I made a post about my communication with LO on a throwaway account (which I can't use now because the automod gets rid of it). Because it was a throwaway account, and I don't want people to make any connections, I'll probably delete this post in 24 hours or so. I'll link it here for people to get the context, though it's a lengthy post: https://www.reddit.com/limerence/comments/ktippo/three_years_and_it_still_haunts_me_what_do_i_do/
The TL;DR is that I fell for a grad student a while back as an undergrad. I sent her a letter telling her about my limerence, but I think it came off as creepy. I shouldn't have sent it. I later apologized for it six months later through DMs. She never responded to either.
It's been 2.5 years since then, and I maintained NC successfully - until 2 days ago. I've been going through an existential crisis about what career path I should take, and I really wanted some advice because I was really scared of failing in either career path. I was initially gonna contact someone else, but I couldn't find their email even though I've emailed them before through an account I no longer have access to.
So, in my stupidity, I contacted my LO via email. I looked her up and found her work email address pretty easily, it was the first thing that came up since people who work at universities typically have their emails on their website. However, just because that information was readily available, doesn't mean looking for it and contacting her isn't creepy. It was wrong and I shouldn't have done it.
Now, the email itself wasn't about any of the personal stuff we've been through. I just asked if we could set up a time to talk so I could ask her questions about pursuing a PhD and my reservations about it, nothing more. But I realize that it's still creepy to ask for that, because it sounds like an excuse or trap just to talk about our personal history, even if that wasn't my intention. She hasn't responded, and I don't expect her to.
I feel like at this point, regardless of it being almost three years since I contacted her last, I'm stalking and/or harassing her. She must think I'm a creep if I found her work email and contacted her, especially after her ghosting me twice in the past. I'm not gonna send her any more emails, of course, and I haven't friended her on Facebook or found her twitter or anything else - I haven't looked at her socials in years. But I'm worried that she might contact my boss or something about my behavior, and my career will be ruined, either now or some time in the future.
My question is: Am I a stalker? I feel like I am, or at least I've made my LO feel scared about me being a stalker.

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Here are my stats:

• ORM, SES disadvantaged, Illinois resident
• 3.6 cGPA3.5 cGPA506 -> 512 MCAT
• 600 clinical hours60 hours shadowing
• 500 hours in an elected (unpaid) leadership position
• 70 hours hospital volunteering
• 300+ hours designing apparel
• 1000+ working part time during school + breaks
• ~250 hours teaching at my university + local religious org, both unpaid
• Starting research this month; projecting 25 hours per week

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This is my school list as is:

• Albany Medical College
• Anne Burnett Marion School of Medicine at TCU
• Chicago Medical School at Rosalind Franklin University of Medicine & Science
• Eastern Virginia Medical School
• George Washington University School of Medicine and Health Sciences
• Lewis Katz School of Medicine at Temple University
• Medical College of Wisconsin
• Northeast Ohio Medical University
• Pennsylvania State University College of Medicine
• Robert Larner, M.D., College of Medicine at the University of Vermont
• Tulane University School of Medicine
• Uniformed Services University of the Health Sciences F. Edward Hebert School of Medicine
• University of Illinois College of Medicine
• University of Washington School of Medicine
• Virginia Tech Carilion School of Medicine
• Wright State University Boonshoft School of Medicine
• Southern Illinois University School of Medicine
• University of Wisconsin School of Medicine and Public Health
• Drexel University College of Medicine
• University of Arizona College of Medicine
• Nova Southeastern University Dr. Kiran C. Patel College of Allopathic Medicine
• Loyola University Chicago Stritch School of Medicine

The DO schools I am interested in are:

