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For anyone who is interested in not buying products from Bath and Body Works for any reason.
2021.03.23 21:06 intotheunknown22 scentoftheday
a place for lovers of skincare and makeup to share their daily scent choices!✨ categories: body lotion/cream, shower gel/body wash, hand soap, perfume/mist, lipbalm/gloss, hand sanitizer ________________________________________ Please share the scent name, product type, and company name (example: Bath & Body Works Hello Beautiful Fine Fragrance Mist). If your fellow Redditors are interested in trying the product(s), this will make it easy for them!
2023.06.06 17:18 RuleOk1687 My post covid story
Hi all, I am 34 female and want to share my story.
I was vaccinated in January and February of last year. I was exposed but not infected at least twice while working at a hospital after this. I began experiencing mild nerve pains but nothing too concerning.
My first infection was May of last year. I had no fever, just an extremely runny nose and cough bad enough my doctor put me on antibiotics to prevent pneumonia. I recovered fully after about 10 days and went on with my life.
I was exposed again but likely had immunity and did not contract the virus. At the end of July, I felt like I had been hit by a truck. Fever of 102 and full extend body aches. Tested positive for covid again. This time, I felt better after 5 days and continued on with my life.
At the end of September last year, I was at the end of my work shift when I began experiencing excruciating body pain, insane nerve pain and kept tripping over my feet. I went home thinking I needed rest.
The next day, I was hospitalized because I couldn’t stand or walk at all and was completely excruciating pain and numbness and weakness. I was placed on a steroid IV and slowly got a little bit better and was released just with some medications, a walker, and physical therapy appointments. I recovered enough to walk with forearm crutches.
Here we are like 8 months later. I began having a symptom flare that felt exactly like my 2nd round of covid. A round of steroid tapers has kept me out of the hospital this time.
I didn’t know this was from covid until my doctor said he’s currently treating a few patients in my position. I have abnormal nerve tests, some inconclusive brain abnormalities, and have been disabled since it started.
Covid completely disabled me. I have nerve damage. I’m scared all of the time but doing my best. I don’t know if it’s viral persistence, an autoimmune reaction, or simply just nerve damage. I just want people to know my story. I did everything right. I vaxxed, i masked, and I was also repeatedly exposed. I am living a new life learning to manage with my crutches. Hope you all find recovery ❤️🩹.
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I was vaccinated in January and February of last year. I was exposed but not infected at least twice while working at a hospital after this. I began experiencing mild nerve pains but nothing too concerning.
My first infection was May of last year. I had no fever, just an extremely runny nose and cough bad enough my doctor put me on antibiotics to prevent pneumonia. I recovered fully after about 10 days and went on with my life.
I was exposed again but likely had immunity and did not contract the virus. At the end of July, I felt like I had been hit by a truck. Fever of 102 and full extend body aches. Tested positive for covid again. This time, I felt better after 5 days and continued on with my life.
At the end of September last year, I was at the end of my work shift when I began experiencing excruciating body pain, insane nerve pain and kept tripping over my feet. I went home thinking I needed rest.
The next day, I was hospitalized because I couldn’t stand or walk at all and was completely excruciating pain and numbness and weakness. I was placed on a steroid IV and slowly got a little bit better and was released just with some medications, a walker, and physical therapy appointments. I recovered enough to walk with forearm crutches.
Here we are like 8 months later. I began having a symptom flare that felt exactly like my 2nd round of covid. A round of steroid tapers has kept me out of the hospital this time.
I didn’t know this was from covid until my doctor said he’s currently treating a few patients in my position. I have abnormal nerve tests, some inconclusive brain abnormalities, and have been disabled since it started.
Covid completely disabled me. I have nerve damage. I’m scared all of the time but doing my best. I don’t know if it’s viral persistence, an autoimmune reaction, or simply just nerve damage. I just want people to know my story. I did everything right. I vaxxed, i masked, and I was also repeatedly exposed. I am living a new life learning to manage with my crutches. Hope you all find recovery ❤️🩹.
2023.06.06 17:18 AntiVideo Was it really my fault? And will it recover?
I (25M) dated a girl (23F) who was coming out of a 10 year relationship, due to long distance and moving countries. Their plan was to move here together and continue their life together, but his VISA was denied. They spent the next 6 years waiting in long distance for him to move back here, but it was complicated because his country was taken over by the Taliban (I am not joking).
She told me she lost feelings through distance, and she was over him, but he wasn’t over her. So me and her had a great relationship (5 months). I was the first guy she tried in 6 years. But he was still calling her, the whole time. She kept secret from him that she was in a new relationship. She wanted to gradually ignore his contact till he faded off. But it wasn’t working - he pushed harder and it would be obvious in her body language that something is going on. She would be more prone to arguing with me, in random spurt sessions. She lied to me about when he was contacting her. She lied to me about him not having a social media.
I eventually found his social media and in the bio, it said “Betterhalf 💍546.” 546 is an angel number expressing hope that a relationship’s situation is temporary. This made me raise my eyebrows. I wondered, are they actually still in a relationship?
I showed her the profile and asked if this is him? She immediately got so angry at me and said she is done with me. She said she hated that I went into her profile to find him. She said I moved too fast, and that if I was just confident in myself, she would have handled all of these things in her own while we dated. But it was 5 months… and he was still calling her every week.
Later, we had a talk where she confessed every lie she told me. It’s true that they weren’t dating, but he was in denial, and kept reminding her that the love will come back when they are near each other again. She also admitted to me that if he were to move here, it would mean he is giving up his family to be here, so she would try him one more time because she waited 6 years after all. She said she wasn’t convinced that I loved her enough (which is frustrating because she used to tell me I am putting in too much effort for her too soon in month 5), and she wasn’t sure if I was worth leaving something that’s already lasted 10 years. And during the whole 6 years, he spent everyday working hard to reunite with her again, rejecting every girl that came his way.
She felt really bad for letting me down. She didn’t know what to do. So she asked her sister what she should do. And her sister told him tell us both the truth. So after she told me these truths, she told him these truths.
He is clearly devastated. He took the thing out of his bio. He is being more cold to her. It seems that it’s truly over, finally. But, she is extremely upset. She feels like an awful human. I keep telling her to forgive herself and that I’ve forgiven her. I do not make her feel bad for this, during this vulnerable time for everyone.
She tells me she wants to be single for a long time to learn why she did everything she did. She feels that she does not deserve a relationship with anyone. I asked, if she ever felt ready again, would she date me? She said yes, why not, but to please not wait on her because she does not want me to give up potential loves with people that would have “treated you much better than I did.”
What do you think? Was it my fault? Should I have not questioned those things in her life and ignored it every time he called? Should I have been more confident?
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She told me she lost feelings through distance, and she was over him, but he wasn’t over her. So me and her had a great relationship (5 months). I was the first guy she tried in 6 years. But he was still calling her, the whole time. She kept secret from him that she was in a new relationship. She wanted to gradually ignore his contact till he faded off. But it wasn’t working - he pushed harder and it would be obvious in her body language that something is going on. She would be more prone to arguing with me, in random spurt sessions. She lied to me about when he was contacting her. She lied to me about him not having a social media.
I eventually found his social media and in the bio, it said “Betterhalf 💍546.” 546 is an angel number expressing hope that a relationship’s situation is temporary. This made me raise my eyebrows. I wondered, are they actually still in a relationship?
I showed her the profile and asked if this is him? She immediately got so angry at me and said she is done with me. She said she hated that I went into her profile to find him. She said I moved too fast, and that if I was just confident in myself, she would have handled all of these things in her own while we dated. But it was 5 months… and he was still calling her every week.
Later, we had a talk where she confessed every lie she told me. It’s true that they weren’t dating, but he was in denial, and kept reminding her that the love will come back when they are near each other again. She also admitted to me that if he were to move here, it would mean he is giving up his family to be here, so she would try him one more time because she waited 6 years after all. She said she wasn’t convinced that I loved her enough (which is frustrating because she used to tell me I am putting in too much effort for her too soon in month 5), and she wasn’t sure if I was worth leaving something that’s already lasted 10 years. And during the whole 6 years, he spent everyday working hard to reunite with her again, rejecting every girl that came his way.
She felt really bad for letting me down. She didn’t know what to do. So she asked her sister what she should do. And her sister told him tell us both the truth. So after she told me these truths, she told him these truths.
He is clearly devastated. He took the thing out of his bio. He is being more cold to her. It seems that it’s truly over, finally. But, she is extremely upset. She feels like an awful human. I keep telling her to forgive herself and that I’ve forgiven her. I do not make her feel bad for this, during this vulnerable time for everyone.
She tells me she wants to be single for a long time to learn why she did everything she did. She feels that she does not deserve a relationship with anyone. I asked, if she ever felt ready again, would she date me? She said yes, why not, but to please not wait on her because she does not want me to give up potential loves with people that would have “treated you much better than I did.”
What do you think? Was it my fault? Should I have not questioned those things in her life and ignored it every time he called? Should I have been more confident?
2023.06.06 17:16 Leather-Orange-8586 Quetz needs fixing
I was playing as my Carcharodontosaurus (adult) last night and I had easily the worst death I’ve ever suffered in PoT. Two Quetz kept flying just above me where I couldn’t reach them, and doing the 360 aerial attack. I literally could see just the top of their wings barely brushing along my dinosaurs back. They did this about 150 times until I died, and I literally had no chance to fight back whatsoever. I was so infuriated. The Quetz should NOT able to do that ridiculous shit. How on earth would the tip of it’s soft wing do ANY damage at all ? If the Quetz tried to use its wing to hit a fully grown Carcharodontosaurus, it would rip its wing and get bitten in half. Absolutely ridiculous. And I haven’t even started about it’s flight capabilities. In real life, a gigantic pterosaur like that could never hover, turn on a dime, take off from flat ground with no momentum, or do a 360. Yet people will literally hover above you, hit you with a 360 wing attack (the weakest part of the Quetz body) and then actually think they’re good at the game. Path of Titans needs to hold the modders accountable for allowing this ridiculous play style to work in game. As of now, Quetz requires zero skill to use
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2023.06.06 17:13 KoroSenseiX Expanding NYLSS Membership
Males over 18, who have been out of employment for over a year will be automatically applied to the New York Labour State Syndicate and admitted to work until they secure another job offer.
The NYLSS will also begin holding weekly seminars for those who have served half of their contract to secure permanent jobs in the private or public sector.
Businesses will be encouraged to hire from NYLSS members through increased subsidies.
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The NYLSS will also begin holding weekly seminars for those who have served half of their contract to secure permanent jobs in the private or public sector.
Businesses will be encouraged to hire from NYLSS members through increased subsidies.
2023.06.06 17:13 Haunting-Molasses766 cheapest ways to gain weight
so im super skinny and im sick of it, i dont work out or nothing i just simply want to put a little more fat on my body. so i look for some weight gain powders, most of them are $30 for what 11 servings ? thats like $60 a month do take every day and thats just way out of my budget. so then i thought what if i just eat straight peanut butter twice a day for a extra 300 calories , but i nearly puked when i tried to eat it straight like that. i physically cannot eat the amount of calories my body requires to gain weight, with my job being a waitress i walk between 4-8 miles every day, sometimes more , on top of that ive always been skinny with a fast metabolism, i just dont have the time or energy to eat an insane amount to gain weight. im just wondering if any of you have any ideas, cheap weight gain supplements, foods that have an insane amount of calories, JUST anything. the best one i can think of is purchasing a blender and frozen fruit and making a smoothie with peanut butter in it every day. suggestions please :)
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2023.06.06 17:13 gothambiker Terrible service in Columbia & Dutchess County New York
Why is t-mobile service still so poor in Columbia and Dutchess Counties in New York. There is ZERO service or roaming in Millerton still. And roaming on AT&T, even if it says 5G barely works. SUPER frustrating. Anybody know of any planned upgrades in service in this area?
Thanks in advance
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Thanks in advance
2023.06.06 17:11 singshopsleep Tomorrow's Offers
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2023.06.06 17:10 StevenVincentOne Scene from "Mary in the White Room"
"Mary in the White Room"
INT. WHITE ROOM - SPECIAL PROJECTS DIVISION - L.A. - DAY
Sturgeon and Russell explore the White Room looking for leads.
Sturgeon opens the walk-in closet. BLONDE WIGS hang on mannequin heads. A rack of WHITE DRESSES, a neat row of WHITE SHOES on the floor.
Russell takes pictures with his tablet.
Russell opens dresser drawers. One drawer full of white brassieres, one of white panties...and the rest are stacked with Mary's artworks.
To Russell, it's like striking gold...
RUSSELL Sir! Check these out...
Sturgeon joins him. They rifle through the archive of Mary's art, most of which are self-portraits, each expressing a variation of clothing, skinning, hair and body position.
RUSSELL (CONT'D) (inspired)
I think this is how it makes sense of itself! How it creates its identity...
