Hi all,
I am a 42M, 5'11" and 170lbs. I have attached my MRI scans for your reference at https://imgur.com/34QTePR.
I take several vitamin supplements, including D3, C, fish oil, magnesium complex, zinc, and B complex. Five months ago, I began experiencing pain in my right calf just above the ankle. At the time, I wasn't sure what it was, so I rested a lot, hoping it would go away. It did go away until I engaged in some heavy physical activities, which caused the pain to return. I then began doing stretching exercises, bending down, and moving my legs to alleviate the pain.
Currently, I experience pain in both legs. In the morning, the pain is in the upper left quad, and at night, it's in the right leg in the outer right calf above the ankle. As the pain has only worsened, I obtained an MRI scan.
I am now doing The McKenzie Method exercises and spending a lot of time on my stomach, which provides relief for about 5 minutes. The pain feels like a cramp, is occasionally tingly, and at times throbs up and down the nerve. Additionally, my body feels stiff.
I'm wondering how severe my condition is and how long it will take to recover.
Additionally, I'm curious if there are any other treatments or actions I can take to help me recover faster?

Officially have my motorcycle license- our closest DMV is an hour away and over a huge bridge so I’ve been dreading it since I got my permit- but my little Fiddle III did great today. There and back on five bucks of gas. Super impressed and happy with this goofy capable machine.
It’s been my daily rider since November- I’m lucky to live somewhere where ice on the roads is extremely rare. I’m just so glad I can carry a passenger now and ride at night. This little thing was already so practical, and just keeps getting better. Gonna take the best care of it that I can so I can hopefully keep it around for a while.
That’s all, that’s the post, just so pleased and didn’t know where else to talk about it.