• CCOM
• PCOM
• Rowan

I will be doing more research into DO schools later today lol

I'm open to trading several of my [h] per [w], but if it's not on my list, I'm not interested
[W]
Phantom Brigade
Mechwarrior 5+DLC
Earth Defense Force 5
World War Z
Troubleshooter: Abandoned children
Airmech Wastelands
Until the last plane
Highfleet
Chaos Galaxy
Assassins' Creed Odyssey
[H]
11-11 Memories Retold
AER Memories of Old
Aaero
Acceleration of SUGURI 2
Almost There: The Platformer
Aurion: Legacy of the Kori-Odan
Bear With Me - Collector's Edition
Black the Fall
Bleed 2 Steam Available
Caveblazers Steam Available
Chasm Steam Available
Crazy Machines 3 Steam Available
Cursed Castilla (Maldita Castilla EX) Steam Available
Dandara Steam Available
Darkside Detective Steam Available
Emily is Away Too Steam Available
Evergarden Steam Available
Figment Steam Available
Flat Heroes Steam Available
Fluffy Horde Steam Available
GoNNER - Press Jump To Die Edition Steam Available
God's Trigger Steam Available
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Hard Reset Redux Steam Available
Has-Been Heroes Steam Available
Hustle Cat Steam Available
I'm not a Monster Steam Available
Jotun Steam Available
Kona Steam Available
Legends of Eisenwald Steam Available
Love is Dead Steam Available
MINIT Steam Available
Maize Steam Available
Metrico+ Steam Available
Morphblade Steam Available
Mr. Shifty Steam Available
NAIRI: Tower of Shirin Steam Available
Nongünz Steam Available
Orwell: Keeping an Eye On You Steam Available
Override: Mech City Brawl Steam Available
Paratopic Steam Available
Pinstripe Steam Available
Planet Alpha Steam Available
Pool Panic Steam Available
Puss! Steam Available
Q.U.B.E. 2 Steam Available
Quake Champions Early Access plus 50 Shards, 100 Platinum, 2000 Favor Steam Available
RIVE: Wreck, Hack, Die, Retry Steam Available
Rapture Rejects - Humble Exclusive "Safari Outfit" DLC Steam Available
Rapture Rejects Steam Available
Regular Human Basketball Steam Available
Road Redemption Steam Available
Samorost 3 Steam Available
Seasons After Fall Steam Available
Serial Cleaner Steam Available
Seven: The Days Long Gone Steam Available
She Remembered Caterpillars Steam Available
Shoppe Keep Steam Available
Silence Steam Available
Slayaway Camp Steam Available
Slime-san Steam Available
Slipstream Steam Available
Snake Pass Steam Available
Sniper Elite Steam Available
Splasher Steam Available
State of Mind Steam Available
Steel Rats Steam Available
Subterrain Steam Available
Super Daryl Deluxe Steam Available
Swords and Soldiers 2 Shawarmageddon Steam Available
Tattletail Steam Available
The Adventure Pals Steam Available
The Count Lucanor Steam Available
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The Journey Down 1 + 2 Bundle Steam Available
The Norwood Suite Steam Available
The Shrouded Isle Steam Available
The Spiral Scouts Steam Available
Tom Clancy's The Division™ - Survival Uplay Available
Tumblestone Steam Available
Uurnog Uurnlimited Steam Available
Valhalla Hills Steam Available
Wandersong Steam Available
Aegis defenders Steam Available
Desert child Steam Available
Whispers of a machine Steam Available
Mages of Mystrallia Steam Available
Shenzen I/O Steam Available
The hex Steam Available
Warstone TD Steam Available
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Turok Steam Available
198C Steam Available
Etherborn Steam Available
This is the Police 2 Steam Available
Opus Magnum Steam Available
Molek Syntez Steam Available
Raiden V Director's cut Steam Available
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Heave ho
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Neoverse
Chess Ultra
Horace
Supraland
Felix the Reaper
REMNANTS OF NAEZITH
The stillness of the wind
The King's Bird
Yuppie Psycho
Beat Hazard 2
Verlet swing
Automachef
Through the darkest of times
The Coma 2: Viscious sisters
A case of distrust
Fun with Ragdolls
The Occupation
The Shapeshifting Detective
Fantasy Blacksmith
Goat of Duty
The Uncertain: Last Quiet Day
Lightmatter
Darkwood
Tsioque
Youropa
Zwei: the Arges Adventure
Zwei: the Ilvard Insurrection
Tabletop playground
The haunted Island, a frog detective game
Frog detective 2
Still there
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Path of giants
Tales of the Neon Sea
Minoria
Deleveled
The Ambassador: Fractured Timelines
Train Station Renovation
Werewolf: The Apocalypse- Heart Of The Forest
Lovecraft's Untold Stories
Iris and The Giant
Boomerang Fu
WWE 2K Battlegrounds
Hotshot Racing
Peaky Blinders: Mastermind
Cyberhook
Wildfire
Boreal Blade
Ageless
Remothered
In other waters
Simulacra 1 and 2
Skully
Darksiders Genesis
Cook, Serve, Delicious 3
Levelhead
Fury Unleashed
Size Matters
Morkredd
Relicta
ReTimed
Family Man
Vane
Secret Neighbour
Worms Rumble+Legend pack DLC
Going Under
Panzer Paladin
Milky Way Prince
Ikenfell
Effie
Disjunction
Dirt 5
Hammerting
Paradise killer
Kill it with fire
Bee simulator
Elderborn
Adom
Bloodstained: Ritual of the night
Superliminal
Out of space
Carto
As far as the eye
Nowhere prophet
Blue fire
Encodya
PGA 2K21
Not for broadcast
Roki
Narita boy
Heaven's vault
Fort triumph
Orwell: ignorance is strength
Framed collection
Katana zero
Amnesia: rebirth
John wick hex
112 operator
Guts and glory
Ring of pain
Garage: bad trip
The textorcist: the story of ray bibbia
Tools up
Black future '88
Syberia 3
Due process
House flipper
Wingspan
Simplerockets 2
Timelie
Wrath: Aeon of ruin
Mordhau
The Survivalists
Lacuna
8 doors
Greak: memories of azur
Fling to the finish
Tohu
Voidigo
Mafia definitive edition
Project winter
Rebel cops
The Henry Stickmin collection
Midnight Protocol
Borderlands 3
Borderlands 3 Director's cut
Black book
Just Die Already
Paradise lost
Everhood
Desperados 3
Mass Effect Legendary edition
Nickelodeon All-stars Brawl
The Dark Pictures Anthology
Nebuchadnezzar
Police Stories
Evan's Remains
Planet Zoo
Spongebob Squarepants Battle for Bikini Bottom
Spellcaster university
If found
Genesis Noir
Embr
Call of the Sea
Gamedec
Pumpkin Jack
Siege survival: Gloria Victis
I am fish
Superhot: Mind Control Delete
Legion TD2
Legend of Keepers
Lawn Mowing Simulator
Banners of Ruin
Yes, Your Grace
Atom RPG Trudograd
Just Cause 4 Complete Edition
The Dungeon of NAHEULBEUK
Forgive me Father
Crown Trick
Descenders
Industria
Shapez + Puzzle DLC
Deathloop
Monster Train Collector's edition
The Dark Pictures Anthology: Little Hope
Maid of Sker
Epic Chef
Railroad Corporation
Golf Gang
Kingdoms of Amalur Fate edition
Shadow Tactics: Aiko's choice
Roboquest
Eldest Souls
Unmetal
Raji: an Ancient Epic
Morbid: The Seven Acolytes
First Class Trouble
Backbone
Toem
Where the Water Tastes Like Wine
Blade Assault
Super Magbot
Doom Eternal
Encased: A Sci-fi Post Apocalyptic RPG
OlliOlli World - Rad edition
Grow: Song of the Evertree
Conan Chop Chop
The Serpent Rogue
Thronebreaker: the Witcher Tales
Othercide
Shady Part of me
Scourgebringer
Fobia - St.Dinfna Hotel
Five Dates
Rogue Lords
Demon Turf
Golden Light
Rollerdrome
Life is Strange 2: Complete Season
The Life and Suffering of Sir Brante
Monster Prom 2 Monster Camp
Revita
Founder's Fortune
Spiritfarer: Farewell edition
Bendy and the Dark revival
Operation: Tango
Windjammers 2
Builder Simulator
Behind the Frame: The Finest Scenery
The Invisible Hand

