Good morning happy rainy day gif

I am not some kind of scientist, physicist, or mathematician. I'm just a normal, ordinary person, who likes video games, watching movies, and overthinking things.
But, this morning when I was taking a shower, suddenly the way to turn back in time came to my mind. Of course, it is a theory that I have gone over and over in my head throughout the day.
What would happen if something went wrong? Would it affect the timeline of things? What if I don't remember anyone? Questions like these have been running through my head all this time, but, I really have nothing to lose. I don't have children, my partner just broke up with me, and I quit my job, I mean, I don't have any responsibilities that bind me for this little experiment.
Of course, I have several options designed for the time to which I would like to return. It could be at the beginning of university, where I had my first love and had the whole future of the world at my fingertips by studying engineering, as my mother dreamed. It's a good idea since it would be before I made the excellent decision to drop out and thereby become the stinky lazy loser that I am.
Or maybe go back to high school where I can get revenge on the people who bothered me and also be again at the premiere of incredible sagas like "The Lord of the Rings" on the big screen. My favorite movies.
However, I think the best option is to go back to my childhood, at that time everything was easier because I received the things I wanted, I watched cartoons all day and I had no responsibilities like paying debts, looking for a job and I was never depressed. Those were good times, I would like to return there. It would be the best.
I can have the opportunity to make my life one more time. Wow! I don't understand why I hadn’t thought of that before. I guess it's because I hit my lowest point and at this point, my brain found a solution.
With this post, I hope to confirm or throw away my theory. If I'm still here tomorrow it was because I failed and I'll keep you posted on what happened to me, and if I don't show up again it's because I figured out a way to go back in time.
And to do it, I just need some blood from my wrists and sleep until the next morning.
Good night everybody.

I took Paxil for 6 months before switching to Prozac because of the fatigue Paxil caused (even though it worked well for me), but I hated Prozac so my psychiatrist put me on Lexapro and it feels exactly like Paxil. I’m exhausted all the time even after getting good sleep! I also get plenty of exercise during the day (I’m a gym rat).
I’m not willing to try another SSRI because it’s been such an annoying and LONG journey trying all these different meds and I’m sick of it.
Paxil and Lexapro feel very similar but I think I enjoyed the Paxil a little better so I’m thinking of getting back on it and staying at a low dose.
Has anyone had a similar experience with Paxil and Lexapro? And if so do you have any tips for me to combat the fatigue?! I’m not ready to fully discontinue taking medication because my anxiety has improved greatly from them which I am happy about but I also don’t want to be sleeping all day and feeling horribly fatigued.

Hello lovely people of this sub,
I have been lurking for a while now, have made a coomment and there, but I've never posted.
I've been struggling with binge drinking for years, and it got bad over the last 3 or so, and the worst it's every been in the last 6 months. Blackouts, embarrassments, shame, guilt....... rinse and repeat once I feel a bit better (I use the term better very loosely)... everything most of us have lived. I currently have no friends and have been through some trauma over the past few years and this is where I've ended up. Drowning myself in booze.
Last weekend I almost lost my job (again). Last friday I decided I'll day drink and sober up to go to work for 9am Saturday morning. I went to the liquor store and got a 26 of gin, a mickey of pink whitney vodka, and a bottle of red wine. This not-so-innocent idea of day drinking turned into blacking out, passing out for 4 hours, waking up at 11pm and... you guessed it, resumed drinking. The rest is a blur; at some point early Saturday morning (sometime after 6am), I once again blacked out and passed out. No notice given to work that I wasn't going. Totally no-showed. I texted my boss literally 30 min to end of my shift and pretended to ask if they received my text earlier that day (there was no text of course). I proceeded to tell a very heinous lie and also said I wouldn't be in for at least a couple days. I don't really remember particulars of the rest of the weekend but long story short I kept drinking that night and into Sunday. At one point I woke up and it was 8... I didn't know if it was 8am or 8pm. It turned out to be 8am, I think. I cracked a bottle of wine and kept going. Finally stopped Sunday night and slept. Monday I didn't drink and was filled with anxiety and told work I would still not be coming in.
Long story short I sobered up over Monday and Tuesday and returned to work on Wednesday, tail between my legs living a massive lie. I miraculously didn't lose my job, however I received a written warning from one of my bosses.
Fast forward to tonight, knowing I once again work tomorrow (Sat) at 9am, knowing I was this close to losing my job, and I still paced around the house at 7pm talking the devil and the angel on my shoulder convincing myself to go/to not go buy a bottle of wine to have with my charcuterie plate.
I ended up getting my coat on and going out for a cigarette and then coming right back in, cracked a NA Corona sunbrew and said fuck you cravings... that bottle of wine is not going to make me feel better, especially after the week I just had and what happened and what alcohol made me do...
Now I'm in my pjs, cat in lap watching Netflix WITHOUT wine. And I will go to bed sober and even if I wake up with a bit of anxiety, I will not be hungover and I WILL go to work and not lose my job for good.
Just for tonight, IWNDWY...
Edit: Thanks for reading.

I put the 40 participants, four of the noxcrew members, and four games into the hunger games simulator-
I will only include the important or funny lines in this post or it may be quite a bit longer than it actually is-
This is part 2, part 1 is here https://www.reddit.com/MinecraftChampionship/comments/12148zg/mcc_scuffed_hunger_games_part_1/
Deaths so far-
BadBoyHalo
Vixella
WaterBreathMan
PeaPeeKay
JojoSolos
PeteZahHutt
Punz
LargishBeans
Aimsey
EpicLandLord
Ponk
Noctis
LDShadowlady
Noxite
Ph1LzA
Antfrost
Grain
KaraCorvus
Awesamdude
Falsesymmetry
TapW
Who is alive-
Sylvee- 1 Kill
Hannahxxrose
Gee Nelly
InTheLittleWood- 2 Kills
Rabnoo-2 Kills
Sneegsnag
MrGaming
Blushi
Skeppy
TheOnionSound- 1 Kill
Krinios
Bekyamon
PearlescentMoon
ConnorEatsPants- 1 Kill
Tubbo- 1 Kill
RedVelvetCake
GeminiTay- 1 Kill
Fwhip
Smajor
DrGluon- 2 kills (Ok gluon get it)
KryticZuez- 1 Kill
ShubbleYT
Aeltumn
Buildmart- 1 kill
Skybattle
TGTTOSWAF
Rocket Spleef Rush
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Night 6
Krinios questions his sanity. (Same)
BuildMart is unable to start a fire and sleeps without warmth. (Im done questioning)
Fwhip quietly hums. (Of course he does)
TheOnionSound tends to his wounds.
Rabnoo receives an explosive from an unknown sponsor. (Scary)
KryticZuez passes out from exhaustion. (Same)
Rocket Spleef Rush destroys RedVelvetCake's supplies while he is asleep. (Oh velvet.)
TGTTOSWAF starts a fire. ("We didnt start the fi-re")
Smajor questions his sanity. (same)
ShubbleYT sets up camp for the night.
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Day 7
InTheLittleWood diverts PearlescentMoon's attention and runs away. (Martin is such a Mean Gill)
Sneegsnag defeats TheOnionSound in a fight, but spares his life. (Give us some action or something im bored)
Smajor picks flowers. (Flower husbands!)
BuildMart steals from DrGluon while he isn't looking. (Buildmart is gonna be very controversial)
Skybattle discovers a river. (New SKB Map?)
ConnorEatsPants tries to sleep through the entire day. (Same)
Skeppy dies from thirst. (SoT was too much)
GeminiTay injures herself. (Gem you gotta slay)
Hannahxxrose steals from Rocket Spleef Rush while he isn't looking. (Uh oh RSR gonna get revenge)
ShubbleYT picks flowers. (Yay!)
Deaths from Night 6 & Day 7-
Skeppy
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Night 7
Skybattle overpowers Sylvee, killing her. (Oh wow Skybattle)
BuildMart, Rocket Spleef Rush, TheOnionSound, and Aeltumn tell each other ghost stories to lighten the mood.
InTheLittleWood dies from an infection. (Martin? You were doing so well)
Smajor kills MrGaming while he is sleeping. (SCOTT?! I thought flower husbands meant something to you)
Rabnoo looks at the night sky. (Same)
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Day 8
Tubbo diverts TheOnionSound's attention and runs away. (Drunk ding dong ditch)
Bekyamon is pricked by thorns while picking berries. (She just wanted berries wow)
Smajor tries to sleep through the entire day. (Same)
PearlescentMoon forces BuildMart to kill Blushi or Rocket Spleef Rush. He decides to kill Blushi. (No game on game violence I guess?)
Aeltumn is pricked by thorns while picking berries. (She just wanted some berries)
RedVelvetCake throws a knife into ConnorEatsPants's head. (WOAH VELVET WHAT)
Krinios sprains his ankle while running away from Skybattle. (Another Ankle??)
Rabnoo begs for KryticZuez to kill him. He refuses, keeping Rabnoo alive. (Respect)
ShubbleYT attacks Fwhip, but he manages to escape. (Give Fwhip a chance hes rusty)
Deaths from Night 7 & Day 8
Sylvee (Kinda salty about this one)
InTheLittleWood
MrGaming
Blushi
ConnorEatsPants
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Night 8
Tubbo begs for TheOnionSound to kill him. He refuses, keeping Tubbo alive.
TGTTOSWAF loses sight of where he is. (TGTTOSWAF Played SoT?)
ShubbleYT, Smajor, and Sneegsnag discuss the games and what might happen in the morning. (Scott knows everything since its rigged)
Skybattle defeats GeminiTay in a fight, but spares her life.
Fwhip starts a fire. (He started the fire)
DrGluon goes to sleep. (Hes retied he already has like 3 kills)
BuildMart passes out from exhaustion. (Same)
Gee Nelly attempts to start a fire, but is unsuccessful. (She did not start the fire)
Bekyamon, Rocket Spleef Rush, and RedVelvetCake cheerfully sing songs together. (Beky and Velvet RSR pop off?)
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Day 9
Rocket Spleef Rush forces Skybattle to kill DrGluon or KryticZuez. He decides to kill KryticZuez. (Noo Zuez you were so good)
Gee Nelly defeats RedVelvetCake in a fight, but spares his life.
Rabnoo diverts Smajor's attention and runs away.
Tubbo, GeminiTay, Aeltumn, and ShubbleYT raid Krinios's camp while he is hunting. (Thats not fair)
BuildMart runs away from Hannahxxrose. ( I would too)
Fwhip and TGTTOSWAF hunt for other tributes. (Fwhip gonna pop off in TGTTOSWAF)
Deaths from Night 8 & Day 9
KryticZuez
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Deaths so far-
BadBoyHalo
Vixella
WaterBreathMan
PeaPeeKay
JojoSolos
PeteZahHutt
Punz
LargishBeans
Aimsey
EpicLandLord
Ponk
Noctis
LDShadowlady
Noxite
Ph1LzA
Antfrost
Grain
KaraCorvus
Awesamdude
Falsesymmetry
TapW
Skeppy
Sylvee
InTheLittleWood
MrGaming
Blushi
ConnorEatsPants
KryticZuez
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Night 9
DrGluon and Skybattle tell stories about themselves to each other.
BuildMart cries himself to sleep. (I would too if I were buildmart)
Aeltumn and GeminiTay talk about the tributes still alive.
Hannahxxrose receives an explosive from an unknown sponsor. (Thats scary)
Rabnoo passes out from exhaustion. (Same)
PearlescentMoon falls into a frozen lake and drowns. (NO PEARL)
TheOnionSound fends Smajor, ShubbleYT, and Gee Nelly away from his fire. (Selfish)
TGTTOSWAF is unable to start a fire and sleeps without warmth. (Does it need warmth though?)
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Day 10!
Aeltumn receives an explosive from an unknown sponsor (Oh no EpicLandlord flashbacks)
Krinios is pricked by thorns while picking berries.
GeminiTay defeats Sneegsnag in a fight, but spares his life.
Hannahxxrose defeats ShubbleYT in a fight, but spares her life.
Rabnoo questions his sanity. (Same)
Fwhip injures himself.
Tubbo, Skybattle, and Rocket Spleef Rush hunt for other tributes.
Smajor defeats RedVelvetCake in a fight, but spares his life. (So much life sparing! I mean just kill them.)
Gee Nelly and TheOnionSound hunt for other tributes.
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ARENA EVENT (Finally)
Area Turns Pitch Black
Hannahxxrose trips on a rock and falls off a cliff. (Nooo Hannah)
TheOnionSound survives.
Sneegsnag survives.
Rabnoo survives.
Tubbo flails his weapon around, accidently killing Gee Nelly. (Noo Gee)
While fighting, ShubbleYT and Smajor lose their balance, roll down a jagged hillside, and die. (Both of them?!?!)
Skybattle survives. (Of course.)
DrGluon survives.
Rocket Spleef Rush accidently makes contact with spiny, lethal plant life. (The first game to die!!)
Bekyamon trips on a rock and falls off a cliff. (Beky Nooo!)
BuildMart accidently makes contact with spiny, lethal plant life. (Second Game to Die!!)
GeminiTay survives.
RedVelvetCake survives.
Aeltumn survives.
Krinios survives.
Fwhip survives.
TGTTOSWAF survives.
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Deaths from Night 9, Day 10, & Arena Event
PearlescentMoon
Hannahxxrose
Gee Nelly
ShubbleYT
Smajor
Rocket Spleef Rush
Bekyamon
BuildMart (haha)
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Night 10
Rabnoo starts a fire. (Good job)
GeminiTay begs for Fwhip to kill her. He refuses, keeping GeminiTay alive. (Slay Gem cmon!)
Tubbo convinces Skybattle to snuggle with him
RedVelvetCake quietly hums. (Poor Velvet he doesnt have Ant anymore)
TGTTOSWAF goes to sleep. ( I dont blame it, half of the games died, nothing is safe.)
DrGluon begs for TheOnionSound to kill him. He refuses, keeping DrGluon alive. (Keep going Gluon!!)
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The Feast
The cornucopia is replenished with food, supplies, weapons, and memoirs from the tributes' families.
Krinios decides not to go to The Feast.
Fwhip, Rabnoo, Tubbo, and DrGluon team up to grab food, supplies, weapons, and memoirs.
RedVelvetCake decides not to go to The Feast.
GeminiTay decides not to go to The Feast.
Aeltumn shoots an arrow into Skybattle's head. (Aeltumn doesnt like skybattle??)
TheOnionSound decides not to go to The Feast.
Sneegsnag decides not to go to The Feast.
TGTTOSWAF dies from an infection. (Oh.. Only one game left!)
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Day 11
Aeltumn questions her sanity. (same)
Fwhip injures himself.
Sneegsnag tries to spear fish with a trident.
Tubbo diverts DrGluon's attention and runs away.
RedVelvetCake chases Krinios.
TheOnionSound and GeminiTay work together for the day.
Rabnoo receives clean water from an unknown sponsor.
Deaths from Night 10, The Feast, & Day 11
Skybattle
TGTTOSWAF
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Top 10-
Rabnoo- 2 Kills
SneegSnag
TheOnionSound- 1 Kill
Krinios
Tubbo- 2 Kills
RedVelvetCake- 1 Kill
GeminiTay- 1 Kill
Fwhip
DrGluon- 2 Kills
Aeltumn- 1 Kill
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Night 11
DrGluon sees a fire, but stays hidden.
RedVelvetCake sees a fire, but stays hidden. (Everyones being so safe its boring)
GeminiTay passes out from exhaustion. (If i slayed that much I would too)
TheOnionSound loses sight of where he is. (Of course he does)
Sneegsnag loses sight of where he is.
Fwhip sets up camp for the night.
Krinios defeats Rabnoo in a fight, but spares his life.
Tubbo and Aeltumn run into each other and decide to truce for the night.
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Day 12
(Nothing happened Im so disappointed)
Nobody died
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Night 12
Tubbo tends to his wounds. (Okay Tubno Self care)
DrGluon and RedVelvetCake tell stories about themselves to each other. (Bonding!)
Rabnoo begs for Krinios to kill him. He refuses, keeping Rabnoo alive.
TheOnionSound quietly hums.
Fwhip stays awake all night. (Same)
GeminiTay repeatedly stabs Aeltumn to death with sais. (Wow Gem thats brutal)
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Day 13
TheOnionSound collects fruit from a tree. (So Healthy)
GeminiTay searches for a water source. (I want gem to win)
Tubbo stabs Rabnoo in the back with a trident. (WOAH)
Krinios is pricked by thorns while picking berries.
Sneegsnag tends to RedVelvetCake's wounds. (Velvet is making a lot of alliances)
Deaths From Night 12 & Day 13
Aeltumn
Rabnoo
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TOP 8
DrGluon
Krinios
Tubbo
RedVelvetCake
GeminiTay (Yesss!)
Sneegsnag
Fwhip
TheOnionSound
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Night 13
Krinios thinks about winning. (Ok Krinios Self Confidence)
Tubbo is unable to start a fire and sleeps without warmth. (Poor Tubbo)
GeminiTay and Sneegsnag run into each other and decide to truce for the night. (Yes Gem!! Win for us!)
Fwhip begs for TheOnionSound to kill him. He refuses, keeping Fwhip alive. (Oli's too nice)
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Day 14 (This is really long)
Fwhip and TheOnionSound threaten a double suicide. It fails and they die. (WOAH WOAH WOAH)
Sneegsnag tends to Tubbo's wounds. (Awww Bonding)
RedVelvetCake fishes. (Oblivious)
GeminiTay and Krinios track down and kill DrGluon. (Noooo Gluon!!)
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Top 5!!
Sneegsnag-No kills
Krinios- 1 Kill
Tubbo- 3 Kills
RedVelvetCake- 1 kill
GeminiTay- 3 Kills
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Night 14
(They all slept)
(Boring.)
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Day 15
Krinios stalks Tubbo.
GeminiTay sprains her ankle while running away from RedVelvetCake.
Sneegsnag receives an explosive from an unknown sponsor.
(DO SOMEHING THE SUSPENSE)
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Night 15
Sneegsnag sets up camp for the night.
Krinios receives a hatchet from an unknown sponsor.
GeminiTay tries to treat her infection (Win Gem Win!!!)
RedVelvetCake sets up camp for the night.
Tubbo dies of dysentery. (Oh... 4 Left)
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Day 16
(Nothing Happens)
(I want this to end)
Deaths in the last 2 days & nights
Tubbo.
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Night 16
Sneegsnag, Krinios, and RedVelvetCake cheerfully sing songs together. (Oblivious)
GeminiTay accidently steps on a landmine (NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GEM)
(Im sad)
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Day 17
(Nothing Happens)
(Someone Win Please)
Top 3-
Sneegsnag
Krinios
RedVelvetCake
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Night 17
Sneegsnag tries to sing himself to sleep. (Ok)
RedVelvetCake dies from thirst. (OH)
Krinios falls into a frozen lake and drowns. (OHHHHH OH WOW OH)
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The winner is Sneegsnag from Orange Ocelots!
Most Kills award goes to
GeminiTay & Tubbo With 3 Kills!
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If you read everything I applaud you
If you scrolled to the bottom to to see the winner I respect that
Hope you guys enjoyed this! If people like it I might make one for next mcc too!

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Hello fellow Marylanders!
The annual Maryland trout season begins tomorrow morning, Saturday 3/25, at 5:30am. If you haven’t been a part of this event I’d like to introduce you to a fun activity for people of every age.
The state of Maryland breeds and raises several different trout species for anglers to catch (and often eat), as a fun recreational activity. The most common trout stocked are rainbow trout, brown trout, and “golden” trout (a color variant of rainbow trout that is yellow/orange).
Opening day is often very crowded at stocked waters but the season continues for months beyond 3/25 with additional stocking occurring regularly. The stocked trout in these areas are non-native and will not survive through the hot summer in our waters. Rainbow/golden trout are native to western North America and brown trout are native to Europe.
These trout are stocked specifically for “put and take” purposes - that is, to have a little fun and then eat them. They are very similar to what you’d find in the grocery store for rainbow trout but you get to catch them yourself.
A link to the DNR guidelines for Maryland stocked trout can be found here: https://dnr.maryland.gov/fisheries/Pages/trout/stocking.aspx
Good luck to all anglers, and to anyone who is interested in participating or knows a young person who is, please feel free to DM me with questions or join our Maryland fishing community at /marylandfishing

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-I-
Once upon a time in a far off land there lived an old village cobbler.
He was an honest man who took great pride in his work, and rightly so for he made good, sturdy, practical shoes.
But in his heart the cobbler carried a secret wish. He wished to one day make fine, elegant shoes such as he’d seen on lords and ladies of the Capital in his youth.
He still remembered the beauty of those shoes. It was the reason he became a cobbler. The gentle curves of fine leather, the elegant arc of the heels, the exquisite adornments of gold brocade.
But none in his village desired such finery, nor did he possess the skills to make them (much as he’d tried). His cloudy eyes had not the vision and his thick calloused hands had not the skill.
As fate would have it, the old cobbler’s life was about to change.
For, as you know, once a year on the winter solstice, the Fairy Queen is permitted to choose a single living soul - one who has lived a good, honest life - and grant them their heart’s desire.
On this day, she spied the old cobbler as he passed through her Forest delivering shoes. She looked into his soul and knew him to be a good man.
Invisibly she came to him. And though he felt no change and sensed not her presence, in that moment his wish was granted.
On returning to his shop, he resumed his evening’s work. But as he worked, he felt the leather become supple and yielding to his touch, his fingers began to dart and dance as they stitched.
Now, you or I might have paused to marvel at the unfolding miracle but our little shoemaker did not.
Fearing that the gift might be snatched from him at any moment, he worked furiously - all through the night, pouring a lifetime of passion into his work until finally, he slumped, exhausted and utterly spent.
In the morning, in the window of the little shop, lay a sleeping cobbler and 3 pairs of the finest shoes the world had ever known.
That is not where our story ends. It is merely the beginning.
-II-
That same fine morning, a young courtier was riding through a village when he came upon a crowd of excited villagers.
Curious, he approached the bustling crowd.
As the crowd parted for him, there in the window of an old shop, amid the dusty forms and worn-out soles, sat a row of shoes. Shoes of the finest quality he’d ever seen.
Soft kid-skin suede and burgundy aniline, intricate arabesque inlays, broguing and velvet quilting, ornate engraved silver buckles. Each different, each unique in form and artisanship.
“Oh my!” he gasped in wonder, “I must have these exquisite shoes”.
“Villagers!” he commanded. “Who has made these wonderful shoes? Let him reveal himself!”
From the doorway of the shop, the old cobbler emerged, blinking at the morning sun.
“Old man” cried the courtier, “You have a truly remarkable gift. Name your price for these shoes”.
“M-my lord,” the Cobbler stammered”, there is no charge. None in our village has need for shoes such as these. It would honour me for you to have them”.
“Nonsense!” the courtier cried. “Here. You shall take 30 silvers, for these are the finest shoes in all the land. What is more, I will return in one month for 3 more pairs at the same price, and each month thereafter. Your talent must be nurtured and shared with the world. Mark my words, I shall make you a very rich man.”
-III-
When he returned to the Palace, the courtier discovered to his delight, that the shoes were precisely his size.
For the next month, he became the toast of the Palace. Wherever he went, his marvellous new shoes drew praise and envy.
All were dying to know where he had acquired these treasures but it would be gauche to ask him directly, and he took care to let nothing slip.
Each night he carefully cleaned and polished the shoes, for they had become his most treasured possessions.
After nearly a month, he began to notice some faint dull-spots appearing where the shoes rubbed his stirrups.
“Thank goodness I secured the work of that cobbler”, he thought, “or my fame might have been short-lived. Tomorrow I will journey forth to collect my brand new shoes, and once again revel in the jealous eyes of the court”.
-IV-
The following day, after a hard day’s ride, the courtier arrived back at the village.
As he approached, he spied in the window of the shop three glorious new pairs of shoes, even more wonderful than before.
Ornate embossed saffiano with gold brocade, buttery soft nappa with fine fur-trim, mirror-like patent leather boots with silver filagree accents. Shoes made as if touched by angels.
As he stood there in silent wonder, the cobbler emerged from the shop, beaming.
“My lord, you have arrived! We have awaited your return with great anticipation. As you can see, your shoes are ready. I trust they meet with your approval?”
The courtier strode forward to claim his prize. But as he did, something distracted him.
From the corner of his eye he saw a young village lad, no more than six, running to jump a muddy puddle and landing with a splash not ten paces away.
The lad was humbly dressed in sackcloth but on his feet, now spattered with mud, he wore boots of fine-grained calf leather with beautiful gold stitching.
Suddenly, the courtier became aware that all about him, one after another, the villagers were wearing exquisite shoes of every conceivable type and design.
A dark cloud crept over the courtier’s face. He looked down at his own shoes, then slowly turned back to face the still smiling cobbler.
“Thief!” he spat, sudden and furious, “You have stolen from me!”
“What? N-no my lord.” stammered the cobbler as the blood drained from his face, “I have not. Here are your shoes, just as you requested. I made them for you. You… you need not even pay. Please, take them as a gift”.
“Fool. These shoes are worthless. Less than worthless. Can you not see that? I told you to make three pair. I told you I would take your talent to the world. But, instead, you have wasted it, squandered it on these thankless peasants. Who will desire your shoes now that every goatherd may have them?”
“But my lord”, protested the cobbler, “surely nothing has changed. Your shoes remain just as they were, I have merely made others that my friends may share in the blessing. Some even paid me, such as they could. Perhaps.. perhaps I could make you some new ones, even finer than these? Perhaps gilded or engraved to show they are yours - or in a special box of some kind?”
Barely had the words passed his lips when the pistol shot passed his skull, killing the old cobbler dead where he stood.
-Epilogue-
On the day of his hanging, by special decree, the King consented that the courtier should be accorded all dignities befitting his noble station.
Many had insisted that he be hung barefoot as a stark and shameful reminder of his crime. But the King’s advisers felt that this would undermine the standing of the noble class and foment further unrest.
The cobbler and his gift were buried in a humble village grave.

