Mogh lord of blood

I know I'll get attacked for this and I don't really have anything to say in my defense for my part. For a bit of context, my boyfriend and I have been dating for about a year and 3 months now. We live 80km from each other and meet only during the weekends. We only meet then because the distance and our schedules don't directly allow us to meet whenever we feel like on an ordinary week evening.
Anyway, we met on this dating app called Yubo (iykyk). If you don't know it, imagine it's Tinder but minors are allowed. We met there and we went on a date a month after originally meeting there and talking. Things have been going good and we have a solid base for our relationship. Still, we've been having difficulties for a few months now. A lot of arguments, disappointments, moments where we hurt each other, etc. We've considered breaking up a few times, but it never happened. We're both set on doing our best to make this last. I have a feeling like he's not always doing his best like he says he will, but okay.
Anyway, I never really deleted the app where we met, but I never actively used it. I love my boyfriend enough that I'm truly not interested in anyone besides him. The only reason why I might ever keep it is that once every few moons, I find it amusing to look at weird accounts that appear on my swipe. It's not ethical, I know. I never tried to make any move on anyone and although some dudes tried to make moves on me, I always told them I have a bf and that I'm not interested. I always think of my bf and I don't have the capability for going for the attention of other guys and nor am I interested for it, despite everything I've been thru with my bf.
Earlier today, I was in class when I opened the app and I saw I had a friend request from someone. It was a random user, but it had my bf's name and his pfp. My blood went cold as I'm pretty certain he doesn't know I have the account still. I tried to click on his profile, but it didn't work. I tried to look his username up, but again no results. I tried to make a new acc, thinking he blocked me, but I couldn't make a new one as my phone number was already connected to my first acc. I asked a friend of mine who doesn't use Yubo to make an account and look him up, who did so, but to no avail again.
I talked to him a bit in the meantime, and he acted pretty normal. I asked him multiple times if he's alright, and he said he's fine. Last night, however, he said that he was dealing with something but wouldn't tell me what it was. He said it was something personal that he wanted to deal with alone. He didn't tell me at all what it is, and I'll take my guess that the Yubo thing happened then, I jut didn't notice. I felt like he's been a bit off sometimes and I want to have a conversation with him about it, but I'm very scared and nervous about it.
Any advice?

This was something I read years ago and I never paid attention to what website I was on or the author's names then so I'm sorry if that makes it difficult. I know that it wasn't Fanfiction or AO3 or Wattpad that I was on.
It was about either Sam or Dean being turned into a vampire. It had their dad and the family friend in it also (sorry I'm not real familiar with the show). The dad wanted to kill the brother that got turned but the other one stops him from doing so. The one that got turned doesn't want to drink blood but is forced to a couple of times. At some point the other brother gets hurt and ends up in the hospital with a blood transfusion and the vampire brother has difficulty with staying in the room with him. Towards the end, the vampire brother finds a vampire nest(?) and he's invited to join but he leaves. Somehow the other brother gets turned and he finds his brother in a cabin in the woods and they do the do to make their own nest.

If you have a kidney stone is it possible to have a high ferritin level, bilirubin level and eosinophils level? All of my other blood results are fine. I am a 31 year old male with a history of kidney stones. I know I have two small stones in the left kidney. I have pain in my right kidney but nothing has shown up on CT on that side. The pain gets worse on the right side after riding my bicycle.

I'm looking for a GM for the title. I'll be providing a writing sample down below; I've a variety of ideas in mind, including fandom and original stories such as WH40K, Dragon Age, KOTOR, Cyberpunk, and ASOIAF/AGOT/HOTD.
Beyond that I'm enthusiastic for most forms of history and consider myself well-read on it (i.e. more than just being able to list off battles and fun facts about the Romans and other shallow topics). This usually ties in my writing more often than not; I play the tabletop version of Warhammer and play most of Paradox Interactive's Grand Strategy titles. My current favorite obsession is Knights of the Old Republic 2, and I fence at a very amateur level. I'm a Soulsborne fan (can't beat Sekiro, unfortunately) but am pretty ambivalent to Elden Ring.
If a writing sample isn't shared in your first message, I'll block you immediately.
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The boar is not dead, though to all the other hunters’ senses it is. It lays motionless on its side within the sled, tied down by rope with two arrows sticking discordantly out of its hide like seams of broken bone. Frozen blood pools in the cracked stomach of the sled, collecting rather than leaking now that red ice has sealed the wood. Poison leaching out of the arrowheads keeps the boar docile, and its breathing so light that only Trapper can see. An ovate in too-thin robes shivers as she ties a garland of rosemary around the beast’s neck, murmuring prayers to the ancestors that they might find the kill worthy.
Winter has seized the land in its vise, its unending waves of cold and snow having transformed the Barony of Marlas into a crueler scape, one Trapper doesn’t quite recognize. Tranquility abounds along the driven snow, all through the clearing, hiding the buried world and the woes of man but unable to snuff them out. Trapper knows well what a mirage it is, the oppressive winters of his homeland no less savage than the bloodletting summers. The numbing cold does not soothe his aches, for he knows they’ll be worse come morning, come the thaw. Too soon this clearing will melt, its river gone from white to red, the whole Septima Line thrust back to war.
Baron Orys refuses to yield to midnight season, to accept its peace, and so from his great warhorse’s saddle he brazenly belts out a mixture of drunken lyrics and commands, determined to master this hunt even if he does not partake. An entourage on horseback spreads out in his orbit, ranging from eager young footmen to grizzled junkers, all in varying states of inebriation at his command. Their braying is nearly louder than the hounds’, who hungrily stalk between the sled and the hole they pulled the boar out from. Teased by the hunt but yet unrewarded, they’re too unruly to be kept in check by the kennel master.
On foot slog the unfortunates who actually have to take part in the hunt, Trapper among them. They huddle into their hemp canvas cloaks, glancing up at the moody afternoon sky threatening to crack open with another snowstorm. Dark clouds sweep in low from the south like a riptide, a single vast current swept in from the mountains already menacing the Oldwoods. Its furthest gales reach them as tongues of vengeful cold, flecks of whipped-up snow biting into Trapper’s exposed skin.
By the boar’s nest leans a typical Mallean, one of Trapper’s two erstwhile comrades. Sigorn is tall, pale, broad, with the close-set, wide-boned features of a commoner, and a shock of red hair grown out to protect against the elements. Beneath his cloak he proudly bears his blood-flecked armor, each dent a Darkman put into it a point of dear pride. He’s not the only one, either, the clearing filled with dozens of youths whose first blooding ended in victory amid a blizzard. Baron Orys, deep into his cups after six days of nonstop celebration, saw a break in the storms and gladly called a hunt. When informed he could not go on account of his shattered knee - he simply grinned, and ordered himself tied to his saddle.
Trapper remembers the moment his lord fell from the saddle, burned into his nerves. The screaming of horses, skidding hooves catching on the frozen ground. On the edges of his vision a rider smashes into a branch in the din, others don’t move at all for fear of the blizzard. His spurs dig, his borrowed steed whines, and he races for his lord - only for another to reach him first.
“What a woman.” Sigorn sighs beside Trapper, craning his neck to look at one of their lord’s companions of honor. Susannah Oye junker unlike the others, a pretty, willowy noblewoman well into motherhood, with the lean, ruthless look of a ranger. Her two poisoned arrows are what struck the boar down, and her pride curls off her body like steam. Sigorn’s face cracks into exaggerated appreciation, and then he turns to their lord’s other honored companion. Another woman, this one as young as they are, haughtily-built and leering with none of Susannah’s refinement. Many of those looks are reserved for Trapper, forced to slog on foot as just another hunter. “Anya too. I think she fancies you, eh?"