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“There is probably no more influential thinker in the study of UFOs than the French astronomer and computer scientist Jacques Vallee.”
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lmLE0X5FRFc&t=342s
Thus, starts this excellent short YouTube documentary linked above, Jacques Vallee, UFOs and the Case against Extraterrestrial Origins produced by Think Anomalous in 2022. Dr. Jacques Vallee early in his career was a proponent of the ET Hypothesis (ETH) as explanation for UFOs. However, after years of speaking to UFO witnesses and discussing the cases with an informal group of scientists that he called “The Invisible College”, Vallee concluded the following: the proposition that UFOs were controlled by ET beings was too simplistic.
In my opinion, contact experiencers and activists should also be skeptical of the ET explanation for UFOs and the non-human beings associated with them. This is especially so given the larger society is starting to acknowledge the reality and importance of what are now called UAP. Although the current emphasis is on sighting reports, eventually societal discussions will not be able to ignore the stories of contact and communications with the non-human intelligences associated with flying saucers.
As one who supports the staging of Human Initiated Contact Events (HICE) popularly known as CE-5s, it is crucially important that contact activists have at their disposal the most accurate assessments of what is truly going on. The thoughtful analyses of a brilliant thinker such as Dr. Jacques Vallee should guide our investigations into UFOs and associated paranormal phenomena. These have been called “The Contact Modalities.” This is term coined by author Rey Hernandez, who believes that UFOs, out of body, and near-death experiences as well as other paranormal events should be studied as related phenomena characterized by manipulations of spacetime within a matrix of consciousness. In my judgment, by having a nuanced and sophisticated approach to flying saucers, contact and disclosure activists will be able to share their knowledge most effectively with the larger society.
An important factor that contributed to Vallee rejecting the ET Hypothesis is that encounters were associated with a multitude of what are considered paranormal phenomena like poltergeists and apparitions. Many of the reports included many absurd elements and behaviors exhibited by the “ufonauts” that Vallee deemed were not consistent with their being highly advanced ET visitors with sophisticated technologies. The seemingly nonsensical behaviors of the so-called aliens seemed so contrived that he suspected they were designed to display certain images. Those visual displays were associated with profound psychological transformations in many witnesses and over time have had an effect of society in general.
In the documentary, producer Jason Charboneau lists Vallee’s reasons for challenging the ET Hypothesis. These appeared in an article Vallee published in 1990 in The Journal of Scientific Exploration.
“First: he argued that there were far more landings and contacts than would be necessary for an interplanetary survey or surveillance operation. By his and others estimates there must have been 3 million UFO landings around the world in the last 20 years, an impossibly large number.
Second: UFOs and ufonauts rarely flew away or walked off. When they left, often they simply vanished blinked out of existence or slowly faded away. This suggests that the craft and occupants were more like projections than physical things.
Third: the bodies, actions, and the abilities of the ufonauts do not suggest an extraterrestrial or evolutionary origin. Often the aliens were identical to humans, spoke our languages and were perfectly capable of breathing our air and walking in our gravity.
Fourth: Vallee noted that most of the ufonauts revelations, especially those concerning their origins were nonsense and almost entirely different from one another. Ufonauts claimed to be from just about everywhere in the universe and frequently gave directions or offered maps that made no logical sense such as the two-dimensional star map shown to Betty Hill.
Fifth: finally, Vallee argued that the data collected from cases of so-called alien abduction were unreliable and again involved highly unlikely scenarios. For example, abductees frequently describe highly invasive and painful medical procedures in order to achieve tasks that even doctors in the 1980s could have done with minimal discomfort.”
The Think Anomalous team has produced many excellent short documentaries and I encourage everyone to view and share widely this important resource.