Hi everyone,
I found a forgotten lot of games at my parents house when I went to visit. I thought I had sold all my games and systems in the past, but I was very wrong. Previously I sold my N64, NES, etc. games on eBay, but all the best ones were literally bought by Lukie Games. I'd rather list here than sell it to resellers.
Since I’ve got no confirmed transactions here, I’d be happy to do PayPal G&S to build community confidence. I’d eventually prefer to move away from it to other methods like F&F, Venmo etc. once it's felt I'm more established.
Nearly all of the games are in excellent condition and many come CIB. A number of the loose games (Game Boy) also have instruction manuals that are in excellent condition, which are noted in the table below. Most of the items should have pics in the links below, please let me know if I'm missing anything (Warning, photo dumps!):
https://imgur.com/a/ZCq1tAe
https://imgur.com/a/V22CkwY
https://imgur.com/a/JvOwlCY
I'm very happy to take more pictures for anyone who would like; please let me know whatever you need and I'll be glad to provide. I have twin 10mo old girls and one of them requires extra special attention, so I may need more time than the average person to get you them :) Apologies in advance!
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All prices are shipped. Combining games would take some $ off the total. Open to offers for most listed, some are more firm than others.
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System/Games/Items	Notes	Price
Game Cube
Animal Crossing + AC Memory Card	CIB	90
Harvest Moon - Another Wonderful Life	CIB	40
Luigi’s Mansion	CIB	70
Mario Power Tennis	CIB	40
Metroid Prime	CIB	45
Paper Mario The Thousand Year Door	CIB	125
Starfox Adventures	Game & Box, No Manual it seems, but other inserts there	35
Super Mario Sunshine	CIB	50
The Legend of Zelda The Wind Waker	CIB	75
The Lord of the Rings The Two Towers (Players’ Choice)	Game & Box, No Manual	10
Dreamcast
Centipede	Complete	15
Crazy Taxi	Complete	30
House of the Dead 2 w/ Gun	Gun is in great condition but untested	75
Hydro Thunder	Complete	40
NBA2k	Complete	10
NFL2k	Complete	10
NHL2k	Complete	10
Ready 2 Rumble	Complete	25
Resident Evil: Code Veronica	Complete	55
Sonic Adventure	Complete	60
Sonic Adventure 2	Complete	120
Soul Calibur	Complete	40
Tony Hawk's Pro Skater 2	Complete	25
Trick Style	Complete	20
Game Boy
Bomberman GB	+ Clear Protective Game Case + Manual	25
Game & Watch Gallery	+ Manual	15
Game Boy Color Atomic Purple	Tested & Working	90
Game Boy Color Carrying Case	Official 1990's	30
Gameboy Camera (Green)	Tested & Working	50
Game Boy (Original)	Tested working, but left side of the screen does not display completely (streaks down the left side, about 1cm thick) and the contrast is very light overall. Also missing back plate. Likely repairable?	40
Gameboy Pocket	Clear 'color'. Turns on, games play, but the screen is very, very dark. Good condition otherwise; likely repairable?	40
Gameboy Printer	Tested & Working (+ Link Cable & Half a roll)	125
Ghostbusters II	Cart only	50
Hyper Lode Runner	Cart only	15
James Bond 007	Manual Only	8
Marble Madness	Cart Only	15
Mario Golf	+ Manual	35
Pokemon Blue	+ Clear Protective Game Case + Pokemon Blue Manual	80
Pokemon Gold (Japanese)	+ Clear Protective Game Case + Pokemon Gold Japanese Manual	60
Pokemon Pinball	Manual Only	10
Pokemon Red	+ Clear Protective Game Case + Pokemon Red Manual	90
Pokemon Yellow	+ Clear Protective Game Case	60
Tetris	Cart only	20
Wario Land II	+ Clear Protective Game Case + Manual	50
Worms Armageddon	Manual Only	15
WWF King of the Ring	+ Manual	15
WWF Warzone	Cart only	10
PlayStation 1
Area 51	Manual + Case Only	10
Final Fantasy VIII	CIB	30
Final Fantasy VIII	Missing Disc 4 - Unsure how to price	20? Make an Offer
GamePro Ultimate Video Game Code Book Vol 3	Good Condition	10
Gauntlet Legends	CIB	25
Gran Turismo 2	CIB	20
Grind Session	CIB	15
Knockout Kings 2000	CIB	15
NBA Jam Extreme	Damaged/Destroyed Jewel Case	12
NBA Live 98	Loose	8
NBA Live 99 / Triple Play Combo	CIB	10
Need for Speed III Hot Pursuit	Porsche Unleashed Back, Hot Pursuit Front/Manual, though.	10
Sony Playstation Console Booklet Insert	Included with console I believe?	8
Tony Hawk's Pro Skater	CIB	20
WCW NWO Thunder	CIB	15
PlayStation 2
Dark Cloud 2	CIB	35
Dragon Quest VIII - Journey of the Cursed King	CIB + FF Demo disc	30
FIFA soccer 2002	Game & Case only	10
Fight Night 2004	CIB	8
Final Fantasy X	CIB	10
Gran Turismo 3 A-spec (Greatest Hits)	CIB	10
Gran Turismo 4	CIB	15
Grand Theft Auto San Andreas	CIB + map	25
Grand Theft Auto Vice City	CIB + map	20
Kingdom Hearts (Greatest Hits)	CIB	12
Kingdom Hearts 2	CIB	14
Madden 2005	CIB	8
MLB The Show 06	Game & Case only	8
Mortal Kombat Deception	CIB	20
MVP baseball 2004	CIB	10
NBA Ballers	CIB	12
NCAA Football 2004	CIB	10
Need For Speed Underground	CIB	20
NFL 2k3	CIB	8
Rampage Total Destruction	CIB	15
Spider-Man 2	CIB	25
SRS Street Racing Syndicate	Box & Manual Only, No Game	8
The Godfather The Game	CIB + NYC Map	20
The Simpsons Road Rage (Greatest Hits)	CIB	25
Tony Hawk’s Pro Skater 3 (Greatest Hits)	CIB	15
Game Gear
Arch Rivals	Cart only	10
Castle of Illusion	Cart only	35
Columns	Cart only	8
Dragon Crystal	Cart only	25
NBA Action	Cart only	5
Pac-Man	Cart only	10
Popils	Cart only	25
RBI Baseball 94	Cart only	8
Revenge of Drancon	Cart only	20
Shinobi	Cart only	25
Slider	Cart only	12
Sonic Chaos	Cart only	15
The Majors Pro Baseball	Cart only	5
Woody Pop	Cart only	15
Nintendo 64
Console	NUS-001 - All hookups, Tested working, but no controller	80
Rumble Pak	Cleaned, but untested	15
Memory Card	Untested, white out used on the front. Comes with case.	15
Nintendo DS
Silver Handheld Console	Tested & Working, includes stylus & Charger	75
My Spanish Coach	CIB	8
Misc (Booklets, Posters, Manuals, etc.)	All in very good to excellent condition.
Acclaim Game Boy Poster	No idea how to price these posters but they seem to be around this online	25
Age of Empires 2 + Expansion Booklet (Combo)		10
Age of Empires Booklet		10
Clayfight 63 1/3 Instruction Booklet		15
Diablo 2 Official Strategy Guide		15
Gameboy Insert Poster	Unsure how to price; showcases Gameboy games it seems. Not sure I've ever opened it all the way.	20
007 Goldeneye 64 Instruction Booklet		15
Half Life Game of the Year Edition (PC) Manual		5
Ken Griffey Jr's Winning Run		10
Legend of Zelda Ocarina of Time Instruction Booklet		25
Mario Brothers Movie Soundtrack CD	CIB	50
Mortal Kombat Trilogy 64 Instruction Booklet		20
NBA Hangtime N64 Instruction Booklet		10
NCAA Road to the Final Four User Manual	Reads like an NCAA rule book lol	10
Nintendo Power Pokemon Wall Calendar	Unused, not even sure I've ever unfolded it. Great condition.	40
Official Nintendo 64 Mario Mouse Pad	Not sure how I got this; officially licensed from the mid-late 90's - has some small punctures in it, but mostly just needs a good wipe-down	30
Pokemon Snap - Snap Station Stickers	Still in the wrapping.	20
Pokemon Trading Card Game Rules 1999		10
San Fransisco Rush Extreme Racing 64 Manual		20
SEGA Genesis Sonic The Hedgehog Manual		15
Skyrim Canvas Map	Unused, also not sure if I've ever opened this	25
SNES Game Insert Posters	2x - Again not sure how to price these	25 each
South Park 64 Official Insert Poster	Great condition, never opened	25
South Park Chef Aid Soundtrack		15
[REMOVED] Starfox 64 Strategy Guide [REMOVED]	can't find strategy guide now, will relist once found	20
Super High Impact Instruction Manual		10
Super Mario 64 Instruction Booklet		15
Super Mario All Stars Instruction Booklet		10
Wayne Gretzky's 3D Hockey Instruction Booklet		10
WCW NWO World Tour Poster		20
Where in the World is Carmen Sandiego? PC-CD Rom Booklet		10
Wrestlemania 2000 Instruction Booklet		15