I started taking testosterone, more specifically AndroGel, in July and I stopped during December because I couldn't afford it anymore (I DIYed and bought it without a prescription) I am 17 and diagnosed with bipolar and borderline personality disorder and my parents think my issues come from a hormone imbalance and not exactly biochemistry and genetic predisposition. Due to that they want me to take a hormone blood test or whatever and I'm really nervous they will see that I have been taking hormones. Is 4 months enough to get it out of my system?

Here are my choices for races 1-9 for Oaklawn Park April 1, 2023 Arkansas Derby Day. I will post the other races probably sometime tomorrow after I look them over good and type why I am taking a chance on them. Like last week at FG, there are some races that a longshot or two looks live and then other races where it will be hard to deny the top 3 or 4 favorites. And as always, my interest lies in finding those longshots and betting them when I think I have found one. Good Luck to all!
1st Race; Maiden Special Weight --- Purse $110,000 ---- 3 YO Fillies --- 6 Furlongs:
1)Sharp Attitude (12-1) has two starts, finishing 2nd in fillies' division of the Arizona Breeders Futurity a restricted state bred races for 2 YO. In her second start, she drew the 7th post on a sloppy track at OP, did not break near as well as her bloodlines suggests she should, then went widest of all without ever getting involved in the race. That race is essentially a toss for me, and I will give her another chance. Trainer is adding blinkers for this race, she has one average looking work since her last start, but trainer is switching jockeys and has named Luis Quinonez, a long time OP jockey who is known for blowing up the exotics here when dismissed in betting. Her sire is Sharp Azteca who won the G1 Cigar Mile H one month after finishing 2nd in the G1 BC Dirt Mile, beating a solid field. Broodmare sire, Rocky Bar, won one listed stake among his five lifetime wins but is a son of the speedy In Excess, who is also sire of Indian Charlie and is dam, To The Post, is a daughter of Bold Ego. 5x4 to Mr Prospector but she has a cross to Chop Chop, a son of Flares, in Storm Bird's dam line and in her own dam line along with U.S. TC winner Omaha, a full brother to Flares, also in her dam line. Crossing in the sire lines and dam lines with important stallions/broodmares is what has been reproducing the X-factor gene since it was first developed, especially if they are in a few choice spots. My choice to win.
6) Mary's Boon (6-1) caught off tracks in her first two and only starts, battled for the lead through very brisk and identical paces, but lost the battle both times to the eventual winners, one a highly regarded odds on favorite and then a first-time starter with solid bloodlines who was dismissed in the wagering. Should be the one that controls the pace early and have something left in the stretch. Though she has no works since her last, she does have a high percentage winning trainer and bloodlines to win early and often in her career. Likely to be live. 4x4 to Mr Prospector, 5x5 to Secretariat. Extremely well bred.
2) Goddess Of War (12-1) is a first-time starter. She has been on the work tab for quite some time and has shown some ability in about half of her works. However, what separates her from other firsters is she has worked multiple times at 5 furlongs, which is what most trainers nowadays uses as a stamina building work and clues you in to many high-priced winners when several of them are decent or good. She did most of her preparations at Turf Paradise but shipped into OP a few weeks ago and worked a deceptive good 4 furlongs, especially coming off a long van ride and then an easy 5 furlongs six days later that was a designed leg stretcher to keep her happy until race day. Her sire, Atta Boy Roy, won a G2 sprint and several other smaller stake races among his 14 wins in 36 starts and broodmare sire, Sky Mesa, won 3 of 6 starts including the G1 7F Hopeful S and G2 1 1/16M Breeders' Futurity. 4x5 to Seattle Slew, but in wrong spots to fully benefit a foal but gets help with crossings to Secretariat and his 2 best dirt producing daughters along with a Bold Rule daughter as the fifth dam. Also 5x4 to Northern Dancer in the right location of a pedigree.
8) Beautiful Bolt (4-1) has started once, on a sloppy track, and like my top choice drew the far outside and really was at a disadvantage but he still set in a perfect spot entering the stretch while watching two front runners battle but then faded. Jockey started this meet extremely hot in December but has cooled considerably. One decent work since his last work and has the bloodlines to win this race. It will be a matter if he can improve off his first race enough to beat a couple of these. 5x5 to Northern Dancer, Sir Ivor and Secretariat with 4 crosses to Somethingroyal through her sons Secretariat and Sir Gaylord, sire of Sir Ivor.
My Risks: $5 Ex Box 1-6, $1 Tri Box 1-2-6, $.30 Super Box 1-2-6-8, $1 Super Key 1 with 2-6-8 with 2-6-8 with 2-6-8. Total Risks $29.20.
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Race 2: Allowance O/C 25K ---N/W $23K Twice Lifetime (Means 23K in winning purses in allowance races including state bred) --- Purse $125,000 ---- 3 YO & Up F&M Arkansas Bred --- 6 Furlongs:
4) Chai Tea (4-1) has won once in 18 starts but qualifies as the class of the field. This race is restricted to state bred foes but at least 5 of her starts has come in open bred fields, including 4 allowance races and one starter allowance 50K in addition to finishing 4th in a 150K state bred stakes race 2 starts back. Likely to get good odds because jockey and trainer has been in a meet long slump but have teamed up before to shock bettors several times at OP. Top choice in a weak field.
9) Hamazing Debating (8-1) finished 3rd in her last race at 60-1 and is actually the horse that renewed my confidence and realizing my slump was likely nearing an end, if I continued to pay attention and working hard. While I missed that exacta (1st & 3rd), I did have my usual tri box. I thought she needed one more race before reaching her best form but was in a weak field with the two favorites from that race entered here again. She now has that needed start and could win but her jockey has not even been close to performing up to his usual standard at the meet. However, he is a decent jockey and it is only a matter of time before he snaps out of it.
7) Pattern Bet (5-1) was the beaten second choice three weeks back against my second choice today. She is closest to returning to her top form, but she could very well need one more start. Trainer is not following his usual pattern with this one and seems to be trying to run her back into shape instead of using works, and this could be because she has a minor physical ailment he's trying to protect or she simply doesn't apply herself in her works, making it difficult to see where she is in her training. I will be using caution, but she probably does not need her best race to win this, just something close to it.
6) She's Storming (20-1) is a 3 yo filly but is technically carrying top weight on the weight for age scale. Otherwise, she would be further up my list but it is way too early for a 3 YO to be giving their elders weight. She will not actually be turning 3 YO until the day after this race. However, her 7th dam, Right About, is a daughter of U.S. TC winner Citation and Right About's dam, Whirl Right, is a full sister to 1941 U.S. TC winner, Whirlaway. She has one work since her last start and it was a bullet work at 5 furlongs, the best of 16 that worked at that distance on that day. But it came on a good track and times are often wrong or deceiving on most off tracks, due to temporary track bias.
My Bets: $5 Ex Box 4-9, $.50 Tri Box 4-7-9, $.30 Super Box 4-6-7-9. Total Risks $20.20.
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Race 3: Allowance Which Have Not Won An Allowance Race Worth $23K To Winner Or Never Won Two Lifetime Races --- Purse $125,000 ---- 3 YO & Up F&M ---- 5 1/2 Furlongs:
8) Hypersport (9-5) looks to me will be the one that gets the early lead and it is very difficult to catch the front running speed at 5 1/2 furlongs at OP. Normally do not like betting horse that ran well on off tracks in their prior starts, but I will make an exception for this one mainly because she is coming back in 23 days and has two works, both leg stretching types, but both indicates trainer thinks she is sharp and peeking into her best form. A definite include in the exotics. 4x4x5 to Mr Prospector, 5x5x5 to Northern Dancer.
6) Thunders Rocknroll (12-1) broke her maiden in her first start against Minnesota state bred fillies in good time. However, like most other states, state bred types rarely produces horses that can be competitive against open bred foes. She then finished second in a state bred stakes before getting an almost six-month break. She switched trainers and looks like she was nearing a winning race on her return, but still needed a few more works but trainer decided to go ahead and run her, likely to give her an out before this start, which is carrying a purse $20K higher than a normal conditional allowance race at OP carries. But trouble found her, mostly of her own doing and the race looks dull on paper. She has two works since that start, both designed to get her closer to top physical conditioning without taking anything fitness already put in her out of her. and now will be racing with blinkers off. Her sire, Maclean's Music, made one lifetime start at SA and ran a 107 3/5 in a maiden race and was retired afterwards. Broodmare sire Thunder Gulch won the 1995 Ky Derby and Belmont S while finishing 3rd in the Preakness to his stablemate, Timber Country and is the sire of Point Given, who was unplaced in the 2001 Ky Derby then won the 2001 Preakness S and Belmont S. 4x5x4 to Mr Prospector, 5x5 to Northern Dancer.
1)Je Suis Rapide (20-1) was claimed three starts back by her current connections, worked twice at CD, then was raised several levels in class at TP made a bid to the stretch but flattening out in the stretch. Sent back to CD, given a few extra days to rest, then shipped much further to CT and raised again significantly in class into condition allowance class where she tracked the early pace but could not catch a 1/5 favorite while pulling away from the rest and finished 2nd while still trying in a good time for that bull ring type track. Sent back to CD but was given normal rest this time, then worked twice, the first was deceptive good then an easy work to help maintain her fitness and then shipped to OP to wait for her next start. 4x4x5 to Mr Prospector, 5x5x5 to Gold Digger.
7) Rollin Chrome (9-2) is the only filly in here that has won a conditional allowance race, but her winning purse was $19.2K, therefore, giving her an opportunity to run in this race. However, she is switching trainers and has no activity since her race over a month ago, usually an indication to look elsewhere to find horses more ready and fit to win. New trainer has been around awhile, including during the era when trainers prepared horses away from the track (to save money and fees), so this is likely his angle with this one. 4x5x4 to Mr Prospector, 5x5 to Northern Dancer.
My Risks: $4 Ex Box 6-8, $1 Tri Box 1-6-8, $1 Super 1-6-7 with 8 with 1-6-7 with 1-6-7. Total Risk $20.
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Race 4: Maiden Special Weight --- Purse $110,000 --- 3 YOs & Up ---- 6 Furlongs:
2) Kingmaker (12-1) finished 3rd in the first start of his career with a decent late kick but like so many first-time starters that runs well, he struggled after that start. After 4 more disappointing effects, trainer gave him a few months break and decided to start over. He was working well for his return then probably put in slower work than the trainer really wanted to see at that time but then showed at least his late kick was still there to give his trainer something to work with. He has four more works since that comeback start, 3 of them useful and the 4th work was in the mud and was what looks like a leg stretching work to maintain his fitness more than to move him forward. Kingmaker is as ready to win as he has ever been and looks like the one to me. 4x5x5 to Mr Prospector, 5x5 to Northern Dancer & Secretariat.
6) Federal Judge (8-1) is a first-time starter. He was purchased for $200K as a yearling. First entered the official work tab last May to give new connections a real look of what they purchased, and he has shown he has some early speed through a series of 6-7 works. Given another six months to grow and mature, he re-entered the work tab at the start of this year. After 3 works at Win Star farm to begin this year, he was shipped to OP and turned over to trainer Brissett to prepare him for his debut. His works indicates he can turn it on or off according to what the jockey is asking him to do, which is what most trainers wants to see from their new trainees. His last two works are fairly fast but his last at 5 furlongs is what separates first start winners from ones who needs a start or two (at 5 furlongs or more) to perform their best. 4x5 to Mr Prospector, 5x5x5 to Northern Dancer.
7) Miracle Worker (7-5) finished 3rd in his first start, when he sat mid pack early behind a brisk early pace then came with a late run when called upon. Same tactics here will likely get the win but there is always the possibility he gets head strong with a new jockey he is not familiar with and battles for the early lead, with plenty signed up, that he tires late, and others take advantage. I personally normally prefer betting others that did not have a decent break or race in their first start than one like this who looks like he ran his race but could not finished the job unless the race was ran in a fast time. And in this case, the finish time was normal for maidens but slightly faster than normal for all classes at this track.
4) P R Call Me Maybe (30-1) has started 3 times and these races will all be tosses for me as he was prepared in all three starts by a trainer that has no idea how to train a racehorse and gave this horse not even a small chance to run a little, much less to impact a race. New owners got a harsh lesson that it takes a trainer who has at least a little knowledge on how to train and has switched trainers. Under his tutelage, the horse's works have improved and actually looks like a racehorse finally. Not likely to be in his top form yet, but if he is, he will blow this field away just on bloodlines. His sire did not win in six starts. His broodmare sire, Lion Heart, finished 2nd in the 2004 Ky Derby to Smarty Jones and is sire of top sprint sire, Kantharos. Sire of 2nd dam, Yankee Victor won the 2000 G1 Metropolitan H. Sire of 3rd dam, Mining, a son of Mr P by a daughter of Buckpasser, won 6 times in seven starts including the G1 Vosburgh and only loss came in the BC Sprint in his final start. Sire of 4th dam, Run Dusty Run finished 2nd in the Ky Derby and Belmont S and 3rd in the Preakness S to 1977 U.S. TC winner Seattle Slew. And sire of 5th dam, First Landing, finished 3rd in the Ky Derby and then sired 1972 Ky Derby & Belmont S winner, Riva Ridge. This is one underneath chance that I am always willing to take a chance on and have been rewarded several times on such chances.
My Risks: $5 Ex Box 2-6, $1 Tri Box 2-4-6, $.20 Super Box 2-4-6-7, $1 Super Key 2 with 4-6-7 with 4-6-7. Total Risk $26.80.
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Race 5: Oaklawn Mile S ---- Purse $400,000 --- 4 YO & Up ---- 1 Mile:
I will be passing this race.
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Race 6: Maiden Special Weight --- Purse $110,000 ---- 3 YO & UP F&M Arkansas Bred ---- 6 Furlongs:
7) Arden Ar (20-1) will be making her first start of year. She has made two starts prior, one in 2021 where she finished second while rallying from last and then one start in 2022 a year later when she did not pick up her feet in a dull effort. This will be her third different trainer in as many starts but the first that has gotten any speed out of her in any of her works. Bred to be speedy and catches a field of Arkansas Bred fillies that looks weak on speed. 3x5x4 to Mr Prospector, 5x5 to Seattle Slew. 2nd dam is a full sister to Tiznow.