Dr. Jacques Vallee is Skeptical of the ET Explanation for UFOs: Contact Experiencers Should Study his Detailed Investigations.
Joseph Burkes MD 2023.
“There is probably no more influential thinker in the study of UFOs than the French astronomer and computer scientist Jacques Vallee.”
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lmLE0X5FRFc&t=342s
Thus, starts this excellent short documentary linked above, Jacques Vallee, UFOs and the Case against Extraterrestrial Origins produced by Think Anomalous in 2022. Dr. Jacques Vallee early in his career was a proponent of the ET Hypothesis (ETH) as explanation for UFOs. However, after years of speaking to UFO witnesses and discussing the cases with an informal group of scientists that he called “The Invisible College”, Vallee concluded the following: the proposition that UFOs were controlled by ET beings was too simplistic.
In my opinion, contact experiencers and activists should also be skeptical of the ET explanation for UFOs and the non-human beings associated with them. This is especially so given the larger society is starting to acknowledge the reality and importance of what are now called UAP. Although the current emphasis is on sighting reports, eventually societal discussions will not be able to ignore the stories of contact and communications with the non-human intelligences associated with flying saucers.
As one who supports the staging of Human Initiated Contact Events (HICE) popularly known as CE-5s, it is crucially important that contact activists have at their disposal the most accurate assessments of what is truly going on. The thoughtful analyses of a brilliant thinker such as Dr. Jacques Vallee should guide our investigations into UFOs and associated paranormal phenomena. These have been called “The Contact Modalities.” This is term coined by author Rey Hernandez, who believes that UFOs, out of body, and near-death experiences as well as other paranormal events should be studied as related phenomena characterized by manipulations of spacetime within a matrix of consciousness. In my judgment, by having a nuanced and sophisticated approach to flying saucers, contact and disclosure activists will be able to share their knowledge most effectively with the larger society.
An important factor that contributed to Vallee rejecting the ET Hypothesis is that encounters were associated with a multitude of what are considered paranormal phenomena like poltergeists and apparitions. Many of the reports included many absurd elements and behaviors exhibited by the “ufonauts” that Vallee deemed were not consistent with their being highly advanced ET visitors with sophisticated technologies. The seemingly nonsensical behaviors of the so-called aliens seemed so contrived that he suspected they were designed to display certain images. Those visual displays were associated with profound psychological transformations in many witnesses and over time have had an effect of society in general.
In the documentary, producer Jason Charboneau lists Vallee’s reasons for challenging the ET Hypothesis. These appeared in an article Vallee published in 1990 in The Journal of Scientific Exploration.
“First: he argued that there were far more landings and contacts than would be necessary for an interplanetary survey or surveillance operation. By his and others estimates there must have been 3 million UFO landings around the world in the last 20 years, an impossibly large number.
Second: UFOs and ufonauts rarely flew away or walked off. When they left, often they simply vanished blinked out of existence or slowly faded away. This suggests that the craft and occupants were more like projections than physical things.
Third: the bodies, actions, and the abilities of the ufonauts do not suggest an extraterrestrial or evolutionary origin. Often the aliens were identical to humans, spoke our languages and were perfectly capable of breathing our air and walking in our gravity.
Fourth: Vallee noted that most of the ufonauts revelations, especially those concerning their origins were nonsense and almost entirely different from one another. Ufonauts claimed to be from just about everywhere in the universe and frequently gave directions or offered maps that made no logical sense such as the two-dimensional star map shown to Betty Hill.
Fifth: finally, Vallee argued that the data collected from cases of so-called alien abduction were unreliable and again involved highly unlikely scenarios. For example, abductees frequently describe highly invasive and painful medical procedures in order to achieve tasks that even doctors in the 1980s could have done with minimal discomfort.”
The Think Anomalous team has produced many excellent short documentaries and I encourage everyone to view and share widely this important resource.

