Am I not attractive to him anymore? Does he really not want to have sex with me?
I guess I'm just venting, thank you if you've read this far and sorry for the mobile formatting. I just feel like shit, rejected in lingerie.

I'm putting this here because some people may not have access to where I posted last night.
Some of you may know that my wife Kim has not been in good health for quite a while. I don't know that I've ever told anyone on here the full extent. So buckle up. This is going to be a long and bumpy ride.
She has been diagnosed with COPD, congestive heart failure, kidney disease, morbid obesity, diabetes, degenerative joint disease in her hips and knees, and neuropathy (nerve damage) in her feet and ankles. Two of the medications she takes for pain cause constipation. Not only that, but she has dealt with claustrophobia, anxiety and depression for years, and more recently agoraphobia.
Anytime some little sniffle entered the house, she would end up in the hospital with bronchitis and pneumonia. February 2020 was no different...until COVID. They discharged her earlier than they wanted to because they had four or five positive cases on the floor where she was and they didn't want to take the chance on someone like her catching it. At the time we thought it was a great idea, or at least the lesser of two evils.
But when someone with severe anxiety and depression gets word of a global medical pandemic, their mind starts working overtime. We were one of the households that started panic buying things like toilet paper and canned goods and cleaning supplies and hand sanitizer. We had to wipe everything down before it came into the house. We had to leave mail and packages outside for 24 hours before we brought it in.
And she never left our bedroom. She freaked out every time one of us left the house. We had to change clothes as soon as we came in and leave whatever we were wearing outside for 24 hours. And it's not like we have a little mudroom or anything like that. Front door, front room...side door, kitchen...back door, family room.
When you lay in bed for months and months on end, you lose function of your body. You lose strength. You lose the ability to do things most of us take for granted, such as get up and go to the bathroom. Eventually she developed something they call foot drop. Instead of your ankles forming a normal L shape, they look more like hockey sticks (or feet in high heels). And when you do get up and put weight on your heels, you fall backwards.
And that is exactly what happened to her couple months ago. If I hadn't been standing right behind her, trying desperately to hold her up, she would've smashed her back into the bed frame and done some serious damage to her already compromised body.
Kim has been in this hospital for seventy days. She's been in five different rooms on four separate floors, including a week in the intensive care unit. She has almost died three times, through no fault of the hospital. Once was due to her poor breathing and her highly diminished blood oxygen level. She was given three options: use a BiPAP machine, get a tracheostomy, or go to hospice.
I ended up bringing her BiPAP machine from home and she has used it maybe half the time. You can't put a full face mask on someone who suffers from claustrophobia. You also can't rely on a BiPAP machine to breathe for you. Then it becomes more like a ventilator and, since she has filled out "do not resuscitate" paperwork, a ventilator is out of the question.
She and I have talked on multiple occasions about what her future will be like. I have asked her point-blank a number of times whether or not she wants to live. Some days she said yes, some days she said no. I've always held out hope that there would be more "yes" days.
We had a family meeting today with the doctor, the physician assistant, the charge nurse, the case manager, and reps from physical therapy, occupational therapy, respiratory and cardiology. They explained her situation in great detail. They talked about why she has consistently been denied when it comes to rehabilitation centers. Some places don't accept my insurance, some places don't have bariatric beds available, and some places don't think she's made enough effort.
In the past seventy days, physical therapy has attempted to work with her eleven times. She has refused on six occasions. The first four times she excepted, it was simply a matter of sitting up on the edge of the bed. It was no effort to have her stand, because they were concerned that she would fall. But last Thursday, they lifted her up on what's called a Hoyer sling, sat her down in the chair, and helped her stand up twice. It was maybe a total of a minute, but it was more than she had done in 4 1/2 months.
We thought it was a turning point. We thought maybe she was actually going to do this. Then the next day she had another episode with her oxygen levels and apparently at that point decided that she was done.
So, after this meeting, after discussing the entire situation with me and with her daughters, my wife has decided on hospice care at home. It's definitely not what I wanted. But I told her that it was her decision and I would support her, no matter what.
She kept asking me what I want. I finally told her that I want her to be comfortable with whatever decision she makes. I can't and I won't make the decision for her. And I won't try to convince her to change her mind, no matter what I want.
She's 58. We've been together for almost 20 years and married for just over 6. She has three children, 40, 33, and 27. We have three grandchildren, 9, 4, and 2. But she's been suffering from physical and emotional pain for so long that none of that seems worth it to her. I can't say I understand. But it's her decision.
If you're still reading this, I'm grateful. There's a lot of pain and frustration in those words. I don't know if you believe in any sort of divine being or not. Personally, I no longer do...but that's a completely different post. And I would really appreciate any positive vibes, good juju, prayers, etc. that you can spare. I know that a dear friend of mine is struggling right now due to her father's health. And I know that people often say "I'll keep _____ in my thoughts and prayers." And right now, Kim and I could use all the help we can get.
Thank you JJ

I used to be a pretty heavy guy — 5 11, 250lbs ish give or take — and I lost about 80lbs and am at 175 ish. I’ve also gotten a tummy tuck to rid of the loose belly skin. Objectively i’m NOT fat and I KNOW that like statistically I’m pretty average, maybe a little chubby.
But i feel SO fat still. I’m constantly hiding my tummy with a cushion when sitting down, don’t buy size that fits me fits me bc I don’t like getting looks in case I look gigantic, and no one seems to like me bc of body. Might I add I’m asian and ppl expect me to be “petite” and all that.
It’s all in my head, but how do i actually make these intrusive, unhealthy thoughts go away? Keep working out and stress myself out if I’m not seeing results? What are some ways y’all pursued?