STURGEON Creates its identity?
RUSSELL Yeah. It's not programmed. That's not how this technology works. It self-architects its own neuronet by experience, through interaction with its environment.
Sturgeon thumbs the artworks...
STURGEON Russell, does this help me find it?
Russell breaks out his device and begins scanning the art...
RUSSELL Well, first I'm gonna feed all of this to SAMSON...it should help the Engine generate a psychological profile on the target.
STURGEON Psych profile on a robot. Fuck me.
RUSSELL It's a brave new world, sir.
Sturgeon starts for the door, then turns, puzzled...
STURGEON So...you're telling me we have a robot running around Los Angeles like...a hippy-droid...trying to...find itself?
RUSSELL Something like that, sir!
https://writers.coverfly.com/projects/view/315f3958-68f6-4434-8e0c-70f75870490e/Mary_in_the_White_Room
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INT. WHITE ROOM - SPECIAL PROJECTS DIVISION - L.A. - DAY
Sturgeon and Russell explore the White Room looking for leads.
Sturgeon opens the walk-in closet. BLONDE WIGS hang on mannequin heads. A rack of WHITE DRESSES, a neat row of WHITE SHOES on the floor.
Russell takes pictures with his tablet.
Russell opens dresser drawers. One drawer full of white brassieres, one of white panties...and the rest are stacked with Mary's artworks.
To Russell, it's like striking gold...
RUSSELL Sir! Check these out...
Sturgeon joins him. They rifle through the archive of Mary's art, most of which are self-portraits, each expressing a variation of clothing, skinning, hair and body position.
RUSSELL (CONT'D) (inspired)
I think this is how it makes sense of itself! How it creates its identity...
STURGEON Creates its identity?
RUSSELL Yeah. It's not programmed. That's not how this technology works. It self-architects its own neuronet by experience, through interaction with its environment.
Sturgeon thumbs the artworks...
STURGEON Russell, does this help me find it?
Russell breaks out his device and begins scanning the art...
RUSSELL Well, first I'm gonna feed all of this to SAMSON...it should help the Engine generate a psychological profile on the target.
STURGEON Psych profile on a robot. Fuck me.
RUSSELL It's a brave new world, sir.
Sturgeon starts for the door, then turns, puzzled...
STURGEON So...you're telling me we have a robot running around Los Angeles like...a hippy-droid...trying to...find itself?
RUSSELL Something like that, sir!
https://writers.coverfly.com/projects/view/315f3958-68f6-4434-8e0c-70f75870490e/Mary_in_the_White_Room
2023.06.06 17:08 Global_Mandemic Some thoughts on going hard
I saw a post here a few days ago that got me really excited.
This guy dropped all his vices on weekdays and immersed himself in sales for 3 months straight.
I love this because I just know that guy has experienced years of personal growth within that time period.
But a lot of people on this sub were against him. And it's not the first time I've seen that. So I wanted to take a minute and talk about why a person would go that hard.
Here's the thing: I don't think the same way a lot of you do.
I grew up in the 80's with ADHD. I'm highly empathic and sensitive to people.
That was a horrible combination and resulted in a horrible childhood. A lot of teachers didn't like me and I felt it. Kids didn't want to play with me. I was a loner for years at a time. I didn't touch sports, never achieved good grades, and had my first kiss at 19, well after almost every other guy my age was having sex.
All that led up to mock suicide attempts in my early 30's. I drove around with a hose in the back of my truck, just in case I decided this would be the day.
And then one day, I decided, "Fuck this. I know what I have to do. I'm going to do it and if it doesn't work, then I can check out."
That day, I started going way harder than I ever had before.
When you grow up in an environment where you're praying for a scrap to fall off the table, eventually you start to notice that other people don't have those problems.
When you live in that kind of discomfort, you basically two choices: live a resigned life or fight back hard.
That's what David Goggins did. Wes Watson did the same thing. Will Smith has this worth ethic.
There is no question that for these men, it's worked out well. It's worked out well for me and I'm sure it's going to work out well for the guy ya'll were razzing on the weekend.
Going hard is now my standard and I improve constantly. For me, it looks like this:
If I set a timer on the elliptical for 30 minutes, I never stop when the timer goes off.
When I'm doing yard work, I stop when the job is done - not when I'm tired. Sometimes that means my day starts at 6 AM and I finally turn on Zelda at 9 PM - or not at all.
If I'm studying, I crush my flashcards until I start recognizing the principles in daily life. Then I practice the shit out of them until they're second-nature.
I do not fuck around, because I know things can get so bad that you'll start to believe your kids are better off without you.
My childhood wasn't like a lot of yours. I have no idea what it's like to grow up making friends, being able to talk to girls, or go to school without being bullied. Perhaps a lot of you really can achieve your goals with a toned down approach.
I can't.
Maybe I never learned the strategies you did. Maybe my ADHD really does block me from some approaches. Who knows, and more importantly, who cares? I don't worry anymore about what never was. I just look ahead to what skill I'm going to build next.
This approach is so ingrained in me that it even comes out in the way I talk. My identity-level belief is that I can crush any goal I choose to pursue.
Nothing stands in my way.
Not enough energy? I still see fat on my stomach. Let's keep pushing. That's what it's there for.
Not enough money? Drop something else to afford the $10 book and let's get started.
Not enough time? Less time on the video games and more focus on efficiency.
Not enough skill? Build the skills that support the skill I'm trying to build.
When you go at that level, it starts to show on your body. I'm in good shape and I haven't lifted in two years.
It shows in your mind. Outside of life endangerment, you're fearless. You don't complain. You don't procrastinate. You just get down to business.
It shows in your body language. You're confident af, because you're constantly achieving a high standard.
If it's not for you, that's fine. It's a serious shift in priorities and values, but for guys like me, it's the most fulfilling life you can imagine.
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This guy dropped all his vices on weekdays and immersed himself in sales for 3 months straight.
I love this because I just know that guy has experienced years of personal growth within that time period.
But a lot of people on this sub were against him. And it's not the first time I've seen that. So I wanted to take a minute and talk about why a person would go that hard.
Here's the thing: I don't think the same way a lot of you do.
I grew up in the 80's with ADHD. I'm highly empathic and sensitive to people.
That was a horrible combination and resulted in a horrible childhood. A lot of teachers didn't like me and I felt it. Kids didn't want to play with me. I was a loner for years at a time. I didn't touch sports, never achieved good grades, and had my first kiss at 19, well after almost every other guy my age was having sex.
All that led up to mock suicide attempts in my early 30's. I drove around with a hose in the back of my truck, just in case I decided this would be the day.
And then one day, I decided, "Fuck this. I know what I have to do. I'm going to do it and if it doesn't work, then I can check out."
That day, I started going way harder than I ever had before.
When you grow up in an environment where you're praying for a scrap to fall off the table, eventually you start to notice that other people don't have those problems.
When you live in that kind of discomfort, you basically two choices: live a resigned life or fight back hard.
That's what David Goggins did. Wes Watson did the same thing. Will Smith has this worth ethic.
There is no question that for these men, it's worked out well. It's worked out well for me and I'm sure it's going to work out well for the guy ya'll were razzing on the weekend.
Going hard is now my standard and I improve constantly. For me, it looks like this:
If I set a timer on the elliptical for 30 minutes, I never stop when the timer goes off.
When I'm doing yard work, I stop when the job is done - not when I'm tired. Sometimes that means my day starts at 6 AM and I finally turn on Zelda at 9 PM - or not at all.
If I'm studying, I crush my flashcards until I start recognizing the principles in daily life. Then I practice the shit out of them until they're second-nature.
I do not fuck around, because I know things can get so bad that you'll start to believe your kids are better off without you.
My childhood wasn't like a lot of yours. I have no idea what it's like to grow up making friends, being able to talk to girls, or go to school without being bullied. Perhaps a lot of you really can achieve your goals with a toned down approach.
I can't.
Maybe I never learned the strategies you did. Maybe my ADHD really does block me from some approaches. Who knows, and more importantly, who cares? I don't worry anymore about what never was. I just look ahead to what skill I'm going to build next.
This approach is so ingrained in me that it even comes out in the way I talk. My identity-level belief is that I can crush any goal I choose to pursue.
Nothing stands in my way.
Not enough energy? I still see fat on my stomach. Let's keep pushing. That's what it's there for.
Not enough money? Drop something else to afford the $10 book and let's get started.
Not enough time? Less time on the video games and more focus on efficiency.
Not enough skill? Build the skills that support the skill I'm trying to build.
When you go at that level, it starts to show on your body. I'm in good shape and I haven't lifted in two years.
It shows in your mind. Outside of life endangerment, you're fearless. You don't complain. You don't procrastinate. You just get down to business.
It shows in your body language. You're confident af, because you're constantly achieving a high standard.
If it's not for you, that's fine. It's a serious shift in priorities and values, but for guys like me, it's the most fulfilling life you can imagine.
2023.06.06 17:08 edyyh Magic Pencil cyoa
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2023.06.06 17:07 PossibilityFree5261 Feeling normal on Wellbutrin but getting tics. Not sure if I have ADHD. Looking into other options
Hi. I am 31yo male. I was diagnosed with depression, anxiety and social anxiety. I was always prescribed SSRI's, although it worked great for irritability, anger and depression, it did not help with social anxiety, made me very numb, sedated, careless and unmotivated, even with half of the lowest dose. So I stopped taking then after a few months each time. I felt better without SSRI's but depression and irritability kept coming back, I had daily fatigue as well, no matter if I'm on SSRI's or not.
I went to another provider who suggested that I try Wellbutrin just to see how it works on me, which I am taking only a week now. He also prescribed 25mg Zoloft (lowest dose available). I felt Wellbutrin the first day I took it. I got a lot of energy and felt like myself again. It gets better every day. I sleep well and wake up fresh even with 6h sleep, where I had extreme issues with waking up even after 10h sleep. I feel like my mind is clear and I don't have the brain fog anymore. The only side effect that I experienced the first 3 days was sore musles, leg cramps and back pain, but it stopped suddenly.
However, since I started taking it, my body started showing some anxiety issues such as tics (shaking legs, clearing throat, moving fingers, blinking). I had these before when I was a child during a stressful time but it stopped, then I just had these occasionally and was able to control it. It got worse on Wellbutrin. It really makes me sad since my mental is doing great on it.
Just to add, I think I also have undiagnosed Inattentive ADHD. The only sympton that doesn't match is overlooking details, because I am very detail oriented and always pay close attention to details, noticing any change. I am also a perfectionist and don't do thing spontaneously without overthinking them and checking a lot of different sources before doing something, I feel like I need to know it all. At childhood, I was a very shy and stressed out kid, in early school I spent most time with teachers or alone, not having too many friends. It changed in middle school when I became very outgoing with my friends around. Although, I've never came to the board or any public speech, I avoided these at every occasion. I consider myself to be an introvert, changing into an extravert when alcohol is involved, thats why I cannot have fun without getting buzzed when going out. Now, I still avoid these, I do not speak out when more then 1 or 2 people can hear me, overthink before saying anything, speak too fast when stressed and too slow when not stressed, am always late etc. To add, I bite my nails excessively for over 20 years, cannot control it, if that matters. It seems that I've got symptoms of ADHD and anxiety + depression together.
Wellbutrin really does help with getting myself together and functioning normally. I am not feeling stimulating, euphoric or energized, I just feel normal, without getting fatigued or brain fog. Only thing is that I feel like my body needs to be in move all the time, which is showing as tics. I would love to get more energized and motivated to surpass how I feel normally (when not depressed), without having tics.
Here some of the symptoms which I am struggling with:
Inattentive ADHD (undiagnosed): losing stuff, forgetful, turning mind off, easily sidetracked, trouble organizing, trouble staying on topic, indecision, shy, starting new projects and not completing them, feeling of needing to do something new, clumsiness, always late, nervous tics, unable to work without having another stimulant such as music or listening to podcasts
TLDR: Having depression, anxiety, social anxiety. I think I also have inattentive ADHD and OCD. All SSRI's made me sedated and unmotivated. Was prescribed Wellbutrin SR 150mg to test it out along with Zoloft 25mg. Feeling very good, mind is fresh, no depression or negative thoughts. I am however getting tics and feel like my body needs to move. Had tics as a child for around a year or two, it stopped, just had some of these on some occasions but it was controlable.
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I went to another provider who suggested that I try Wellbutrin just to see how it works on me, which I am taking only a week now. He also prescribed 25mg Zoloft (lowest dose available). I felt Wellbutrin the first day I took it. I got a lot of energy and felt like myself again. It gets better every day. I sleep well and wake up fresh even with 6h sleep, where I had extreme issues with waking up even after 10h sleep. I feel like my mind is clear and I don't have the brain fog anymore. The only side effect that I experienced the first 3 days was sore musles, leg cramps and back pain, but it stopped suddenly.
