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2013.04.26 08:55 blue_scante Past Lives

This forum is for exploring past lives, reincarnation, and other related topics. All are welcome. Debating is allowed but please be respectful.
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2021.06.08 21:08 theregressionsession Exploring Healing

This Sub is for discussing healing modalities that range from trauma healing, emotional healing, and also healing through metaphysical processes such as reiki, chakra balancing, past life regression, spiritual hypnosis, and any other metaphysical modalities those in need of healing could potentially use. Please be positive to others.
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2023.05.31 00:04 Grand_Historian986 I am lost. I need your help. What do I do with my life and money.

Hello fellow Redditors,
I could really use your advice and insights on my career situation, as well as my desire to escape the cold and find a sense of fulfillment. I'm a 24-year-old with a bachelor's degree in economics and political science, currently struggling to find a job in Montreal. The challenging job market has left me feeling disheartened, and I'm contemplating whether pursuing a master's degree is the right choice to secure a stable income for my future.
However, there's another factor adding to my uncertainty: the cold and dreary weather in Montreal. I find myself longing for a change of scenery and yearning for lots of sunshine on my face. Living in a hot country has become an enticing dream, but I understand that going back to college and doing it in Montreal might be the more financially viable option in the short term (I am Canadian). Nonetheless, staying in Montreal, where the winters can be long and gloomy, is taking a toll on my overall happiness.
At the moment, what I really crave is a change of scenery and lots of sunshine on my face. I dream of living in a hot country, but I'm aware that going back to college might be more financially viable if that's the case. Staying in Montreal seems like the logical choice since it would make college more affordable. However, I've spent the past four years cooped up in my room, and I'm tired of this stagnant routine. I graduated at the start of covid. Since then worked two years remotely and now I am lost.
Considering my situation, I have a couple of questions for you all: What job prospects exist for someone with a degree in economics and political science, and would it be advisable to explore a career switch, perhaps in fields like sales or journalism? I'm open to any suggestions or insights you may have regarding potential career paths that align with my degree.
Furthermore, I'm at a crossroads in my life, not only in terms of my career but also in terms of my desire to escape the cold. I wonder if it's worth considering a change of location and taking the opportunity to travel the world. However, I must acknowledge that I only have $36,000 CAD, which isn't a substantial amount, at least for travel or moving to another country (I might be wrong)I need to know how to spend that money.
My deepest desire is to find a job and a reliable source of income, ideally a remote position that would grant me the freedom to travel and experience the warmth I crave. I haven't lived since covid. Never really left my room. Covid killed me, I am tired, lost. I know I dont want to live in Canada anymore. For me it's my time to move to another country. How ? I can't get a job in Canada, how on earth am I going to get a job somewhere else. What can I even do with a degree in economics and political science.
I sincerely appreciate any advice, personal experiences, or insights you can provide. I'm feeling lost, both in terms of my career and my current environment, and could really use your guidance to find my direction and regain a sense of purpose in life.
I know having 36k saved is a lot for some people at 24. But I need your advice on how to spend it. not for the sake of spending it. How can I use that money to make a good decision about my life.
Deep down I want to travel. An opportunity might happen to me. One way ticket or round trip? Do I come back and take a break in a foreign country. I might miss the routine? Did you ever do something like this.
Sorry if this is long. I am tired. I feel like I am not living but existing + social media is killing me. I will be contact my university career consultant and see what I can do. The cold killed me. Where do I go.
Thank you all for your support and assistance.
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2023.05.31 00:03 wvffhall Are aggressive/scary music and movies healthy?

I started listening to a lot of aggressive/sad music (screamo/punk/metal) as a kid during the period of getting abused and developing my lifelong trauma. I felt like the music was the only "person" who I could confide my thoughts in and would understand me.
I've listened to that type of music ever since, I'm now almost 30. The routine usually goes like this: I'm doing something -> I get triggered or randomly think about the past trauma -> I listen to several aggressive songs to validate my feelings and remind me that at least music is there for me. Trauma triggers the music, but the music also triggers the trauma. That sounds bad but the music feels like the only other person I really have. I enjoy the concerts too. Similar thing for horror movies.
I like to imagine that others who listen to this music have also gone through trauma so I could relate more. I also fantasize that people I know hear me listen to this music so they know what I'm truly like (want to be seen).
Probably has lots to do with how I haven't got proper therapy yet. My mental health and life state also hasn't approved from as a kid getting abused. Music and movies are a lot more accessible than therapy. I avoid happy music and movies because I don't see myself as happy or normal, and they actually make me feel sadder than aggressive music. There's positive aggressive music (like overcoming hardship) but I'm also wondering about my behavior of using music as a coping/avoidant/dissociation mechanism.
My question: I know I should focus on finding the right therapy. But are the aggressive music and movies healthy for me? Would a person with trauma that has recovered as well as expected not feel the need to consume those?
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2023.05.31 00:02 Historical_Orchid171 AITJ for telling on my co-worker to the owner of the company , regardless of how talented he is at his job?