TW : suicidal thoughts/self-harm
" Glass children are those who are growing up in a home where a sibling takes up a disproportionate amount of parental energy "
Well. Disclaimer : I am not a child, alright, I am 20. But I've been thinking a lot about the last 10 years of my life, and I am, as much as it pains me, a glass child and I've been since my sister's born.
I want to be heard, you do wathever you want with this post. Treat it like a AITA thingy if you want.
Now back to my sis, Of course, at first, it was (I thought) only because I was the first born, the big sis, you know.
But 3 years ago, my sister discovered Tik Tok. Everyone knows Tik Tok, right? Well, we all know what kind of stuff we can find on that app! I, myself, found the description of a "glass child" there. I use Tik Tok frequently.
My sister always had problems with her friends. When she was younger, she was always in the middle of some arguing between two or three girls, never really had a day where she wasn't coming home with what I call "girl's gangs" problems (you know when two best friends suddenly split and get mad and get other friends to form like alliances and stuff to b*tch on the others? Ya know, old stuff, we've all been there).
She was never wrong in those situations. She was coming home laughing about how she was the peacemaker and never creating problems of some sort. Thing is, I know my sister. Like the back of my hand. Alright? I just... know when she's lying. Still, to this day, she always brags about how good she is to manipulate people and make them do what she wants. Alrighty girl, weird flex.
Well, she got to high school (what we call secondary one in Canada), and then, she started having anxiety. Like panic attacks and all? I've had those, still do these days, so I understood. I became her protector, her therapist, calming her down when my mother critized her for exagerating. I knew what to do, and I gave up all my energy to take care of her, of her mental health, as a good old sister does.
She made it to the second year of high school (secondary 2) with difficulties. Panic attacks again and all. 3 years ago, as I said, she discovered Tik Tok. I know Tik Tok and its algorithm : there are specific fyp where you can find videos about the same topic over and over again. I suspect she was in a dark side of Tik Tok, a depressed one, where you can see all sort of sad/depressing things and stories (I know, I've been there too, now trying to avoid it as much as I can because it affects me mentally and I start spiralling).
Cutting her hair short ( I guess the "funny mentally hill" trend where you cut your hair on a headbutt and dye it, I know, been there too).
Sexuality explored too. Like she was trans for a while and wanted us to call her another name (she isn't anymore, she told me so about 3 months in). I always respected her choices and calling her what she wanted to be called at that time. She was a kid, she was 13, so she was discovering herself and her preferences and all. No problem with that.
She started hanging out with some people like that too. She had a non-binary friend, a trans one, a furry one, etc. She was having fun with them. Great people. She finally had a group.
Some of them, however, had the same experiences we all hear about on Tik Tok. You know, some of them not in a great home, or in a bad relationship with parents, depression, anxiety. Hate to say it, but you know those people on Tik Tok who (unfortunatly) are bullied on the internet for being... like... huuuuh (wondering how to say that without insulting anyone) like stereotypical? Like... you know those who wants a cat litter in a classroom in a unironical way? Some of her friend were a little extremist on that plan. Again, never really bothered me.
We have two parents, a mom and a dad. They divorced when I was 7. My sister was 3. They never fought in front of us, never heard them, it was really a suprise. They went their separate ways. Me and my sis got used to go to each of them for a week, and then go back to the other for a week. It was fine, working good. My parents are both accountants, my mom teaching it too. I had a strong disagreement with my mom in 2019 about one of her (numerous) boyfriends. The only one i really hated with all my heart. This resulted in me leaving her house for about a year. My sis was still doing 1 week/1 week. Apart of that, my parents are pretty basic ones, never abused us and we always had everything we needed.
I started college. I loved it, still do, and was finally starting my life as an adult, I started a great job, was doing good in school and... was still helping my sister and my parents with her anxiety/ panic attacks. Even learn in my degree how to deal with people who disorganize.
Then, the cutting started. A lot of her friend were doing it, she told me. And then she started having those episodes where she was cutting herself. Never with something sharp, like a knife or else. But with like compass and crayons? Then, she started having suicidal thoughts. Then, and that is where it all went down, she called 911 for suicidal thoughts. She was home alone and the police called my mom.
What had she done? Scratch herself... with a pencil.
I've had panic attacks before. And suicidal thoughts that crossed my mind but I never acted on them. Never. And I can't imagine myself doing it. I talked about it, of course, with my best friend, someone I trusted and it was making me feel better. How did I know my sister was doing that and having those thoughts? She just said it, casually, at dinner with the whole family. Like... girl? It really got the mood down, everyone worried and she was like... glowing? I don't know how to say it.
She was always a bit dramatic and had a way of making everything about herself, but it was never about negative things. More like flexing a good grade or whatever. She was always talking about how depressed she was, how she was suicidal, and the things she was saying were... like straight up a depressing tik tok. Like one day I found something she said ( I think it was like "you don't understand how this feels it is like blablabla i don't remember) WORD FOR WORD in a Tik Tok. It is like she wasn't expressing her feelings, but made up phrases you find on the Internet when you type "panic attacks" or "depression".
After a second call to 911 for taking 10 advils, she got admitted to psychiatry. At that time, I was watching my parents fall appart, running around to appointments for her, my dad having stress acnea (at 45) and both of them exhausted. It was a real drama. Everyone in the family talked about it. It was the only subject of discussion, the only thing that was on everyone's mind.
I was hanging out my seat in class with my phone on my belly to be sure to feel it vibrate if something happened. We were all in a bad place.
And then, we got a diagnosis of autism.
I'm sorry, what? Where does that come from? I mean, alright, we'll deal with that one.
But then. That's where all went down for me. Sis started therapy, changed school, went to an adapted classroom for people like her and with disabilities. My parents were still all over the place.
Except where I needed them.
I was 18, at that time, starting adulthood. I have ADHD. It is really hard for me to respect a schedule, think about every appointments I have, every homework, every luggage I can't forget to bring to mom's or to dad's. I was also giving my all in school, never missed anything, straight A's and working my ass off.
I started realising that everytime my parents texted me was to ask/talk about my sis.
Every. Single. Time.
They'd ask me to bring my sister her lunch that she forgot, to go get her when she was down, or get her to her appointments like I didn't have a whole fu**ing life I was trying so hard to keep on line.
I gave all my free time to her needs and my parents's. I educated myself on autism, defended her when my mom was thinking she was faking because I wanted to prove I was there for her. That I was the life saving good sister. I never, ever, heard her say thank you.
Never.
The only compliments my parents were giving me is "thank you for getting your sis for us. Thank you for being there for her. Thank you for doing things with her."
I went trough some stuff, at that time. I hurt my knee and was failing my physical tests. It got to the point I wasn't even sure I liked my degree anymore. I was having a really hard time. But my parents never saw my pain. I have a tendency to hide things, sure, but I was really trying to talk to them about how I was feeling. They were listening, and letting go. Why didn't they start worrying for me like they did for my sister? I don't know, don't really care now. I was having suicidal thoughts too, I wanted to yeet myself in a tree and even stopped driving so it wouldn't give me options. They left me alone, because everytime I tried bringing up the fact that I was not in a good place, my sister was disorganizing at school and they needed to go to the hospital to be both there for her while she fainted from hyperventilating. Every fcking time I was talking to my sister, she was acting like she lived trough everything and was telling me she knew more about suicidal thoughts than me cause she went to psychiatry. Excuse me miss gurl, but who was fcking there to help you trough your panic attacks hun? How do you think I know so much?
Seeing I had practically no support from my already exhausted parents, I took matters into my own hands and started going to therapy. My doctor also prescribed me with anti-depressants. I was going to be ok... on my own. I've had really bad days, real hard ones. But I got back on my two feet. At least, I think so.
School was over and it was time for summer break. I had a job I loved on a boat. I've had a blast on that boat, I wasn't jumping from a house to another, I wasn't always in luggages, I had my own room like a little appartment of my own on the ship. I slowly started to discover a backpacking/adventurous side of myself. I needed air, was travelling far from home as soon as I had a week or two off of the boat.
At the same time, my sister had stopped self-harming and having suicidal thoughts. She's was now in a school for adults to finish her 4th and 5th year of college. She wasn't in a special classroom anymore. Changed friend group.
But here's the thing. Cause there is always a "but".
I started realising how much my sister was toying with us, with my parents. As soon as the diagnosis fell, she became unsufferable. For example, when I say I hate loud noises and strong light, she says she has it tougher because, ya know, "i'm autistic". I can't say something without her saying she has autism and that's why she has it worse.
When I have a good grade or I've hit a PR at the gym, I tell my parents because I am happy. I try to see life the good way, now. I'm quite proud of all the personal work i've done.
But she can't have a normal day.
It is always "ho I hated school because the light was making a sound" or something to point out she has autism.
I talked to one of my friend who is a social worker, and he told me autism is usually apparent in children. My sis was diagnosed at 15. But, and hear me out, all the things that make her autistic according to her psychiatrist... she's never really had them before.
You remember at the beginning of this rant how I told you I know when my sister is lying?
Well. I don't think an autistic person possess the flex of "being able to manipulate people so easily to get what you want".
She's always bragging about how smart she is compared to us because, you know, "ShE cAn FeElS eNeRgiEs AnD pEoPlE AnD iT AfFeCts hEr". Well, honey, I don't think that is autism. It is always little comment about how special she is because she can't do this, or that. Like I have ADHD, alright? I'm stimming all the time. I don't point it out to people for fun, actually, i'm quite ashamed of it sometimes. She bought all those fidget toys and brings them ALL to school to show how much she needs them.
One reason of why I am mad, as you can (unfortunatly) see, is my father's attitude.
The fact that my sis had episodes of suicidal thoughts and acts traumatized him. With reasons, don't get me wrong.
But now, she's clearly living well of drama and stereotypical behavior she never had before.
My father is fucking afraid of telling her no.
Like man, I don't think that if you ask her to unload the dishwasher ONE FUCKI*NG time that she's going to kill herself. Like come on.
One time, she called him cause she fainted cause she was hyperventilating cause the cleaner at her school wore a different hat than usual. Or another time where she learn that two teachers were eating togueter at lunch and not in the cafeteria?
I know my sister. She is clearly using him. She's got him hooked with a silent threat of hurting herself or making it impossible for him to receive a phone call without thinking she committed.
And. She. Fucking. Knows. It.
She left my mother's house because my mom wasn't buying her shit.
She left with all her drama about how she could appologize but she needs her space to think about what she (mom) did.
BRUH did what?!?!?!? It was so sudden, what are you on about?
All her life, she was good at one thing : breaking people's relationship.
I know, because I'm not blind.
She's the type of person that looks at you after saying your deepest secret in front of everyone and be like : "oups teehee🤪 you know i can't keep a secret" or she plays dumb "i didn't know it was a secret oupsis" with this little dumb face that I know by heart means "I win you fuck*ng idiot".
She broke the good relationship my parents had by pretending mom told her something when it wasn't right or vice versa. When she's at dad's, she always talks about all the things mom does that sucks. When she was at mom, she was always talking about how bad it was at dad.
I was in the middle like , bruh, it isn't even that bad. And of course, my parents both being proud individuals started feeling supperior than the other and downgrading the other in front of us (wich you know my sis was repeating over and over to everyone).
But because my parents are fucking blind they let her riled them up against each others. So now they don't talk. And when they do, it is always to argue about how to take care of my sis.
To make a clear example of how she gets everything she wants :
She always tells me that she wants a Mira dog. Like a service dog. She's going to keep creating dramatic scenarios like that until my father cries and decides it is the last option we have.
But no. After the dog, it is going to be another need for neurodivergent people that she's probably going to see on Tik Tok.
Because yes, she faints and yes, she is hyperventilating. But I can create scenario in my head and make them real too (maladaptive daydreaming oups). Anxiety works like that : if I start hyperventilating for 45 seconds, my body jumps to survival mode and the mammoth thing ang boom, there you have your panic attack.
Yes. She is mentally hill.
But she's not autistic. She does not need a service dog. And she can't continue leading people on like that.
She's in need of negative attention. She hates when we compliment her, she hates when we wish her happy brithday and all. But she's always talking about how she did bad at this exam and ho people please comfort me. There's always something going on with her.
She stopped self-harming and having suicidal toughts. People started living normally.
So she restarts panic attacks but she already has a psychiatrist so she needs more.
Lets go to the hospital, something's wrong with my heart. Then she's got the pleasure of walking around school with a machine to record her heart thingy.
Nope. Nothing wrong.
People start forgetting.
Whoops now she's fainting and we don't know why.
Hospital trip yeah.
Nothing's wrong.
Then she buys a machine to keep track of her blood pressure.
Does a doctor prescribed it?
Nope. You can just buy it so she did. And she could do it like in the morning, at lunch or at night, but no, she absolutly needs to do it in front of everyone, making noise in class while the teacher is talking.
And i'm starting to get fed up.
About a year into this nightmare, 3 years ago, I stopped feeling.
I wasn't able to feel anything. And that is why, today, I can write this and unfortunatly for some, it will be controversial.
After my downfall, when my sister was in need...
I did not care.
At all.
She could do whatever she wanted to do. She could have as much trip to the hospital as she wanted.
I . Did . Not . Care .
I was going to class.
And my phone was on silent.
I don't want to know. I don't care. Don't you get it? Mom, dad, leave me alone. You did it well, right? Continue.
I am an horrible human being. My best friend tries to comfort me saying that my heart of stone is a form of self-protection, a defense mechanism that I developped 3 years to protect myself and not live trough what my sister put us trough without knowing (or caring?).
Still.
I am an egoist.
But I do not care.
You want to make me feel like a glass child?
Alright alright.
I'll deal with it.
But now the glass is fed up.
And it is about to break.
Good bye and thank you.

i’m just curious if some day programs out there are good or not. i’m in a day program it’s called happiness bag it’s good and great so far.

MK ULTRA Notes
First Break Up List (2 months)
>> personal interests and hobbies mismatch, it sucks for me to still be making plans on my own, the crossover between our interests do not need to be 100% but some bleed would be great
>> apartment with pinky/pinky and the whole pinky thing needs to be discussed it’s off-putting
>> remember when I mentioned routine and habits, I struggle with change, and wasn’t happy about breaking routine, not your fault
Second Break-Up Reasons (10 months)
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1. These are actually very closely aligned to the above.
2. Personal Interests
   1. She was very much a homebody and didn’t enjoy being social.
      1. We did align here but she lacked goals
   2. She had goals that focused on school but nothing in her personal life, there were no hobbies or interests she spent time pursuing.
   3. Our activities together were pretty standard in terms of relationships and things you do around town. We did museums, shows, dancing, etc. During our days together we sometimes didn’t see eye to eye on how to spend our time together.
   4. Our date nights were always great but followed the same routine. Community events and dinners at a new restaurant.
   5. Up until I had gotten her the bike I always felt like I was forcing her to join me hiking, go the trails, and be outside. She always participated and had a great time.
      1. Prior to the meeting I had built a routine around biking and switching to a low pace low energy lifestyle really upset me.
3. Christmas, Love, 1 year anniversary, valentines day, and birthday all in the next 60 days.
   1. The pressure around Christmas plays a good part in my reasoning for ending things. In retrospect, this shouldn’t have been the case. At the beginning of the Month, she provided me with 25 Christmas gifts in a basket. I didn’t know how to react to this, I hadn’t had a normal Christmas in years.
   2. It dawned on me that I always wanted the two of us to go biking together, and I always felt she could really use a bike to improve her own well-being. So I got her the bike.
   3. As Christmas grew closer and I was trying to find a bike and give her a great gift I began to question why I was doing this. Part of me felt like I had to because we were in a relationship and the other part was internalizing our entire relationship, was she the right one? I am putting in all this effort and is it worth it? Will she even like the bike? She’s never expressed interest in it
   4. In addition to Christmas, around that time everything about her changed, I very easily tell she was in love with me but afraid to tell me. This put even more pressure on making sure the Christmas gift. I also knew in 2 months we’d have a one-year anniversary.
   5. All of December I was so focused on the pressure of the relationship, making plans to be with her for Christmas, I began to disconnect from the relationship. It felt like things were moving really fast or were about to move very fast.
      1. I ended up convincing myself I wasn’t happy. I had put on weight, and I was becoming slightly aggravated with work…but because she always talked about the negative parts of her job. I felt like I was constantly splitting my weekends between what I wanted to do and what we wanted to do. I had worked so hard to be the person I was when we met and during our time together I lost that person. I knew that person had to change to accommodate her but I didn’t like the way it change.
      2. For Christmas I toyed with the idea of gifting her a key to my apartment, the idea being that I really wanted to move things forward with her, that I did love her, that I did want to change my life to better accommodate her.
      3. Did I love her though? I think so.
      4. I was scared that she was scared of telling me how she really felt about me. It made me nervous that there was something wrong in our relationship and the way we communicated.
   6. The Christmas Trip to Chicago
      1. The guy she went on the trip with is weird AF, I think she loves her, he pays for everything, takes her to sports games 2-3 hours away, and they've been very close friends for 10-15 years. Never dated, and she doesn't show nor talk about him in a way I should have any concern. Visually, this guy looks like a loser, but he is a very kind pushover.
      2. During Christmas, she opted to take a last-minute two-day trip to Chicago with her male friend Pinky. Her good friend I think is in love with her.
      3. The trip took place two days before Christmas during the really bad snowstorm. We had plans to be together for the holiday and go camping
      4. Her flight was delayed and she couldn’t come back until the 28th or 29th.
      5. I was devastated over this, I had finally come around to Christmas and was looking forward to having someone to spend the holiday with and it didn’t happen. This killed my entire Christmas mood and really made me question everything about us.
      6. She knew the storm was coming and before leaving knew there was a risk of missing Christmas but continued anyways. I don’t have an issue with pinky in the regard that she would cheat on me, but I really struggled to understand this relationship between the two of them.

Why the break-up

1. She has so much potential to be this amazing woman and she doesn’t even try. I know she has school and work…
   1. I had wished for a while that the feeling of guilt of spending time doing my own things would go away. May the would have if I had known on weekend mornings she was doing her own thing, spending time on herself instead of sleeping or watching crime shows.
   2. She has had some trauma around relationships in the past and this was a recurring conversation in our relationship. She made it very clear this was her first serious relationship where she felt safe and secure. This was the first relationship where she felt like her needs were being discussed and met. I eventually convinced her to get help with this which she did.
2. I became weary after she began seeking mental help. I was self-conscious about her finding out about my insecurities and those being identified by her therapist as reasons why we shouldn’t be together.
   1. I was open with her about everything in my life
   2. I didn’t even know if she was talking about our relationship
   3. She had the worst teeth, just needs to get those things cleaned.
   4. She has self-image issues, and while I always fault she was beautiful and extremely unique, she never really tried to work out with me or address these issues.
   5. We did try working out together once but it never stuck with her, this goes back to offering her a key to my apartment.
3. My Life was beginning to split into two:
   1. Our time together
   2. What I wanted for myself
   3. There was certainly overlap, and while people say you shouldn’t have similar interests as your partner, why is that? I would love if she was a more active person if she would have insisted on getting a bike to go out with me if she had more often entertained ideas for our time together that leaned more toward what I wanted to do
   4. Financial life - I want a house, I want to keep doing triathlons, I have big bike plans over the next few years. I wasn’t really ready to give up any of this, while there was no financial strain brought on by the relationship, relationships do require that you spend money and I sometimes felt like a dinner out could have been better used to finance a plane ticket or tri entry fee.
   5. I spent a lot of time each week trying to justify and how to explain to her that I was going to be gone half the day, on the two days a week we stayed together.
4. Moving in together
   1. I was so scared of this conversation. She needs to move out of her moms ASAP
   2. She considered moving in with her male best friend who I think is in love with her.
   3. She had a dog that wouldn’t fit in with my apartment.
   4. She often hinted at having this conversation
   5. During our breakup, I mentioned this and she did say it was way too early for that discussion.

Is part of a relationship supporting someone while they figure out who they are and what they want in life?

1. She had no idea what she wanted out of life, she very much had just begun to figure herself out. I am the one that forced her to do this.
2. She had a lot of self-confidence and image issues that stemmed from family and past relationships she hadn’t begun to understand
3. The conversation at Christmas about anxiety over having no plans or nothing to do for two weeks?
4. Did I overthink the pinky relationship?
5. Relationship with her ex, Jordan
   1. They met every Tuesday for dinner at a local food truck event
   2. She described their relationship as being a “situationship” they moved in together because they were dating at the same time they were both kicked out of their homes
   3. This is when she got the dog
   4. She mentioned he treated her extremely poorly
   5. When we got into her car his name was always on the “quick contacts” screen, but these contacts had never changed from our first date to the end of the relationship
   6. I never really tried to understand this relationship, the Tuesday dinner thing is something that has always happened, she’s been cheated on in the past, I never once felt she cheated on me with him, but I never understood why she hung on to this relationship. I assumed it was always a fall back plan.
   7. This guy was also invited to the graduation party.

The graduation party

1. She invited her work friends and myself, pinky, and Jordan. Again I just didn’t get this, especially since it was close family only

Physical Relationship

1. I have never connected physically and emotionally with someone like I did Michaela. During our discussion about our sex life we had a slight mismatch I was a few times-a-week person she was an everyday person but I learned to adjust.
2. The sex was amazing, again, I have never connected with someone like her before.
3. I’ve never felt more electric in a kiss with someone as I did with her.
4. I was always unhappy with her weight. At first, I thought it was because of my hated of bigger people, but it really came down to me not liking that she hated it but didn’t do anything about it.

Nags about the relationship:

1. Not a risk taker
2. I wish she was someone that would do everything with me, and we just didn’t have strong enough interest in each other's interests for this to happen.
3. Girl, you spend so much time watching tru crime shows, shut it off and learn about yourself
4. Quit your job, its toxic as fuck, hang out with your work friends less
5. Find a hobby, your significant other can’t be your entire life. Part of the reason we spent time figuring out what to do is that you don’t have any interests. Part of my guilt in the relationship was spending time doing my things while you were left at my apartment by yourself….watching tv
6. Get a teeth cleaning, fuck.
7. You’re beautiful and a head-turner, embrace it, and stop thinking so poorly of yourself.

After writing this out:

1. I think I ended things because of my fear of commitment
2. I did love her, but I spent a lot of effort convincing myself otherwise. I wish she could know this.
3. The pressure I put on myself regarding this relationship in December was unfair to both of us. She was being an amazing partner I was being selfish and looking for ways to not face these moments in our relationship
4. I don’t understand how to support someone and when it is correct to support someone in a relationship and what support needs to be sorted out on their own
5. I hope we cross paths again in the future, I think she’s going to end up being an even better match for me.
6. I realize that I was upset with her for not beginning to understand herself, and while she was certainly working toward it was in a manner different than what I did for myself to gain confidence and happiness in life
7. I wrote this after the mom letter, and I realize she made me extremely insecure about the relationship I had with my mother. She and her mother have a terrible relationship, almost verbally abusive in a way but she maintains a relationship with her. I was certainly afraid of her figuring out this could be an issue in our relationship or her therapist somehow indicating this is a red flag
8. I was so focused on trying to keep on top of being the best I could be, I put the relationship to the wayside, I became upset when I realized she wasn't trying to be the best she could be.