However, since I started taking it, my body started showing some anxiety issues such as tics (shaking legs, clearing throat, moving fingers, blinking). I had these before when I was a child during a stressful time but it stopped, then I just had these occasionally and was able to control it. It got worse on Wellbutrin. It really makes me sad since my mental is doing great on it.
Just to add, I think I also have undiagnosed Inattentive ADHD. The only sympton that doesn't match is overlooking details, because I am very detail oriented and always pay close attention to details, noticing any change. I am also a perfectionist and don't do thing spontaneously without overthinking them and checking a lot of different sources before doing something, I feel like I need to know it all. At childhood, I was a very shy and stressed out kid, in early school I spent most time with teachers or alone, not having too many friends. It changed in middle school when I became very outgoing with my friends around. Although, I've never came to the board or any public speech, I avoided these at every occasion. I consider myself to be an introvert, changing into an extravert when alcohol is involved, thats why I cannot have fun without getting buzzed when going out. Now, I still avoid these, I do not speak out when more then 1 or 2 people can hear me, overthink before saying anything, speak too fast when stressed and too slow when not stressed, am always late etc. To add, I bite my nails excessively for over 20 years, cannot control it, if that matters. It seems that I've got symptoms of ADHD and anxiety + depression together.
Wellbutrin really does help with getting myself together and functioning normally. I am not feeling stimulating, euphoric or energized, I just feel normal, without getting fatigued or brain fog. Only thing is that I feel like my body needs to be in move all the time, which is showing as tics. I would love to get more energized and motivated to surpass how I feel normally (when not depressed), without having tics.
Here some of the symptoms which I am struggling with:
- Depression: feeling sad and empty, no pleasure, oversleeping, fatigue, irritability, slow thinking
- Anxiety: overthinking, worrying too much, panic attacks when someone bothers me with too many questions, low self esteem, oversweating
- Social anxiety: mind going blank when too much attention on me, sweating, panic attacks when someone bothers me with too many questions, unavailable to give public speech, anxious about answering a phone call, fear of humiliation, having hard time talking to people I that I not very close to me, hard to make eye contact or relax when talking with someone
Inattentive ADHD (undiagnosed): losing stuff, forgetful, turning mind off, easily sidetracked, trouble organizing, trouble staying on topic, indecision, shy, starting new projects and not completing them, feeling of needing to do something new, clumsiness, always late, nervous tics, unable to work without having another stimulant such as music or listening to podcasts
TLDR: Having depression, anxiety, social anxiety. I think I also have inattentive ADHD and OCD. All SSRI's made me sedated and unmotivated. Was prescribed Wellbutrin SR 150mg to test it out along with Zoloft 25mg. Feeling very good, mind is fresh, no depression or negative thoughts. I am however getting tics and feel like my body needs to move. Had tics as a child for around a year or two, it stopped, just had some of these on some occasions but it was controlable.
- Has anyone experienced increased ticking? Did it go away?
- Do you think I should try Adderall or Vyvanse instead of Wellbutrin?
- Do you think I might have inattentive ADHD?
2023.06.06 17:07 RHGOtakuxxx My Family's Sacred Trust: Bella and Barney
TW/Animal Abuse
After seven years, I was still disgusted. I waited for my dad to call me to do the dreaded chore. I sighed, as I lay in bed and halfheartedly played with my phone. He was preparing a concoction that had such vile ingredients it was done in the basement. On the floor of my bedroom, Bella and Barney, our Australian Sheep Dogs stretched out, panting softly.
A text message interrupted my scrolling.
It’s ready, meet me in the kitchen.
I pocketed my phone and swung my legs over the side of the bed. Bella and Barney got up and followed me downstairs. I entered the kitchen where my father waited for me, his mask pulled down below his chin, big orange safety gloves on his hands, holding a large bottle used to feed young livestock. He reached out and handed it to me. I took it, my face closed and resigned. He snorted at my expression.
“It’s almost time,” he said. “Don’t look so glum.”
“Yeah,” I replied. “But only until the next cycle starts.”
I walked to the door, and a sudden thought made me stop. I turned to look at my dad, who was removing his mask and gloves and putting them in the sink.
“Couldn’t we find a way to end it?” I asked.
“Audrey,” he replied. “I think if there was a way to make it stop for good, they would have done it. This is the only way.”
I nodded, the end of my mouth quirking in a half smile. I should have expected that answer, but it was hard to accept it. This will always be my life. Someday it will be my sole responsibility. I walked out into the cool September night, Bella and Barney padding softly behind me. We approached the barn, and I opened the door. There was the sound of a soft and sickly bleat. I stepped inside, but my faithful dogs waited outside. Even they were disturbed.
I flicked on a light and went to the stall where the unnerving sound came from. I opened the door, and approached the animal, my stomach queasy. The lamb looked bloated, its curly coat giving off a greenish sheen. Its eyes were nearly colorless, and it struggled to stay on its feet. I approached the animal, and put one arm around its head, steadying it. Then I took the bottle of formula and shoved it into the animal’s mouth. It was too weak to struggle as I made sure it drank every drop.
When I was finished and closed the door to the barn, the dogs fell into step with me. We were halfway back to the house, when they both stopped, looking past the fields of our farm towards the forest edge. They started growling, a low vibration that made me halt in my tracks. I looked out, towards the forbidding darkness of the forest. I could not see anything in its inky depths. But my stomach was gripped with fear.
“Bella, Barney,” I said. “Let’s go.”
Hackles raised, they started snarling and then barking furiously they ran off towards the forest. I stood there, mouth agape for a few minutes and watched them disappear. I felt a thrill of fear go through me. They had never acted like this before; they were gentle herders of our flock of sheep. I tried in vain to call them back, then gave up and went back to the house, my footsteps an echo of trepidation.
“Dad!” I cried as the door slammed behind me. “Bella and Barney – they ran after something in the forest!”
My father got up from where he sat reading in the living room and came over to me, mouth set in a firm line.
“The forest?” He said, “It’s not time….we are on schedule. Maybe it was a rabbit or something.”
“No, you don’t understand,” I said in exasperation, my hand to my head. “They were growling, it’s like they were afraid of something – but then they just ran off barking. I could not get them to come back!”
My father went outside and scanned the area. He tried calling them, moving further away from the house. I waited and watched, wringing my hands, and biting my lower lip. Our dogs never ventured into the forest; I believe they could feel the malevolence of the place in there that was our family’s responsibility to keep at bay for over a hundred years. What if….my stomach clenched as my mind spun with horrible thoughts. After twenty minutes my father returned.
“What will we do?” I spoke. “What if…the thing got them.”
“Maybe they saw a coyote,” my dad replied. “Don’t worry, they will come back.”
He walked up to me, and gently tilted my face up to look at him. Eyes wide he gave me a smile of encouragement. I am sure I did not look convinced. He took me in a hug, and the side of my face pressed into his shoulder. His flannel shirt smelled faintly of pine and mint, and his body warmth was soothing. Then he let me go.
“Go get some sleep,” he said. “We can go out in the morning and look for them if they don’t come back. I’ll stay up a few more hours.”
I nodded, heading for the stairs, and glanced out the door briefly as I passed it. Bella and Barney always slept on the floor near my bed, for nine years out of my seventeen. I have no siblings, and my mother died when I was eight. I climbed into bed, feeling the emptiness in my room without them with me. I slept fitfully, pulling the blankets tighter around me as fearful dreams of my dogs being torn apart by the malevolence in the forest plagued me.
I woke in the morning with the sheets all twisted around me. I was groggily untangling myself when I heard scratching on the screen door downstairs. I stumbled quickly out of bed and pounded down the stairs. Opening the door, Bella and Barney came in, tails wagging. They licked my hands, as I felt all my muscles release from pent up tension, my insides trembling from relief. They went to the kitchen and drank from their water bowls then padded into the living room and flopped down on the rug in front of the fireplace. They put their heads down, and closed their eyes, breathing big, exhausted sighs.
My father walked into the kitchen and smiled when he saw our dogs snoring softly.
“See?” My father said. “I told you they would be back. The sheep will be fine in the paddock today. You can let them out with Bella and Barney when you get back from school.”
While I was getting ready, my father made breakfast. After we ate, he drove me to the school bus stop, which was five miles away from our remote farm. I waived goodbye to him as he headed to the city for his construction job.
“Hey Audrey,” said a lanky boy, with a mop of curly brown hair as he walked up to wait with me.
“Hey Martin,” I replied.
He looked at me intently for a moment. I felt my face heat up.
“Do I look that awful?”
Martin shrugged. “You look like something the cat dragged in.”
I bopped him on the shoulder. “I had a bad night sleep.”
The bus pulled up with a squeak and a huff, and we got in.
During fourth period English, I was busy writing an essay when the vice principal walked in and whispered to my teacher. I noticed it vaguely, trying to finish my work. Then he was standing at my desk. This felt weird…
“Audrey, can you come with me back to the office?” the vice principal said.
I looked up, glanced over at my teacher whose face looked pale and concerned. She nodded and waived her hand for me to go.
“Sure,” I said.
We walked into his office, and he gestured for me to take a seat in front of his desk.
“Your father’s jobsite called us,” he said gravely. “There’s been an accident…”
A shock went through me, and I grabbed the chair’s armrests as I felt my body tremble and bile rise in my throat.
“Is he okay?” I gasped.
“He’s been transported to the hospital,” the vice principal said, his face grave. “I talked to your teachers. Get your things we called an Uber to take you to him.”
I nodded, my head feeling light, and nausea rising. I tried to stand up, but lost my balance. The vice principal reached across the desk and steadied me. I looked up at him gratefully and left the room to go to my locker. The bell rang, and kids started to nosily fill the hallways. In a daze, I bumped into someone.
“Watch out there, Audrey!” said Martin as my shoulder met his chest.
I stumbled backwards, and he gently grabbed my arms so I would not fall. “Hey, you look like you’ve seen a ghost,” he said. “What’s wrong?”
“M-my father…” I stammered. “He’s been in an accident at work. I have to go to the hospital.”
Martin’s eyes widened, his mouth slightly opening. Then his eyebrows lowered in concern.
“Oh god, I am so sorry,” he said. “Is there anything I can do for you?”
“Yes,” I said, as I remembered my dogs. “Can you ride your bike over to my house after school? I will give you the house key. Please let Bella and Barney out, they have been in all day.”
He nodded, then followed me to my locker. I got my backpack and fished out the key. He took it from me and gave me a quick hug. I felt the contact settle my fluttering heart a bit. Then I made my way to the front steps of the school. A few minutes later I was in the backseat of an Uber, on my way to the hospital. The ride felt surreal, and the beating of my heart filled my ears. I could not feel the passage of time, it felt interminable as my head filled with fearful thoughts.
Finally, the Uber stopped, in front of the large grey and white, sprawling complex of Memorial Hospital. I got out and went inside to the front desk.
“I’m here to see Leonard Klein,” I told the woman who looked up to me from her computer.
“And you are?” she said.
“Audrey Klein, his daughter.”
She gave me a sign-in sheet and started typing on her computer. “He’s in ICU, 3rd floor.”
I gulped, a tremor going through me. Then I nodded and headed to the elevator.
On the 3rd floor, a nurse brought me over to a curtained off area. “He’s stable for now,” she said. “But he needs to rest.”
The curtain swished open, and I gasped, tears clouding my vision at what I saw. My dad lay in the hospital bed, his right leg and arm in a cast. His head was swaddled in heavy bandages, and his face was puffy and purple.
“Dad, I’m here,” I said, the words coming out with a squeak.
His eyes cracked open and darted over to where I stood. I walked over to him and rested my hand on the arm without the cast.
“Audrey,” he whispered. “I need to tell you something important.”
“Can it wait?” I said. “Maybe you should not be talking, the nurse said you need to rest.”
“No, it can’t,” he said softly. “Get my keys from my jacket pocket, I think they left my clothes here somewhere.”
My eyes darted quickly around the curtained off space, and found his clothes on a chair, his beige jacket folded on top. I grabbed his ring of keys in a side pocket and brought them over to him.
“You see the silver key stamped with an S?” he said.
I fumbled with the keys in my hands, until I found the one matching his description. I showed it to him.
“Yes, that’s the one,” he said. “Take it with you. There is a safe in the back of my bedroom closet, if anything happens to me it is important that you open it. Everything important is in there.”
“Okay,” I replied. “But I won’t have to open it – you will be alright!” I could not in a million years bring myself to accept otherwise. But he did not answer, his eyes closed, and his breathing deepened.
“Dad!” I cried.
The nurse poked her head in. “He’s on a lot of painkillers,” she said. “They knock people out. Time to let him rest.”
I nodded, my lower lip trembling, and wiped the tear that fell from my left eye with the back of my hand. I made my way down to the front desk, where I made sure they had my cell number and they said they would call me with updates on his condition. Then I ordered an Uber to take me home.