4) Delta Moon (12-1) had quite a few works at 3 and 4 furlongs in 2021 but connections decided she needed more time to develop. Brought back in mid 2022, she had one 3-furlong work and then a series of 4 furlongs works but no stamina building 5-furlongs works which is important especially for first time starters to perform their best. She ran a dull first race while never getting in serious contention, waited until OP opened in December and then race two more dull races on off tracks. Owner switched trainers and he put a 4-furlong gate work in her followed by 2 good 5 furlongs works in her before her next start and she finally showed a little life but broke slowly, gained some ground then was bother by another foe stopping her momentum but was rolling late. Trouble has found her in each of her last three starts and she will be a major factor if she can finally avoid getting in trouble. 4x4 to Cox's Ridge, 4x5x5 to Mr Prospector 5x5 to Damascus and Laughter (daughter of Shenanigans and 1/2 sister to Ruffian). Longshot special.
2) Sassy Lass (8-1) has started three times, finishing third in her last two starts. In her first and third starts, she caught off tracks and broke poorly in both of them, which eliminated her from being a serious contender and while she finished third in her last, she was still almost 8 lengths behind the winner. She is bred to have some early speed and in the one start she was dropped into a maiden claiming she flashed that speed but came up empty in the stretch run, likely because she had never been given a stamina type work up to that point. She has no works since her last start, which is always a concern fitness wise, but this field is weak enough it may not matter as much as it usually does. Her sire, Double Irish, is an unraced son of Tapit while her broodmare sire is Half Ours, is a son of Unbridled's Song and his dam, Zing, is a full sister to Yankee Gentleman, the broodmare sire of American Pharoah. Half Ours won his first 5 starts of his 7-start career including a G2 7F sprint. Sassy Lass's dam line traces back to Spinaway. If other speed types do not get out with her early, she will likely wire this field. 4x4 to Fappiano, 5x5 to Mr Prospector.
8) Princess Hadley (20-1) has one start which she broke sluggish, was mid-pack at first call, continue to the turn in good position but tired going around the turn and faded. However, her fading appears much worse than it actually was as top two took advantage of moisture in the track, though the track was listed as fast and pulled away from everyone and then the 3rd place finisher got separation and pulled away from the rest in mid-stretch and at the finish was almost a combined 14 lengths of the 4th place finisher while actually slowing and laboring them shelves.
My Risks: $10 WP 4, $5 Ex Box 4-7, $1 Tri Box 2-4-7, $.30 Super Box 2-4-7-8, $1 Super Key 4 with 2-7-8 with 2-7-8 with 2-7-8. Total Risks: $49.20.
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Race 7: Allowance O/C $50K N/W 2 Allowance/Stakes Races with a $23K value to winner (state bred races not considered) or which have never won 3 races or $50K claiming --- Purse $125,000 ---- 3 YOs & Up --- 6 Furlongs:
1)Mowins (30-1) looks like he went off form after a third against Indiana Bred stakes horses but actually his poor efforts came after he was thrown against open bred foes which fields come up much tougher and there is 4-5 more horses with ability to beat every race than a typical state bred race. But another problem is he has caught an off track in every start against open bred and that alone can should down the process of getting back into top condition. It is hard enough to cycle form on fast tracks, but trainer rarely knows if a horse's race is result of the off track or if the horse found the race useful enough to move him forward. This one probably likes the off track as he had 1 win in 2 tries on a wet track before his last four starts but now his wet track form is misleading. However, his last effort was the first time he tried to run late against open bred and he is likely returning to his top form. Three more leg stretching type works since his last start and his last work before his last start signals, he was coming around before that effort. Likely to be live at solid odds.
5) Much Better (12-1) used to be a class horse when he was younger but could not beat those type horses. However, he has shown he can off an 8-month break in top condition and win in first start back. For horses coming back off a six-month or longer break, I normally try to determine how far along a horse was in circling back to his top form and this will determine how many works and/or races he needs to get ready. I personally believe only horses that has proven they were in top form when trainers stopped on them are eligible to win first start back with a few good works and even then, needs a slight drop-in class to accomplish it. This one look like he was nearing the end of his off-form cycle and has worked 6 times for his return, including 2 bullet works followed by a stamina builder and last work was a leg stretcher type but was too close to race day for anything more serious. Made need one race but has proven he will keep trying until he tires and can no longer match strides with horses running late.
2) Sir Wellington (15-1) is also coming off a six-month break and will be making his first start of the year. I also believe he was nearing the end of his off-form cycle though he had a win in the middle of his cycle, not because he was in form but because he caught an easy low-class field, and he was in form enough to race 5 furlongs and easily beat them as the odds-on favorite. He has 7 works for his return which features 5 rather slow works to begin with followed by 2 more serious works that signals he is getting closer to his best form. Trainer wins at a high percentage and does well with his trainees returning off breaks. Chance to win but I will wait at least one before risking any WP money on him.
4) Osbourne (5-2) is likely reaching the end of his top form cycle because after a win in N/W 2 lifetime allowance level, he was dropped into this class and came running on a sloppy track to finish 2nd. However, it has been over a month since that start, and he does not have a work since which indicates trainer has identified a minor ailment or he thinks the horse took too long to recover from last and needed rest more than physical activity to keep his peak form. Betting horse races is full of tough calls but can be very rewarding if you learn to make those calls and happen to be right. If right on this occasion, he should finish third or worse. Bottom of the exotics only for me.
I will pass on the 6) Straight No Chaser as he will fast but also a proven quitter who runs as fast as he can as far as he can, then stops with or without pressure. Like his sire line but even the best sires have progeny that stops without a good reason. He has run only on the fastest big track dirt in the U.S. at SA with GP and Monmouth dirt tracks the only big tracks that can have similar times on occasions. Smaller tracks like Los Alamitos, Turf Paradise, Emerald Downs, and all dirt tracks in New Mexico have similar dirt tracks that can be considered as fast as SA. Quitters, like over bet favorites, are not worth the risks ever.
My Risks: $5 Ex Box 1-5, $1 Tri Box 1-2-5, $.30 Super Box 1-2-4-5, $1 Super 1 with 2-4-5 with 2-4-5 with 2-4-5. Total Risks: $29.20.
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Race 8: Hot Springs Stakes --- Purse $200,000 --- 3 YOs ---- One Mile:
4) Cactus (8-1) has started twice and has 2 wins. His 1st start came in maiden claiming $30K race where he sat 7th early and then came running with a late charge and kicked clear to win going away and was claimed out of that race by his current connections. Entered back in an O/C $50K, he again raced near the back past the first quarter, then edge closer into the turn, took the lead into the stretch and was clear by 1 1/2 lengths on a sloppy track at the finish. He has no works since that start over a month ago, but I will overlook that in this case because he is still young, has done everything asked of him thus far and his bloodlines. He was purchased as a 2 YO for $300K and why original owner risked him being claimed in his first start is baffling to me, regardless of what he does the rest of his career. His sire, Twirling Candy won the G1 7F Malibu S along with 3 more G2 events among his 7 wins in 11 lifetime starts. Broodmare sire, Kitalpha, is an unraced full brother to Kingmambo, who won 3 important G1 miles in Europe and is best known in U.S. as sire of U.S. Champion Older Horse. Lemon Drop Kid. However, Cactus's dam line traces back through Raise You, dam of Raise A Native, along with quite a few more important broodmares. 4x3 to Mr Prospector, 5x5 to Fappiano, Northern Dancer, & Seattle Slew.
3) Gun Pilot (7-2) has started 4 times with 2 wins and 1 second. He broke his maiden at first asking, then won his third start by setting just off the pace was boxed in around the 2nd turn and shot to the lead when he found a seam and went clear, an indication there was not much in the race comparable to his ability. Both his losses came in races when G1 placed Verifying was in the race and was main reason he faltered in both, including a second in a $80K O/C race to that one. In the Rebel S, he never really got involved and tried to save ground near the rail was a main reason why on a sloppy track. He has 4 works since that start, an easy work followed by two good works and then another easy work 5 days before scheduled start. Simply do not believe he ran anywhere close to his best race in last and will try him back against these. 4x3 to Storm Cat, 4x4 to Quiet American, 5x5x5 to Fappiano.
1)Powerful (12-1) has started five times with 2 wins and a second. In all his placings, he was near the lead or eyeing the early pace, a tactic employed by his sire, Ky Derby winner, Nyquist. His start against Forte is a toss as no one in here has ran well against that one. However, he drew inside in his last start in the Rebel on a sloppy track, set the pace for 6 furlongs while pressured throughout before fading in the second turn. The rail is not the place to be at OP on an off track, especially when sloppy as 3-5 paths has an added advantage and often allows horses to clear early which is needed to win and is the cause of many romps when water is on top of track. The two paths inside are the first to drain and becomes heavy mud before the rest of the track and is common at a lot of tracks. For this reason and his works since, I will give him another shot and hopefully will see him rate early and let others battle for the lead, as plenty is signed on. 4x4 to Storm Cat, 5x4 to Mr Prospector.
7) Rocking Rocket (12-1) has made six starts and has only a maiden win as his only board finish. However, he has shown flashes on having some potential but has been ridden in most of his races by an inexperienced jockey that has had trouble grasping the concepts of racing. In his last, Lukas switched jockeys to a better known and more in tuned one only to watch him burn the horse out on the lead even before the real racing started. Switching jockeys again to a more eager, up and coming jockey who just scored his second G2 stakes win in the FG Oaks with limited opportunities, though he has ridden several graded stakes horses and always seems to have them at the wire trying to pull off major upsets, including nearly upsetting heavy favorite Zulu Echo in last year's FG Oaks. D Wayne Lukas will likely have the horse ready and now has a jockey listed that will take advantage of a horse's fitness and will give a ride the horse has not yet seen. Will be big odds and is high risk, but definitely worth an include in exotics simply because Lukas has won big races before when others have doubt him. 3x2 to Empire Maker, 4x3 to Lord At War with a dam line that descends from Myrtlewood, an influential broodmare whose sire was Blue Larkspur (from the Domino sire line whose line is most responsible for La Troienne influence also) and is a main taproot mare of family # 13.
My Risks: $5 Ex Box 3-4, $1 Tri Box 3-4-7, $.30 Super Box 1-3-4-7, $1 Super 4 with 1-3-7 with 1-3-7 with 1-3-7. Total Risks: $29.20.
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Race 9: Maiden Special Weight --- Purse $110,000 --- 3 YOs ---- 1 1/16 Mile:
10) Quality Chic (9-2) has started twice and endured trouble both times while finishing 4th in each. Before his first start, he was given a series of 3 and 4 furlongs works on Silverleaf training center dirt track and did not have a recorded workout on a certified racetrack or at 5 furlongs, a must for a horse asking to go 1 mile in his first start, especially on an AWT track he is not familiar with. As should have been expected, he broke bad and trailed after the first quarter, then put in sustained run to reach contention, then raced evenly in the stretch. Shipped to OP, he was given a blowout work 11 days later after his first race and then asked to run again 4 days later, again at one mile. He breaks better, then is put in tight at the start, sustained another middle move but ran evenly in the stretch again while altering course late after race was decided. Now, for the first time, he has been set-up to where he should run his best race. Two weeks after that last race, he worked a deceptive good 5 furlongs one week before this scheduled start. His trainer, McPeek, also trains the likely race favorite, so this one will likely go off between 6 to 8-1 and will offer good value for his chances. Top Choice.
4) Game Keeper (6-1) has started twice and ran 2 even races while finishing unplaced both times. But his trainer is Lukas and he is now serious about winning this race with this horse. Before his first race, he had five works this year at 3 and 4 furlongs with only one slow gate work and no 5 furlongs work. Then his two even races ran two weeks apart with no additional works. He now has two works to prepare for this start, a solid 5 furlongs work and then a bullet 5 furlongs work a week apart and 6 days before this scheduled start. Gaffalione leaving this mount for another is probably a mistake if it was his choice but also the only reason this one is not my top choice. Asmussen's son takes the mount and while he struggled early in this meet, he has ridden better as he gets more experience. Expect odds of at least 15-1 but will likely be much higher because of speed figures will point others away from him. You will get higher odds than normal for a solid sire like Honor Code. 3x3 to Storm Cat, 4x5 to Mr Prospector, 4x5x5 to Secretariat, 5x5 to Buckpasser.
7) War Rascal (15-1) has started once and finished 2nd in a maiden race at 5 furlongs with a solid late kick. This one was properly prepared to win his first start, including a 5 furlongs bullet work 13 days before that start. He simply came up short but probably wants more ground and gets it here. He has two more 4 furlongs bullet breezes since that start along with an easy 3 furlongs work. His sire, War Correspondent, won two G3 mile grass stakes races at GP, was stakes placed twice on the AWT including a G2 in Canada but never tried the dirt among his 5 wins in 16 starts. Broodmare sire, Victory Gallop, finished 2nd in both the 1998 Ky Derby & Preakness S before foiling Real Quiet bid for a TC by winning the Belmont S by a nose over that rival among his 9 wins in 17 lifetime starts. Victory Gallop's sire, Cryptoclearance, is also the grandsire of Candy Ride. 4x5x5 to Northern Dancer, 5x4 to Fappiano, 5x5 to Halo, 5x5x5 to Mr Prospector. Ownebreeder of this horse is trying to pull off a rags to riches story as he brought War Rascal's dam in 2010 cheap, has bred the mare 5 times to low priced stallions and sold 3 them of that made over $100K each with two of them winning minor Iowa state bred stakes. He decided to keep this one and race him instead of selling him.
7) Tahoe Run (12-1) has started 7 times with 3 seconds his only board finishes. He looks like an inconsistent sort on paper, but he has the most experience entered in this race and this about is about the time prior experience begins to pay off for early three years old as they lose their early career nervousness and start to settle down into racehorses. He also ran his best race three starts back though he did not win and is one of the angles I use to identify horses ready to run big. His two starts since shows him getting gun for the lead from the 1 post, a move that backfired on OP sloppy track, and then breaking sluggish as given too much to do. Now trainer puts one fast work in him at 5 furlongs since that last start five days before scheduled start and he is ready to roll but will need his lifetime best to pull off the win. Outcross in his first 5 generations.
My Risks: $5 Ex Box 4-10, $1 Tri Box 4-7-10, $.30 Super Box 4-6-7-10, $1 Super Key 10 with 4-6-7 with 4-6-7 with 4-6-7. Total Risks $29.20.
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Would been awesome.