What does referred out mean in the grooming department?
My dog has been going to Petco grooming for a while and has always done great. Groomer and staff always commenting on how well he did and loving him. We switched to a closer location and while the groomer seemed experienced (few years), he didn’t seem to match with my dog, he was not warm towards him and slightly rough but I didn’t worry. When I picked my dog out I was a little shocked at the shaving and the groomer said the session didn’t go too well, that my dog was scared and trying to hide the whole time. This was very surprising to me given his previous experiences (when he was even happy to go get groomed). I was upset but didn’t say anything because I don’t do well with confrontation or speaking up. I left the groomer a tip. Later I saw a review online from someone who had a very similar experience to me, it upset me again (especially after looking more closely seeing the uneven shaving on the legs) so I decided to chat with Petco to let them know about my negative experience, I didn’t want a refund but I stated the booking system should maybe let people know what type of dogs the groomers love and dislike to make it easier for both groomer and client.
A few days later the manager of the store left a voicemail asking to talk to me but I got too busy with work and also at that point didn’t want to discuss it and just wanted to put it behind me. Hair grows back and I would just call my previous location to ask for a good match.
When. I tried to book I was told my dog had been referred out. The lady was confused that I didn’t know that and that no one had discussed it with me. No notes mentioned the reason and she did remember my dog very well and how much everyone had loved him. I explained what had happened and it confused her even more, and she said she would call the other store about it. She booked my dog with someone who had helped previously and wanted to groom him, but this whole thing is a little upsetting. I had an issue with a specific groomer, my dog is now terrified to get anywhere near that specific location, but my dog isn’t difficult to groom, does not have any behavior issues (he’s gentle), or any health issues. I feel like this was retaliation for complaining about the session and I don’t think it’s ok…

So I am attempting to get chatgpt to write a full seinfeld script (through bing). It errors out a lot so this has been the best attempt so far at getting a full episode. Premise is from here: https://www.reddit.com/RedditWritesSeinfeld/comments/11zomnc/george_dates_a_driving_instructor_but_cant/
George Dates a driving instructor but can't decipher if they're dating or she's giving lessons. Kramer goes to the cinema just for the popcorn. Elaine dates a male feminist. Jerry stars in Who’s Line Is It Anyway and bombs the improv
I cut Jerry and Elaines story line since chatgpt would error out or get some content policy issue. The final scene failed as well and I hit the limit but it was a decent attempt
Scene 1:
[INT. COFFEE SHOP - DAY]
GEORGE: (sitting at a table with a newspaper) Ah, what a beautiful day. The sun is shining, the birds are singing, and I have nothing to do but enjoy this cup of coffee. (looks around) Maybe I'll even meet someone interesting today. You never know.
DENISE: (approaching his table) Excuse me, is this seat taken?
GEORGE: (looks up and sees a young woman with a driving school jacket) No, no, please, sit down.
DENISE: Thanks. (sits down and puts her jacket on the chair) I'm Denise, by the way.
GEORGE: George. Nice to meet you.
DENISE: Likewise. So, what do you do, George?
GEORGE: Well, I'm an architect.
DENISE: Really? That's impressive.
GEORGE: Thank you. Thank you very much. And you?
DENISE: I'm a driving instructor.
GEORGE: A driving instructor? Wow, that's... that's something.
DENISE: Yeah, it's not the most glamorous job, but it pays the bills.
GEORGE: I bet you have some stories to tell.
DENISE: Oh, you have no idea. Some of the people I have to teach are unbelievable. They don't know how to signal, they don't know how to park, they don't know how to merge...
GEORGE: They don't know how to merge? How can they not know how to merge?
DENISE: I know, right? It's like they've never driven before.
GEORGE: Well, maybe they haven't.
DENISE: Well, then they shouldn't be on the road.
GEORGE: Exactly. Exactly. You and I are on the same page, Denise.
DENISE: (laughs) I guess we are.
GEORGE: So, Denise... can I ask you something?
DENISE: Sure.
GEORGE: Would you like to go out with me?
DENISE: (smiles) Really? You want to go out with me?
GEORGE: Yes. Yes, I do.
DENISE: Well... okay. Sure. Why not?
GEORGE: Great. Great. How about tomorrow?
DENISE: Tomorrow sounds good.
GEORGE: Perfect. Perfect. Where should we meet?
DENISE: How about the driving school? It's on 5th and Main.
GEORGE: The driving school? Okay... sure... why not?
DENISE: Great. I'll see you there at 10.
GEORGE: 10? In the morning?
DENISE: Yeah. Is that a problem?
GEORGE: No... no... not at all... 10 is fine...
DENISE: Okay then. It's a date.
GEORGE: It's a date. (smiles nervously)
[END OF SCENE]
Scene 2:
[INT. MOVIE THEATER - DAY]
KRAMER: (sitting in the front row with a large bucket of popcorn) Mmm... this popcorn is amazing. (takes a handful and shoves it in his mouth) So buttery, so salty, so crunchy... (chews loudly)
JERRY: (sitting next to him) Kramer, can you keep it down? You're making too much noise.
KRAMER: What? I can't hear you. The movie's too loud.
JERRY: The movie's too loud? It's a silent film.
KRAMER: Well, then why are we here?
JERRY: Because you wanted to see it.
KRAMER: I did?
JERRY: Yes, you did. You said it was a classic.
KRAMER: I did?
JERRY: Yes, you did.
KRAMER: Well, I don't remember that.
JERRY: Well, you did.
KRAMER: Well, maybe I did. But I don't care about it now. All I care about is this popcorn. (takes another handful and shoves it in his mouth)
JERRY: Kramer, you've been eating popcorn non-stop for the past hour. Don't you think you've had enough?
KRAMER: Enough? Jerry, there's no such thing as enough when it comes to this popcorn. It's the best popcorn I ever had in my life. And I've had a lot of popcorn.
JERRY: Really? How much?
KRAMER: How much? Jerry, I've been going to the movies every day for the past two weeks just for the popcorn.
JERRY: Every day?
KRAMER: Every day.
JERRY: Even if you don't care about the film?
KRAMER: Even if I don't care about the film.
JERRY: Kramer, that's insane.
KRAMER: No, Jerry, that's genius. Think about it. For the price of one ticket, I get unlimited access to the best popcorn in the world. And I get to see a different movie every time. It's like a buffet of entertainment.
JERRY: But you don't even watch the movies.
KRAMER: So what? They're all the same anyway. Boy meets girl, boy loses girl, boy gets girl back. Blah blah blah. Who needs that when you have this? (holds up the bucket of popcorn)
JERRY: Kramer, you have a problem.
KRAMER: No, Jerry, I have a solution.
[END OF SCENE]
Scene 3:
[INT. DRIVING SCHOOL CAR - DAY]
GEORGE: (sitting in the driver's seat) So, here we are.
DENISE: (sitting in the passenger seat) Yes, here we are.
GEORGE: You look lovely today.
DENISE: Thank you.
GEORGE: So, where are we going?
DENISE: We're going to drive around the block and practice some basic skills.
GEORGE: Oh. Okay.
DENISE: Are you ready?
GEORGE: Ready as I'll ever be.
DENISE: All right, then. Start the engine.
GEORGE: (starts the engine) There we go.
DENISE: Good. Now, put your seat belt on.
GEORGE: (puts his seat belt on) Safety first.
DENISE: Right. Now, check your mirrors.
GEORGE: (checks his mirrors) Check.
DENISE: Good. Now, put your foot on the brake.
GEORGE: (puts his foot on the brake) Brake.
DENISE: Good. Now, put the car in drive.
GEORGE: (puts the car in drive) Drive.
DENISE: Good. Now, release the brake and gently press the gas pedal.
GEORGE: (releases the brake and gently presses the gas pedal) Gas.
DENISE: Good. Now, steer the car to the right and exit the parking lot.
GEORGE: (steers the car to the right and exits the parking lot) Right.
DENISE: Good. Now, keep your eyes on the road and follow the traffic signs and signals.
GEORGE: (keeps his eyes on the road and follows the traffic signs and signals) Road.
DENISE: Good. You're doing great.
GEORGE: (smiles) Thanks. You're a great teacher.
DENISE: Thank you.
(Silence)
GEORGE: So...
DENISE: So...
(Silence)
GEORGE: Can I ask you something?
DENISE: Sure.
GEORGE: Are we... are we on a date?
DENISE: What?
GEORGE: Are we on a date? I mean, you agreed to go out with me yesterday at the coffee shop, right?
DENISE: Well, yes, but...
GEORGE: But what?
DENISE: But this is not a date. This is a driving lesson.
GEORGE: A driving lesson?
DENISE: Yes, a driving lesson. I'm a driving instructor, remember?
GEORGE: Well, yes, but...
DENISE: But what?
GEORGE: But why did you tell me to meet you at the driving school? Why didn't you tell me to meet you somewhere else? Somewhere more... date-like?
DENISE: Because this is where I work. This is where I have my car. This is where I teach people how to drive.
GEORGE: But you don't have to teach me how to drive. I already know how to drive.
DENISE: Really? Then why did you sign up for a driving lesson?
GEORGE: Because I thought it was a date!
DENISE: Well, it's not!
(A car horn honks behind them)
DENISE: Watch out! You're blocking the intersection!
(GEORGE swerves and hits a fire hydrant)
[END OF SCENE]
Scene 4:
[INT. MOVIE THEATER - DAY]
KRAMER: (sitting in the back row with a large paper bag) Mmm... this popcorn is amazing. (takes a handful and shoves it in his mouth) So buttery, so salty, so crunchy... (chews loudly)
USHER: (approaching him) Excuse me, sir. Can I see your ticket?
KRAMER: (swallows) Sure, sure. Here you go. (hands him a ticket)
USHER: (looks at the ticket) Sir, this ticket is for yesterday.
KRAMER: Oh, really? Well, that's a mistake. I bought it today.
USHER: Sir, I don't think so. This ticket is clearly dated and stamped.
KRAMER: Well, maybe the machine was broken.
USHER: Sir, please don't lie to me. I know you're trying to sneak in.
KRAMER: Sneak in? Me? No, no, no. I would never do that.
USHER: Sir, I'm going to have to ask you to leave.
KRAMER: Leave? But I'm watching the movie.
USHER: Sir, you're not watching the movie. You're eating popcorn.
KRAMER: Well, what's wrong with that?
USHER: Sir, where did you get that popcorn?
KRAMER: (looks at the bag) This popcorn?
USHER: Yes, that popcorn.
KRAMER: Well... I brought it from home.
USHER: You brought it from home?
KRAMER: Yeah. Yeah, I did.
USHER: Sir, you can't bring your own popcorn to the theater. That's against the rules.
KRAMER: Rules? What rules?
USHER: The rules that say you have to buy your popcorn from the concession stand.
KRAMER: Oh, those rules.
USHER: Yes, those rules.
KRAMER: Well, I didn't know about those rules.
USHER: Sir, they're posted everywhere. No outside food or drink allowed.
KRAMER: Well, I didn't see them.
USHER: Sir, they're right there. (points to a sign)
KRAMER: Oh. Well, I didn't read them.
USHER: Sir, please stop making excuses. You know you're not supposed to bring your own popcorn.
KRAMER: Okay, okay. Fine. You got me. I brought my own popcorn. So what?
USHER: So what? So what? Sir, do you have any idea how much money we make from selling popcorn?
KRAMER: No.
USHER: A lot. A lot of money. Popcorn is our main source of income. It's how we pay our bills. It's how we keep this theater running.
KRAMER: Really?
USHER: Yes, really. And when you bring your own popcorn, you're taking away our profits. You're stealing from us.
KRAMER: Stealing? Come on. That's a bit harsh.
USHER: No, it's not. It's the truth. And you know what we do to thieves?
KRAMER: What?
USHER: We ban them from the theater.
KRAMER: Ban them?
USHER: Yes, ban them. As in never let them come back again.
KRAMER: Never?
USHER: Never.
KRAMER: But... but...
USHER: But nothing. You're banned, buddy. Banned for life.
KRAMER: Banned for life?
USHER: Banned for life.
(KRAMER gasps and drops the bag of popcorn)
[END OF SCENE]
Scene 5:
[INT. DRIVING SCHOOL OFFICE - DAY]
GEORGE: (sitting across from DENISE) Denise, I need to talk to you.
DENISE: What is it, George?
GEORGE: Look, I'm sorry about what happened yesterday. I didn't mean to cause an accident.
DENISE: It's okay, George. It wasn't your fault.
GEORGE: It wasn't?
DENISE: No, it was the fire hydrant's fault. It shouldn't have been there.
GEORGE: Oh. Well, that's good to know.
DENISE: Yeah.
(Silence)
GEORGE: So...
DENISE: So...
(Silence)
GEORGE: Denise, I have to ask you something.
DENISE: What is it, George?
GEORGE: Are we... are we dating?
DENISE: (sighs) George, we've been over this.
GEORGE: I know, I know. But I need a clear answer. Yes or no?
DENISE: No, George. We are not dating.
GEORGE: We're not?
DENISE: No, we're not.
GEORGE: But why not?
DENISE: Because this is not a relationship. This is a business transaction.
GEORGE: A business transaction?
DENISE: Yes, a business transaction. You pay me to teach you how to drive. That's it.
GEORGE: But what about the coffee shop? What about the conversation? What about the chemistry?
DENISE: What chemistry?
GEORGE: The chemistry! The spark! The connection!
DENISE: George, there was no spark. There was no connection. There was only coffee.
GEORGE: Only coffee?
DENISE: Only coffee.
GEORGE: But you smiled at me. You laughed at my jokes. You touched my arm.
DENISE: I was being polite. I was being friendly. I was being professional.
GEORGE: Professional?
DENISE: Yes, professional. George, I'm a driving instructor. That's my job. And part of my job is to make my students feel comfortable and confident behind the wheel.
GEORGE: Comfortable and confident?
DENISE: Yes, comfortable and confident.
GEORGE: Well, you failed miserably at that.
DENISE: Excuse me?
GEORGE: You heard me. You're a terrible driving instructor.
DENISE: I'm a terrible driving instructor?
GEORGE: Yes, you are.
DENISE: How dare you say that? I'm one of the best driving instructors in this city.
GEORGE: Oh, really? Then how come you couldn't teach me how to drive?
DENISE: Because you're a hopeless case, George. You're a terrible driver.
GEORGE: I'm a terrible driver?
DENISE: Yes, you are.
GEORGE: How dare you say that? I'm one of the best drivers in this city.
DENISE: Oh, really? Then how come you crashed into a fire hydrant?
GEORGE: Because it shouldn't have been there!
DENISE: That's no excuse, George. You have no sense of direction, no sense of speed, no sense of traffic rules. You don't know how to signal, you don't know how to park, you don't know how to merge...
GEORGE: Hey, hey, hey! Enough with the merging already!
DENISE: George, face it. You need more lessons.
GEORGE: More lessons?
DENISE: Yes, more lessons.
(GEORGE stands up and grabs his coat)
GEORGE: Forget it, Denise. Forget it. I don't need more lessons. I don't need you. I don't need anyone. I'm outta here.
(GEORGE storms out of the office)
[END OF SCENE]
Scene 6:
[INT. JERRY'S APARTMENT - DAY]
JERRY: (on the phone) Hello? Kramer? Is that you?
KRAMER: (on the other end) Yeah, Jerry. It's me.
JERRY: Kramer, where have you been? I haven't seen you in weeks.
KRAMER: I've been... busy.
JERRY: Busy? Doing what?
KRAMER: You know... stuff.
JERRY: Stuff? What kind of stuff?
KRAMER: Just... stuff.
JERRY: Kramer, are you okay? You sound depressed.
KRAMER: Depressed? Me? No, no, no. I'm fine.
JERRY: Are you sure?
KRAMER: Yeah, yeah, yeah. I'm sure.
JERRY: Well, then why don't you come over? We're having a poker night. George and Elaine are here.
KRAMER: Poker night? No, thanks. I'm not in the mood.
JERRY: Not in the mood? Since when are you not in the mood for poker?
KRAMER: Since... since now.
JERRY: Kramer, what's going on? What's wrong?
KRAMER: Nothing's wrong, Jerry. Nothing's wrong.
JERRY: Come on, Kramer. You can tell me. I'm your friend.
KRAMER: (sighs) All right, Jerry. All right. I'll tell you.
JERRY: Okay. Tell me.
KRAMER: I'm... I'm out of popcorn.
JERRY: Out of popcorn?
KRAMER: Yeah. Out of popcorn.
JERRY: And that's why you're depressed?
KRAMER: Well, yeah. Jerry, you don't understand. This is not just any popcorn. This is the best popcorn in the world. The cinema popcorn.
JERRY: The cinema popcorn?
KRAMER: Yeah. The cinema popcorn. The popcorn that makes life worth living. The popcorn that fills my soul with joy and happiness.
JERRY: Okay...
KRAMER: And I can't have it anymore, Jerry. I can't have it anymore.
JERRY: Why not?
KRAMER: Because they banned me from the theater, Jerry. They banned me for life.
JERRY: They banned you for life?
KRAMER: Yeah. They banned me for life.
JERRY: Why did they ban you for life?
KRAMER: Because I was taking popcorn from other people's seats, Jerry. I was taking popcorn from other people's seats.
JERRY: You were taking popcorn from other people's seats?
KRAMER: Yeah. I was taking popcorn from other people's seats.
JERRY: Kramer, that's stealing.
KRAMER: No, Jerry. That's surviving.
JERRY: Surviving?
KRAMER: Yeah. Surviving. Jerry, you don't know what it's like to be addicted to popcorn. To crave it every day. To need it every hour. To live for it every minute.
JERRY: No, I don't.
KRAMER: Well, I do, Jerry. I do. And when they cut me off from my supply, I had to find another way to get it. And the only way was to take it from others.
JERRY: Kramer, that's crazy.
KRAMER: No, Jerry. That's desperate.
JERRY: Desperate?
KRAMER: Yeah. Desperate. And it worked for a while, Jerry. It worked for a while. But then they caught me. They caught me red-handed with a handful of popcorn in my mouth and a bucket of popcorn in my lap.
JERRY: And then what happened?
KRAMER: And then they kicked me out of the theater, Jerry. They kicked me out and they told me never to come back again.
JERRY: Wow.
KRAMER: Yeah. Wow.
(Silence)
JERRY: Well... that's too bad.
KRAMER: Yeah. Too bad.
(Silence)
JERRY: So... what are you going to do now?
KRAMER: I don't know, Jerry. I don't know. I've tried everything else. Microwave popcorn, stovetop popcorn, air-popped popcorn... but none of them compare to the cinema popcorn. None of them have that magic touch.
JERRY: Well... maybe you should try something else.
KRAMER: Like what?
JERRY: Like... chips?
KRAMER: Chips? Chips?! Jerry, are you kidding me? Chips are nothing compared to popcorn! Chips are dry
[END OF SCENE]
Scene 7: Attempted ending with ChatGPT having no context
[INT. JERRY'S APARTMENT]
GEORGE: (angrily) I can't believe it! She dumped me because I'm a bad driver!
JERRY: Who dumped you?
GEORGE: Denise! The driving instructor!
JERRY: The driving instructor dumped you because you're a bad driver?
GEORGE: Yes! She said I have no sense of direction, I don't signal properly, and I brake too hard!
JERRY: Well, maybe she has a point.
GEORGE: What do you mean?
JERRY: Come on, George. You're not exactly Mario Andretti behind the wheel.
GEORGE: Oh, and you are?
JERRY: Well, I'm better than you.
GEORGE: Oh, please. You're a nervous wreck. You always grip the steering wheel like it's a life preserver.
JERRY: That's because it is. Have you seen the way people drive in this city?
ELAINE: (entering) Hey, guys.
GEORGE: Elaine, you're a witness. Who's a better driver? Me or Jerry?
ELAINE: Oh, boy. That's a tough one.
GEORGE: Come on, Elaine. Be honest.
ELAINE: Well...Jerry.
GEORGE: Jerry?!
ELAINE: Yeah, sorry, George. Jerry's a better driver.
GEORGE: How can you say that?
ELAINE: Well, for one thing, he doesn't yell at every pedestrian and cyclist on the road.
GEORGE: They're in my way!
ELAINE: And he doesn't honk his horn every five seconds.
GEORGE: It's a form of communication!
ELAINE: And he doesn't park on the sidewalk.
GEORGE: There's no space on the street!
JERRY: George, face it. You're a bad driver.
GEORGE: I'm not a bad driver! I'm a good driver!
KRAMER: (entering) Hey, hey, hey! What's going on here?
ELAINE: Oh, hi, Kramer.
KRAMER: What are you guys talking about?
JERRY: George got dumped by his driving instructor because he's a bad driver.
KRAMER: Oh, that's too bad.
GEORGE: Thank you, Kramer. Finally, someone who sympathizes with me.
KRAMER: Yeah, yeah. Listen, do you guys have any popcorn?
JERRY: Popcorn?
KRAMER: Yeah, popcorn. You know, the crunchy stuff you eat at the movies.
JERRY: Yeah, we know what popcorn is. Why do you want popcorn?
KRAMER: Because I'm addicted to it!
ELAINE: What?
KRAMER: Yeah, yeah. Ever since I started working at that cinema, I can't stop eating popcorn. It's like crack to me!
JERRY: Well, why don't you just quit your job?
KRAMER: Quit my job? Are you kidding? That's the best part! Free popcorn!
ELAINE: Kramer, that's not healthy. You have to cut down on your popcorn intake.
KRAMER: No, no, no. I can't do that. I need it. I need it bad.
JERRY: Kramer, this is ridiculous. You have to stop this madness.
KRAMER: No, no, no. You don't understand. It's too late for me. I'm hooked. Hooked on popcorn!
(Kramer starts twitching and shaking)
ELAINE: Oh my god. He's having a popcorn withdrawal!
JERRY: Quick! Get him some water!
(George grabs a glass of water and hands it to Kramer)
KRAMER: (drinking the water) Ahh...that's better.
(Kramer calms down)
KRAMER: Thanks, George. You're a lifesaver.
GEORGE: Don't mention it.
KRAMER: By the way...you're a terrible driver.
(George looks stunned and hurt)
[END]

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Horatian: Horatian satire is tolerant, funny, sophisticated witty, wise, self-effacing and aims to correct through humor...
Juvenalian: Juvenalian satire is angry, caustic, personal, relentless, bitter, and serious...
SATIRICAL DEVICE

