Dear Dad!
I wish you were here now. You are the closest person to me, you always understand, accept and support me with all of your heart. I always feel safe with you, i would tell you anything because i know you truly care about me. When i was a kid you used to hold me and calm me when i was scared or i had a bad dream. You used to sing me to sleep or tell me bedtime story or just sit on my bed next to me till i could sleep again. I loved when u watched and supported me at my basketball matches, i played much more confident when i know you watched me. You made me sandwich every morning at my schooldays and when i had a hard test and i was nervous you bought me my favorite chocolate and wished me good luck. In the beach you threw me into the water and we ate a lot of junkfood. In the winter we played in the snow till all of our clothes got wet, after that when we got inside you made me hot tea and watched our favorite show. In the spring we collected the fruits in the garden and you tought me how to cook jam of them. We played in the garden all day and we were wizards, indians, jedi knights, pirates, bandits and everithing we wanted. You taught me how to whistle or how to spit far but also that the family is the most important thing and we always support and love each other. And if we argue we wont go to bed till we speak about it. You taught me im valuable and worth to love, that i can do anything if i want. You taught me that everybody makes mistakes becasue we are people and also the mistakes can be corrected. You are my bigger supporter and my best friend i know if im sad about something you will always make time for me to speak because you truly cares. I cant be thankful enough for your love and i wouldnt be the same without you. I can just hope if i will have a family that i will be as good father as you.
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My biggest pain is that you are not real. But everything i wrote is true, and i lived every single moment in my head. I wish you were here. I love you!

Same as title. I'm turning 26 next month and thinking of the 25 years of life kept me awake throughout the night.
I've an alcoholic and abusive father who made my life hell. My mother too meek to stand up to him and started to deflect all the hate on me from my teenage years. I was never child that received love. My grandparents hated me for being born a girl and my relatives showed zero empathy. I was good at studies but they constantly put me down becoz they couldn't see a alcoholic's daughter studying better than their model child.
Had a toxic love at college, successfully moved on landed a job. Found a nice guy there to only to breakup 3 years later coz apparently his family don't want to be associated with my father.
So no matter I do or what I achieve people just judge me for something that's not even my fault. I really spiralled the last two years after this. We broke up in early 2022, my ex got married in April.
I'm here jobless and broke trying for an MS with last of my savings. Being this emotionally unstable doesn't help with studies, the only thing I was good at. I feel like the only way out I'd suicide, I just want the pain to end. I have strained relationships with every man in my life even friends. Even the ones I like only wants me for sex. Nobody NO ONE likes me, sees me as a person..... I feel disgusting to even live like this. I wouldn't even finch if my close my eyes now and never open again.
Yes I went for therapy, it really helped me. But it got so expensive that I couldn't afford it. Now I don't have the energy to explain everything again to a new therapist.

In our tiny mountain town, every guy with sandy hair and green eyes is you. I see you everywhere, but you are never actually there. All the mistakes I made that has us as strangers now..I will never forgive myself for being so lost. We promised we would never be strangers, no one would know our hearts like we knew one another's, no matter what our relationship became. I know this is what's healthy for your heart and mind and I want to respect that, but I hate it. It hurts and I don't want It. I could never actually ask any of this from you, it isnt fair but ...I want to call you up and make silly voices until you laugh and shake your head. I want to tell you I'm so proud of you, so freaking proud. Send you dumb videos that only we would laugh at. Hear about your goals and dreams and let you know I'm in your corner, always, always Wilson. Cheer eachother on as we grow as people and find ourselves...unattached, , 19 and making sense of this strange world.The thought of never talking, messaging or knowing eachother again takes my breath away. I know things will never be the same, we can't go back to those 4 years we had one another...not exactly, but I need you to know that even with all of that, even if we don't talk , I hope that if it's fates plan, destiny...whether it be 5 years from now or 10...that if that second chance comes that we take it. I hope we do, I really hope we do.. and if we don't, I will still be your biggest cheerleader, immensely proud of you, rooting for your happiness from afar

I got a car and some bud and some bread and you wanna get out the house. So Let’s get coffee or ice cream or boba teas and have a little car date. I’ll drive up and down route 17 lol. Maybe stop at a Barnes and noble or something. Or the mall. Lmk. We can talk shit about people or make up random stories about strangers. Or other things ….
Me: 6ft Latino with black curly hair and a salt n pepper beard. 7 inches. Hmu let’s talk.
You : just be young and fun and cute.
I’m more likely to get a scam attempt than actually finding someone but you never know.