Hello all,
I had sustained blood sugars over and just below 200 for hours after consuming a large meal, and my fasting blood sugar is sometimes over 100. This is typically when I feel my best-the higher it goes, the better I feel. I felt great when it was at 224. The 200 blood sugar test strips turned out to be expired, but testing my blood glucose with fresh new test strips since then (and new monitor) the highest I saw my blood sugar get was 174 after dinner on Tuesday. It was over 100 when I woke up in the morning, after over 8 hours fast, again on fresh new test strips.
I'm trying to find out if you can have prediabetes or type 2 diabetes if your blood sugar eventually goes back down, because mine does, but I can't find any information anywhere about this. My mom is a nurse and told me it can't be diabetes if the blood sugar goes back down. She said it's just insulin resistance, which I think I still need to address?
I am also experiencing almost nonstop false hypoglycemia, where I experience symptoms of hypoglycemia when my blood sugar is below 100, but my sugars are always within normal range. But I am MISERABLE and can barely function-I have to eat round the clock basically, and it's been interfering with sleep and giving me nightmares. But I have caught it once going to 69 (after that episode of 200 sustained over hours, it eventually went back down to 69, but again those test strips w/ the 69 blood sugar were expired). The "hypoglycemia" episodes tend to be at their worst in early spring for some reason, but I've dealt with it to varying degrees of severity since 2018. I've tested in prediabetes range (fasting test) at the phlebotomy lab multiple times, not every time. But on very symptomatic days I struggle to get the blood sugar well above 100 and keep it there, and it stays within the healthy 70-100 range, and I feel miserable and can't function. I feel at my best when my blood sugar is 140+.
Years ago when my "hypoglycemia" started I had my A1C checked twice and it was 4.4 and 4.5, which isn't high at all, that's low right? And I never tested in hypoglycemic range at the phlebotomy lab. So I'm a little confused (I only started using a monitor the last few days, when my "hypoglycemia" symptoms were severe enough that they were impacting functioning day and night).
Today, an hour after lunch started my blood sugar was at 149 (79 before lunch, I felt hypo). Over the last hour (so two hours later) it's gone down to 140. I'm just trying to gauge whether I should email my doctor or not, I don't want to make her think I'm dramatic or a hypochondriac. Yesterday my blood sugar got up to 159 an hour after I started eating my lunch. I've been feeling better (less "hypoglycemia" symptoms) each passing day and the top numbers are coming down each day. Any advice anyone can give me on how normal this is would be appreciated, so I know whether to talk to my doctor.