Hello, I am a 42M, 5'11" and 170lbs. I have attached my MRI scans for your reference at https://imgur.com/34QTePR
I take several vitamin supplements, including D3, C, fish oil, magnesium complex, zinc, and B complex. Five months ago, I began experiencing pain in my right calf just above the ankle. At the time, I wasn't sure what it was, so I rested a lot, hoping it would go away. It did go away until I engaged in some heavy physical activities, which caused the pain to return. I then began doing stretching exercises, bending down, and moving my legs to alleviate the pain.
Currently, I experience pain in both legs. In the morning, the pain is in the upper left quad, and at night, it's in the right leg in the outer right calf above the ankle. As the pain has only worsened, I obtained an MRI scan.
I am now doing The McKenzie Method exercises and spending a lot of time on my stomach, which provides relief for about 5 minutes. The pain feels like a cramp, is occasionally tingly, and at times throbs up and down the nerve. Additionally, my body feels stiff.
I'm wondering how severe my condition is and how long it will take to recover?
Additionally, I'm curious if there are any other treatments or actions I can take to help me recover faster?

With the advancement of technology, the functions and performance of mobile phones are getting better and better. In order to stabilize battery life, the battery is also designed to be larger and larger. In order to improve battery life, some manufacturers have adopted a dual battery design, but it still cannot solve the problem of battery life and portability. When the capacity cannot be increased, mobile phone manufacturers began to shift their targets to wired fast charging. When the rapid development of wired fast charging, some manufacturers began to develop convenient and beautiful mobile phones based on the requirements of some users. Wireless fast charging will eventually form a new wireless charging industry cluster, which will make it easier for people to travel and replenish electricity, while reducing the use of a large number of wiring harnesses, and helping green travel and carbon-neutral development concepts.
The 2022 Qatar World Cup set off a wave of football fever. The wonderful game has become the spiritual companion of many "night shift workers". When they watch the World Cup, radio technology has quietly entered their sights. Because the official World Cup ball "Journey" Al Rihla is powered by a small battery and charged by wireless charging, in order to obtain better design, sealing and stability. The wireless charging device provides a strong power guarantee for the official ball of the World Cup.
The development and trend of wireless charging
The wireless charging technology was installed on the mobile phone PALM for the first time in 2009, and it has amazed the world, but its subsequent development has been unknown, just like a dream in the world, it is only a flash in the pan in the eyes of the world. The time came to 2017. At the Apple Autumn New Product Launch Conference, it was announced for the first time that the entire series of the new iPhone 8 will use wireless charging technology. Wireless charging technology has begun to emerge in the field of mobile phones, driving the development and application of vehicle wireless charging, smart home, robots, drones and other fields.
Now cities are developing towards a "fast" pace of life. People are pursuing higher time management, and the utilization rate of trivial time is constantly increasing, which has led to a change in the direction of wireless charging devices to smaller and more efficient. In line with the tide of the times, leading wireless charging companies have developed the next generation of wireless charging with higher power, longer distance, and higher efficiency to meet consumer needs and improve consumer user experience.
Hard-Core Capacitor Requirements for Wireless Charging
The advantages of wireless charging determine the high requirements for capacitors. First, wireless charging has no wire winding, which is simple and beautiful. Capacitors with smaller volume and thinner thickness are required; secondly, referring to the characteristics of dexterity, portability and complex working environment, capacitors are required to have ultra-high-power hard-core properties while being small in size; thirdly, in technology research and development, capacitors Performance is the "throat" that restricts the further development of wireless charging.
At present, the commonly used capacitors for wireless charging equipment supporting the iPhone are chip multilayer ceramic capacitors, but they cannot break through the bottleneck of "smaller volume and thinner thickness". Due to the defect of the wireless charging effect, it cannot adapt to the new and high requirements of the wireless charging technology solution.
Therefore, YMIN capacitors are researching in the direction of ultra-thin capacitors with higher power, and develop "new capacitors" with better adaptability to wireless charging solutions. After unremitting efforts, YMIN finally developed a solid-state laminated aluminum electrolytic capacitor that meets the above requirements. Capacitors and polymer solid chip capacitors with small size, large energy, and high characteristic stability. Considering that some special and smaller wireless charging solutions require finer capacitors, smaller A-shell and B-shell polymer tantalum capacitors were developed.