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Genre of arts and literature in the form of humor or ridicule
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Satire is a technique in art and literature that pokes fun at established artistic or cultural norms. Satirists practice their craft for the sake of social criticism, comedy, or, often, both. The different satire genres include spoof, parody, and classic literary satire techniques.
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Definition of satire
1: a literary work holding up human vices and follies to ridicule or scorn
2: trenchant wit, irony, or sarcasm used to expose and discredit vice or folly
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The Culinary Roots of Satire
Satire came into English at the beginning of the 16th century, and the meaning of the word has not strayed very far from its original sense. The initial uses were primarily applied to poems, and the term now has a broader applicability. Satire has a semantic and etymological overlap with both farce and lampoon. Farce ("a light dramatic composition marked by broadly satirical comedy and improbable plot") came into English as a synonym for forcemeat, meaning "finely chopped and highly seasoned meat or fish that is either served alone or used as a stuffing." Lampoon ("a harsh satire usually directed against an individual") is thought to come from the French lampons!, meaning "let us guzzle!" And satire is believed to trace back to the Latin satur, meaning "well-fed."
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Examples of satire in a Sentence
By contrast, Martial's friend, Juvenal, learned to transmute Martial's epigrammatic wit into savage satire. Juvenal's fierce, if occasionally obscene, tirades against immorality fit easily into the propaganda of the new era.
— G. W. Bowersock, New York Review of Books, 26 Feb. 2009
Unlike late-night talk shows that traffic in Hollywood interviews and stupid pet tricks, "The Daily Show" is a fearless social satire. Not many comedy shows would dare do five minutes on the intricacies of medicare or a relentlessly cheeky piece on President George W. Bush's Thanksgiving trip to Iraq …
— Marc Peyser, Newsweek, 29 Dec. 2003 - 5 Jan. 2004
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In fiction and less frequently in non-fiction, satire is a genre of literature and performing arts, in which vices, follies, abuses and shortcomings are held up to ridicule, ideally with the intent of shaming individuals, corporations, government, or society itself into improvement.[1] Although satire is usually meant to be humorous, its greater purpose is often constructive social criticism, using wit to draw attention to both particular and wider issues in society.
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A feature of satire is strong irony or sarcasm —"in satire, irony is militant", according to literary critic Northrup Frye—[2] but parody, burlesque, exaggeration,[3] juxtaposition, comparison, analogy, and double entendre are all frequently used in satirical speech and writing. This "militant" irony or sarcasm often professes to approve of (or at least accept as natural) the very things the satirist wishes to question.
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Satire is nowadays found in many artistic forms of expression, including internet memes, literature, plays, commentary, television shows, and media such as lyrics.
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Etymology and roots
The word satire comes from the Latin word satur and the subsequent phrase lanx satura. Satur meant "full" but the juxtaposition with lanx shifted the meaning to "miscellany or medley": the expression lanx satura literally means "a full dish of various kinds of fruits".[4]
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The word satura as used by Quintilian, however, was used to denote only Roman verse satire, a strict genre that imposed hexameter form, a narrower genre than what would be later intended as satire.[4][5] Quintilian famously said that satura, that is a satire in hexameter verses, was a literary genre of wholly Roman origin (satura tota nostra est). He was aware of and commented on Greek satire, but at the time did not label it as such, although today the origin of satire is considered to be Aristophanes' Old Comedy. The first critic to use the term "satire" in the modern broader sense was Apuleius.[4]
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To Quintilian, the satire was a strict literary form, but the term soon escaped from the original narrow definition. Robert Elliott writes:
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As soon as a noun enters the domain of metaphor, as one modern scholar has pointed out, it clamours for extension; and satura (which had had no verbal, adverbial, or adjectival forms) was immediately broadened by appropriation from the Greek word for “satyr” (satyros) and its derivatives. The odd result is that the English “satire” comes from the Latin satura; but "satirize", "satiric", etc., are of Greek origin. By about the 4th century AD the writer of satires came to be known as satyricus; St. Jerome, for example, was called by one of his enemies 'a satirist in prose' ('satyricus scriptor in prosa'). Subsequent orthographic modifications obscured the Latin origin of the word satire: satura becomes satyra, and in England, by the 16th century, it was written 'satyre.'[1]
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The word satire derives from satura, and its origin was not influenced by the Greek mythological figure of the satyr.[6] In the 17th century, philologist Isaac Casaubon was the first to dispute the etymology of satire from satyr, contrary to the belief up to that time.[7]
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Humour
“ The rules of satire are such that it must do more than make you laugh. No matter how amusing it is, it doesn't count unless you find yourself wincing a little even as you chuckle.[8] ”
Laughter is not an essential component of satire;[9] in fact there are types of satire that are not meant to be "funny" at all. Conversely, not all humour, even on such topics as politics, religion or art is necessarily "satirical", even when it uses the satirical tools of irony, parody, and burlesque.
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Even light-hearted satire has a serious "after-taste": the organizers of the Ig Nobel Prize describe this as "first make people laugh, and then make them think".[10]
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Social and psychological functions
Satire and irony in some cases have been regarded as the most effective source to understand a society, the oldest form of social study.[11] They provide the keenest insights into a group's collective psyche, reveal its deepest values and tastes, and the society's structures of power.[12][13] Some authors have regarded satire as superior to non-comic and non-artistic disciplines like history or anthropology.[11][14][15][16] In a prominent example from ancient Greece, philosopher Plato, when asked by a friend for a book to understand Athenian society, referred him to the plays of Aristophanes.[17][18]
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Historically, satire has satisfied the popular need to debunk and ridicule the leading figures in politics, economy, religion and other prominent realms of power.[19] Satire confronts public discourse and the collective imaginary, playing as a public opinion counterweight to power (be it political, economic, religious, symbolic, or otherwise), by challenging leaders and authorities. For instance, it forces administrations to clarify, amend or establish their policies. Satire's job is to expose problems and contradictions, and it's not obligated to solve them.[20] Karl Kraus set in the history of satire a prominent example of a satirist role as confronting public discourse.[21]
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For its nature and social role, satire has enjoyed in many societies a special freedom license to mock prominent individuals and institutions.[22] The satiric impulse, and its ritualized expressions, carry out the function of resolving social tension.[23] Institutions like the ritual clowns, by giving expression to the antisocial tendencies, represent a safety valve which re-establishes equilibrium and health in the collective imaginary, which are jeopardized by the repressive aspects of society.[24][25]
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The state of political satire in a given society reflects the tolerance or intolerance that characterizes it,[19] and the state of civil liberties and human rights. Under totalitarian regimes any criticism of a political system, and especially satire, is suppressed. A typical example is the Soviet Union where the dissidents, such as Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn and Andrei Sakharov were under strong pressure from the government. While satire of everyday life in the USSR was allowed, the most prominent satirist being Arkady Raikin, political satire existed in the form of anecdotes[26] that made fun of Soviet political leaders, especially Brezhnev, famous for his narrow-mindedness and love for awards and decorations.
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Classifications
Satire is a diverse genre which is complex to classify and define, with a wide range of satiric "modes".[27][28]
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Horatian, Juvenalian, Menippean
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"Le satire e l'epistole di Q. Orazio Flacco", printed in 1814.
Satirical literature can commonly be categorized as either Horatian, Juvenalian, or Menippean.[29]
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Horatian
Horatian satire, named for the Roman satirist Horace (65–8 BCE), playfully criticizes some social vice through gentle, mild, and light-hearted humour. Horace (Quintus Horatius Flaccus) wrote Satires to gently ridicule the dominant opinions and "philosophical beliefs of ancient Rome and Greece" (Rankin).[30] Rather than writing in harsh or accusing tones, he addressed issues with humor and clever mockery. Horatian satire follows this same pattern of "gently [ridiculing] the absurdities and follies of human beings" (Drury).[31]
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It directs wit, exaggeration, and self-deprecating humour toward what it identifies as folly, rather than evil. Horatian satire's sympathetic tone is common in modern society.[32]
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A Horatian satirist's goal is to heal the situation with smiles, rather than by anger. Horatian satire is a gentle reminder to take life less seriously and evokes a wry smile.[31] A Horatian satirist makes fun of general human folly rather than engaging in specific or personal attacks. Shamekia Thomas suggests, "In a work using Horatian satire, readers often laugh at the characters in the story who are the subject of mockery as well as themselves and society for behaving in those ways." Alexander Pope has been established as an author whose satire "heals with morals what it hurts with wit" (Green).[33] Alexander Pope—and Horatian satire—attempt to teach.
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Examples of Horatian satire:
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The Ig Nobel Prizes.
Bierce, Ambrose, The Devil's Dictionary.
Defoe, Daniel, The True-Born Englishman.
The Savoy Operas of Gilbert and Sullivan.
Trollope, Anthony, The Way We Live Now.
Gogol, Nikolai, Dead Souls.
Groening, Matthew "Matt", The Simpsons.
Lewis, Clive Staples, The Screwtape Letters.
Mercer, Richard ‘Rick’, The Rick Mercer Report.
More, Thomas, Utopia
Pope, Alexander, The Rape of the Lock.
Reiner, Rob, This Is Spinal Tap.
Twain, Mark, Adventures of Huckleberry Finn.
Ralston Saul, John, The Doubter's Companion: A Dictionary of Aggressive Common Sense.
Juvenalian
See also: Satires of Juvenal
Juvenalian satire, named for the writings of the Roman satirist Juvenal (late first century – early second century AD), is more contemptuous and abrasive than the Horatian. Juvenal disagreed with the opinions of the public figures and institutions of the Republic and actively attacked them through his literature. "He utilized the satirical tools of exaggeration and parody to make his targets appear monstrous and incompetent" (Podzemny).[34] Juvenal's satire follows this same pattern of abrasively ridiculing societal structures. Juvenal also, unlike Horace, attacked public officials and governmental organizations through his satires, regarding their opinions as not just wrong, but evil.
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Following in this tradition, Juvenalian satire addresses perceived social evil through scorn, outrage, and savage ridicule. This form is often pessimistic, characterized by the use of irony, sarcasm, moral indignation and personal invective, with less emphasis on humor. Strongly polarized political satire can often be classified as Juvenalian.
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A Juvenal satirist's goal is generally to provoke some sort of political or societal change because he sees his opponent or object as evil or harmful.[35] A Juvenal satirist mocks "societal structure, power, and civilization" (Thomas)[36] by exaggerating the words or position of his opponent in order to jeopardize their opponent's reputation and/or power. Jonathan Swift has been established as an author who "borrowed heavily from Juvenal's techniques in [his critique] of contemporary English society" (Podzemny).[34]
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Examples of Juvenalian satire:
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Barnes, Julian, England, England.
Beatty, Paul, The Sellout.
Bradbury, Ray, Fahrenheit 451.
Brooker, Charlie, Black Mirror.
Bulgakov, Mikhail, Heart of a Dog.
Burgess, Anthony, A Clockwork Orange.
Burroughs, William, Naked Lunch.
Byron, George Gordon, Lord, Don Juan.
Barth, John, The Sot-Weed Factor; or, A Voyage to Maryland,—a satire, in which is described the laws, government, courts, and constitutions of the country, and also the buildings, feasts, frolics, entertainments, and drunken humors of the inhabitants in that part of America.
Ellis, Bret Easton, American Psycho.
Golding, William, Lord of the Flies.
Hall, Joseph, Virgidemiarum.
Heller, Joseph, Catch-22.
Huxley, Aldous, Brave New World.
Johnson, Samuel, London, an adaptation of Juvenal, Third Satire.
Junius, Letters.
Kubrick, Stanley, Dr. Strangelove.
Mencken, HL, Libido for the Ugly.
Morris, Chris, Brass Eye.
———, The Day Today.
Orwell, George, Nineteen Eighty-Four.
Orwell, George, Animal Farm.
Palahniuk, Chuck, Fight Club.
Swift, Jonathan, A Modest Proposal.
Voltaire, Candide.
Zamyatin, Yevgeny, We.
Menippean
See Menippean satire.
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Satire versus teasing
In the history of theatre there has always been a conflict between engagement and disengagement on politics and relevant issue, between satire and grotesque on one side, and jest with teasing on the other.[37] Max Eastman defined the spectrum of satire in terms of "degrees of biting", as ranging from satire proper at the hot-end, and "kidding" at the violet-end; Eastman adopted the term kidding to denote what is just satirical in form, but is not really firing at the target.[38] Nobel laureate satirical playwright Dario Fo pointed out the difference between satire and teasing (sfottò).[39] Teasing is the reactionary side of the comic; it limits itself to a shallow parody of physical appearance. The side-effect of teasing is that it humanizes and draws sympathy for the powerful individual towards which it is directed. Satire instead uses the comic to go against power and its oppressions, has a subversive character, and a moral dimension which draws judgement against its targets.[40][41][42][43] Fo formulated an operational criterion to tell real satire from sfottò, saying that real satire arouses an outraged and violent reaction, and that the more they try to stop you, the better is the job you are doing.[44] Fo contends that, historically, people in positions of power have welcomed and encouraged good-humoured buffoonery, while modern day people in positions of power have tried to censor, ostracize and repress satire.[37][40]
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Teasing (sfottò) is an ancient form of simple buffoonery, a form of comedy without satire's subversive edge. Teasing includes light and affectionate parody, good-humoured mockery, simple one-dimensional poking fun, and benign spoofs. Teasing typically consists of an impersonation of someone monkeying around with his exterior attributes, tics, physical blemishes, voice and mannerisms, quirks, way of dressing and walking, and/or the phrases he typically repeats. By contrast, teasing never touches on the core issue, never makes a serious criticism judging the target with irony; it never harms the target's conduct, ideology and position of power; it never undermines the perception of his morality and cultural dimension.[40][42] Sfottò directed towards a powerful individual makes him appear more human and draws sympathy towards him.[45] Hermann Göring propagated jests and jokes against himself, with the aim of humanizing his image.[46][47]
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Classifications by topics
Types of satire can also be classified according to the topics it deals with. From the earliest times, at least since the plays of Aristophanes, the primary topics of literary satire have been politics, religion and sex.[48][49][50][51] This is partly because these are the most pressing problems that affect anybody living in a society, and partly because these topics are usually taboo.[48][52] Among these, politics in the broader sense is considered the pre-eminent topic of satire.[52] Satire which targets the clergy is a type of political satire, while religious satire is that which targets religious beliefs.[53] Satire on sex may overlap with blue comedy, off-color humor and dick jokes.
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Scatology has a long literary association with satire,[48][54][55] as it is a classical mode of the grotesque, the grotesque body and the satiric grotesque.[48][56] Shit plays a fundamental role in satire because it symbolizes death, the turd being "the ultimate dead object".[54][55] The satirical comparison of individuals or institutions with human excrement, exposes their "inherent inertness, corruption and dead-likeness".[54][57][58] The ritual clowns of clown societies, like among the Pueblo Indians, have ceremonies with filth-eating.[59][60] In other cultures, sin-eating is an apotropaic rite in which the sin-eater (also called filth-eater),[61][62] by ingesting the food provided, takes "upon himself the sins of the departed".[63] Satire about death overlaps with black humor and gallows humor.
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Another classification by topics is the distinction between political satire, religious satire and satire of manners.[64] Political satire is sometimes called topical satire, satire of manners is sometimes called satire of everyday life, and religious satire is sometimes called philosophical satire. Comedy of manners, sometimes also called satire of manners, criticizes mode of life of common people; political satire aims at behavior, manners of politicians, and vices of political systems. Historically, comedy of manners, which first appeared in British theater in 1620, has uncritically accepted the social code of the upper classes.[65] Comedy in general accepts the rules of the social game, while satire subverts them.[66]
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Another analysis of satire is the spectrum of his possible tones: wit, ridicule, irony, sarcasm, cynicism, the sardonic and invective.[67][68]
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The type of humour that deals with creating laughter at the expense of the person telling the joke is called reflexive humour[69].Reflexive humour can take place at dual levels of directing humour at self or at the larger community the self identifies with. The audience's understanding of the context of reflexive humour is important for its receptivity and success [69]. Satire is found not only in written literary forms. In preliterate cultures it manifests itself in ritual and folk forms, as well as in trickster tales and oral poetry.[23]
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It appears also in graphic arts, music, sculpture, dance, cartoon strips, and graffiti. Examples are Dada sculptures, Pop Art works, music of Gilbert and Sullivan and Erik Satie, punk and rock music.[23] In modern media culture, stand-up comedy is an enclave in which satire can be introduced into mass media, challenging mainstream discourse.[23] Comedy roasts, mock festivals, and stand-up comedians in nightclubs and concerts are the modern forms of ancient satiric rituals.[23]
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Development
Ancient Egypt
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The satirical papyrus at the British Museum
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Satirical ostracon showing a cat guarding geese, c.1120 BC, Egypt.
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Figured ostracon showing a cat waiting on a mouse, Egypt
One of the earliest examples of what we might call satire, The Satire of the Trades,[70] is in Egyptian writing from the beginning of the 2nd millennium BC. The text's apparent readers are students, tired of studying. It argues that their lot as scribes is not only useful, but far superior to that of the ordinary man. Scholars such as Helck[71] think that the context was meant to be serious.
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The Papyrus Anastasi I[72] (late 2nd millennium BC) contains a satirical letter which first praises the virtues of its recipient, but then mocks the reader's meagre knowledge and achievements.
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Ancient Greece
The Greeks had no word for what later would be called "satire", although the terms cynicism and parody were used. Modern critics call the Greek playwright Aristophanes one of the best known early satirists: his plays are known for their critical political and societal commentary,[73] particularly for the political satire by which he criticized the powerful Cleon (as in The Knights). He is also notable for the persecution he underwent.[73][74][75][76] Aristophanes' plays turned upon images of filth and disease.[77] His bawdy style was adopted by Greek dramatist-comedian Menander. His early play Drunkenness contains an attack on the politician Callimedon.
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The oldest form of satire still in use is the Menippean satire by Menippus of Gadara. His own writings are lost. Examples from his admirers and imitators mix seriousness and mockery in dialogues and present parodies before a background of diatribe. As in the case of Aristophanes plays, menippean satire turned upon images of filth and disease.[77]
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Roman world
The first Roman to discuss satire critically was Quintilian, who invented the term to describe the writings of Gaius Lucilius. The two most prominent and influential ancient Roman satirists are Horace and Juvenal, who wrote during the early days of the Roman Empire. Other important satirists in ancient Latin are Gaius Lucilius and Persius. Satire in their work is much wider than in the modern sense of the word, including fantastic and highly coloured humorous writing with little or no real mocking intent. When Horace criticized Augustus, he used veiled ironic terms. In contrast, Pliny reports that the 6th-century-BC poet Hipponax wrote satirae that were so cruel that the offended hanged themselves.[78]
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In the 2nd century AD, Lucian wrote True History, a book satirizing the clearly unrealistic travelogues/adventures written by Ctesias, Iambulus, and Homer. He states that he was surprised they expected people to believe their lies, and stating that he, like them, has no actual knowledge or experience, but shall now tell lies as if he did. He goes on to describe a far more obviously extreme and unrealistic tale, involving interplanetary exploration, war among alien life forms, and life inside a 200 mile long whale back in the terrestrial ocean, all intended to make obvious the fallacies of books like Indica and The Odyssey.
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Medieval Islamic world
Main articles: Arabic satire and Persian satire
Medieval Arabic poetry included the satiric genre hija. Satire was introduced into Arabic prose literature by the author Al-Jahiz in the 9th century. While dealing with serious topics in what are now known as anthropology, sociology and psychology, he introduced a satirical approach, "based on the premise that, however serious the subject under review, it could be made more interesting and thus achieve greater effect, if only one leavened the lump of solemnity by the insertion of a few amusing anecdotes or by the throwing out of some witty or paradoxical observations. He was well aware that, in treating of new themes in his prose works, he would have to employ a vocabulary of a nature more familiar in hija, satirical poetry."[79] For example, in one of his zoological works, he satirized the preference for longer human penis size, writing: "If the length of the penis were a sign of honor, then the mule would belong to the (honorable tribe of) Quraysh". Another satirical story based on this preference was an Arabian Nights tale called "Ali with the Large Member".[80]
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In the 10th century, the writer Tha'alibi recorded satirical poetry written by the Arabic poets As-Salami and Abu Dulaf, with As-Salami praising Abu Dulaf's wide breadth of knowledge and then mocking his ability in all these subjects, and with Abu Dulaf responding back and satirizing As-Salami in return.[81] An example of Arabic political satire included another 10th-century poet Jarir satirizing Farazdaq as "a transgressor of the Sharia" and later Arabic poets in turn using the term "Farazdaq-like" as a form of political satire.[82]
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The terms "comedy" and "satire" became synonymous after Aristotle's Poetics was translated into Arabic in the medieval Islamic world, where it was elaborated upon by Islamic philosophers and writers, such as Abu Bischr, his pupil Al-Farabi, Avicenna, and Averroes. Due to cultural differences, they disassociated comedy from Greek dramatic representation and instead identified it with Arabic poetic themes and forms, such as hija (satirical poetry). They viewed comedy as simply the "art of reprehension", and made no reference to light and cheerful events, or troubled beginnings and happy endings, associated with classical Greek comedy. After the Latin translations of the 12th century, the term "comedy" thus gained a new semantic meaning in Medieval literature.[83]
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Ubayd Zakani introduced satire in Persian literature during the 14th century. His work is noted for its satire and obscene verses, often political or bawdy, and often cited in debates involving homosexual practices. He wrote the Resaleh-ye Delgosha, as well as Akhlaq al-Ashraf ("Ethics of the Aristocracy") and the famous humorous fable Masnavi Mush-O-Gorbeh (Mouse and Cat), which was a political satire. His non-satirical serious classical verses have also been regarded as very well written, in league with the other great works of Persian literature. Between 1905 and 1911, Bibi Khatoon Astarabadi and other Iranian writers wrote notable satires.
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Medieval Europe
In the Early Middle Ages, examples of satire were the songs by Goliards or vagants now best known as an anthology called Carmina Burana and made famous as texts of a composition by the 20th-century composer Carl Orff. Satirical poetry is believed to have been popular, although little has survived. With the advent of the High Middle Ages and the birth of modern vernacular literature in the 12th century, it began to be used again, most notably by Chaucer. The disrespectful manner was considered "unchristian" and ignored, except for the moral satire, which mocked misbehaviour in Christian terms. Examples are Livre des Manières by Étienne de Fougères [fr] (~1178), and some of Chaucer's Canterbury Tales. Sometimes epic poetry (epos) was mocked, and even feudal society, but there was hardly a general interest in the genre.
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Early modern western satire
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Pieter Bruegel's 1568 satirical painting The Blind Leading the Blind.
Direct social commentary via satire returned with a vengeance in the 16th century, when farcical texts such as the works of François Rabelais tackled more serious issues (and incurred the wrath of the crown as a result).
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Two major satirists of Europe in the Renaissance were Giovanni Boccaccio and François Rabelais. Other examples of Renaissance satire include Till Eulenspiegel, Reynard the Fox, Sebastian Brant's Narrenschiff (1494), Erasmus's Moriae Encomium (1509), Thomas More's Utopia (1516), and Carajicomedia (1519).
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The Elizabethan (i.e. 16th-century English) writers thought of satire as related to the notoriously rude, coarse and sharp satyr play. Elizabethan "satire" (typically in pamphlet form) therefore contains more straightforward abuse than subtle irony. The French Huguenot Isaac Casaubon pointed out in 1605 that satire in the Roman fashion was something altogether more civilised. Casaubon discovered and published Quintilian's writing and presented the original meaning of the term (satira, not satyr), and the sense of wittiness (reflecting the "dishfull of fruits") became more important again. Seventeenth-century English satire once again aimed at the "amendment of vices" (Dryden).
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In the 1590s a new wave of verse satire broke with the publication of Hall's Virgidemiarum, six books of verse satires targeting everything from literary fads to corrupt noblemen. Although Donne had already circulated satires in manuscript, Hall's was the first real attempt in English at verse satire on the Juvenalian model.[84][page needed] The success of his work combined with a national mood of disillusion in the last years of Elizabeth's reign triggered an avalanche of satire—much of it less conscious of classical models than Hall's — until the fashion was brought to an

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TLDR I think I was anhedonic before drinking, and am curious how to fix that
My coping mechanisms starting at 15 to escape the crazy weird family I grew up in went like this: Super busy, then binging porn any time I slacked off on massive willpower (I was in online college fulltime with a 4.0 working an oilfield job 70-80 hours a week, doing my homework on the job by bribing my co workers to drive so I could study in return I'd do the shittier work). Then something bad happened, and I started drinking almost every evening before bed and have ever since (33 ten years now). I tried like crazy to quit and just couldn't do it. And that was from a young man who grew up wrestling, training on my own, running long distance, and managing my own small lawn care business. I was just desperate and couldn't stay away from something, anything, to fill that void before I went to bed. Porn was the hardest to avoid cause it's always there and I was an abstinent christian, and beer became similar. 3-4/day in the beginning, 4-6 the last few years
Only difference is I'm not a workaholic any more I'm just burned out.
Anyway I got 3 days in a row sober this week, following a decent taper Fri/Sat (kept the porn to 30 minutes 1-2x/day, and 4-5 drinks) and going to church. I stayed and talked for 6 hours afterward. That's the second time I've done that-I think at least in part I'm just extremely lonely, and something about that time seemed to fill me up to the point that I felt at peace and didn't need the booze to drown it out. The previous week I stayed sober for one day, this week for 3.
Tuesday I did not go out to socialize, because I have this sense, like this intuition that when I force myself to do things in a certain way I //have// to make up that emotional debt-and I didn't feel like being back in the drinking cycle so I stayed home and went to sleep. That has NEVER cured my depression/anxiety before.
By day 4 I was started to feel sluggish and anhedonic and stuck, so I said fuck it, it's time to rage a little and get out of this rut. I bought an 18-pack of 6% beer (a lot for me) and drank 8 or 9 of them. Loud music, inspirational movies, yelling, hitting stuff. Got like 3 hours of sleep and had a super productive day, made some commitments, had mental clarity about a few important things (like signing up to volunteer).
Last night committed to 3 drinks at the bar dancing (actually had 2.5, and delayed them quite a lot as I felt so good starting out right after a cold shower) and instead of crushing the remaining 9 beers at home I stopped at 5, and didn't even save a hangover beer for myself the next morning. I poured them all out. I TRIED to whip myself into a frenzy again, had caffeine, even smelling salts. But it got old and I went to sleep. As any tired, healthy person would.
Then, of all things, this afternoon I started to watch porn, stopped when I realized I could save money by not, and then rationalized I would feel tired and not want to wash up afterward, so I stopped.
Anyway I am just mulling this over constantly, wondering how I got messed up (seems simple enough in one sense, my family was just a miserable sober version of white knuckle sobriety and I was never allowed to relax or be myself, so I felt like shit and first extreme busyness/athletics and then porn then alcohol filled the void) and how to fix it.
Anyway. Anyone else depressed before they drank? How'd you fix each problem?

Unsent letter:
Anonymous Letter To the Dismissive Avoidant:
Dear ALARM CLOCKING,
How can you possibly accept, be ok with and be righteous in your decision to lie to someone who gave you his everything? To deceive someone who gave you his all placing himself second to you and to take advantage of someone who survived cancer. How?
How can you possibly have a clear conscious when you deceived someone, never allowing them to know all of your truth that you kept to yourself for how long?
How can you possibly feel you were transparent when you were evasive, dismissive, and avoided almost all conversation the one time you allowed a post break up conversation in person. You answered about 6% of my questions and beat around the bush with everything. I treated you like a Queen! I treated you like there truly was no other and I treated you the way a man is supposed to love a woman. Not the pussy coward rapist way your sociopathic child abusing ex husband treated you! I never once swore, spoke ill, raised my voice, gas lit, deceived, cheated, lied to or harmed you in any remote way. I did the complete opposite , black and white opposite that your child abusing sociopathic piece of fucking inbred scum ex husband did to you, and you still wouldn’t grant me honour and respect.
How can you avoid someone who gave you his everything, everything from his heart. Someone who never lied to you! Someone who never broke your trust! Someone who gave you his word like a man is supposed to and kept his word, even to this day! How can you avoid someone who did none of the terrible things your evil child abusing ex husband did, you know your ex husband the rapist? How can you abandon someone who was nothing but kind to you. Who was always available when you needed anything. Someone who would drop everything to come to your needs. Someone who not only accepted your children unconditionally, but truly wanted to be a family with them because I love them, I still love them no less, no different. You stole that from me and to this day I still do not understand why?
How can you look at yourself in the mirror on any given day knowing you lied to and deceived someone who fought for you everyday, all while keeping his fight to recover to himself because he always wanted to put you first. And this was crystal clear.
How can you not know the devastating effects, the deep pain that will not leave and the broken pieces you created by giving no warning. How can you be ok with this? How can you do what you did to someone who survived cancer just to fall in love with you and with the hope of a life after the fight of his life.
How can you not understand how much I love you children. You took them with no notice. Your only boundaries have been silence. Silence to what seems like a life time worth of giving, doing, loving, wanting to protect you, wanting to make you feel like there was a life after the evil destruction caused by your child abusing sociopathic ex husband.
How can you look in the mirror knowing that you did not even try to provide an honorable farewell, a Honest good bye!
How can you be ok doing this to someone who gave you his everything, when he almost lost his everything? How can you do this knowing he loved you the way I loved you. How can you do this knowing and watching and being told with no room for misunderstanding that he wanted to be a family with you! A real family! When he wanted to give you a life that is only fucking dreamed of by most.
Why did you want to hurt me B why? Why have you conducted yourself in a way that sends one message….. “you mean nothing”
Do you have any idea how badly you have hurt me, not because you left, but because how you did it……
You lied to me. You deceived me and you turned your back and pulled your children away.
Do you have any idea at all how it feels to be hurt this way? Do you think about anything other than yourself? How can you possibly look yourself in the mirror? How can you possible sleep at night knowing after bringing me into your family, watching me get attached to everyone, becoming invested, making plans, talking about a future creating something most people wish for on a daily basis, just for you to burn it down and know I stood by the fire, with no water, no way of extinguishing the flames only to be burned beyond recognition inside…..Burned!
And you dare say I destroyed any chance of us being friends when you know you burned down these dreams. When you took your children, who I love and miss every single day.. you took them with no explanation. When you lied to me, deceived me! Nothing about what you did has been rational, nothing!
You have never even looked back, not ONCE to ask me, “are you ok”, not ONCE. After I drove out to see your children at Christmas, the only part of Christmas that did not feel like I was cast to hell because I wasn’t with my family at Christmas. I could literally only feed my dogs on Christmas, it was all I could bring myself to do alone, because I was so fucking devastated, so fucking broken I couldn’t eat. Why do you think I lost 40 lbs! yet I told your daughter I did it for her, that she helped me be strong, and I said this selflessly because I knew she was suffering and I wanted to do and say anything that would give her some kind of boost. You watched all of this, you saw everything and you just stared, with no emotion, no expression. Do you fucking know what it took me to show up to your home, without breaking down! To put on a smile for your children and create a happy normal Christmas experience knowing that you fucking broke me inside and turned your back on me. And you dare say I burned our chance of friendship when I am the ONLY one who has made any kind of effort, the only effort. How the fuck can you look at yourself in the mirror ,how!??
You have never even asked, not once knowing I had cancer. “Are you ok”?????
Who the fuck are you? What has happened?
How is it possible for you, of all people, of all people to be ok with hurting someone the way you have and then be a victim because this person was fucking broken by your actions trying to reach you after being completely blindsided, BLINDSIDED. You communicated nothing! NOTHING! You asked for no boundaries, nothing!
The only thing you have done is dismiss me at every opportunity which is no different than spitting in my face! After I gave you my everything, and you fucking know this, you know I did B!
but you think hiding from the reality of what was and what happened will save you, give you your fresh start?
The only thing you did was teach someone who fought to find truth and innocence in life after fighting cancer, that you can be Cruel. This is the message you have sent me.
After going to the mountains on a trip that meant the entire world to me! The entire world …..not because it was my birthday, but because you were at my side. Because you were with me each night and every morning, and because I watched your hair move, your smile and I watched you walk with the mountains in the horizon. Something only dreams are made of because when a real human being devotes his everything to a woman to love her the way a man is supposed to, unlike that fucking no good maggot inbred piece of fucking low-grade shit ex husband of yours……
the woman who I fell in love with, the woman I devoted my everything to, my heart, my complete heart to and the woman who I adored like no other, could and can be Cruel.
Why did you want to hurt me B, why?