Fire. So much fire.
Where am I? Hell?
It certainly looks like hell. Feel like it too. The flames are licking my bare skin, but it is soothing somehow. Like a puppy licking my face.
It swirls around me, then opens up into a pair of wings flapping in a dull rhythm. I look majestic. Like a phoenix rising from the flame.
My subjects stand before me. They chant my name and address me as their empress. Their queen. The only one destined to lead them.
And one by one they bow.
I feel honoured. I feel power. I feel a smile form on my lips.
I must speak. To thank them for their kind and loyal support. But when I open my mouth I don’t talk—I click and I clack and I chitter.
The crowd goes wild. They are jumping on each other and craning their neck to see me. I stumble backwards, eyes wide and my heart pounding in my throat. Turning around to face a mirror behind me, I let out a shrill scream.
My features are melting like candle-wax. I can’t even recognise myself anymore.
I…
…
“…”
“Skye.”
“SKYE!”
I snapped back to it to find my boyfriend, Alfie, staring at me. His face was pale, like he had just seen a ghost. He held up a blood-splattered tissue.
“Your nose is bleeding. Are you okay?”
“Yeah. I just had another…”
I trailed off, staring at the sky. I never knew what to call them. Nightmare? Hallucination? Seizure? I had them since I was a child and still I couldn’t put a name to the episodes.
Alfie wrapped an arm around me and pulled me close. He smelled like the old teddy bear I had when I was a child and it put my mind at ease. I snuggled up beside him.
“We can go home if you want,” he offered. “You really look like you saw a ghost.”
That was the best thing about Alfie. We’d grown up together–next-door neighbours–and we had so much in common we were practically in sync. We both grew up without a mother—his parents divorced when he was little and mine, well— I don’t know what happened to my mother. My father forbade me from talking about her.
He always slapped me in the face when I tried.
But Alfie, he was my cliff. And I was the waves crashing against it. We were inseparable in this rough and tough neighborhood where being raised by a single parent was a sin. We might not have siblings, but we had each other. Honestly, that’s all that really mattered.
“I’ll walk you home.”
“I’m fine, Alfie. Really.”
Alfie shook his head. “Skye, you look sick. I insist.”
I couldn’t help but laugh. Good old Alfie. Stubborn as a lovely mule. “Fine, you big doofus.”
We walked home in silence. I didn’t want to talk about what I saw this time and Alfie knew better than to push it. Neither my dad nor my stepmom was home as usual so Alfie escorted me into bed and tucked me into it. Like I was 5 years old again.
“Thanks.”
He cracked a slight smile. “Don’t mention it.”
He sat on a chair nearby and withdrew into the shadows. It was comforting having him there watching me sleep, like a father taking watch for his family during a cold, winter night. Alfie came over and held my hand. It felt as warm as fire.
“I’ll be here whenever you need me.”
“Always.”
“You okay, Skye?”
I cracked my eyes open, hissing from the strong stream of bright sunlight. Alfie was gone, replaced by my stepmother, Emily. She sat next to me on my bed, her palm over my forehead.
“Alfie told me you’re sick. Do you need anything?”
“Not really.” My voice sounded like it had aged fifty years.
“I got some water. And Alfie, he got something for you. Said he hoped it would make you happy.”
I blinked back tears, nearly choking on my water. I felt better already.
“Chocolate,” Emily continued. She sniffed it. “Fresh. Handcrafted. What is this? Valentines’ Day?”
“Or did you two steal my credit card to buy expensive chocolate?”
“Stop!” I grinned, taking one. It melted like butter in my mouth and cascaded down my throat.
“Mm! Thanks!”
“Don’t thank me,” Emily said. “Thank him. He’s been calling all morning. Asking how you’re doing.”
“Told him you were asleep but he won’t take no for an answer. Wanted to see you himself. To check up on you.”
I got up and stretched. Suddenly, I didn’t feel so tired anymore. “I ought to go now.”
“Do you want me to come with you?”
“No, it’s okay.”
Alfie wasn’t home. The doorbell echoed thinly in the morning air. Something flickered in the upstairs window, and I caught sight of a pair of eyes. Alfie maybe?
Click
The door swung open. Alfie’s father stared grimly down at me, clawing his graying hair.
“Alfie’s upstairs,” he muttered before I could speak.
“He said he is preparing to see you.”
Preparing?
“Thanks Mr Owens.”
I wasn’t sure what I was expecting. The house was thrown into complete disarray. Their possessions were scattered in every corner and covered by a film of dust. If I didn’t know better, I would’ve thought Alfie and his dad left in a rush and never came back.
The stairs creaked with every step.
“Alfie?”
No answer. The stairs sank under my weight and I nearly fell. I could hear flies buzzing in the distance.
“Alfie? It’s Skye!”
Creak
“Alfie?”
I trooped up the last step, hardly daring to breathe.
Thud. Thud. Creak.
The early morning light bathed Alfie’s room in gold, yet he was cloaked in shadow. Alfie sat hunched at the side of his bed, facing the window. He was only wearing a pair of shorts and he was scratching his left arm.
“Alfie…”
“Are you okay Skye?”
His words cut through the confusion and knocked me cold.
“Kind of? Why are you so itchy? Mosquitoes?”
“Come and see.”
I slid on the bed next to him and looked at his arm. A scarab with bulging eyes was carved deep into his flesh. The wound was old and the blood dry, but it was carved in exquisite detail like he paid a professional tattoo artist to do it for him.
I stared at it for a moment, and I swore something clicked in my brain. Like this scarab was a part of me, somehow. But I gritted my teeth and shook it off.
“Alfie?” I frowned. “Are you okay?”
He stared at me, his eyes bulging as big as the bug on his arm.
“Don’t you get it? It’s a sign, Skye! We are meant to be together!”
“Uh…”
Goosebumps crept up my skin and my spine tingled. Alfie was still grinning at me. But it felt unnatural, somewhat, like he was forcing it on his face.
“Do you like it, Skye? I did it for you!”
I was struggling to breathe. “Maybe?”
The morning heat shimmered between us like a protective shield. Alfie was still smiling at me.
“I’ve got to go…”
“Wait!” he cried. “Don’t you want to hear about how you…”
He shrieked his explanation to the empty room as I scrambled down the stairs and out of his house. Even on the way home I could still hear him.
“Something wrong?”
“Maybe.” I picked at my food. It was fish and chips—one of my favourite foods. Emily frequently picked them up when she was out of town and on normal days they tasted like heaven.
But not today. Today it tasted like sandpaper. All day I was thinking of Alfie and my stomach was twisted to knots.
“It’s about Alfie, isn’t it?”
Emily read me like a book as usual. It was often annoying but right now I never felt more grateful.
“Maybe…”
“Look, Skye, he’ll get over it soon. He’s just thinking about how to sort out his feelings for you.”
“Maybe…”
“Don’t worry about it. It will pass sooner or later. In fact tomorrow he might propose to you with a huge diamond ring…”
“Emily!”
“What? I’m saying that is possible!”
Creak.
“What was that?”
Emily exchanged nervous glances with my dad, who had been quiet all evening. “I don’t know.”
I stood up. “I’ll go look.”
“SKYEEEEE!”
My hair stood on end at the edge of my skin. “Alfie?”
“SKYEEEE! I LOVE YOU!”
“Alfie…” I croaked. I wanted to run but something was pinning me there.
“I LOVE YOU SKYE!”
I dared peek out the window. There was Alfie. Motionless. Waiting.
The moon shone deep on him, slowly peeling off strips of colour on his face. He stood, eyes as wide as copper coins. Yelling my name over and over. Yet it didn’t sound like a boy; it sounded like a grizzly, tired old man fighting to get a frog out of his throat.
“Alfie? What is going on?”
Silence. He was still screaming my name. Loud as the crickets.
“He’ll get over it,” Emily repeated uncomfortably, staring at the screaming boy. “Come on Skye. I’m sure it will be fine tomorrow.”
But it wasn’t fine. At first he stood a few meters away, and then with each passing day he got nearer and nearer. Once I peered down to see him so close to the wall his nose was touching it. Then he looked up, his lips puckered to the bricks like an octopus, his eyes stretching to the back of his head until you could see a morbid web of veins, and then, he grinned.
I kept on asking him about it, asking him if he was feeling okay and if he needed anything. And every time I brought up the subject, I had more questions than answers.
For he wouldn’t answer me properly. He avoided my eyes and dodged each question like James Bond. Directing answers back at me, asking how I felt or if I was sick. On and on.
But never a word about him. He smiled and told me not to worry. He would be fine.
That sentence echoed doubt over and over in my head.
I noticed he wore more long-sleeved shirts to cover up the tattoo—he said he did it because he knew it bothered me a lot—and then he immediately changed the subject.
“Hey Skye,” he said one day after another unsuccessful attempt of getting him to talk to me about it. “Have you ever paid attention to a mouse clicking?”
I frowned. “Pardon?”
“A computer mouse,” Alfie clarified. “I bought a new one yesterday and have been playing around with it a lot. And now I can copy one! Check it out!”
He made a series of clicks with his tongue and laughed. “What do you think?”
It was hauntingly familiar. For some reason cold dread washed again down my spine. Alfie clicked again, and I swore his lips were bulging and twisting out into something that looked like a short noodle.
“It’s lovely, Alfie,” I said instead. “But it’s making my head spin.”
Alfie laughed again. Ruffled my hair. A cold breeze was sweeping through the hill and soon my hair flopped onto my face.
“Nonsense Skye!” Alfie said. “I’m doing it for you! Listen!”
He got up and clicked his way home and soon my heart was as cold as the wind.
The next night he was in my room. Really.
I woke up from another nightmare in the middle of the night, something about fire cooking me alive and bugs scuttling down my skin. And then I saw a dark silhouette at the foot of my bed.
Thunder roared and the sky lit up with a brief bolt of lightning. Light beamed down, and then I could see his face.
It was Alfie. He was standing there with his arms out and his head bent to the side like a limp rag doll. His jaws were fully protruding from his face now, and he wouldn’t stop making those stupid clicks.
Flies buzzed around his head like they were proud of serving their king. Alfie leaned forward and reached out to touch me. He grinned, revealing yellowed teeth.
Click. Click. CLICK
Thunder screamed and it went dark once more. When the flash of light came back Alfie was suddenly on my bed. He clicked as he inched slowly forwards.
I was paralysed. He was hissing, swaying to the crack and boom and snap of thunder. He slithered, closer and closer and closer…
My scream was stuck in my throat.
He was so close now I could reach out and touch him and–oh god, the smell. Like he had dipped a rotting corpse in vinegar then rolled on the floor with it.
I ducked under my covers and pulled it tight above me. His shadow loomed over mine. Hands danced along the blanket, looking for an edge to pull.
Thunder cracked the sky like a whip. I mustered my courage and screamed, “GO AWAY ALFIE!”
More thunder. So loud this time I thought my eardrums shattered.
Then silence.
I dared to peek.
The moon shone bright through my window. Everything had disappeared—no thunder, no lightning, no storm.
And no Alfie.
At first I thought I was only dreaming. I pinched myself and counted how many fingers I had just to make sure.
Then I smelled it. Deep and lingering.
Like a rotten corpse dipped in vinegar.
I woke up to a ton of shouting.
I dragged myself to the window and peered down, rubbing my eyes. People were gathered outside my house, nudging and whispering and pointing at something on the wall.
The police were here too, but their faces were as white as a sheet, and their arms were stuck by their sides. One of them was holding a megaphone, but his lips were quivering. The megaphone tumbled onto the ground and let out its own screech of terror.
Finally I dared look at what the commotion was about.
It was Alfie.
CLICK CLICK CLICK
He looked up at me and I saw that his face was swelling; his eyes were swelling. In fact Alfie’s eyes were bulging more than it ever could, and it glistened like a mirror, so clearly I could see my reflection in it. He scuttled up the wall towards me, and as I watched, a pair of hairy feelers erupted from his forehead and waved.
CLICK CLICK
I couldn’t breathe. I watched as each arm and leg grabbed the bricks and hauled his body upwards. I was gripping the windows so tight my knuckles were as white as his face.
Alfie stopped mere inches from me, the hair on his new feelers tickling my face.
CLICK
He smelled even worse than last night, if it was even possible. I swore I could practically see the cloud of toxic gas on his breath. I leaned as far away as I could from him and tried not to gag.
One of the bricks tumbled away from him and landed somewhere down beneath. The house we had bought was very old and it was clear it couldn’t support his weight. Alfie’s grip slipped but still hung on tight with his other hand. He was swinging gently from side to side, like a moving pendulum, and I found I couldn’t look away.
CLICK CLICK
Another brick fell. I found myself wishing more would fall faster.
CLICK CLICK
“Alfie,” I choked. “Please…”
It was like his hands were made of butter. Alfie desperately hung onto the ledge with just two fingers. The rest were shrinking quickly and folding into his palm. His other hand was no more; it had withered and thinned and charred to a long black appendage.
CLICK CLICK
“Alfie, what is going on?” I hoped there was something in that monster before me, a piece of the Alfie I knew. Yet Alfie looked at me, unblinking.
Unknowing.
CLICK
That was when he lost the last of his grip.
It was like watching a movie in slow motion. He fell humbly, gracefully, his eyes never leaving my face. In fact, I swore I saw him smile.
Another electric jolt shivered its way up my spine.
SPLAT
Alfie lay on his back, his feelers and limbs wiggling madly, then he went still. Blood leaked out from a hole on his head, a deep cobalt blue.
The crowd was screaming. They were scrambling and stumbling against each other, pushing back like an enormous tidal wave. The cops had regained their nerves; they were calling for order and for everyone to get back to their houses.
As for me, I couldn’t think. I stared down at Alfie’s corpse for what seemed like hours. The crowd finally dispersed, then the police, then the paramedics came and took the body away in an ambulance painted with black and gold.
Then I sat down on my bed and watched the sky. The birds chirping outside, the way the clouds swam lazily across the azure ocean—everything was dead. Broken.
All I could see in my mind’s eye was Alfie: his serene smile, his fall from grace, the way his head shattered on the ground. Over and over, an eternal movie repeating in my mind.
Day turned into night. I didn’t know how much time had passed. Neither did I want to eat, drink, use the bathroom or sleep. I was too busy wandering the deep forest of my thoughts, and every tree was engraved with Alfie’s face.
“Skye?”
I turned to face Emily and my dad. When did they come home?
“I…”
Emily placed a warm hand on my shoulder. “We know. The Willows told us.”
Her eyes welled in tears.
“Skye…” she said quietly. “I am really sorry.”
I turned away. I didn’t feel like talking.
“Skye, listen.” Emily cupped my hands into her own. “What happened to Alfie isn’t entirely your fault.”
“Really?”
“Yes. I don’t want you to blame yourself, Skye.”
I raised an eyebrow. Or what was left of it.
“How do you know?”
“Because…” Emily hesitated. She nodded to my dad and he made himself scarce.
She reached in her pocket and pulled out a medallion.
My heart stood still.
Carved into the medallion was a very familiar scarab with bulging eyes. Again something clicked into my brain, like a key turning into a lock.
Then it hit me.
I saw it on Alfie’s arm!
“Because…”
A small smile stretched across her face. Like she was waiting forever to tell me the good news.
“I know your real mom.”
SK

