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2023.06.06 18:44 JulienMaximeL Big Beach Brawl LTE Thread
| "Big Beach Brawl" Limited Thymed Event Summer is upon us but hot weather is already here, so enjoy those sunny days, from the beach while sipping a cold drink or from work dreaming of upcoming holidays. Enjoy this freshly new Limited Thymed Event featuring BWB Zombies. While navigating through all lvls, you'll face 3 (4) new zombies to add to your almanac: Ducky Tube zombies (basic, Conehead and Buckethead) and Fast Swimmer Be careful they've learnt how to move quicker in the water, and are taking a fast run to your house... Duration: from the 8th June to the 17th June 2023 Number of lvls: 15 Slogan: "Grab your Sunglasses and join the Big Beach Brawl!" Big Beach Brawl Part 1 Big Beach Brawl Part 2 Rewards: - On lvl 3: 2500 coins - On lvl 7: 5 SeaFlora seeds - On lvl 10: 3 Big Beach Brawl Pinatas - On lvl 15: 50 SeaFlora seeds Plants featured: Lily Pad, Tangle Kelp, SeafLora, Toadstool, Bowling Bulb, Ghost Pepper, Rotobaga, Imppear, Dartichoke, Pokra, Snow Pea, Buttercup, Guacodile, Banana Launcher Plants added along: Peashooter, Wall-nut, Draftodil *N.B*: *This event features Big Wave Beach zombies only with 3 new additions: Ducky Tube, Ducky Tube Conehead and Ducky Tube Buckethead zombies. Another kinda new zombie is also joining the rest of the crew: Fast Swimmer zombie, in water he moves faster than any existing zombie (except chicken). In all lvls all plants can be selected, which is kinda the only time. All lvls can be succeeded with adventure lvl 1 plants like the following strat: Sun-shroom/Moonflower, Lightning Reed, Iceberg Lettuce, Magnifying Grass, Chili Bean, Sun Bean, Chard Guard, Bowling Bulb*. **LEVEL 1: Classic lvl with 1 Pre-selected plant** Objective: Survive 2 waves Zombies: Pompadour (basic, Conehead, Buckethead), Ducky Tube (basic, Conehead, Buckethead) Pre-selected plant: Lily Pad Features: - Tide Lane: between C4 and C5 - Lily Pads on C5-L1/3, C8-L4/5 - 1 Peashooter on C5-L3, 1 Wall-nut on C8-L4 Starting sun: 300 Plant food zombie: - 1st Ducky Tube zombie - 3rd basic Pompadour zombie - 2nd Ducky Tube Conehead - Last Pompadour before wave 2 - 1 Conehead on wave 2 Zombie Setup: - 1 basic Pompadour - 1 Ducky Tube basic + 1 basic Pompadour - 1 Ducky Tube zombie + Pompadour (1 basic, 1 Buckethead) - Wave 1: 1 Ducky Tube Conehead, 1 Flag zombie, 1 basic Pompadour - 3 basic Pompadours + 1 Ducky Tube Conehead - 4 basic Pompadours + 1 basic Ducky Tube - 2 basic Pompadours, Ducky Tube (1 basic, 1 Conehead) - Last wave: 1 Ducky Tube Buckethead, Pompadour (5 basic, 2 Conehead), 1 Flag zombie **LEVEL 2: Classic lvl with 2 Pre-selected plants** Objective: Survive 3 waves Zombies: Pompadour basic, Bikini (basic, Conehead), Ducky Tube (basic, Conehead, Buckethead) Pre-selected plants: Lily Pad, Tangle Kelp Features: - Tide Lane: between C3 and C4 - Lily Pads on C4-L3/5, C5-L2, C6-L2/5, C8-L1/3 - 1 Wall-nut on C4-L3 Starting sun: 150 Plant food zombies: - 1st Pompadour after wave 1 - 1st Ducky Tube Conehead - 1 Bikini Conehead before wave 3 Zombie Setup: - 2 basic Pompadours, 1 basic Bikini - Wave 1: 2 basic Pompadours, 1 basic Bikini, 1 Flag zombie - 1 basic Pompadour, Bikini (1basic, 1 Conehead) - Ducky Tube (1 basic, 1 Conehead), 2 basic Bikinis - Wave 2: Ducky Tube (1 basic, 2 Coneheads), 4 basic Pompadours, 2 basic Bikinis - Ducky Tube (2 basic, 1 Conehead, 1 Buckethead), 2 basic Bikinis - Ducky Tube (1 basic, 2 Coneheads, 1 Buckethead), Bikini (1 basic, 1 Conehead) - Last wave: Ducky Tube (2 Bucketheads, 7 Coneheads), 4 basic Pompadour, Bikini (2 basic, 1 Conehead) **LEVEL 3: Pre-selection lvl** Objective: Survive 2 waves Zombies: Ducky Tube (basic, Conehead, Buckethead) Pre-selected plants: SeaFlora, Tangle Kelp Features: - Tide Lane: before C1, so water can come up until C1 - 2 SeaFloras on C3-L2, C7-L4 Starting sun: 825 Sun drop: 50sun every 2s Plant food zombie: - 3rd Ducky Tube - 3rd Conehead - 1 Conehead between waves 1 and 2 Zombie Setup: - 2 basic Ducky Tube - 2 basic Ducky Tube - 2 basic + 2 Coneheads Ducky Tube - 4 Coneheads Ducky Tube - Wave 1: 3 basic + 1 Buckethead Ducky Tube, 1 Flag zombie - 3 basic + 1 Buckethead Ducky Tube - 3 basic + 1 Buckethead Ducky Tube - 2 Coneheads + 1 Buckethead Ducky Tube - 1 basic + 1 Conehead + 1 Buckethead Ducky Tube - 3 basic + 1 Conehead + 1 Buckethead Ducky Tube - Last wave: 6 basic + 4 Coneheads + 4 Bucketheads Ducky Tube, 1 Flag zombie Note: - honestly, it's a pretty hard lvl even if you got a lvl 10 Tangle Kelp - the tide keeps coming until it reaches C1 just before wave 2 - pretty hard to choose between planting SeaFlora on C5/6 to guarantee an attack on 3 lanes or or on C1/2 to keep it long enough alive to kill zombies given the low damage it inflicts - SeaFlora has many bugs: sometimes she stops firing bubbles, when you use a plant food she doesn't throw anything, and if you do it while the tide is coming it doesn't always know how many bubbles it should fire so it shoots none. **LEVEL 4: Classic lvl with 2 Pre-selected plants** Objective: Survive 3 waves Zombies: Bikini (basic, Conehead), Mermaid Imp, Ducky Tube (basic, Conehead, Buckethead), Octo zombie Pre-selected plants: Lily Pad, Toadstool Features: - Tide Lane: between C3 and C4 - Lily Pads on C4-L2/4, C6-L1/4/5 Starting sun: 525 Plant food zombie: - 2nd Ducky Tube - 1 Ducky Tube Buckethead on wave 1 - 1 Octo zombie after wave 1 - 1 Bikini Conehead on wave 2 Zombie Setup: - 1 basic Ducky Tube - 1 basic Ducky Tube - 1 Octo zombie - Wave 1: 1 Ducky Tube Buckethead, 1 basic Bikini, 1 Flag zombie - 1 Ducky Tube Conehead, 1 basic Bikini - Low Tide: 2 Mermaid Imps on C5-L2/5 - 1 Octo zombie - 1 Ducky Tube Buckethead - Wave 2: 2 basic Ducky Tube, Bikini (3 basic, 1 Conehead), 1 Flag zombie - 1 basic Ducky Tube, 3 basic Bikinis, 1 Octo zombie - 2 basic + 1 Buckethead Ducky Tube, 3 basic Bikinis - 4 basic Ducky Tube, 7 basic Bikinis, 1 Octo zombie - Last wave: Low Tide with 3 Mermaid Imps on C4-L1/3, C5-L4, 14 basic + 2 Bucketheads Ducky Tube, 10 basic Bikinis **LEVEL 5: Classic lvl with 3 Pre-selected plants** Objective: Survive 3 waves Zombies: Mermaid Imp, Pompadour Buckethead, Ducky Tube (basic, Conehead, Buckethead), Snorkel, Surfer, Deep Sea Garg Pre-selected plants: Lily Pad, Tangle Kelp, Bowling Bulb Features: - Tide Lane: between C2 and C3 - Lily Pads on C3-L1/3/5, C4-L2/4, C5-L1/3, C6-L4 - 1 Bowling Bulb on C3-L3 Starting sun: 650 Plant food zombie: - 2nd Ducky Tube - 1 Ducky Tube Buckethead after wave 1 - 1 Snorkel before wave 2 - 1 Surfer on wave 2 - 1 Snorkel before wave 3 Zombie Setup: - 2 Mermaid Imps, 1 basic Ducky Tube - 2 basic Ducky Tube - Wave 1: 1 Surfer, 2 Snorkels, 1 basic Ducky Tube, 1 Flag zombie - 1 Ducky Tube Buckethead, 2 Mermaid Imps, 1 Snorkel - 1 basic Ducky Tube, 2 Mermaid Imp, 3 Snorkels - Wave 2: 2 Surfers, Snorkels, 2 basic Ducky Tube, 1 Flag zombie - Low Tide: 2 Bucketheads on C5-L4 and C6-L2, 4 Mermaid Imps on C5-L4, C6-L1/2/5 - 2 basic + 1 Conehead + 1 Buckethead Ducky Tube, 1 Snorkel - 1 Deep Sea Garg, 2 Snorkels - Last wave: 2 Surfers, 4 basic + 1 Buckethead Ducky Tube, 4 Snorkels, 1 Flag zombie **LEVEL 6: Classic lvl with 3 Pre-selected plants** Objective: Survive 2 waves Zombies: Bikini (Conehead, Buckethead), Ducky Tube (basic, Conehead), Surfer, Octo zombie, Fast Swimmer zombie (basic Browncoat) Pre-selected plants: Ghost Pepper, Rotobaga, Lily Pad Features: - Tide Lane: before C1 so the whole board can be submerged. - At the beginning the whole board is submerged by water. - Lily Pads: 5 on C1, 1 on C3-L2, C4-L4, 2 on C7-L1/5 - 1 Rotobaga on C5-L3 - 2 Peashooters on C7-L1/5 Starting sun: 400 Plant food zombie: - 1 Fast Swimmer as 2nd zombie - 1 basic Ducky Tube after the 1st Low Tide - 1 basic Ducky Tube on wave 1 - 1 Fast Swimmer between waves 1 and 2 - 1 basic Ducky Tube just before wave 2 - 1 Ducky Tube Conehead on wave 2 Zombie Setup: - 1 Octo zombie - 1 Fast Swimmer on L5 + 1 basic Ducky Tube - Low Tide (C3): 1 Octo zombie on C5-L5 - 2 basic Ducky Tube - Wave 1: 7 basic Ducky Tube, 1 Flag zombie - 2 Surfers, 2 basic Ducky Tube - 1 Fast Swimmer on L1 + 3 basic Ducky Tube - Low Tide (C3): 2 Bikini Coneheads on C5-L1, C6-L3 - 3 basic Ducky Tube, 1 Bikini Buckethead - High Tide - Last wave: 9 basic Ducky Tube, 2 Ducky Tube Coneheads, 2 Bikini Coneheads, 1 Flag zombie Note: quite easy **LEVEL 7: Classic lvl with 2 Pre-selected plants** Objectives: Survive 3 waves Zombies: Bikini (basic, Conehead, Buckethead), Ducky Tube (basic, Conehead, Buckethead), Fast Swimmer, Octo zombie, Fisherman Pre-selected plants: Lily Pad, Tangle Kelp Features: - Tide Lane: between C3 and C4 - Lily Pads on C4-L4, C5-L2, C7-L1/3, C8-L5 - 2 Guacodiles on C4-L2/4 Starting sun: 625 Plant food zombie: - 1 Snorkel as 3rd zombie - 1 Bikini Conehead just after wave 1 - 1 basic Bikini before wave 2 - 1 basic Ducky Tube on wave 2 - 2 basic Bikinis + 1 Buckethead before wave 3 Zombie Setup: - 1 Fisherman on L2 - 1 Fisherman on L5 - 1 Snorkel - Wave 1: 2 basic Bikinis, 1 Flag zombie - 2 Bikini Coneheads - 1 Fisherman on L4, 2 Ducky Tube Coneheads, Bikini (1 Conehead, 1 basic) - Wave 2: 3 basic Ducky Tube, 8 basic Bikini, 1 Flag zombie - Low Tide: 3 Bikini Coneheads on C5-L2, C7-L1, C8-L4 - 1 Fast Swimmer on L3 + 4 basic Bikinis - Bikini (6 basic + 1 Buckethead) - Last wave: 1 Fisherman on L5, 2 Octo zombies, Ducky Tube (2 Coneheads, 1 Buckethead), 1 Flag zombie **LEVEL 8: Classic lvl with 3 Pre-selected plants** Objectives: - Survive 2 waves - Don't plant on Dave's mold colonies Zombies: Pompadour (basic, Conehead, Buckethead), Ducky Tube (basic, Buckethead), Surfer, Fisherman, Deep Sea Garg Pre-selected plants: Lily Pad, Imppear, Dartichoke Features: - Dave's mold colonies all over C1 and C2 - Tide Lane: between C3 and C4 - Lily Pads on C4-L2/3/4/5, C5-L1/5, C6-L3, C7-L2/4 - 1 Dartichoke on C4-L3 - 1 Imppear on C6-L3 Starting sun: 1050 Plant Food zombie: - 1 basic Pompadour at the beginning - 1 basic Ducky Tube + 1 Fisherman just before wave 1 - 1 Fisherman just after wave 1 - 1 Pompadour Conehead between waves 1 and 2 - 1 basic Ducky Tube just before wave 2 Zombie Setup: - 1 Fisherman + 1 basic Ducky Tube on L3 - 1 basic Ducky Tube, 1 basic Pompadour - 1 basic Ducky Tube, 2 basic Pompadours - 1 Fisherman on L5, 1 basic Ducky Tube - Wave 1: 2 Surfers, 5 basic Ducky Tube, 1 Flag zombie - 1 Fisherman on L2, 2 basic Ducky Tube - 2 basic Ducky Tube, 1 Pompadour Buckethead - 2 basic Ducky Tube, 1 Pompadour Conehead - 3 basic Ducky Tube1 Fisherman on L4 - Last wave: Low Tide with 1 Deep Sea Garg on C6-L2, 2 Surfers on C7-L3/5, 8 basic Ducky Tube, 1 Ducky Tube Buckethead, 1 basic Pompadour, 1 Flag zombie Note: unfortunately the Garg isn't surrounded by any zombies so you can defeat him pretty easily **LEVEL 9: Classic lvl with 1 Pre-selected plant** Objectives: - Survive 2 waves - Protect the endangered plants Zombies: basic Pompadour, Bikini Conehead, Ducky Tube (basic, Buckethead), Mermaid Imp, Snorkel, Surfer, Octo zombie, Deep Sea Garg Pre-selected plant: Lily Pad Features: - Tide Lane: between C3 and C4 - Lily Pads on C4-L2/3/4, C6-L4, C7-L1/5, C8-L3 - 3 Banana Launchers as endangered plants on C4-L2/3/4 Starting sun: 550 Plant food zombie: - 1 Bikini Conehead before wave 1 - 1 Surfer just after wave 1 Zombie Setup: - 5 Snorkels on L2/3/4 (1-3-1) - 2 Bikini Coneheads - Low Tide: 1 Octo zombie on C7-L5 - Wave 1: Ducky Tube (2 basic, 1 Buckethead), 2 basic Pompadours, 1 Flag zombie - 2 Surfers, 1 basic Pompadour - Ducky Tube (2 basic, 1 Buckethead), 2 basic Pompadours - 2 basic Ducky Tube, 2 Snorkels, 2 basic Pompadours - Last wave: Low Tide with 1 Deep Sea Garg on C7-L2; 7 basic Pompadours, 4 Mermaid Imps, 1 Flag zombie Note: such an easy lvl particularly the last wave which is a joke, as it features only basic zombies if we don't consider the Garg on Low Tide **LEVEL 10: Classic lvl with 3 Pre-selected plants** Objective: Survive waves Zombies: basic Ducky Tube, Snorkel, Surfer Pre-selected plants: Lily Pad, Pokra, Tangle Kelp Features: - Tide Lane: between C2 and C3 - 1 Pokra on C2-L3 - 2 Tangle Kelps on C7-L2, C8-L4 Starting sun: 475 Plant food