Hello funky people in my phone! I’m here today to once again ask for one of you to buy me the hit game Pizza Tower!
Pizza Tower is a game that has been blowing up le’ internet for the past month or so, and after doing extensive research on the game and playing the sage 2019 demo, I’ve come to the conclusion it’s a game that I really want to play. But in case you haven’t heard of it (I don’t know how) let me give you a brief rundown
Pizza Tower is a game about an Italian stereotype named Peppino Spaghetti. One day, while sitting in his pizza restaurant, a sentient floating pizza named Pizza Face comes to him and threatens to blow up his restaurant. So, to save his parlor from annihilation, he scales the titular pizza tower to stop Pizza Face.
The game is fast paced and meant for speed, hilarious, looks like it was drawn entirely in MS Paint (but in a good way), and takes inspiration from the Warioland games.
To end this off I just want to say, if one of you does decide to buy it for me, I will be very grateful and happy.
Me: https://steamcommunity.com/id/whydidsteamletmemakeacustomurl/
Game: https://store.steampowered.com/app/2231450/Pizza_Towe

Sooooo my bf has a 7 year old son & we have been together for about 2 years now and just started living together a few months ago, but I have been around his son since about 6 months in. We have his son Friday-Monday every week. My bf works every Saturday so on Saturdays it’s me and the 7 year old just hanging out usually all day till his dad gets home. We usually sleep in cuz we are feeling lazy or we have a little morning coffee date (obviously the kid doesn’t get a coffee) and go to car shows in the area for a bit because I know he likes cars. then we will come home and chill out the rest of the day. He is soooo well behaved with me every time, no matter what. Listens the first time I tell him. We talk a lot too, he’s very curious always asking questions and he’s hyper like any typical kid but he like tones it down a bit with me I guess?? and we have a good time!! But then the SECOND his dad gets home, this little boy just like totally flips into a whole new person every time!! (I also have other random times not just Saturdays if dad is working late on Friday I will pick him up from school etc.) Starts misbehaving, not listening at all, will throw temper tantrums over silly things, won’t sleep in his own bed some nights, just being super extra hyper for no reason &&& I just don’t get it! Why does he behave so good with me but then not when his dad is around? Is it me? Is it his dad? I don’t have kids so this is new for me. I love this little boy to death like he’s my own and his dad, we have tabbled into the getting married talk but In no rush for either of us because he’s been divorced once already & I am still a college student aboht to graduate!! But I’m just curious. his dad is great I’m very observant of his parenting and how he speaks to his son. Idk! I could just use some others thoughts on why the 7 year old might be like this!!