On the ride back, I wrapped my arms tightly around my stomach, squeezing hard. An occasional shiver would go through me, as my mind raced on my father’s words. I could not get the memory of him in that hospital bed out of my mind, and I kept fighting off the dread by whispering to myself that he would be okay over and over again.
As we got nearer to my family farm, I called Martin.
“Audrey,” Martin said. “How’s your dad?”
“He’s in ICU, doped up on painkillers,” I replied. “Broken bones, and a head injury.”
“Damn,” Martin said. “You going to be okay alone?”
“Yes,” I said, although my feelings of trepidation did not bely my words. “Were you able to let Bella and Barney out?”
“Yeah,” he replied. “They were okay, but probably needed to piss really bad. You need me to meet you there with the key?”
“I have my dad’s key,” I said. “Thanks.”
“Well, just call me if you need anything.”
As we got off the phone, I could see the farm in the distance, as the setting sun sent its last rays over the tops of the surrounding woods. The car dropped me off and turned around as I made my way down the dirt driveway that leads up to my house.
“Bella, Barney!” I called. “Hey guys, I’m home!”
I kept calling as I got closer and scanned the area. They usually did not stray that far, and if they were shepherding our flock of sheep, they would be bringing them in, and I could see them coming down the gentle slope of the fields. My voice caught in my throat as I remembered their mysterious disappearance the previous night. I broke into a run, my calls turning into shrieks.
I raced around the house then over towards the barn and sheep pen. A foul smell made me almost choke. Rounding the barn, I cried out, my hands shooting up to my mouth. There was no movement in the sheep pen. It was a sea of bloody bodies, they were all on the ground, their throats slit. I fell to my knees and screamed. I felt like my scream filled the world. But not even that sound brought Bella and Barney back. They were gone….
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After seven years, I was still disgusted. I waited for my dad to call me to do the dreaded chore. I sighed, as I lay in bed and halfheartedly played with my phone. He was preparing a concoction that had such vile ingredients it was done in the basement. On the floor of my bedroom, Bella and Barney, our Australian Sheep Dogs stretched out, panting softly.
A text message interrupted my scrolling.
It’s ready, meet me in the kitchen.
I pocketed my phone and swung my legs over the side of the bed. Bella and Barney got up and followed me downstairs. I entered the kitchen where my father waited for me, his mask pulled down below his chin, big orange safety gloves on his hands, holding a large bottle used to feed young livestock. He reached out and handed it to me. I took it, my face closed and resigned. He snorted at my expression.
“It’s almost time,” he said. “Don’t look so glum.”
“Yeah,” I replied. “But only until the next cycle starts.”
I walked to the door, and a sudden thought made me stop. I turned to look at my dad, who was removing his mask and gloves and putting them in the sink.
“Couldn’t we find a way to end it?” I asked.
“Audrey,” he replied. “I think if there was a way to make it stop for good, they would have done it. This is the only way.”
I nodded, the end of my mouth quirking in a half smile. I should have expected that answer, but it was hard to accept it. This will always be my life. Someday it will be my sole responsibility. I walked out into the cool September night, Bella and Barney padding softly behind me. We approached the barn, and I opened the door. There was the sound of a soft and sickly bleat. I stepped inside, but my faithful dogs waited outside. Even they were disturbed.
I flicked on a light and went to the stall where the unnerving sound came from. I opened the door, and approached the animal, my stomach queasy. The lamb looked bloated, its curly coat giving off a greenish sheen. Its eyes were nearly colorless, and it struggled to stay on its feet. I approached the animal, and put one arm around its head, steadying it. Then I took the bottle of formula and shoved it into the animal’s mouth. It was too weak to struggle as I made sure it drank every drop.
When I was finished and closed the door to the barn, the dogs fell into step with me. We were halfway back to the house, when they both stopped, looking past the fields of our farm towards the forest edge. They started growling, a low vibration that made me halt in my tracks. I looked out, towards the forbidding darkness of the forest. I could not see anything in its inky depths. But my stomach was gripped with fear.
“Bella, Barney,” I said. “Let’s go.”
Hackles raised, they started snarling and then barking furiously they ran off towards the forest. I stood there, mouth agape for a few minutes and watched them disappear. I felt a thrill of fear go through me. They had never acted like this before; they were gentle herders of our flock of sheep. I tried in vain to call them back, then gave up and went back to the house, my footsteps an echo of trepidation.
“Dad!” I cried as the door slammed behind me. “Bella and Barney – they ran after something in the forest!”
My father got up from where he sat reading in the living room and came over to me, mouth set in a firm line.
“The forest?” He said, “It’s not time….we are on schedule. Maybe it was a rabbit or something.”
“No, you don’t understand,” I said in exasperation, my hand to my head. “They were growling, it’s like they were afraid of something – but then they just ran off barking. I could not get them to come back!”
My father went outside and scanned the area. He tried calling them, moving further away from the house. I waited and watched, wringing my hands, and biting my lower lip. Our dogs never ventured into the forest; I believe they could feel the malevolence of the place in there that was our family’s responsibility to keep at bay for over a hundred years. What if….my stomach clenched as my mind spun with horrible thoughts. After twenty minutes my father returned.
“What will we do?” I spoke. “What if…the thing got them.”
“Maybe they saw a coyote,” my dad replied. “Don’t worry, they will come back.”
He walked up to me, and gently tilted my face up to look at him. Eyes wide he gave me a smile of encouragement. I am sure I did not look convinced. He took me in a hug, and the side of my face pressed into his shoulder. His flannel shirt smelled faintly of pine and mint, and his body warmth was soothing. Then he let me go.
“Go get some sleep,” he said. “We can go out in the morning and look for them if they don’t come back. I’ll stay up a few more hours.”
I nodded, heading for the stairs, and glanced out the door briefly as I passed it. Bella and Barney always slept on the floor near my bed, for nine years out of my seventeen. I have no siblings, and my mother died when I was eight. I climbed into bed, feeling the emptiness in my room without them with me. I slept fitfully, pulling the blankets tighter around me as fearful dreams of my dogs being torn apart by the malevolence in the forest plagued me.
I woke in the morning with the sheets all twisted around me. I was groggily untangling myself when I heard scratching on the screen door downstairs. I stumbled quickly out of bed and pounded down the stairs. Opening the door, Bella and Barney came in, tails wagging. They licked my hands, as I felt all my muscles release from pent up tension, my insides trembling from relief. They went to the kitchen and drank from their water bowls then padded into the living room and flopped down on the rug in front of the fireplace. They put their heads down, and closed their eyes, breathing big, exhausted sighs.
My father walked into the kitchen and smiled when he saw our dogs snoring softly.
“See?” My father said. “I told you they would be back. The sheep will be fine in the paddock today. You can let them out with Bella and Barney when you get back from school.”
While I was getting ready, my father made breakfast. After we ate, he drove me to the school bus stop, which was five miles away from our remote farm. I waived goodbye to him as he headed to the city for his construction job.
“Hey Audrey,” said a lanky boy, with a mop of curly brown hair as he walked up to wait with me.
“Hey Martin,” I replied.
He looked at me intently for a moment. I felt my face heat up.
“Do I look that awful?”
Martin shrugged. “You look like something the cat dragged in.”
I bopped him on the shoulder. “I had a bad night sleep.”
The bus pulled up with a squeak and a huff, and we got in.
During fourth period English, I was busy writing an essay when the vice principal walked in and whispered to my teacher. I noticed it vaguely, trying to finish my work. Then he was standing at my desk. This felt weird…
“Audrey, can you come with me back to the office?” the vice principal said.
I looked up, glanced over at my teacher whose face looked pale and concerned. She nodded and waived her hand for me to go.
“Sure,” I said.
We walked into his office, and he gestured for me to take a seat in front of his desk.
“Your father’s jobsite called us,” he said gravely. “There’s been an accident…”
A shock went through me, and I grabbed the chair’s armrests as I felt my body tremble and bile rise in my throat.
“Is he okay?” I gasped.
“He’s been transported to the hospital,” the vice principal said, his face grave. “I talked to your teachers. Get your things we called an Uber to take you to him.”
I nodded, my head feeling light, and nausea rising. I tried to stand up, but lost my balance. The vice principal reached across the desk and steadied me. I looked up at him gratefully and left the room to go to my locker. The bell rang, and kids started to nosily fill the hallways. In a daze, I bumped into someone.
“Watch out there, Audrey!” said Martin as my shoulder met his chest.
I stumbled backwards, and he gently grabbed my arms so I would not fall. “Hey, you look like you’ve seen a ghost,” he said. “What’s wrong?”
“M-my father…” I stammered. “He’s been in an accident at work. I have to go to the hospital.”
Martin’s eyes widened, his mouth slightly opening. Then his eyebrows lowered in concern.
“Oh god, I am so sorry,” he said. “Is there anything I can do for you?”
“Yes,” I said, as I remembered my dogs. “Can you ride your bike over to my house after school? I will give you the house key. Please let Bella and Barney out, they have been in all day.”
He nodded, then followed me to my locker. I got my backpack and fished out the key. He took it from me and gave me a quick hug. I felt the contact settle my fluttering heart a bit. Then I made my way to the front steps of the school. A few minutes later I was in the backseat of an Uber, on my way to the hospital. The ride felt surreal, and the beating of my heart filled my ears. I could not feel the passage of time, it felt interminable as my head filled with fearful thoughts.
Finally, the Uber stopped, in front of the large grey and white, sprawling complex of Memorial Hospital. I got out and went inside to the front desk.
“I’m here to see Leonard Klein,” I told the woman who looked up to me from her computer.
“And you are?” she said.
“Audrey Klein, his daughter.”
She gave me a sign-in sheet and started typing on her computer. “He’s in ICU, 3rd floor.”
I gulped, a tremor going through me. Then I nodded and headed to the elevator.
On the 3rd floor, a nurse brought me over to a curtained off area. “He’s stable for now,” she said. “But he needs to rest.”
The curtain swished open, and I gasped, tears clouding my vision at what I saw. My dad lay in the hospital bed, his right leg and arm in a cast. His head was swaddled in heavy bandages, and his face was puffy and purple.
“Dad, I’m here,” I said, the words coming out with a squeak.
His eyes cracked open and darted over to where I stood. I walked over to him and rested my hand on the arm without the cast.
“Audrey,” he whispered. “I need to tell you something important.”
“Can it wait?” I said. “Maybe you should not be talking, the nurse said you need to rest.”
“No, it can’t,” he said softly. “Get my keys from my jacket pocket, I think they left my clothes here somewhere.”
My eyes darted quickly around the curtained off space, and found his clothes on a chair, his beige jacket folded on top. I grabbed his ring of keys in a side pocket and brought them over to him.
“You see the silver key stamped with an S?” he said.
I fumbled with the keys in my hands, until I found the one matching his description. I showed it to him.
“Yes, that’s the one,” he said. “Take it with you. There is a safe in the back of my bedroom closet, if anything happens to me it is important that you open it. Everything important is in there.”
“Okay,” I replied. “But I won’t have to open it – you will be alright!” I could not in a million years bring myself to accept otherwise. But he did not answer, his eyes closed, and his breathing deepened.
“Dad!” I cried.
The nurse poked her head in. “He’s on a lot of painkillers,” she said. “They knock people out. Time to let him rest.”
I nodded, my lower lip trembling, and wiped the tear that fell from my left eye with the back of my hand. I made my way down to the front desk, where I made sure they had my cell number and they said they would call me with updates on his condition. Then I ordered an Uber to take me home.
On the ride back, I wrapped my arms tightly around my stomach, squeezing hard. An occasional shiver would go through me, as my mind raced on my father’s words. I could not get the memory of him in that hospital bed out of my mind, and I kept fighting off the dread by whispering to myself that he would be okay over and over again.
As we got nearer to my family farm, I called Martin.
“Audrey,” Martin said. “How’s your dad?”
“He’s in ICU, doped up on painkillers,” I replied. “Broken bones, and a head injury.”
“Damn,” Martin said. “You going to be okay alone?”
“Yes,” I said, although my feelings of trepidation did not bely my words. “Were you able to let Bella and Barney out?”
“Yeah,” he replied. “They were okay, but probably needed to piss really bad. You need me to meet you there with the key?”
“I have my dad’s key,” I said. “Thanks.”
“Well, just call me if you need anything.”
As we got off the phone, I could see the farm in the distance, as the setting sun sent its last rays over the tops of the surrounding woods. The car dropped me off and turned around as I made my way down the dirt driveway that leads up to my house.
“Bella, Barney!” I called. “Hey guys, I’m home!”
I kept calling as I got closer and scanned the area. They usually did not stray that far, and if they were shepherding our flock of sheep, they would be bringing them in, and I could see them coming down the gentle slope of the fields. My voice caught in my throat as I remembered their mysterious disappearance the previous night. I broke into a run, my calls turning into shrieks.