zombie: - 2nd Surfer - 1 Surfer + 1 basic Ducky Tube between waves 1 and 2 - 1 Surfer + 1 basic Ducky Tube between waves 2 and 3 Zombie Setup: - 1 Surfer - 1 Surfer - Wave 1: 1 Surfer, 1 basic Ducky Tube, 1 Flag zombie - 2 Surfers, 1 Snorkel - 2 Surfers, 1 Snorkel, 1 basic Ducky Tube - Wave 2: 3 Surfers, 3 basic Ducky Tube, 2 Snorkels, 1 Flag zombie - 3 Surfers, 1 basic Ducky Tube, 1 Snorkel - 3 Surfers, 1 basic Ducky Tube, 1 Snorkel - Last wave: 3 Surfers, 5 basic Ducky Tube, 3 Snorkels, 1 Flag zombie Note: really needs to add more zombies **LEVEL 11: Classic lvl with 2 Pre-selected plants** Objective: Survive 3 waves Zombies: basic Pompadour and Bikini, Mermaid Imp, basic Ducky Tube, Deep Sea Garg Pre-selected plants: Lily Pad, Snow Pea Features: Tide Lane: between C3 and C4 Starting sun: 700 Plant food zombie: - 2 basic Pompadours just before wave 1 -1 basic Ducky Tube just before wave 2 - 1 basic Ducky Tube on wave 2 - 1 basic Pompadour before wave 3 Zombie Setup: - 1 Mermaid Imp - 1 basic Ducky Tube + 1 Mermaid Imp - 1 basic Pompadour + 1 basic Ducky Tube + 1 Mermaid Imp - 2 basic Pompadour + 1 basic Ducky Tube + 1 Mermaid Imp - Wave 1: Low Tide with 2 basic Bikinis on C6-L4/5; 4 basic Ducky Tube, 5 basic Pompadours, 1 Mermaid Imp, 1 Flag zombie - 2 basic Ducky Tube + 2 basic Pompadours + 1 Mermaid Imp - 4 basic Ducky Tube + 1 Mermaid Imp - 6 basic Pompadours + 1 basic Ducky Tube + 1 Mermaid Imp - 3 basic Ducky Tube + 2 basic Pompadours + 1 Mermaid Imp - Wave 2: Low Tide with 4 basic Bikinis on L2-C5/6, L4-C5/6; 2 basic Ducky Tube, 1 Mermaid Imp, 1 basic Pompadour, 1 Deep Sea Garg, 1 Flag zombie - 4 basic Ducky Tube + 3 basic Pompadours + 1 Mermaid Imp - 4 basic Ducky Tube + 2 basic Pompadours - 2 basic Ducky Tube + 1 Mermaid Imp - 6 basic Ducky Tube + 5 basic Pompadours + 1 Mermaid Imp - 4 basic Ducky Tube + 6 basic Pompadours + 1 Mermaid Imp - Last wave: 5 basic Ducky Tube, 9 basic Pompadours, 1 Mermaid Imp, 1 Deep Sea Garg, 1 Flag zombie **LEVEL 12: Classic lvl with 1 Pre-selected plant** Objectives: - Survive 4 waves - Protect the endangered plants Zombies: Bikini + Pompadour + Ducky Tube (basic, Conehead, Buckethead), Mermaid Imp, Surfer, Octo zombie, Fisherman, Deep Sea Garg Pre-selected plant: Lily Pad Features: - Tide Lane: between C2 and C3 - Lily Pads on C3-L1, C4-L3, C5-L2/4 - 5 Draftodils as endangered plants on C1 Starting sun: 800 Plant food zombie: - 2 basic Ducky Tube as 2nd & 3rd zombies - 1 Fisherman just after wave 1 - 1 basic Pompadour right before wave 3 Zombie Setup: - 1 basic Ducky Tube - 1 basic Ducky Tube - 1 basic Ducky Tube - Wave 1: Low Tide with 2 basic Bikinis on C5-L1, C7-L3, 1 basic Pompadour on C6-L2, 1 Mermaid Imp on C7-L4; 2 basic Pompadours + 1 basic Ducky Tube + 1 Flag zombie - 1 Fisherman, 1 Mermaid Imp - 1 basic Ducky Tube, 1 basic Pompadour - 1 basic Ducky Tube - Wave 2: 1 basic Ducky Tube + 2 basic Pompadours + 1 Mermaid Imp + 1 Flag zombie - 1 Mermaid Imp, 1 basic Pompadour, 1 basic Ducky Tube - Low Tide: 2 Surfers on C6-L1/3, 3 Mermaid Imps on C6-L2/3, C8-L5, 1 Octo zombie on C7-L3, 1 Fisherman on L4 - 2 Mermaid Imps, 2 Surfers, 2 basic Pompadours - Wave 3: 3 Surfers + 1 Flag zombie - Low Tide: 3 Mermaid Imps on C6-L1/4, C7-L2, 1 Deep Sea Garg on C8-L5, 1 Fisherman on L2 - 1 Mermaid Imp, 1 basic Pompadour - 1 Ducky Tube Buckethead, 1 Ducky Tube Conehead, 2 Mermaid Imps, 1 basic Pompadour - 1 Ducky Tube Buckethead, 2 basic Pompadours, 1 Mermaid Imp, 1 Fisherman on L3 and on L4 - Last wave: 2 Surfers, 2 Mermaid Imps, 2 Bikini Bucketheads, 1 Bikini Conehead, 1 Pompadour Pompadour, 1 Flag zombie Note: quite easy as zombies come in small groups **LEVEL 13: Classic lvl with 2 Pre-selected plants** Objective: Survive 2 waves Zombies: Bikini + Pompadour (basic, Conehead, Buckethead), Ducky Tube Buckethead Pre-selected plants: Lily Pad, Toadstool Features: Tide Lane between C4 and C5 Starting sun: 400 Plant food zombie: - 1 Pompadour Conehead just before wave 1 - 1 Pompadour Conehead just after wave 1 - 1 Bikini Buckethead before wave 2 Zombie Setup: - 1 basic Bikini - 2 Pompadour Coneheads - 1 Pompadour Conehead, 2 basic Pompadours, 1 Bikini Conehead - Wave 1: 1 Pompadour Buckethead, 1 Flag zombie - 4 Pompadour Coneheads + 2 basic Pompadour - 1 Pompadour Buckethead, 2 Pompadour Coneheads - 4 Bikini Bucketheads, 1 basic Bikini - Last wave: 1 Ducky Tube Buckethead, 3 Pompadour Bucketheads, 2 Pompadour Coneheads, 1 Flag zombie Note: wave 1 is really a joke, there's only 2 zombies **LEVEL 14: Classic lvl with 3 Pre-selected plants** Objective: Survive 3 waves Zombies: Pompadour (basic, Conehead), Ducky Tube (basic, Conehead, Buckethead), Snorkel, Surfer, Octo zombie Pre-selected plants: Lily Pad, Buttercup, Guacodile Features: - Tide Lane: between C2 and C3 - Lily Pads on C3-L1/3/5, C4-L2/4 Starting sun: 450 Plant food zombie: - 1 basic Pompadour and 1 Snorkel just after wave 1 - 1 Pompadour Conehead and 1 Snorkel just before wave 3 Zombie Setup: - 1 basic Ducky Tube - 2 basic Pompadours - Wave 1: 1 Ducky Tube Buckethead, 1 Snorkel, 1 Flag zombie - 1 basic Pompadour, 1 Pompadour Conehead - 1 Surfer, 5 Snorkels - Wave 2: 3 Snorkels, 2 Ducky Tube Coneheads, 1 Flag zombie - 3 basic Ducky Tube, 1 Ducky Tube Conehead, 1 Ducky Tube Buckethead, 1 Snorkel - 2 basic Pompadours, 2 Pompadours Coneheads, 1 Ducky Tube Buckethead, 1 Snorkel - Last wave: 3 Snorkels, 1 Pompadour Conehead, 1 Octo zombie, 1 Flag zombie Note: imo Buttercup is pretty useless in BWB (not like it was better in other worlds particularly in PP) **LEVEL 15: Classic lvl with 4 Pre-selected plants** Objective: Survive 3 waves Zombies: All BWB zombies + All Ducky Tube + Fast Swimmer Pre-selected plants: Lily Pad, Tangle Kelp, Guacodile, Banana Launcher Features: - Tide Lane: before C1 so the whole board can be submerged - At the beginning the whole board is submerged by water - Lily Pads on C1-L2/3, C2-L4, C3-L2, C6-L2/4, C7-L1, C8-L5 Starting sun: 1050 Plant food zombie: - 1 Pompadour Buckethead just before wave 1 - 1 basic Ducky Tube just after wave 1 - 1 Ducky Tube Buckethead before wave 2 - 1 Snorkel just before wave 2 - 1 basic Bikini on wave 2 - 1 Bikini Buckethead between waves 2 and 3 - 1 basic Ducky Tube and 1 Surfer just before wave 3 Zombie Setup: - 2 basic Pompadours - 2 basic Pompadours - 1 basic Pompadour, 1 Pompadour Conehead - 1 Pompadour Buckethead - Wave 1: Low Tide with 1 Octo zombie on C6-L2; 1 basic Pompadour, 1 Flag zombie - 1 basic Ducky Tube - 1 Fast Swimmer on L1, 2 basic Ducky Tube - 1 Fast Swimmer on L2, 1 Ducky Tube Conehead - 2 Fast Swimmers (L1-L3), 1 Ducky Tube Buckethead - Low Tide with 2 Mermaid Imps on C6-L4, C7-L1 - 1 Fast Swimmer on L2, 1 basic Ducky Tube, 1 Snorkel - 1 Fisherman on L1, 2 Fast Swimmers (L3-L4), 1 Snorkel - Wave 2: 2 Fast Swimmers (L2-L3), 1 Surfer, 1 Snorkel, 1 basic Bikini, 1 Flag zombie - 1 Fast Swimmer on L4, 1 Fisherman on L4, 2 Snorkels - 2 Fast Swimmers (L2-L3), 2 Snorkels, 1 Bikini Conehead, - 1 Fast Swimmer on L1, 3 Snorkels, 1 Bikini Buckethead - Low Tide: 1 Deep Sea Garg on C4-L1 - 1 Fast Swimmer on L4, 3 Snorkels, 1 basic Bikini - 1 Fisherman on L2, 1 Surfer, 1 Fast Swimmer on L5 - 1 Surfer, 1 basic Ducky Tube, 1 Snorkel - Last wave: Low Tide with 1 Deep Sea Garg on C7-L4; 3 Fast Swimmers (L1-L3-L4), 3 Snorkels, 2 basic Ducky Tube, 1 Octo zombie, 1 Flag zombie Note: except the Garg appearing on C4 which really was a surprise, the rest is pretty easy. P.S: - so apart from it being very easy, this new Thymed Event was kinda fun, it's been a long time since we got exclusive BWB lvls and this time with those 3 (4 with Fast Swimmer) new zombies. Actually, this event is the hardest of all thymed events, because of the zombies it features and also the lvl 3 which is a bit of a struggle if you don't have a high lvl Tangle Kelp - could be a great improvement if some of these lvls were added to Penny's Pursuit to implement 'new' lvls and especially BWB ones. - in the same general idea, could be nice if Popcap could add to Thymed Events, the same difficulty chooser option than in Penny's Pursuit, and therefore increase the overall difficulty. - I'll see you in a few weeks for the classic Summer Nights event submitted by JulienMaximeL to PlantsVSZombies [link] [comments] |
2023.06.06 18:44 geoffbeneze The whole story/who's best
I’m probably not the typical Glee fan. I’m 70, happily married, with two adult kids. Last summer, I was cruising FaceBook looking for new music for my wife and me. I found Lea/Rachel singing “ It’s All Coming Back to Me Now’ and was hooked. After playing it 75 or so times, I decided I needed to see an episode. One episode lead led to another, and then binge-watched the entire series.
The initial attraction was the music. A wide variety of styles were exceptionally well produced, and many of Glee’s productions were vastly superior to the originals. As I watched, the Rachel/Finn story became more and more compelling. I stumbled across the Lea/Cory romance while studying the cast and crew. This had elements of my wife and me. Like them, we KNEW from the first date.
In every photo, in every video, and in every interview, Lea/Cory appeared to be indecently happy with one another. Given how nasty our world has become, their happiness was a welcome bit of light and was extremely compelling. When Lea lost Cory, my heart broke with hers, having lost three supremely important people in the last two years, including my brother, just two months ago.
I could speak on this for a long time, but other topics must be explored.
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Voices are very subjective, and there’s unlikely ever to be a consensus on which voice is “best.” Even for me, it’s somewhat confusing. I think Lea and Amber are the best in the show, equal but different.
Amber has a clear, strong, beautiful voice with a good range. And, boy, can she belt them out.
IMO, Lea’s voice is also strong and clear, and beautiful. However, her voice has a much more emotive “color” to it. When the song is bright, she sings brightly. When it’s quiet, she’s quiet, and when it’s sad, she sings sad. Certainly, their voices are equal in pure talent, but that talent presents itself very differently.
While I like Naya and Jenna’s voices, they don’t present the scope that Lea and Amber do. It would have been nice to see them both performing more often, but to me, particularly Jenna, whose alto voice I find very pleasing.
With the boys, Darren clearly had the best voice. Mark may well have a voice that may be equal to Darren’s. Mark certainly appeared to have the broadest talent of all the crew.
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2023.06.06 18:44 PeevesPoltergist Because Pride Month
2023.06.06 18:43 WeirdRich976 How to connect all the fans?
So, for start, let me provide you list of my components that are important for this problem:
Case: Asus TUF GT501 Cooler: Cooler Master MasterLiquid ML240L V2 RGB, 240mm MB: Asus TUF gaming b550 plus(non wifi)
My question is, do i need some sort of splitter or hub to connect all these fans and RGBs? The cooler should come with 1 to 3 RGB splitter. I dont know how many fan and RGB headers i need for case fans, are they plugged separately or the case comes with hub or something, like gt301?
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2023.06.06 18:43 griffskry My old friend from high school (21M) has become completely unhinged, and I (22M) am the only one who seems to want to cut him off
So my friend (I'll call him "Alex") recently moved back home and my friend group has been inviting him to hang out with us. At first, things seemed cool. But after a couple of weeks, Alex started saying absolutely insane shit. Like crazy antisemitic and racist stuff, and he won't shut up about it. It's straight up white supremacist nazi talking points and he tries to get everyone on board with him. We have told him to stop many times, but that seems to only make him want to lean into it more. I suspect that he's desperate for attention and thinks this is the best way to get it. Seeking attention isn't new for Alex, he has always been a pathological liar. But he was never a racist piece of shit like this.