SUNDAY FEBRUARY 2ND, 2020
2.2.2020
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CHAPTER TWENTY: NAOV AND NANO VIBRONIX
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I JUST REMEMBERED, E-TRADE HAS AN OPTION TO IMPORT OTHER E-TRADE ACCOUNTS. I WILL FIND OUT. I WILL THEN BE ABLE TO, PURCHASE SHARES AND SEND THE PORTFOLIO TO A LOVED ONE. THEREFORE I CAN BUILD PORTFOLIOS AS QUICKLY AS I NEED TO. EACH ACCOUNT WILL HAVE A BENEFICIARY. YET AND STILL, WE YEARN FOR NOTHING BUT SUCCESS, IN OUR ENDEAVORS. IF I GIVE UP THE PERSONAL LIFE, FOR ANOTHER DECADE, WHAT HAPPENS? MAYBE FIVE YEARS. I DON'T KNOW THE FULL SPECS OF MY OWN FATE. SO, THIS JUST DOES NOTHING MORE THAN INSPIRE ME TO GO WAY HARDER THEN. I DO NOT KNOW WHEN THIS IS ALL GOING TO END, SO LET'S JUST BEGIN TO GO AS HARD AS WE CAN WHEN WE GO, UNTIL THE END.
MY ENTIRE JOURNEY UP TO NEW YORK, I WAS SURROUNDED BY FAMILY. BEING BLESSED TO BE HERE AND STILL PURSUING THE DREAMS, I MUST MAKE SURE MY FAMILY IS FINANCIALLY SECURE FOR THE BLOODLINE'S LIFETIME. MAKING A BILLION DOLLARS BY YOURSELF IS EXHILARATING. ACTUALLY. I HAVE TO GO HARD IN THIS ENDEAVOR, DUE TO ONE SIMPLE FACT. NOT TOO MANY PEOPLE ARE PARTICIPATING IN THE START UP. ENOUGH PEOPLE HAVE THOUGH AND SO I WILL MAKE IT WORK. THIS HAS TO BE SO WEIRD FOR SOME, SOME MAY GET IT QUICKLY. SOME WILL GET IT INSTANTLY.
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PLEASE ALLOW ME, TO FURTHER PLACE YOU INTO THE STUDY DEN. THE DEN OF STUDY IS MAGNIFICENT. FOR EXAMPLE. URGENT ISSUE. THERE IS A LIST OF INDUSTRIES TO INVEST IN, UTILIZING THE STOCK MARKET. WE HAVE A FEW COMPANIES TOTAL, ON THE WATCHLIST. THEY ARE COMPRISED OF DIFFERENT INDUSTRIES AMONG COMPETING DUOS. WORKING TOGETHER TO PROFIT OUR PORTFOLIOS. NNVC IS A NANO TECHNOLOGY COMPANY. SMME AND NXT-ID ARE BIOMETRICS COMPANIES. I HAVE TO FIGURE OUT, WHAT INDUSTRY RVBR IS IN. TOMORROW, THE THIRD OF FEBRUARY, WE WILL HAVE THE FUNDS ON E-TRADE TO PURCHASE RVBR SHARES. $90 WORTH IN COMPANY STOCK. JASON'S $100 WILL BE USED FOR DOGECOIN AND SMME. $0.002 AND $0.012, RESPECTIVELY. 20,500 DOGECOIN IN JASON'S ACCOUNT. DO THAT THREE TIMES AND MATCH THE MAX AMOUNT OF DOGECOIN I HAD IN 2018, BEFORE TRADING CURRENCY. I HAVE TO GET THOSE DOGECOINS BACK. THEN MORE DOGECOIN. I HAD 500 RIPPLE XRP IN THE COINBASE. I HAVE TO MAKE UP FOR ALL OF MY 2018 ACCOUNTS.
ON ROBINHOOD, I WAS ABLE TO TYPE IN THE NAME OF THE INDUSTRIES. ROBINHOOD THEN SHOWED ME COMPANIES IN THE INDUSTRY. IF ROBINHOOD ONLY SHOWED ME THE COMPANIES WITH THE NAME OF THE INDUSTRY IN IT SOMEHOW, THEN DANG. BRA, WE HAVE TO LOCATE STOCKS RELATED TO AUTONOMOUS CARS. THE SELF DRIVING REVOLUTION. WE MUST BE A PART OF IT. I ALWAYS WANTED MY OWN DRIVER. EVERYONE KNOWS IT. I WOULD PAY THE DRIVER $100,000 YEARLY. THEIR RETIREMENT PORTFOLIO WOULD BE AMAZING. MY DRIVER WOULD'VE BEEN A BILLIONAIRE AT THE END OF IT ALL. THE CAREER. ON E-TRADE, I JUST COPIED AND PASTED THE ROBINHOOD STOCKS LOCATED. I WILL SEE IF THE E-TRADE SEARCH ENGINE IS LIKE OR BETTER THAN ROBINHOOD. ON GOOGLE, IT IS DIFFERENT TO FIND COMPANIES IN THE INDUSTRIES. PENNY STOCKS IN THE EMERGING INDUSTRIES. 5$. EVEN $20 IS WHATEVER. IT IS SUCH A RACE. THE RACE AGAINST THE PROJECTION TIME OF THESE INDUSTRIES.
AUTONOMOUS CARS, I NEED STOCKS IN FIVE G. 5G STOCKS MUST BE MINE. IT'S AN EASY KILL. GET IT? TECHNOLOGY MIGHT BE DANGEROUS. DANGEROUS TECHNOLOGY MIGHT BE USED AGAINST YOU ONE DAY. IMAGINE IF YOU INVESTED HUNDREDS OF DOLLARS INTO POTENTIALLY DANGEROUS TECHNOLOGY? POTENTIALLY DANGEROUS AS IN IF IT IS IN THE WRONG HANDS. ALWAYS REMEMBER, UNDERGROUND BUNKERS COST MONEY. THESE ARE TWO NEW INDUSTRIES, I HAD PUT ON THE LIST MENTALLY. THIS MAY BE THE FIRST TIME I AM MENTIONING THEM BOTH. I MAY HAVE MENTIONED FIVE G IN THIS VOLUME. I MAY HAVE ALREADY TOUCHED ON THE NOTE OF TECHNOLOGY POSSIBLY GROWING DANGEROUS. IT WOULD HAPPEN EVEN WITHOUT YOUR MONEY. GOOD REASON TO HAVE THE FUNDS FOR THE UNDERGROUND BUNKER. GOOD REASON TO HAVE FUNDS FOR THE FOREIGN TRIPS ABROAD. GOOD THING TO HAVE THE FUNDS FOR THE NEW HOUSES ABROAD. AFTER THIS CHAPTER, THE PROJECT IS TO RECORD US RESEARCHING FOR COMPANIES IN ALL OF THE INDUSTRIES. THIS WAY, WE ARE MORE PRIVY TO THE ACTUAL PRICES OF THE COMPANIES OFFERED ON THE PLATFORMS, IN THESE PARTICULAR INDUSTRIES.
IT IS A FULL ON RACE OF RESEARCH AND APPLICATION. ONLY CONSTANT APPLICATION OF CONSTANT RESEARCH, WILL GET THIS DONE. THIS IS WHY WE NEED TO HAVE A LIST OF COMPANIES IN EACH INDUSTRY, AVAILABLE ON THE PLATFORMS WE ARE USING TO HOLD THE COMPANY STOCKS. THIS IS MY LINGO. I FEEL FINANCIAL LITERACY, OOZING THRU THE VEINS. I'M ONLY BEGINNING. THANK GOD AND GOD WILLING. I WANTED TO DO A RECORDING, ABOUT IZZY. I WILL, WHILE RESEARCHING THE INDIVIDUAL COMPANIES, WITHIN EACH INDUSTRY. ONCE YOU FIND THE COMPANIES, YOU FIND THEIR COMPETITORS. ONCE YOU FIND THE COMPANIES, YOU FIND THE RELATED INDUSTRIES AS WELL. THIS IS ON MY MIND HEAVY. THIS IS THE ENTIRE HOMEWORK ASSIGNMENT. THE LESSON PLANS FOR CREATIVE FINANCIAL LEVERAGING, WOULD BE PRISTINE. THEY WOULD BE CLEAN. IN ALL OF THE STORIES I HAVE DONE, I FEEL REALLY EXCITED ABOUT THIS ONE. VOLUME ONE OF TWENTY FIVE.
I ONLY WANTED TO EXPLORE MY OWN MIND. I WANTED THE CONFIDENCE IN MY OWN CREATIVE FACULTIES, TO ATTAIN DESTINY. WHAT I AM WORKING ON, IS TOO VALUABLE, FOR A RECKLESSLY GUIDED SOCIAL LIFE TO STEER IT OFF COURSE. I WILL BE LONELY, IF I AM STAYING ON COURSE. IF I STAY ON COURSE LONG ENOUGH, I WON'T BE SO LONELY FOREVER. IF I STILL AM, THEN I WAS FOREVER ON COURSE. I PUT MY PERSONAL YEARNINGS ASIDE FOR YEILDINGS. FEELINGS AND YEILDINGS. YEARNINGS AND EARNINGS. THE LEARNINGS AND THE BURNINGS. BUILDING THE DREAM LIFE FOR MYSELF, HAS LEFT ME WITH NO PERSONAL LIFE. I AM CRAFTING MY TIME. BACK TO AUTONOMOUS CARS NOW. WE NEED TO KNOW WHAT COMPANIES ARE IN EACH INDUSTRY. WE CAN THEN CALCULATE MANY DOLLARS WE NEED FOR ONE HUNDRED TO ONE THOUSAND SHARES IN COMPANY STOCK. I JUST HAD TO ASK MYSELF, WHAT FONT IS THIS? THIS FONT IS EPIC. EPIC FONTS.
THE MORE STOCKS YOU FIND, IN THE INDUSTRY YOU ARE LOOKING IN, THE MORE STOCKS YOU CAN BUY, OF MORE COMPANIES, WITHIN THE INDUSTRY. OBSTACLES WILL COME OUR WAY. IT IS JUST THE UNIVERSE TESTING US. THIS IS WHAT WE WANT TO WORK ON, AFTER THIS CHAPTER, AFTER EATING FOR THE FIRST TIME TODAY. WE MIGHT WORK ON CHAPTER TWENTY ONE INSTEAD THOUGH. COME TO THINK ABOUT IT. WE ARE ALMOST DONE. WE STILL HAVE TO SPEND AN HOUR TRIMMING THE AUDIO FILES FOR THE WEEK. THEN SPEND ANOTHER HOUR UPLOADING ONE WEEK'S WORTH OF AUDIO FILES FROM CHADZO. "FROM CHADZO" MEANING THE AMOUNT OF WORK I PUT IN. INPUT OUTPUT. INPUT OUTPUT. IN PUT OUT PUT. PUT OUT PUT IN. PUTIN. RASPUTIN. RASPBERRY FREEZE 50X.
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KLAC KLA. TLRY TILRAY. INFY INFOSYS. CY CYPRESS SEMICONDUCTOR. NH NANT HEALTH. NVEC NVE. CTST CANNTRUST. 180 DEGREE CAPITAL. NAOV NANOVIBRONIX. BRKR BRUKER. ARWR ARROWHEAD PHARMACEUTICALS. CYBR CYBERARK. HACK. ETFMG PRIME CYBER SECURITY ETF. NOC NORTHROP GRUMMAN. RTN RATHEON. CIBR FIRST TRUST NASDAQ CYBERSECURITY ETF. AON AON. FTNT FORTINET. PFPT PROOFPOINT. BAH BOOZ ALLEN HAMILTON. FEYE. CACI CACI. RPD RAPID7. QLYS QUALYS. BOTZ GLOBAL X ROBOTICS AND ARTIFICIAL INTELLIGENCE. NIO NIO $3.75. QD QUDIAN $2.83. ASGN ASGN INCORPORATED. IRBO iSHARES ROBOTICS AND ARTIFICIAL INTELLIGENCE $26.97. UBOT DIREXION DAILY ROBOTICS, ARTIFICIAL INTELLIGENCE. ROBOT FIRST TRUST EXCHANGE TRADED FUND VI $34.89 KFRC KFORCE $37.00.
KRTX. GNUS $0.29. MU. NSIT. EPD $25.75. PEG. XBI . BIIB. IBB. ZBH. BMRN. ADPT $29.00. LABU $46.42. BLUE. BHVN $48.49. GILD $65.37. TMO. HON. A AGILENT. BDSI $5.25. GLW $26.81. PEAK $35.99. AMRN $18.55. ANPC $10.12. BIO. ITCI $22.41. CRNC $21.35. ANVS $6.45. NTRP $1.14. FEDU $1.23. $100.08 NBIX. ABBV. SYK. LLY. ABT. HCA. VRTX. EKSO BIONICS $0.36. SONVY $49.99. SPY. EEM $42.11. IWM. FXI $39.50. HYG. IVV. EFA $67.48. TLT. LQD. GDX $29.01. GHC. NWN $73.38. COMM $12.22. GPK $15.63. BKNG $1830.55. CRWD. SPCE $16.91. IQV $155.25. HLT. EQH $24.02. CCK CROWN HOLDINGS $74.03.
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TUESDAY FEBRUARY 4TH, 2020
2.4.2020
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CHAPTER TWENTY ONE: DOLLARS IN CAPITAL
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ON THE RIDE HOME A FEW HOURS AGO, I HAD A TERM COME TO ME, "FINANCIAL CONVERSION". THE "FC". TO FINANCIALLY CONVERT, IS TO HAVE A PLAN. TO FINANCIALLY CONVERT, IS TO HAVE A PRODUCT, SERVICE, OR INSTRUMENT. THE FINANCIAL CONVERSION WINS THE GAME. I'VE NEVER BEEN INTO BANKS WHEN IT COMES TO MY OWN MONEY. AT THE SAME TIME, SAVING MONEY WAS AN ISSUE FOR ME. I DIDN'T HAVE A REAL PLAN FOR SAVING. WE NEEDED A SAVINGS PLAN. NOW, WE CAN SEE, WHAT WE ARE DOING IS SAVING OUR CURRENCY IN OTHER CURRENCIES. WE ARE CONVERTING CURRENCY TO SECURITIES AND INSTRUMENTS. WE THROW OUR CURRENCY IN THE EQUITY MARKETS. THE MONEY MARKETS. WE SAVE OUR CURRENCY IN BONDS. BONDS OF ALL KINDS. BONDS OF ALL KINDS FOR OUR DIAPERS AND STROLLERS. I'VE NEVER PURCHASED A DIAPER IN MY LIFE. WE ARE FINANCIALLY CONVERTING THE DOLLARS INTO INTEREST BEARING VEHICLES. AT THIRTY YEARS OLD, IT IS ALL ABOUT INTEREST. WHAT INTERESTS ME? WHAT AM I INTERESTED IN? I AM INTERESTED IN EARNING INTEREST ON MY MONEY. EARNING INTEREST, INTERESTS ME. I FIND INTEREST ON COLLATERAL, INTERESTING. INTERESTING. AGAIN.
I WANT YOU TO BE AS WEALTHY AS I AM WHEN IT'S ALL OVER. ACQUISITION, DISTRIBUTION. DISTRIBUTE IMMEDIATELY, WHAT WAS JUST ACQUIRED. I HAVE THREE TO FIVE PEOPLE, READY TO BE SENT FUNDS FOR THEIR E-TRADE, ROBINHOOD, AND FREEWALLET ACCOUNTS. WHAT THIS MEANS IS, ONE HUNDRED DOLLARS TO EACH PERSON AT A TIME. EACH PERSON PURCHASES THE SAME STOCKS, IN DIFFERENT ORDERS. IN TOTAL, MY EARNINGS WILL GET HUNDREDS OF SHARES AT A TIME, IN DIFFERENT ACCOUNTS, ALONG WITH MINE. SO WHEN I LOOK AT MY OWN HOLDING ACCOUNTS, I'D HAVE TO REMEMBER I ACTUALLY HOLD WAY MORE. THE MAIN REASON YOU HAVE EVERYTHING DISTRIBUTED, IS TO MAKE SURE YOU KNOW YOUR LOVED ONES ARE GOOD FOREVER. YOU PURCHASED HOWEVER MANY SHARES IN TOTAL IN LIFE AS YOU WERE MEANT TO. IT WAS NECESSARY AND SO IT BECAME THE ULTIMATE GAME. I GAVE UP MY PERSONAL LIFE MY ENTIRE TWENTIES. I ISOLATED MYSELF ENOUGH TO UNLOCK MYSELF, TO MYSELF. ANYWAY, I NEED THE MAJORITY OF MY HOLDINGS ATTACHED TO BENEFICIARIES. THE PEOPLE I SEND MONEY TO FOR E-TRADE ARE BENEFICIARIES AS WELL. I WANT IT SET UP LIKE THAT RATHER THAN HAVING A LONG WILL. I WANT TO DROP MY FUNDS IN OTHER'S ACCOUNTS AND THAT IS MY WILL GIFT TO THEM WHEN I'M GONE. UNTIL THEN, WE USE THE MONEY FOR JOINT BUSINESS OPPORTUNITY.
NOW I CAN SEE THE SAVING OF MONEY AS VERY TRULY FUN. I AM OF ZEITGEIST ADDENDUM. AT 18. FRACTIONAL RESERVE SYSTEM ISN'T A NEW TERM TO ME AT ALL. I AM SAVING MY MONEY IN THE STOCK MARKET. I AM SAVING MONEY IN DIGITAL CURRENCY. I AM SAVING MY MONEY IN SAVINGS BONDS. BEARER BONDS. MUTUAL BONDS FUNDS. MUNICIPAL BONDS. CORPORATE BONDS. ZERO-COUPON BOND. SAVINGS. I WAS PERSONALLY WONDERING, WHO THE WINTER SOLSTICE WOULD BE. I WONDERED IF THE WINTER SOLSTICE WAS BIGGER THAN THE SUMMER'S. 2018 SUMMER SOLSTICE WAS A BIG GUY, BUT NEW. I WAS WONDERING WHY THEY DID THAT TO HIM AT THE VERY BEGINNING"? SINCE HE DIED RIPPLE NEVER CAME BACK UP. I SAY THAT TO SAY I STILL DIDN'T SEE THE WINTER SOLSTICE MARK OFF COMING. R.I.P. KOBE BRYANT. KOBE BRYANT DIED ONE MONTH AFTER THE 2019 WINTER SOLSTICE. AT THE VERY BEGINNING OF THE SECOND CAREER HE WAS PURSUING. IN THE MIDDLE OF A LEGAL DISPUTE WITH A PHARMA COMPANY OVER THE COPYRIGHT NAME OWNERSHIP OF "THE BLACK MAMBA".
AS LONG AS I CONTINUE TO THROW MONEY EVERY WEEK INTO MY STOCK AND CRYPTO HOLDINGS, I MEET MY GOAL. AS LONG AS I CONTINUE TO THROW MONEY EVERY WEEK INTO OTHER'S STOCK AND CRYPTO HOLDINGS, WE MEET OUR GOALS. I MEET ANOTHER ONE OF MY GOALS AS WELL. IT IS MY GOAL TO BE THAT GUY. I WAS THAT GUY. WHO WAS THAT GUY? THAT GUY WAS CHAD. THE WATCHLIST GROWS LONGER. YOU HAVE THE WATCHLIST HERE. I WILL UPDATE THE PRICES ON NEW PAPER IN HERE, RIGHT BEFORE IT'S DONE, EVERY VOLUME. THUS A TIME TABLE OF THE WATCHLIST. VOLUME TWO IS FOUR SESSIONS AWAY. FOUR WRITING SESSION HOURS AWAY. SOON WE WILL START AN AUDIO VERSION IMPROMPTU. FOR EVERY COMPANY ON THE WATCHLIST, WE NEED THE COMPETING COMPANY NAMES. FOR EVERY INDUSTRY, WE NEED RELATED INDUSTRIES. MANY OF OUR INDUSTRIES ON THE LIST ARE RELATED, WEIRDLY. NOW THERE'S THIS ENTHUSIASM TOWARDS SAVING. I VALUED SPENDING OVER SAVING, WHEN I WAS COMPLETELY FINANCIALLY ILLITERATE. NOW I AM CLOSER TO FINANCIAL LITERACY AT LEAST AND I AM DISGUSTED WITH THE THOUGHT OF AVID CONSUMPTION OF ANYTHING BUT STOCKS. FORGIVE ME. THROWING IN THREE HUNDRED UNITS OF CURRENCY INTO INVESTMENTS WEEKLY. TEN THOUSAND YEARLY INVESTED. SAVED IN DIFFERENT FINANCIAL INSTRUMENTS. PREP REDUCES RISK SO ANY WHO FEARS THE RISK ALSO FEARS THE PREPARATION. I AM PREPARED YET STILL PREPARING TO BE INVOLVED IN MORE PREPARATION.
THIS AFTERNOON, RIGHT BEFORE THE RIDE PICKED ME UP FOR WORK, I PLACED A BUY LIMIT FOR RVBR ON E-TRADE. THAT MEANS AFTER SETTING THE LIMIT TO UNDER WHAT THE PRICE WAS, I REALIZED THE ORDER WOULDN'T TRIGGER. THE AMOUNT OF SHARES IN RVBR I WOULD GET FOR $90 IS 9,000. FIVE HUNDRED DOLLARS IN RVBR RIGHT NOW IS RIGHT UNDER 50,000 SHARES. EEL. DISGUSTING. I'M GOING TO DO THAT. SPLIT THE FIRST $500 BETWEEN ANYONE ELSE INVOLVED. IT'S NOT A LOT OF PEOPLE. A FEW PEOPLE, ARE COMING WITH ME TO AN EARLY RETIREMENT AND A BILLION DOLLAR NEST EGG. INHERITANCES THROWN AROUND. THE PEOPLE I CARE ABOUT WILL HAVE THEIR PORTFOLIOS, HOW I HAVE MINE. I WILL BE DUPLICATING THE PORTFOLIO. FUNDING THE DUPLICATION OF THE PORTFOLIO. CREATING BILLIONS OF DOLLARS IN CAPITAL FOR ALL INVOLVED.
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2.4.2020
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CHAPTER TWENTY TWO: WELL I GUESS I JUST CAN'T CALL IT THEN
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I AM BACK IN THE GROOVE WITH MY WRITING. I AM BACK TO PRODUCING ONE PUBLICATION VOLUME PER MONTH. I AM WRITING NEW MATERIAL. I AM WRITING IN A NEW GENRE. THE NON FICTION GENRE. SOMEHOW I AM ADDING ENOUGH CREATIVITY TO THIS, PROJECT AS THE UNDERTAKING. I AM UNDERTAKING THIS PROJECT. I AM PLANNING TO INCLUDE AS MUCH CREATIVITY AND VERSATILITY AS POSSIBLE, INTO THIS PIECE OF ART WORK. THIS IS A CREATIVE WORK OF ART. I AM A CREATIVE. I AM AN ARTIST. I REPRESENT THE ARTIST. MY CREATIVE PORTFOLIO WAS CREATED SOLELY TO PROVE MY ARTISTRY TO MYSELF. I HAVE PROVED MY ARTISTRY TO MYSELF YEARS AGO. I AM DAVID CRICHTON CERTIFIED. NOW WE ARE VANESSA STALLONE CERTIFIED. VANESSA STALLONE AND DAVID CRICHTON ARE TWO DIFFERENT PORTFOLIOS. DAVID CRICHTON WAS CREATED BY 25 YEAR OLD CHAD XZAVIERFILMS. VANESSA STALLONE IS FOR VANESSA HONEY MALONE. I INTRODUCED THE PEN NAME IN 2017 AT 27. AT 30, IN 2020, VANESSA STALLONE IS THE PEN NAME. DAVID CRICHTON WON'T BE ON THE COVER AS AUTHOR, ONLY SUBJECT. VANESSA STALLONE WILL WRITE BOOKS ABOUT DAVID CRICHTON'S PORTFOLIO. VANESSA STALLONE REPRESENTS THE MIND OF THIRTY YEAR OLD CHAD. HERE IS THE CHADFILMS TIMELINE.
12 YEARS OLD IN MIAMI FLORIDA, FIRST SHORT FILM. 6 OR 12 MINS. TOOK TWELVE HOURS TO FILM. ONE DECADE LATER. VALENTINE'S DAY 2012. ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY OF KEVITV AND SEEXZAVIERFILMS YOUTUBE. 2012 OCTOBER 23RD, VANESSA MALONE WAS MURDERED AT AGE 18. I REACHED MY YOUTUBE GOAL OF 50 VIDEOS. TOOK SIX MONTHS. SIX MONTHS BEFORE THE YOUTUBE CHANNEL AND CAMERA, I WAS WRITING SCRIPTS FOR THE FIRST TIME. "IN YOUR DREAMS" IS THE MAIN ONE I REMEMBER AND STILL HAVE. I PUBLISHED A FEW BOOKS, TWO MAYBE THREE BETWEEN 18-20. WHEN I FIRST REALIZED THIS IS WHAT I WANTED TO PURSUE AS A CAREER, MY PASSION. THREE YEARS LATER, 2015, DAVID CRICHTON PORTFOLIO IS STARTED. "THE PHONE GIRL" "CFK" AND "CLEVERLAND AND CLEVER FIELD" WERE WRITTEN. "CLEVERLAND" IS THE FIRST 2016 PUBLICATION. "THE PRINCE WHO KNEW TOO MUCH" BOTH PARTS, WERE THE LAST PUBLISHED PROJECTS IN 2016. YOU PUBLISHED EVERYTHING WRITTEN FROM 2015 AND PUBLISHED YOUR FIRST NOVEL NOT RHYMING. THE PREVIOUS STATED NOVELS WERE VERSE NOVELS. 600 PAGES OF RHYME. TWICE. VOLUME THREE OF THE ULTIMATE CRICHTON COLLECTION CONTAINS THE FIRST PROSE. I DID FIND WRITING FROM 2010-2015 AND I ADDED IT IN THE VOLUMES OF TWO AND THREE.
THAT'S A QUICK, ONE PARAGRAPH RUN DOWN OF MY CREATIVE ENDEAVORS IN MY TWENTIES. NOW SINCE I HAVE EXPLORED ALL OF THE DIFFERENT PASSIONS I'VE DISCOVERED FROM WITHIN, DURING MY TWENTIES, I CAN NOW REALIZE I HAVE TO FUND THOSE ENDEAVORS MYSELF. THIS IS WHY I AM DELVING INTO THE FINANCIAL WORLD OF INVESTMENTS, SO HEAD FIRST. I WANT TO GIVE A SPECIAL THANK YOU TO GOD. I WANT TO GIVE GOD ALL OF THE GLORY. I USED THE LONELINESS TO SPARK AN ECONOMICAL REVOLUTION OF MY VERY OWN, POSSIBLY. SINCE I KNOW I MUST LEAVE THE ACQUIRED BILLIONS DISTRIBUTED. HOW MANY FUTURE BILLIONAIRES CAN THE PLAN BE DISTRIBUTED TO? WITH THE PUBLICATION ALONE, FOR PEOPLE I MAY NEVER MEET AND THUS BE ABLE TO HELP THEM IN PERSON ON PURPOSE. SO NOW, ON PURPOSE, I AM HERE FOR YOU. IF I WASN'T A NOBODY THEY MIGHT TRY TO KILL ME SO I AM VERY GLAD TO STILL BE A NOBODY. I'M ACTUALLY SOMEBODY VERY SPECIAL. R.I.P. TO FLIGHT KOBE.
WITH THE ROBINHOOD WATCHLIST INCREASED IN SIZE, THE E-TRADE WATCHLIST MUST BE INCREASED WITH THE SAME SYMBOLS AS WELL AS SYMBOLS NOT FOUND ON ROBINHOOD. WITH THE WATCHLIST BEING AIMED TO CONTAIN ONE HUNDRED COMPANIES, YOU AIM TO THROW IN $100 INTO EACH COMPANY, EACH TIME AROUND, IN EACH ACCOUNT, FOR EACH PERSON YOU ARE WORKING ALONGSIDE WITH. THIS MEANS YOU WILL NOT ONLY HAVE STOCK IN NANO TECHNOLOGY, YOU WILL HAVE VARIOUS COMPANY STOCK FROM WITHIN THE NANO TECHNOLOGY SECTOR AS A WHOLE. WE DIDN'T INVEST IN ONE NANO TECHNOLOGY COMPANY FOR SOME RANDOM REASON. THE ONLY REASON THE COMPANY IS ON OUR WATCHLIST, IS DUE TO THE FACT IT IS IN FACT, A NANO TECHNOLOGY COMPANY. IT IS THE ENTIRE SECTOR WE ARE LOOKING AT. BY LOOKING AT THE ENTIRE SECTOR AS A WHOLE, YOU ARE NOW IN OBSERVATION OF THE RANGE OF THE PRICES IN THE NANO TECHNOLOGY SECTOR OF THE STOCK MARKET. SO YOU CAN SAY, "HEY THE LOWEST NANO COMPANY IS THREE PENNIES AND THE HIGHEST $300". NOW YOU KNOW THE NANO TECHNOLOGY SECTOR IS NOW AT THREE PENNIES TO THREE HUNDRED DOLLARS.
I AM LAUNCHING A SCIENCE EXPERIMENT. THIS PUBLICATION IS MY DOCUMENTATION OF THE SCIENCE PROJECT. THIS SCIENCE PROJECT IS PERTAINING TO CHAD SCIENCE AND CHAD MATH. THIS IS THE PRODUCTION DIARY OF THE SCIENCE PROJECT. THE VARIABLES, THE CONTROLS, THE HYPOTHESIS, THE STATEMENT, THE EXPERIMENT. MAKE AN OBSERVATION. ASK A QUESTION. FORM A HYPOTHESIS, OR TESTABLE EXPLANATION. MAKE A PREDICTION BASED ON THE HYPOTHESIS. TEST THE PREDICTION. USE THE RESULTS IN MAKING NEW HYPOTHESES OR PREDICTIONS. THE SCIENTIFIC METHOD. THANK YOU GOOGLE. ONE HUNDRED YEARS AGO, $110 WAS WORTH $1500 PLUS. ONE HUNDRED YEARS FROM FIFTH TEEN YEARS FROM NOW, 2035, 1935 WOULD HAVE SEEN $110 AS REALLY $2000. THAT'S CALLED INFLATION HOME BOY. THE FEDERAL RESERVE ACT WAS SIGNED DURING CHRISTMAS HOLIDAY, WHEN THE SENATE WAS ON LEAVE. THE GOLD STANDARD HAS BEEN GONE FOR 100 YEARS, SINCE 2013. THE 100 YEAR ANNIVERSARY OF WHAT PRESIDENT WILSON DID TO FIAT CURRENCY, POSSIBLY CREATING FIAT CURRENCY. I MAY DEDICATE A VOLUME OF THIS SERIES TO THE HISTORY OF ALL CURRENCY AND AMERICAN FIAT CURRENCY, TO BETTER GRIP THE REALITY OF WHY I AM SAYING WHAT I AM SAYING.
CERTAIN THINGS I DON'T WANT TO SAY RIGHT NOW, I WILL PUT THEM IN THEIR OWN CHAPTER OR VOLUME GOD WILLING. TRUST ME WHEN I SAY, THE UN INVESTED AMERICAN DOLLAR WILL ALWAYS BE THE BIGGEST LAUGH YOU HAVE TO GIVE. OR TO SHARE. I'M STARTING TO THINK MORE AND MORE NOW ABOUT THE STOCK WATCHLIST FOR IT IS GROWING SO LONG. IN THESE EMERGING MARKETS IS WHERE THE WATCHLIST ORIGINATES FROM. THE WATCHLIST FULL OF EMERGING MARKETS. WE ARE WATCHING THE UNFOLDING OF TECH HISTORY. AT THIS POINT, THE DIRECT HOMEWORK ASSIGNMENT FOR THE STOCK HOLDING, IS TO FIND MORE COMPANIES IN THE INDUSTRY. INVEST $100 IN EACH COMPANY, IN YOUR PORTFOLIO AND FOR YOUR LOVED ONES AND BUSINESS PARTNERS. REALLY CAPITALIZE ON YOUR INSIGHT. YOU MIGHT JUST MAKE ALL OF THE BILLIONS YOU WERE WANTING TO INVEST IN THE U.C.A. THE UNITED CITIZENS OF AMERICA. VARSITY SAYS I CAN'T CALL IT THAT.
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3:37AM EST - 4:38AM EST
FEBRUARY 5TH, 2020
2.5.2020
CANADIAN MOLSON TIMES TWO.
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CHAPTER TWENTY THREE: TON TRAY
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THIS PROJECT IS TWO CHAPTERS FROM COMPLETION. VOLUME ONE, "THE PERSON OF NUMBERS." A PERSON OF NUMBERS. HOPEFULLY ONE DAY YOU WILL BE THE PERSON OF NUMBERS. IT IS ALL UP TO YOU HOWEVER. I DID MY PART. DID YOU SEE IT? DO YOU SEE IT? ARE YOU SEEING IT? AND ARE YOU SEEING IT FOR WHAT IT IS WORTH? IF YOU ARE, YOU ARE GOING TO BE WEALTHY. FILTHY STINKING WEALTHY, YOU ARE GOING TO SEE YOURSELF AS. I AM YOUR BEST FRIEND. WHEN THEY ASK YOU, WHO IS YOUR BEST FRIEND, CHAD XZAVIER BUFFETT FILMS. BUFFET FILMS. I MAY NEVER KNOW HOW MUCH OF AN IMPACT I MADE. THAT DOESN'T MATTER. I SMOKED BEFORE ALMOST EVERY PAGE, AND GOT IT DONE. I LIVED A BORING ROUTINE BY OTHER'S STANDARDS. THE LIFE I AM CREATING FOR MYSELF, IS STAGGERING. STAGGERING AMOUNTS OF CURRENCY. I AM THE SPIRIT, ON THE MISSION. I FIGHT ON GOD'S ARMY. IF I DIE ON BATTLEFIELD SPIRIT WARFARE, THEN I WILL GO HOME. I FELT OUT OF PLACE HERE. I FELT MEANT TO BE HERE. I WAS OUT OF PLACE. I WAS NOT HOWEVER, OUT OF SYNC.
I HAVE THREE HUNDRED DOLLARS. TWO HUNDRED CAN GO INTO INVESTING IN STOCKS AND CRYPTO. MEDICAL HEALTH COMPANIES. IS INFORMATION LIKE THIS, NOT SO COMPILED? VOLUME ONE IS ALMOST OVER. I LOOK FORWARD TO STARTING VOLUME TWO. I AM GRATEFUL I AM UNKNOWN. I AM GRATEFUL, I AM A NOBODY IN THE MEDIA. FAME IS ONLY USEFUL AFTER LIFE. DURING LIFE, PRIVACY. SECRECY. SERENITY. PEACE. BLISS. ANONYMITY. LIVE YOUR LIFE DOING SOMETHING WORTHWHILE AS QUIETLY AS POSSIBLE. DOCUMENT IT ALL. I WANTED TO MAKE FILMS RIGHT? I HAVE 4000 GBS OF RAW FOOTAGE. I CAN MAKE MY FIRST FILMS WITH THIS. I MUST DO THIS. I AM THIRTY. I STARTED AT 20. 21 I HAD A CAMERA. I APPRECIATE GOD FOR EVERY MOMENT. I DIDN'T SPEND MY LIFE PURSUING SEX. I PRAY GOD WILL BLESS ME WITH WHAT I AM AFTER. MY MOTIVATIONS ARE PAINFUL. I'M ACTUALLY MOTIVATED BY A DEEP AND UNRELENTING SENSE OF JUST NOT FEEL APPRECIATED. THUS I STRIVE FOR ENOUGH TO WARRANT APPRECIATION. I HEAR GREAT THINGS. I FEEL GREAT PAIN. HATE TO MENTION IT. IT IS SAFE TO SAY.
THREE HUNDRED DOLLARS MUST GET INVESTED INTO SECURITIES AND INSTRUMENTS. THE SCIENTIFIC METHOD CALLS FOR OBSERVATION. I OBSERVE EMERGING MARKET TRENDS IN THE NASDAQ. WHAT DO YOU KNOW ABOUT THE NASDAQ? I ONLY KNOW THREE THINGS ABOUT THE NASDAQ. THE PRICES GO UP. THE PRICES GO DOWN. IF YOU WENT IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION, YOU GET PAID. THAT'S ONLY INCLUDING TRADING. HOLDING IS EASIER MONEY AND LONGER MONEY LONGER TERM. TRADING IS LONG TERM MONEY IN MONTHS. WHEN MASTERED. HAVEN'T MASTERED IT YET, WON'T SPEAK TOO MUCH OF IT. FOR YOU, YOUR FORT MUST BE BUILT IN YOUR HOLDINGS. YOU MUST HOLD YOUR WAY TO A MILLION DOLLARS. I DO NOT HAVE A MILLION DOLLARS. LISTEN. THE MILLION IS THE STEPPING STONE. THE STEPPING STONE TO TEN BILLION DOLLARS. I AM INSANE. I DO NOT HAVE REMORSE ON MY INVESTMENTS. I INVEST WITH NO SHAME. I INVEST FOR MY OWN SAKE. I INVEST FOR MY OWN PEACE OF MIND. PEACE OF MIND IS SACRED TO ME. PERIOD. THREE PERIODS. ONE SEASON. NAH. I WAS SENT HERE ON A MISSION. THIS IS WHAT DROVE ME. IN RETROSPECT.
THREE HUNDRED DOLLARS. TWO HUNDRED INVESTED. SENDING IT TO EITHER MY ACCOUNTS, OR OTHER'S ACCOUNTS. BOTH ACTUALLY. REALLY DETERMINING THE OTHER PERSON'S OR PEOPLE'S ACCOUNTS WHOM WILL GET THE FUNDS THIS ROUND. BY INVESTING HUNDREDS OF DOLLARS PER WEEK INTO THE STOCK MARKET, IN EMERGING INDUSTRIES, THE POTENTIAL OF EARNING MILLIONS IN A DECADE IS TOO REACHABLE ACTUALLY. HERE'S A SCARY QUESTION FOR A SQUARE TO ASK. WHEN I SAY SQUARE, I MEAN UNIT. DOES INVESTING IN TEN OR MORE FUTURE ONE HUNDRED AND TEN BILLION DOLLAR INDUSTRIES, CLASSIFY ME AS THE NEW ELITE? IF I EVER BRING THE PAPARAZZI MY WAY, I AM PLAYING STUPID. EVEN IF THEY HAD THIS PUBLICATION, AT THAT MOMENT. PLAIN STUPID. LAUGHS. I WRITE SCRIPTS. I JUST WANTED TO MAKE MOVIES. SYRACUSE HAS A FILM FESTIVAL IN OCTOBER. ENOUGH TIME, MORE THAN, TO GET A ONE HOUR DOCUMENTARY READY. THIRTY YEAR OLD CHAD FILMS MUST GO BACK ON YOUTUBE. EDITING UNRELEASED FOOTAGE. FILMING NEW FOOTAGE AND EDITING INVESTING VIDEOS.
I KEEP ATTEMPTING TO EXPLAIN THE THREE HUNDRED DOLLARS SITUATION. I HAVE TWO HUNDRED DOLLARS. THE DOLLARS ARE READY TO BE INVESTED. I AM GOING TO EXPLOIT MY OWN INSIGHT. MY BROTHER JUSTIN TOLD ME I NEEDED TO EXPLOIT MYSELF. NOW I WILL EXPLOIT MY OWN INSIGHT, INTO THE WORLD OF FINANCIAL INSTRUMENTS. I WILL LEAVE MYSELF, STRANDED, IN THE WORLD OF INVESTMENTS. IT WILL BE UP TO MERIT IF I MAKE IT OUT ALIVE. I THINK ABOUT BUYING BONDS FOR QQ, QUAN AND MALIAH. ATIYANNA. I'VE ONLY SEEN YOU ONCE. YOU'LL NEVER REMEMBER THAT. I COULD SEE FROM YOUR FACE, YOU RECOGNIZED I LOOKED LIKE YOUR DAD. I COULD SEE I LOOKED FAMILIAR YET YOU HAVE NEVER SAW ME BEFORE THEN. I'M JUST GRATEFUL I WAS BORN AND SURVIVED BIRTH. I AM GRATEFUL I SURVIVED CHILDHOOD. I AM GRATEFUL I SURVIVED YOUNG ADULTHOOD. I AM GRATEFUL I SURVIVED ADULT HOOD. I AM GRATEFUL I LIVED TO BE 80 PLUS YEARS OLD. JUST WISHING THOUGHTS HERE PEOPLE. THIS IS NOT A FIVE PARAGRAPH ESSAY. THIS IS FIVE PARAGRAPHS HOWEVER. FIVE PARAGRAPHS, OF ME, TELLING YOU, FINANCIAL LITERACY IS HOW YOU GET PAID. IF YOU ARE PAID, THEN YOU ARE LAID. UNDER THE SHADE. DOUBLE IN TON TAY. AYE.
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2.6.2020
2:45AM EST - 2:36AM EST
THURSDAY FEBRUARY 6TH, 2020
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CHAPTER TWENTY FOUR: RED CAT WINE
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THREE MORE SESSIONS LEFT AS OF NOW. STILL WONDERING WHAT TO TITLE THE SAGA. THIS VOLUME IS VOLUME ONE. VOLUME ONE IS THE PERSON OF NUMBERS. MAYBE EVERY VOLUME WILL HAVE A VERSE NOVEL SUCCEEDING IT. "WHILE AMERICA SLEPT", MAY BE THE SAGA TITLE. "WHY AMERICA SLEPT", MAY BE THE SAGA TITLE. WE ARE NOT YET SURE WHAT VOLUME TWO WILL COME OUT AS. VOLUME ONE IS NOT YET COMPLETE. ALMOST. HOW WAS IT? HOW IS VOLUME ONE OF WHY OR WHILE AMERICA SLEPT? ALLOW ME TO DISSERTATE WHY, I HAVE THOSE TWO OPTIONS MENTALLY HIGHLIGHTED. "WHY ENGLAND SLEPT", IS A PUBLICATION PUBLISHED BY JOHN F. KENNEDY SR. IN 1940. "WHY ENGLAND SLEPT" IS A REFERENCE TO WINSTON CHURCHILL'S PUBLICATION. "WHILE ENGLAND SLEPT" WAS PUBLISHED IN 1938. IF I TITLE THE SAGA "WHILE ENGLAND SLEPT", IT IS THE SECOND REFERENCE TO THE ORIGINAL. "WHY AMERICA SLEPT", WOULD BE THE FIRST REFERENCE TO THE ORIGINAL.
INDENTATION. NEXT VOLUME I MAY RHYME. EVERY OTHER VOLUME MAY BE A VERSE NOVEL. BOTH TITLES WILL BE REFERENCED THRU OUT THIS SAGA. BOTH TITLES WILL HAVE THEIR OWN VOLUME REFERENCED. WE AIM TO SHOW THE CREATIVE VERSATILITY IN THIS SAGA. THIS SAGA WILL SHOW TWO CONCEPTS. I WRITE. I CAN WRITE ECONOMIC STRATEGY. HOLY BUSINESS. MAYBE BUSINESS IS PERSONAL. DO NOT PERSONS ENGAGE IN BUSINESS? OR IS BUSINESS JUST WARFARE? IF BUSINESS IS JUST WARFARE, CONDUCT FINANCIAL LEVERAGING PRIVATELY AND AVOID ALL CASUALTIES. GET PAID. THEN GET LAID IN THE SHADE. AS IN LAYING DOWN IN THE SHADE. LITERALLY. MAKING A BILLION DOLLARS WAS NOT EASY. IT WAS FUN FOR IT WASN'T AN EASY TASK. YET I AM THE MAD MAN. WHAT REALLY MAKES IT FUN, IS MAKING IT EASIER FOR YOU. I MADE BILLIONS. FOR I EARNED IT. I PUT IN MY WHOLE LIFE. I RISKED EVERYTHING. NOW I LAUGH SO HARD, IT'S NOT EVEN FUNNY. IT'S HILARIOUS. HYSTERICAL. A HOOT. ALONG WITH THE RIOT. ZEY CALL IT, PROPERTY TAX. I AM WRITING A BOOK RIGHT NOW. ALMOST DONE. WITH VOLUME ONE. "THE PERSON OF NUMBERS". I AM ANTICIPATING ORDERING COPIES. I TOLD MRS. MARGE, YESTERDAY AT WORK, I WILL SIGN HER A COPY OF THIS, I GIVE TO HER AS A SAMPLE. I HAVE NO LIFE. I ONLY HAVE THE LIFE OF MY DREAMS. NOW MAKE LIFE DREAMY, FOR AS MANY OTHERS, AS MANY OTHER PEOPLE AS POSSIBLE.
INDENTATION. CONDUCT THE HELPING HAND CHALLENGE, WITH YOUR STOCK PICKS AND PORTFOLIOS. CREATE INVESTMENT PORTFOLIOS, JUST FOR THE HELPING HAND TRAVEL DOCUMENTARIES. YOU TRAVEL THE WORLD, HELPING OTHER'S FINANCIALLY, DOCUMENTING IT ALL ON VIDEO AND AUDIO. STASH THE FOOTAGE AWAY. PLAY AS SMART AS YOU CAN. FOR YOU MUST SURVIVE LONG ENOUGH TO IMPACT REALITY'S FABRIC. OR IMPACT THE FABRICATION, WITH TRUTH. IF YOU GIVE UP YOUR AMBITIONS FOR PLEASURE, FOR YOUR FANTASY WORLD ACQUISITION, YOU LOSE NOTHING. SO GO GAIN EVERYTHING. EVERY-THING? EVERY-THING!
INDENTATION\. PARDON ME, PRESIDENT FORD. DEAR MR. GERALD, WE MADE A CAVE FULL OF BOOTY WITH THE MARKET IN CONJUNCTION. OH YEA. KOOL-AID NEVER TASTED BETTER. RAMEN NOODLES NEVER FELT SO RIGHT. WE COULD EAT LOBSTER. BUT MAYBE LOBSTER IS JUST THE SEA ROACH. OOPS. OOPSEY DAISY. IF I LIGHT THE FIRE TO THE ECONOMICAL REVOLUTION, KEEP THE FIRE LIT. THE FIRE RISES. I GAVE MY LIFE TO RISE THE FIRE. I CAN LIVE WITH THAT. LIVED FOR IT. IZZY. I AM GRATEFUL TO GOD. I GIVE GOD ALL OF THE GLORY. I AM A SOLDIER IN GOD'S ARMY. MAY BE FUTURE GENERAL. FOR NOW I GIVE MY LIFE TO SPECIFIC DESTINY. I MAY NEVER SEE IT. I STILL SLEEP WELL AT NIGHT AND DAY. I CHERISHED MY LIFE. CHERISH YOURS MORE. MORE. MUCH MORE. USE YOUR GIFTS TO ENHANCE THE SPECTRUM OF INTENTIONAL ACTION WITHIN THE REALM. I AM GOING TO PRICE THIS BOOK AT $100. NO ONE WHO READS IT, WILL COMPLAIN THEN. ANYONE WHO READS IT FOR FREE, WILL FEEL OBLIGED. THEY SHOULDN'T. THEY WOULD ACTUALLY KIND OF BE ONE HUNDRED DOLLARS DOWN, IN THE PERFECT WORLD.
2.6.2020
THURSDAY FEBRUARY 6TH, 2020
4:33AM EST - 5:15 AM EST
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CHAPTER TWENTY FIVE:
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INDENTATION.
I LOOK FORWARD TO VOLUME TWO.
I WRITE ONE LINE AT A TIME.
I ENJOY LIFE.
I PRAY TO GOD I MAKE HIM PROUD.
I MADE SURE MY FAMILY WAS BETTER THAN BETTER THAN GOOD.
GENERATIONALLY.
I WAS THE RICH UNCLE.
THE FILTHY WEALTHY UNCLE.
THE UNCLE THEY NEVER CALLED UNCLE.
I WAS ALWAYS JUST CHAD.
JUSS CHIZZI.
THIS CHAPTER IS WRITTEN AS A POEM WOULD BE. NOW I WRITE POEMS AS PROSE PARAGRAPHS ARE. YOU WOULDN'T KNOW IT WAS RHYMING, UNTIL YOU REALIZED IT WAS RHYMING. THIS IS THE NON FICTION GENRE. ONE GENRE.
BUY THE STOCK.
DISTRIBUTE IT.
BUY OTHER STOCKS.
DISTRIBUTE THEM.
STOCKS IN CERTAIN INDUSTRIES. COMPETING STOCKS IN THE SAME INDUSTRY.
LOVE THYSELF.
PSYCHO TECHNOLOGY.
FROM NOW ON, WE CALL IT P.T. OK? OK. COOL. GOT IT. WE HAVE EQUAL STANDING.
WE EQUALLY STAND.
XMEN THREE.
WHEN I FIRST HEARD OF P.T., I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT IT REALLY WAS. STILL DON'T FULLY. THIS IS A PERFECT EXAMPLE, OF WHAT THE FUTURE LOOKS LIKE. THE FUTURE IS.
THE FUTURE IS UNFORESEEN BY MOST.
WHOEVER SEES THE FUTURE COMING, ENJOYS REWARDS.
"STEVE JOBS", THE FILM IS ON NETFLIX. "STEVE JOBS". I LOVE IT. I WILL WATCH IT TONIGHT GOD WILLING I REMEMBER.
I AM CHADFILMS.
I AM CHAD HARRIS.
CHAD XZAVIER HARRIS.
CHAD XZAVIER HARRIS, FILMS.
CHAD XZAVIER, FILMS.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TIME I WAS BORN.
IF IT IS CLOSE TO 12:29 PM OR AM, I WOULD LOVE THAT.
GOODNIGHTS.
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2:29 AM EST - 3:17AM EST
2.7.2020
FRIDAY FEBRUARY 7TH, 2020
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CHAPTER TWENTY SIX: AND HERE WE GO
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THIS IS THE LAST CHAPTER OF THE VOLUME. "THE PERSON OF NUMBERS" IS VOLUME ONE OF "WHY AMERICA SLEPT". VOLUME TWO, I'M NOT SURE OF THE TITLE YET. IT WILL BE A VERSE COLLECTION. "THE PERSON OF NUMBERS VERSED". THE RHYMING VERSION. GO FROM THERE. I LOOK FORWARD TO ORDERING COPIES OF THIS PUBLISHED WORK OF NON FICTION. CAN THIS VOLUME BE CONSIDERED AT LEAST THE INTRODUCTION TO AN ECONOMIC MANIFEST? IF SO, WE GO INTO VOLUME TWO, IN GOOD STANDING. I AM GRATEFUL TO GOD I MADE IT THIS FAR IN LIFE AND IN THE BOOK.
INDENTATION. I JUST SENT $100 TO ISAIAH. I SENT $100 TO JASON. I ASKED THEM TO PURCHASE RIPPLE XRP ON COINBASE. I ASKED THEM TO ENGAGE AN E-TRADE TRANSFER FOR $100 AND I WILL SEND THE MONEY TO THEM BY THE TIME IT CLEARS. THIS WAY, WE CAN HOLD THE CRYPTO INSTANTLY, WHILE THE FUNDS GROW AVAILABLE ON E-TRADE. THESE STOCKS, IN THESE INDUSTRIES, MUST BE PURCHASED IN HEAVY AMOUNTS TOTAL. THIS WILL BRING IN CRYPTO MONEY. THE CRYPTO CURRENCY, MUST BE PURCHASED IN HEAVY AMOUNTS AS WELL. CRYPTO CURRENCY MARKET CAP FOR TRADING IS OVER $3 TRILLION PER DAY. EQUAL TO THE FOREIGN CURRENCY TRADING. NNVC. NANO VERICIDES. $9 LAST TIME WE CHECKED, IT WAS THERE IN PRICE. NAOV. NANO VIBRONIX. $2.80. LAST TIME A NANO TECH COMPANY ON OUR WATCHLIST WAS $2, IT WAS NNVC. NNVC IS NOW RANGING FROM $8 TO $18. WOW. DAM. HOOVER. MY BROTHER JUSTIN IS SIGNING UP FOR AN E-TRADE. FINALLY. WAY TO GO BRO. THANK YOU. NAMASTE. NOW I CAN SEND YOU MONEY TO PURCHASE COMPANY STOCK PUBLICLY, IN THE EMERGING TECHNOLOGIES OF THE NEXT TWO CENTURIES.
INDENTATION. EVERY GENERATION WILL GET THIS CHANCE. UP TO THREE TIMES NATURALLY. WITH GUIDANCE, MAYBE FIVE TO SIX TIMES. USE THIS PUBLICATION AS A TOOL FOR THE YOUNG LOVED ONES IN YOUR LIFE, TO BOOST THEIR ECONOMIC ACQUIT AS EARLY AS POSSIBLE. THEN THEY CAN DO THIS BEFORE THE AGE OF EIGHTEEN. IF NOT, BETWEEN 20-25 YEARS OLD. GET THEM STARTED AT SEVEN AND IT'S OVER. WE NEED TO TEACH OUR CHILDREN HOW TO PAY OUR BILLS. THEN THEY CAN PAY THEIR OWN. I WILL WRITE VOLUMES IN THIS SERIES AIMED AT THE YOUTH. THIS IS ONLY VOLUME ONE. WE WILL SAY COMPLEX SAYINGS. WE WILL SAY KINDERGARTEN TALK. THE OFFICIAL 2020 "VANESSA STALLONE" DEBUT IS DONE. YOURLISTEN SEARCH ENGINE. THE WHITE RABBIT MANIFESTO. THE ONLY BOOK WRITTEN IN NEW YORK, THE FIRST FOUR MONTHS BEFORE GOING BACK TO GEORGIA FOR SIX MONTHS. ON FRIDAY AUGUST 10TH, 2018, THE NIGHT I MOVED BACK TO NEW YORK FROM GEORGIA, I GAVE KEVI THE HAND WRITTEN NOTEBOOK. TOMORROW IS KEVI'S 19TH BIRTHDAY. MY OLDEST NIECE. HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEVI. I LOVE YOU. I GAVE THE NOTEBOOK TO KEVI TV. KEVI. I NEVER TYPED THE NOTEBOOK. FIRST THING I DID IN GEORGIA, AFTER RETURNING FROM NEW YORK ON VALENTINE'S DAY WAS TO RECORD THE NOTEBOOK. I WOULD HAVE TO TRANSCRIBE THE AUDIO.
INDENTATION. I AM REALLY EXCITED. I GET TO SHOOT FOR ANOTHER VARIETY OF WRITING IN THIS COLLECTION. THERE WILL BE FICTIONAL VOLUMES IN THIS SERIES. ACTUALLY, THE NON FICTION ASPECT, IS IN ITSELF ANOTHER GENRE WE EXPLORED. WE DID NOT WANT TO EXPLORE NON FICTION. WHEN ECONOMICS, POLITICS, AND/ OR HUMANITARIANISM GREW IMPERATIVE TO US AT 25. FULLY IMPERATIVE. IN FIVE YEARS I HAVE SELF PUBLISHED 600 PAGE VOLUMES. THREE TIMES. FORGIVE ME FOR THE NUMEROLOGY BEHIND THE STATS. IN HINDSIGHT I WOULD HAVE FARED WELL GOING FOR THE 777. I JUST WANT TO REFLECT A MOMENT THAT MY 1800 PAGES INCIDENTALLY REFERENCES SOME REAL BULLSH. I'M HURT BY THIS. I NEED 700 PAGES. WHAT IS THAT IN THE "HARRY POTTER UNIVERSE"? "GOBLET OF FIRE". WRITING ECONOMIC PROSE THE SIZE OF "THE GOBLET OF FIRE". I AM JUST GRATEFUL AND EXCITED ABOUT COMPLETING THIS 700 PAGE PROJECT. THREE PAGES PER DAY IS 1000 PAGES ANNUALLY. I RECORD THREE HOURS IN AUDIO PER DAY, MOST DAYS.
I WANT TO THANK YOU FOR READING VOLUME ONE. VOLUME TWO, THE INTRODUCTORY CHAPTER, IS THE NEXT SESSION.