There are massage services available in the market. We must be careful about the type of massage service we are using because suppliers do not deliver all services equally. If you frequent the salon frequently, you would have observed that various pros approach their task in various ways. The top therapists typically receive their training at the best institutions in the nation. They are knowledgeable about the various types of massages, the ailments for which they are prescribed, and the many ways in which massages can relieve patients of their symptoms.
There are a few pointers to notice which will help you understand that you are at a good place.
Professional Therapists
In reputable salons, licensed therapists assist clients in finding relief from pain. Everyone who enters the salon has the right to be informed that they are receiving care from a therapist who is more than qualified for the position. The accreditation only ensures that the client has placed himself in the hands of a professional who is skilled in the healing and massage arts. The certification process encourages moral behavior, which ought to permeate every aspect of the profession. Thai Massage in Trichy
Time management
Time management is typically the secret to success in all types of job. It has been observed that there is a continual stream of consumers at the salon these days due to people's interest in personal heath through massages. The therapist would have to be accessible to everyone. Each massage typically lasts between 60 and 90 minutes, and each client should receive the same level of attention for the same amount of time. A reputable salon typically has a calendar of booked appointments where the customer's needs are listed along with the scheduling. Together with the type of physical issue they are experiencing, the precise type of massage that they seek is described in depth. This makes it easier to complete work on schedule and to the satisfaction of every client.
The environment of the salon
The salon needs to have the correct kind of environment which stimulates people to come to them for massages and other different kinds of beauty therapies. A good salon has a light-hearted environment with staff who are welcoming and understanding. People are happy to converse and there is a pleasant aroma of medical oils and lotions which fills people’s senses. People's kind attitude enables them to comprehend the current difficulties individuals are facing and what needs to be done to alleviate those difficulties. Thai Massage in Trichy

i flew to the uk for uni back in september 2021 and within the 3 months i was there, i lost a total of 8kgs if not more. within those few months, i went days without eating. i would just drink water to make myself less hungry.
and if i did have to eat so that my body wouldn’t die, i would have one nature valley granola bar. i was barely consuming any proper nutrients and was clearly not meeting the daily average calorie intake for a woman.
doing all this definitely took a toll on my body. i started losing a lot of hair, quickly too and i couldn’t really do anything to stop it. my body was trying its best to survive while i was pretty much starving it. i would feel more tired, physically and mentally. whenever i took a shower for too long, i would almost pass out from being lightheaded. even if i was going through all this, i’ve never felt so much better about my body. i have major body issues and can’t rlly look at my body for too long before i start picking every little flaw apart.
now, the last few months, i’ve actually been eating consistently. though every time i did eat, i would justify why i ate so i didn’t feel so guilty for giving my body what it needs. it worked most of the time. but i could see the weight gain in my face and it makes me cry sometimes but i wanted to get better. plus my hair was growing back and it kinda kept me going.
however, a few days ago, my friend and i were on our way to our class. she made a comment about me. well it was more of a question if anything. she asked me “did you gain weight or is it the clothes you’re wearing?” and when i heard that, i genuinely felt like dying. i wanted to turn around and just go home and cry.
ever since then, i haven’t had a proper meal. i don’t even allow myself any of the snacks i’ve been having. i’ve started to calculate every calorie i put inside my body again.
i rlly didn’t wanna go down this path again but when i heard that comment, it just triggered something within my brain and now have the need to punish myself for allowing myself to eat so much in the past.
so yeah, please don’t ever make a comment on people’s bodies especially if they didn’t ask for it :( thanku

This post may only be relevant to a few people, but if it helps them, then it was worth it.
I avoided VR because I was thinking about how I couldn't go to 3D movies when I was a kid. Those glasses they give you with the 2 different colored lenses do not work if you have 1 eye. It only filters 1 color, depending on what eye is missing, but VR is different.
In VR with 1 eye of course you don't have the same range of view as someone with 2 eyes, but that is the same as real life. It's not exactly 1/2 of what someone with 2 eyes see, due to the overlap between the eyes that I have been told about, but it is less. But you can still enjoy the experience and play the games. You just turn your head more.
I haven't noticed any problems with aiming, movement or anything else. I was so excited when I finally bought the PSVR1 and realized it worked fine for me. Astrobot for the first time almost made me emotional.
As anyone with 1 eye can tell you, it's not that you don't have depth perception. There are 2 types of depth perception. The first involves 2 eyes, but the other involves size of objects. That does work in VR too. I have not had a problem grabbing objects, seeing enemies, etc... Like I said, you only really have to turn your head more than someone with 2 eyes, just like in real life.
For none cyclops that don't understand life with 1 eye and are curious:
This post is from someone who lost their eye to cancer when they were 3, so I am used to it. I have been a crane operator, I operate heavy equipment on a daily basis. I can drive a nail in 2 hits. I am a great shooter, a master of clay pigeons. It is not a disability, it's just different. I am the best driver that I know. Never been in a so much as a fender bender. Also, don't cover 1 eye and try to see what it's like. It's not the same and you won't know. I had a boss do that once to show why I couldn't do something and pissed me off. It's like sitting in a chair and saying you know what it's like to be paralyzed or hopping on 1 foot and saying you know what it's like to lose a limb. Our bodies adjust, we adapt. Our other senses and the 2nd type of depth perception becomes more powerful.

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I'm a traveller, screen junkie,..music wise....totally still listening to music of 2000s...see why I require age adjacent friends?
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Lets see how this goes. Oh I prefer discord, if this goes well. Thanks! have a great weekend

Reason: why India is not the rape capital of the world.
1.: Media reporting standards are not the same**
India's media reports things differently from media in other parts of the world. Media reports in various parts of the world have themes. American media focus a lot on race issues. Middle East media focuses a lot on sectarian issues. Indian media focuses a lot on gender issues. It would be faulty to not recognize the themes and blindly use media as a barometer.
Crimes get a disproportionate share of India's media reporting. Top news sources in the US, don't report rapes in the way India does. For instance, 25 women in the US were raped/assaulted in the time I took to write this comment (about 30 mins). You wouldn't likely read about any of these 25 cases in the media.
When a woman was sexually assaulted in an Uber taxi in Delhi, it became a major news and the government quickly reacted. But, such crimes involving Uber is fairly routine in the US.
Sources :
http://www.bostonglobe.com/metro/2014/12/16/least-two-women-who-reported-sexual-assaults-boston-sunday-were-using-uber-police-say/cFHpgzcfIoBYiTfWgOqYOK/story.html
http://abc7news.com/325011/
http://www.whosdrivingyou.org/rideshare-incidents.html#SexualAssaults
In the US and Europe, such rape stories would come in local media and just move out of national attention. You probably didn't even come across it. US local governments didn't pursue Uber with the same vigor. Indian media selectively picks up a case and rallies around that. This creates a distorted reality.
The sad truth is that it is not India vs. US. It is that women get raped and it doesn't become a big news. See this as a global problem.
2.Second fact: India's rape rate is not the highest in the world. Not even close
According to the 2010 UN data on rape, the rapes per 100,000 people in India is 0.4 and 27.3 in USA. Going by these statistics, rape rate in USA is a whopping 6825% of India, so much for the "rape culture" in India.
Sources :
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rape_statistics
http://www.ibtimes.co.uk/top-5-countries-highest-rates-rape-1434355
http://www.nationmaster.com/country-info/stats/Crime/Rapes/Per-capita
If you don't like the statistics, construct better ones. Figure out what factor you want to measure that is not covered in the reports from world bodies. Construct scientifically accepted surveys. Get to the root of the problem with logic. Use your stuff between the ears, instead of passing judgements with hot gas.
Under reporting of Rapes
Now I know the next thing you'll say is that rapes are under reported in India and it's true, but the matter of fact is that rapes are under reported everywhere in the world, including USA. More than 70% of rapes go under reported in USA.
Sources :
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/11/21/rape-study-report-america-us_n_4310765.html
https://cavatus.wordpress.com/2012/03/24/sweden-a-raped-country/
Now for the sake of argument, let's give you the benefit of doubt and assume that only 5% of the rapes in India are reported and 95% cases go unreported. Also assume that 100% of rapes in USA are reported.
By that logic, the real rape rate in India will be 0.4 x 20 = 8. Now let us go further and double that too, we get 8 x 2 = 16, which is still way less than 27.3 (the rape rate in USA).
Therefore, even if you multiply the rape rate of India by 40, it still doesn't matches USA. This proves that India is a much safer country for women compared to USA.
In cultures across the world, rape carries a stigma. Because, most of the rapes happen with people who are close to the woman. Thus, there is a strong social pressure against reporting. This basic fact is lost on the many who are giving their uneducated comments on the issue.
The number of recorded rapes in India is certainly a substantial underestimate, but even if we take five times—or ten times—that figure, the corrected and enlarged estimates of rapes would still be substantially lower in India than in the US, the UK, Sweden, or South Africa (even with the assumption that there is no underreporting in these other countries).
-Nobel Laureate Amartya Sen.
Do you want to discuss rapes or engage in stereotypes?
Here is a simple question for those want to discuss this issue:
Are you interested in creating solutions for making women safe across race, creed, class and country?
Do you want to pick up some news item to justify your own stereotypes about a country?
If you belong to the former group, let us constructively engage in a debate on the solutions. If you belong to the latter group, you are not the solution, but the problem.
In summary, this is plainly a media distortion where one country reports rapes with more vigor than an another country. This leads to blind stereotyping that destroys people's lives &amp; careers for no fault of their own.
Instead of getting into such faulty stereotyping without any statistical evidence, let us as humans figure out ways we can make world safer for women. Because, they are getting raped all over the world at an alarming rate.
You still believe India has a "rape culture" and that USA is a very safe country for women?
Even more data : Rape Data on India
Reported Rapes
A. Based on United Nations Office on Drugs and Crime (UNODC) data from 2012:
24,923 reported rapes in India, or 4.26 reported rapes for every 1,00,000 women
This places India at 85 out of 121 countries.
This video discusses the above statistics:
Rapes are over-hyped in India - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KdGUPTub-L0&amp;amp;amp;index=90&amp;amp;amp;list=WL
Also see this : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GdoeoU48DIg
Unreported Rapes
B. Based on a survey conducted by UN Women:
India reported 8.5 rapes for every 100 women over their lifetimes, based on the answers they gave household-level surveyors.
The question "if the women had experienced sexual violence at the hands of an intimate partner or any other person" placed India at 39 out of 99 countries.
Ten per cent of women in India reported having experienced sexual violence by their husbands during their lifetime. In the UN Women database, this places India at 43 out of 86 countries with comparable data.
Source : http://www.thehindu.com/opinion/op-ed/comment-article-rape-rhetoric-and-reality/article6705077.ece
Rape Conviction Rate
According to the Guardian, just 7% of reported rapes in the U.K. resulted in convictions during 2011-12. In Sweden, the conviction rate is as low as 10%. France had a conviction rate of 25% in 2006.
Poor India, a developing nation with countless challenges, managed an impressive 24.2% conviction rate in 2012. That’s thanks to the efforts of a lot of good people — police, lawyers, victims and their families — working heroically with limited resources.
Source : Why Rape Seems Worse in India Than Everywhere Else (but Actually Isn’t) - http://world.time.com/2013/11/08/why-rape-seems-worse-in-india-than-everywhere-else-but-actually-isnt/
Archive link : http://web.archive.org/web/20150317034239/http://world.time.com/2013/11/08/why-rape-seems-worse-in-india-than-everywhere-else-but-actually-isnt/

After a long day of work I get fatigued and can barely walk on the weekdays.. What do you like to do or can do to lose weight and strengthen yourself? And does starting a new routine eventually help with body pain?