My friend group is diverse and some of them agree with me that we should never hang out with him again. But others still want to bring him around for some reason, perhaps for a fleeting sense of nostalgia from the high school "glory days." It's gotten to the point where I don't even want to hang out with my friends because some of them still want to invite him to things. They'll say "He just has a poor sense of humor. Yeah he's gotta chill a little bit, but he's fun to hang out with and I don't want to stop inviting him. Maybe let's try to talk with him." That quote is from one of my friends after I told him Alex called his black girlfriend the N word with a hard r. I feel like I'm the one going insane. The friends who want to keep inviting him are pretty socially progressive, I am shocked that they don't see what I do. Quite frankly, idk what to do because I want to hang out with my friends because I need the social interaction, but I absolutely do not want to see Alex ever again. How can I keep my friendships, but avoid seeing Alex?
TL;DR - Alex, my old friend from high school, has been hanging out with my friend group. But he has gone insane, full white supremacist nazi shit. I absolutely do not want him around, but a few of my friends insist on inviting him. I can't stand being around him, but I still want to see my actual friends. How can I keep my friends, and avoid seeing Alex again?
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2023.06.06 18:43 Bluegenox Need feedback on fantasy novel
I need someone to give me HONEST feedback on my novel. I used AI to write this and it's my first time writing a book, so I'm not sure what I need to do better. Thanks in advance :)
CHAPTER ONE: THE FRACTURING
Daestopia was one of the billions of worlds in the Multirealm, and it was a serene, flowing land. Lush green forests carpeted its rolling hills, while rolling blue rivers wound through the valleys, and a vast stretch of sky above was dotted with twinkling stars. The people here lived in harmony with nature and each other. And there he sat, Ares, perched on a weathered wooden chair, his gaze unwavering and intense. His midnight black hair was pulled back in a tight ponytail, with not one strand out of place. His eyes were bright blue and sparkled like sapphires as he surveyed the room. He seemed untouchable, as if nothing could ever disturb him. But that was until the day everything changed. That was the day when The Fracturing descended upon Daestopia. Speaking the dreaded word out loud made people shudder as their hearts raced with fear, knowing that it marked the end of everything they had ever known. It was an apocalypse unlike any other, leaving behind only ruins in its wake. The sun shone brightly in the village of Earltree, where farmers tilled their fields and smoke rose from the workshops of the blacksmiths. People went about their day, blissfully unaware of what was to come. Ares was a popular young man- his copper hair and chiseled features attracted admiration, but it was his interactions with nature that truly inspired reverence. Many thought he had some kind of gift, which made sense considering his father's reputation as a great warrior. Little did they know that Ares possessed a gift far beyond what they could imagine. As he strolled through the fields, he felt a deep connection with nature, a bond that was unbreakable. He could feel the pulse of the plants and hear the whispers of the wind. It was as if he could communicate with the earth itself. And when The Fracturing hit, it was this gift that saved him. Ares stood up from his chair, feeling an inexplicable sense of unease. The air around him grew colder, and the trees began to rustle, leaves shaking off their branches as if trying to flee. A flock of birds flew overhead, their chirping turning into panicked cawing as they headed south. Ares knew something was wrong but couldn't quite put his finger on it. That was until he saw the crack in the sky. It started out small, just a hairline fracture that went unnoticed by most. But to Ares, it was like watching a wound slowly tear open. The crack grew wider and wider until it looked like a jagged scar cutting across the sky. A bright light shone through the crack, blinding in its intensity. The people of Daestopia were in a state of shock as they ran through the streets, trying to save what little they could carry. Ares couldn't help but feel sorry for them as he watched them stumble and fall amongst the debris. That was when the monsters appeared. They were hideous creatures, twisted forms of living flesh and steel. Their eyes burned with an inhuman hatred, and their claws glowed as they tore through anything that dared to stand in their way. Townships were destroyed as if by some fierce gale force wind or tidal wave- all in a single nightmarish instant! People screamed for help but no one answered them; only the sound of destruction remained. The people of Daestopia were in a state of shock as they ran through the streets, trying to save what little they could carry. Ares couldn't help but feel sorry for them as he watched them stumble and fall amongst the debris. And soon there was no trace left of Daestopia's serene beauty - not even a memory survived The Fracturing... Daestopia would never be the same. Desperate hope filled our hearts as we began to search for a savior. Someone who could be a hero, someone to free us from this tyranny, and grant us new life. If only we could find them, if only they existed...
CHAPTER TWO: MEETING BJORN
Ares lay in the mud, his small body twisted and broken like a discarded toy. Tears streamed down his face as he cried for help, but his voice was lost in the deafening silence of destruction. All around him, debris from what was once his home littered the landscape like a scene from a post-apocalyptic movie. His heart sunk deeper as he looked around and realized that no one was coming to his aid. He was alone in a world gone mad, doomed to slowly fade away if left on his own. Just then, something made Ares jump from fear – the sound of footsteps! At first he thought it might be someone come to help him but when the figure became clearer in sight, Ares saw with shock that it wasn't a rescuer at all but an old man stepping out amongst ruins like some ancient sage crossed over into another realm by nefarious destiny. The stranger had white hair so long and flowing; only aided further by its brightness against the greyscale backdrop of ruin surrounding them both. His face spoke of untold wisdom and years spent among those who could truly understand life’s struggles yet possessed enough confidence never surrendering hope for better days ahead - even during times such as these. "Hello there young one," said the old man in calming tones "it looks as though you can use some comfort." His voice carried warmth, inviting happiness rather than despair or dread which could have been expected under such circumstances. Ares cautiously looked up at the old man and in a timid voice asked "Who- who are you?" The old man smiled warmly, his wrinkles deepening from joy as he replied. “Do not be frightened young man, I am here to help.” As soon as he spoke those words all of Ares' fear was gone and replaced by hope and faith that maybe this strange person could make something good out of such chaos after all? Just then before either of them had time to react further, terrifying roars echoed through their ears piercing the sky like lightning! Both stilled on instinct looking around wildly for its source – what they saw made their hearts race with terror - A giant monster was coming straight towards them! A fierce roar shook the air as menacing red eyes glared, glinting with predatory hunger. Fangs longer than swords shone in the moonlight, striking terror into the hearts of all who witnessed them. Before Ares could scream in terror, it fell to the ground with a thunderous crash. An arrow had pierced right through its heart. Ares spun around with a gasp and saw the old man standing there, bow drawn, an arrow ready to fire. The man had appeared out of nowhere and saved his life. Ares' voice cracked with emotion as he looked the old man in the eye. "Th- Thank you!" he screamed, his gratitude radiating from him with tears flowing down his eyes. "You- You saved my life! Just who are you?" he questioned in awe. "My identity is irrelevant. You will be enlightened soon enough. But now, follow m - there's no time to waste!" The old man offered Ares his hand, and Ares gladly accepted it. He kept his hand in the old man's as he walked beside him, not knowing where they were going. And finally after some time Ares asked "Where are we going?" The old man smiled and answered, “Home. We’re going home." Eventually, they reached a small hut in the middle of nowhere. The old man motioned for Ares to take a seat while he rummaged around in the hut, eventually pulling out some bread with his withered hands. He placed the food on a table and said, “Eating this will give you strength.” Ares began to wolf down the bread hungrily as he listened in curiosity to what the old man had to say next. The old man then pulled up a chair so that they were sitting face-to-face and said, “I have seen many sorrowful things throughout my life; but I never tire of seeing people come back from despair when all hope has been lost". He paused for a moment before continuing: "My name is Bjorn - an ancient sage charged with guiding men across times of distress; Ready always for adversity and prepared should fate put its faithless test against which none can ever stand guard." Ares gazed at him in awe filled silence too stunned by his words even though he understood them not completely. Bjorn smiled and continued speaking, "Many have lost their way in these dark times, but you have the strength to find your path again. You survived, young one, and that is something to be proud of. Your journey has only begun, and I am here to guide you." Ares listened intently as Bjorn spoke of courage, resilience, and never giving up despite the odds. He learned about ways to harness his internal strength and become a warrior both in mind and body. With each passing day, Ares looked forward to their lessons with Bjorn, eager to absorb as much as he could from the wise old sage. But one day, during a training session, Ares finally found the courage to ask what had been plaguing his mind for days: “Bjorn, why are you helping me? What makes me so special?” Bjorn chuckled gently before replying, “You have been chosen for a great task," Ares' eyes widened in astonishment. "What task?" he asked eagerly. Bjorn took a deep breath and replied, "There is a prophecy that foretells of a great war that will engulf the land. It is a war between good and evil. You, Ares, are the chosen one - the one who will lead the charge against evil and restore peace to this land." Ares looked at Bjorn with disbelief, but as he saw the sincerity in the old man's eyes he knew that there was truth to his words. He had always felt a sense of destiny calling out to him, and now he finally knew why. Bjorn stood up slowly, his eyes shining with purpose. "It is time to begin your training in earnest. The task ahead will not be easy, but I have faith that you will succeed. You must learn to harness the power within you and become a true warrior of light." Ares nodded eagerly, his heart pounding with excitement. He was ready for whatever lay ahead. Days turned into weeks, and weeks turned into months and months turned into years as Ares trained relentlessly under Bjorn's tutelage. With each passing day, he grew stronger and more confident, his skills in combat improving vastly. But even as he honed his physical prowess, he also delved deeper into the mysteries of magic and spirituality under Bjorn's guidance. He learned how to channel the energy of the universe through his body and mind, gaining greater control over his abilities until he felt like a master of his own destiny. "Say," Bjorn said as the sat back down in his chair. "have you heard of the Xonin?"Ares furrowed his brow. The Xonin? It sounded vaguely familiar, like some half-remembered myth from the distant past. "No, I haven't," he admitted. Bjorn's eyes glinted as he spoke. "The Xonin is the legendary artifact that wields the power to cure what ails our planet. If you don't find it in time, the world is doomed." Ares shivered at the thought. "What does this have to do with me?" Bjorn leaned forward, his gaze intense. "The Barrier is broken. The Barrier that diverges our world from others has been fractured, and the Xonin is the only thing that can repair it." He paused for a moment before continuing: "You have been chosen for this task. The Xonin would not let you die, that's why you're alive right now." Ares felt a sense of dread wash over him. The fate of the entire world was now resting on his shoulders, and he was not sure if he was ready for such a responsibility. But he knew that he had come too far to give up now. He took a deep breath and asked, "Where can I find the Xonin?" Bjorn smiled knowingly. He got up from his heat and grabbed a thick, dusty book. It looked like it was decades old. "Take this." Bjorn handed him the book. "What's this?" Ares said as the held the book in his hands. It was extremely heavy. "This is my logbook. I have recorded all my adventures and journeys inside this very book." Bjorn replied. Ares opened the book, and his eyes widened as he saw pages upon pages filled with notes and sketches. "This is amazing," Ares said quietly. "I can't believe you've been to all these places." Bjorn chuckled. "Yes, I've seen many worlds in my time. But there's one in particular that you need to visit." He pointed to a map inside the book. "Here - this is the world of Ziraxia. It's a dangerous place, filled with ancient ruins and powerful magic, but the Xonin resides there." Ares studied the map carefully, his heart racing with excitement. "You're giving this to me?" Ares asked with a face of amazement. "I have no need for it anymore, and someone like you deserves it." Bjorn replied. Ares felt honored to be trusted with something so valuable. He knew that he would have to travel to Ziraxia alone, but he felt reassured knowing that he had Bjorn's logbook as a guide. Ares' face suddenly turned upside down. "Bjorn, I don't think I'm ready." Ares said while setting down the book slowly. "It's too much work. I'm only 9 years old after all." Bjorn smiled and held Ares' hand firmly. "You'll be ready in no time. I will train you, and teach you all you need to know." Ares' felt a little better now, and he decided to head to sleep. "I'm tired. Can I go sleep somewhere?" Bjorn showed him around. There was a nice, comfortable pile of hay in front of him, which looked very comfortable. "You can sleep here," Bjorn said "though it may not look comfortable, you'll get used to it soon." Ares didn't think twice before jumping onto the mound of hay and quickly falling into a peaceful sleep. Bjorn put out the torch and walked out of the room, with a huge grin on his face, knowing that he had found Daestopia's next savior.
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2023.06.06 18:42 tgodhoward In 6 weeks I'll finally be free for the first time in my life.
Hey guys, I'm not sure if anyone cares really but i need somewhere i can share where people will understand.
As the title states I'm six weeks away from finally getting fully out. My childhood was complicated, my actual parents were heavily abusive so at 11 i was placed with my aunt and uncle (who had recently suffered a TBI, this plays a big part later on). At first this seemed like a godsent. I went to bed for the first time the night after that not having to blockade my door out of fear of someone busting in drunk to take the days anger out on me.
I knew when i moved in that they were JWs but being a kid i had no idea what that actually meant. Boy did I find out fast. I really wasn't into it at first but was terrified I'd be sent back if i didn't do what was asked (to be clear this was never threatened, just A personal fear) so i went to meetings, went out in service ect ect. By 12 i was an unbaptized publisher, at 13 i was baptized. I got really into it for the next 7 years. Fully on the ministry school and everything. At 18 things turned at home and i ended up being a caretaker for my uncle as my aunt couldn't handle it on her own anymore. That was fine, i really didn't mind helping out. But it soon became much more then that and by 19 i was handling his care 24/7.
This whole time i was being assured this is what Jehovah wanted and i was doing exactly what he wanted me to. That was until I started missing meetings and my service time fell off a cliff. I had made many friends over the years but as i missed more and more i noticed they distanced themselves from me to the point of ignoring my texts calls ect completely. I was left alone caring for an uncle (and at this point my aunt as well). At this point i felt completely abandoned. I was doing what i was told over and over was the right thing only to be punished for it.
As you can imagine around this time i started questioning things. I read the bible for the first time without having the watchtower to tell me how to feel about things, and very quickly i realized i didn't agree with it. Not only did it contradict historical evidence, i realized the God i had been worshiping was cruel. The "god of love" id been sold was a lie. The one I was reading about was a rageful vengeful god who murders children with bears, condones slavery and plans on killing BILLIONS of innocent people because they don't live exactly the way he wants.
At first i wanted to be wrong. I went to the elders with questions just to be told it's not our place to question him, hes righteous and i shouldn't dwell on it.
Around this time i had started making friends over xbox live. I truly believe they're the only reason I'm still here. One of them became the best friend I've ever had, I'll call him Tom here.
Tom had an extremely similar childhood to mine with a few differences, only he was raised JW and had an abusive mom.
We found each other as we were both going PIMO, and have stuck together ever sense. I know you're probably all sick of hearing things like this your whole life, but Tom really is my brother. I love him more then anyone else on this planet and would do anything for him and know that he would do the same.
We'll fast forward a bit here because my life was basically set on pause from 20-25. Taking Care of my uncle every day and spending what i have left on Xbox. Covid also hit during this time which definitely did not help things.
This brings us to about a year ago now. Tom brings up the possibility of me moving in with him in july of this year and helping him run his business. I was so happy i almost cried. There was A lot to do, there still is but the date is finally set in stone. In six weeks ill be free from this cult for good. I have no idea where to go from here. It feels like my entire life has been a waste until now (ill be 27 a month after i leave and feel like i haven't gotten to experience anything). But I can't wait for all the new experiences. Like my first Christmas and other holidays ect.
Im not really sure how to end this, but i just want to say to all those who are PIMO and feel stuck don't lose hope. And I hope you f find a way out soon.
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2023.06.06 18:42 Express-Substance-83 Organize PDFs in Remnote (and Zotero)
Hi everyone,
i am very new to remnote and I want to use this tool for university now.
Are there any common ways or tips on how to organize especially PDFs in Remnote? I have heard that many students use tools like Zotero to manage materials but there currently is no real integration between Zotero and Remnote. So do you recommend importing a PDF to Zetero and then into Remnote as well or are there better ways to do so?
Thanks a lot!