I am a 25 year old male and I help manage a swim school that teaches from infants to adults how to swim and I love it so much. I love seeing that moment when someone accomplishes something they never thought they would be able to do. I have been teaching swim lessons since high school. And have been doing it on the side ever since, throughout college and my young adult life, now it’s my full time occupation and it pays very well. I take pride in my craft. I remember what’s it’s like to meet someone new and being scared to engage. Which makes my job so challenging. I love a challenge. I have been working for this company for the last 2 years and helped it grow from having 3 full time employees to having over 7 in two locations. We have just hired a new team member that we will call “Rufus”.
Rufus came into this job brazen, almost like a bull in a China shop. About what he will and will not tolerate, and what preferences of the types of classes we would be teaching, he actually had an issue with the fact that he would have to teach entirely. He actually said “ I cannot respect a business owner who can’t teach his own swim lessons.” The pure lack of knowledge, I’m pretty sure the CEO of any grocery store does not know where each item goes on the shelf. He even told me that he does not respect my co-manager because of the way she “carries herself” and she is one the most positive influential teachers I have ever worked with. At the time of his arrival I was running the non-competitive swim team for the past year. I had no swim team coaching experience prior, but did my best to make the practices engaging and fun as possible without going to against cooperates clear boundaries about what I can and cannot do. So Rufus wants to “help” coach the swim team. So me wanting the best for the children, I accommodated his request since Rufus did have swim coaching experience. And possibly I could get some ideas from him to help myself improve in areas I maybe lacking. So with him leading the team he is now ignoring all of policy procedures that our business owner and cooperate has explained in detail. We are a survival school not a performance competition team. The swim team is for the students who have graduated the curriculum but want to keep swimming with us until they would like to compete and I would write a recommendation letter on their behalf as I do have a positive reputation in the childcare community. And instead of telling me or asking me could he have the lead for the swim team, he attempted to have a coup with my fellow co-workers by telling them he wants control, and they just referred him back to me.
He’s telling parents that we are going to start competing when that is not something we offer. Rufus is even going as far to tell me that I’m teaching my lessons incorrectly loudly in front of clients. When our goals for each level of swimmer is clear. They’re only 5 goals. So it can’t be that confusing right? Rufus is very talented teacher as well, he can get the kids to connect with him and they respond well to him. But he teaches his classes the way “he” sees fit. We have a 25m pool and we teach on opposite sides of the pool. And I’m looking at 4 first time swimmers on my side of the pool struggling for air with nothing but a kick board. This not what the beginner level entails. Strictly essential survival skills like rolling over to breath and call for help and just to have them acclimated to the environment of lessons.
I’ve attempted to have to have professional conversations with Rufus but it’s like talking to wall. He listens to respond but not to understand. Now this morning was the last straw. Rufus texted me this morning asking about our paycheck and did I receive mine yet. I haven’t. But he asking questions about how to login to see his paystub. He follows up with “The CEO f’d up again”. I told him to stop saying that. He was complaining that money was missing from his paystub. He asked me to “do the math” while simultaneously cussing at me. Even thought this not my department but I can empathize with someone who is concerned about their livelihood. I check it over, and the money that was taken out was for his taxes. I respond with, “ I’m not minimizing or dismissing your paycheck being short, but one, you are not going to talk to me like that. I’ve been nice and professional. But your pressing me about something I have literally nothing to do with using words that people use when they are About to get into a physical altercation. Please stay off of my phone as it is my day off, and this topic can be handled by the man who signs his paychecks. He responded like a victim saying how I’ve been mean to him, for the last two weeks I’ve been cold to him. To be completely honest I have, I’m a firm believer that coworkers don’t have to be friends. Just be courteous and professional. If it’s not about swim lessons then there is nothing left to discuss. He finishes off my saying “ I’m going to let you calm down so yOu can see how big of a jerk your being.” You just can’t make this stuff up
After that inappropriate long text thread that I have now muted and stopped responding I just sent the screenshots of his rant to the owner of the company.
So, Am I The Jerk?
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2023.05.31 00:02 Autumnbby21 Close to just giving up…

Life has been so rocky this past year or so. I lost my really good paying job in June of last year, 20 days after buying a brand new car and getting married. Throughout 06/2022-02/2023 I could not find a job, I applied to over 1,000 jobs and got about 5 call backs, it was never about experience it’s just too many people applying.. throughout those 8 months it was living off of credit cards.. then my husband lost his job in January due to layoffs. So it’s been a mess and we are still struggling. Now since I’ve been employed I’m not making what I’m supposed to be making due to me having summers off and my pay being prorated so my checks have been about $600 a month. FOR THE ENTIRE MONTH… I’m frustrated, confused, lost and I’m crumbling down. It seems like every time we try and get up we get pushed down 10x harder.. rent is past due, car is past due, and I have about $6 in my bank account. Just looking for kind words or advice at this point. Also trying to find a summer job (:
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2023.05.31 00:01 Crazy_Independence18 How/ when do I know if I need to take a break from marijuana (rookie)

Hello trees subreddit! I was wondering when is the appropriate time to take a break from marijuana because I’m still not fully past the beginner stages of it (I get fried from half a blunt).
To give more context I started smoking during summer breaks when I was 19 with friends but when I was 21 I started smoking by myself and now I am 22 at home for the summer from college again and I get free blunts from my Dad whenever I want and I’m not exactly sure if it’s something I should keep up.
I usually do not smoke at all when I’m at college (edibles here and there instead) ,but since I’m home I do smoke once a day in the evenings (keep in mind I’m smoking a blunt by myself) and my tolerance is starting to build up and I don’t really want to keep smoking, but I keep leaning towards “why not get high when I’m home with nothing to do” and I’m not exactly sure how to feel about it.
I do not feel in any way smoking is getting in the way of my life and I could def go without it, but I’m afraid that it’s turning into a habit while I’m home as well and since I get it for free there’s no harm to me financially either so I have no idea if it’s harmful to me other then just smoking.
I would love to hear y’all’s feedback and experience so I can decide my own conclusion of how I should treat smoking marijuana!
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2023.05.31 00:01 Friendly-Opening-990 ROCD and HOCD woes