As I'm about to turn 30, I've been reflecting on the past few years of balancing work and grad studies. In doing so, I realized that my physical appearance has not always taken precedence, although I have not entirely neglected it either.
Over the last two years though, I've been incorporating a lot of good self-care habits (many of which are mentioned below), and I'm proud of the progress I've made.
That said, I want to start investing more time and effort into my appearance because I've noticed how much it boosts my confidence and makes me feel put-together!
I'm a huge fan of aesthetics in all aspects of life, whether it's art, home decor, or personal style, so putting effort into my appearance feels like a natural extension of that passion. :)
Anyway, I decided to use ChatGPT to create a comprehensive glow-up plan and thought I'd share it for inspiration. I absolutely love seeing what others do and learning from their experiences, so if you have any recommendations or plans of your own, please feel free to share them!
Here's my plan:
Daily habits:
Eat cleaner
SPF & skincare
Meditate every morning
IF Daily from 8 pm to 12 am
Never stay up past midnight
Use mouth taping every night
Oil lashes & brows every night
Journal & list three things I'm grateful for
Bi-daily habits:
Use tret
Drink matcha
Drink bone broth
Practice yoga & exercise
Weekly habits:
Oil hair
Face mask
Use clay mask
Oil face massage
Exfoliate skin & moisturize body
Fortnightly habits:
Therapy
In-home massage
Swimming & sauna
Monthly habits:
Microneedling
Laser hair removal
Scheduled events:
Go for a blood test
Go dermatologist for a consult
Go for a trim, blowout, and facial
Go shopping for nice wardrobe pieces
Get professional teeth cleaning & whitening treatment
PS: I'm not sure how many of these I'll be able to commit to long-term, but having a plan def helps me form good habits!

Stats 27 y.o. male 5,6 190 lb. 25% bf
Diet 3500-4500 calories
Sleep Consistently sleeping 9+ hours
Here's my actual questions

1. Should I incorporate back off sets on squats?

I'm doing 3 sets of 5 reps at 5 rm. 260x5x3

1. Does it makes sense to add some weight to Chin-ups since I'm doing 6,5,5? Adding like 2-5 lb. then doing like 3x5.

In practical programming it recommends waiting until you can both do 3x10 and 3x15. Mark basically recommends waiting until you can do fifteen reps then changes his mind and says ten reps on each set.
The first question is rather important while the second is more of a "it depends/doesn't matter" question.
FAQ

1. Why am I not doing power cleans?

I'm not explosive and cannot rack them due to long forearms. For me I have a greater capacity to systemically load Chinups.

1. What am I doing on Upper body lifts?

A friend of mine gave me a program that's a transition into being an intermediate.
1 single @+5 lb above 3x5 5x5 @85% of the single
Next adjustment would be microloading and doing triples with back off 5s.
I've seen guys do this and it works. One of the reasons it works is say on the press you start to have to handle heavier weights in the form of heavy singles.
Note what I'm doing is still a novice program because I'm still adding weight to 1 rm and 5x5 every session.

1. Why do you make micro adjustments before stalling?

Because I don't want to stall and I would rather make slower progress then reset and try to get unstuck.
Also I've been working out every other day but I have longer sleep wake cycles due to being unemployed hence the 19 workouts in 45 days. I'm thinking of switching to Monday Wednesday Friday then Tuesday Thursday Saturday.
PR=Press, BP=Bench, SQ=Squat, DL=Deadlift, CH=Chinups
02/10 SQ 155x5x3 PR 85x5x3 DL 185x5
02/12 SQ 165x5x3 BP 185x5x3 DL 205x5
02/14 SQ 175x5x3 PR 100x5x3 DL 225x5
02/16 SQ 185x5x3 BP 190x5x3 DL 245x5
02/18 SQ 195x5x3 PR 105x5x3 DL 265x5
02/20 SQ 205x5x3 BP 195x5x3 DL 275x5
02/22 SQ 210x5x3 PR 110x5x3 DL 285x5
02/25 SQ 215x5x3 BP 200x5x3 DL 295x5
02/27 SQ 220x5x3 PR 115x5x3 DL 305x5
03/01 SQ 225x5x3 BP 205x5x3 DL 310x5
03/04 SQ 230x5x3 PR 120x5x3 DL 315x5
03/07 SQ 235x5x3 BP 210x5x3 CH 5,4,4
03/09 SQ 240x5x3 PR 125x5x3 DL 320x5
03/11 SQ 245x5x3 BP 225x5x3 CH 6,5,4
03/14 SQ 210x5x3 PR 130, 110x5x5 DL 325x5
03/16 SQ 250x5x3 BP 230, 195x5x5 CH 5,5,4
03/18 SQ 255x5x3 PR 135, 155x5x5 DL 330x5
03/21 SQ 215x5x3 BP 235, 200x5x5 CH 6,5,5
03/23 SQ 260x5x3 PR 140, 119x5x5 DL 335x5
In kg.
02/10 SQ 70x5x3 PR 39x5x3 DL 84x5
02/12 SQ 75x5x3 BP 83x5x3 DL 93x5
02/14 SQ 80x5x3 PR 46x5x3 DL 102x5
02/16 SQ 84x5x3 BP 86x5x3 DL 111x5
02/18 SQ 89x5x3 PR 48x5x3 DL 120x5
02/20 SQ 93x5x3 BP 89x5x3 DL 125x5
02/22 SQ 96x5x3 PR 50x5x3 DL 130x5
02/25 SQ 98x5x3 BP 91x5x3 DL 135x5
02/27 SQ 100x5x3 PR 52x5x3 DL 138x5
03/01 SQ 102x5x3 BP 93x5x3 DL 140x5
03/04 SQ 104.5x5x3 PR 55x5x3 DL 143x5
03/07 SQ 107x5x3 BP 95x5x3 CH 5,4,4
03/09 SQ 110x5x3 PR 57x5x3 DL 145x5
03/11 SQ 113x5x3 BP 102x5x3 CH 6,5,4
03/14 SQ 94x5x3 PR 60, 50x5x5 DL 147x5
03/16 SQ 115x5x3 BP 105, 88.5x5x5 CH 5,5,4
03/18 SQ 118x5x3 PR 62, 52x5x5 DL 150x5
03/21 SQ 96x5x5 BP 107, 91x5x5 CH 6,5,5
03/23 SQ 120x5x3 PR 65, 55x5x5 DL 152x5