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2023.06.06 18:42 SarkastiCat [Eurovision] [Pre-selections for Eurovision] UnPolished pre-selections
Eurovision Song Contest is an international competition that has been running annually since 1956. It's a massive event as a total of 52 countries participated in Eurovision and it's a fun event. Everybody has their own reason for watching it from supporting their own country, celebrating different cultures, enjoying music to appreciating Dustin the Turkey.
You don't need to know details on how voting works or how Eurovision works as we are going to focus on something else. Specifically, the process of choosing the performer. Some countries have a committee that picks a willing performed and some host a competition.
The size and length of the competition differ in each country as every country has their own budget. You can either have Swedish Melodifestivalen or Polish Tu Bije Serce Europy! Wybieramy hit na Eurowizję!. Today, we are going to focus on Poland's history of pre-selections and the latest drama.
Important information.
The post is a bit unique due to the nature of the sources. It's recommended to listen to music videos from 2023 with headphones and without them to get the full experience. There will be mentions of gossip and conspiracies, so wearing a tin foil hat is recommended. Almost all sources are in Polish and they were translated by me. I'm not a professional translator and so I am prone to making mistakes. After a while, this post is going to be edited to include a link to a comment explaining the translation process. Some sources have comments sections and you may encounter triggering content.
Holding onto memories - The history of Poland in Eurovision
Poland debuted in 1994 with "To nie ja" by Edyta Górniak, who was sent by a Polish tv broadcaster known as TVP. The song
almost got disqualified, but it wasn't and Górniak got 2nd place for Poland. It was the first time, when Poland was in the top 3 and also currently the last one.
Then there were 5 years of being outside the top 10, which resulted in Poland withdrawing from Eurovision 2000. Poland returned for the 2001 edition, but Piasek's bad performance resulted in Poland withdrawing again.
Then in 2003, Ich Troje with "Keine Grenzen - Żadnych Granic" finally breaks the unlucky strike as they manage to get 7th place. Unfortunately, the unlucky strike comes back. Blue Cafe only manages to get 17th place. Next years are similarly bad. 2 years of not qualifying for the final, 24th place and 3 years of not qualifying. One of the representatives that didn't qualify was Ich Troje, who came back with "Follow my heart".
Poland withdrew again for 2 years, partially due to hosting UEFA Euro with Ukraine. The return of Poland in 2014 was controversial as "My słowianie" by Donatan & Cleo was chosen. The song is basically about how Slavic girls are the best wives as they know how to use body language. It divided Polish viewers. Some treated it as a fun satire of Polish stereotypes (hypersexual girls, poor old-fashioned country, etc.), while others had issues with the song spreading these stereotypes and the sexual nature of the music video.
According to one of the biggest Polish newspapers, Britain described the song as a typical weird Eurovision song and they thought it was about bread. Sweden threw sexism allegations, while Germany described the music video as softcore porn.
It also started a discussion about Eurovision and how it's viewed by others. The same newspaper described Polish viewers treating participation in Eurovision as a matter of national pride and how the scale of emotions is similar to a schizophrenic patient running from one end of the room to another. Even when the quality of competition can be questionable.
Donatan&Cleo got 14th place and Poland didn't withdraw. It was probably a good decision as Michał Szpak with his song "Colour of Life" got 8th place in 2016. There were two controversies surrounding Szpak. One of them was a difference between televotes and judges' votes, but the controversy was quickly forgotten. Another controversy is related to TVP, but I will cover it later.
Then Poland got 22nd place and it had 3 songs not qualifying for a final in the row, again. The third song that didn't qualify was "The Ride" by RAFAŁ, which became a meme due to a horrible live performance. It was so bad that many Polish viewers wanted RAFAŁ to not qualify for finals.
The unlucky strike got interrupted by "River" by Ochman, who managed to get 12th place. The live performance became meme due to cheap special effects.
I ain't done yet - Everything about TVP
TVP (Telewizja Polska S.A) is one of the oldest TV broadcasters in Poland and also a controversial one. If you say "politics" and "TVP" in one sentence, you are legally allowed to change your name to Pandora. But you can't escape from TVP, especially if you are interested in music competitions for newcomers. They are associated with one of the biggest music festivals in Poland (Opole Festival) and run three different editions of The Voice (Of Poland, Kids and Senior). Other TV broadcasters don't offer too much. Polsat keeps changing trying different formats and the last music competition was in 2020. TVN has only Got Talent.
Going back to Eurovision, TVP is responsible for anything related to Eurovision. Depending on the year, you may expect either an internal selection carried or a competition. Both of them have their own unique reputation due to many reasons.
The most controversial entry from an internal selection is The Ride from 2021. At that time, most people expected to see Alicja with her song "Empires". Alicja won Szansa na Sukces (a music competition, where singers get a chance to perform somewhere) and she was supposed to participate in Eurovision 2020, but it got cancelled due to covid. Most countries decided to send their 2020 representative, so expectations weren't unreasonable. Yet, TVP decided to do something else and Poland ended up getting multiple memes about RAFAŁ instead of the sweet victory.
However, this doesn't mean that music competitions are without flaws. Some people in TVP wanted to remove Michał Szpak from the competition due to being worried about him potentially winning, but the
director Radek Kobiałko and other people organising the competition 2016 decided to stand up against it. The reason behind it is unclear, but Michał Szpak used to be controversial due to his androgynous looks and presentation.
Then there were some minor issues with the first edition Tu Bije Serce Europy!, which were brought up one year later due to the 2023 drama. Some viewers have noticed that one song "Paranoia" by Daria has been promoted by TVP. Daria performed her song before the show. She performed at New Year's Eve's Music Festival by TVP and somebody could say that was TVP's conspiracy to secure Daria's televotes victory. However, Ochman won and some say it was due to the voting consisting of two rounds.
This leads us to 26th February 2023 and the latest drama. Grab your popcorn as we are going back to the past and I am going to serve as your host.
Welcome to the party - The show
It's 17:30 and you are watching TVP 1. The show begins and so it's time to explain to you how the show works.
Tu bije serce Europy! Wybieramy hit na Eurowizję! 2023 works similarly to the previous edition. Every performed could send one song and that song had to meet standard requirements for Eurovision. Specific requirements are under point 6 and other rules, can be read
here. Around 300 songs were sent to TVP and only 10 of them could make it to the show.
Each judge has 100 points and they have to judge each contestant... That's how I would explain rules if they weren't changed
4 days before the competition. It was a fully legal move from TVP as rule 39 specifies that TVP has the power to change rules. The explanation was given by TVP and rules were changed to be closer to those in Eurovision.
Now each judge gives points (12, 10, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1) to contestants. Points are then added together and the contestant with the highest total gets 12 points. The next person gets 10 points, etc. Viewers can still vote and they are still as important as judges. Voting works the same, except viewers don't give points.
Without further ado, let's meet the judges and the contestants.
The judges - Edyta Górniak - She is our first judge and the chairwoman of judges. She is a singer active since 1990 and she has been at the centre of gossip magazines since her participation in Eurovision. She was a judge in some TVP music competitions such as The Voice of Poland and she performed in many events organised by TVP. She also performed in other shows hosted by other TV broadcasters. Like in the case of many stars, Górniak caused many controversies. One of the things that you should know is the fact that Górniak is spiritual and openly talks about her beliefs.
- Agustin Egurrola - If you are watching a music/dance competition or a music festival on TV, you will probably see him or his name. Egurolla is a famous dancer and choreographer. He worked in many different shows as either a dance choreographer or a judge. His dancers performed at NYE Music Festival 2022.
- Marek Sierocki - So there is a mixture here. He is well known for journalism, hosting some music competitions or being a commentator for those. This includes Eurovision Junior 2021.
- Aneta Woźniak - A new director in TVP. There isn't a lot of information about her and she was mostly involved with TVP ABC (a channel for children).
- Marcin Kusy - A director of Polish radio Jedynka.
The contestants - Natasza "Lift U Up"- If you ever watched other Polish pre-selections or 365 days, you may know her. Her career is longer than my life and you would probably see her at least once on TVP.
- Kuba Szmajkowski "You Do Me"- A fresh blood in the Polish celebrity world. His career started after performing in The Voice Kids 2017 and he managed to perform in finals. He performed in TVP's New Year's Eve Music Festival 2021 and 2022
- Ahlena "Booty" - A new singer that never for the public. She started composing in 2020 and her first song was "Booty".
- Dominik Dudek "Be Good" - The winner of the latest edition of The Voice of Poland that had a final in November 2022. The show started his career.
- Alicja "New Home" - The winner of pre-selections for Eurovision 2020, which unfortunately didn't happen due to covid. She has won 3 music competitions broadcasted by TVP and her music career has been steady since 2019.
- Felivers "Never Back Down" - Another fresh blood in the music world that has been active for 3-4 years. They performed Uptown Funk at TVP's NYE music festival 2022.
- Maja Hyży "Never Hide" - An established star that has started her music career thanks to TVN's X Factor 2012. She performed with Kuba Szmajkowski in 2021 and 2022 at the same music festival.
- Jann "Gladiator" - His career started in 2020 and performed in an alternative music festival known as Off Festival. Tu Bije Serce Europy! is his TV debiut.
- Blanka "Solo" - 2021 can be considered as the start of her music career. Solo is her second song and she performed it for TVP's NYE Music Festival 2022. She also performed as a guest for You Can Dance - Nowa Generacja 2.
- Yan Majewski "Champion" - Yan is another contestant of The Voice of Poland, specifically the 2021 edition. He later performed at the Grand Prix Festival of young talents 2022, TVP's NYE music festival 2022 and You Can Dance - Nowa Generacja 2.
At this point, you may probably see 3 things that were pointed out by fans and the media. The most obvious one is a lack of songs in Polish. Feliver's song only has one Polish segment and that's it. It has been a point of competition criticism, but it isn't anything abnormal. Poland has sent multiple entries in English and even English & Spanish before.
Another thing that can be noticed is the fact that only Ahlena and Jann don't have ties to TVP. Many contestants have performed for TVP at one point and many of them performed a couple of months before the competition. In the case of Yan Majewski and Blanka, you could see them on TVP a couple of days before the competition.
The third thing would be the quality of the show. While not all videos come directly from TVP, the quality doesn't differ that much from what you would see on TV.
Journalists and fans openly talked about their ears bleeding thanks to some performances. There were even jokes about the quality of special effects and anything related to visuals. At this point, Poland's special effects are a meme and you can find videos depicting how the performance of (Insert Eurovision 2023 contestant) would look like if they represented Poland. What doesn't help is the fact that
recordings from the audience and journalists tend to have better audio.
From things that you could only see by watching the full show, all contestants got at least one round of applause from the public. The craziest applause was for Jann before and after his performance. The beginning of his introduction could be barely heard and even hosts acknowledged the madness after his performance.
Now let's reveal results. During the show, Edyta Górniak was responsible for revealing results.
Name | Score |
Blanka | 12 |
Dominik Dudek | 10 |
Felivers | 8 |
Jann | 7 |
Natasza | 6 |
Alicja | 5 |
Yan Majewski | 4 |
Kuba Szmajkowski | 3 |
Maja Hyży | 2 |
Ahlena | 1 |
This didn't sit well with the public. When Jann's score was revealed, many people started booing. It was so loud that Edyta Górniak had to ask whoever was giving her score to repeat themselves and you could hear it on TV.
There was also another moment of booing and screaming "EDYTA" after the results were revealed. Then it changed to screaming "USTAWKA" (set-up) and one of the hosts had to calm down the public again. Performances of the contestants were replayed and you can guess what happened when Jann's performance was shown. The crowd went for applause this time and became quiet during Blanka's performance.
This brings us to televoting. Rules changed again and now you can send up to 20 SMS from one SIM card. The cost of one SMS is 3.69 zł, which was the equivalent of $0.83 (US), £0.69 or €0.78. The total number of votes is unknown.
So now let's reveal the final score and the televote scores.
Name | Total Score | Televote Score |
Blanka | 22 | 10 |
Jann | 19 | 12 |
Dominik Dudek | 18 | 8 |
Felivers | 14 | 6 |
Yan Majewski | 11 | 7 |
Alicja | 10 | 5 |
Natasza | 8 | 2 |
Kuba Szmajkowski | 6 | 3 |
Maja Hyży | 6 | 4 |
Ahlena | 2 | 1 |
Originally, TVP didn't reveal televote scores and viewers only had the total score. The televote ranking has been released by
TVP one day later. Number of televotes is still not confirmed. According to
one source, TVP has received over 35000 votes. There is also gossip that Jann has received 18000 votes, while Blanka has received only 6000.
But even without specifics, the audience was lukewarm. When 2nd place and 1st place were about to be revealed, the audience was cheering for Jann. When Blanka was revealed, the audience lost its energy. There were some cheers instead of booing, but they weren't too loud.
They mad - Initial reactions
While Blanka's show didn't end with booing, celebrities and social media exploded.
The celebrities' side had reactions ranging from strongly negative to neutral. Ralph Kamiński was
openly supporting Jann and even promoted him. He also criticised the format of the show and how only viewers should decide whom to send to Eurovision. He called the situation a "SCANDAL!" and "SHAME!!!".
Michał Szpak was supporting Jann. When the results were revealed, he
supposedly end up laughing and swearing on Instagram. During one of his interviews,
he openly states that he is in Team Jann but he will be still supporting Blanka. He also added there will be lots of work for Blanka, but he is still hopeful and the song itself is catchy.
Maja Hyży, Kuba Szmajkowski,
Doda and
Roxie Węgiel (Eurovision Junior 2018 winner) share similar views. Their interviews can be reduced to how they were cheering for Jann or another contestant, but it doesn't mean that they will not support Blanka. Then there is a small talk about how she doesn't deserve hate or how her song is catchy.
When ask about songs and singing abilities,
Agnieszka Hekiert end up praising Jann's vocal abilities and only said that Blanka's song is a well-produced pop piece. Similarly, Ochman
avoided answering a more direct question "Does Blanka sing nicely?".
Another celebrity worth mentioning is Ramona Rey. She also
preferred Jann and she was the first celebrity to call out the lack of clarity from TVP regarding how songs for the show were selected. She also called out the lack of Polish songs and mentioned how her rejected song predicted the future.
Even those supporting other contestants had a negative reaction to Blanka. Sandra Kubicka was supporting and promoting Dominik Dudek due to him "
singing, playing the guitar, composing and writing his own songs". Her reaction to Blanka was calling her song "disco polo". Disco polo has a similar reputation to modern pop. Some love it and some consider it low-quality music.
Social media was less kind than celebrities. People were either attacking Blanka or TVP. Every tiny move of judges and contestants was analysed. Some even dug through the social media of contestants to make their point about how somebody deserves or doesn't deserve to represent Poland. At that time, you could easily encounter homophobia, racism and conspiracy theories.
Media obviously decided to produce multiple articles about this situation and every website presented something different. It's hard to say if they media the situation worse or better as multiple things have been happening at the same time.
People were divided. For some, Blanka was
a twin sister of Ariana Grande that didn't show anything special. That's from one article and from there comments kept getting worse or better. Blanka was either considered a shallow rich girl with a generic song or a singer making others smile with her summer vibes. On another hand, Jann was a talented underdog who was too controversial for TVP or a copy of Måneskin that was singing out of tune.
TVP and others also got lots of comments. Some openly stated that they would be fine with Jann losing, if TVP decided to send either Dominik Dudek or Alicja. Others mentioned the political situation in Poland and how TVP perfectly shows corruption in Poland. One of the things that got pointed out was Blanka having a contract with Warner Music Poland and how TVP could earn money by having Blanka work for them.
Similar theories were slowly popping out and they were discussed by fans. So quickly fix your tin foil hats as we will be moving to the next sections.
Dance along with me - Egurrola's involvement
One of the most popular theories was how judges were voting for Blanka due to personal reasons. Agustin Egurolla and Edyta Górniak were the main focus of these theories.