Info about me: Male, age 26, weight 79KG, height 5ft 5in
My conditions and medicines that I take:
Hypothyroidism, taking Thyroxine 75mcg on weekdays and 85mcg on weekends
Hypertension, taking Cilnidipine 20 twice daily
High Cholesterol, taking Atorvastatin 20 once every night
Prediabetic
I'm having on-and-off symptoms of Parkinson's for over a year now coupled with severe episodes of sleep paralysis and now I just feel like sleeping all of the time with elevated Parkinson's symptoms! Will see a doctor soon, but I was wondering If anybody could give any insight on this it would be very helpful! Thank you!
For over a year I'm experiencing these symptoms but never went to a doc because I thought I was overthinking too much.
Either I'm sleeping too much or too little. Sometimes I have trouble identifying things or objects, I would look at an object for five minutes but I wouldn't be able to identify the color of that object. I would get severe sleep paralysis at night after which I couldn't sleep for the whole night. I am forgetting things and stuff. Also having twitching at the left side of my head temple which is also annoying. When I go for a walk I just feel like I would fall asleep any time so I'm even scared to go out for a walk! I also suffer from slurred speech since birth. Also unable to focus on what's in front of me, like I wouldn't be able to figure out what's going on in front of me!

Everything in my inventory is up for trade. The most valuable items are listed here, the rest you can find in My Inventory

Feel free to Add Me or even better send a Trade Offer. Open for any suggestions: upgrades, downgrades / knives, gloves, skins / stickers, patterns, floats.

All Buyouts are listed in cash value.

KNIVES

★ Butterfly Knife Freehand FN #1, B/O: $1867

★ Butterfly Knife Bright Water MW, B/O: $1098

★ Butterfly Knife Blue Steel BS, B/O: $907

★ Butterfly Knife Ultraviolet FT, B/O: $789

★ Butterfly Knife Stained FT, B/O: $695

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★ Bayonet Tiger Tooth MW #1, B/O: $888

★ Bayonet Gamma Doppler (Phase 4) FN, B/O: $727

★ Bayonet Doppler (Phase 2) FN, B/O: $608

★ Bayonet Doppler (Phase 1) FN, B/O: $521

★ Bayonet Rust Coat BS, B/O: $253

★ Bayonet Night FT, B/O: $251

★ StatTrak™ Bayonet Lore MW, B/O: $751

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★ Karambit Gamma Doppler (Phase 4) FN, B/O: $1343

★ Karambit Damascus Steel FT, B/O: $774

★ Karambit Rust Coat BS, B/O: $537

★ Karambit Boreal Forest FT, B/O: $488

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★ M9 Bayonet Fade FN, B/O: $1523

★ M9 Bayonet Fade FN, B/O: $1523

★ M9 Bayonet Doppler (Phase 4) FN, B/O: $1008

★ M9 Bayonet Blue Steel FT, B/O: $534

★ M9 Bayonet Rust Coat BS, B/O: $449

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★ Flip Knife Fade FN, B/O: $703

★ Flip Knife Gamma Doppler (Phase 1) MW, B/O: $509

★ Flip Knife Doppler (Phase 1) FN, B/O: $406

★ Flip Knife Freehand FT, B/O: $228

★ StatTrak™ Flip Knife Bright Water FN, B/O: $332

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★ Falchion Knife Doppler (Phase 2) FN, B/O: $292

★ Falchion Knife Doppler (Phase 3) FN, B/O: $264

★ Falchion Knife Marble Fade FN, B/O: $258

★ Falchion Knife Bright Water MW, B/O: $133

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★ Stiletto Knife Fade FN, B/O: $822