My (34) girlfriend (31) have been together for about 3 years. We started talking about marriage about 6 months ago and plan on making our life together. About a month ago her father became really ill and was hospitalized. It’s been tough on her whole family. We’ve been spending pretty much all of our time with them. After getting a ring (that she helped me pick out) I asked for her parents blessing which they gave me and asked me what I was waiting for? So we finally between work and her spending time family and her father in the hospital we have a date night and some time to ourselves. I originally planned that we would go on a hike and then there would be a photographer there waiting to capture the moment. This morning she was absolutely exhausted and instead of going for the hike we slept in and cuddled. I cancelled the photographer with no issues. We laid in bed for hours in each others arms like we haven’t done in forever. I started to feel butterflies in my chest. I reached over to my backpack and grabbed the box. With her head on my chest I showed her the ring, told her how much I love her, want to always be there for her in the good times and the tough times ( like now with her father being sick). She said yes!! Several hours later I could tell something was up. She confessed that while she is super grateful for the ring and my proposal, this wasn’t what she expected or the way she wanted it to happen. She said she felt like I didn’t put any effort into it and wished there was a photographer there to capture the moment. She said she isn’t in a good place mentally with her father in the hospital and wants to be able to look back on the time we get engaged as a happy one. She didn’t tell her parents and on our way to the hospital I offered to take back the ring and re do it at a later time. She gave it back to me.
Part of me feels like an asshole for proposing during such a stressful time for her and doing it in such a private setting when I know she would have loved to have a secret photographer there to capture the moment. But also, it just felt like the right time and moment. It was such an intimate moment and felt really special for me but apparently not for her.
Am I an asshole for proposing to her while in bed instead of in public with a secret photographer? Should I have waited for the possibility that her father gets better? Am I an asshole for feeling resentful?