I’ve been debating on whether or not to post. Trying to fight the urge to look for reassurance but I’m desperate.
I’ve struggled with OCD since I was about 5…I’ve had just about every theme you can think of. It continues to ruin my life even now over 20 years later. I met my now bf in 2019 and I loved everything about him. He didn’t want to commit to me but I was all in. Long story short I broke things off when he didn’t want to become monogamous and then we rekindled 1 year later. I used to be very attracted to him emotionally and physically but now I feel the opposite. I’m often repulsed by him. My ROCD started literally right after we became official what was bliss turned into constant anxiety and checking and then my sexual orientation reared it’s head again.
I’ve had it before, it was after my rapist was getting out of jail and my then boyfriend had triggered deep sexual trauma. I’ve always found women attractive sexually, but not so much emotionally - at least not the way I feel with men. Although I’ve come out as bi - there was a time I denied my queerness I think it was mostly because I was unsure. Women were fun in fantasy for me, but I wasn’t sure I could truly commit to being sexual with a woman…but maybe it was internalized shame. Now I’m convinced I’m a lesbian and shouldn’t be with a man and I’m only leading my absolutely angelic incredible partner on and all I will end up doing is ruining his life and my own. I can’t seem to rationalize that my earliest crushes were men and the multiple men I’ve been attracted to and loved in my lifetime seem to mean nothing. As do my previously very strong, real and incredibly palpable feelings I had for my partner before this whole thing started. Even what I know to be true feels like a lie, it’s all made up, I was always in denial.
I don’t know what to do. 😞 I want to work it out with him things used to be so beautiful and good. This is everything I’ve ever wanted and now that I have it, I can’t enjoy it. I feel like I’m blowing my entire life up. I can’t seem to move past it. I want to break up so that I can relieve myself of this anxiety and guilt and allow him to find someone else who can love him like I can’t seem to. But I know I’ll regret it. I’m not the partner he deserves, I’m irritable, anxious, quick to withdraw, and sexually inactive. He has the patience of a saint but I still wonder how long he can love me like this.
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2023.05.31 00:00 acid-bathtub AITA in this situation?

This is my first time ever posting on reddit so please forgive me if i do this wrong but i watch all those tik toks on Reddit and i just want some advice from people who aren’t close to me and have no side they lean to, so I F18 have been seeing a guy since i was 15 years old and at first we started off as best friends we told each other everything and my strict family even let him stay at our house i was never attracted to him but his endless pursuits finally won me over fast forward a year we start dating a few red flags came up but as a teen hopelessly in love i ignored them one of these being an ex of his who he refused to cut off and if he said he would he’d lie about it, i stay with him through all of that for him to go to Jail last year during my most important moments like graduation and prom, and i stayed with him after finding out he was addicted to pills and while he was in Jail he got mad at me for going to my prom with my friend who is another female. While he was in Jail for distributing pharmaceuticals to the public i told him he needed to really turn his life around when he got out and when he did get out on house arrest he was doing good for a few months and then i fell pregnant i decided i didn’t want a baby with this man and i decided to get an abortion. He tells me he kept finishing inside of me bc he thought i couldn’t get pregnant so he put me through that for no reason and at this time i was curious so i look up his ex who he just can’t leave alone to see she was having a baby i was like good maybe he’ll stop trying to contact her and she will stop contacting him since she’s with the babies kid well let’s hold that thought for a min in April i get a text from a spam account on instagram saying this girl has my bfs nudes and wants money typical spammer i ask him why because he doesn’t have a phone turns out he hid having an IPAD from me which i wouldn’t have cared about if he wasn’t using it to cheat, he BLAMES IT ON ME saying i stress him out with everything that’s going on like he doesn’t think i’m stressed at all?? Anyway getting to the good part this month out of the blue he picks a fight with me which he hasn’t done in a while because he usually does that when he’s cheating as i’ve come to find out then he’s like maybe we should talk to someone and i’m like ok i’m open to therapy seeing as you clearly need a damn therapist and he’s like no like i wanna talk to someone and i’m like ok who? and this motherfucker says oh you don’t like her she has a kid and gets mad at me when it doesn’t immediately click he was talking about his ex and he wouldn’t take no for an answer so he made a facebook just to talk to this girl and put in his bio that we are engaged *so i’ll feel more comfortable * and everytime i asked if she texted him back he said no the only reason i let him do it was because i thought it would give him closure to see she’s very clearly moved on with a whole family (also this bitch has lived out of state this whole story and he’s seen her in person all of twice MAYBE anyway he keeps telling me no an makes other friends on facebook i ask him to delete it because of his history of cheating and he yells and tells me i don’t allow him to have any friends which he has multiple of on his game and discord and idc i’m just scared of him having social media given his past anyway he ofc guilted me into letting him keep it and i constantly see him on there and have been catching him in multiple lies and i never thought it would be possible because of how much i really loved him but i’m starting to fall out of love and i feel like it’s right but i wanna get him back so bad for wasting years of my life keeping me under his wing to use me whenever it please him so i’ve been talking to other guys and a part of me feels bad for it but if he had no problem doing it to me why shouldn’t i do it back i do plan on leaving him but i feel like i need to kickstart his karma what should i do
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2023.05.31 00:00 ColdColdHistory I’ve lost everyone in my life over the past few years and am starting over. Need a friend. 22M