so yaebin did an ig live where she shared a lot of fun facts and stories about matthew and their family, so i've decided to compile them all. i got all of this from twitter user nyangmatchu and the twitter thread that she made so shoutouts to her

they have a sibling tattoo, matthew's is on his left shoulder, hers is behind her right elbow. it wasn't planned but it was when they weren't living together and they wanted sth that represented their bg, it's some old korean artwork pieces. matthew's sibling tattoo is around the size the palm of his hand, and it's cool because if they link arms you can see both their tattoos from the back. his HMC tattoo is in honour their mum, because it's their mum's favourite movie
yaebin said matthew and her are complete opposites, they grew up so different, and their mum really enjoyed raising them, yaebin said matthew is the sun and she is the moon, they both shine bright and positive light but in very different ways. when asked if they share anything in common, yaebin revealed that they're very different, e.g. food matthew doesn't like she likes (e.g. cheese), matthew loves mushrooms, but yaebin doesnt. matthew's favourite food is chicken, fried chicken. it used to be steak but after he came to korea, chicken is all he wants to eat
matthew and her use mainly english with each other, use korean with parents, and use konglish at family gatherings
say my name is yaebin's favourite matthew performance on boys planet, she feels like it really embodied his personality
yaebin said matthew's a gamer so he was in the baesment a lot playing his games, he does love anime too, he love one piece (bingewatched & had a collection of figurines stuff), naruto, and he was quite sporty, he also skateboarded, he was very typical canadian boy in her opinion
on the question of 'do you guys fight?' yaebin said we are still humans, still siblings, we don't always get along but there's a lot of love behind it still, and we usually end things with a good hug and say sorry
when yaebin told matthew happy 21st birthday!!! matthew was like 'im turning 22!!!' he was very adamant that he was 22 (korean age)
yaebin does want to get more sibling tattoos with matthew but she doesn't think he's allowed anymore? now
question about hows it liking having an idol bro? she said she still sees him as her little brother, it's still kind of weird for her, she doesn't know how we picture him but she sees him as her baby bro still to this day, nothing really changed about the way they text
their mum likes matthew's style more than yaebin's but their mum and him have similar style, yaebin said. and she doesn't know why he likes camo print so much either
quality time together for them is that they'll go into their own rooms, do their own thing, then come out and go for a walk, have dinner and chat - just like any siblings really
matthew he started dancing when he was 8 or 10? he wasnt into it as she was (their mum put them both into classes), yaebin did a lot of comps and shows, while he just did rec hiphop until he was 15 or 16 bc thats when yaebin got into a dance team and he joined bc she encouraged him to and matthew got into dance more bc of it
"how was it visiting matt bday cafes?" she said it was seeing a lot of his face, they grew up in canada so they don't have this culture of renting cafes for idols, "i thought i was entering a matthew universe!" it was cool and she liked it, best experience was seeing his face everywhere and everything around her
"how did it feel when you found out he would be on boys planet?" yaebin said she didn't know what it was really so she felt netural, and because matthew doesn't know many people in korea, she was thinking of how she can support him which is how the tiktok videos came to be
question: have you seen matthew since the finale? yaebin said yes but only once, it's so sad bc she extended her trip initially to see him more but after the finale, the boys went straight to work and getting ready for the debut launch. matthew's been so busy, it's even hard to stay in contact though phone, like they'd contact at midnight for a bit and he'd say that he'd just got home ;; she said they do have plans to meet so she can drop off fan letters and stuff from his birthday and he can drop off gifts for his family (but he's gonna need to ask his manager), but yaebin said she's happy he's busy doing what he wants
matthew used to call yaebin 'noona' when they were younger bc their dad said it was respectful but he just calls her yaebin now and she's ok with it
"how did you feel when matthew was p03" - first thing she did was cry, bc all the stuff that was happening before the last ep, she already was giving up after p04 was announced and was thinking about how to comfort him already, but then he was p03!! the three of them (matthew, yaebin and their mum) made eye contact and the three of us were like oh my god! yaebin said 3rd seemed a bit far fetched at the time with everything that was happening but she's proud of this guy, killed it, seokryudans made this happen
yaebin said she did meet hanbin after the finale, and he said matthew told me you were really good at dancing and she's like the one who's good at dancing is you sir! yaebin said hanbin was really nice, and yaebin saw hanbin's sister too but it was really busy but they do follow each other on instagram so she does chat with her here and there
fav memory of yaebin and matthew growing up, they used to live in this gated town house area where there's a huge hill, matthew decided to bike down this hill and he smashed into someone else's garage door and got his entire face scraped (lip & nose), bike ended up in a bush