To start with Egurrola, you can't run away with him as he is always doing something associated with dancing. He either sends his dancers or creates choreographies for multiple shows. Egurolla was supposedly working with Blanka for NYE 2022 music festival and
his dancers performed with her for Tu Bije Serce Europy!. There were implications of potential bias and some people pushed this theory further. Supposedly, Egurrola didn't want Jann as Jann wouldn't agree to perform with his dancers and Egurolla wouldn't make money. The extra bit of this theory is based on the fact that Jann created his own choreography and performed without dancers.
Egurolla's controversy got worse thanks to his co-worker, Michał Piróg. Piróg published on his Instagram a picture of him with Egurrola and judges from You Can Dance - Nowa Generacja. In his description he wrote:
"I always sat behind the table and waited for something that would suprise me and enchant me, but there were those who asked beforehand "Who should be the best?"...."
This was later followed up by his comment, which appears to be deleted. Fortunately, the media saved it.
"The chairman, the second man on the picture, the man of the internal businness. Call it as you like"
The post was published a couple of days after the show and most people interpret it as
a criticism of what happened in Tu Bije Serce Europy! and the implication that Egurrola had something to do with Blanka's victory.
In the end, the drama surrounding Egurrola died after a reveal that
he will not work on Blanka's choreography for Eurovision.
Everybody has somebody - Involvement of Górniak's family
In the case of Górniak, there were multiple dramas surrounding her and her son. They lived for longer than Egurrola's drama due to Edyta's multiple responses and the fact that she was a chairwoman of judges.
Allan Krupa is Edyta's son and he is known as Enso. Most articles refer to him using his real name and so I am going to use it to be more or less consistent.
Going back to the main topic, it has been noticed that
Allan was sitting next to Blanka during the competition and one picture was enough to start drama. People quickly started calling Blanka his friend or even lover. However, the first theory that Blanka is his friend became more popular due to Allan already dating somebody.
Allan quickly reacted to negative comments as some people were also attacking his girlfriends. He explained that
he didn't even know there were pre-selections and he knew about them after his mother called him a day before. He didn't know other contestants, except for Felivers. He thought that Blanka was just a dancer and she asked him if she can sit next to him.
This wasn't the end as Allan went on some angry rants. Some phrases can't be directly translated without losing their original meaning, so I've tried my best to localise some bits. Check this comment for more information.
"People are writing to me - as if I had a f^^^ing connection to Eurovision - you are re^^^^ed or you are f^^^ing something else"
There was also
another rant where he called people NPCs and how they make sh^t on the internet like animals for attention. He ends his rant saying that he understands that pre-selections are a situation of life or death and there is slaughter, when somebody doesn't win.
His story of not knowing Blanka was considered as weird. If it was true, then why Blanka had to search for a seat? Some questioned the legitimacy of this story as Allan has performed at NYE Music Festival 2022 like Blanka and he could theoreotically meet her there.
Allan was later defended by Edyta. He also posted some memes about how he manipulated pre-selections and Eurovision.
You do you and I do me - Edyta's involvement
Just after Blanka's victory,
Górniak has been interviewed. She started her interviews by saying that Blanka was chosen by judges and also viewers, when she was expecting to see a change. She then went on a talk about how she thinks that viewers chose Blanka as they need something sunny and international. Also, how people lack something optimistic after all these dramas in their lives.
She then started describing Jann. She described him as demonic, but characteristic and full of charisma. The use of the word "demonic" became controversial and a meme due to being peculiar. What makes the situation worse is the reputation of Edyta when it comes to spirituality. As I've previously mentioned, Górniak is open about her beliefs and she even talked about bad energies, including how Halloween is bad. Funnily,
Jann and somebody from his environment knew about this line and even made a joke about his salt necklace and potential exorcism. To add salt to this situation,
a recording from Dobry wieczór Europo! caught Górniak looking away and staring at the ceiling during the performance of Jann.
The day after the show,
Edyta wrote a comment on her Instagram post saying that if anybody sees issues with the clarity, they should report them to the producer of the show.
There was also a small misunderstanding of rules from Edyta's side as she said that
if people really wanted Jann to win, he would have won as televotes are responsible for 50% of the total score. But according to her, there were probably not enough votes sent to him. To clarify, Jann got the maximum possible amount of points from viewers and it's unlikely that getting more votes would change anything. So either Górniak was confused by how scores work or she didn't know that Jann has won televote.
Small bits like that started accumulating and started creating a weird picture. During one of the interviews, Edyta stated that
judges were questioning a bit if they should vote together or separately. At the end they shared each other's views while hiding their notes and voted separately.
The weirdest thing was
the timeline of events presented by Edyta. According to her, votes were collected right away and judges didn't have time to further discuss them. Votes were counted while she was preparing for her guest performance during the ad break. However, later she stated that judges gave their voting cards when she was going to the stage to perform. What doesn't click here is the fact that Górniak was performing after the ad break.
This either means that votes were collected twice (before and after the ad break) or Górniak misremembered the timeline of events. This added fuel to the fire and people kept asking for voting cards.
Górniak responded to that stating that she wouldn't have issues with her voting card being revealed. She also revealed that she was receiving results through her earpiece. It had a mixed reaction as TVP didn't reveal anything specific about voting cards and the bit about the earpiece fuelled the theory that somebody was manipulating behind the scenes.
The whole drama with
Edyta Górniak was closed by her final comments. In one of the deleted comments she openly said that she is getting hatred for just reading results and some hatred is coming from people due to her being an easier target than the institution. Then there were two comments that you just have to read:
"Regarding the project Eurovision, I've lost my trust to everybody. Even if the rules were about to be change and fixed, I will never go back to this topic. I've seen what was happening last year, I have also seen what people were doing when Rafał was sent to Eurovision. And now the same thing is happening. I feel like a shield that was borrowed by somebody and put at the front of doors. This topic is closed for me."
The other comment:
"I am sure that time will tell and respond to all doubts. [...] I recommend to remember that despite of me being an influential person, I am not a boss of bosses and I can't do everything. [...] I will pray for justice"
You are about to know - Other dramas
So before we talk about Blanka herself, there are some small things worth mentioning. They are mostly based on gossip and they didn't live too long.
According to one of the theories, TVP was setting up MaRina as Poland's representative.
She supposedly had to just send her song and everything would be set up. But after her performance at NYE Music Festival 2022, she supposedly withdrew.
From the same source, there is
a gossip that one judge had issues with Jann's costume and choreography They supposedly found his costume as too inappropriate and too controversial. His choreography supposedly had some errors. These factors together supposedly created an impression on this judge that Jann would struggle to get points at Eurovision.
Another drama was caused by the release date of the article about Blanka's victory. The article was supposedly released around 2 hours before the competition and some people supposedly have seen it before Blanka's victory was revealed. However, there is no evidence of that and
TVP explained the issue with the time of the article. The article supposedly saved the date of creation of the article instead of the release or final edit. The article was created early to publish results as fast as possible and it didn't contain names of contestants.
The final thing worth mentioning is an article talking about how
pre-selections in Moldova and Serbia were better than Polish pre-selection. Moldova showed the individual votes of judges and amount of votes sent by viewers, while Serbia released voting cards. Even Lithuania and Latvia were praised.
The cherry on top is a depiction of how much Germany's ranking would change if they followed the rules of Polish pre-selections. Lord of the Lost would get a second, while Will Church (the winner of the judge's voting) would win instead.
This is similar to one theory that the previous representative of Poland, Ochman wouldn't win if the competition followed new rules. This cemented an impression that rules were changed to set up a winner.
It's kinda crazy - Blanka
Since results the reveal of the results, Blanka had to deal with multiple comments and memes. Depending on whom you ask, their perception of Blanka will vary. For some, she became "Bejba" due to her pronunciation of "Babe" and multiple memes. Bejba became viral and
Ochman joined the trend. Even B
lanka herself embraced the meme by wearing a dress with the text "Bejba". She explained her decision by stating that everybody now calls her bejba.
For some, she became a symbol of everything wrong with TVP and people started searching for evidence of corruption or Blanka being evil.
Somebody pointed out that
Blanka's mother was working for TVP as a make-up artist for some shows. But it's possible that she was working for a company that happened to work for TVP and other tv broadcasters. For some, it was treated as evidence that Blanka has direct connections to TVP and there could be some bias.
Then there was another controversy regarding Blanka's social media.
She supposedly liked comments that were saying that Jann is from the margin of society, which was interpreted as a classist remark or queerphobia. Just in case, Jann didn't say anything about being LGBTQ+ and only his appearance is relatively androgynous. Going back to the topic, some people defended Blanka stating that she could miss this bit as the comment starts as rather supportive. Some questioned the validity of it as Blanka's relationship with Jann appears to be positive.
Blanka complimented Jann, while Jann was one of
the first people to cheer her up after the competition and
even defended her.
Another controversy was plagiarism. Specifically, there were allegations that Blanka either copied Clean Bandit's Solo or INNA's Up. These allegations remained allegations and that was their end.
The final controversy surrounding Blanka was a petition for Blanka's removal. There were two petitions and one of them has 91170 signatures. People wanted transparency from TVP and to see Jann perform in Eurovision.
Blanka reacted to the petition and she was hurt by it. Never back down - Eurovision
This year, Eurovision was divided into two parts. There were two semi-finals and one final. During the semi-finals, only viewers could vote.
Blanka performed in the second semi-final without massive issues and got 124 points. As a result, she got 3rd place in the second semi-final. It was a gigantic success and she beat the previous representative of Poland. Details can be found on
Eurovision website.
Generally speaking, there was a positive reaction. People have praised Blanka for improving her performance, especially her vocals. Solo became one of the most popular Eurovision 2023 songs.
There were only two minor issues worth mentioning. Norway's newspaper Verdens Gang has openly criticised Blanka. Unfortunately, my Norwegian is non-existent and so this translation is straight from Google Translate. The original comment can be found
here.
"Polish plastic pop reggae in the category that was once dominated by Swedes in the Stone Age (nineties). Blanka is probably not singing about Norwegian orange soda or a scruffy looking Star Wars hero, but about being completely alone in a relationship. The best thing that can be said about the "Solo" show is that she has the best glove of the finale. She falls out of tune, and loses her tone several times, That she actually thinks she can sing is hopelessly overwhelming. That, and that no adults have stopped this - regardless of the corruption charges."
Even Sweden talked about potential corruption and nepotism. They mentioned that Blanka's choreography was created by Egurolla. Funnily, even Edyta Górniak was mentioned, but she was called Blanka's mother-in-law.
Then there was a final performance, which had a similar reaction. The only difference was the lack of drama from the media and Polish fans even being proud of her. Blanka was placed 24th by judges and she was better than two performers. However, she got 8th place in televoting and it got her 19th place. A bit worse than the previous representative, who got 12th place.
The conclusion
Blanka managed to partially save her face and it's unclear what's going to happen in future. Blanka after Eurovision went on vacation and there hasn't been much news about her.
There was some discussion regarding her placement in televotes ranking and some people in the Eurovision subreddit have used her to make a point about how televoting is bad, while discussing the whole drama that happened due to Loreen's victory. For more information, I recommend checking
this write-up.
Other contestants of pre-selections are doing fine and many of them released new songs. Especially Jann is doing well as his fanbase tripled in size and he is going to perform at OGAE Second Chance. Edyta Górniak and her son are still active, while Agustin Egurrola is focusing on his dance studio.
TVP is still controversial due to politics and it will probably remain controversial for a long time due to recent events. Years of bad reputation are hard to erase and most people are ready for another controversy Eurovision controversy.
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2023.06.06 18:42 MrPlainview12 Who am I? What actually drives me? Why can't anything be easy? When will I ever know who I am and be able to apply myself to something rewarding? I can't trust anything I tell myself anymore--I am so afraid to believe anything possibly exceptional about myself.
This post originally began in response to another post, but a lot more poured out of me, and I am so fucking frustrated and enraged. I feel like I can't stand firmly on anything. Who am I? What is my identity with with respect to motivational factors, careerism, ability, passions, interest, and purpose / dreams?
I think that most of my core values are authentic and immutable (e.g., treating everyone w/ dignity, integrity, honesty etc). However, I’ve recently become aware of how many ‘false starts’ I’ve experienced in my life whereby I thought repeatedly that I was becoming who I was or that my motivations were clear and undiluted. Moreover, that I was acting according to core values and beliefs; and that my passions, purpose, and goals were in agreement with my identity.
After shit really hit the fan for me in late October 2020, a culmination of my startup losing its last best chance of funding (losing so much as a result as I was unpaid), the complex death of my father, wedding being up bees by Covid, and alcohol abuse, I haven’t been able to work properly or function “normally” for a few consecutive days, let alone a week.
Have spent 90% of my disposal income since I left grad school at 23. I am 34 now.
Tried nearly every treatment under the sun, spent months and in some cases, years in various therapeutic modalities. I’ve been misdiagnosed with bipolar, and diagnosed with clinical depression and anxiety. Plus sleep apnea, insulin resistance and ADHD. When I was younger, I was told I had learning disabilities, which mysteriously disappeared? And I’ve spent my whole life thinking I am wildly mediocre at best, rotten to the core, but if I listened to my inner critic, I could have a chance of outperforming my middling self, but at the cost of perfection and dogmatic adherence to Calvinistic work ethics.
Like so many if not ever single one of you, I have been invalidated more times than I can count by countless MDs, therapists, family members, and previously considered “closest friends.”
In April 2023, I finally, thanks like 20 ketamine assisted therapy sessions, I uncovered the extent of my trauma.
Among myriad other revelations, I started to finally wedge my soul from my inner critic, and realized what a lie I had been living for all this time. I wondered if I have solely ADHD or a combo of that plus CPTSD brain as my focus has gotten so much more tenuous and ephemeral. I also realized how much of my brain’s resources have been allocated to taming this impossibly powerful, painful, and enigmatic growth on my mind.
I thought after firing some therapists and going through more hell to achieve the CPTSD diagnosis I knew was at the heart of things, that my identity would be more or less something that I had been conceiving of for years now.
It’s not.
And I had to stop immediately my ketamine therapy as the therapist was grossly negligent in her understanding of trauma, and I became suicidal and inconsolable after a generational trauma revealing infusion left me wishing for death and confounded and overwhelmed by the pain. I also realized I could no longer unilaterally do trauma work. It was too dangerous and too much for me to handle without proper supervision and support.
I thought maybe I am a writer—something I had believed as far back as middle school and high school. My parents shut that down repeatedly.
I’ve written substantially in a sprawling fiction used account of my CpTSd journey. And I thought it could serve as a boon to this community. In the past, I believed one of my core values to be productivity and doing. And that I was always happiest when I accomplished things, especially if it involved suffering.
I am so burnt out and in so much pain. My sleeping pills cause brain fog. I oscillate between occasional bursts of hope that goes like “a yes, this great metamodern novel, it will help so many people; and your identity will be clear—the road to recovery mandates you apply yourself every day to serialize and distribute what you are working on; this is your roadmap and if you don’t adhere to it, you deserve to remain stuck and despondent.” And most of the time, I just feel like a confused, vacant, and hurting body with a mind that may have had potential, but so consumed with rage and distraction, I’ll continue to just waste away in obscurity.
I don’t know who I am or what really motivates me anymore. This is probably a net positive, but this interim of feeling absolutely lost is horrifying. I am beyond tired of being fucking tired. My body is armored every day. I fucking hate my existence so much of the time.
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2023.06.06 18:41 LRL4150 Frustrated by my (23F) soon-to-be unemployed boyfriend’s (29M) lack of motivation to find a job. Feels like I’m dating a man-child.
Some background on us: Been together for two years. Just moved in together last month, at his request. We have a very happy, healthy relationship besides this issue, which is progressively deteriorating my opinion/attraction towards him.