★ Stiletto Knife Slaughter FN, B/O: $569

★ Stiletto Knife Doppler (Phase 1) FN, B/O: $530

★ Stiletto Knife Crimson Web FT, B/O: $396

★ StatTrak™ Stiletto Knife Scorched FT, B/O: $172

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★ Gut Knife Doppler (Sapphire) MW #1, B/O: $830

★ Gut Knife Fade FN, B/O: $204

★ Gut Knife Tiger Tooth FN, B/O: $138

★ Gut Knife Bright Water MW, B/O: $104

★ Gut Knife Freehand FT, B/O: $92

★ Gut Knife Urban Masked FT, B/O: $82

★ StatTrak™ Gut Knife Rust Coat BS, B/O: $93

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★ Shadow Daggers Fade FN, B/O: $258

★ Shadow Daggers Doppler (Phase 3) FN, B/O: $165

★ Shadow Daggers Blue Steel FT, B/O: $82

★ Shadow Daggers Bright Water FT, B/O: $82

★ Shadow Daggers Blue Steel WW, B/O: $80

★ Shadow Daggers Rust Coat BS, B/O: $74

★ StatTrak™ Shadow Daggers Marble Fade FN, B/O: $186

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★ Classic Knife Slaughter MW, B/O: $311

★ StatTrak™ Classic Knife Stained BS, B/O: $163

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★ Talon Knife Slaughter MW, B/O: $605

★ Talon Knife Scorched MW, B/O: $290

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★ Ursus Knife Marble Fade FN, B/O: $405

★ Ursus Knife Night Stripe MW, B/O: $162

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★ Paracord Knife Stained WW, B/O: $125

★ Paracord Knife Forest DDPAT FT, B/O: $97

★ Paracord Knife Safari Mesh FT, B/O: $96

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★ Navaja Knife Safari Mesh FT, B/O: $71

★ Navaja Knife Scorched WW, B/O: $71

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★ Nomad Knife Fade FN, B/O: $1015

★ Skeleton Knife, B/O: $909

★ Bowie Knife Boreal Forest MW, B/O: $106

★ Survival Knife Forest DDPAT FT, B/O: $97

GLOVES

★ Driver Gloves Crimson Weave FT, B/O: $335

★ Driver Gloves King Snake BS, B/O: $270

★ Driver Gloves Lunar Weave WW, B/O: $113

★ Driver Gloves Overtake WW, B/O: $88

★ Driver Gloves Overtake BS, B/O: $67

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★ Moto Gloves Transport MW, B/O: $171

★ Moto Gloves Polygon BS, B/O: $137

★ Moto Gloves Transport WW, B/O: $71

★ Moto Gloves 3rd Commando Company BS, B/O: $62

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★ Specialist Gloves Crimson Kimono WW, B/O: $1027

★ Specialist Gloves Tiger Strike FT, B/O: $654

★ Specialist Gloves Mogul FT, B/O: $295

★ Specialist Gloves Lt. Commander FT, B/O: $277

★ Specialist Gloves Crimson Web FT, B/O: $275

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★ Sport Gloves Slingshot FT, B/O: $796

★ Sport Gloves Amphibious BS #2, B/O: $699

★ Sport Gloves Omega FT, B/O: $656

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★ Broken Fang Gloves Unhinged BS, B/O: $60

WEAPONS

AK-47 Case Hardened BS, B/O: $130

AK-47 Bloodsport MW, B/O: $79

AK-47 Fuel Injector BS, B/O: $76

AK-47 Fuel Injector BS, B/O: $76

AK-47 Bloodsport FT, B/O: $70

AK-47 Neon Rider MW, B/O: $60

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AWP Fade FN, B/O: $864

AWP BOOM MW, B/O: $84

AWP Containment Breach FT, B/O: $69

AWP Containment Breach FT, B/O: $69

AWP Wildfire FT, B/O: $59

AWP Chromatic Aberration FN, B/O: $59

StatTrak™ AWP Hyper Beast FT, B/O: $65

StatTrak™ AWP Hyper Beast FT, B/O: $65

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Desert Eagle Blaze FN, B/O: $565

Desert Eagle Blaze FN, B/O: $565

Desert Eagle Printstream FN, B/O: $155

Desert Eagle Cobalt Disruption FN, B/O: $58

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M4A1-S Icarus Fell FN, B/O: $414

M4A1-S Printstream MW, B/O: $204

M4A1-S Printstream MW, B/O: $204

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M4A4 Poseidon FN, B/O: $1402

M4A4 The Emperor FN, B/O: $152

M4A4 Asiimov WW, B/O: $97

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USP-S Kill Confirmed MW, B/O: $65