I'm from EU,so GAMES SHOULD work pretty much anywhere
NOT BUYING GAMES,ONLY TRADES - games for games or selling for paypal
No interest in TF2 keys
BUYER covers the FEES (if outside EU,EU F&F only)
My Steam account so you don't offer me something I own
My Wishlist
My SGSRep
My IGSRep
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Only looking for Steam games - so don't offer origin,uplay,rockstar,bnet or ANY other launcher
100% of my games keys are bought by me from official stores & I expect the same in return,so don't offer me keyshop games or game keys you got in a trade as I will decline
I retain the right to ask for proof of ownership for ANY game I want - just like you have the right to ask me the same
Don't offer me VR games as I don't own a VR headset
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List of games I have:
Also have the Earthquake Relief bundle,but reddit wont let me write all the games cause my topic would be too big - just ask
7 Billion Humans
8Doors Arum's Afterlife Adventure
10 Second Ninja X
60 Seconds!
112 Operator
140
198X
911 Operator
A Case Of Distrust
A Year Of Rain
Absolver
Aeolis Tournament
Age Of Wonders III
Ageless
Airport CEO
AI War 2
Alien Spidy
Aliens Vs Predator Collection
All You Can Eat
Almost There The Platformer
American Fugitive
Amnesia A Machine For Pigs + The Dark Descent (1 key for both games)
Amnesia Fortnight 2012
Amnesia Fortnight 2014
Amnesia Fortnight 2017
Amnesia Rebirth (X2)
Among Us (X2)
Ancestors The Humankind Odyssey (EU & Africa lock)
Aragami (X2)
Archamon
Armello
Army Men RTS
Attack Of The Earthlings
Automobilista
Aven Colony
Avernum 3 Ruined World
Azkend 2 The World Beneath
Back 4 Blood (EU region lock)
Backbone
Band Of Defenders
Banished
Baseball Riot
Batora Lost Haven NEW
Battlestar Galactica Deadlock
Beholder 2
Bendy And The Dark Revival
Bendy And The Ink Machine
Betrayer (delisted)
Between The Stars (X2)
Beyond Eyes
Beyond The Wire
Biomutant NEW
Bionic Commando
Bird Of Light
Black Paradox
Blade Assault
Blasphemous
Bohemian Killing
Book Of Demons
Bomber Crew Deluxe
Borderlands 3 + Director's Cut (EMEA region lock)
Boreal Blade
Broken Age (X2)
Brothers A Tale Of Two Sons (X2)
Butcher
Call Of Juarez
Call Of The Sea (X2)
Call To Arms Basic Edition
Call To Arms Gates Of Hell Ostfront
Car Mechanic Simulator 2018
Chenso Club
Chernobylite Enhanced Edition (X2)
Cities In Motion 2
CivCity Rome
Clone Drone In The Danger Zone
Clouds & Sheep 2
Coffin Dodgers
Cook Serve Delicious 3
Command & Conquer Remastered Collection (Origin key)
Company Of Heroes Complete Edition
Control Ultimate Edition NEW
Corridor Z
Cosmic Osmo And The World Beyond The Mackerel
Crash Drive 3
Creatures Inc
Crookz The Big Heist
Crossbow Bloodnight
Crusader Kings Complete
Crying Suns
Dagon The Eldritch Box
Danger Scavenger
Day Of Infamy
Dead Age
Dead By Daylight
Dead In Vinland
Deadly Premonition Director's Cut
Deadbeat Heroes (X2)
Dear Ester Landmark Edition
Death Squared
Deep Dungeons Of Doom
Deep Sky Derelicts
Demon Turf NEW
Deployment
Desert Child
Diaries Of A Spaceport Janitor
Dicey Dungeons (X2)
Dimension Drifter
Distraint 2 + Soundtrack
Divekick
Dog Sled Saga
Double Fine Adventures Complete Series Deluxe
Downwell
Drawful 2
Draw Slasher
Dreadlands
Dread Templar
Dread X Collection
Dreamscaper NEW
Driftland The Magic Revival
Dry Downing
Duke Nukem Forever Collection
Dungeon Marathon
Dungeon Of The Endless
Dungeons 2
Dungeons 2 Complete
Dungeons 3
Dusk
Dwarfs!?
Eador Imperium
EarthX
Eastside Hockey Manager
ECHO
Edge Of Eternity NEW
Effie
Elderborn
Eldest Souls
Elden Path Of The Forgotten
Embr
Emily Is Away
Empyrion Galactic Survival
Epic Manager
E.T. Armies Deluxe Edition
Etherborn (X2)
Euro Truck Simulator 2
Europa Universalis IV
Evergarden
Expeditions Viking
F1 2018 (delisted)
Family Man
Fantasy Blacksmith
Fantasy Versus
Farmer's Dynasty
Farming Simulator 17
FIA European Truck Racing
Figment (X2)
Finding Paradise
Fire Ungh's Quest
First Class Trouble
Five Dates
Fling To The Finish
Fluffy Horde
Fobia St. Dinfna Hotel
Forgive Me Father
Framed Collection (X2)
Friday the 13th: The Game (X2)
Frog Detective 1 The Haunted Island (X2)
Full Throttle Remastered
Fun With Ragdolls The Game
Fury Unleashed (X2)
Gang Beasts
Garage Bad Trip (X2)
Gas Guzzlers Extreme
Gas Station Simulator
Gauge
Genesis Noir
Ghostrunner
Giana Sisters Twisted Dreams + Rise Of The Owlverlord
GNOG
Go Home Dinosaurs!
Goat Of Duty
Goetia (X2)
Going Under (X2)
Golden Light
Golf Gang
GoNNER
Gotham Knights
Grand Ages Medieval
Grand Pigeon's Duty
Greak Memories Of Azur
Gremlins Inc.
Grip Combat Racing + Cygon + Nyvoss + Terra + Vintek DLC (X2)
Guts And Glory (X2)
Hack'n'Slash
Haiku The Robot (X2)
Hamilton's Great Adventure
Hammerfight
Headlander
Heal
Hedon Bloodrite
Hell Let Loose
Hellblade Senua's Sacrifice NEW
Hello Neighbor
Hellbound
Hero Defense
Hero's Hour NEW (EU region lock)
Hexologic
Hidden & Dangerous Action Pack
Hidden & Dangerous 2 Courage Under Fire
Hive Jump (X2)
Hiveswap Act 2
Hiveswap Friend Sim
Hiveswap Friend Sim Complete
Homeworld Deserts Of Kharak
Hotshot Racing
Hot Tin Roof The Cat That Wore A Fedora
Hot Wheels Unleashed
Hover (X2)
Human Resource Machine
Hurtworld
I Am Bread
I Am Not A Monster First Contact
Ice Lakes
If Found...
Ikenfell
Impact Winter (delisted)
In Between
Industria
Inexistence Rebirth NEW
Infinite Air With Mark McMorris (delisted)
Influent NEW
Inmost
Internet Cafe Simulator
Interplanetary Enhanced Edition
Intruder
Ion Fury
Iron Danger
Iron Harvest
Jack Axe
Jalopy
Jet Set Knights
Juanito Arcade Mayhem
Jump Stars
Jurassic World Evolution
Jurassic World Evolution 2 NEW
Just Die Already
KartKraft
Kathy Rain Directors Cut
Keep Talking And Nobody Explodes (X2)
Kill To Collect
Kingdom Classic (X2)
Kingdom New Lands
Kingdoms Of Amalur Re-Reckoning Fate Edition
King Oddball
Last Oasis
Last Tide
Lawn Mowing Simulator
Lead And Gold Gangs Of Wild West (X2)
Legacy Of Dorn Herald Of Oblivion (delisted)
Legend Of Keepers Career Of A Dungeon Master
LEGO Movie Videogame
Leisure Suit Larry Retro Bundle (1 to 7)
Lethal League Blaze
Liberated (GOG key)
Lifeless Planet Premium Edition
Light Fall
Little Big Workshop
Love Is Dead
Lust For Darkness
Lust From Beyond M Edition
Magicka
Magrunner Dark Pulse
Maid Of Sker
Main Assembly (X2)
Mainlining
Mars Horizon
Masquerade The Baubles Of Doom
Max Payne 3 (Rockstar Launcher)
Midnight Protocol
Mind Scanners
Mini Metro
Miscreated (X2)
Monster Crown NEW
Monster Train Collectors Edition
Moon Hunters
Morbid The Seven Acolytes
Mordhau
Mosaic
Motorcycle Mechanic Simulator 2021
Motorsport Manager
Mount And Blade Warband
Mountain
My Lovely Daughter
Nairi Tower Of Shirin
Naruto To Boruto Shinobi Striker
Nascar Heat 5 Ultimate
Nebuchadnezzar
NecroVisioN Lost Company
NecroWorn
Neighbours Back From Hell
Neo Cab
Neon Abyss
NeuroVoider
Neverout
Niche
Nickelodeon All Star Brawl (X2)
Ninjin Clash Of Carrots
No Time To Relax
Not Tonight
Numba Deluxe
Obduction
Observation
Octahedron
Odyssey The Story Of Science
Of Orcs And Men
Old School Musical
OlliOlli World Rad Edition
On Rusty Trails
One Finger Death Punch 2
Onikira Demon Killer
Orbital Racer
Orcs Must Die 2 Complete
Original War
Orwell Ignorance Is Strength
Out Of Reach Treasure Royal
Overlord II
Overpass
Override Mech City Brawl
Oxenfree
Pacer
Paint The Town Red
Paper Fire Rookie
Paradise Lost
Pathfinder Wrath Of The Righteous
Pathologic 2
Path Of Giants
Paw Paw Paw
Payday 2 + Big Mike mask
Peaky Blinders Mastermind (delisted)
Penarium
People Playground (X2)
Perfect Heist 2
PGA Tour 2K21 (X2)
Phoenix Point Year One Edition
Pikuniku
Pine
Pinstripe (X2)
Pixplode
Plane Mechanic Simulator
Playne The Meditation Game
Poöf
Popup Dungeon
Post Void
Pound Of Ground (X2)
PowerSlave Exhumed
Prehistoric Kingdom
Primal Carnage Extinction (X2)
Project Cars GOTY (delisted)
Project Hospital
Project Warlock
Pumped BMX+
Punch Club
Purrfect Date
Quest Of Dungeons
RAD (X2)
Radio Commander
Rad Rodgers Radical Edition
Railroad Tycoon 2
Railroad Tycoon 3
Railway Empire
Raji An Ancient Epic
Rebel Cops
Rec Center Tycoon
Red Faction Armageddon
Red Solstice 2 Survivors
Redeemer Enhanced Edition
Redout Enhanced Edition
Re-Legion
Relicta
Remothered Broken Porcelain
Resident Evil 4
Resident Evil 5 Gold Edition
Resident Evil 6
Resident Evil Revelations (X2)
Resident Evil Revelation 2 Deluxe Edition
Retimed
Retrowave
Reventure
Ring Of Pain
Rings Of Saturn
Riot Civil Unrest
Rise Of Industry
Rise Of Insanity
Riven The Sequel To MYST
Roarr! The Adventures Of Rampage Rex
Roboquest
Rogue Heroes Ruins Of Tasos
Rogue Lords NEW
Rogue Stormers
Rover Mechanic Simulator
RPG Maker VX
Rustler
Sable NEW
Salt And Sanctuary
Satellite Reign
Satisfactory
Saturday Morning RPG
Say No! More
SCUM (X2)
ScourgeBringer
Serious Sam 2
Serious Sam BFE (X2)
Serious Sam Classics Revolution
Serious Sam Double D XXL
Serious Sam HD The First & Second Encounter (1 key for both)
Serious Sam HD The Second Encounter Legend Of The Beast
Serious Sam HD The Second Encounter Serious 8
Serious Sam Kamikaze Attack
Serious Sam The Random Encounter
Serious Sam Bogus Detour
Shadow Tactics Aiko's Choice
Shady Part Of Me
She Remembered Caterpillars
She Will Punish Them
Shing!
Shock Troopers
Shogun's Empire Hex Commander NEW
Shuyan Saga
Sid Meier's Civilization VI
Sid Meier's Railroads
Simulacra Collection
Skullgirls 2nd Encore
Skully
Slay The Spire
Slime Rancher
Slinger VR
Smoke And Sacrifice (X2)
Sniper Elite V2 Remastered
Sniper Elite 4 Deluxe + Season Pass
SOMA
Song Of Iron
Soulblight
Spacebase DF-9
Space Hulk Ascension (delisted)
Sparkle 2
Sparkle Unleashed
Spellcaster University
Spelunx And The Caves Of Mr. Seudo
Stacking
Starsand (X2)
Star Wars Jedi Knight Jedi Academy
Star Wars Knights Of The Old Republic
Stasis
State Of Decay 2 Juggernaut Edition (X2)
State Of Mind
Steel Rats
Stick Fight The Game (X3)
Stories Untold
Streets Of Fury EX
Strider
Struggling
Stubbs The Zombie
Styx Shards Of Darkness
Submerged Hidden Depths
Suchart Genius Artist Simulator NEW
Super Indie Carts
Super Magbot
Supraland
SurrounDead (X2)
Surviving The Aftermath
Suzerain
Swag And Sorcery
Sword Legacy Omen
Swords And Soldiers 2 Shawarmageddon
Swords And Souls Neverseen (X2)
Syberia II
Syberia 3 Deluxe Edition
Syberia The World Before NEW
Syndrome
System Shock Enhanced Edition
Table Manners The Physics-Based Dating Game
Tabletop Playground
Tacoma
Take On Helicopters
Tales From Candlekeep Tomb Of Annihilation (delisted)
Tales Of Monkey Island Complete
Talisman Digital Edition + City,Frostmarch,Sacred Pool (trading only as a bundle)
Talisman Origins
Tank Mechanic Simulator
Tannenberg
Telefrag VR
Teleglitch Die More Edition
Tennis In The Face
Tennis World Tour (X2)
Tesla Vs Lovecraft
Tharsis (X2)
The Amazing American Circus
The Ambassador Fractured Timelines
The Adventure Pals
The Battle Of Polytopia
The Battle Of Polytopia Moonrise Deluxe
The Count Lucador
The Dark Pictures Anthology Little Hope
The Dark Pictures Anthology Man Of Medan
The Free Ones (delisted)
The Golf Club 2019 featuring PGA Tour
theHunter Call Of The Wild (X3)
The Journey Down Chapter Three
The King Of Fighters 2002 Unlimited Match
The Last Blade
The Long Dark Survival Edition (X2)
The Manhole Masterpiece Edition
The Mims Beginning
The Night Of The Rabbit
The Serpent Rogue
The Signifier Director's Cut
The Textorcist The Story of Ray Bibbia (X2)
The Uncertain Last Quiet Day (X2)
The USB Stick Found In The Grass
The Walking Dead Season 1 + 400 Days
The Wild Eight (X2)
There Is No Game Wrong Dimension
They Bleed Pixels
Think Of The Children
This War Of Mine
Thronebreaker The Witcher Tales
THOTH
Through The Darkest Of Times
Timeshift
Time Recoil
Titan Quest Anniversary
Toejam & Earl Back In The Groove
TOEM
Tohu
Tools Up
Tooth And Tail (X2)
Torchlight (X2)
Total Tank Simulator
Toto Temple Deluxe
Tower Of Time (X2)
Tower Unite
Townscaper (X2)
Townsmen A Kingdom Rebuilt
Toybox Turbos
Tracks The Train Set Game
Train Station Renovation
Treasure Hunter Simulator (X2)
Tribes Of Midgard
Tropico 4
True Fear Forsaken Souls Part 1
Tyranny Deluxe Edition
Ultra Street Fighter IV
Unexplored
Unloved
Unmetal
Unshaded NEW
Vambrace Cold Soul
Vane
Velocibox
Verdun (X2)
Vikings Wolves Of Midgard
Volcanoids (X2)
V Rally 4
Wanderlust Travel Stories (GOG key)
Wandersong
Warhammer End Times Vermintide
Warlock Master Of The Arcane
Warpips
Warsaw
Wasteland 2 Director's Cut NEW
We Are The Dwarves
We Should Talk
West Of Dead
Western Press
We Were Here Together
When Ski Lifts Go Wrong
Where The Water Tastes Like Wine
While True: Learn() Chief Technology Officer Edition
White Day: A Labyrinth Named School
Wooden Sen'SeY
Worms Rumble + Legends DLC
Wrath Aeon Of Ruin
XCOM Complete Pack
XCOM Ultimate Collection
Xenoraid The First Space War
X Morph Defense + European Assault + Last Bastion + Survival Of The Fittest (1 key for all)
XIII Classic
Xuan-Yuan Sword The Gate Of Firmament
Yet Another Zombie Defense HD
Ylands Exploration Pack
Yoku's Island Express
Yooka-Laylee And The Impossible Lair
Zack 2 Celestine's Map
ZIC Zombies In City NEW
Zombie Kill Of The Week Reborn
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Now, reason itself, strange as it may seem, is guilty of the same one-sidedness, indeed one might say of the same crude ignorance arising from vanity, for it classes under the one concept, “feeling,” every modification of consciousness which does not immediately belong to its own mode of apprehension, that is to say, which is not an abstract concept. It has had to pay the penalty of this hitherto in misunderstanding and confusion in its own province, because its own procedure had not become clear to it through thorough self-knowledge, for a special faculty of feeling has been set up, and new theories of it are constructed.
§ 12. Rational knowledge (Wissen) is then all abstract knowledge,—that is, the knowledge which is peculiar to the reason as distinguished from the understanding. Its contradictory opposite has just been explained to be the concept “feeling.” Now, as reason only reproduces, for knowledge, what has been received in another way, it does not actually extend our knowledge, but only gives it another form. It enables us to know in the abstract and generally, what first became known in sense-perception, in the concrete. But this is much more important than it appears at first sight when so expressed. For it depends entirely upon the fact that knowledge has become rational or abstract knowledge (Wissen),, that it can be safely preserved, that it is communicable and susceptible of certain and wide-reaching application to practice. Knowledge in the form of sense-perception is valid only of the particular case, extends only to what is nearest, and ends with it, for sensibility and understanding can only comprehend one object at a time. Every enduring, arranged, and planned activity must therefore proceed from principles,—that is, from abstract knowledge, and it must be conducted in accordance with them. Thus, for example, the knowledge of the relation of cause and effect arrived at by the understanding, is in itself far completer, deeper and more exhaustive than anything that can be thought about it in the abstract; the understanding alone knows in perception directly and completely the nature of the effect of a lever, of a pulley, or a cog-wheel, the stability of an arch, and so forth. But on account of the peculiarity of the knowledge of perception just referred to, that it only extends to what is immediately present, the mere understanding can never enable us to construct machines and buildings. Here reason must come in; it must substitute abstract concepts for ideas of perception, and take them as the guide of action; and if they are right, the anticipated result will happen. In the same way we have perfect knowledge in pure perception of the nature and constitution of the parabola, hyperbola, and spiral; but if we are to make trustworthy application of this knowledge to the real, it must first become abstract knowledge, and by this it certainly loses its character of intuition or perception, but on the other hand it gains the certainty and preciseness of abstract knowledge. The differential calculus does not really extend our knowledge of the curve, it contains nothing that was not already in the mere pure perception of the curve; but it alters the kind of knowledge, it changes the intuitive into an abstract knowledge,