Some background on him: Joined the military right out of high school. Worked as an IT tech there for 8 years before getting out and moving back home. After he got out, he used the GI Bill to work towards his bachelor’s degree in MIS while the VA gave him a monthly stipend to cover all of his housing expenses. He drove for Uber Eats for extra cash before starting to work at a coffee shop, which is his first “real-world” job. He’s worked there for almost two years and is now a general manager. He works 50+ hours a week, which has taken a toll on him and is the reason why he quit a few weeks ago, but he agreed to continue working there until the end of June. He also took the semester off from school this summer. Because he took the semester off, he will not receive a housing stipend from the VA until he starts attending school again, meaning, as of last week, he’s been responsible for his full half of rent/utilities at our new (and quite expensive) apartment.
I’m frustrated because he suddenly quit this job with no back-up plan and after already deciding to take the semester off of school, meaning he’ll be unemployed in the matter of a few weeks and won’t be receiving any sort of financial assistance from the VA.
I completely revamped his resume and have picked out a handful of jobs to help him get started on the job-searching process, but he’s shown no interest. He’s applied to one job so far. He’s confident that he’ll be able to secure a remote, well-paying IT job in the next 3 weeks. I told him that the job market, ESPECIALLY for IT jobs and remote jobs, is horrendous right now and he’ll be lucky if his application is even looked at by a recruiter in the next few weeks, let alone go through the whole phone screening/multi-interview/offeonboarding process.
I just went through this whole process myself and he’s aware of this. It took me six months of nonstop job-searching and hundreds of applications to find an entry-level job in my field (healthcare) that still doesn’t pay even a fraction of what he’s expecting he’ll make.
I don’t think he’s depressed. He doesn’t seem depressed, but I know that that’s not always a good indicator. I don’t think he’s nervous or insecure. He’s a very confident person and is very good with people. He said he’s confident that he’ll be able to do well in interviews (even though he’s only ever done one low-stakes coffee shop interview in his entire life).
Last week, he mentioned that he’ll just start driving for Uber Eats again if he can’t find something. Didn’t specify for how long, or what the plan was after that, if there even is a plan after that. He’s also (semi-jokingly) mentioned asking his mom for a Salesforce (where she works) job if it comes down to it. But even then, I don’t think he realizes that connections aren’t everything, that Salesforce is a giant company that will absolutely be hard to get into, and that his mom has 30+ years of experience and two degrees under her belt that landed her that job. He hasn’t even graduated from undergrad and has only had one real-world job that isn’t even related to IT or Salesforce.
At this point, I don’t know whether he’s delusional, overly confident, or just unmotivated/lazy. I try to cut him slack because he works so many hours a week, but it’s so frustrating when he comes home from work and immediately cracks open a beer or pops an edible and starts watching TV or playing video games, rather than taking any sort of initiative towards this major, impending issue that’s only a mere few weeks away.
Another extremely concerning thing: last week, he, again half-seriously, said I should just started applying to jobs for him.
Prior to him saying that, I actually considered it just because I’m getting so annoyed about him not doing it himself. But hearing him ACTUALLY suggest it made me want to gag. I immediately put my foot down and said “Absolutely not.”
As for how he plans on paying for his share of expenses now that we’re living together, he’s said (in passing) that he has enough in savings. This is another thing that has concerned me over the course of our relationship: this savings account was set up for him while he was in the military and part of his paychecks were automatically deposited in it. When we first started dating, he (allegedly) had $27k saved up (he told me this when he was drunk and talking about how big of a diamond ring he could buy me when he proposes, so not sure if there’s any merit to that number or if he was just trying to impress me). But since then, for the past two years, he’s been saying he has no idea how much money is in there and that he needs to figure out how to log in and check. Last month, a statement was lying out in the open on the counter that said he now only has $13k. I’m pretty sure he doesn’t contribute any of his current paychecks towards his savings, and he’s said multiple times that he automatically pays off his credit cards with that account every month. This concerns me because he’s treating it like a checking account, rather than a savings account for future/emergency expenses, which is clearly the case since it’s dwindled down that much over the past two years. And now he’s planning on paying for all of his living expenses with it for the foreseeable future. I have no idea what he plans on doing if it ends up taking months to find a job (a very real possibility) and he ends up blowing through this account.
All of this—having no plan for the future, no career prospects or even desire to have a career (not just drive for Uber Eats) despite working towards a degree, taking a semester off while acknowledging that he may “not have the motivation” to go back, and draining his savings account/not having good financial planning skills—all at the age of almost 30 has me seriously reconsidering whether I feel secure continuing a relationship with him. It’s killed my mental attraction towards him because I now see him as someone who needs to be taken care of, rather than someone who’s my equal.
How do I say all of this to him without hurting his feelings?
Tl;dr My boyfriend abruptly quit his job with no plan for the future. Has no interest in applying to jobs, feels confident that he’ll land his ideal job in only a few weeks. Suggested that I apply to jobs for him. Generally has poor financial planning skills.
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2023.06.06 18:41 user1936in 44[F4M] #midwest - Liberal single mother living in a conservative, rural area makes for a tough dating scene. I thought I'd throw this out to the ether on the off chance my person reads it and responds.
I'm not certain "my person" is accurate; there are so many people who will love us in our lifetime, but I am ready to shout COME AND FIND ME to the man who is ready for me.
So, I am a divorced mother of rockstar children with whom I have shared custody. I have an impressive, creative career that I worked hard for and find fulfilling. Three college degrees helped me get there. My dear parents helped me get those three degrees. My childhood was loving and privileged but I acknowledge that and try my best to pay it forward when I can. In my spare time I love to paint, read, write poems no one will ever read, daydream, volunteer, putter around my house, putter outside my house, and visit museums and new cities. Solo travel is a passion but I also love being home surrounded by the people and things that I love. God, there is nothing like the serenity of cancelled plans!
I am leftist, witty, empathetic and kind. I am instantly attracted to men who are gentle and loving, with an egalitarian and spiritual nature. Passionate lovers and communicators who have done some personal, emotional work. Do you cry when you experience beauty? Do you growl when you experience passion? Are you emotionally available and unafraid to love? Me too. Props to my therapist for helping me through some bullshit!
Animals bring me immense joy, so much so that I have boundary issues with taking in wounded and stray ones... don't ask me how many cats I have rescued. You don't want to know. I watched a video the other day of butterflies drinking turtle tears and I about lost it.
If any of this seems appealing and you like the sound of a woman whose body has lived yet survived, who is a work in progress yet a work of art, voluptuous and sexy, proportionate and healthy enough for now who is pretty and feminine, please send me a message. I don't necessarily mind dating someone long distance. I believe in living in parallel, not necessarily together.
It should go without saying that I have no interest in talking with anyone who isn't single. I am a monogamist through and through. Thank you for reading this and I hope we all find what we are missing.
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2023.06.06 18:40 Infinite_Work4553 Ideas to Mitigate the Expenses of Education
Here's some ideas we can do for us to help each other successfully get through school with more peace of mind, since the admin doesn't do much to help with the expenses;
Find an on campus repository through a department for cap and gowns to be recylced so that students don't have to buy new graduation garments they're only going to use once. Use environmentalism as your ethical argument if the school says no.
Create a cloud drive or have a master hard drive with as many saved PDFs of book e copies scanned for viruses so that students don't have to pay so much to learn.
Create a sort of UbeLyft app for tutoring gigs among grad students to offer services to undergrads trying to study and maybe needing an emergency session online over the weekends instead of having to wait too long.
Have more community potlucks out in tbe open space among each other and seek advice from upperclassmen while building friendships and sharing notes.
The last thing our school wants is for us to band together and look out for one another more strongly without requesting staff to do it for us. It's the same kind of feeling Target has towards unions, they don't want them.
Please add your ideas below on how to mitigate costs and send a message the the point of education is to learn, not to just give money for staff salaries and generous pensions. Enough is enough.
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2023.06.06 18:40 Disastrous_Pomelo_63 Why god would save me over people whose suffering is worse and in deadly situations than me?
I was in a relationship and marriage talks were initated among our family. But the guy called it off due his parents disagreement.
I told everyone about his infedility and how he is mistreating me. I didn’t wanted to reveal anything to anyone but he blamed me for a lot of things I didn’t do and pushed me (brought out the bad side of me) reveal these things to people who know us.
Hearing this, many of my family members and friends were telling that “god saved me from ruining my life with this guy”. I feel this is not true.
- Why would god save me when there is so much worse sufferings going on in others life.
- Also, if he were to save me wouldn’t he just stop me from being in a relationship with this guy in the first place? Since he’s knows the past, present and the future.
I am spiritual since a long time but I am focused more on doing my duties/responsibilities with no expectations than focusing or surrendering to higher power. But this breakup is painful. It is making me question this life and my understanding about god.
How do you see this?
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2023.06.06 18:40 Commercial_Cap_9148 How many clories in this croissant , there is a cream like white cream inside . Thank you
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2023.06.06 18:40 furktmp How to make choices to get out of the endless loop of "sentence version B is better than A... hm, no, the A is better than B... no it's the B !" etc.
Ok you can ask friends, other writers, people online, etc.
BUT when you are on your own and can't ask anybody for any reason, what are your tricks or psychological tips to finally choose one version of a sentence / few sentences or couple of words, etc. over another version?
The thing is, when I'm editing some pages and stumble upon a sentence that needs to be changed here and there, I sometimes end up with 2 or 3 version of that sentences and I finally can't decide which one I like the most... and many times, I also finally find that the first draft was maybe the better, etc.
I read them all aloud over and over and they start to all blend together in my mind...
and it's endless, and I know it is mainly here a question of mindest...
So I'd like to read how you adjust your own mindest to make choices and final edits when you are alone, on your own.
P.s: I'm not an english native so sorry if there are mistakes in this post.
Thanks!
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2023.06.06 18:40 kylexyz001 23 [M4F] [Relationship] Ohio/Worldwide- Let's Be Each Other's Everything (Longest post ever?)
Brace yourselves, this is gonna be a long one.
Table of Contents
1…… The Main Goal
2…… What I’m Seeking
3…… Personality
4…… Interests
5…… Physical Characteristics (with pics)
6…… Expectations of You
7…… Living Situation
8…… Deal Breakers
9…… Closing Remarks
(1)
The Main Goal:
Well if you’re browsing this subreddit then much like me, you were alone this weekend and I’m sure you’d like to change that as much as me. I won’t lie, I am going through a rough part of my life right now. It’s difficult for me to find the energy for anything at the moment and I’m just really seeking affection in general, anything that will give me a push. I don’t want to be that person who brings everyone down but I could really use someone to talk to right now. I’d really like to find someone who’s similar to me so much to the point that we do everything together and talk about everything while not having to pretend to be interested. I want someone with whom we can mutually spew our emotions onto and have those feelings reciprocated. Not an emotional punching bag, but an emotional teddy bear to hug and cuddle until everything feels better as many times as we need. There’s people who I’m sure have told you the same, they’ll be there no matter how many times you need the support, no matter how many times the insecurities and bad thoughts come back but they don’t mean it. I will be the exception, I’m not so ignorant to think some nice words and tales of relating to you will magically forever heal whatever ails you then get mad when you seek the same support again. Mental ailments are rarely temporary and I don’t care about someone because they’re perfect, caring about someone means being there no matter how many times they need you to be. It doesn’t feel like a chore, it doesn’t get old, and it never will.
(2)
(2.a)
What I'm Seeking:
I will upfront let you know if I’m clicking better with someone else or if you’re the one, I’m not here to tread the sea of fish or keep my options open, I’m here for one singular person.
(2.b)
Relationship:
A relationship is difficult for me right now, it’s been nearly half a year since I got out of my last relationship and the reasons for it ending are partially responsible for how I’ve been feeling and why it’s so hard for me to seek the comfort I so desperately crave. I will tell you about it but for the sake of not treating the entirety of the internet as my therapist, it’ll be in private. I really need the comfort of intimacy and the warmth of someone who cares. I'm not going to feel better if I just sulk and don’t move on. This is my attempt to get better, I’ll admit I’m not great right now and I don’t expect you to be either. If we can help each other heal, then I’d be more than happy :) A relationship isn’t just being there for when someone’s at their best. Even if a relationship is hard at the moment, I do want a life partner and I don’t want to be alone. Things aren’t going to get easier without you so I don’t want to hesitate. I view my other as an equal, I don’t like categorizing us into specific roles. We take care of each other and treat each other how we like to be treated, whatever that is, it's as simple as that. I don't care if you're "successful" or not, living simple lives with our days filled with love is the ultimate measure of success to me.
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Personality:
(3.a)
On the Surface:
As you can tell I can be rather… stoic but that’s largely due to my current stressors, I truthfully am goofy and fun loving but I just can’t find it in me right now. I want to return to that but without someone to light up my world it’s been difficult to just have fun and enjoy stuff. I’m definitely more introverted, you won’t catch me at any parties or really outside at all. I definitely prefer being home though the occasional outing is not out of the question and one day I’d like to travel to other countries because I think that kind of perspective is important.
(3.b)
The Core of My Being:
I like being a spectator to it all and if we bear witness to humanity burning or its miraculous recovery, I want to watch it with you. I enjoy watching humanity advance, less so when it devolves but I want to watch it to the end nonetheless. I’m both a realist and someone who lives with my head in the clouds dreaming of scenarios or worlds that don’t exist. I’m saying that I enjoy a good narrative and can suspend my disbelief to enjoy something but you won’t catch me refusing vaccines or ignoring blatant facts for the sake of some pseudo science or witch doctor’s remedy. I’m an atheist but I do not rule out existence after death, not because I’m agnostic but because due to the nature of potentially infinite time at some point after how many googol years with a googol amount of 0s after that, something’s bound to replicate your consciousness perfectly at some point. It’s actually a really fascinating topic I like talking about. If infinite time and infinite possibilities exist, does non existence exist? Though that’s an awfully existentially dreadful thought process considering the ramifications of infinite existence and infinite possibilities during said infinite existence. I would say I’m confidently left leaning and I don’t think I could truly get along with anyone right leaning, at least America’s definition of right leaning. Left and right seems to have just become; do people deserve to suffer or do they deserve to live good lives? Being political is not something I expected to become but how can you not be when crimes against human rights are being passed on a daily basis and at the end of the day, everything’s political. Oftentimes I imagine the perfect moment as relaxing with my significant other playing games or cuddling in a cold room under blankets.
I value that special someone above all of the existential thoughts, the bad of the world, the good of the world, they practically become my world. So many worries wash away when I’m with them. I don’t know if that’s the defense mechanism my brain created to not feel bad 24/7 but if it is, I’m currently without it.
(3.c)
Insecurities:
I talk of philosophy and politics here but really I spend most of my time just playing games, watching stuff, and trying to not be sleep deprived. I’m also nowhere near as well spoken, heck sometimes I feel like my speech is broken. I won’t claim to be something I’m not, I sit at home while I complain about the world doing nothing about it wishing I had someone here with me. I’m not noble nor do I really want to be, I have morals I uphold but much like most other hypocrites I acknowledge that my comfortable life is built on the suffering of others without doing anything about it. Why? My sleep problems? Am I depressed? Is that why I have no energy to do anything? Do I just think nothing I could do could help? I can’t nail it down myself, maybe it’s a mix of everything, maybe I’m just a bad person. I have always told myself that if I had wealth I would help people but if I get that kind of wealth will I just become a wealth hoarder who tries to justify my riches as something I earned rather than something given to me through incredibly lucky circumstances? If I do help people is it because I’m a good person or out of guilt? Will I die alone? I feel like I drive everyone away with my clinginess, I get paranoid often and need reassurance often. It’s something I want to work on, something I’ve been trying to work on. Hearing that someone cares about me just never gets old. I value self awareness even if it’s painful.