USP-S Printstream FT, B/O: $69

StatTrak™ USP-S Kill Confirmed FT, B/O: $123

StatTrak™ USP-S Neo-Noir FN, B/O: $106

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AUG Flame Jörmungandr FN, B/O: $218

P2000 Ocean Foam FN, B/O: $139

Souvenir SSG 08 Death Strike MW, B/O: $81

CZ75-Auto Emerald Quartz MW, B/O: $61

Trade Offer Link - Steam Profile Link - My Inventory

Knives - Bowie Knife, Butterfly Knife, Falchion Knife, Flip Knife, Gut Knife, Huntsman Knife, M9 Bayonet, Bayonet, Karambit, Shadow Daggers, Stiletto Knife, Ursus Knife, Navaja Knife, Talon Knife, Classic Knife, Paracord Knife, Survival Knife, Nomad Knife, Skeleton Knife, Patterns - Gamma Doppler, Doppler (Phase 1, Phase 2, Phase 3, Phase 4, Black Pearl, Sapphire, Ruby, Emerald), Crimson Web, Lore, Fade, Ultraviolet, Night, Marble Fade (Fire & Ice, Fake FI), Case Hardened (Blue Gem), Autotronic, Slaughter, Black Laminate, Tiger Tooth, Boreal Forest, Scorched, Blue Steel, Vanilla, Damascus Steel, Forest DDPAT, Urban Masked, Freehand, Stained, Bright Water, Safari Mesh, Rust Coat, Gloves - Bloodhound Gloves (Charred, Snakebite, Guerrilla, Bronzed), Driver Gloves (Snow Leopard, King Snake, Crimson Weave, Imperial Plaid, Black Tie, Lunar Weave, Diamondback, Rezan the Red, Overtake, Queen Jaguar, Convoy, Racing Green), Hand Wraps (Cobalt Skulls, CAUTION!, Overprint, Slaughter, Leather, Giraffe, Badlands, Spruce DDPAT, Arboreal, Constrictor, Desert Shamagh, Duct Tape), Moto Gloves (Spearmint, POW!, Cool Mint, Smoke Out, Finish Line, Polygon, Blood Pressure, Turtle, Boom!, Eclipse, 3rd Commando Company, Transport), Specialist Gloves (Crimson Kimono, Tiger Strike, Emerald Web, Field Agent, Marble Fade, Fade, Foundation, Lt. Commander, Crimson Web, Mogul, Forest DDPAT, Buckshot), Sport Gloves (Pandora's Box, Superconductor, Hedge Maze, Vice, Amphibious, Slingshot, Omega, Arid, Big Game, Nocts, Scarlet Shamagh, Bronze Morph), Hydra Gloves (Case Hardened, Emerald, Rattler, Mangrove), Broken Fang Gloves (Jade, Yellow-banded, Unhinged, Needle Point), Pistols - P2000 (Wicked Sick, Ocean Foam, Fire Element, Amber Fade, Corticera, Chainmail, Imperial Dragon, Obsidian, Scorpion, Handgun, Acid Etched), USP-S (Printstream, Kill Confirmed, Whiteout, Road Rash, Owergrowth, The Traitor, Neo-Noir, Dark Water, Orion, Blueprint, Stainless, Caiman, Serum, Monster Mashup, Royal Blue, Ancient Visions, Cortex, Orange Anolis, Ticket To Hell, Black Lotus, Cyrex, Check Engine, Guardian, Purple DDPAT, Torque, Blood Tiger, Flashback, Business Class, Pathfinder, Para Green), Lead Conduit, Glock-18 (Umbral Rabbit, Fade, Candy Apple, Bullet Queen, Synth Leaf, Neo-Noir, Nuclear Garden, Dragon Tatto, Reactor, Pink DDPAT, Twilight Galaxy, Sand Dune, Groundwater, Blue Fissure, Snack Attack, Water Elemental, Brass, Wasteland Rebel, Vogue, Franklin, Royal Legion, Gamma Doppler, Weasel, Steel Disruption, Ironwork, Grinder, High Beam, Moonrise, Oxide Blaze, Bunsen Burner, Clear Polymer, Bunsen Burner, Night), P250 (Re.built, Nuclear Threat, Modern Hunter, Splash, Whiteout, Vino Primo, Mehndi, Asiimov, Visions, Undertow, Cartel, See Ya Later, Gunsmoke, Splash, Digital Architect, Muertos, Red Rock, Bengal Tiger, Crimson Kimono, Wingshot, Metallic DDPAT, Hive, Dark Filigree, Mint Kimono), Five-Seven (Neon Kimono, Berries And Cherries, Fall Hazard, Crimson Blossom, Hyper Beast, Nitro, Fairy Tale, Case Hardened, Copper Galaxy, Angry Mob, Monkey Business, Fowl Play, Anodized Gunmetal, Hot Shot, Retrobution, Boost Protocol), CZ75-Auto (Chalice, Crimson Web, Emerald Quartz, The Fuschia is Now, Nitro, Xiangliu, Yellow Jacket, Victoria, Poison Dart, Syndicate, Eco, Hexane, Pole, Tigris), Tec-9 (Rebel, Terrace, Nuclear Threat, Hades, Rust Leaf, Decimator, Blast From, Orange Murano, Toxic, Fuel Injector, Remote Control, Bamboo Forest, Isaac, Avalanche, Brother, Re-Entry, Blue Titanium, Bamboozle), R8 Revolver (Banana Cannon, Fade, Blaze, Crimson Web, Liama Cannon, Crazy 8, Reboot, Canal Spray, Night, Amber Fade), Desert Eagle (Blaze, Hand Cannon, Fennec Fox, Sunset Storm, Emerald Jörmungandr, Pilot, Hypnotic, Golden Koi, Printstream, Cobalt Disruption, Code Red, Ocean Drive, Midnight Storm, Kumicho Dragon, Crimson Web, Heirloom, Night Heist, Mecha Industries, Night, Conspiracy, Trigger Discipline, Naga, Directive, Light Rail), Dual Berettas (Flora Carnivora, Duelist, Cobra Strike, Black Limba, Emerald, Hemoglobin, Twin Turbo, Marina, Melondrama, Pyre, Retribution, Briar, Dezastre, Royal Consorts, Urban Shock, Dualing Dragons, Panther, Balance), Rifles - 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I didnt mean to. I don’t remember how the conversation steered in that direction. When I (21F) was around 12, my parents got a divorce and my father moved away. He was always (and still is) in my life, but he moved, and eventually took my brother (23M) with him because there was a private art school in the town he was moving to.
My mom’s (59F) drinking got really bad during this time. Like, a box of wine a night bad (1 box = 4 bottles). During these nights, she’d find anything to start a fight with me, and we’d have a free for all well into the night. The next morning, she would deny everything she said. When I was about 15, my dad offered for me to go to the same art school as my brother and move away, but I couldn’t do it. I had to drive my mother home from bars almost every night, and I didn’t want to risk her driving drunk (which she had zero qualms with doing so.) I fought with my mother nearly every single night for over five years.
I live on my own now. College graduate. I made it out of that tiny speed trap town. I don’t drink (mostly because I’m a terrible lightweight.) I talk to my mother every day on the phone. This is the best out relationship has ever been. For whatever reason, our conversation took a turn tonight and I blurted out that I always wished that she’d stop drinking when I was a kid. She pushed further - I told her how I was scared of her, how I would try to separate her from her “drunk-self,” because I couldn’t bear to call the woman screaming at me, standing over me while she had me pinned to the floor my mother. She tried to spin it around and say how she never got any credit for putting my brother and I through college (she holds a fairly lucrative job and paid our tuition because she wanted us to have a college education, which I am incredibly grateful for) and I told her I’d live in debt for the rest of my life if it meant I had a better relationship with her growing up. She tried to deny everything, ending the conversation with “I am sorry that you remember your upbringing so different from what I remember.”
I’m never going to get through to her. I know this. I will never get those years back. I feel awful for even mentioning it. I’m so scared I just screwed up the first good, real relationship I’ve ever had with her. And I won’t know until the morning.