he doesn't swear as much as yaebin, "he doesn't swear that often... he doesn't swear"
matthew doesn't drive but yaebin does
yaebin: can matthew twerk? yes matthew can twerk, but don't tell him i told you!!
yaebin said "matthew was more americanised so for me it's also kind of weird seeing the cute version of him, bc i swear he was not this cute growing up with me"
what does yaebin think of the oppa agenda matthew is pushing? "it's so weird for me bc i dont see him as an oppa bc im the noona, it's defiitely interesting, an interesting perspective bc i think it represents another side of him"
matthew was very good at school, "definitely better than me" yaebin said
dream trip with your brother? "probably japan! we'd be living our childhood dream then" she mentioned that he was quite sad bc they couldn't even explore japan when they went recently since they just went for a day to perform kcon
is matthew scary at home? "matthew's too nice, he's the least scariest thing ever"
what yaebin likes most about matthew is his personality definitely
matthew does like studio ghibli
yaebin said her korean is better than matthew's bc his agency was very shocked at how fluent she was when she visited
[matthew texted her during the live LOL] after yaebin called him out for accusing her of not remembering his age when "he just forgot that he's also canadian" he didn't even say you're right, he just said sth like "this is what you're leaving a 1 minute voice note for?" [here's the full video i highly recommend watching it it's so funny skjdlfs]
q. is matthew into photography? yaebin: idk? i think so? i think he is
yaebin: "i feel like the idol life is very suitable for matthew because… growing up he’s always been really good at being told what to do? that sounds so bad, i’m not saying he doesn’t have freedom, he definitely has freedom within this work that he does but at the same time i feel like it’s very planned out? like his life is very like you have to live it this way, you can’t do this or you can’t do that, there’s a lot of restrictions within his life.” but yaebin doesn’t like ppl telling her how to live her life, she grew up very stubborn. yaebin said "i feel like matthew is great at it (being an idol) and likes it and loves it."
yaebin doesn't usually send matthew memes bc he's too busy to check anyways
how matthew got into kpop and being an idol according to yaebin: "So I don't know if I fully had influence on him wanting to become a kpop dancer or for him to be famous but I actually didn't know much about it until after he was telling people about it and I was actually talking to a lot of Matthew's friends and people that knew him and knew me and they were telling me what he's been saying about me, so he essentially was saying that- I didn't realise how much of an impact my life had on him originally. For me, like I said I've always been kind of a rebel child because I've always been very into just me doing what I wanted to do with my life, I was very adamant about me living my life the way i want to live it and be happy with my choices so I did grow up fighting a lot with my parents, with my dad mainly, obviously I still love my dad but we definitely had a bit of a rough relationship when I was growing up because I was so stubborn and also because my dad was so stubborn, and I get my stubbornness from HIM but he was very stubborn in me living my life the way he wanted me to live it and Iwas very stubborn in me wanting to live my life the way I wanted to live it so that's why I didn't go to school (university), I decided to just go into dancing and pursue dance instead and that's why I love to teach […] I am very happy with what I'm doing right now [...] But I guess that had a big influence on my brother in a way where he realised that he didn't want to go to school either, and he wanted to do something that he loved and we did have a discussion before he decided to do this, before he decided to audition and become an idol. So there was one day he came back from school and I told him like 'hey are you feeling? how do you feel about school? and he said that he kind of felt like 'mhm' about school, he's never the type to ever shut down and idea or like 'i hate something', he cares about every single person around him so he's very careful with the things that he say and expressing himself because he hates hurting other people's feelings and that's why he's such a little cutie! but he was kind of like 'school's ok but I don't love it.' so I was like 'ok so what do you want to do?' because I feel like school isn't the right answer for you if you don't love what you're doing because I told him you're just going to be stuck in school, wasting money, creating school debt, and doing something you don't even love doing, so what's the point? and at the time, it was after we were dancing together and ANYWAYS I essentially said, with the whole auditioning too, I think he had an easier time with my parents letting him go to the audition and letting him go to Korea to pursue this because of how much leniency my dad had gained from me. Because I fought him so much for my life and l'm glad I did because I feel like it made it so much easier for Matthew, and I'm glad that it was easier for Matthew. And I'm glad that I was the punching bag because I always grew up being very protective of Matthew too so I'm glad that I was the one who had to go through all the tough poopy part of life and Matthew can kind of have an easier way of getting there. So, I guess that's kind of in a way how I inspired him because he watched me do what I wanted to do..."