(3.d)
Socializing:
I’m definitely a socially anxious/awkward mess, especially around strangers. I do feel a large amount of anxiety in public, people can’t tell by looking at my face since I kind of go stone faced in an attempt to block everything out but yeah you’ll notice that if we go out in public. Growing up my pediatrician said I was probably autistic, never got a formal diagnosis so that’s just great. But yeah that explains why I can’t make eye contact with people, I kinda just stare at the ground and avoid their gaze at all costs. A lot of these social struggles go away to a great degree once I know you for a bit but yeah I apologize for how terrible I am at socializing at first. Don’t let my social struggles fool you though, I love cuddling and being close with my person.
(3.e)
Sexuality:
I am a heterosexual male, though I’m not very masculine like at all. I may even be a bit feminine sometimes. Not that I believe any activity or manner of acting belongs to a gender but I don’t know how else to describe it. I’m definitely super affectionate and love it when my partner is too. I am open to dating demi people but I do have a libido so I don't think asexual would work out.
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Interests:
(4.a)
Video Games:
As stated before, I do spend a lot of my time playing video games. It’s been hard lately with me having no energy but I really do want to play more games and have a good time playing them with you! I primarily play on PC though I do have a switch. I’m primarily into platform fighters, roguelikes, open world, survival, and sandbox games. As for single player story games, I enjoy watching them through twitch or youtube but for the most part I don’t play them myself. I’d watch you play them though!
Here’s a list of games we can play:
-Minecraft (Java)
-Risk of Rain 2
-Gunfire Reborn
-Roboquest
-7 Days to Die
-Phasmophobia
-Rust
-Unturned
-Bloons TD 6
-Platform fighters: Super Smash Bros. Melee, Slap City, Multiversus, Flash Party, Fraymakers
Whatever you want to play I’ll give it a shot! I will say that League bores me to death but I’ll play it for you :) I try to avoid MMOs, not because I don’t like them but because of how addicted I can get to them. I enjoy learning games in-depth so MMOs can be a fast track to addiction.
I recently got Kerbal Space Program 2 and ehhh not really worth it right now but hopefully later it will be? I’m super excited for Tears of the Kingdom! In the far off future I’m excited for Rivals of Aether 2 which is a platform fighter releasing in 2024, let me know of your most anticipated releases and I’ll see if I could play them with you!
Also I never got into FPS games but I could totally see myself playing like CoD with you or Escape From Tarkov. Any FPS really, I’m down.
I am a fan of Pokemon but with how things have been lately I don’t know how long that will last. Pixelmon is a common Pokemon mod I play for Minecraft if you want to play that! Also if I say I want to play something with you I mean it but there are often times when no matter how much I want to I'm just drained and can do little more than lay in bed so please don't think I'm making an excuse.
(4.b)
Science:
I really enjoy keeping up with the latest advances in pretty much everything, it could be biology, technology, astronomy, anything! I love seeing progression and I love talking about it! Really I could go on and on about what I’m obsessing about that day. I particularly love technology, ask me for my laptop specs I dare you. When I was little I always wanted to be a scientist of any kind but then insomnia and fear of college stuff hit me like a truck aaaand that’s the end of that dream.
(4.c)
Anime:
You got me, I like anime but I’d like to think my tastes are benign.
Here’s some of my favorites I can list from the top of my head:
- To Your Eternity
- Vinland Saga
- Spice and Wolf
- Re:Zero
- Mob Psycho
- Dr. Stone
- Attack on Titan
- Spy x Family
- My Hero Academia
- Ranking of Kings
- Demon Slayer
Okay I can go on and on but I will say I don’t like pointless fan service and the spamming of cliche anime moments. I mostly enjoy action and anything well animated if it doesn’t have a potato story. Heck Demon Slayer could be my top 3 out of season 2’s animation alone. I don’t watch slice of life often or romance but I would with you!
(4.d)
Misc:
I’m not going to go on and on about the tiniest little things when the main ones are covered but I’ll watch pretty much any show with you and anything really. I like random youtube videos that explain some kind of lore or mystery, sometimes mini documentaries too.
As for food I looove sushi and I’m a sucker for fast food. Okay and candy, definitely candy.
I used to play tennis but haven’t really had the opportunity nor friends to play it with and I’m way too socially anxious to seek it out. Also I will say that when we move to something like discord I type waaaay more casually. I’m not going to expect long paragraphs back and forth like we’re writing English papers for each other, I do enjoy long conversations but seriously don’t worry about having to put the utmost effort into every response, I just like making good first impressions I guess.
(5)
(5.a)
My Physical Characteristics:
I’m 5’8 (172cm), 128 pounds (58kg), with curly brown hair and blue eyes. I like keeping my hair long in the winter and cutting it in the summer. I’m pretty slim in general so if you’re looking for someone large, that’s not me. I don’t work out but my work is pretty physical so at least I’m not totally inactive. I don’t have the urge to work out or gain muscle but I do want to maintain my slim figure so if I start losing control of that I’ll work out. I like to keep my face shaved because I don’t think I look good with a beard/mustache so if you’re into those I apologize. I have an average amount of body hair? I’d prefer to be completely shaved but it’s easy to lose motivation with that battle, if you prefer shaved then I’d have no problem complying. Anyways here’s what I look like:
https://imgur.com/a/MZZgf2t (5.b)
My Physical Preferences:
Having physical preferences makes me feel shallow, if I could make myself not have them I would but unfortunately that’s now how that works. I don’t care if you’re shorter or taller than me and I don’t care if you weigh more or less than me. All I ask is that you’re slim-average weight. I would never ask for someone to be something I’m not. I don’t care about tattoos or piercings.
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Expectations of You:
I am not looking for someone “exciting” or someone to “keep me on my toes” I’m not looking for someone to cater to my every whim or anything like that. I don’t care if you’re “boring” or if you aren’t “successful”. I know it’s a common thing for people to not want a “boring” relationship and to seek something argumentative or something with constant challenges but I just want to be with you. During the exciting times, the boring times, and everything in-between, all of it will be great with you! Maybe we do argue sometimes or maybe there will be challenges but that will never be something I purposefully seek out and I don’t want that to be something you seek out either. I will not play tricks on you and I will not play mind games, I expect the same from you. We all have personal measures of success we may or may not have lived up to but what I care about most is our commitment to each other. If we have each other we can get through tough times, near the ends of our lives I want us to look back and feel that this life together was worth more than anything. That’s not saying I want us to be haphazard, I don’t want us to make poor decisions for the sake of yolo and I want us to always be rational, especially with each other. I want you to be someone I can trust to make decisions and weigh the options with a level head, I’ll try my best to live up to the same for you. Most of all I want empathy, understanding, someone to feel the utmost comfort and trust in.
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Living Situation:
Currently my life is pretty relaxed, I work 3 times a week as a night shift stocker. I currently live in a 2 bedroom apartment with my roommate but we’re looking to move into someplace larger by the end of the year if everything works out. The internet is weirdly great for Ohio too like I have fiber and later this year we’re supposed to be getting dedicated fiber so that’s neat. I’m not attached to Ohio so the ultimate goal living location wise is probably moving to a country that won’t send you into a lifetime of dealing with the repercussions from one medical emergency.
(8)
Deal Breakers:
Might as well make this simple and make it a list.
- Anti-vaxxers
- Unironically believing astrology
- Right wingers
- Hard drugs (occasional 420 and alcohol is fine, may even join you)
- Wanting children, there was a time when I was younger when I wanted children but with the state of the word that’s a definite no and I feel like I wouldn’t be able to handle the stress. I’d love a stress free life with as much time with you as possible.
- Homophobic
- Transphobic
- Racist
- Super Religious
- Don’t be a bigot and don’t deny facts.
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Closing Remarks:
Well you made it, I was thinking that finding someone I’d be willing to put a lifetime of effort into at least required this much effort. If I think of anything more I’ll update the post. Also about timezones, it really doesn’t matter where in the world you are. I don’t have a sleep schedule and I have most of the week off from work so it really doesn’t matter.
I request that in your response you do put effort into it, it doesn’t have to be anywhere near as long as this but at least enough so I know that you read this and enough about you so I know why you saw potential compatibility. I will seriously read all of it and respond the best I can. I do also request a pic included in your response (sfw please) or one soon after we start talking to prove identity, I’ll send identity proving pics too. As long as this post is up, you can send a reply!
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2023.06.06 18:39 SubstanceOk1719 Should I stay or should I go?
For context, I am 22 years old working in a group home for vulnerable adults as a house supervisor. It’s nothing new that quality of care has gone down tremendously compared to what it was when I first started in this field four years ago. I don’t mind going the extra mile to re-train staff as needed and do more than what is expected of me. Most days I don’t have time to take a break and our company is not strict about if we take a break or not. Because of this, many of the house supervisors at other houses don’t stay long due to fast burn out which is very understandable. Lately, I have been getting burnt out and when I ask for help from my direct supervisor (program director), she does help me but I’ve learned that she will tell her colleagues that I cannot handle my position. I have been aware of the fact that admin is very cliquey as most reviews for the company I work for will mention this. There is a huge lack of accountability when it comes to our program directors. The program director I am under is the most helpful out of the others I have worked under so I do acknowledge I am lucky enough to have someone who will actually help when asked. Over the years I have heard program directors blame people in my position for everything under the sun. The one that made me most angry is when a program director said my colleague was lazy for using her pregnancy as “an excuse to get out of floor work” this is a house where they utilize gait belts and lifts for low mobility individuals and this person had weight restrictions due to her pregnancy. When we go to HR, these program directors either lie their way out or get a little slap on the wrist. Anytime I go to the main office, I more than likely will hear them gossiping. Moral of the story, I believe my workplace is toxic due to how admin treats us house supervisors.
I have stayed as long as I have because I very much care about my individuals and I have seen how they suffered without having a house supervisor. I also have gained so much knowledge and experience in order to climb the ladder but I am not sure if risking my mental well being is worth that. There are days where I go home crying due to things I have heard being said behind my back or program directors will show that they do not really care for the individuals served. When one of my individuals that I worked with daily for three years passed away from a very tragic death, they said I was too sensitive for crying. I didn’t even cry in front of the individuals I cried in the hospital room or in my office with the door shut. I used PTO for one day to grieve and they said if I can’t handle my position then I should demote. I can handle my job as I complete all of my tasks (I even created a weekly, monthly and yearly checklist to prove it) I just needed to grieve. This is one of the most high paying companies in the area and traveling to other cities is a challenge for me until I get a new car. Do you think all of the added stress is worth it? Am I being too sensitive? Should I stay for educational gain?
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2023.06.06 18:39 angelinastevo I 27F have been in toxic relationship with 29M for 10+yrs
I 27F have been with the father of my children 29M for 12yrs, on and off. Engaged not engaged. Back story we met it middle school dated in HS and been together pretty much since. Senior yr of hs I was pregnant with our first son, then 7yrs later we had 2 daughters back to back leading into last yr 2022. He had a stable income for the majority of our years together, Ive worked since HS and I’ve also had seasonal jobs in between. As of our second child in 2021 I’ve been a stay at home mother due to me not wanting outside child care (it gives me anxiety) not to mention we wouldn’t be able to afford it unless I was full time and thats almost impossible. He is full time and everybody in my support system also works.. neatliess to say he’s always been in charge of the income. Weve both been with other ppl in the past and have recovered and tried to make things work for the better half of 5 years now.
I come from divorced parents so I really have the urge to make my family work even through my thoughts of unhappiness, just to say Im fully aware at some point staying together “just for the kids” may eventually cause more trauma than good.
Starting around or even before my second pregnancy he started drinking more and although he just proposed 2019 he also started stepping out on the relationship. I felt it was my time of need, pregnant and sick so I understand I put a strain on our sex lives but to think he would stick by my side and fight with me was a mistake. There’s two sides to every story but as I know as facts that I seen with my own eyes……..
I had a friend I didn’t really speak to due to life but we always been friends/friendly so I was shocked to see my child’s father texted her and they don’t even know each other, I met her in a summer school program. He said they never hung out when I asked but I asked her myself and he lied to my face. They hung out a few times and he paid her $100+ for “conversation”. I was shook but don’t care to lose a shxt person like that in my life. TOODLES girly! But HE makes me feel so EMBARRASSED by his actions,I can’t fathom the betrayal. I’ve seen his onlyfans account of transactions over or around $1,000 (buying visa gift cards so I don’t see transaction) of girls we went to HS with or he’s pretty much stalked girls social media’s, trying meet up with pornstars/celebrities. When I confronted him, he said “what do you expect you don’t give me nothing and I still give you attention so I don’t see the big deal, I only do it when we have money”.. He has full conversations with these girls under Anonymous accounts but can’t sit down with me to talk about our problems and issues or even about our kids?! When I speak to get to the bottom of things, he walks away and ignores my questions. These girls just want money and he’s trying his hardest to meet up until, I interrupt!! I’ve seen text threads of him talking to coworkers hiding their name under male names,trying to flirt or go out for drinks. I’ve spoke to the “massage therapist” he paid $200 to get “massages” from, off of Craigslist. I asked him first he said he never booked just talk to her, so I asked her and she confirmed he had a few sessions. I called him yelling only then did he tell the truth and or say he forgot details. I think I broke his switch in that same convo. He got fired on the spot by his boss. This boss was an old friend of his from a previous job years ago, his boss saw his wife’s phone and seen the same inappropriate text I seen between his wife and my child’s father. Texts like “I hope you’re keeping our text private”, telling her that she seems like she wants something more, asking about her sex life and what she likes..
I’ve seen all this myself but keep on making excuses like maybe I caused this? He’s begging to stay a family and not put him on child support. While hes been months late on rent and buying alcohol daily while were on our way to our 3 child around Christmas time. I was broken finding out all this and will admit I did some pretty horrible things to him in retaliation. Which leads me to believe this is TOXIC. Idk hormones were baddd!? I’m such a loving person or atleast was but I feel so stuck and angry lately. I did things Im ashamed of. Me being hurt isn’t an excuse but my reason. I feel more so justified although wrong. He refuses AA but won’t stop drinking bc I continue to find empty bottles hidden and he pulls out cash from atm so I don’t see transactions on card for liquor store. My eldest, now 9 know his dads a drunk. He has witnessed his father sleep on this siblings while he was suppose to be watching them or even worst, the time 2am drunk peeing on our sons floor. Our son woke me up crying cause he was scared by the way his dad was acting, he literally said “like a zombie”. He fell asleep on his bottom bunk and my son was scared to sleep in there. I let him sleep in my bed while I woke his father up by pouring a glass of water on him. He didn’t recall what he just did matter of fact “said no I didnt” as I clean up the warm pee.. I hate myself and was embarrassed to tell that story bc I feel like I’m someway allowing it by staying… idk what to do realistically with 3 kids involved but I need to do it soon, safely and efficiently. I can’t really heal from this, idk how, no matter how many ways he says sorry..He has never been honest, I have always only found out myself. I’ve never received any type of closure from all these situations, Which makes me feel crazy that he thinks everythings okay and normal, I feel crazy I stalk his phone, that I smell fireball on his breathe but he swears he’s not drinking. Him lying while I’m looking at facts/proof.. it’s all driving me crazy!
I’m not perfect I started talking to an my ex after I kicked him out when I found his first OF account. I also made a dating app to make him mad. Hes claims he’s never cheated physically and he wants to be a family, thats why I never really consider us “broken up” if hes constantly texting me begging for his family back and claims he tryna do for better us. I want to go to therapy before giving up on Him but he refuses to go. IDK if Hes the narc thats gaslighting me? Or if I’m the narc ? Idk if I’m going through a reactive trauma response? I feel like I was a happy child/teenager and I never use to be this angry….I don’t feel like myself anymore and as for him, I don’t even know who that man is when I look at him. All I feel is anger and disgust. If this isn’t fixable, what would be some good first steps to end this toxic relationship?