Hey everyone, I’ve had a rough past 3-4 years. I don’t have any friends left, due to many things, and after going to therapy and doctors for the past few month, I’m ready to start over. If any of you would like to talk/become friends, I’d be happy to. Im 22M from Georgia (USA) hope to hear from some of you.
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2023.05.31 00:00 ClarionSwords coming out at 51! kinda freaked out, mostly ecstatic!

Hi everyone! Just to share here, I am about to come out online to everyone I know! I've already done so with my closest family members including my kids (of course!!) and closest friends. So far, it's been lovely, although, sadly a bit of interpersonal loss has occurred. But, I am feeling very secure in the knowledge that if someone can't accept me for being healthy and honest and real, then they care about their own prejudices and narrow worldview, more than they care for me. So, it hurts, but, good riddance!
The next step --- posting it on my blog. I'm curious to see what'll happen. I'm from a highly conservative background, so this'll be likely quite a shock to many of the people who have known me all my life. And probably quite a challenge for them to accept.
What's going to happen? Will humanity delight me with its openness and love? Or will people regress to their biases and fears? I guess we'll see.
Interestingly enough, I have a kind of quantitative marker --- my subscribers. We're currently sitting at 1173. Let's see where we're at in a week..... I'm guessing lower, quite possibly a lot lower. But, we'll see!
In any case, I'm happier, and healthier, and more confident, and more grounded than I've ever been in my life. So, taking a note from Taylor, if haters gonna hate hate hate hate hate, then I'm gonna shake it off! 💖
P.S. Wish me luck! Cuz newfound self-acceptance notwithstanding, it's still pretty TERRIFYING!!!! :)
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2023.05.30 23:59 NuclearPotato125 My friend has no friends and I don't know how to approach this situation/friendship.

I'm a dude and she has been telling me a lot about her personal life and a lot about trauma. She is very talented but is also depressing at times. Many people have wronged her in the past and I dont know how to handle someone who has been through this much trauma. The only thing I could do is be positive but I dont know if it is enough, We visited each other before and she lives in the middle of nowhere, has no friends, and is sad. Should I try to be positive at the cost of my mental health (she is morbid sometimes) or should I slowly step away? It would also make me sad if she was completely alone but she seems like she could manage it though at a price... Im not sure what I should do as I've never had a friend this relatable yet depressing. She makes me happy about half the time and sad for the other half. What do you think?
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2023.05.30 23:58 Historical_Orchid171 Am I the jerk for telling on my co-worker when they are constantly out of line? Regardless of how talented they are

I am a 25 year old male and I help manage a swim school that teaches from infants to adults how to swim and I love it so much. I love seeing that moment when someone accomplishes something they never thought they would be able to do. I have been teaching swim lessons since high school. And have been doing it on the side ever since, throughout college and my young adult life, now it’s my full time occupation and it pays very well. I take pride in my craft. I remember what’s it’s like to meet someone new and being scared to engage. Which makes my job so challenging. I love a challenge. I have been working for this company for the last 2 years and helped it grow from having 3 full time employees to having over 7 in two locations. We have just hired a new team member that we will call “Rufus”.
Rufus came into this job brazen, almost like a bull in a China shop. About what he will and will not tolerate, and what preferences of the types of classes we would be teaching, he actually had an issue with the fact that he would have to teach entirely. He actually said “ I cannot respect a business owner who can’t teach his own swim lessons.” The pure lack of knowledge, I’m pretty sure the CEO of any grocery store does not know where each item goes on the shelf. He even told me that he does not respect my co-manager because of the way she “carries herself” and she is one the most positive influential teachers I have ever worked with. At the time of his arrival I was running the non-competitive swim team for the past year. I had no swim team coaching experience prior, but did my best to make the practices engaging and fun as possible without going to against cooperates clear boundaries about what I can and cannot do. So Rufus wants to “help” coach the swim team. So me wanting the best for the children, I accommodated his request since Rufus did have swim coaching experience. And possibly I could get some ideas from him to help myself improve in areas I maybe lacking. So with him leading the team he is now ignoring all of policy procedures that our business owner and cooperate has explained in detail. We are a survival school not a performance competition team. The swim team is for the students who have graduated the curriculum but want to keep swimming with us until they would like to compete and I would write a recommendation letter on their behalf as I do have a positive reputation in the childcare community. And instead of telling me or asking me could he have the lead for the swim team, he attempted to have a coup with my fellow co-workers by telling them he wants control, and they just referred him back to me.
He’s telling parents that we are going to start competing when that is not something we offer. Rufus is even going as far to tell me that I’m teaching my lessons incorrectly loudly in front of clients. When our goals for each level of swimmer is clear. They’re only 5 goals. So it can’t be that confusing right? Rufus is very talented teacher as well, he can get the kids to connect with him and they respond well to him. But he teaches his classes the way “he” sees fit. We have a 25m pool and we teach on opposite sides of the pool. And I’m looking at 4 first time swimmers on my side of the pool struggling for air with nothing but a kick board. This not what the beginner level entails. Strictly essential survival skills like rolling over to breath and call for help and just to have them acclimated to the environment of lessons.
I’ve attempted to have to have professional conversations with Rufus but it’s like talking to wall. He listens to respond but not to understand. Now this morning was the last straw. Rufus texted me this morning asking about our paycheck and did I receive mine yet. I haven’t. But he asking questions about how to login to see his paystub. He follows up with “The CEO f’d up again”. I told him to stop saying that. He was complaining that money was missing from his paystub. He asked me to “do the math” while simultaneously cussing at me. Even thought this not my department but I can empathize with someone who is concerned about their livelihood. I check it over, and the money that was taken out was for his taxes. I respond with, “ I’m not minimizing or dismissing your paycheck being short, but one, you are not going to talk to me like that. I’ve been nice and professional. But your pressing me about something I have literally nothing to do with using words that people use when they are About to get into a physical altercation. Please stay off of my phone as it is my day off, and this topic can be handled by the man who signs his paychecks. He responded like a victim saying how I’ve been mean to him, for the last two weeks I’ve been cold to him. To be completely honest I have, I’m a firm believer that coworkers don’t have to be friends. Just be courteous and professional. If it’s not about swim lessons then there is nothing left to discuss. He finishes off my saying “ I’m going to let you calm down so yOu can see how big of a jerk your being.” You just can’t make this stuff up
After that inappropriate long text thread that I have now muted and stopped responding I just sent the screenshots of his rant to the owner of the company.
So, Am I The Jerk?
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2023.05.30 23:58 sweggin_official Recovery as an ex Christian