(i meant to post this like two days ago but *in gyuvin's voice* sorry i forgot)

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People often ask why there is so much suffering in the world. They blame god or the lack of god but it's really just a fault of the ego. There is no such thing as "good" and "evil". There's beneficial, detrimental, ego-driven, group-driven, trauma, abuse cycles, coping mechanisms, pain. Stop clinging onto organized religious bullshit.
This world was not made to b e easy for you or any other organism. It is impermanent by nature. There is no such thing as evil, your bully beat you up because he was either in pain and wanted to feel better, or bored, or just wanted to have fun. Trying to compartmentalize all human behaviors into a basket is just a lazy way of dealing with threats.
More importantly, if there is an all loving god that created the universe, then the universe was designed this way for a reason. All "evil" behaviors we see, are present in nature. Why? To keep the balance. If there were no predators, then herbivores would eat everything until they went extinct. Animals hoard food in groups to increase their own chances of survival like billionaires. Primates bully lower status males to keep the mates to themselves. Some animals form groups so that predators will choose easier targets to eat and attack. Envy, jealousy, greed, wrath, all of it an evolution strategy.
It makes organisms stronger through an evolutionary arms race. Humans are just a species stuck with genes that force us to know predate on each other to survive in some cases.
Stop complaining about an evil world, and start doing something about it.