This is a story written by AI, with prompts by me. It basically turned into 'FNaF: if William was caught'.
My prompt: Henry Emily searched and for his daughter. "Sammy!" he called to his son, "Do you know where your sister is?" Sammy didn't. After more searching, Henry exited into a back alley of Fredbear's, into the rain. There, he found Charlie, his daughter, laying in the alley, in the rain, with her neck torn open by a knife..
AI: Henry screamed in horror as he ran towards his daughter. He fell to his knees by her side, ignoring the rain pouring down on him. He took her lifeless hand in his and felt for a pulse, but there was none. He checked her cold body for any signs of life, but it was too late. Charlie was gone, and there was nothing he could do to bring her back.
Tears streamed down his face as he clenched his fists in frustration. He couldn't believe that someone would do this to his little girl. He hugged her tight, hoping that it was just a bad dream and that she would wake up any moment.
But reality hit him hard when he heard the sirens in the distance. He knew he had to let her go and call for help. He gently laid her down, and with shaking hands, grabbed his phone to make the call. He knew that whoever did this had to pay, and he would make sure of it.
Henry Emily would never forget this day. It would haunt him for the rest of his life. The day his beloved daughter was taken away from him in the most brutal way imaginable.
My Prompt: Six years later, in 1985, Henry would find out who did this: his business partner William Afton. William was responsible, not only for the death of Henry's daughter, but his son Sammy, and five other children.
AI: Henry was devastated when he found out the truth about William Afton. How could someone he trusted so deeply be capable of such heinous crimes? It was a crushing blow and took a toll on him mentally and emotionally. However, he had to put his grief aside and make sure that justice was served.
Henry worked tirelessly with the authorities to ensure that Afton would pay for his crimes. They found evidence linking him to the murders, including the infamous Springtrap suit, which was used to lure the children.
Finally, in 1987, Afton was caught and charged with six counts of murder. Henry was there in the courtroom when the verdict was announced, and he felt a sense of closure knowing that the man behind his daughter's death was finally getting what he deserved.
Although he would never forget the pain and loss that he had suffered because of William Afton, Henry found a new purpose in life. He dedicated himself to making sure that Fredbear's never became a place of tragedy again. He would create a new and safer animatronic and open a new restaurant, but most importantly, he would ensure that his daughter's memory would live on forever.