I'm a recovering alcoholic/addict, and I just recently realized (within the past week) I'm not a Christian anymore. I have simply suffered too much and seen too much pain and hurt to believe in the Bible anymore. I'm also pansexual and gender non-conforming, and very tired of hearing other Christians saying myself and my LGBTQ siblings will burn in hell for simply existing.
I've been attending Christian recovery groups for about a year, but not church, haven't been to church outside of the occasional holiday in years. I also recently started attending AA, and while I know that's still pretty Christian leaning, it's way better to introduce myself as simply an alcoholic than a "greatful believer in Christ."
The tricky part is this - my spouse also attends these groups and it seems like it's helped him a lot. I don't know how to go about telling him that 1. I'm not a Christian anymore, 2. I don't want to attend these groups anymore, and 3. I want to essentially cut these people out of my life for good. Also, I feel like I've built a support group at these meetings and I don't know how to just drop out of them without a huge amount of backlash from people, including my sponsor, who will most certainly be upset that I no longer follow their beliefs.
I have read the FAQs for this group and I still feel like this is just a weird situation - if anyone has any advice or similar experiences I would love to hear it.
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2023.05.30 23:57 sickandtired5590 Can I do anything at all about all this tax?

So I have been doing the whole self assessment for a few years now due to the 100k£ plus rule...
Usually I just take the numbers from my P60, p11d and copy paste. I work in tech, full time. No side hustle no side earnings nothing.
For a long time money wasn't much of am issue so never really cared, I did my filining and trusted that it is all fair.
But last year and this year I started looking closer at what I actually take home due to all the increase in price, we also had to do the mortgage as our ended in January... Year great time to negotiate new mortgage...
I realized that I actually no longer have tax free allowance, so more earning is on low and high grade tax. Then NI on top plus further hits due to benefits in kind and I am on something like perpetually owing 3 to 4k due to zero tax free and benefits putting me under zero. At least this is how I understand it.
I earn roughly between 150k and 200k depending on bonus and company performance but if I start calculating how much I actually take home it's just sad compared to what I earn...
Now my kids aren't eligible for childcare either due to my earning and a bunch of other stuff is out of reach as well due to the same.
So here is my question :is there any way to reduce that tax burden so I have more available cash in hand to actually spend? Or basically such is life just pay my pound of flesh to the hmrc and be happy they don't take even more?
Would it be better if I see if I can change my contract from full time employee to a subcontracto external consultant type where I can at least start claiming stuff like broadband, mobile phone, tech, car lease and fuel etc. As expenses for me doing my work? Or that is too much trouble with not much actual benefit?
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2023.05.30 23:57 BlueberrySharp3 watching my sister get ready makes me feel so sad for myself

We’re going on a short trip tomorrow. I’m not exited for it at all because all I can think about is my skin and how it’s going to be.
I share a room with my sister and she’s getting ready, packing nice clothes, her makeup, curling her hair. And I’m laying in bed in front of a fan trying my hardest not to scratch my red, irritated face to shreds. My face is so greasy due to the oil I put on but I know I will wake up in the middle of the night and have a scratch attack, I do every single night.
I had a flare up on my face for the past 5 months which I recently found out was actually an infection. I’ve had the antibiotics and it’s a lot better thankfully but still feels irritated and red. I just feel so deflated. I’ve packed baggy, comfy lounge wear and my Aquaphor, Cerave and dermol 500. And my skin isn’t even THAT bad atm.
I’m just so sick of this. I’ve struggled with severe eczema since I was 3 years old. Now I’m 21. I just want to enjoy life and look forward to the future but I can’t.
My skin had been SO SO much worse than what it is now so I feel bad for feeling like this
I was going to make a post about realizing my face flare was actually an infection and use the “small victory” flair. But I don’t feel very victorious right now.
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2023.05.30 23:57 JoshAsdvgi The Critical Role of the Shaman