Hey everyone! I’ve heard of people having success stories from meeting their significant other on here, so I thought I’d try my luck and see if that can happen for me!
I guess it’s time to introduce myself, that would be pretty helpful. Hey there! My name is Joseph, I’m 24 and I live in Louisiana. I’ve lived here my whole life, I’m open to moving someday if a good opportunity came along. I mean, I’d miss my family and the food here but that’s about it lol. I graduated college and I currently work full-time doing payroll and accounting for a company here. Thrilling, I know!
I’d consider myself an introvert so I may be shy at first. But once I feel comfortable talking to someone I really get out of my shell. Once I am out of my shell I’m very caring, I love to crack jokes and make people laugh. I absolutely love dad jokes and puns so it’s a guarantee I will say them to you haha. I’m also very empathetic and a good listener. I’d do just about anything to support those I’m close to.
I have very generic interests and hobbies lol. I love watching movies and tv shows. I’ll watch just about anything action, comedy, drama, thriller. I used to love scary movies but I get scared WAY too easily from them now. I love listening to music as well. I like a lot of rock, pop, alternative, and some country music as well. I’m really into sports, especially football and baseball. I also like to travel when I can afford to. It’s actually on my bucket list to visit every state!
I do have a general idea of what I’m looking for. I’m looking for a long-term monogamous relationship with the right girl. I am completely okay with LDR as well. I am looking for someone between the ages of 20-29. Ideally, you’re someone who shares at least some interests with me, sweet, have a good sense of humor and personality.
So I think that sums up this post! If you read this and you think you may be interested, please don’t hesitate to send a chat! In your first message I’d like for you to give a brief introduction of yourself, just say whatever you feel comfortable saying! hope to hear from you soon, but if not, I wish you the best of luck with things!

It’s been 10 years since I got a cavity filling, at the last one I saw the size of the numbing needle and I told them to just do it without numbing me lol. I was so jacked up on adrenaline I do not remember how the filling actually felt but that’s how badly I did not want to have a shot in my gums. Fast forward to now and I have 6 cavities that need attention. My dentist planned on starting with just two on my upper left side and I would not let her give me the numbing shot. I brought a stress ball, my husband was allowed in the room with me, I made a playlist and had my husbands nice headphones ready to go. They took my blood pressure with a cheap cuff and it read 148/118. I was like “should we be calling 911 this is way too high?!!!” They’re like nah it’s never really accurate. But that was a terrible start to the appointment . Then, I had called ahead of time, and I asked for a numbing agent without epinephrine and they told me they could do that. When I got in the chair I asked the assistant and he said that would be fine. Then the dentist came to me with the needle and I said this ha epinephrine right? She said it has a very small amount. I said I have high blood pressure sometimes and other cardiac issues I would really prefer that we used one with no epinephrine and she said she uses this on cardiac patients all the time and no one has ever complained about a spike in their blood pressure. I still didn’t feel good about it.
It’s crazy, I really don’t care about them drilling into my teeth but poking me with a needle in the gums? Forget about it! I told her I have Hydroxyzine at home that I’ll take before my next appt and she told me “no, I’m giving you Valium” Then before I left the parking lot the front desk called my cell and said “come back, she wants to give you something else.” So she took my script for Valium and gave me one for .25mg of Halcion because she was worried the Valium would be too weak for me 😵‍💫 My 25mg hydroxyzine is enough to knock me out I really don’t want to be taking benzos before a filling.
I cried as soon as the dentist and her assistant left the room though. I’ve come a long way with my needle phobia but this was just too much I guess. I felt like my husband was mad at me (he swears he wasn’t) and I felt stupid coming home to my mom who was babysitting our son saying “sorry for making you drive out this far, I didn’t get the fillings done.”
We’re already rescheduled for Monday but I want to push it farther to give myself a chance to recoup. I’ve actually already rescheduled this appointment twice now but I was so certain I’d go in and get it over with today.
Has anyone else used hydroxyzine for before a filling? Worried about any drug interactions. Or, if any of you have been prescribed halcion/triazolam .25mg for the dentist how did that go?