Many Atheists will say "there's no proof of God, I can't believe in something that doesn't make sense." This is fine and dandy, but I honestly think the real issue for most, is that Christians and God, in the way we portray Him and ourselves, comes across hateful.
We maintain this idea that we are this flawed creation that deserves Hell for eternity. And even in the old testament, authors said things like
"5 The Lord saw how great the wickedness of the human race had become on the earth, and that every inclination of the thoughts of the human heart was only evil all the time. 6 The Lord regretted that he had made human beings on the earth, and his heart was deeply troubled. 7 So the Lord said, “I will wipe from the face of the earth the human race I have created—and with them the animals, the birds and the creatures that move along the ground—for I regret that I have made them.” 8 But Noah found favor in the eyes of the Lord."
But in 1 John 4, we read
"And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him.17In this way, love is made complete among us so that we will have confidence on the day of judgment, because in this world we are like him.18There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love."
And of course John 3 16
16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life"
We get these two polar opposite portrayals of God, one as regretting mankind, and the other as having all encompassing love for them..
Now, the problem is a psychological one. See people have a negativity bias, and without proper correction, we will create these narratives of fear in our head and speak them with our hearts. When Jesus came to preach love, and showed us what this looked like, we no longer had to rely on our own understanding of God, but the example he provided for us.
I'm am 100 percent convinced that anything that teaches fear is inspired by humans. Notice John says whoever lives in love, lives in God. Not vice versa. And he denounces fear. He doesn't say whoever lives in God lives in love. He said the one who fears has not been made perfect in love.
The problem is as people, we pick and choose scripture to support our personal narratives, which we develop out of fear. Fear that we burn in Hell for eternity. This is what has been preached to us, and what we preach to others.
However we interpret the Bible it must be done through a lens of love and inclusivity, not fear. Because if we truly believe it's God's inspired word, anything that is unloving, we denounce.
Christ's sacrifice cleansed us of this fear, and thus our sins. See, sin is derived from fear. The fear of death drives all human sin and action. But the hope we will be made alive again one day, and that we will be reborn in God's spirit, allows us to let go of this fear and love others.
The old has passed away. We no longer have to think in these outdated ways. It's clear what's God intentions and his heart are, through what he has done. So let love enter, and reevaluate our own narratives.