The Critical Role of the Shaman

The Critical Role of the Shaman

Shamanism or out-of- body spiritual travel, is a fixture of indigenous life and this was certainly the case with many Native American peoples.
Often portrayed simply as medicine men and healers by those with limited understanding of native traditions, shamans (or their North American equivalent, since “shamanism” technically refers to indigenous religious practices in Siberia were actually prophets and teachers more than anything else, tasked with bringing back wisdom from beyond the borderlands that separated dimensions.
Animals almost always feature prominently in Native American storytelling – but rather than existing only as creatures that lived in an every-day ecological world, animals were seen as embodiments of spiritual archetypes who existed in concrete form in the netherworlds explored by traveling shamans.
Wisdom animals who lived in these regions could talk and think just like humans and they had much wisdom to share with the shaman who traveled to see them as a representative of his people.
Because not everyone could be a spiritual traveler, however, the best way to pass on this wisdom to the people was in story form.
Not surprisingly animals who could talk and reason and operate in both this world and the next in highly intentional and intelligent ways were usually major player in these stories.
Native American spiritual travelers relied on drugs such as peyote or hallucinogenic mushrooms, sensory deprivation, rhythmic drumming, frenetic dancing or fasting to achieve altered states of consciousness, and while in these states they could experience visions of past and future.
Most origin myths of native peoples may have had their genesis from these transcendent experiences.
In addition, prophetic visions of significant future events where common in these altered states and these visions could galvanize and inspire fellow Indians.
One famous example of this phenomenon was the vision of imminent heaven on earth that entranced Paiute spiritual teacher Jack Wilson in the 1880s.
Jack Wilson’s stories of the coming changes swept across Native American lands, and a series of ceremonies designed to bring a cleansing of evil from the world soon spread among many Indian nations.
Especially enraptured by these stories and ceremonies were the Sioux of the Plains region, and their performance of these rhythmic rituals, which came to be called the Ghost Dance, created fear and suspicion among whites in the west.
The US Army massacred almost 300 Sioux, mostly women and children, at Wounded Knee in the Dakotas in 1890 in a confrontation fueled by this hostility to the rising Ghost Dance mythology.
Apocalyptic stories and prophecies in general became more common after native contact with Europeans, as Indian mythology evolved to include Christian ideas and imagery.
What is important to realize is that Indian peoples had a different understanding of dimensional travel than western anthropologists and self-styled “Indian experts.”
For Native Americans, alternate dimensions where animals had human-like qualities and the wise spirits of dead ancestors resided after leaving the earthly realm were real places.
In fact they were more real than this world, which was just a shadow of these transcendent realms – a view strikingly similar to that of the founder of western philosophy, Plato.
The western, scientific approach, however, was to dismiss the shamans as essentially con men, and to see Native American storytelling as always and only metaphorical and allegorical.
But Native peoples did not recognize strict boundaries between the real and the allegorical. For them, the universe was a complex and mysterious place and the stories they told used the spiritual world as a foundation and a background for putting their spiritual and metaphysical knowledge into a more personalized, orally transmittable form.
While the Bible is filled with stories that can be examined and understood as literature, it is also taken as a source of true and real wisdom and revealed knowledge by Christians - and so it is as well for Native Americans and the shamanic dimensions.
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2023.05.30 23:56 Lillianrik Heritage vs. Dept of Homeland Security: Case summary to date and what's happening next