My primary care doctor visited me because he does hospital rounds at the hospital I am at. I was in DKA (diabeticketoacidosis). My PC came in my room and we talked for about 15 minutes. During which I showed him my hair was finally getting long again and he said very sweetly "You're gorgeous!" Which I obviously blushed at from flattery. Before he left he said, "I just had to make sure my girl is being taken care of."
He said that if I visit him next week he could get me a large quantity of CGM supplies to help me out since I'm chronically ill like 13x over, cost is always an issue for me. He also once gave me 3 vials of insulin and 3 boxes of insulin when I was in his office and told him I didn't have any and I couldn't afford any. I immediately cried the moment he handed me my "samples". He also cried, I could see, but pretended I didn't.
I have been very unlucky in life with all my medical tom foolery. I have somehow been very lucky in finding at least 2 doctors who care, undoubtedly, about my well being and quality of life.
I hope everyone can find at least 1 doctor who is as passionate about your health as you are. Thank you all for being such a gracious community. I wish the best for you all, always.

Three weeks ago, I let my two dogs (female AmStaff mix, 3 y/o and female Frenchie mix, 9 y/o) into the yard after returning home. I always, always watch them, but I had leftovers to pop into the fridge. I ducked into the kitchen and seconds later heard my small dog screaming. I rushed to the yard and my large dog had the little one hanging from her mouth. I yelled her name and she dropped the little one but it was already too late. Her neck was broken and she was gone. I rushed her to the vet, hoping for a miracle. I was covered in blood. It was so awful and traumatic and I can’t stop thinking about it.
We’ve consulted our vet, a behaviorist, and will visit the vet next week to examine our large dog to make sure nothing medical is going on with her. But so far the consensus from the vet and behaviorist are that this was a dominance aggression issue and, if we keep the larger dog, she cannot ever be around other dogs again, nor can she be around children or inexperienced handlers. When I look at her, I cannot even believe this happened. There was no growling that I heard, no warning. She was so sweet and was a social butterfly.
I will not rehome her. She came to us as a traumatized rescue and I cannot put her through that, or pass off her issues to someone else. Do we look at BE? Is that warranted? It’s so hard because I didn’t actually see what happened in the moment. Do we keep her? If so, how do I ever find another dog sitter or dog walker again? How do I welcome family and friends into my home with any certainty that something terrible won’t happen?
I’m so heartbroken at losing our little dog and heartbroken for my big dog and her circumstances. I cry every day. I’m barely functioning. We’ve already spent thousands of $$ on trainers and behaviorists since we got her. We’ve gotten her through heartworm treatment, an obstruction surgery, and tons of other medical stuff. She has not been an easy dog, but I love her and to this point have done whatever it takes to make the best decision I can for her. I just need to talk about it and see if anyone has been through something similar and can offer some wisdom.

Background: Grew up Pentecostal Holiness with Signs Following. In my younger days I would travel about Appalachia preaching and holding Holy Ghost filled revivals.
Fast forward to now: I’m a heathen atheist and haven’t been in a church in years. However, hand me a Bible and I can still preach “a message.” I may not be as able to quote as many verses as I used too, but can still preach a good old-fashioned fire and brimstone sermon. Its fucked up therapy for my cousins and I as we’ve established The Burdine Valley Pentecostal Holiness Glorified Sanctified Filled with Ghost Church of God of Prophecy with Signs Following. Maybe one day I’ll post about that.