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2023.06.06 18:39 ZealousidealMaybe432 Dating a widow
Hi everyone!
Long story short; I(F28) like this guy(M32). I'm not gonna give too many details (because he could behere) but he is the bravest and most caring guy I ever met and I really like him. Everytime we met at gatherings or when we stumble around, I have eyes only for him. When we talk, I have my butterflies in my stomach.
We knew each other since I moved in his town (something like 12yrs ago) but he used to see me more as a sister than a possible partner =( (mostly because I usually hang with his sisters.)
What make me somehow "perplexed" is his "hardened" look or stare. I know he works in a very demanding field but what I see is not tiredness but more like something like sadness or meloncholy. His stare reminds me a lot Severus Snape in the "Always" scene. When in companion he is pretty cheerful with a nice smile but alone is pretty the opposite. We have a normal friendship but I wish to become closer to him.
Except for his outside persona, I never knew what is behind his thick skin. I tried to ask his two sisters but they never disclosed anything too personal of him. They just told me to be patient and to directly speak to him.
He lost his fiancèe a year ago, maybe he is still in grief. I never lost someone close to me and I don't know how to approach him. Is there a time for griefing? Should I ask him directly? Should I wait? Is there something I should remind before starting a conversaation to him? I want to be sure to not hurt him or being disrespectful. I would love to know more him but I must say I'm pretty intimidated by his "aura".
Any advises are welcome!
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2023.06.06 18:39 kylexyz001 23 [M4F] Ohio/Worldwide- Let's Be Each Other's Everything (Longest post ever?)
Brace yourselves, this is gonna be a long one.
Table of Contents
1…… The Main Goal
2…… What I’m Seeking
3…… Personality
4…… Interests
5…… Physical Characteristics (with pics)
6…… Expectations of You
7…… Living Situation
8…… Deal Breakers
9…… Closing Remarks
(1)
The Main Goal:
Well if you’re browsing this subreddit then much like me, you were alone this weekend and I’m sure you’d like to change that as much as me. I won’t lie, I am going through a rough part of my life right now. It’s difficult for me to find the energy for anything at the moment and I’m just really seeking affection in general, anything that will give me a push. I don’t want to be that person who brings everyone down but I could really use someone to talk to right now. I’d really like to find someone who’s similar to me so much to the point that we do everything together and talk about everything while not having to pretend to be interested. I want someone with whom we can mutually spew our emotions onto and have those feelings reciprocated. Not an emotional punching bag, but an emotional teddy bear to hug and cuddle until everything feels better as many times as we need. There’s people who I’m sure have told you the same, they’ll be there no matter how many times you need the support, no matter how many times the insecurities and bad thoughts come back but they don’t mean it. I will be the exception, I’m not so ignorant to think some nice words and tales of relating to you will magically forever heal whatever ails you then get mad when you seek the same support again. Mental ailments are rarely temporary and I don’t care about someone because they’re perfect, caring about someone means being there no matter how many times they need you to be. It doesn’t feel like a chore, it doesn’t get old, and it never will.
(2)
(2.a)
What I'm Seeking:
I will upfront let you know if I’m clicking better with someone else or if you’re the one, I’m not here to tread the sea of fish or keep my options open, I’m here for one singular person.
(2.b)
Relationship:
A relationship is difficult for me right now, it’s been nearly half a year since I got out of my last relationship and the reasons for it ending are partially responsible for how I’ve been feeling and why it’s so hard for me to seek the comfort I so desperately crave. I will tell you about it but for the sake of not treating the entirety of the internet as my therapist, it’ll be in private. I really need the comfort of intimacy and the warmth of someone who cares. I'm not going to feel better if I just sulk and don’t move on. This is my attempt to get better, I’ll admit I’m not great right now and I don’t expect you to be either. If we can help each other heal, then I’d be more than happy :) A relationship isn’t just being there for when someone’s at their best. Even if a relationship is hard at the moment, I do want a life partner and I don’t want to be alone. Things aren’t going to get easier without you so I don’t want to hesitate. I view my other as an equal, I don’t like categorizing us into specific roles. We take care of each other and treat each other how we like to be treated, whatever that is, it's as simple as that. I don't care if you're "successful" or not, living simple lives with our days filled with love is the ultimate measure of success to me.
(3)
Personality:
(3.a)
On the Surface:
As you can tell I can be rather… stoic but that’s largely due to my current stressors, I truthfully am goofy and fun loving but I just can’t find it in me right now. I want to return to that but without someone to light up my world it’s been difficult to just have fun and enjoy stuff. I’m definitely more introverted, you won’t catch me at any parties or really outside at all. I definitely prefer being home though the occasional outing is not out of the question and one day I’d like to travel to other countries because I think that kind of perspective is important.
(3.b)
The Core of My Being:
I like being a spectator to it all and if we bear witness to humanity burning or its miraculous recovery, I want to watch it with you. I enjoy watching humanity advance, less so when it devolves but I want to watch it to the end nonetheless. I’m both a realist and someone who lives with my head in the clouds dreaming of scenarios or worlds that don’t exist. I’m saying that I enjoy a good narrative and can suspend my disbelief to enjoy something but you won’t catch me refusing vaccines or ignoring blatant facts for the sake of some pseudo science or witch doctor’s remedy. I’m an atheist but I do not rule out existence after death, not because I’m agnostic but because due to the nature of potentially infinite time at some point after how many googol years with a googol amount of 0s after that, something’s bound to replicate your consciousness perfectly at some point. It’s actually a really fascinating topic I like talking about. If infinite time and infinite possibilities exist, does non existence exist? Though that’s an awfully existentially dreadful thought process considering the ramifications of infinite existence and infinite possibilities during said infinite existence. I would say I’m confidently left leaning and I don’t think I could truly get along with anyone right leaning, at least America’s definition of right leaning. Left and right seems to have just become; do people deserve to suffer or do they deserve to live good lives? Being political is not something I expected to become but how can you not be when crimes against human rights are being passed on a daily basis and at the end of the day, everything’s political. Oftentimes I imagine the perfect moment as relaxing with my significant other playing games or cuddling in a cold room under blankets.
I value that special someone above all of the existential thoughts, the bad of the world, the good of the world, they practically become my world. So many worries wash away when I’m with them. I don’t know if that’s the defense mechanism my brain created to not feel bad 24/7 but if it is, I’m currently without it.
(3.c)
Insecurities:
I talk of philosophy and politics here but really I spend most of my time just playing games, watching stuff, and trying to not be sleep deprived. I’m also nowhere near as well spoken, heck sometimes I feel like my speech is broken. I won’t claim to be something I’m not, I sit at home while I complain about the world doing nothing about it wishing I had someone here with me. I’m not noble nor do I really want to be, I have morals I uphold but much like most other hypocrites I acknowledge that my comfortable life is built on the suffering of others without doing anything about it. Why? My sleep problems? Am I depressed? Is that why I have no energy to do anything? Do I just think nothing I could do could help? I can’t nail it down myself, maybe it’s a mix of everything, maybe I’m just a bad person. I have always told myself that if I had wealth I would help people but if I get that kind of wealth will I just become a wealth hoarder who tries to justify my riches as something I earned rather than something given to me through incredibly lucky circumstances? If I do help people is it because I’m a good person or out of guilt? Will I die alone? I feel like I drive everyone away with my clinginess, I get paranoid often and need reassurance often. It’s something I want to work on, something I’ve been trying to work on. Hearing that someone cares about me just never gets old. I value self awareness even if it’s painful.
(3.d)
Socializing:
I’m definitely a socially anxious/awkward mess, especially around strangers. I do feel a large amount of anxiety in public, people can’t tell by looking at my face since I kind of go stone faced in an attempt to block everything out but yeah you’ll notice that if we go out in public. Growing up my pediatrician said I was probably autistic, never got a formal diagnosis so that’s just great. But yeah that explains why I can’t make eye contact with people, I kinda just stare at the ground and avoid their gaze at all costs. A lot of these social struggles go away to a great degree once I know you for a bit but yeah I apologize for how terrible I am at socializing at first. Don’t let my social struggles fool you though, I love cuddling and being close with my person.
(3.e)
Sexuality:
I am a heterosexual male, though I’m not very masculine like at all. I may even be a bit feminine sometimes. Not that I believe any activity or manner of acting belongs to a gender but I don’t know how else to describe it. I’m definitely super affectionate and love it when my partner is too. I am open to dating demi people but I do have a libido so I don't think asexual would work out.
(4)
Interests:
(4.a)
Video Games:
As stated before, I do spend a lot of my time playing video games. It’s been hard lately with me having no energy but I really do want to play more games and have a good time playing them with you! I primarily play on PC though I do have a switch. I’m primarily into platform fighters, roguelikes, open world, survival, and sandbox games. As for single player story games, I enjoy watching them through twitch or youtube but for the most part I don’t play them myself. I’d watch you play them though!
Here’s a list of games we can play:
-Minecraft (Java)
-Risk of Rain 2
-Gunfire Reborn
-Roboquest
-7 Days to Die
-Phasmophobia
-Rust
-Unturned
-Bloons TD 6
-Platform fighters: Super Smash Bros. Melee, Slap City, Multiversus, Flash Party, Fraymakers
Whatever you want to play I’ll give it a shot! I will say that League bores me to death but I’ll play it for you :) I try to avoid MMOs, not because I don’t like them but because of how addicted I can get to them. I enjoy learning games in-depth so MMOs can be a fast track to addiction.
I recently got Kerbal Space Program 2 and ehhh not really worth it right now but hopefully later it will be? I’m super excited for Tears of the Kingdom! In the far off future I’m excited for Rivals of Aether 2 which is a platform fighter releasing in 2024, let me know of your most anticipated releases and I’ll see if I could play them with you!
Also I never got into FPS games but I could totally see myself playing like CoD with you or Escape From Tarkov. Any FPS really, I’m down.
I am a fan of Pokemon but with how things have been lately I don’t know how long that will last. Pixelmon is a common Pokemon mod I play for Minecraft if you want to play that! Also if I say I want to play something with you I mean it but there are often times when no matter how much I want to I'm just drained and can do little more than lay in bed so please don't think I'm making an excuse.
(4.b)
Science:
I really enjoy keeping up with the latest advances in pretty much everything, it could be biology, technology, astronomy, anything! I love seeing progression and I love talking about it! Really I could go on and on about what I’m obsessing about that day. I particularly love technology, ask me for my laptop specs I dare you. When I was little I always wanted to be a scientist of any kind but then insomnia and fear of college stuff hit me like a truck aaaand that’s the end of that dream.
(4.c)
Anime:
You got me, I like anime but I’d like to think my tastes are benign.
Here’s some of my favorites I can list from the top of my head:
- To Your Eternity
- Vinland Saga
- Spice and Wolf
- Re:Zero
- Mob Psycho
- Dr. Stone
- Attack on Titan
- Spy x Family
- My Hero Academia
- Ranking of Kings
- Demon Slayer
Okay I can go on and on but I will say I don’t like pointless fan service and the spamming of cliche anime moments. I mostly enjoy action and anything well animated if it doesn’t have a potato story. Heck Demon Slayer could be my top 3 out of season 2’s animation alone. I don’t watch slice of life often or romance but I would with you!
(4.d)
Misc:
I’m not going to go on and on about the tiniest little things when the main ones are covered but I’ll watch pretty much any show with you and anything really. I like random youtube videos that explain some kind of lore or mystery, sometimes mini documentaries too.
As for food I looove sushi and I’m a sucker for fast food. Okay and candy, definitely candy.
I used to play tennis but haven’t really had the opportunity nor friends to play it with and I’m way too socially anxious to seek it out. Also I will say that when we move to something like discord I type waaaay more casually. I’m not going to expect long paragraphs back and forth like we’re writing English papers for each other, I do enjoy long conversations but seriously don’t worry about having to put the utmost effort into every response, I just like making good first impressions I guess.
(5)
(5.a)
My Physical Characteristics:
I’m 5’8 (172cm), 128 pounds (58kg), with curly brown hair and blue eyes. I like keeping my hair long in the winter and cutting it in the summer. I’m pretty slim in general so if you’re looking for someone large, that’s not me. I don’t work out but my work is pretty physical so at least I’m not totally inactive. I don’t have the urge to work out or gain muscle but I do want to maintain my slim figure so if I start losing control of that I’ll work out. I like to keep my face shaved because I don’t think I look good with a beard/mustache so if you’re into those I apologize. I have an average amount of body hair? I’d prefer to be completely shaved but it’s easy to lose motivation with that battle, if you prefer shaved then I’d have no problem complying. Anyways here’s what I look like:
https://imgur.com/a/MZZgf2t (5.b)
My Physical Preferences:
Having physical preferences makes me feel shallow, if I could make myself not have them I would but unfortunately that’s now how that works. I don’t care if you’re shorter or taller than me and I don’t care if you weigh more or less than me. All I ask is that you’re slim-average weight. I would never ask for someone to be something I’m not. I don’t care about tattoos or piercings.
(6)
Expectations of You:
I am not looking for someone “exciting” or someone to “keep me on my toes” I’m not looking for someone to cater to my every whim or anything like that. I don’t care if you’re “boring” or if you aren’t “successful”. I know it’s a common thing for people to not want a “boring” relationship and to seek something argumentative or something with constant challenges but I just want to be with you. During the exciting times, the boring times, and everything in-between, all of it will be great with you! Maybe we do argue sometimes or maybe there will be challenges but that will never be something I purposefully seek out and I don’t want that to be something you seek out either. I will not play tricks on you and I will not play mind games, I expect the same from you. We all have personal measures of success we may or may not have lived up to but what I care about most is our commitment to each other. If we have each other we can get through tough times, near the ends of our lives I want us to look back and feel that this life together was worth more than anything. That’s not saying I want us to be haphazard, I don’t want us to make poor decisions for the sake of yolo and I want us to always be rational, especially with each other. I want you to be someone I can trust to make decisions and weigh the options with a level head, I’ll try my best to live up to the same for you. Most of all I want empathy, understanding, someone to feel the utmost comfort and trust in.
(7)
Living Situation:
Currently my life is pretty relaxed, I work 3 times a week as a night shift stocker. I currently live in a 2 bedroom apartment with my roommate but we’re looking to move into someplace larger by the end of the year if everything works out. The internet is weirdly great for Ohio too like I have fiber and later this year we’re supposed to be getting dedicated fiber so that’s neat. I’m not attached to Ohio so the ultimate goal living location wise is probably moving to a country that won’t send you into a lifetime of dealing with the repercussions from one medical emergency.
(8)
Deal Breakers:
Might as well make this simple and make it a list.
- Anti-vaxxers
- Unironically believing astrology
- Right wingers
- Hard drugs (occasional 420 and alcohol is fine, may even join you)
- Wanting children, there was a time when I was younger when I wanted children but with the state of the word that’s a definite no and I feel like I wouldn’t be able to handle the stress. I’d love a stress free life with as much time with you as possible.
- Homophobic
- Transphobic
- Racist
- Super Religious
- Don’t be a bigot and don’t deny facts.
(9)
Closing Remarks:
Well you made it, I was thinking that finding someone I’d be willing to put a lifetime of effort into at least required this much effort. If I think of anything more I’ll update the post. Also about timezones, it really doesn’t matter where in the world you are. I don’t have a sleep schedule and I have most of the week off from work so it really doesn’t matter.
I request that in your response you do put effort into it, it doesn’t have to be anywhere near as long as this but at least enough so I know that you read this and enough about you so I know why you saw potential compatibility. I will seriously read all of it and respond the best I can. I do also request a pic included in your response (sfw please) or one soon after we start talking to prove identity, I’ll send identity proving pics too. As long as this post is up, you can send a reply!
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