There have been two other posts today that mention the upcoming hearing in this case. However the June 6th hearing probably doesn't mean a great deal because it's a hearing on a Motion for a Preliminary Injunction -- not a hearing on the underlying action itself.
I thought interested subredditors might benefit from a summary of what's happened in this case to date. Abbreviations used: “DHS” = Unites States Department of Homeland Security (DHS), “Heritage” = Heritage Foundation, Mike Howell,
UNITED STATES DISTRICT COURT FOR THE DISTRICT OF COLUMBIA
Case no. 1:23-cv-01198
May 1, 2023: Heritage filed a Complaint against the DHS – see summary of Amended Complaint below.
May 2, 2023: Standing order issued by Judge. Lays out housekeeping matters such as rules of Court; communication with Judge, requirements for an Initial Joint Status Report; rules and procedures used by Court for Motions.
May 5, 2023: Heritage filed an Amended Complaint against DHS
Heritage files this complaint to compel the DHS to produce information related to its decision to admit Prince Harry into the USA and to allow him to remain to date. The requested information is of “immense” public interest. (Harry’s admitted drug use.) Media coverage of his drug use raises the question of whether the DHS’s decision to admit Harry into the US should be reconsidered.
(Lengthy discussion of examples of past immigration decisions and Harry’s drug use.)
Public figures have privacy interests. However the Duke of Susses has made the “affirmative choice” to put almost every aspect of his life on display and these revelations have been made “explicitly” for “massive commercial gain.”
(Blah, blah -- History of FOIA request to date. Heritage has exhausted administrative remedies.)
Heritage alleges that: (1) DHS failed to conduct adequate searches for responsive records; (2) DHS has wrongfully withheld non-exempt responsive records; (3) DHS wrongfully denied a fee waiver; (4) There’s a statutory boar against charging fees; (5) DHS wrongfully denied expedited processing.
Therefore Heritage askes the Court to (A) enter a preliminary and permanent injunction compelling the DHS to process the FOIA request on an expedited basis; (B) order the DHS to conduct searches to uncover responsive records; (C) Order the DHS to produce non-exempt records and indexes justifying why they are withholding responsive records claimed to be exempt; (D) stop the DHS from continuing to withhold non-exempt records; (E,F,G,H) stop the DHS from assessing fees for the FOIA request, blah blah.
May 10, 2023: Heritage files Motion for Preliminary Injunction
Motion asks the Court to issue a preliminary injunction to stop the DHS from unlawfully impeding Heritage’s access to records under the FOIA and order the DHS and Customs and Border Protection to process Heritage’s March 8, 2023 FOIA request.
May 11, 2023: Court issues Minute Order requiring the parties to meet and confer and file a Joint Status Report on or before May 15th.
May 15, 2023: Heritage files the required Joint Status Report – Parties propose due dates for Motion reponses and request hearing on Motion.
May 17, 2023: Court issues Minute Order requiring: (1) DHS to file Response to Motion for Preliminary Injunction on or before May 26th; (2) Plaintiff’s Reply to that Response to be filed on/before June 2nd; (3) Parties to appear for hearing on Motion on June 6th.
May 26, 2023: DHS files Memorandum Opposing DHS motion for Preliminary Injunction
DHS argues that Preliminary Injunctions generally aren’t appropriate in FOIA cases. But in any event, Heritage has failed to show they are entitled to a preliminary injunction. Heritage has failed demonstrate why they will suffer irreparable harm; they haven’t shown they’re likely to succeed on the merits; Public interest and balance of equities weigh against a preliminary injunction.
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2023.05.30 23:53 Redfox2014 Things to do (May 30th - June 6th)

The SD Reader's "Picks of the week"
Also: "The SD Readers list of "Fun Things to Do"
As well as, the "Best of List"
If you're visiting on certain dates You can plug in your dates at the San Diego Reader and see what pops for events that might be of interest to your family.
Another "cheap or free" page from the local news station
For those that are thinking of going down to Tijuana Mexico
A list of 69 things to do in Tijuana
Thank You, u/Matingas for this link <_ Brother Moderator of Tijuana :)
Of course, there's the regular weekly stuff:
Saturday's u/ thedaymayne organizes a semi-regularly about a flag football game Saturday at 11a at Jefferson Elementary (turf field). There's a solid core of 6-8 people and were always looking for new people to join. No ones D-1 athletes and we don't allow blocking to keep it clean and injury free. PM for more info.
u/lightwolv Suggests:
https://www.meetup.com/Casual-Socce Heads up for soccer players. We run a free meet-up every Tuesday and Thursday from 5 - 7. It's outdoor with big goals, cones and co-ed. If you wanna get outside and active, sign up. All skil All skill levels welcome, for those who played in college and stuff, it's competitive and it's a good work out.
Every Sunday at 2pm-3pm, free organ concert at Spreckles Organ Pavilion in Balboa Park.
Every Sunday Farmers Market at the Hillcrest DMV
Free yoga classes All around San Diego (Coastal) :
A good list of classes all over the city, Solana Beach
Sunset Cliffs, USS Midway Museum
Yoga on the Bay Every Saturday 10:30 am
There's a Sunday live video streaming of the classes in PB 10-11:30 am
u/YmcaAdultSports suggests: If you are interested in joining an Adult Sports League, come check out what the Dan McKinney Family YMCA has to offer (La Jolla)
IF there's something that you think is important or needs to have tickets purchased in advance... please post in the comments. IF there's a link that's needed, please try to not make it part of some text but the full URL string So I can just copy and paste it. (It'll make things easier) I'll try to retain these in the following week until the date of the event.
Please don't post events that are several months in advance. Try to limit it to 30 days or so - unless there's a real need for advance notice well in advance for ticket purchases.
Stuff from Last Weeks post: N/A
Monthly Yoga class at the South Embarcadero Rady Shell
The MsMargo activity section (welcome back!)
Free Guitar-Based Classic Rock Jam
Mondays, 6:50 pm-9:00 pm Our Savior's Lutheran Church 4011 Ohio Street San Diego, 92104 Age Limit: 18+ All levels welcome. Bring your own guitar, mandolin, flute, etc. or just sing along. Song chords and words are displayed via projector to a large screen. No practice required.
Gilbert Castellanos Presents: Young Lions And The Wednesday Jam Session - FREE!
Wednesdays
Panama 66 restaurant, Balboa Park
"Every Wednesday Panama 66 at The San Diego Museum of Art comes to life with the sounds of jazz. San Diego jazz hero Gilbert Castellanos showcases young music prodigies with The Young Lions Series (7:00–7:50 p.m.) followed by the Wednesday Jazz Jam (8:00–10:30 p.m.) that transforms the James S. Copley Auditorium into a swinging speak-easy. Order a craft cocktail or draft beer, take in the view of the Museum’s Sculpture Court and Garden, and enjoy an evening of music from San Diego’s finest jazz musicians.
Visit the Panama 66 Instagram page for updates on performances, closures, and schedule changes.
FREE event. Drinks and food available for purchase."
https://www.panama66.com/livemusic
FREE Jazz at the The Conrad Prebys Performing Arts Center
Friday, June 2 · 4:30-5:30 PM - Gates open at 4 PM
Wu Tsai QRT.yrd, The Conrad Prebys Performing Arts Center, La Jolla
Besos Jazz Trio
"The Wu Tsai QRT.yrd Concert Series continues with Besos Jazz Trio as part of the First Friday La Jolla Art Walk.
Enjoy live swinging jazz and music from around the world with Besos Jazz Trio, featuring tap artist and percussionist Claudia Gomez, guitarist Beston Barnett, and bassist Evona Wascinski."
https://theconrad.org/events/besos-jazz-trio/
If there's something you think others will want to be know about happening the same week as the dates for this post OE in the near future (1-2 weeks out) please feel free to include it in the comments, Any future/reoccurring events will be added to the list in the next weekly TTD post.
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2023.05.30 23:52 cottondaisies My mum refuses to believe my dad molested me.