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WARNING LONG READ
TLDR: Spiritual warfare on steriods
I genuinely need advice here from real spiritual Christians. Not carnal Christians that just say "derp see a mental health professional".
I've been tormented by a demonic attachment for ages now and I'm really tired. I saw a mental health professional and I'm diagnosed "schizophrenic" and major depression disorder but i know its a demon tormenting me and its very strong and stubborn.
I frequently get nightmares and sex in my dreams, eating in my dreams, dreams of my family making fun of me, but they have black eyes, being chased, seeing rats, snakes watching me in my dreams and much more, last night i had a dream of my family bullying me over a hunch i have the other night i had a dream where Jesus came in my dreams and i lied to his face as i struggle with lying due to a personality disorder BPD. My bed shakes every night and i literally feel it touch me and enter my body which comes in a form of muscle spasms, it manifested in church and i literally started laughing at the pastor for absolutely no reason and i felt my eyebrows start to forcefully go downwards at him during a preaching. My heart started racing. I also literally started convulsing one night during bible verses being read to me as i find peace for it when i sleep. But my peace has been taken away. During prayer one night i started laughing demonically.
Im scared to sleep every day due to these attacks and it has progressed to even worse where im being touched all over my body. It touches me primarly near my genitals and butt but it also pokes my face and i can literally feel it poke me like a finger when someone pokes you its cold and itches and i know for a fact that its real cause it only happens in my room.
I started blessing my room as the attacks primarily happen in my room aka my place of solitude, silence and peace. But ive since lost my peace and im always in a state of sleep deprivation. I work security where i regularly have 12 hour shifts and its causing me great pain and caused me to become addicted to energy drinks to stay awake. I also get nasty intrusive blasphemous thoughts on the regular, random words coming into my mind like "satan" or it twists worship songs to sing about satan.
Ive gotten to the point im about to quit my job and give up even tho im 60k deep in debt and im forced to pay my bills or i may get sued and my wages garnished and my car and other stuff repo'd
My luck has also decreased, alot of bad things have been happening and my energy has been drained like something is sucking the life force out of me daily.
ive reached out to pastors primarly David Diga Hernandez on youtube who is very anointed and has a deep connection to God and his sermons prove it and his prayers, hes also a deliverance minister like pastor vlad. David prayed for me recently. I've stopped going to church afraid of another manifestation. Im completely alone and isolated from other believers.
I've rebuked this thing in the name of Jesus Christ many times and quoted luke 10:19. And it still refuses to leave. So clearly i have no authority over this thing. Like God is allowing it to happen, God has been silent ever since but i still feel the holy spirit when i talk to the lord but its nothing but silence and empty prayers.
I believe this to be a sex demon or spirit spouse which is biblical opened by my former addiction to masturbation, lust and pornography, fornication and soul ties which ive quit and renounced. But ever since then ive been attacked heavily and it all happened last year around june. Ive been dealing with this ever since. I also used to heavily talk to spirits with divination which this is very real. My mother is also a witch who i disowned sadly due to her demonic nature.
I do confess i struggle with drug addiction primarily nicotine which has complete hold over me and my life ive tried to quit but i end up digging through trashcans to find my vape which i threw away due to withdrawl torment.
Ive fasted, ive prayed very powerful deliverance prayers for Jesus to intervene but to no prevail. This thing attacks me even in the presence of the lord which i feel during bible verses.
So its obvious God is letting this happen and ultimately its destroying my faith in the lord as i feel completely abandoned. Ive never felt such awful spiritual warfare in my life, ive done all i can, prayed, and all that to no prevail.
Its leading me to want to off myself even though i dont want to at all and i still wont but my brain tells me its the only way to escape the pain of this torment but i fear hell and going to hell due to that but it feels like i am in hell completely thats how bad it is. So i feel trapped in this endless cycle of depression, demonic torment, intrusive thoughts, addiction, lack of peace, nightmares ever night and much more. These attacks started happening right when my ex left me for 6 months and i gave my heart to jesus christ our lord.
Maybe i blasphemied the holy spirit on accident and God completely cut his connection to me cause thats what it feels like.
No matter what deliverance ive seeked has no prevail it has not helped, neither has prayer or getting into Gods word, nor exercising my authority.
This has to be some sort of Job situation cause it certainly feels like it or evil spirits sent by God to test and discipline me for living in sin due to addiction and struggling with lust.
Or this could be a season of spiritual warfare and God is testing my faith to see how strong i am in him and this will soon pass but its been around seemingly over a year and it has not stopped and wont leave and im tired and weary and i cannot stand it anymore
1 Samuel 16:14
Ive reached the end of my rope honestly, and will leave the faith very soon.
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I KNOW FOR A FACT THIS IS NOT MENTAL ILLNESS BUT EVIL SPIRITS AND DEMONS. SO DONT TELL ME SEEK HELP CAUSE IVE ALREADY BEEN IN TREATMENT FOR 15 YEARS. Doped up the HIGHEST dosage of medications and been through therapy multiple times, and locked in a institution for attempted suicide.
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i need help asap. Cause they wont even go away in the name of Jesus.