which is so valuable for application.

But here we must refer to another peculiarity of our faculty of knowledge, which could not be observed until the distinction between the knowledge of the senses and understanding and abstract knowledge had been made quite clear. It is this, that relations of space cannot as such be directly translated into abstract knowledge, but only temporal quantities,—that is, numbers, are suitable for this. Numbers alone can be expressed in abstract concepts which accurately correspond to them, not spacial quantities. The concept “thousand” is just as different from the concept “ten,” as both these temporal quantities are in perception. We think of a thousand as a distinct multiple of ten, into which we can resolve it at pleasure for perception in time,—that is to say, we can count it. But between the abstract concept of a mile and that of a foot, apart from any concrete perception of either, and without the help of number, there is no accurate distinction corresponding to the quantities themselves. In both we only think of a spacial quantity in general, and if they must be completely distinguished we are compelled either to call in the assistance of intuition or perception in space, which would be a departure from abstract knowledge, or we must think the difference in numbers. If then we wish to have abstract knowledge of space-relations we must first translate them into time-relations,—that is, into numbers; therefore only arithmetic, and not geometry, is the universal science of quantity, and geometry must be translated into arithmetic if it is to be communicable, accurately precise and applicable in practice. It is true that a space-relation as such may also be thought in the abstract; for example, “the sine increases as the angle,” but if the quantity of this relation is to be given, it requires number for its expression. This necessity, that if we wish to have abstract knowledge of space-relations (i.e., rational knowledge, not mere intuition or perception), space with its three dimensions must be translated into time which has only one dimension, this necessity it is, which makes mathematics so difficult. This becomes very clear if we compare the perception of curves with their analytical calculation, or the table of logarithms of the trigonometrical functions with the perception of the changing relations of the parts of a triangle, which are expressed by them. What vast mazes of figures, what laborious calculations it would require to express in the abstract what perception here apprehends at a glance completely and with perfect accuracy, namely, how the co-sine diminishes as the sine increases, how the co-sine of one angle is the sine of another, the inverse relation of the increase and decrease of the two angles, and so forth. How time, we might say, must complain, that with its one dimension it should be compelled to express the three dimensions of space! Yet this is necessary if we wish to possess, for application, an expression, in abstract concepts, of space-relations. They could not be translated directly into abstract concepts, but only through the medium of the pure temporal quantity, number, which alone is directly related to abstract knowledge. Yet it is worthy of remark, that as space adapts itself so well to perception, and by means of its three dimensions, even its complicated relations are easily apprehended, while it eludes the grasp of abstract knowledge; time, on the contrary, passes easily into abstract knowledge, but gives very little to perception. Our perceptions of numbers in their proper element, mere time, without the help of space, scarcely extends as far as ten, and beyond that we have only abstract concepts of numbers, no knowledge of them which can be presented in perception. On the other hand, we connect

with every numeral, and with all algebraical symbols, accurately defined abstract concepts.