tldr: when I was little, my mum accused me of lying when I told her that my dad molested me. I want to move past this. Should I confront her again now that I'm older?
I am currently 18. On one occasion, when I was around 5/6(?) my dad molested me while he thought I was sleeping. He has been out of my life since I was 12 due to his abuse of my mum and siblings. He was a horrible man and my whole family can agree.
At the time this happened. I tried to tell my mum, she was very angry with me and accused me of lying. I was a very young child and couldn't possibly have made this up.
When I was 11/12 I brought this up again with my mum while we were fighting (I was very hormonal and being a prick). She was telling me how she has fought every day to protect me and I brought up the fact my lovely father molested me and, instead of helping me, she accused me of lying. After I'd said this, she got very upset and again accused me of lying.
I understand that my mum was in an abusive relationship but I still resent the fact that she brushed off my accusation on two separate occasions.
The only other person I've spoken to this about is my doctor, she has put me on a year long waiting list for therapy. Ever since I told my doctor, my feeling of betrayal and anger towards my mum have been all I can think about.
Today my mum ranted about how, even when she was being abused by my father, she still did everything she could to protect my siblings. I don't want to accuse her of never protecting us, because she did take the brunt of his emotional/physical abuse. Despite this, she did also deny what happened to me on two occasions. As much as I wanted to say something today, I decided not to and stayed quiet.
I have briefly spoken to my siblings (who are all older than me) and they have all said that my dad never did this to any of them, it was only me.
I don't want to be angry at my mum. Should I even bother trying to talk to her? How could I go about this in a sensitive way?
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2023.05.30 23:51 EchoJobs Neuralink is hiring Software Engineer Internship Austin, TX US [Django HTML CSS Ruby Python JavaScript C++ Rust]

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2023.05.30 23:51 mhm0109 Falling in love while grieving

Just came on here to see if there’s anyone else that has gone through a situation similar to mine. So, backstory is I was with this boyfriend for 2 1/2 years. He was my first boyfriend first love and first everything. He was also the first person to hurt me. We broke up a month before he died. We were still talking and hanging out after our breakup because I couldn’t let him go and he wanted to get back together. I knew I didn’t want to get back together with him but something in me wouldn’t let me cut him off completely. I found the reason why when he passed a month later. It was so unexpected. I don’t think I stopped crying ever. I would drive to work and cry the whole way there and back. Everything was so pointless to me. Then, I met my current boyfriend while still grieving. He was my light in the darkness. He drug me back into the real world and helped me start living again. I still honor and remember my late ex bf but I’ve decided that I need to live my life for him since he didn’t get to. I feel so guilty for moving on. I feel like his entire family, friends and coworkers think that I don’t still grieve even though I’m in a new relationship. This past week has been super hard. I just don’t feel like I deserve to be happy while he’s gone. Everytime I have a good week I feel sick and nauseous because I think about how he doesn’t even have that opportunity. I wanted to see him find a better girl than me and live the life he has always dreamed of and now it feels wrong that he didn’t get to do that. The guilt has just been weighing me down lately and I just wonder if anyone else has been through something similar.
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2023.05.30 23:51 unworthy-1 Death...

I'm grieving for the loss of my own life. Because of circumstances that are highly complex, I can't go on living. My past posts should make it more than clear why I think this way and it's become so much worse then I ever expected. I'm not eating or drinking anything and will surely die within the next 3 weeks or so....maybe less.. I've decided that's how I'm going to die. I'm not going to shoot myself or knife myself..or..jump off a building.
Life is empty, meaningless and void of any real substance. I'm done chasing money, paying bills, being concerned about my credit, basic hygiene, being social or keeping up with humanity in any sense. I'm 54 and just...done with it all. It doesn't even matter if I went to the trouble to explain everything, because in the end...nobody truly cares. If you say you do...you're lying. You say you care and, "I'm here for you", because it makes you feel better about yourself and gives you a small surge of dopamine. Nobody truly cares about you (especially people that don't really know you on the internet). It's all superficial.
I'm just done. I'm utterly exhausted and my mind can't engage anymore with society/humanity. It's a ludicrous ideal. We are all brainwashed to believe life matters, but it doesn't.
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