Its almost been a year since the last update, many teases have been posted, but we’re still waiting. Was it because of By Blood Alone? Did you guys have to redo the whole files of the update? I can’t wait to play the new focuses once the update comes 😊

Howdy UW-Madison,
Moved here exactly 2 years ago from D.C. and I'm moving again. A few observations before departing.
I'm curious to hear your thoughts, and if you agree or not, here goes....
(1) UW-Madison student population growth.
Student population is growing beyond its breaking point - without regard for the overall impact on the city. Total # of students (grad & undergrad) is almost 50,000!
Does the university administration consider the citywide impact? Huge student body contributes to a housing shortage, increases in rents, traffic, and overall congestion.
How will Madison cope if the university hits 60k students?
(2) Epic.
Can't talk about Madison without discussing Epic. They're adding 1,700 new jobs in 2023. Wow!
I grew up in Bellevue, WA (near Seattle suburb) and Madison feels just like Bellevue did 30 years ago when Microsoft was rapidly expanding. Influx of Epic wealth will forever change the fabric of Madison society, just as it did in the Seattle/Bellevue area. Bezos founded Amazon in Seattle due to the presence of Microsoft tech talent, and the rest is history.
Will the presence of Epic lure the next Amazon?
Will Madison become the next Seattle?
(3) Beer & drinking culture.
Madison beer = Delicious!
I'm not really a beer person, but I've had more beer in the last two years than in the previous 5 years combined. No regrets! Enjoyed every tasty sip and it kept me warm in winter.
That said, is it too much? Unhealthy?
Truth be told, I've struggled to keep my weight in check while living here, despite running 5x per week, even in the winter. Can't imagine I'm the only one with this issue. All that beer makes it hard to stay in shape, right?
(4) Roads.
Good lord, fix the roads. The road on my daily commute to the westside was like an old west wagon trail. I know the winter freeze - followed by the spring thaw - makes it tough, but my goodness the roads here are horrible.
Can't something be done?
(5) Defensive locals.
I'm comfortable expressing constructive criticism about Madison on Reddit, but I'd never voice them out loud at a party, pub, restaurant, or any public setting in Madison. For some reason, I've found that locals get super defensive, sometimes downright angry, if you dare to criticize aspects of life in Madison.
Personally, I think Madison might be a wonderful palace to call home long-term, but it's strange how upset many locals I've encountered in the last 2 years become when you voice an alternative perspective. Get ready to rumble if you tell a native Madison local you don't like it here.
I've lived all over the place: NYC, DC, Boston, Seattle, LA, San Antonio, Florida, etc., and I've never encountered the kind of combativeness one receives in Madison if you dare to offer constructive criticism about the city, or what's it like living here from an outsiders perspective.
Why are locals so defensive about discussing the negative aspects of life in Madison?
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Thanks everyone, have a great day and take care, Spring is almost here!

Hello all
I was asking about Mark Alan Smith book Queen of hell anyone read it or have tried the rituals in it. I just read few pages i felt its quit non beginner book and abit into sex and blood stuff

I have 2 plus 10 rivers of blood and 2 plus 10 moonveil which one is best for blood loss and damage and could you give me some tips please

This Is What It Sounds Like When Plants Cry https://nyti.ms/3G3Y6JG
One thousand nay a million voices full of fear And terror possessed me then And I begged Angel of the Lord what are these tortured screams? And the angel said unto me These are the cries of the carrots, the cries of the carrots! You see, Reverend Maynard Tomorrow is harvest day and to them it is the holocaust