2.9.2020
SUNDAY FEBRUARY 9TH, 2020
9:12PM EST - 9:50 PM EST
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DEDICATION: HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY KEVI FROM KEVITV
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THIS VOLUME IS DEDICATED TO SHAKEVIA KANIAJAH. MY 19 YEAR OLD NIECE. SHE TURNS 19 TOMORROW. I WANT TO PUBLISH THIS BOOK, ON HER 19TH BIRTHDAY. THIS PROJECT HAS BEEN PROOFREAD. THE PROOFREADING WAS AUDIO RECORDED. HELPS. I AM WRITING THIS PROJECT AND IT WILL HELP MILLIONS OF PEOPLE. I LOVE YOU KEVI. I WANT YOU TO BE ONE OF THEM. IT WOULD BE IRONIC IF YOUR UNCLE WROTE A PLAN, HELPING MILLIONS, AND YOU DIDN'T PARTICIPATE. WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS. I LOVE YOU. I THINK OF YOU WHEN I INVEST IN ASSETS. I HAD THE PRILIVEGE OF WATCHING YOU GROW UP. IF THEY ASKED ME WHAT I DID ALL DAY INSIDE OF MY MIND? THE ANSWER IS KARAOKE. SOMETIMES AT WORK I GET CAUGHT. ENGAGING IN KARAOKE. I TOOK YOUR ADVICE FROM FIVE YEARS AGO. I MAKE MYSELF LAUGH INSIDE OF MY HEAD ALL DAY NOW. IT IS SUCH A BEAUTIFUL ARENA.
THIS BOOK IS AWESOME KEVI. I JUST FINISHED IT, TWO DAYS AGO. KEVI I LOVE YOU. HAPPY BIRTHDAY. I FINISHED THE BOOK, TWO DAYS OR THREE DAYS BEFORE YOUR 19TH BIRTHDAY. SO I JUST SAID I HAD ENOUGH TIME TO EDIT IT BY YOUR BIRTHDAY AND PUBLISH IT WITHIN THE HOUR. I LOVE YOU. I WISH I HAD ECONOMIC GOGGLES TO SEND YOU, SO YOU CAN SEE WHAT I SEE. IF YOU NEVER READ THIS OR APPLY IT AFTER READING, I APPLY IT FOR YOU. THERE ARE TWO TYPES OF LITERACY I KNOW OF. READING WORDS. READING PERCENTAGES. READING THE LETTER. READING THE DOLLAR. IT'S NOT ABOUT SALARY. IT'S EARNING POWER. YOU WON'T GET IT UNTIL YOU GET IT. FINANCIAL LITERACY. AT THE SAME TIME, AS YOU CAN SEE, I BACKED OFF. I LET YOU DO YOU. IT IS WHAT IT IS. I LOVE YOU KEVI. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAKEVIA KANIAJAH. I WROTE A BOOK. RIGHT BEFORE YOUR BIRTHDAY. HERE'S PART OF YOUR GIFT. I WILL STASH AWAY CRYPTO AND STOCKS FOR YOU. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONCE AGAIN. I PUBLISHED THIS BOOK ON YOUR 19TH BIRTHDAY. 46
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10:38PM EST -11:35PM EST
CHRISTMAS DAY 2019
WEDNESDAY DECEMBER 25TH, 2019
12.25.2019
PERSON OF NUMBERS
CANDARA FONT
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THE INTRODUCTION: HORRIBLE MINDSET
WHAT IS A PERSON OF NUMBERS? A PERSON OF LETTERS, IS THE TERM INSPIRING THE TITLE FOR THIS ONE. A MAN OF LETTERS IS ONE WHOM WRITES BOOKS POSSIBLY. SO, CONVERSELY, A MAN OF NUMBERS, THE PERSON OF NUMBERS, IS ONE WHOM POSSIBLY SPONSORS INVESTMENTS. LIFE IS ALL ABOUT INVESTMENTS. YES, WE TOOK IT THERE. HOW MANY GREAT INVESTMENTS CAN YOU MAKE FOR YOUR CHILDREN'S SAKE? YOUR GRANDCHILDREN CAN BE PAID. THEY SHOULD BE PAID. THEY ALSO NEED TO LEARN HOW TO GET IT ON THEIR OWN. THEY NEED TO PAY THEMSELVES. HOW DOES ONE WIN THE RAT RACE??? HOW DO YOU ESCAPE THE RAT RACE MATRIX? WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO WHEN UNCLE SAM COMES SLAMMING FOR YOU? WE HAVE TO HAVE GREAT INVESTMENTS FOR OUR FUTURES, FOR OUR FUTURES TO BE LESS CONCERNING OF AN ISSUE TO US. THERE IS A MINDSET OF INVESTO-PHOBIA. HORRIBLE MINDSET, FOR THE RECORD. WHY BE AFRAID OF RETIREMENT? BREAKING THIS DOWN IN AN EQUATION, RETIREMENT IS SOMETHING HAPPENING YEARS FROM NOW. SO INVESTING IN TECHNOLOGY STOCKS WHILE YOUNG ALLOWS A PREFERRED RETIREMENT FUND TO LIVE ON AND FURTHER GROW. IF RETIREMENT IS LATER, THEN INVESTING IN EMERGING TECHNOLOGIES, WHICH WOULDN'T POP OFF FULLY UNTIL RETIREMENT AGE. WHAT WE WOULD HAVE WISHED IN OUR TWENTIES, SOMEONE TO SAY THESE THINGS TO US THEN? THE LEAST FRIGHTENING WAY OF LOOKING AT THE STOCKS ARE INDUSTRY BUCKETS.
THROW YOUR MONEY INTO THE RIGHT BUCKET, BUCKET PROFITS DOUBLE AND SPLIT. THIS ENTIRE PROJECT WILL DELVE INTO CONSORTED ECONOMIC STRATEGIES. MY WAY OF TELLING YOU I WOULD SWITCH THE CONCEPTS OFTEN SO YOU DON'T SQUIRM AS MUCH. I WILL GET NO BENEFIT IN THE AFTERLIFE FOR LYING TO YOU NOW MY FRIEND, I FEAR. I INTEND TO LEAVE HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS IN DOLLARS INVESTED IN THE STOCK MARKET, TO BE LEFT TO DIFFERENT PEOPLE. THESE PUBLICATIONS ARE MERE DIARIES OF WHAT WENT ON WHEN. WHEN IT IS ALL OBVIOUS, THESE PUBLICATIONS WILL BE GIVEN OUT AS CONVERSATION ENDERS. WE LOOK FORWARD TO DISPLAYING THE CONCEPTS FROM OUR MIND ON ECONOMIC BLISS. WE ALL WANT ECONOMIC BLISS. IF I COULD WRITE A LETTER TO MYSELF TEN YEARS AGO, ONE LONG LETTER TO 18YR OLD CHAD. HOWEVER I CAN NOT, I CAN ONLY WRITE LETTERS TO THE CHAD TEN YEARS FROM NOW AND I CAN WRITE LETTERS TO YOU. SO, THESE ARE MY LETTERS TO YOU, MY FRIEND.
LETTERS BUT NOTES. NOTES ON ECONOMIC STRATEGIZING. WHATEVER INVESTMENT ARENA I AM INVESTING IN MYSELF, I WILL INCLUDE NOTES ON THE EXPERIENCES. THESE PUBLICATIONS WILL INCLUDE TRADE ACCOUNT PICTURES. I WILL IMMEDIATELY RESTART YOUTUBING AGAIN, BUT AS A FOREX TRADER'S CHANNEL. I DEFINITELY HAVE TO SAY THANK YOU TO GOD FOR MY LIFE IN WHICH I LOVE SO DEARLY. I WANT THE PUBLICATIONS I WRITE IN MY THIRTIES, DURING THE 2020'S, TO REFLECT A CERTAIN GROWTH. A CERTAIN ECONOMIC GROWTH THE WRITING PHASES SHOW. ON THE CREATIVE SIDE, I WILL BE DELVING INTO COSMIC HORROR TO HONOR THE NEED TO VENT. I WANT TO THANK YOU FOR GIVING THIS PUBLICATION YOUR ATTENTION AND I LOOK FORWARD TO ENTERTAINING YOU WITH THE INFORMATION I WAS PRIVY TO.
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DECEMBER 29TH, 2019 11:25PMEST -12:05AM EST
DECEMBER 30TH,2019
(30TH BIRTHDAY)
LAST THIRTY MINUTES OF 30TH BIRTHDAY WRITING SESSION AUDIO RECORDED AS WELL. EVERY WRITING SESSION OF THIS PUBLICATION HAS BEEN AND WILL BE AUDIO RECORDED TO SPUR STEED SPEED..
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CHAPTER ONE: THIS IS JUST MY DIARY AND SO NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY
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INVESTING YOUR MONEY IS CALLED FINANCIAL LEVERAGING. MONEY IS ONLY SCARY WHEN YOU ARE NOT FINANCIALLY LEVERAGING. FINANCIAL LEVERAGING IS AKIN TO PUTTING YOUR MONEY TO WORK FOR YOU, FOR A CHANGE. YOU WANT TO PLAY THE GAME TO WIN. IT IS A GAME AND EVERYTHING GOES BACK IN THE BOX. BUILDING WEALTH IS ALL STRATEGY. WHAT PLAN CAN YOU COME UP WITH TO GET YOURSELF OUT OF THIS ECONOMIC MATRIX MY FRIEND? INVESTING YOUR MONEY IS SOMETHING YOU DO FOR YOU CHILDREN. INVESTING YOUR MONEY IS THE LEAST RISKY THING YOU CAN EVER DO WITH YOUR MONEY. MAINLY DUE TO THE FACT, NOT INVESTING YOUR MONEY LEAVES YOU LITTLE BUFFER. IF YOU DO NOT INVEST YOUR EARNINGS, THEN WHAT ON EARTH ARE YOU BURNING YOUR EARNINGS ON? THE ELECTRICITY BILL IS A LIFE LONG BILL. THE MOBILE CELLULAR PHONE BILL IS A LIFE LONG BILL. EVERY BILL IS A LIFE LONG ONE. EVERY SINGLE BILL IS LIFE LONG.
SO, IF THE BILLS ARE NEVER GOING TO STOP, THEN ONLY PAYING THE BILLS WILL NEVER STOP YOU FROM HAVING TO PAY THE BILLS MAN. THE BEST I CAN DO IS TO LEAVE WITH YOU A COLLECTION OF THE MOST STRATEGIC THOUGHT PATTERNS I HAD AVAILABLE ECONOMICALLY. THIS IS AS SAID BEFORE, A DIARY OF WHAT IS TO COME AND HISTORICALLY AN INVESTMENT STRATEGY TO ENACT. STRATEGIES ARE TO BE ENACTED AND I AM DOCUMENTING THE STRATEGIES I AM EMPLOYING NOW AT THE BEGINNING OF MY THIRTIES. FOR THE LAST THREE YEARS, THE LAST THREE YEARS OF MY TWENTIES, I HAVE BEEN ENCAPSULATED MENTALLY WITH INVESTMENT PHILOSOPHY. ALL OF THOSE WRITINGS WILL BE INCLUDED IN THESE WRITINGS JUST BECAUSE THIS IS THE FULL PUBLICATION FOR THE INVESTMENT WRITING.
INVESTING STRATEGY IS A MINDSET. WARFARE IS A MINDSET. THE ECONOMIC WARFARE CALLS FOR STRATEGY. ECONOMIC STRATEGY WILL FREE YOU FROM THE ECONOMIC WARFARE, CAUSING ECONOMIC SLAVERY. WE ARE ENSLAVED TO THE DOLLAR AND WHAT DID YOU EVER DO TO THE DOLLAR FOR IT TO ENSLAVE YOUR GRASS? THE DOLLAR LITERALLY ENSLAVES YOUR GRASS. ZEY CALL IT PROPERTY TAX. IT'S YOUR MONEY AND SADLY YOUR FORTUNE IS IN YOUR HANDS RIGHT NOW. NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY, I JUST MIGHT NOT BE ABLE, TO HELP YOU AT ALL NO MATTER WHAT I SAY OR DO. SO, IF YOU ARE AN OPEN MIND, WE ARE HERE TO HELP YOU PURCHASE YOUR ECONOMIC FREEDOM. ECONOMIC FREEDOM MUST BE PURCHASED MY FRIEND.
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1:43AM EST - 2:30AM EST
NEW YEAR'S DAY 2020
JANUARY 1ST, 2020
1.1.2020
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CAPRICORN SEASON EH? (COMIC BOOK GUY VOICE) (SIMPSONS)
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CHAPTER TWO: Z'WORLDS
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MOST PEOPLE WHO LEARN WHAT I AM RESEARCHING, WILL NOT TELL YOU ANYTHING ABOUT IT, AT ALL, EVER. MOST PEOPLE, I HOWEVER, SHALL SPILL MY GUTS FOR FREE UNTIL THE AFTERMATH. I AM GRATEFUL TO GOD FOR THIS LIFE AND THESE GIFTS AND SO I MUST SHARE THEM WITH Z'WORLD. SO HERE WE GO. HERE'S HOW I REALLY FEEL ABOUT FINANCIAL LEVERAGING. WHAT IS INVESTING? INVESTING IS, TO US, FINANCIAL LEVERAGING. IN WHAT MANNER ARE YOU FINANCIALLY LEVERAGING IS THE QUESTION TO ASK MY DEAR FRIEND? YES!
(PERSONAL MANDATE) YOU SHOULD, AS IN I, INVEST 80% OF YOUR PROFITS FROM INVESTMENTS, INTO OTHER INVESTMENTS. INVESTING, FINANCIAL LEVERAGING, IS HOW YOU ARE GOING TO RETIRE YOURSELF AND YOUR FAMILY. YOUR LOVED ONES WILL FINANCIALLY BENEFIT FROM YOUR SUCCESS BECAUSE YOU ARE GOING TO ENJOY RETIRING THEM, ECONOMICALLY, BUYING THEIR FREEDOM PAPERS. YOU'RE ACTUALLY GIVING THEM THEIR FREEDOM PAPERS SO THEY CAN PURCHASE THEIR FREEDOM THEIR SELVES. THIS IS WHY I AM NOT EVER AFRAID ANYMORE, OF LEVERAGING THE DOLLAR.
THE DOLLAR, IS A DEFLATING TIRE. I SHALL LEVERAGE, THE DEFLATING TIRE, THUS HAVING A TEE-PEE HUT FULL OF TIRES BEING LEVERAGED. I DIDN'T DEFLATE SAID TIRE, THE GAME WAS RIGGED. RIGGED OR NOT WE WON. WE WON. WHO WON? WE WON. WHO IS WE? WE. YOU. ME. WE. I'M TAKING YOU WITH ME. IF IT'S IN YOUR DESTINY TO SEE THE WHITE RABBIT. HERE IS THE WHITE RABBIT. HERE IS THE WHITE RABBIT, TO ESCAPING THE ECONOMICAL MATRIX. MONOPOLY IS A BOARD GAME, CLEARLY. AT THE END OF THE GAME, NO MATTER HOW MUCH YOU ACQUIRE, IT ALL GOES BACK IN THE BOX.
IF IT ALL GOES BACK IN THE BOX, YOU MUST ACQUIRE, THEN DISTRIBUTE. BEFORE DISTRIBUTING, YOU SHOULD INITIALLY CONSIDER EXPANSION. AFTER EXPANSION, ALLOW THE LEVERAGED FINANCES TO REVOLVE AND AGE. "SHOULD" IS SUCH A STRONG WORD. I HATE USING THE WORD "SHOULD". I SHOULD, STOP USING THE WORD "SHOULD". THIS IS AN INVESTMENT VEHICLE SO, "SHOULD", IS A WORD USED IN THE REALM OF PROJECTION AND SPECULATION. IF YOU FEAR SPECULATION, WHY DO YOU HAVE EXES?
ALL I WANT FROM YOU, IS AN EARLY RETIREMENT. ALL I WANT OF YOU, IS FOR YOU TO RETIRE AS SOON AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN. ALL I WANT FOR YOU, IS YOUR NEST EGG. I WANT YOU, OUT OF THE ECONOMICAL MATRIX. THERE'S NO NEED FOR YOU HERE. HONESTLY, YOU SERVICES ARE ACTUALLY, REQUIRED ELSEWHERE. ELSEWHERE YOU SHOULD GO, FOR MEANS AFFORDING RETIREMENT. THEY SAY AUTOMATION MEANS PEOPLE LOSE JOBS. THEY WERE NEVER SUPPOSED TO ALWAYS NEED A JOB TO PAY THEIR BILLS IN THE FIRST PLACE. OTHERWISE THAT'S THE WORST CASE. THIS IS THE NEW DECADE AND FRIEND, THERE ARE M O R E L E G A L WAYS TO SKIN THE EVICTION NOTICE OFF THE DOOR. THE CAT IS THE RENT. SKINNING IS A MENTAL PROCESS.
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1.1.2020
JANUARY 1ST, 2020
NEW YEAR'S DAY 2020
11:55PM EST - 12:18AM EST
12:18AM EST - 12:33AM EST (EDITING TIME)
12.2.2020
JANUARY 2ND, 2020
FROM SYRACUSE, NEW YORK
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CHAPTER THREE: AS OF YET, UNBORN
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I JUST TURNED THIRTY YEARS OLD LAST SUNDAY, DURING NEW YEAR'S WEEKEND. SO WITH ME BEING THIRTY NOW, THE MAIN THING I THINK ABOUT IS MY FUTURE. THANKFULLY FOR ME, DURING MY TWENTIES, I HAVE BEEN PUTTING IN STRONG THOUGHTS AND CONCENTRATED ACTIONS/EFFORTS INTO REALIZING AND ACTUALIZING THE YOUNG ADULT AND CHILDHOOD DREAMS I CARESSED WITHIN. SO WITH THIS, AT THIRTY, I ONLY THINK ABOUT BUILDING MY INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO. MY INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO IS WHAT WILL ALLOW ME TO RETIRE MYSELF. MY INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO WILL ALLOW ME TO RETIRE MY ENTIRE FAMILY. MY INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO WILL ALLOW ME TO LEAVE AN INHERITANCE FOR ALL OF MY SEVEN NIECES AND NEPHEWS. MY INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO WILL ALLOW ME TO LEAVE AN INHERITANCE FOR MY OWN CHILDREN, AS OF YET, UNBORN.
MY INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO WILL ALLOW ME TO FUND THE BUSINESS PARTNERSHIPS I HAVE IN THE WORKS WITH BUSINESS PARTNERS AND MY BUSINESS MENTOR. MY INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO WILL ALLOW ME TO SETTLE DOWN AND START A FAMILY OF MY OWN. AN INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO WILL HELP ME GROW MY BRAND AND EXPAND THE BRANDS I GROW FROM SCRATCH. AN INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN ANY OTHER PHYSICAL TASK ON THIS EARTH, FOR ME INDIVIDUALLY, FOR THE INVESTMENTS WILL ALLOW ME TO PROVIDE FOR THE WIFE AND CHILDREN I TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR. I AM NOT ONE TO JUMP INTO SITUATIONS I KNOW I CAN NOT HANDLE MYSELF IN. IF A CHILD COSTS TWO HUNDRED AND FIFTY THOUSAND DOLLARS, ONE QUARTER OF A MILLION DOLLARS, I MUST GET MY EARNING POWER UP TO THE MILLION DOLLAR LEVEL, SO I CAN AFFORD TO SIMULTANEOUSLY FINANCE THE GROWTH OF FOUR CHILDREN.
LET'S SAY I HAD FOUR CHILDREN, AND AN EARNING POWER OF ONE MILLION DOLLARS PER SEASON. THAT WOULD BE FOUR MILLION DOLLARS PER YEAR. THAT'S ONE MILLION DOLLARS PER SEASON TO CONTRIBUTE TO THE CHILD'S LIFE, EACH CHILD. THE REMAINING INCOME FROM THE EARNING POWER MUST GO INTO VARIOUS DIVERSE INVESTMENT VEHICLES FOR THE CHILDREN. THE FUTURE OF THE FAMILY RAISING ME UP TO PREVIOUS POINTS, IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING TO ME BEFORE HAVING CHILDREN OF MY OWN. I SET A PERSONAL GOAL FOR MYSELF; TO NOT CREATE A FAMILY OF MY OWN, UNTIL I HAVE FULLY FINANCED THE FAMILY I ORGINATED FROM. WITH THIS GOAL FINISHED, WHENEVER I DO IN FACT FINISH IT, I WILL BEGIN PUTTING AWAY INVESTMENTS FOR MY FUTURE CHILDREN.
I WILL HAVE INVESTMENT ACCOUNTS FOR MYSELF. I WILL HAVE INVESTMENT ACCOUNTS FOR MY FUTURE CHILDREN. I WILL HAVE INVESTMENT ACCOUNTS FOR MY FAMILY OF ORIGIN. I WILL HAVE INVESTMENT ACCOUNTS FOR ALL BUSINESS PARTNERS AND THE MENTOR. THIS WOULD MEAN, I WOULD HAVE INVESTMENT ACCOUNTS SET UP FOR THE PEOPLE I CHERISH. THE INVESTMENTS IN MY OWN INVESTMENT ACCOUNTS, I DON'T REALLY KNOW WHAT I AM GOING TO DO WITH THEM, IF I AM STILL ALIVE WHEN THEY BLOSSOM. THEY WOULD ONLY BE IN MY ACCOUNT, SO I WOULD HAVE ACCESS TO A STASH OF STOCKS, CRYPTO, AND INVESTMENTS, I COULD LIQUIDATE MYSELF, DURING MY LIFETIME. THOSE INVESTMENTS WILL OF COURSE, BE IN MY WILL AS WELL. I WILL ONLY HAVE A CERTAIN AMOUNT OF MONEY INVESTED IN MY PERSONAL ACCOUNTS. THE AMOUNT MAY STILL IN FACT BE STAGGERING BUT NEVERTHELESS, IT WILL PAIL IN COMPARISON, TO THE ACCOUNTS LEFT IN MY WILL FOR MY LOVED ONES. I INTEND TO HAVE MY LOVED ONES AS WELL, SIGN UP FOR THE INVESTMENT ACCOUNTS, SO I CAN BUILD THEIR ACCOUNTS FOR THEM WITH MY CAPITAL.
I REALLY JUST CARE ABOUT MAKING SURE THAT I DID IN FACT LOOK OUT FOR ALL OF THOSE WHOM I LOVED SO DEARLY. PERFECT SEGUE. WE ARE NOT INVESTING OUR EARNED INCOME FOR OURSELVES, PRIMARILY. WE ARE INVESTING OUR EARNED INCOME, FOR THE SAKE OF OUR FAMILIES AND LOVED ONES. NOTHING MATTERED TO US MORE, THAN THOSE WE LOVE. WE ALL LOVE A PRE-SELECTED GROUP OF PEOPLE, MOSTLY COMPRISED OF FAMILY AND FRIENDS. ANY CHILDREN WE HAVE QUICKLY BECOME LOVED ONES, IMMEDIATELY. IT IS THEM, WE ARE TO KEEP IN MIND, WHEN WE CONSIDER BUILDING INVESTMENT PORTFOLIOS. MY ULTIMATE GOAL, THE DEFINITE CHIEF AIM, OF THESE CREATIVE ENDEAVORS, WOULD BE TO HELP YOU RETIRE YOURSELF, AND YOUR FAMILIES, AS QUICKLY AS HUMANLY POSSIBLE. EARLY RETIREMENT IS ONE OF THE MOST HUMANE ACTIONS, A HUMAN BEING CAN PERFORM. THERE IS NOTHING MORE IMPORTANT IN YOUR LIFE, THAN YOUR PERSONAL RETIREMENT, AND YOUR CHILDREN'S INHERITANCE. I AIM TO HELP YOU ACHIEVE WHATEVER GOALS YOU HAVE PREVIOUSLY SET FOR YOURSELF. I AIM TO HELP YOU IN ACHIEVING THE PERSONAL GOALS, YOU HAVE YET TO SET FOR YOURSELF. THE MAIN THING YOU HAVE TO DO, PERSONALLY, IS TO BELIEVE IN YOURSELF, AND TO BELIEVE WITHIN YOURSELF, IT IS IN FACT POSSIBLE. IF YOU DO NOT SEE YOUR GOALS, AS HUMANLY POSSIBLE, AS A HUMAN BEING, YOU SHOULD BE UTTERLY ASHAMED OF YOURSELF. COMMA.
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2:08AM EST - 3:08AM EST
SATURDAY JANUARY 4TH, 2020
1.4.2020
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CHAPTER FOUR: PSYCHO TECHNOLOGY
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WE ARE STARTING THIS PROJECT OFF, CONCEPT WISE PER CHAPTER, GRADUALLY. BUT WHAT IF WE THREW YOU, IN THE DEPTH POOL? HERE WE GO. YOU ARE NOW IN THE POOL. HOLDING COMPANIES. INVESTING CAPITAL, FOR COMPANIES, IN EXCHANGE FOR DIVIDENDS FROM SHARES. SHARE WEAR. WEAR SHARE. DIVIDENDS FROM WHERE? HOLDING SHARES FROM COMPANIES, IS PUTTING YOUR MONEY INTO A BUCKET. FIRST YOU NEED A BUCKET LIST. IN THIS UNIVERSE, YOU PUT YOUR MONEY IN THE RIGHT BUCKET, AT THE RIGHT PROFIT MARGIN TIME FRAME, THE MONEY DOUBLES FOR DECADES. A GOOD THREE DECADES THE MONEY WILL DOUBLE. SOMETIMES I FEEL THE EMERGING MARKETS, AS A PART OF DESTINY.
IN MY TWENTIES, I WAS OF A CONSUMER'S MIND VS. FINANCIAL LEVERAGING. AT THIS POINT, I ONLY WANT TO BUY FOOD AND CLOTHING WITH EARNED INCOME FROM WORK. I DID NOT KNOW CERTAIN KEYWORDS TO SHAKE THE FEAR. HOLDING SHARES IN EMERGING MARKETS. MARKETS IN HEAVY DEVELOPMENT. MARKETS POISED TO ERUPT WITHIN A DECADE. MY THIRTIES, I REALIZE NOW, GIVES ME, ONE MORE CHANCE AT PURE YOUTH. ADDING TO THIS DECADE, THE APPLICATION OF EVERYTHING LEARNED, DURING THE RESEARCH IN MY TWENTIES. I AM USING THE TOBACCO MONEY, BAD HABIT MONEY, TO BUY SHARES. ONE WAY OF FUNDING. FIRST WAY OF FUNDING. ANOTHER WAY OF FUNDING IS THRU EARNED INCOME. ANOTHER WAY IS THRU RETURN ON PREVIOUS INVESTMENTS.
THE BUCKET LIST OF EMERGING MARKETS IS THE LIST OF PREVIOUS INVESTMENTS. MARKET CAPITALIZATION IS THE PERCENTAGE OF THE MARKET, THE COMPANY ADHERES TO. HOW MUCH MONEY FROM THE MARKET, DOES THIS COMPANY OR INDUSTRY OWN? IT IS A GAME NAMED "PROFIT MARGINS VS. PRICE LEVELS". WHEN A COMPANY GOES PUBLIC ON THE STOCK MARKET, THE INITIAL PRICE AT THE OPEN ON IT'S FIRST DAY IS THE IPO. THE INITIAL PUBLIC OPEN, THE FIRST PRICE LEVEL AND PROFIT MARGIN. YOU ARE PLAYING, PROFIT MARGIN PRICE LEVEL. WE ARE IN THE TECHNOLOGICAL ERA. TECHNOLOGY STOCKS, WHAT KIND OF TECHNOLOGY STOCKS?
EMERGING TECHNOLOGIES. DISRUPTIVE TECHNOLOGIES. DISRUPTIVE INDUSTRIES, EMERGING INDUSTRIES, THE NEW REVOLUTIONS AND AGES. THEY CAN BE A PART OF YOUR RETIREMENT FUND MAN. THESE KEYWORDS ARE TIMELESS. THE STOCKS FOR THIS TIME PERIOD, THIS AGE OR REVOLUTION, IS TIME SENSITIVE. THEREFORE, THIS PUBLICATION WILL INEVITABLY SERVE AS A DAMMIT I SAW IT COMING. ON PAPER. ON PAPER, THE STOCK BUCKET LIST, IS THE FUTURE. YOU ARE LITERALLY INVESTING IN THE FUTURE INDUSTRIES OF THE FUTURE, IN THE PRESENT. IN THE PRESENT, YOU MUST REMEMBER, THE FUTURE IS BRIGHT. THERE ARE NANO FLIES IN THE HOOD. INVEST IN NANO FLIES, GET OUT OF THE HOOD. THE GHETTO DOESN'T NEED US. WE NEEDED THE GHETTO TO BRING US HERE. NOW, IT IS TIME. TIME FLIES QUICKLY. WOULD YOU SAY?
WE CALL IT "NBC ART". NANO TECHNOLOGY. BIO METRICS. CRYPTO, CYBER NETICS, CYBER SECURITY, ARTIFICIAL INTELLIGENCE, ROBOTICS, TRANS HUMAN INDUSTRIES, PSYCHO TECHNOLOGY. COGNITIVE AND NEURO SCIENCE, BIO SCIENCE, ENTERPRISING SOFTWARE. SOON WE WILL GO TO THE LIST OF 100 DISRUPTIVE TECHNOLOGIES. WAS THIS SWIM, THIS CHAPTER, DEEP ENOUGH FOR DEPTH?
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6:30PM EST - 7:10PM EST
1.4.2020
SATURDAY JANUARY 4TH 2020
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CHAPTER FIVE: PSYCHO TECHNOLOGY CONTINUED
HOLDING STOCKS WILL BE MY NEST EGG. WE MUST UTILIZE THE TECHNOLOGICAL INNOVATIONS OF OUR DAYS, IN OUR LIVES, FOR THE BETTER OPPORTUNITIES OUT THERE, AWAITING OUR HEIRS. I AM NOTHING MORE THAN A STUDENT. I WILL NEVER BE ANYTHING MORE THAN A GRAND STUDENT. I LEARN WHAT I MUST APPLY. I MUST APPLY WHAT I'VE LEARNED. WHAT IS AN ASSET CLASS? THAT'S WHAT I WOULD ASK ALEXA. HEY SIRI. HEY GOOGLE. OK GOOGLE. WE ARE ENTERING THE ALEXA AGE. THE ALEXA REVOLUTION HAS TAKEN PLACE SEAMLESSLY. IT APPEARS AS IF MORE PEOPLE ADORE HER THAN NOT. CAN ALEXA TESTIFY IN COURT?
THERE'S A NEW TYPE OF ASSET. THE DIGITAL ASSET. WHEN WOULD THE DIGITAL ASSET APPEAR? IN THE AFTER THE. AFTER THE DIGITAL REVOLUTION, THE DIGITAL ASSET APPEARS, IN THE DIGITAL AGE. WE HAVE BEEN IN THE DIGITAL AGE, I FEEL MY WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE. I WAS BORN DURING THE DIGITAL REVOLUTION. MILLENNIAL. I SAW THE WORLD DIGITIZE. IT WAS BEAUTIFUL. I HAD NO IDEA. I HAD NO IDEA I WOULD STUDY THOSE TIME PERIODS. DIGITAL ASSETS, DIGITAL CURRENCY. DIGITAL CURRENCY UNITS. DCUS. HOLDING DCUS ARE THE START OF THE STOCK PORTFOLIO.
THE FUNNY. THE FUNNY THING ABOUT THE FIAT AMERICAN DOLLAR, IS INFLATION. THE PURCHASING POWER IS LESS THAN THE DOLLAR IT IS POSING AS. DIGITAL CURRENCY HOWEVER, EVENTUALLY EXCEEDS ONE DOLLAR IN VALUE, PER UNIT. SO, WHILE YOU ARE FIGURING OUT WHICH INDUSTRIES AND COMPANIES TO INVEST IN, YOU ARE HOLDING THE STOCK FUNDS, IN A DIGITAL ASSET PORTFOLIO. AS THE DIGITAL CURRENCY UNITS ENHANCE PRICE LEVELS, YOU CAN NOW AFFORD MORE SHARES. OUR GOAL HERE, FOR YOU ALL, IS TO PROVIDE AS GREAT A SERVICE AS POSSIBLE. BEING PUBLISHED, I HAVE TO SPILL THE GUTS.
DIGITAL CURRENCY ISN'T INFLATED. IF YOU CAN MANAGE TO UTILIZE THE TECHNOLOGICAL ADVANCES DURING YOUR LIFETIME, YOU SHOULD INVEST IN THEM. RISE WITH THE EMERGING MARKETS MY FRIEND. THE EMERGING INDUSTRIES COULD UTILIZE YOUR CAPITAL IN THEIR ENDEAVORS. THEY WOULD BE EVER SO GRACIOUS TO YOU. YOU'D PROBABLY GET DIVIDENDS. YOU COULD SHARE THOSE SHARES. YOU COULD LEAVE THOSE SHARES, TO YOUR CHILDREN, OR THEIR CHILDREN. IN ESSENCE, I AM ACTUALLY PUBLISHING A TREASURE MAP. IT'S FAIRLY ODD. SHOUT OUT TO MY PARENTS. SHOUT OUT TO THE "EBONY TREASURE MAP". THE BITS OF THE BOOK I WAS ABLE TO FINISH DURING AGE TWENTY WAS GREAT TO AND FOR ME.
WHEN YOU GO SHOPPING FOR GROCERIES AND YOU ARE LOOKING FOR CEREAL, WHERE DO YOU GO? THE CEREAL ISLE. YOU SHOP FOR STOCKS, BASED ON THE ISLE. THE EMERGING ISLES. THE ISLES EVERYONE IS NOT ON. WHEN YOU FINALLY FIND THE CEREAL, IN THE CEREAL ISLE, YOU'RE ON THE RIGHT ISLE. GET EVERY BOX YOU CAN AFFORD. THERE'S A MILLION DOLLAR PRIZE IN THOSE BOXES. NOT IN ALL OF THEM, MAYBE, BUT NOT ALWAYS ALL OF THEM. THERE ARE BILLIONS OF PRIZES IN CERTAIN CEREAL BRANDS. PURCHASE THE RIGHT CEREAL, LEAVE AN INHERITANCE. I FEEL LIKE, THE BEST WAY TO MAKE A BILLION DOLLARS, IS TO PROMISE TO GOD YOU'LL GIVE HALF OF IT AWAY TO OTHER PEOPLE. THAT'S HOW I DID IT. NO ONE KNOWS YOUR FUTURE NET WORTH, THEY MOSTLY TREAT YOU BASED ON YOUR CURRENT NET WORTH. THE FUTURE IS BRIGHT FOR ALL OF US. LOOK AT WHAT I AM WRITING AND WHAT YOU'RE LOOKING AT. INTERNALIZING. I WANT YOU TO HAVE THE ECONOMIC POWERS I WIELD. IT'S A CIRCUS AND A JUNGLE OUT HERE. THE CIRCUS IS INSIDE OF THE JUNGLE. STAY OUT OF THE CIRCUS, TO GET OUT OF THE JUNGLE.
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SUNDAY JANUARY 5TH, 2020
1.5.2020
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CHAPTER SIX: HOLDING
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HOLDING STOCKS IS FOR BUILDING ECONOMIC POWER. IF YOU CAN MANAGE TO BUILD YOUR ECONOMIC POWER, BEFORE THE STOCKS SURGE, YOU CAN BUY AS MANY STOCKS AS YOU WANT TO. NOT ONLY SHOULD YOU BUY STOCKS, YOU NEED TO BUY STOCKS. WE EMPHATICALLY IMPLORE YOU. STRAIGHT UP, YOU'RE NOT HOLDING STOCKS FOR ME. I WON'T SEE A DOLLAR. YOU KNOW IT. THERE'S NO WAY. YOU ARE HOLDING PORTFOLIOS, FOR YOUR CHILDREN'S INHERITANCE. RIGHT?
WE ARE HERE TO HELP YOU RETIRE. BUY AS MANY STOCKS IN THE EMERGING MARKETS AND DISRUPTIVE TECHNOLOGIES, AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN. YOU WILL RETIRE SOON. I AM A VERY SPIRIT FILLED INDIVIDUAL. I HAVE MY OWN WAVE. WE ARE IN A NEW WAVE. THIS WAVE IS NOT OF MY DOING. I CAN SEE THE WAVE EMERGING ON THE RISE. WITH ECONOMICAL SURFBOARD IN HAND, AFTER LETTING YOU KNOW WHAT THIS WAVE IS CAPABLE OF DOING FOR US, I BID YOU FAREWELL. WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS. I WAS ACTIVELY PURSUING ECONOMIC FREEDOM, THIS IS ALL THAT MATTERED ABOUT ME. I PUBLISHED THE NOTES AND STRATEGY AND THEN I BID YOU FAREWELL.
POSTERITY. FIND OUT ABOUT AS MANY DIFFERENT, LEGITIMATE, WAYS TO LEVERAGE FINANCES. LIMIT YOUR CONSUMPTION EXPENSES, AS MUCH AS YOU CAN. INVEST YOUR BAD HABIT MONEY, INTO THE STOCK MARKET. THOSE WORDS CAUSE FEAR. THIS PUBLICATION, HELPS TO SERVE THE NOTION, FEAR ITSELF IS THE ONLY THING TO FEAR. FDR. I CAN EARN BILLIONS FOR MYSELF AND MY FAMILY. MY CHILDREN. MY BUSINESS PARTNERS. MY MENTOR. EVEN THERE IT IS STILL MUCH FURTHER TO GO. HELP WISE. SERVICE TO OTHERS. SO THIS PUBLICATION, DOES IT'S OWN DAMAGE. DAMAGE TO WHAT, I'M NOT GOING THERE WITH YOU. I JUST WANT TO HELP AS MANY PEOPLE RETIRE AS EARLY AS POSSIBLE.
I FEEL IT DEEP WITHIN MY HEART. ONCE YOU CROSS OVER, YOU TAKE NOTHING WITH YOU. I CAN EARN BILLIONS OF DOLLARS. MONEY CAN BE PUT IN MY CASKET, I STILL DIDN'T TAKE IT. IT'S ALL ABOUT DISTRIBUTION. THE ACCOUNTS I SET UP WILL ONLY HAVE WHAT I NEED IN THEM AND THE REST WILL BE DISTRIBUTED. STOCKS AND ALL DIGITAL ASSETS, UNTIL WE COMPLETE THE LIST. FOR NOW, THE FIRST MILLIONS EARNED, GO INTO HOLDING PORTFOLIOS OF ALL KINDS. STARTING WITH THE STOCKS AND CRYPTO CURRENCIES, HEADING TOWARDS COMMERCIAL AND RESIDENTIAL REAL ESTATE. FLIIPPING HOUSE EQUITIES, TAX LIENS, JOINT VENTURES. I'VE ALWAYS BEEN THE BIG DREAMER. NOW I MUST ACT THEM OUT. DAY BY DAY, IMPLEMENT MORE STRATEGIC HABITS INTO THE SPARE TIME I HAVE.
AT THIRTY, THIS IS GENERALLY WHEN ONE WOULD DELVE INTO FINANCIAL LEVERAGING. I BARELY MADE IT. THE THREE YEAR PREPARATION STUDIES CURVED THE BEND AHEAD. AT THIRTY, AT THIS POINT, I AM FINANCIALLY NEUTRAL, MY DECISIONS BROUGHT ME HERE, TO THIRTY AND NEUTRAL. MY DECISIONS FROM HERE ON OUT, WILL DETERMINE THE LIFE'S SAKE. I BARELY MADE IT. THREE YEARS FROM NOW, WILL BE TEN YEARS FROM THE FIRST ASSET PURCHASED. THE DIGITAL ASSET, THE FIRST EVER. I HAVE WAY MORE STUDYING TO DO. I MUST INCREASE THE STUDYING, AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE. ASAP. AMAP. THE APPLICATION OF WHAT IS STUDIED MUST BE ALL THE THRITIES ARE ABOUT. IF YOU LIVE TO SEE FORTY, THIRTY FIVE FOR YOU. CHILDREN. I HAVE FIVE YEARS TO CREATE THE DREAM SCAPE I WANT FOR MY LIFE SITUATION AND LIFE, BEFORE HAVING A CHILD INSERTED INTO IT BY MY OWN GLANDS. AT MY OWN GLANDS. I WANT TO BE A STAY AT HOME DAD. WE MAKE MONEY FROM HOME OVER HERE BABY.
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SATURDAY JANUARY 11TH, 2020
1.11.2020
6:38PM EST - 7:00PM EST
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CHAPTER SEVEN: ANY RETURN ON YOUR INVESTMENTS
ANY RETURNS ON YOUR INVESTMENTS, MUST SEE THE TAXES FOR IT PAID. IF YOU RETAIN THE PROFITS INSIDE OF MORE INVESTMENTS, OR THE SAME INVESTMENT, YOU DON'T GET TAXED UNTIL YOUR CAPITAL IS DONE GAINING. INVESTING IS IN YOUR BEST INTEREST. INVESTING FOR YOUR BLOOD, IS IN YOUR BEST INTEREST. HOLDING STOCKS IS HOW YOU WILL RETIRE SOON. WITHIN THE DECADE, OF READING THIS MANIFESTO. IF YOU CAN SOMEHOW MANAGE TO ENACT THE STRATEGY, AS MUCH AS I WANTED TO DO, YOU MY FRIEND SHALL RULE YOUR OWN WORLD. RULING YOUR OWN WORLD, IS NOT BEYOND YOUR REACH. HOWEVER, OUR REACH, SHOULD ALWAYS EXCEED OUR GRASP.
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CHAPTER SEVEN SESSION TWO:
1.12.2020
SUNDAY DECEMBER 12TH, 2020
1:42AM EST - 2:54AM EST = 1HR 2M
AT THIRTY YEARS OLD, I AM TERRIFIED OF THE RAMIFICATIONS OF NOT HOLDING STOCKS. OH BOY, I MUST REMEMBER, I WILL BE FORTY, WITH GOD'S GRACES, GOD WILLING, SO I MUST CONTINUE SETTING UP MY LIFE. IN MY TWENTIES, I WAS PURSUING THE ARTISTIC PORTFOLIO. FILMMAKER AND NOVELIST. WHAT NO ONE I KNEW TOLD ME, WAS WHAT I NOW TELL PEOPLE OF, IN REGARDS TO TECH STOCKS. AT THIS POINT, WE GET A DEEP SENSE OF RELIEF, KNOWING WE ARE INVESTING OUR BLACK AND MILD MONEY INTO TECH STOCKS, INCLUDING CRYPTO.
DOING WHAT I AM DOING NOW, WITH INVESTING, IN MY TWENTIES, WOULD HAVE FUNDED CXF AND DXC BY NOW. THAT'S THE REALIZATION OF THE TWENTIES. MY TWENTIES. IN THE 2010s. IN MY THIRTIES, I MUST INVEST AS MUCH AS I CAN INTO MY HOLDINGS. LEARNING TO TRADE, WAS TO FURTHER THE HOLDING ABILITIES. NOW, I HAVE TO TAKE PROFIT FROM THE TRADING. WHEN THE MONEY DOUBLES, PULL IT OFF AND PLACE IT IN THE CURRENCY'S RESPECTIVE WALLET. THEN SEND THE CURRENCY OUT TO HOLD AS CRYPTO, OR TO PURCHASE STOCKS AND REAL ESTATE.
WITH THIS SAID, I MANAGE TO GET THE TRADING RIGHT, THE PROFITS WILL JUST FLOW INTO THE HOLDINGS. THE EARNED INCOME FROM ACTIVE INCOME, WORKING JOBS, WILL GO INTO BILLS AND STOCKS AND CRYPTO. THE BETTER THE TRADING GOES, THE MORE STOCKS CAN BE PURCHASED IN OTHER'S ACCOUNTS. FOR OTHERS. FOR NOW, PURCHASE THEM IN YOUR ACCOUNTS, WITH YOUR MONEY. THE TRADING PROFITS WILL CREATE A MONEY MAKING MACHINE, FROM, TWO MONEY MAKING MACHINES.
EVEN WITHOUT THE TRADING, THE HOLDING PROFIT RETURNS WILL BE MILLIONS. PURCHASING SPECIFIC INDUSTRY STOCKS, OVER THE NEXT DECADE, MY THIRTIES, WILL BRING IN A BILLION, I CAN SEE THAT. TRADING AND HOLDING FROM THE TRADING, FOR TEN YEARS, ON TOP OF HOLDING FROM SLAVE WAGES, WILL DEFINITELY SEE IT FIT FOR BILLIONS. GET THE TRADING, NOW YOU'RE STILL WORKING SLAVE WAGES, BUT THROWING THE HALF OR FULL CHECK INTO THE HOLDINGS. THE TRADING PROFITS NOW PAY FOR THE BILLS, HOWEVER, THE REST OF THE PROFITS GO INTO THE HOLDINGS. THIS IS EXTREMELY IMPORTANT. TRADING IS HARSH TO LEARN FOR YOU ARE CONQUERING YOURSELF, NOT THE MARKET.
YOU WILL LEARN TO CONQUER THE MARKET, AFTER CONQUERING YOURSELF. THIS IS WHAT I AM LEARNING, DOING IT. I MYSELF AM TRADING. I MUST TRADE AGAINST MYSELF. WHEN I TRADE AGAINST MYSELF, I AM ACTUALLY ACCOUNTING FOR THE POSSIBILITY, IN WHICH I MAY BE WRONG. THE OTHER FIFTY PERCENT. CAST BOTH LINES.
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1.12.2020
SUNDAY JANUARY 12TH, 2020
5:47PM EST - 6:27PM EST