“There is probably no more influential thinker in the study of UFOs than the French astronomer and computer scientist Jacques Vallee.”
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lmLE0X5FRFc&t=342s
Thus, starts this excellent short documentary, Jacques Vallee, UFOs and the Case against Extraterrestrial Origins produced by Think Anomalous in 2022. Dr. Jacques Vallee early in his career was a proponent of the ET Hypothesis (ETH) as explanation for UFOs. However, after years of speaking to UFO witnesses and discussing the cases with an informal group of scientists that he called “The Invisible College”, Vallee concluded the following: the proposition that UFOs were controlled by ET beings was too simplistic.
In my opinion, contact experiencers and activists should also be skeptical of the ET explanation for UFOs and the non-human beings associated with them. This is especially so given the larger society is starting to acknowledge the reality and importance of what are now called UAP. Although the current emphasis is on sighting reports, eventually societal discussions will not be able to ignore the stories of contact and communications with the non-human intelligences associated with flying saucers.
As one who supports the staging of Human Initiated Contact Events (HICE) popularly known as CE-5s, it is crucially important that contact activists have at their disposal the most accurate assessments of what is truly going on. The thoughtful analyses of a brilliant thinker such as Dr. Jacques Vallee should guide our investigations into UFOs and associated paranormal phenomena. These have been called “The Contact Modalities.” This is term coined by author Rey Hernandez, who believes that UFOs, out of body, and near-death experiences as well as other paranormal events should be studied as related phenomena characterized by manipulations of spacetime within a matrix of consciousness. In my judgment, by having a nuanced and sophisticated approach to flying saucers, contact and disclosure activists will be able to share their knowledge most effectively with the larger society.
An important factor that contributed to Vallee rejecting the ET Hypothesis is that encounters were associated with a multitude of what are considered paranormal phenomena like poltergeists and apparitions. Many of the reports included many absurd elements and behaviors exhibited by the “ufonauts” that Vallee deemed were not consistent with their being highly advanced ET visitors with sophisticated technologies. The seemingly nonsensical behaviors of the so-called aliens seemed so contrived that he suspected they were designed to display certain images. Those visual displays were associated with profound psychological transformations in many witnesses and over time have had an effect of society in general.
In the documentary, producer Jason Charboneau lists Vallee’s reasons for challenging the ET Hypothesis. These appeared in an article Vallee published in 1990 in The Journal of Scientific Exploration.
“First: he argued that there were far more landings and contacts than would be necessary for an interplanetary survey or surveillance operation. By his and others estimates there must have been 3 million UFO landings around the world in the last 20 years, an impossibly large number.
Second: UFOs and ufonauts rarely flew away or walked off. When they left, often they simply vanished blinked out of existence or slowly faded away. This suggests that the craft and occupants were more like projections than physical things.
Third: the bodies, actions, and the abilities of the ufonauts do not suggest an extraterrestrial or evolutionary origin. Often the aliens were identical to humans, spoke our languages and were perfectly capable of breathing our air and walking in our gravity.
Fourth: Vallee noted that most of the ufonauts revelations, especially those concerning their origins were nonsense and almost entirely different from one another. Ufonauts claimed to be from just about everywhere in the universe and frequently gave directions or offered maps that made no logical sense such as the two-dimensional star map shown to Betty Hill.
Fifth: finally, Vallee argued that the data collected from cases of so-called alien abduction were unreliable and again involved highly unlikely scenarios. For example, abductees frequently describe highly invasive and painful medical procedures in order to achieve tasks that even doctors in the 1980s could have done with minimal discomfort.”
The Think Anomalous team has produced many excellent short documentaries and I encourage everyone to view and share widely this important resource.

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In my life, I currently do not have a single person I consider a friend (awful, I know). I feel like I am just coasting through my 20s completely alone (even worse, I know). So, what better way to look for a friend than Reddit? I have seen lots of good posts here. This is probably not going to be half as good, but we can give it a go. I live in NW England. I am a university student. I am massively into gaming (mainly PC and NS). Huge hip-hop head. Collector of pottery and home décor. Lover of Dr Martens. Avid reader.
Super basic. However, it would be nice to organically get to know someone. Feel free to hmu.

In my life, I currently do not have a single person I consider a friend (awful, I know). I feel like I am just coasting through my 20s completely alone (even worse, I know). So, what better way to look for a friend than Reddit? I have seen lots of good posts here. This is probably not going to be half as good, but we can give it a go. I live in NW England. I am a university student. I am massively into gaming (mainly PC and NS). Huge hip-hop head. Collector of pottery and home décor. Lover of Dr Martens. Avid reader.
Feel free to hmu

In my life, I currently do not have a single person I consider a friend (awful, I know). I feel like I am just coasting through my 20s completely alone (even worse, I know). So, what better way to look for a friend than Reddit? I have seen lots of good posts here. This is probably not going to be half as good, but we can give it a go. I live in NW England. I am a university student. I am massively into gaming (mainly PC and NS). Huge hip-hop head. Collector of pottery and home décor. Lover of Dr Martens. Avid reader.
Super basic. However, it would be nice to organically get to know someone. Feel free to hmu.