I recently met a girl who is working the tourist season on the same island as me. Lately, we have been spending a lot of time together, often going swimming almost every day. I think she's really cool, and I've liked her ever since we first met. A few days ago, we went out drinking and smoking some weed. I ended up drinking too much, and when it was time to go home, I made her uncomfortable by staring at her and trying to provoke a reaction for a kiss. I remember wanting to kiss her, but I couldn't bring myself to do it. It was just an uncomfortable situation. Since then, we haven't gone out, and today she messaged me saying that we can't meet tomorrow. She explained that she drank too much and needs more space to recover. She offered to talk to me about my work because I've been having problems there. I'm going through a really rough phase, with numerous issues at work and a strained relationship with my coworkers. I used to be extremely happy when I had plans to meet her after work or when we decided to hang out. It made my day so much easier. Now, with this incident, I feel like I've lost the only person I could spend time with.
What should my proper response be here?
I feel bad about that, I didn't mean to make her uncomfortable. And the truth is that I like her but I need to respect her baunderies. Keep in mind that she said to me before that she wants to be alone and focus on herself when we once talked about relationships.
I wish to keep hanging out with her and get to know her better.
Any help is welcome, thank you for reading this, it means a lot to me.

The Robots Are Talking - Episode 7 "Artificial Intelligence and The Movies"
In each episode, we’ll pose a question or topic to a generative artificial intelligence and present the responses as a Q and A between two animated robots.
Episode 7 covers the connection between artificial intelligence and the movies. u/therobotsaretalking

Hey, this is a long read so I’ll give a TLDR for people who can’t be arsed. This doesn’t look like fun I know, but trust me, I think I’m good to talk to.

• This post is sad as shit, if u don’t care about helping a guy get through some stuff scroll on
• I’m sad as shit, both emotionally and literally
• Don’t really have any real pals.
• Anxious/ paranoid so that’s fun.
• Lots of niche interests, we will find something in common
• Loads of free time to chat
• gay, but don’t care who u like :)
• really lonely :(
• message if you 16-19 ONLY

Okay so here’s the story in full:
Hi, I’m 16 and lonely as shit, for the past couple years I’ve struggled with lots of mental issues, loads of bad stuff. And I want someone real to speak to day to day and fill the massive void I have. Ive got mates don’t get me wrong, it’s just they never ask me to go out, and I just feel like they don’t really care about me.
I’ve got lots of free time which means loads of time to speak to you :) and maybe other stuff, I’m not a gamer but I could get back into it for someone cool. Looking for a person that can hold a conversation for a while and both ask and answer questions well. We can do whatever u want, chat occasionally, all the time, game, even other stuff like rp or something.
Anyways I’m sure we can find something to talk about and I’m not that depressing trust me lol :)

i’ve (F20) been flirting and hung out with a guy (M21) a couple times that i met about a month ago. we connect well, have good conversations, & it isn’t awkward air when there’s silence :)
i told him i like him and he said the same to me, we also shared a kiss recently. He said a couple weeks ago tht he wants to take me on a date but he hasn’t brought anything regarding that up since. I’ll ask what he’s doing after work and he usually is with his family which is definitely okay and good. I live in this city alone with one family member so i don’t really do much after work & he knows that.
I’m not pressed that he hasn’t asked me on a date yet, but i’m curious as to why he would bring that up and talk about dating a couple weeks ago but now it’s kinda just casual conversations! Maybe it has to do with him never having a girlfriend before but i do like him and would def date him.
Does it really take guys this long to ask a girl out? He’s the only person i’m interested in & i don’t like games

Happy early launch day everyone!
With launch being 20 min away, I wanted to let the community know that we’ve put together a discord for folks with no one to play with. The idea is to give everyone someone to play with or at least a clan to benefit from. As someone with pretty high anxiety, LFG’s or finding help can be pretty soul crushing at times and my hope here is to make that easier for some folks. If your a parent, student, first responder or have other responsibilities that don’t allow you to play very often, then we’d like to offer a place to make the most use of your time and have people to run with so you can enjoy slaying your way through Sanctuary.
To avoid getting trolled by those who just enjoy being trolls and already have troll friends to play with, I’ll be posting the discord link once the game goes live and once posted I probably won’t be checking this post again. If you have questions before hand then please send me a DM and I’ll answer as I can. Good luck and take care of yourselves everyone!

I’ll be moving to NoVA probably in July when I secure a job there to join my partner. We’re both nudists and are happy to meet other nudists and grow our network of friends. 32 male here. DMs are open.