I raced around the house then over towards the barn and sheep pen. A foul smell made me almost choke. Rounding the barn, I cried out, my hands shooting up to my mouth. There was no movement in the sheep pen. It was a sea of bloody bodies, they were all on the ground, their throats slit. I fell to my knees and screamed. I felt like my scream filled the world. But not even that sound brought Bella and Barney back. They were gone….
2023.06.06 17:07 pixelanceleste What if Lucifer is P-3?
I've seen a lot of posts theorizing who the boss of P-3 might be, some saying Judas, some saying Jesus himself.
Now personally I feel we should be looking further into greek mythology for who P-3 might be, since both Minos and Sisyphus are from greek myths. HOWEVER... the idea of Lucifer or Satan (i am not sure if they're the same entity or not, but you know who I'm referring to) being the last P boss feels too right for me.
He's already mentioned on one of the secrets, already being established as a character in this world. But considering the way the story is heading, I feel introducing him as a player in the main story might not work at this point. Gabriel has consistently been the only character with a voice in the main story, while the others are merely mentioned. And the only mention of him will only be available to players who have played the secret level - and the type of players who seek the prime sanctums are probably the same type to seek the secret levels, trying to get as much content from the game as they can.
Plus, as King of Hell, it makes sense for Lucifer to be another Dead King, just like Minos or Sisyphus with their corpses found on the levels. And upon the disappearance of God, it makes total sense for the angels to focus their strengths on locking away Lucifer, to defend God's throne from his mortal enemy. And if they didn't... then why hasn't he been important to the story yet? What happened to Lucifer as to barely be relevant to Hell's story, not mentioned by anyone except God himself? Perhaps something tragic happened to him... there's a lot of story that could be written about him in this world, the kind of story that so far has been relegated to those who would eventually become Prime Souls.
Apparently in Dante's inferno, the Devil is on the last layer, trapped from the waist down. But what if that's just it's corpse that's there?
Ok those are my main thoughts, I have some more unfounded thoughts below but my main theory is what's above this. What do you think?
PS. Even though it definitely won't happen and it's just a headcannon atm, I feel that it could be interesting for Lucifer Prime to be... transgender? Considering how they were cast to hell for criticizing the Will of God, for criticizing the eternal damnation he put humans through, then perhaps Lucifer could represent the Free Will of god's creations. How God attempting to force humanity to follow his Will, like the angels of heaven do after his disappearance, could end up just hurting humanity in the process. Like it wasn't guaranteed that God would know what was right and wrong for humanity to do, and that trying again and again until they followed his singular vision was a fruitless endeavor. And embodying that with a character that can only find true peace of mind by defying their god's will and incarnating their own, would be a really interesting way to lead this theme. Also, it would give a whole new layer of meaning to the concept of a Prime Soul, when considering a Soul that may be entirely different to the body it originated from, and in Lucifer's case, being truly them at their most true form.
...The only thing is that I'm not entirely sure how to connect this to Treachery. Like I know one, but it would go totally against the themes that I just discussed and would be honestly transphobic... unless it's a similar situation to Lust, in which the eternal damnation the people suffered there is framed as injust, causing Minos himself to stop it. It could be a similar situation here - as if Lucifer did not commit true treachery, far from it, they were being faithful to themselves, but in God's eyes it was seen as treachery, just like how many transphobes see it that way as well.
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Now personally I feel we should be looking further into greek mythology for who P-3 might be, since both Minos and Sisyphus are from greek myths. HOWEVER... the idea of Lucifer or Satan (i am not sure if they're the same entity or not, but you know who I'm referring to) being the last P boss feels too right for me.
He's already mentioned on one of the secrets, already being established as a character in this world. But considering the way the story is heading, I feel introducing him as a player in the main story might not work at this point. Gabriel has consistently been the only character with a voice in the main story, while the others are merely mentioned. And the only mention of him will only be available to players who have played the secret level - and the type of players who seek the prime sanctums are probably the same type to seek the secret levels, trying to get as much content from the game as they can.
Plus, as King of Hell, it makes sense for Lucifer to be another Dead King, just like Minos or Sisyphus with their corpses found on the levels. And upon the disappearance of God, it makes total sense for the angels to focus their strengths on locking away Lucifer, to defend God's throne from his mortal enemy. And if they didn't... then why hasn't he been important to the story yet? What happened to Lucifer as to barely be relevant to Hell's story, not mentioned by anyone except God himself? Perhaps something tragic happened to him... there's a lot of story that could be written about him in this world, the kind of story that so far has been relegated to those who would eventually become Prime Souls.
Apparently in Dante's inferno, the Devil is on the last layer, trapped from the waist down. But what if that's just it's corpse that's there?
Ok those are my main thoughts, I have some more unfounded thoughts below but my main theory is what's above this. What do you think?
PS. Even though it definitely won't happen and it's just a headcannon atm, I feel that it could be interesting for Lucifer Prime to be... transgender? Considering how they were cast to hell for criticizing the Will of God, for criticizing the eternal damnation he put humans through, then perhaps Lucifer could represent the Free Will of god's creations. How God attempting to force humanity to follow his Will, like the angels of heaven do after his disappearance, could end up just hurting humanity in the process. Like it wasn't guaranteed that God would know what was right and wrong for humanity to do, and that trying again and again until they followed his singular vision was a fruitless endeavor. And embodying that with a character that can only find true peace of mind by defying their god's will and incarnating their own, would be a really interesting way to lead this theme. Also, it would give a whole new layer of meaning to the concept of a Prime Soul, when considering a Soul that may be entirely different to the body it originated from, and in Lucifer's case, being truly them at their most true form.
...The only thing is that I'm not entirely sure how to connect this to Treachery. Like I know one, but it would go totally against the themes that I just discussed and would be honestly transphobic... unless it's a similar situation to Lust, in which the eternal damnation the people suffered there is framed as injust, causing Minos himself to stop it. It could be a similar situation here - as if Lucifer did not commit true treachery, far from it, they were being faithful to themselves, but in God's eyes it was seen as treachery, just like how many transphobes see it that way as well.
2023.06.06 17:07 MrGamePadMan Just got done watching a review of Apple’s new “Vision Pro” augmented/virtual reality headset and this came to mind:
This post leads to about God, so bare with me:
..so, I just got done watching a top YouTuber review the Vision Pro AVR headset from Apple and it’s pretty impressive tech.
…I’m a tech guy myself, I think new advancements can be and is fascinating. And the advancements in the VR space since the first Oculus headset is pretty cool.
The Vision Pro has the most advanced eye-tracking technology and hand gesture tech, that make using AR interfaces seem “futuristic.” Again, it was a step into something rarely seen so far.
And people, including myself, can go “wow…that’s cool and amazing,” and marvel at the engineering and technicality of such devices…
And then as much as eye-tracking is impressive in the Vision Pro from Apple, the thought came to me…
“…yeah, but…the human eye itself is sheer magnitudes more impressive. It uses ‘BIO-tech’ essentially and produces what we all experience as our eyesight.” Yet…for the most part, we just don’t marvel at God’s engineering of such things like we do when we see a new piece of technology made by humans…
Why are we so fascinated by these pieces of technology and not make a fuss about how amazing the human eyeball is and how there’s countless biological sensory optics that connects the eye to our brain and it somehow produces the ability to see the world around us…light bouncing off our retina’s and our brain being able to process this data, in real-time, so fast that wherever we turn to look, nothing has latency or has to “load in” before the images appear…it just works.
That is a myriad of more impressive, to me, than something like the Vision Pro. But we somehow undermine the God who created such marvels and we praise the newest tech made by human hands. I’m guilty of this…
Now, I’m not saying it’s a sin or inherently bad to marvel at engineering achievements from the human race…afterall, God gave us the intellect to create and we use technologies all the time to navigate through this life. But, my point is, we normally don’t stop and ponder on how amazing the human body is and how it functions (that’s just one example of creation of God of course) and proclaim our amazement like we do in the comments of a YouTube video, like this new Apple Vision Pro device…
The human race has not figured out bio-technology in the ways God’s knowledge and genius has. Just how awesome is God, to create the human eye alone and its practicality of the human anatomy? We marvel at how a headset tracks eye-movement as precise and intuatively as the Vision Pro demostrated…yet, we miss the more amazing achievement, the eye itself that even enables the technology to exist in the first place.
I suppose, I just wanted to praise God’s own “technology” that He created from the dust of the Earth and shed light on His achievements, and not just some new Apple product that will eventually become obsolete and collect dust in the years to come.
The human eye has yet to become obsolete.
I wish my praise here, could glorify His creation justly…but no matter how much I marvel at His creations, I fall short of how marvelous His creations really are. Regardless, God is the greatest of all time and His power, knowledge and glory cannot be matched by any Earthly tech.
Thanks for reading.
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..so, I just got done watching a top YouTuber review the Vision Pro AVR headset from Apple and it’s pretty impressive tech.
…I’m a tech guy myself, I think new advancements can be and is fascinating. And the advancements in the VR space since the first Oculus headset is pretty cool.
The Vision Pro has the most advanced eye-tracking technology and hand gesture tech, that make using AR interfaces seem “futuristic.” Again, it was a step into something rarely seen so far.
And people, including myself, can go “wow…that’s cool and amazing,” and marvel at the engineering and technicality of such devices…
And then as much as eye-tracking is impressive in the Vision Pro from Apple, the thought came to me…
“…yeah, but…the human eye itself is sheer magnitudes more impressive. It uses ‘BIO-tech’ essentially and produces what we all experience as our eyesight.” Yet…for the most part, we just don’t marvel at God’s engineering of such things like we do when we see a new piece of technology made by humans…
Why are we so fascinated by these pieces of technology and not make a fuss about how amazing the human eyeball is and how there’s countless biological sensory optics that connects the eye to our brain and it somehow produces the ability to see the world around us…light bouncing off our retina’s and our brain being able to process this data, in real-time, so fast that wherever we turn to look, nothing has latency or has to “load in” before the images appear…it just works.
That is a myriad of more impressive, to me, than something like the Vision Pro. But we somehow undermine the God who created such marvels and we praise the newest tech made by human hands. I’m guilty of this…
Now, I’m not saying it’s a sin or inherently bad to marvel at engineering achievements from the human race…afterall, God gave us the intellect to create and we use technologies all the time to navigate through this life. But, my point is, we normally don’t stop and ponder on how amazing the human body is and how it functions (that’s just one example of creation of God of course) and proclaim our amazement like we do in the comments of a YouTube video, like this new Apple Vision Pro device…
The human race has not figured out bio-technology in the ways God’s knowledge and genius has. Just how awesome is God, to create the human eye alone and its practicality of the human anatomy? We marvel at how a headset tracks eye-movement as precise and intuatively as the Vision Pro demostrated…yet, we miss the more amazing achievement, the eye itself that even enables the technology to exist in the first place.
I suppose, I just wanted to praise God’s own “technology” that He created from the dust of the Earth and shed light on His achievements, and not just some new Apple product that will eventually become obsolete and collect dust in the years to come.
The human eye has yet to become obsolete.
I wish my praise here, could glorify His creation justly…but no matter how much I marvel at His creations, I fall short of how marvelous His creations really are. Regardless, God is the greatest of all time and His power, knowledge and glory cannot be matched by any Earthly tech.
Thanks for reading.
2023.06.06 17:06 st4rdr0id Unable to compile Lamport's Bakery Algorithm
I'm reading the TLA+ hyperbook. In the principles track, there is a preliminar version of the Bakery algorithm called "Big Step" (p.25).
I'm unable to compile the code as it appears in the book because of an error in the TypeOK invariant. This definition appears AFTER the Pluscal block, and tries to check variables defined inside the Pluscal block. This is the structure of the code:
How can one do this? I'm using the C syntax of Pluscal.
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I'm unable to compile the code as it appears in the book because of an error in the TypeOK invariant. This definition appears AFTER the Pluscal block, and tries to check variables defined inside the Pluscal block. This is the structure of the code:
Constants Assumes Some TLA+ operators (* --algorithm FOO { variable foo = 0; process (p \in Procs) variable bar = 0; { \* Process body } } *) Some TLA operators type-checking variables foo and bar defined inside the Pluscal block. Now I tried adding all the operators, the ones defined before the Pluscal block and the ones defined after it, all inside a define block inside the algorithm comment. But that doesn't work either, as those variables are defined later in the process block.How can one do this? I'm using the C syntax of Pluscal.
2023.06.06 17:06 punching_dinos Does more sleep ever help?
Hi all, new to CFS still working on a diagnosis but pretty sure I have it since so far no other tests have shown anything though I just did a second sleep study.
I’m curious if more sleep ever actually helps. Obviously this is something I’m sure many of us have heard “just sleep more!” Now I get probably 6-8 hours on average but even days I get 8-10 hours it changes nothing. Still feel like my brain is moving like molasses and my entire body is heavy and exhausted.
So I’m curious—does more sleep actually relieve your symptoms? And if so how much?