May 7th, 1945
This home is wonderful, it has everything I want and need, everything I ask for and for such a low price. I had always wondered why beautiful houses such as mine were on sale, and I would assume it was due to the inflation. Though don't ask me because I don't know how it works around here. The neighborhood is quite beautiful too, we have lovely rich neighbors who have welcomed us with open arms and oh our garden! That is what I set my pride and joy to, however there is this beautiful willow tree that I can't seem to revive, it's slowly dying and I don't know how to save it. I decided in the end it was un-savable, until one night I had thought I heard someone in my garden. I had tried to wake my wife and asked if she heard anything but she was in a deep sleep, I checked to see if maybe my daughter was awake but she was also asleep. I went downstairs with my flashlight and walked into my garden, but no one was there. I was going to head back to sleep but I heard a woman crying, it was coming in the direction of the willow tree.
"Who's there?" I called out, but she only cried, "Are you alright? Are you hurt?" But she didn't answer, I slowly walk towards the willow tree and looked around but no one was there, "Hello?"
"Up here." Her voice was angelic and she sounded young, I looked up and saw the shape of a beautiful woman. I went to point my flashlight towards her but it had died, I banged on it but nothing worked. I looked back up and she was still here crying.
"Why are you crying?" I asked softly, I wondered if she needed help or if she was hurt.
"The tree," She said, "It's dying." I almost felt ashamed when she mentioned this, because there really wasn't anything I could do to revive it.
"I tried to fix it, but there isn't anything I can do. It's something that doesn't want to be saved." She sniffled and I saw her slightly perk up.
"I know a way you can fix it." Excitedly I looked up, "But... I shouldn't tell you, it's too much to ask. The last owner, he refused to help the tree, that's why it is dying."
"I want to save the tree, I'll do anything!" I couldn't tell but it looked as though she looked down at me.
"Anything?" She asked in a curious tone.
"Of course! My garden means everything to me," I turn and spread my arms to show my lovely garden, "As you can tell I have taken well care of everything, all I need to save is the willow tree, so if there is anything I can do to save it I must know!" For a long moment she was silent, not a word was said and for just a moment, I lost slight hope until she spoke again.
"The tree needs blood." She said in a cold tone, "But your sacrifice won't be for nothing. The tree can grant you a gift, one thing everyone wants and can't deny. The one thing everyone is so desperate to have." My heart almost stopped beating for a moment, did she mean to sacrifice my own blood or kill someone?
"I can't kill someone!" I said, "That's a horrible thing to do! I would rather the tree die." For a second I laughed, "You have to be joking right? You don't really mean blood." She fell silent and didn't answer, a lump had got caught in my throat, she really does want me to kill someone, "I'm not killing anyone."
"You don't have to worry about hiding your crime, the tree will help you!" I grabbed my flashlight and began to walk away, I wasn't going to feed into these delusions, "The tree can give you Eternal youth!" She called out, and I stopped in my tracks
"Eternal youth?" I asked quietly, "You're lying."
"It's true! It's the gift that anyone would kill for and the only thing that the tree will offer to those who sacrifice for it." I turned to face the tree and walked closer again, looking back up, she hadn't moved an inch, "I was once and owner, I did the same thing for the tree. I too was skeptical, and one night, a burglar broke into my house, I ran into my garden and I killed him. The roots of the tree sank his body to the ground and granted me the gift of eternal youth, as long as I kept providing, and anyone else who was willing to provide for the tree." I looked at the trunk of the willow tree and grazed my hand upon it, I began to fantasize the idea of murdering people and continuously staying young with my wife and daughter forever.
"I don't even know how I would be able to murder someone."
"A party." She said softly, "Throw a party and bring someone alone to the garden, then, when no one is looking, kill them in front of the tree. The roots will consume the body into the earths soil." I stayed silent, was it really that easy? Will I really be granted this gift of eternal youth and my family, "Think about it, you don't have to decide now." She began to hum an unfamiliar tune and didn't utter another word, I went back to bed, but I couldn't sleep, all I could think about were her promises and her soft voice.
"Eternal youth..." I whispered to myself before falling asleep. My wife woke me up for breakfast the next morning, and as I went about my day, all I could was stare at my tree. Dead people in exchange for eternal youth didn't seem like a bad deal, and the tree will hide the body and my crime. I shake my head in shame, why would I ever do that to anyone? I couldn't hurt a fly, but if it were for my family...
"Honey! Dinner is ready!" my wife called out to me from the kitchen, I was in the garden, staring at the tree, not a woman in sight. I quickly walked back inside and my wife began rambling about how we need friends, a social life and how our daughter needs to make friends of her own. At first I didn't even pay attention, but I knew what I was going to do and I had finally made my decision.
"Let's have a house warming party." I said, "You'll make friends and so will Edith." Edith looked up at us with sparkles in her eyes, clearly excited by the thought of having friends. My wife, hugged and kissed me already planning on everything that was going to be needed for the party. That night I thought about who I would kill, how I would kill them, and how do I lead them to the tree. I looked out my window and there was the figure of the woman staring at my house, it felt as though she was waiting, like she knew I had made my decision.
The next morning I spent all day helping my wife decorating, I did all the things she wasn't able to and Edith made some cards and my wife cooked a wonderful feast. I bought fine wine and sat the drinks in an ice bucket. It was beginning to grow dark and finally the guest arrived, drinks were served, music was playing and everyone was having a joyful time.
"Ethan!" I turn to see Henry James calling my name and he held a glass of wine in one hand, and the other wrapped around his wife's waist, "Let's take a look at that garden of yours! You talk about it so much I just must see it!" My heart sank, I had completely forgotten that I was meant to kill someone and this was basically an opportunity falling write in my hands.
"Of course!" My throat suddenly became extremely dry as I guided him outside with my flashlight, "Isn't she a beauty? I designed her myself and she's very healthy."
"What about that thing?" I dreaded facing my light at the tree and showing its dead leafs and branches.
"Nothing I can do about it, it's not something I can save." I said taking another sip of the drink.
"It's because you don't have the money!" Henry laughed, "Your tree is dying from all those cheap products you use, of course it can't live in such cheap condition." He laughed much harder, his faced slowly glowed red, "I'll pay for your tree, I'll take it and show you what money can do!" I began to grow more and more angry; he looked down on me for not having much money, and he wanted to see my garden so he could laugh. I shut off my light, "Where's the light?"
"Battery died, give me a second." I said in a dark tone, "I just gotta give her a little shake." Henry laughed again, talking about cheap flashlights and gardens and he began to mention how I was lucky to even afford this kind of wine, I had lost it, smashing his head repeatedly, I turned the light on and shine it on him. I watched as the ground softly rumbled and the roots of the tree grabbed the body of Henry James, and I vomited.
"The tree is grateful," It was that woman's voice, and my flashlight stopped working again.
"No," I panicked, "I didn't mean to, it was an accident!"
"The tree will bless you now, aren't you happy?"
"No!" My heart raced with fear, "This shouldn't have happened! I'm drunk!"
"And who will believe you, the police? All the see is a man whose poor and killed a rich man." My eyes began to widen with fear, I have made some sort of deal with a demon and it was clear there was no escaping this. I ran inside, dropping my flashlight.
"Honey? Is everything okay?" I looked up and realized everyone was looking at me, I had to come up with a quick excuse, something that made sense and something believable.
"Yeah!" I laughed softly, "I wouldn't go back there until I've cleaned it, I vomited, had a bit much to drink."
"And my husband? Where is he?" Henry's wife perked her head up, "Didn't he go out with you?"
"Yes," I quickly thought of something, "He walked out through the back, headed home! He said he wasn't feeling well and to tell you he'll meet you home." She smiled softly, clearly calmer.
"This wouldn't be the first!" She laughed raising her drink and everyone went back to partying. Everyone believed me, no one batted an eye, no one questioned me, and my wife was social. Was I afraid of nothing? I continued to party with everyone like nothing had happened, even though the reminder of Henry James body was dead in the ground, nurturing my willow tree.
The next day, police knocked on my door, my wife had explained that Henry was missing and his wife had reported it that he was last seen with me.
"We just have a few questions to ask you," That woman was right, all the police will see is a poor man who killed a wealthy man, they don't care what went down.
"Of course." I softly smiled, "Ask me anything, Henry was a wonderful person and if there is anything I can do to help I will do everything I can." I invited the police in and My wife brought out tea for everyone, they asked me all the simple questions of what happened, when I last saw him, if he said anything out of the ordinary and of course I lied to them.
"Could be having an affair and decided to start anew." One of the officers mumbled, and then a lightbulb popped.
"You know officer, he did mention something," I spoke silently, leaning in the table and so did they, "He mentioned another woman, younger than his wife, mentioning starting anew." I shook my head, "Easily could just have been drunk talking, but I felt it be important to mention. He's a good guy, I don't think he would do that to his wife, I don't want to bad mouth him you know?" The officers looked at each other and began to stand.
"Alright, thank you for taking the time to speak with us," I guided towards the exit and one of the officers stopped, "By the way, you have an extremely beautiful garden, especially your willow tree there. Got any tips?" I chuckled and told him the fertilizer I used.
"Definitely something to die for." A lump in my throat formed remembering the dead body of Henry. The officers left. Later that night I went out without my flashlight, "Where is the gift? I don't look or feel any younger!" I angrily spoke to the woman in the tree, "Was this all just for me to kill?"
"The tree is more lively is it not?" She spoke softly.
"What are you?!" She went quiet, and finally she dropped down, I watched as she slowly walked towards me and stepped into the light, she was naked, and she had beautifully shaped body. I slowly looked up to her eyes and horror filled my body. She had leafs and branches sticking out of her eyes and mouth, she looked as though she was just flesh and the tree filler her with its branches like a puppet.
"The tree," She whispered. I screamed at the top of my lungs, rushing back in my house as quickly as I could, "Feed me, and I will allow you to live." She said before swinging back up, hiding behind the branches. I must feed the tree, I have to keep feeding the tree.
~ End of Diary
I looked out the window of my house, and there tree was. The same tree in the diary, and right below it was my great grandfather, sitting in front of it, in his rocking chair and staring at it. I opened the window hearing a woman softly cry, and I watched in horror, as she stepped out from under the tree and into the backyards light, staring up at my window before the lights flickered and popped.