We may further remark here that some minds only find full satisfaction in what is known through perception. What they seek is the reason and consequent of being in space, sensuously expressed; a demonstration after the manner of Euclid, or an arithmetical solution of spacial problems, does not please them. Other minds, on the contrary, seek merely the abstract concepts which are needful for applying and communicating knowledge. They have patience and memory for abstract principles, formulas, demonstrations in long trains of reasoning, and calculations, in which the symbols represent the most complicated abstractions. The latter seek preciseness, the former sensible perception. The difference is characteristic.
The greatest value of rational or abstract knowledge is that it can be communicated and permanently retained. It is principally on this account that it is so inestimably important for practice. Any one may have a direct perceptive knowledge through the understanding alone, of the causal connection, of the changes and motions of natural bodies, and he may find entire satisfaction in it; but he cannot communicate this knowledge to others until it has been made permanent for thought in concepts. Knowledge of the first kind is even sufficient for practice, if a man puts his knowledge into practice himself, in an action which can be accomplished while the perception is still vivid; but it is not sufficient if the help of others is required, or even if the action is his own but must be carried out at different times, and therefore requires a pre-conceived plan. Thus, for example, a practised billiard-player may have a perfect knowledge of the laws of the impact of elastic bodies upon each other, merely in the understanding, merely for direct perception; and for him it is quite sufficient; but on the other hand it is only the man who has studied the science of mechanics, who has, properly speaking, a rational knowledge of these laws, that is, a knowledge of them in the abstract. Such knowledge of the understanding in perception is sufficient even for the construction of machines, when the inventor of the machine executes the work himself; as we often see in the case of talented workmen, who have no scientific knowledge. But whenever a number of men, and their united action taking place at different times, is required for the completion of a mechanical work, of a machine, or a building, then he who conducts it must have thought out the plan in the abstract, and such co-operative activity is only possible through the assistance of reason. It is, however, remarkable that in the first kind of activity, in which we have supposed that one man alone, in an uninterrupted course of action, accomplishes something, abstract knowledge, the application of reason or reflection, may often be a hindrance to him; for example, in the case of billiard-playing, of fighting, of tuning an instrument, or in the case of singing. Here perceptive knowledge must directly guide action; its passage through reflection makes it uncertain, for it divides the attention and confuses the man. Thus savages and untaught men, who are little accustomed to think, perform certain physical exercises, fight with beasts, shoot with bows and arrows and the like, with a certainty and rapidity which the reflecting European never attains to, just because his deliberation makes him hesitate and delay. For he tries, for example, to hit the right position or the right point of time, by finding out the mean between two false extremes; while the savage hits it directly without thinking of the false courses open to him. In the same way it is of no use to me to know in the abstract the exact angle, in degrees and minutes, at which I must apply a razor, if I do not know it intuitively, that is, if I have not got it in my touch. The knowledge of physiognomy also, is interfered with by the application of reason. This knowledge must be gained directly through the understanding. We say that the expression, the meaning of the features, can only be felt, that is, it cannot be put into abstract concepts. Every man has his direct intuitive method of physiognomy and pathognomy, yet one man understands more clearly than another these signatura rerum. But an abstract science of physiognomy to be taught and learned is not possible; for the distinctions of difference are here so fine that concepts cannot reach them; therefore abstract knowledge is related to them as a mosaic is to a painting by a Van der Werft or a Denner. In mosaics, however fine they may be, the limits of the stones are always there, and therefore no continuous passage from one colour to another is possible, and this is also the case with regard to concepts, with their rigidity and sharp delineation; however finely we may divide them by exact definition, they are still incapable of reaching the finer modifications of the perceptible, and this is just what happens in the example we have taken, knowledge of physiognomy. *I am therefore of opinion that a science of physiognomy cannot, with certainty, go further than to lay down a few quite general rules. For example, the intellectual qualities are to be read in the forehead and the eyes; the moral qualities, the expression of will, in the mouth and lower part of the face. The forehead and the eyes interpret each other; either of them seen alone can only be half understood. Genius is never without a high, broad, finely-arched brow; but such a brow often occurs where there is no genius. A clever-looking person may the more certainly be judged to be so the uglier the face is; and a stupid-looking person may the more certainly be judged to be stupid the more beautiful the face is; for beauty, as the approximation to the type of humanity, carries in and for itself the expression of mental clearness; the opposite is the case with ugliness, and so forth.
This quality of concepts by which they resemble the stones of a mosaic, and on account of which perception always remains their asymptote, is also the reason why nothing good is produced in art by their means. If the singer or the virtuoso attempts to guide his execution by reflection he remains silent. And this is equally true of the composer, the painter, and the poet. The concept always remains unfruitful in art; it can only direct the technical part of it, its sphere is science. We shall consider more fully in the third book, why all true art proceeds from sensuous knowledge, never from the concept. Indeed, with regard to behaviour also, and personal agreeableness in society, the concept has only a negative value in restraining the grosser manifestations of egotism and brutality; so that a polished manner is its commendable production. But all that is attractive, gracious, charming in behaviour, all affectionateness and friendliness, must not proceed from the concepts, for if it does, “we feel intention, and are put out of tune.” All dissimulation is the work of reflection; but it cannot be maintained constantly and without interruption: “No one can wear a mask for long. Dissimulation soon reverts to its own nature." says Seneca in his book de clementia; and so it is generally found out and loses its effect. Reason is needed in the full stress of life, where quick conclusions, bold action, rapid and sure comprehension are required, but it may easily spoil all if it gains the upper hand, and by perplexing hinders the intuitive, direct discovery, and grasp of the right by simple understanding, and thus induces irresolution. Lastly, virtue and holiness do not proceed from reflection, but from the inner depths of the will, and its relation to knowledge. The exposition of this belongs to another part of our work; this, however, I may remark here, that the dogmas relating to ethics may be the same in the reason of whole nations, but the action of every individual different; and the converse also holds good; action, we say, is guided by feelings,—that is, simply not by concepts, but as a matter of fact by the ethical character. Dogmas occupy the idle reason; but action in the end pursues its own course independently of them, generally not according to abstract rules, but according to unspoken maxims, the expression of which is the whole man himself. Therefore, however different the religious dogmas of nations may be, yet in the case of all of them, a good action is accompanied by unspeakable satisfaction, and a bad action by endless remorse. No mockery can shake the former; no priest's absolution can deliver from the latter. Notwithstanding this, we must allow, that for the pursuit of a virtuous life, the application of reason is needful; only it is not its source, but has the subordinate function of preserving resolutions which have been made, of providing maxims to withstand the weakness of the moment, and give consistency to action. It plays the same part ultimately in art also, where it has just as little to do with the essential matter, but assists in carrying it out, for genius is not always at call, and yet the work must be completed in all its parts and rounded off to a whole.