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I’m curious if more sleep ever actually helps. Obviously this is something I’m sure many of us have heard “just sleep more!” Now I get probably 6-8 hours on average but even days I get 8-10 hours it changes nothing. Still feel like my brain is moving like molasses and my entire body is heavy and exhausted.
So I’m curious—does more sleep actually relieve your symptoms? And if so how much?
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2023.06.06 17:06 PossibilityFree5261 Feeling normal on Wellbutrin but getting tics. Not sure if I have ADHD. Looking into other options
Hi. I am 31yo male. I was diagnosed with depression, anxiety and social anxiety. I was always prescribed SSRI's, although it worked great for irritability, anger and depression, it did not help with social anxiety, made me very numb, sedated, careless and unmotivated, even with half of the lowest dose. So I stopped taking then after a few months each time. I felt better without SSRI's but depression and irritability kept coming back, I had daily fatigue as well, no matter if I'm on SSRI's or not.
I went to another provider who suggested that I try Wellbutrin just to see how it works on me, which I am taking only a week now. He also prescribed 25mg Zoloft (lowest dose available). I felt Wellbutrin the first day I took it. I got a lot of energy and felt like myself again. It gets better every day. I sleep well and wake up fresh even with 6h sleep, where I had extreme issues with waking up even after 10h sleep. I feel like my mind is clear and I don't have the brain fog anymore. The only side effect that I experienced the first 3 days was sore musles, leg cramps and back pain, but it stopped suddenly.
However, since I started taking it, my body started showing some anxiety issues such as tics (shaking legs, clearing throat, moving fingers, blinking). I had these before when I was a child during a stressful time but it stopped, then I just had these occasionally and was able to control it. It got worse on Wellbutrin. It really makes me sad since my mental is doing great on it.
Just to add, I think I also have undiagnosed Inattentive ADHD. The only sympton that doesn't match is overlooking details, because I am very detail oriented and always pay close attention to details, noticing any change. I am also a perfectionist and don't do thing spontaneously without overthinking them and checking a lot of different sources before doing something, I feel like I need to know it all. At childhood, I was a very shy and stressed out kid, in early school I spent most time with teachers or alone, not having too many friends. It changed in middle school when I became very outgoing with my friends around. Although, I've never came to the board or any public speech, I avoided these at every occasion. I consider myself to be an introvert, changing into an extravert when alcohol is involved, thats why I cannot have fun without getting buzzed when going out. Now, I still avoid these, I do not speak out when more then 1 or 2 people can hear me, overthink before saying anything, speak too fast when stressed and too slow when not stressed, am always late etc. To add, I bite my nails excessively for over 20 years, cannot control it, if that matters. It seems that I've got symptoms of ADHD and anxiety + depression together.
Wellbutrin really does help with getting myself together and functioning normally. I am not feeling stimulating, euphoric or energized, I just feel normal, without getting fatigued or brain fog. Only thing is that I feel like my body needs to be in move all the time, which is showing as tics. I would love to get more energized and motivated to surpass how I feel normally (when not depressed), without having tics.
Here some of the symptoms which I am struggling with:
Inattentive ADHD (undiagnosed): losing stuff, forgetful, turning mind off, easily sidetracked, trouble organizing, trouble staying on topic, indecision, shy, starting new projects and not completing them, feeling of needing to do something new, clumsiness, always late, nervous tics, unable to work without having another stimulant such as music or listening to podcasts
TLDR: Having depression, anxiety, social anxiety. I think I also have inattentive ADHD and OCD. All SSRI's made me sedated and unmotivated. Was prescribed Wellbutrin SR 150mg to test it out along with Zoloft 25mg. Feeling very good, mind is fresh, no depression or negative thoughts. I am however getting tics and feel like my body needs to move. Had tics as a child for around a year or two, it stopped, just had some of these on some occasions but it was controlable.
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I went to another provider who suggested that I try Wellbutrin just to see how it works on me, which I am taking only a week now. He also prescribed 25mg Zoloft (lowest dose available). I felt Wellbutrin the first day I took it. I got a lot of energy and felt like myself again. It gets better every day. I sleep well and wake up fresh even with 6h sleep, where I had extreme issues with waking up even after 10h sleep. I feel like my mind is clear and I don't have the brain fog anymore. The only side effect that I experienced the first 3 days was sore musles, leg cramps and back pain, but it stopped suddenly.
However, since I started taking it, my body started showing some anxiety issues such as tics (shaking legs, clearing throat, moving fingers, blinking). I had these before when I was a child during a stressful time but it stopped, then I just had these occasionally and was able to control it. It got worse on Wellbutrin. It really makes me sad since my mental is doing great on it.
Just to add, I think I also have undiagnosed Inattentive ADHD. The only sympton that doesn't match is overlooking details, because I am very detail oriented and always pay close attention to details, noticing any change. I am also a perfectionist and don't do thing spontaneously without overthinking them and checking a lot of different sources before doing something, I feel like I need to know it all. At childhood, I was a very shy and stressed out kid, in early school I spent most time with teachers or alone, not having too many friends. It changed in middle school when I became very outgoing with my friends around. Although, I've never came to the board or any public speech, I avoided these at every occasion. I consider myself to be an introvert, changing into an extravert when alcohol is involved, thats why I cannot have fun without getting buzzed when going out. Now, I still avoid these, I do not speak out when more then 1 or 2 people can hear me, overthink before saying anything, speak too fast when stressed and too slow when not stressed, am always late etc. To add, I bite my nails excessively for over 20 years, cannot control it, if that matters. It seems that I've got symptoms of ADHD and anxiety + depression together.
Wellbutrin really does help with getting myself together and functioning normally. I am not feeling stimulating, euphoric or energized, I just feel normal, without getting fatigued or brain fog. Only thing is that I feel like my body needs to be in move all the time, which is showing as tics. I would love to get more energized and motivated to surpass how I feel normally (when not depressed), without having tics.
Here some of the symptoms which I am struggling with:
- Depression: feeling sad and empty, no pleasure, oversleeping, fatigue, irritability, slow thinking
- Anxiety: overthinking, worrying too much, panic attacks when someone bothers me with too many questions, low self esteem, oversweating
- Social anxiety: mind going blank when too much attention on me, sweating, panic attacks when someone bothers me with too many questions, unavailable to give public speech, anxious about answering a phone call, fear of humiliation, having hard time talking to people I that I not very close to me, hard to make eye contact or relax when talking with someone
Inattentive ADHD (undiagnosed): losing stuff, forgetful, turning mind off, easily sidetracked, trouble organizing, trouble staying on topic, indecision, shy, starting new projects and not completing them, feeling of needing to do something new, clumsiness, always late, nervous tics, unable to work without having another stimulant such as music or listening to podcasts
TLDR: Having depression, anxiety, social anxiety. I think I also have inattentive ADHD and OCD. All SSRI's made me sedated and unmotivated. Was prescribed Wellbutrin SR 150mg to test it out along with Zoloft 25mg. Feeling very good, mind is fresh, no depression or negative thoughts. I am however getting tics and feel like my body needs to move. Had tics as a child for around a year or two, it stopped, just had some of these on some occasions but it was controlable.
- Has anyone experienced increased ticking? Did it go away?
- Do you think I should try Adderall or Vyvanse instead of Wellbutrin?
- Do you think I might have inattentive ADHD?
2023.06.06 17:06 Mammoth-Honey-2595 Discontinuation Success Story - use your common sense
Antidepressant discontinuation syndrome is a tough time. The internet is full of advice, but often lacks common sense. I wanted to share my story, and how I used common sense to get through it. ♥️
Context: I am 27F. I took Effexor for 5 years. It worked very well for me. I started the drug, along with counseling, shortly after the death of a parent. I had no side effects, and was feeling well mentally and emotionally when I chose to discontinue. I chose to discontinue because my husband and I would like to have a baby. Effexor is not safe for pregnancy. I discussed discontinuing the drug with my PCP, and we made a plan together.
My PCP’s advice was straightforward: We will taper the drug over time and treat symptoms as they arise.
Let me reiterate. You only need 2 things: to taper over time, and to treat the symptoms.
The length of time your taper takes should be self-led, to minimize the impact of withdrawal symptoms. Some people can tolerate decreasing the dose by 1/2 each week, while others may need decrease by 1/4 (or less) each week. If your symptoms are too difficult after a dose reduction, go back up to the previous dose and stay there until you feel better. Then, try a smaller decrease. The taper will be uncomfortable, but it doesn’t have to be miserable. It might take a month, it might take a few. That’s fine. You can do that.
A few more pearls of common sense: 1. Ibuprofen or Tylenol helps with body aches. 2. Pepto bismol will help with nausea, vomiting and diarrhea. You can also ask your doctor for Zofran. 3. Benadryl or Dramamine will help with the dizziness or “brain shivers.” You can also ask your doctor for Atarax. 4. Stay hydrated. Eat to fuel your body. Go to bed early. Don’t drink alcohol. Don’t start a weird supplement you read about on the internet.
And, for the love of God, please don’t stop cold turkey. It’s only a guarantee you’ll feel like garbage if you do. Go slow. Give your body the care it needs. You are going to be okay. ♥️
I finished my taper yesterday. I am symptom free. It is possible.
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Context: I am 27F. I took Effexor for 5 years. It worked very well for me. I started the drug, along with counseling, shortly after the death of a parent. I had no side effects, and was feeling well mentally and emotionally when I chose to discontinue. I chose to discontinue because my husband and I would like to have a baby. Effexor is not safe for pregnancy. I discussed discontinuing the drug with my PCP, and we made a plan together.
My PCP’s advice was straightforward: We will taper the drug over time and treat symptoms as they arise.
Let me reiterate. You only need 2 things: to taper over time, and to treat the symptoms.
The length of time your taper takes should be self-led, to minimize the impact of withdrawal symptoms. Some people can tolerate decreasing the dose by 1/2 each week, while others may need decrease by 1/4 (or less) each week. If your symptoms are too difficult after a dose reduction, go back up to the previous dose and stay there until you feel better. Then, try a smaller decrease. The taper will be uncomfortable, but it doesn’t have to be miserable. It might take a month, it might take a few. That’s fine. You can do that.
A few more pearls of common sense: 1. Ibuprofen or Tylenol helps with body aches. 2. Pepto bismol will help with nausea, vomiting and diarrhea. You can also ask your doctor for Zofran. 3. Benadryl or Dramamine will help with the dizziness or “brain shivers.” You can also ask your doctor for Atarax. 4. Stay hydrated. Eat to fuel your body. Go to bed early. Don’t drink alcohol. Don’t start a weird supplement you read about on the internet.
And, for the love of God, please don’t stop cold turkey. It’s only a guarantee you’ll feel like garbage if you do. Go slow. Give your body the care it needs. You are going to be okay. ♥️
I finished my taper yesterday. I am symptom free. It is possible.
2023.06.06 17:05 PossibilityFree5261 Feeling normal on Wellbutrin but getting tics. Not sure if I have ADHD. Looking into other options
Hi. I am 31yo male. I was diagnosed with depression, anxiety and social anxiety. I was always prescribed SSRI's, although it worked great for irritability, anger and depression, it did not help with social anxiety, made me very numb, sedated, careless and unmotivated, even with half of the lowest dose. So I stopped taking then after a few months each time. I felt better without SSRI's but depression and irritability kept coming back, I had daily fatigue as well, no matter if I'm on SSRI's or not.
I went to another provider who suggested that I try Wellbutrin just to see how it works on me, which I am taking only a week now. He also prescribed 25mg Zoloft (lowest dose available). I felt Wellbutrin the first day I took it. I got a lot of energy and felt like myself again. It gets better every day. I sleep well and wake up fresh even with 6h sleep, where I had extreme issues with waking up even after 10h sleep. I feel like my mind is clear and I don't have the brain fog anymore. The only side effect that I experienced the first 3 days was sore musles, leg cramps and back pain, but it stopped suddenly.
However, since I started taking it, my body started showing some anxiety issues such as tics (shaking legs, clearing throat, moving fingers, blinking). I had these before when I was a child during a stressful time but it stopped, then I just had these occasionally and was able to control it. It got worse on Wellbutrin. It really makes me sad since my mental is doing great on it.
Just to add, I think I also have undiagnosed Inattentive ADHD. The only sympton that doesn't match is overlooking details, because I am very detail oriented and always pay close attention to details, noticing any change. I am also a perfectionist and don't do thing spontaneously without overthinking them and checking a lot of different sources before doing something, I feel like I need to know it all. At childhood, I was a very shy and stressed out kid, in early school I spent most time with teachers or alone, not having too many friends. It changed in middle school when I became very outgoing with my friends around. Although, I've never came to the board or any public speech, I avoided these at every occasion. I consider myself to be an introvert, changing into an extravert when alcohol is involved, thats why I cannot have fun without getting buzzed when going out. Now, I still avoid these, I do not speak out when more then 1 or 2 people can hear me, overthink before saying anything, speak too fast when stressed and too slow when not stressed, am always late etc. To add, I bite my nails excessively for over 20 years, cannot control it, if that matters. It seems that I've got symptoms of ADHD and anxiety + depression together.