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• Order Management & Customer Care
  • Receive and process time-sensitive orders, coordinate their shipment and communicate shipment info customers as needed.
  • Evaluates and accurately sizes patient X-Rays, MRI or CT scans to match with available allografts.
  • Primarily responsible for customers in Eastern time zone, and available for a rotating on-call schedule.
• Administrative
  • Assist with billing and collection efforts, complaints, product returns, and maintaining customer records.
  • Adhere to and promote proper practices and techniques consistent with current operating procedures, training requirements, safety practices and company policies

Required
Bachelor's Degree from a four-year college or university.
- In lieu of degree, High School Diploma and 4 years Customer Service or Tissue Banking experience
Proficiency with standard computer operation and software such as Microsoft Office Suite
Ability to travel occasionally for training and meetings.
Preferred
Experience in biomedical/bioscience industry or alternately a healthcare environment, such as a medical office or hospital.
Experience working within a regulated environment with Standard Operating Procedures and familiarity with CRM/ERP software (e.g., Epicor, NetSuite)
Current Certified Tissue Banking Specialist (CTBS) certificate holder
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Benefits
$50-60k DOE
Quarterly & Annual Bonus
Health, Dental & Vision
30 days of paid time off, including 20 days of accrued paid time off (PTO) and 10 paid company holidays
Generous 401(k) matching program
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Click here to apply.

I (31F) have been in a LDR for 6 months with my bf (45M) and I just wanted to know how others feel about the falling in love with someone you haven’t met yet. We met on a online group for chronic Illness and got started talking and made it official last December. So far I have been truly feeling like I think I have finally found someone worth loving. He though says he doesn’t know if he will be attracted to me until he gets to meet me but it’s like it feels like we are best friends with more so since he has told me that he loves everything about me except for what I actually look like and he doesn’t know if he will be attracted to me when I feel like I do love him so what he looks like doesn’t even really matter to me plus also this is my 1st major age gap relationship since we never even expected to be together since we were just friends with both of us actually helping each other through our own breakups since they were around the same time yet we just were friends until we were both feeling more. I think he’s a great guy it’s just I do feel a little insecure as we come from different backgrounds & he’s been with a lot of women before me like I am his 14th relationship and he is like my 3-4th because I happened to get a chronic illness when I should have been about to actually go to college and so I don’t have as much experience. Like I want to create more affectionate, romantic moments but I’m always afraid he will think that I’m silly or immature since he has had sex in many different relationships & I have never actually had sex due to my background and the timing of my illness was most of my 20s so it’s not that I’m not normal or anything just that he doesn’t seem to feel like this relationship is as serious as it is for me. Tbh this is the first relationship I’ve felt could truly go somewhere because he respects & genuinely feels like we make a good team like we can talk for hours and I do feel that I can trust him. I was just not sure how to take what he said about not knowing if he is going to be physically attracted to me or not until we meet when I just know that I love him and he isn’t bad looking, a little bit older than I thought of seeing myself with but I don’t really care since I love HIM both inside and out and that’s why I know I will be attracted to him unless he’s nothing like the person that I think he is but I don’t think so since I have put him through so many tests and he gained my trust only over time. I just don’t want to travel across the country only for him to be disappointed as I already have had to fight various issues to make it this far and he can say the sweetest things like what about me makes me special to him so I don’t know if I’m overthinking or making too much out of his comment but I don’t know like if we could slowly start having some times that we could have more romantic moments now maybe that would help but I just don’t know how to create that mood since I haven’t had too much experience and to be honest I just want to know that to him I am truly special and that it’s not just going to be like ok just another girl type of feelings like that would break my heart if that’s the way meeting him went… Any advice or wisdom will be appreciated! Ty!❣️💝

Have a first date on Sunday with a guy from Fort Meade. I live in SE, no car. He was sweet enough to agree to meet at The Wharf, but I realize it’s a 45ish minute drive.
If the first date goes well, I would feel bad asking him to come back to DC for a second date (or the next, or the next). Even if he was more than willing, I’d feel guilty!
But from what I can see on google there’s nothing up where he is anyway, besides the Fort? Not sure what we would even do up there, in terms of places to eat or explore or fun activities? I even googled the halfway point between us (and I can just uber there). But halfway is Greenbelt and seems like there’s nothing to do there either. I wouldn’t mind going on a walk in the park, but are there nice big parks out there (that are still relatively well populated….I don’t want to go anywhere remote until I know the man better)?