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7 Billion Humans
8Doors Arum's Afterlife Adventure
10 Second Ninja X
60 Seconds!
112 Operator
140
198X
911 Operator
A Case Of Distrust
A Year Of Rain
Absolver
Aeolis Tournament
Age Of Wonders III
Ageless
Airport CEO
AI War 2
Alien Spidy
Aliens Vs Predator Collection
All You Can Eat
Almost There The Platformer
American Fugitive
Amnesia A Machine For Pigs + The Dark Descent (1 key for both games)
Amnesia Fortnight 2012
Amnesia Fortnight 2014
Amnesia Fortnight 2017
Amnesia Rebirth (X2)
Among Us (X2)
Ancestors The Humankind Odyssey (EU & Africa lock)
Aragami (X2)
Archamon
Armello
Army Men RTS
Attack Of The Earthlings
Automobilista
Aven Colony
Avernum 3 Ruined World
Azkend 2 The World Beneath
Back 4 Blood (EU region lock)
Backbone
Band Of Defenders
Banished
Baseball Riot
Batora Lost Haven NEW
Battlestar Galactica Deadlock
Beholder 2
Bendy And The Dark Revival
Bendy And The Ink Machine
Betrayer (delisted)
Between The Stars (X2)
Beyond Eyes
Beyond The Wire
Biomutant NEW
Bionic Commando
Bird Of Light
Black Paradox
Blade Assault
Blasphemous
Bohemian Killing
Book Of Demons
Bomber Crew Deluxe
Borderlands 3 + Director's Cut (EMEA region lock)
Boreal Blade
Broken Age (X2)
Brothers A Tale Of Two Sons (X2)
Butcher
Call Of Juarez
Call Of The Sea (X2)
Call To Arms Basic Edition
Call To Arms Gates Of Hell Ostfront
Car Mechanic Simulator 2018
Chenso Club
Chernobylite Enhanced Edition (X2)
Cities In Motion 2
CivCity Rome
Clone Drone In The Danger Zone
Clouds & Sheep 2
Coffin Dodgers
Cook Serve Delicious 3
Command & Conquer Remastered Collection (Origin key)
Company Of Heroes Complete Edition
Control Ultimate Edition NEW
Corridor Z
Cosmic Osmo And The World Beyond The Mackerel
Crash Drive 3
Creatures Inc
Crookz The Big Heist
Crossbow Bloodnight
Crusader Kings Complete
Crying Suns
Dagon The Eldritch Box
Danger Scavenger
Day Of Infamy
Dead Age
Dead By Daylight
Dead In Vinland
Deadly Premonition Director's Cut
Deadbeat Heroes (X2)
Dear Ester Landmark Edition
Death Squared
Deep Dungeons Of Doom
Deep Sky Derelicts
Demon Turf NEW
Deployment
Desert Child
Diaries Of A Spaceport Janitor
Dicey Dungeons (X2)
Dimension Drifter
Distraint 2 + Soundtrack
Divekick
Dog Sled Saga
Double Fine Adventures Complete Series Deluxe
Downwell
Drawful 2
Draw Slasher
Dreadlands
Dread Templar
Dread X Collection
Dreamscaper NEW
Driftland The Magic Revival
Dry Downing
Duke Nukem Forever Collection
Dungeon Marathon
Dungeon Of The Endless
Dungeons 2
Dungeons 2 Complete
Dungeons 3
Dusk
Dwarfs!?
Eador Imperium
EarthX
Eastside Hockey Manager
ECHO
Edge Of Eternity NEW
Effie
Elderborn
Eldest Souls
Elden Path Of The Forgotten
Embr
Emily Is Away
Empyrion Galactic Survival
Epic Manager
E.T. Armies Deluxe Edition
Etherborn (X2)
Euro Truck Simulator 2
Europa Universalis IV
Evergarden
Expeditions Viking
F1 2018 (delisted)
Family Man
Fantasy Blacksmith
Fantasy Versus
Farmer's Dynasty
Farming Simulator 17
FIA European Truck Racing
Figment (X2)
Finding Paradise
Fire Ungh's Quest
First Class Trouble
Five Dates
Fling To The Finish
Fluffy Horde
Fobia St. Dinfna Hotel
Forgive Me Father
Framed Collection (X2)
Friday the 13th: The Game (X2)
Frog Detective 1 The Haunted Island (X2)
Full Throttle Remastered
Fun With Ragdolls The Game
Fury Unleashed (X2)
Gang Beasts
Garage Bad Trip (X2)
Gas Guzzlers Extreme
Gas Station Simulator
Gauge
Genesis Noir
Ghostrunner
Giana Sisters Twisted Dreams + Rise Of The Owlverlord
GNOG
Go Home Dinosaurs!
Goat Of Duty
Goetia (X2)
Going Under (X2)
Golden Light
Golf Gang
GoNNER
Gotham Knights
Grand Ages Medieval
Grand Pigeon's Duty
Greak Memories Of Azur
Gremlins Inc.
Grip Combat Racing + Cygon + Nyvoss + Terra + Vintek DLC (X2)
Guts And Glory (X2)
Hack'n'Slash
Haiku The Robot (X2)
Hamilton's Great Adventure
Hammerfight
Headlander
Heal
Hedon Bloodrite
Hell Let Loose
Hellblade Senua's Sacrifice NEW
Hello Neighbor
Hellbound
Hero Defense
Hero's Hour NEW (EU region lock)
Hexologic
Hidden & Dangerous Action Pack
Hidden & Dangerous 2 Courage Under Fire
Hive Jump (X2)
Hiveswap Act 2
Hiveswap Friend Sim
Hiveswap Friend Sim Complete
Homeworld Deserts Of Kharak
Hotshot Racing
Hot Tin Roof The Cat That Wore A Fedora
Hot Wheels Unleashed
Hover (X2)
Human Resource Machine
Hurtworld
I Am Bread
I Am Not A Monster First Contact
Ice Lakes
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Ikenfell
Impact Winter (delisted)
In Between
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Inexistence Rebirth NEW
Infinite Air With Mark McMorris (delisted)
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Jurassic World Evolution
Jurassic World Evolution 2 NEW
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Last Tide
Lawn Mowing Simulator
Lead And Gold Gangs Of Wild West (X2)
Legacy Of Dorn Herald Of Oblivion (delisted)
Legend Of Keepers Career Of A Dungeon Master
LEGO Movie Videogame
Leisure Suit Larry Retro Bundle (1 to 7)
Lethal League Blaze
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Lifeless Planet Premium Edition
Light Fall
Little Big Workshop
Love Is Dead
Lust For Darkness
Lust From Beyond M Edition
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Maid Of Sker
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Masquerade The Baubles Of Doom
Max Payne 3 (Rockstar Launcher)
Midnight Protocol
Mind Scanners
Mini Metro
Miscreated (X2)
Monster Crown NEW
Monster Train Collectors Edition
Moon Hunters
Morbid The Seven Acolytes
Mordhau
Mosaic
Motorcycle Mechanic Simulator 2021
Motorsport Manager
Mount And Blade Warband
Mountain
My Lovely Daughter
Nairi Tower Of Shirin
Naruto To Boruto Shinobi Striker
Nascar Heat 5 Ultimate
Nebuchadnezzar
NecroVisioN Lost Company
NecroWorn
Neighbours Back From Hell
Neo Cab
Neon Abyss
NeuroVoider
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Niche
Nickelodeon All Star Brawl (X2)
Ninjin Clash Of Carrots
No Time To Relax
Not Tonight
Numba Deluxe
Obduction
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Octahedron
Odyssey The Story Of Science
Of Orcs And Men
Old School Musical
OlliOlli World Rad Edition
On Rusty Trails
One Finger Death Punch 2
Onikira Demon Killer
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Original War
Orwell Ignorance Is Strength
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Overlord II
Overpass
Override Mech City Brawl
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Paint The Town Red
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Paradise Lost
Pathfinder Wrath Of The Righteous
Pathologic 2
Path Of Giants
Paw Paw Paw
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Peaky Blinders Mastermind (delisted)
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Perfect Heist 2
PGA Tour 2K21 (X2)
Phoenix Point Year One Edition
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Pixplode
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Post Void
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PowerSlave Exhumed
Prehistoric Kingdom
Primal Carnage Extinction (X2)
Project Cars GOTY (delisted)
Project Hospital
Project Warlock
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Purrfect Date
Quest Of Dungeons
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Radio Commander
Rad Rodgers Radical Edition
Railroad Tycoon 2
Railroad Tycoon 3
Railway Empire
Raji An Ancient Epic
Rebel Cops
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Red Faction Armageddon
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Redeemer Enhanced Edition
Redout Enhanced Edition
Re-Legion
Relicta
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Resident Evil 4
Resident Evil 5 Gold Edition
Resident Evil 6
Resident Evil Revelations (X2)
Resident Evil Revelation 2 Deluxe Edition
Retimed
Retrowave
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Ring Of Pain
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Rise Of Insanity
Riven The Sequel To MYST
Roarr! The Adventures Of Rampage Rex
Roboquest
Rogue Heroes Ruins Of Tasos
Rogue Lords NEW
Rogue Stormers
Rover Mechanic Simulator
RPG Maker VX
Rustler
Sable NEW
Salt And Sanctuary
Satellite Reign
Satisfactory
Saturday Morning RPG
Say No! More
SCUM (X2)
ScourgeBringer
Serious Sam 2
Serious Sam BFE (X2)
Serious Sam Classics Revolution
Serious Sam Double D XXL
Serious Sam HD The First & Second Encounter (1 key for both)
Serious Sam HD The Second Encounter Legend Of The Beast
Serious Sam HD The Second Encounter Serious 8
Serious Sam Kamikaze Attack
Serious Sam The Random Encounter
Serious Sam Bogus Detour
Shadow Tactics Aiko's Choice
Shady Part Of Me
She Remembered Caterpillars
She Will Punish Them
Shing!
Shock Troopers
Shogun's Empire Hex Commander NEW
Shuyan Saga
Sid Meier's Civilization VI
Sid Meier's Railroads
Simulacra Collection
Skullgirls 2nd Encore
Skully
Slay The Spire
Slime Rancher
Slinger VR
Smoke And Sacrifice (X2)
Sniper Elite V2 Remastered
Sniper Elite 4 Deluxe + Season Pass
SOMA
Song Of Iron
Soulblight
Spacebase DF-9
Space Hulk Ascension (delisted)
Sparkle 2
Sparkle Unleashed
Spellcaster University
Spelunx And The Caves Of Mr. Seudo
Stacking
Starsand (X2)
Star Wars Jedi Knight Jedi Academy
Star Wars Knights Of The Old Republic
Stasis
State Of Decay 2 Juggernaut Edition (X2)
State Of Mind
Steel Rats
Stick Fight The Game (X3)
Stories Untold
Streets Of Fury EX
Strider
Struggling
Stubbs The Zombie
Styx Shards Of Darkness
Submerged Hidden Depths
Suchart Genius Artist Simulator NEW
Super Indie Carts
Super Magbot
Supraland
SurrounDead (X2)
Surviving The Aftermath
Suzerain
Swag And Sorcery
Sword Legacy Omen
Swords And Soldiers 2 Shawarmageddon
Swords And Souls Neverseen (X2)
Syberia II
Syberia 3 Deluxe Edition
Syberia The World Before NEW
Syndrome
System Shock Enhanced Edition
Table Manners The Physics-Based Dating Game
Tabletop Playground
Tacoma
Take On Helicopters
Tales From Candlekeep Tomb Of Annihilation (delisted)
Tales Of Monkey Island Complete
Talisman Digital Edition + City,Frostmarch,Sacred Pool (trading only as a bundle)
Talisman Origins
Tank Mechanic Simulator
Tannenberg
Telefrag VR
Teleglitch Die More Edition
Tennis In The Face
Tennis World Tour (X2)
Tesla Vs Lovecraft
Tharsis (X2)
The Amazing American Circus
The Ambassador Fractured Timelines
The Adventure Pals
The Battle Of Polytopia
The Battle Of Polytopia Moonrise Deluxe
The Count Lucador
The Dark Pictures Anthology Little Hope
The Dark Pictures Anthology Man Of Medan
The Free Ones (delisted)
The Golf Club 2019 featuring PGA Tour
theHunter Call Of The Wild (X3)
The Journey Down Chapter Three
The King Of Fighters 2002 Unlimited Match
The Last Blade
The Long Dark Survival Edition (X2)
The Manhole Masterpiece Edition
The Mims Beginning
The Night Of The Rabbit
The Serpent Rogue
The Signifier Director's Cut
The Textorcist The Story of Ray Bibbia (X2)
The Uncertain Last Quiet Day (X2)
The USB Stick Found In The Grass
The Walking Dead Season 1 + 400 Days
The Wild Eight (X2)
There Is No Game Wrong Dimension
They Bleed Pixels
Think Of The Children
This War Of Mine
Thronebreaker The Witcher Tales
THOTH
Through The Darkest Of Times
Timeshift
Time Recoil
Titan Quest Anniversary
Toejam & Earl Back In The Groove
TOEM
Tohu
Tools Up
Tooth And Tail (X2)
Torchlight (X2)
Total Tank Simulator
Toto Temple Deluxe
Tower Of Time (X2)
Tower Unite
Townscaper (X2)
Townsmen A Kingdom Rebuilt
Toybox Turbos
Tracks The Train Set Game
Train Station Renovation
Treasure Hunter Simulator (X2)
Tribes Of Midgard
Tropico 4
True Fear Forsaken Souls Part 1
Tyranny Deluxe Edition
Ultra Street Fighter IV
Unexplored
Unloved
Unmetal
Unshaded NEW
Vambrace Cold Soul
Vane
Velocibox
Verdun (X2)
Vikings Wolves Of Midgard
Volcanoids (X2)
V Rally 4
Wanderlust Travel Stories (GOG key)
Wandersong
Warhammer End Times Vermintide
Warlock Master Of The Arcane
Warpips
Warsaw
Wasteland 2 Director's Cut NEW
We Are The Dwarves
We Should Talk
West Of Dead
Western Press
We Were Here Together
When Ski Lifts Go Wrong
Where The Water Tastes Like Wine
While True: Learn() Chief Technology Officer Edition
White Day: A Labyrinth Named School
Wooden Sen'SeY
Worms Rumble + Legends DLC
Wrath Aeon Of Ruin
XCOM Complete Pack
XCOM Ultimate Collection
Xenoraid The First Space War
X Morph Defense + European Assault + Last Bastion + Survival Of The Fittest (1 key for all)
XIII Classic
Xuan-Yuan Sword The Gate Of Firmament
Yet Another Zombie Defense HD
Ylands Exploration Pack
Yoku's Island Express
Yooka-Laylee And The Impossible Lair
Zack 2 Celestine's Map
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Zombie Kill Of The Week Reborn
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