Wellbutrin really does help with getting myself together and functioning normally. I am not feeling stimulating, euphoric or energized, I just feel normal, without getting fatigued or brain fog. Only thing is that I feel like my body needs to be in move all the time, which is showing as tics. I would love to get more energized and motivated to surpass how I feel normally (when not depressed), without having tics.
Here some of the symptoms which I am struggling with:
Inattentive ADHD (undiagnosed): losing stuff, forgetful, turning mind off, easily sidetracked, trouble organizing, trouble staying on topic, indecision, shy, starting new projects and not completing them, feeling of needing to do something new, clumsiness, always late, nervous tics, unable to work without having another stimulant such as music or listening to podcasts
TLDR: Having depression, anxiety, social anxiety. I think I also have inattentive ADHD and OCD. All SSRI's made me sedated and unmotivated. Was prescribed Wellbutrin SR 150mg to test it out along with Zoloft 25mg. Feeling very good, mind is fresh, no depression or negative thoughts. I am however getting tics and feel like my body needs to move. Had tics as a child for around a year or two, it stopped, just had some of these on some occasions but it was controlable.
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I went to another provider who suggested that I try Wellbutrin just to see how it works on me, which I am taking only a week now. He also prescribed 25mg Zoloft (lowest dose available). I felt Wellbutrin the first day I took it. I got a lot of energy and felt like myself again. It gets better every day. I sleep well and wake up fresh even with 6h sleep, where I had extreme issues with waking up even after 10h sleep. I feel like my mind is clear and I don't have the brain fog anymore. The only side effect that I experienced the first 3 days was sore musles, leg cramps and back pain, but it stopped suddenly.
However, since I started taking it, my body started showing some anxiety issues such as tics (shaking legs, clearing throat, moving fingers, blinking). I had these before when I was a child during a stressful time but it stopped, then I just had these occasionally and was able to control it. It got worse on Wellbutrin. It really makes me sad since my mental is doing great on it.
Just to add, I think I also have undiagnosed Inattentive ADHD. The only sympton that doesn't match is overlooking details, because I am very detail oriented and always pay close attention to details, noticing any change. I am also a perfectionist and don't do thing spontaneously without overthinking them and checking a lot of different sources before doing something, I feel like I need to know it all. At childhood, I was a very shy and stressed out kid, in early school I spent most time with teachers or alone, not having too many friends. It changed in middle school when I became very outgoing with my friends around. Although, I've never came to the board or any public speech, I avoided these at every occasion. I consider myself to be an introvert, changing into an extravert when alcohol is involved, thats why I cannot have fun without getting buzzed when going out. Now, I still avoid these, I do not speak out when more then 1 or 2 people can hear me, overthink before saying anything, speak too fast when stressed and too slow when not stressed, am always late etc. To add, I bite my nails excessively for over 20 years, cannot control it, if that matters. It seems that I've got symptoms of ADHD and anxiety + depression together.
Wellbutrin really does help with getting myself together and functioning normally. I am not feeling stimulating, euphoric or energized, I just feel normal, without getting fatigued or brain fog. Only thing is that I feel like my body needs to be in move all the time, which is showing as tics. I would love to get more energized and motivated to surpass how I feel normally (when not depressed), without having tics.
Here some of the symptoms which I am struggling with:
- Depression: feeling sad and empty, no pleasure, oversleeping, fatigue, irritability, slow thinking
- Anxiety: overthinking, worrying too much, panic attacks when someone bothers me with too many questions, low self esteem, oversweating
- Social anxiety: mind going blank when too much attention on me, sweating, panic attacks when someone bothers me with too many questions, unavailable to give public speech, anxious about answering a phone call, fear of humiliation, having hard time talking to people I that I not very close to me, hard to make eye contact or relax when talking with someone
Inattentive ADHD (undiagnosed): losing stuff, forgetful, turning mind off, easily sidetracked, trouble organizing, trouble staying on topic, indecision, shy, starting new projects and not completing them, feeling of needing to do something new, clumsiness, always late, nervous tics, unable to work without having another stimulant such as music or listening to podcasts
TLDR: Having depression, anxiety, social anxiety. I think I also have inattentive ADHD and OCD. All SSRI's made me sedated and unmotivated. Was prescribed Wellbutrin SR 150mg to test it out along with Zoloft 25mg. Feeling very good, mind is fresh, no depression or negative thoughts. I am however getting tics and feel like my body needs to move. Had tics as a child for around a year or two, it stopped, just had some of these on some occasions but it was controlable.
- Has anyone experienced increased ticking? Did it go away?
- Do you think I should try Adderall or Vyvanse instead of Wellbutrin?
- Do you think I might have inattentive ADHD?
2023.06.06 17:05 PossibilityFree5261 Feeling normal on Wellbutrin but getting tics. Not sure if I have ADHD. Looking into other options
Hi. I am 31yo male. I was diagnosed with depression, anxiety and social anxiety. I was always prescribed SSRI's, although it worked great for irritability, anger and depression, it did not help with social anxiety, made me very numb, sedated, careless and unmotivated, even with half of the lowest dose. So I stopped taking then after a few months each time. I felt better without SSRI's but depression and irritability kept coming back, I had daily fatigue as well, no matter if I'm on SSRI's or not.
I went to another provider who suggested that I try Wellbutrin just to see how it works on me, which I am taking only a week now. He also prescribed 25mg Zoloft (lowest dose available). I felt Wellbutrin the first day I took it. I got a lot of energy and felt like myself again. It gets better every day. I sleep well and wake up fresh even with 6h sleep, where I had extreme issues with waking up even after 10h sleep. I feel like my mind is clear and I don't have the brain fog anymore. The only side effect that I experienced the first 3 days was sore musles, leg cramps and back pain, but it stopped suddenly.
However, since I started taking it, my body started showing some anxiety issues such as tics (shaking legs, clearing throat, moving fingers, blinking). I had these before when I was a child during a stressful time but it stopped, then I just had these occasionally and was able to control it. It got worse on Wellbutrin. It really makes me sad since my mental is doing great on it.
Just to add, I think I also have undiagnosed Inattentive ADHD. The only sympton that doesn't match is overlooking details, because I am very detail oriented and always pay close attention to details, noticing any change. I am also a perfectionist and don't do thing spontaneously without overthinking them and checking a lot of different sources before doing something, I feel like I need to know it all. At childhood, I was a very shy and stressed out kid, in early school I spent most time with teachers or alone, not having too many friends. It changed in middle school when I became very outgoing with my friends around. Although, I've never came to the board or any public speech, I avoided these at every occasion. I consider myself to be an introvert, changing into an extravert when alcohol is involved, thats why I cannot have fun without getting buzzed when going out. Now, I still avoid these, I do not speak out when more then 1 or 2 people can hear me, overthink before saying anything, speak too fast when stressed and too slow when not stressed, am always late etc. To add, I bite my nails excessively for over 20 years, cannot control it, if that matters. It seems that I've got symptoms of ADHD and anxiety + depression together.
Wellbutrin really does help with getting myself together and functioning normally. I am not feeling stimulating, euphoric or energized, I just feel normal, without getting fatigued or brain fog. Only thing is that I feel like my body needs to be in move all the time, which is showing as tics. I would love to get more energized and motivated to surpass how I feel normally (when not depressed), without having tics.
Here some of the symptoms which I am struggling with:
Inattentive ADHD (undiagnosed): losing stuff, forgetful, turning mind off, easily sidetracked, trouble organizing, trouble staying on topic, indecision, shy, starting new projects and not completing them, feeling of needing to do something new, clumsiness, always late, nervous tics, unable to work without having another stimulant such as music or listening to podcasts
TLDR: Having depression, anxiety, social anxiety. I think I also have inattentive ADHD and OCD. All SSRI's made me sedated and unmotivated. Was prescribed Wellbutrin SR 150mg to test it out along with Zoloft 25mg. Feeling very good, mind is fresh, no depression or negative thoughts. I am however getting tics and feel like my body needs to move. Had tics as a child for around a year or two, it stopped, just had some of these on some occasions but it was controlable.
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I went to another provider who suggested that I try Wellbutrin just to see how it works on me, which I am taking only a week now. He also prescribed 25mg Zoloft (lowest dose available). I felt Wellbutrin the first day I took it. I got a lot of energy and felt like myself again. It gets better every day. I sleep well and wake up fresh even with 6h sleep, where I had extreme issues with waking up even after 10h sleep. I feel like my mind is clear and I don't have the brain fog anymore. The only side effect that I experienced the first 3 days was sore musles, leg cramps and back pain, but it stopped suddenly.
However, since I started taking it, my body started showing some anxiety issues such as tics (shaking legs, clearing throat, moving fingers, blinking). I had these before when I was a child during a stressful time but it stopped, then I just had these occasionally and was able to control it. It got worse on Wellbutrin. It really makes me sad since my mental is doing great on it.
Just to add, I think I also have undiagnosed Inattentive ADHD. The only sympton that doesn't match is overlooking details, because I am very detail oriented and always pay close attention to details, noticing any change. I am also a perfectionist and don't do thing spontaneously without overthinking them and checking a lot of different sources before doing something, I feel like I need to know it all. At childhood, I was a very shy and stressed out kid, in early school I spent most time with teachers or alone, not having too many friends. It changed in middle school when I became very outgoing with my friends around. Although, I've never came to the board or any public speech, I avoided these at every occasion. I consider myself to be an introvert, changing into an extravert when alcohol is involved, thats why I cannot have fun without getting buzzed when going out. Now, I still avoid these, I do not speak out when more then 1 or 2 people can hear me, overthink before saying anything, speak too fast when stressed and too slow when not stressed, am always late etc. To add, I bite my nails excessively for over 20 years, cannot control it, if that matters. It seems that I've got symptoms of ADHD and anxiety + depression together.
Wellbutrin really does help with getting myself together and functioning normally. I am not feeling stimulating, euphoric or energized, I just feel normal, without getting fatigued or brain fog. Only thing is that I feel like my body needs to be in move all the time, which is showing as tics. I would love to get more energized and motivated to surpass how I feel normally (when not depressed), without having tics.
Here some of the symptoms which I am struggling with:
- Depression: feeling sad and empty, no pleasure, oversleeping, fatigue, irritability, slow thinking
- Anxiety: overthinking, worrying too much, panic attacks when someone bothers me with too many questions, low self esteem, oversweating
- Social anxiety: mind going blank when too much attention on me, sweating, panic attacks when someone bothers me with too many questions, unavailable to give public speech, anxious about answering a phone call, fear of humiliation, having hard time talking to people I that I not very close to me, hard to make eye contact or relax when talking with someone
Inattentive ADHD (undiagnosed): losing stuff, forgetful, turning mind off, easily sidetracked, trouble organizing, trouble staying on topic, indecision, shy, starting new projects and not completing them, feeling of needing to do something new, clumsiness, always late, nervous tics, unable to work without having another stimulant such as music or listening to podcasts
TLDR: Having depression, anxiety, social anxiety. I think I also have inattentive ADHD and OCD. All SSRI's made me sedated and unmotivated. Was prescribed Wellbutrin SR 150mg to test it out along with Zoloft 25mg. Feeling very good, mind is fresh, no depression or negative thoughts. I am however getting tics and feel like my body needs to move. Had tics as a child for around a year or two, it stopped, just had some of these on some occasions but it was controlable.
- Has anyone experienced increased ticking? Did it go away?
- Do you think I should try Adderall or Vyvanse instead of Wellbutrin?
- Do you think I might have inattentive ADHD?
2023.06.06 17:04 PossibilityFree5261 Feeling normal on Wellbutrin but getting tics. Not sure if I have ADHD. Looking into other options
Hi. I am 31yo male. I was diagnosed with depression, anxiety and social anxiety. I was always prescribed SSRI's, although it worked great for irritability, anger and depression, it did not help with social anxiety, made me very numb, sedated, careless and unmotivated, even with half of the lowest dose. So I stopped taking then after a few months each time. I felt better without SSRI's but depression and irritability kept coming back, I had daily fatigue as well, no matter if I'm on SSRI's or not.
I went to another provider who suggested that I try Wellbutrin just to see how it works on me, which I am taking only a week now. He also prescribed 25mg Zoloft (lowest dose available). I felt Wellbutrin the first day I took it. I got a lot of energy and felt like myself again. It gets better every day. I sleep well and wake up fresh even with 6h sleep, where I had extreme issues with waking up even after 10h sleep. I feel like my mind is clear and I don't have the brain fog anymore. The only side effect that I experienced the first 3 days was sore musles, leg cramps and back pain, but it stopped suddenly.
However, since I started taking it, my body started showing some anxiety issues such as tics (shaking legs, clearing throat, moving fingers, blinking). I had these before when I was a child during a stressful time but it stopped, then I just had these occasionally and was able to control it. It got worse on Wellbutrin. It really makes me sad since my mental is doing great on it.
Just to add, I think I also have undiagnosed Inattentive ADHD. The only sympton that doesn't match is overlooking details, because I am very detail oriented and always pay close attention to details, noticing any change. I am also a perfectionist and don't do thing spontaneously without overthinking them and checking a lot of different sources before doing something, I feel like I need to know it all. At childhood, I was a very shy and stressed out kid, in early school I spent most time with teachers or alone, not having too many friends. It changed in middle school when I became very outgoing with my friends around. Although, I've never came to the board or any public speech, I avoided these at every occasion. I consider myself to be an introvert, changing into an extravert when alcohol is involved, thats why I cannot have fun without getting buzzed when going out. Now, I still avoid these, I do not speak out when more then 1 or 2 people can hear me, overthink before saying anything, speak too fast when stressed and too slow when not stressed, am always late etc. To add, I bite my nails excessively for over 20 years, cannot control it, if that matters. It seems that I've got symptoms of ADHD and anxiety + depression together.
Wellbutrin really does help with getting myself together and functioning normally. I am not feeling stimulating, euphoric or energized, I just feel normal, without getting fatigued or brain fog. Only thing is that I feel like my body needs to be in move all the time, which is showing as tics. I would love to get more energized and motivated to surpass how I feel normally (when not depressed), without having tics.
Here some of the symptoms which I am struggling with:
Inattentive ADHD (undiagnosed): losing stuff, forgetful, turning mind off, easily sidetracked, trouble organizing, trouble staying on topic, indecision, shy, starting new projects and not completing them, feeling of needing to do something new, clumsiness, always late, nervous tics, unable to work without having another stimulant such as music or listening to podcasts
TLDR: Having depression, anxiety, social anxiety. I think I also have inattentive ADHD and OCD. All SSRI's made me sedated and unmotivated. Was prescribed Wellbutrin SR 150mg to test it out along with Zoloft 25mg. Feeling very good, mind is fresh, no depression or negative thoughts. I am however getting tics and feel like my body needs to move. Had tics as a child for around a year or two, it stopped, just had some of these on some occasions but it was controlable.
submitted by PossibilityFree5261 to AskDocs [link] [comments]
I went to another provider who suggested that I try Wellbutrin just to see how it works on me, which I am taking only a week now. He also prescribed 25mg Zoloft (lowest dose available). I felt Wellbutrin the first day I took it. I got a lot of energy and felt like myself again. It gets better every day. I sleep well and wake up fresh even with 6h sleep, where I had extreme issues with waking up even after 10h sleep. I feel like my mind is clear and I don't have the brain fog anymore. The only side effect that I experienced the first 3 days was sore musles, leg cramps and back pain, but it stopped suddenly.
However, since I started taking it, my body started showing some anxiety issues such as tics (shaking legs, clearing throat, moving fingers, blinking). I had these before when I was a child during a stressful time but it stopped, then I just had these occasionally and was able to control it. It got worse on Wellbutrin. It really makes me sad since my mental is doing great on it.
Just to add, I think I also have undiagnosed Inattentive ADHD. The only sympton that doesn't match is overlooking details, because I am very detail oriented and always pay close attention to details, noticing any change. I am also a perfectionist and don't do thing spontaneously without overthinking them and checking a lot of different sources before doing something, I feel like I need to know it all. At childhood, I was a very shy and stressed out kid, in early school I spent most time with teachers or alone, not having too many friends. It changed in middle school when I became very outgoing with my friends around. Although, I've never came to the board or any public speech, I avoided these at every occasion. I consider myself to be an introvert, changing into an extravert when alcohol is involved, thats why I cannot have fun without getting buzzed when going out. Now, I still avoid these, I do not speak out when more then 1 or 2 people can hear me, overthink before saying anything, speak too fast when stressed and too slow when not stressed, am always late etc. To add, I bite my nails excessively for over 20 years, cannot control it, if that matters. It seems that I've got symptoms of ADHD and anxiety + depression together.
Wellbutrin really does help with getting myself together and functioning normally. I am not feeling stimulating, euphoric or energized, I just feel normal, without getting fatigued or brain fog. Only thing is that I feel like my body needs to be in move all the time, which is showing as tics. I would love to get more energized and motivated to surpass how I feel normally (when not depressed), without having tics.
Here some of the symptoms which I am struggling with:
- Depression: feeling sad and empty, no pleasure, oversleeping, fatigue, irritability, slow thinking
- Anxiety: overthinking, worrying too much, panic attacks when someone bothers me with too many questions, low self esteem, oversweating
- Social anxiety: mind going blank when too much attention on me, sweating, panic attacks when someone bothers me with too many questions, unavailable to give public speech, anxious about answering a phone call, fear of humiliation, having hard time talking to people I that I not very close to me, hard to make eye contact or relax when talking with someone
Inattentive ADHD (undiagnosed): losing stuff, forgetful, turning mind off, easily sidetracked, trouble organizing, trouble staying on topic, indecision, shy, starting new projects and not completing them, feeling of needing to do something new, clumsiness, always late, nervous tics, unable to work without having another stimulant such as music or listening to podcasts
TLDR: Having depression, anxiety, social anxiety. I think I also have inattentive ADHD and OCD. All SSRI's made me sedated and unmotivated. Was prescribed Wellbutrin SR 150mg to test it out along with Zoloft 25mg. Feeling very good, mind is fresh, no depression or negative thoughts. I am however getting tics and feel like my body needs to move. Had tics as a child for around a year or two, it stopped, just had some of these on some occasions but it was controlable.
- Has anyone experienced increased ticking? Did it go away?
- Do you think I should try Adderall or Vyvanse instead of Wellbutrin?
- Do you think I might have inattentive ADHD?
2023.06.06 17:04 PossibilityFree5261 Feeling normal on Wellbutrin but getting tics. Not sure if I have ADHD. Looking into other options
Hi. I am 31yo male. I was diagnosed with depression, anxiety and social anxiety. I was always prescribed SSRI's, although it worked great for irritability, anger and depression, it did not help with social anxiety, made me very numb, sedated, careless and unmotivated, even with half of the lowest dose. So I stopped taking then after a few months each time. I felt better without SSRI's but depression and irritability kept coming back, I had daily fatigue as well, no matter if I'm on SSRI's or not.
I went to another provider who suggested that I try Wellbutrin just to see how it works on me, which I am taking only a week now. He also prescribed 25mg Zoloft (lowest dose available). I felt Wellbutrin the first day I took it. I got a lot of energy and felt like myself again. It gets better every day. I sleep well and wake up fresh even with 6h sleep, where I had extreme issues with waking up even after 10h sleep. I feel like my mind is clear and I don't have the brain fog anymore. The only side effect that I experienced the first 3 days was sore musles, leg cramps and back pain, but it stopped suddenly.
However, since I started taking it, my body started showing some anxiety issues such as tics (shaking legs, clearing throat, moving fingers, blinking). I had these before when I was a child during a stressful time but it stopped, then I just had these occasionally and was able to control it. It got worse on Wellbutrin. It really makes me sad since my mental is doing great on it.
Just to add, I think I also have undiagnosed Inattentive ADHD. The only sympton that doesn't match is overlooking details, because I am very detail oriented and always pay close attention to details, noticing any change. I am also a perfectionist and don't do thing spontaneously without overthinking them and checking a lot of different sources before doing something, I feel like I need to know it all. At childhood, I was a very shy and stressed out kid, in early school I spent most time with teachers or alone, not having too many friends. It changed in middle school when I became very outgoing with my friends around. Although, I've never came to the board or any public speech, I avoided these at every occasion. I consider myself to be an introvert, changing into an extravert when alcohol is involved, thats why I cannot have fun without getting buzzed when going out. Now, I still avoid these, I do not speak out when more then 1 or 2 people can hear me, overthink before saying anything, speak too fast when stressed and too slow when not stressed, am always late etc. To add, I bite my nails excessively for over 20 years, cannot control it, if that matters. It seems that I've got symptoms of ADHD and anxiety + depression together.
Wellbutrin really does help with getting myself together and functioning normally. I am not feeling stimulating, euphoric or energized, I just feel normal, without getting fatigued or brain fog. Only thing is that I feel like my body needs to be in move all the time, which is showing as tics. I would love to get more energized and motivated to surpass how I feel normally (when not depressed), without having tics.
Here some of the symptoms which I am struggling with:
Inattentive ADHD (undiagnosed): losing stuff, forgetful, turning mind off, easily sidetracked, trouble organizing, trouble staying on topic, indecision, shy, starting new projects and not completing them, feeling of needing to do something new, clumsiness, always late, nervous tics, unable to work without having another stimulant such as music or listening to podcasts
TLDR: Having depression, anxiety, social anxiety. I think I also have inattentive ADHD and OCD. All SSRI's made me sedated and unmotivated. Was prescribed Wellbutrin SR 150mg to test it out along with Zoloft 25mg. Feeling very good, mind is fresh, no depression or negative thoughts. I am however getting tics and feel like my body needs to move. Had tics as a child for around a year or two, it stopped, just had some of these on some occasions but it was controlable.
submitted by PossibilityFree5261 to AskDoctorSmeeee [link] [comments]
I went to another provider who suggested that I try Wellbutrin just to see how it works on me, which I am taking only a week now. He also prescribed 25mg Zoloft (lowest dose available). I felt Wellbutrin the first day I took it. I got a lot of energy and felt like myself again. It gets better every day. I sleep well and wake up fresh even with 6h sleep, where I had extreme issues with waking up even after 10h sleep. I feel like my mind is clear and I don't have the brain fog anymore. The only side effect that I experienced the first 3 days was sore musles, leg cramps and back pain, but it stopped suddenly.
However, since I started taking it, my body started showing some anxiety issues such as tics (shaking legs, clearing throat, moving fingers, blinking). I had these before when I was a child during a stressful time but it stopped, then I just had these occasionally and was able to control it. It got worse on Wellbutrin. It really makes me sad since my mental is doing great on it.
Just to add, I think I also have undiagnosed Inattentive ADHD. The only sympton that doesn't match is overlooking details, because I am very detail oriented and always pay close attention to details, noticing any change. I am also a perfectionist and don't do thing spontaneously without overthinking them and checking a lot of different sources before doing something, I feel like I need to know it all. At childhood, I was a very shy and stressed out kid, in early school I spent most time with teachers or alone, not having too many friends. It changed in middle school when I became very outgoing with my friends around. Although, I've never came to the board or any public speech, I avoided these at every occasion. I consider myself to be an introvert, changing into an extravert when alcohol is involved, thats why I cannot have fun without getting buzzed when going out. Now, I still avoid these, I do not speak out when more then 1 or 2 people can hear me, overthink before saying anything, speak too fast when stressed and too slow when not stressed, am always late etc. To add, I bite my nails excessively for over 20 years, cannot control it, if that matters. It seems that I've got symptoms of ADHD and anxiety + depression together.
Wellbutrin really does help with getting myself together and functioning normally. I am not feeling stimulating, euphoric or energized, I just feel normal, without getting fatigued or brain fog. Only thing is that I feel like my body needs to be in move all the time, which is showing as tics. I would love to get more energized and motivated to surpass how I feel normally (when not depressed), without having tics.
Here some of the symptoms which I am struggling with:
- Depression: feeling sad and empty, no pleasure, oversleeping, fatigue, irritability, slow thinking
- Anxiety: overthinking, worrying too much, panic attacks when someone bothers me with too many questions, low self esteem, oversweating
- Social anxiety: mind going blank when too much attention on me, sweating, panic attacks when someone bothers me with too many questions, unavailable to give public speech, anxious about answering a phone call, fear of humiliation, having hard time talking to people I that I not very close to me, hard to make eye contact or relax when talking with someone
Inattentive ADHD (undiagnosed): losing stuff, forgetful, turning mind off, easily sidetracked, trouble organizing, trouble staying on topic, indecision, shy, starting new projects and not completing them, feeling of needing to do something new, clumsiness, always late, nervous tics, unable to work without having another stimulant such as music or listening to podcasts
TLDR: Having depression, anxiety, social anxiety. I think I also have inattentive ADHD and OCD. All SSRI's made me sedated and unmotivated. Was prescribed Wellbutrin SR 150mg to test it out along with Zoloft 25mg. Feeling very good, mind is fresh, no depression or negative thoughts. I am however getting tics and feel like my body needs to move. Had tics as a child for around a year or two, it stopped, just had some of these on some occasions but it was controlable.
- Has anyone experienced increased ticking? Did it go away?
- Do you think I should try Adderall or Vyvanse instead of Wellbutrin?
- Do you think I might have inattentive ADHD?