The video appeared on my recommendation feed at 1 in the night.
I promised my wife that I won’t use any electronic devices while in our vacation home (or a mansion) but I thought it won’t hurt to use it when she was asleep. I was extra careful to not wake her up as along with walking outside, me breaking her promises are the two things she hates the most. The silence was making me feel lonely as well but sitting down on the chair in the balcony made me appreciate the beautiful forest around us. Yet I knew this will be one of the rare chances that I’ll get to use my phone in this week long vacation especially since she had already urged me to have a hard-drinking game tomorrow night.
Then as I was scrolling down on my feed a video that was uploaded only an hour ago by a channel named “Aa12eightythree”. I usually avoid channels with wacky names like that, especially if they’re not verified but something about the bluish thumbnail with a shadow being illuminated on the radio made me think why don’t I give this video a shot. The video had no title which was nothing new and within a second I realized that it was a music video.
Except that there wasn’t much of a “video” in that.
The instrumental went on for the first 40 odd seconds, and then a vocaloid began singing. The lyrics were sounding gurgled and for the next 30 seconds I couldn’t recognize a thing. But the repetitive, soothing melody made me stay. The other thing that made me stay was the slight motion of the shadow. I could make out more of the shadow now. The shadow was definitely a female with an hourglass figure and it had a tinge of familiarity. I squinted my eyes hard enough to realize that she was dancing to the melody but before I could make more out of the song just screeched to an end.
“Did I stare into the figure for too long?”
No I didn’t. It was only 20 seconds past 2 minutes even though the video was 3 minutes and 22 seconds long. Then it appeared as if the shadow was closing her face in on the radio, but it shouldn’t have been possible. I could make out the facial features of the shadow and it was the most least feminine thing one could think of.
Its eyes, cheekbones and nose were the most definite of them but all of them were a bit too big for a face that petite. The eyes were looking down so far but the moment they looked towards the screen I turned my phone off. I couldn’t get a look in its eyes but I felt like I shouldn’t. I quietly returned to the bedroom with the phone still in my hand. It was irrational to be scared of a disproportionate face on the screen of an electronic device but I wasn’t irrational enough to just rest the phone in the balcony out of fear. I placed the phone on the desk near our bed and put up the blanket she had kicked away while sleeping back on her. As I saw her laid on her stomach I realized why I thought that figure was familiar.
“Hey sleepy-head wake up would ya? You can’t sleep that deep when we’re in the time of our life!”
These loud words woke me up. I opened my eyes slowly to see my vibrant wife, with a radio held in her hands.
“Look what I found under the stairs!” – She said as she proceeded to put the radio in my hands. I wasn’t about to hold a heavy object seconds after waking up so I put that thing on the table and went to wash my face. As I cleaned my eyes I remembered about the video last night. “What a coincidence” – I thought.
I returned and asked my wife if that had always been there but she claimed to not know a thing. This vacation home was owned by her aunt but for some reason she lit herself on fire and then jumped into the lake. I’ve never seen her and neither did I hear much about her so I didn’t know if it was natural for her to commit suicide. All I knew was that she never married and my wife heard from her mother that she didn’t if she even had a boyfriend in her life, ever. She left everything she had to her only sibling.
Neither I nor my wife knew how to operate a radio so I opened my phone to Google it. I wasn’t enthusiastic about it but my wife was.
But she wasn’t. I don’t know why but I felt that she wasn’t. It was almost as if she had burdened to operate it.
The more the day went on the more the feeling crept up on me. She was romantic, but not romantic enough to appreciate the beauty of dining table that seemed pretty boringly normal to me. The walls (which looked good I agree) were never short of compliments by my wife. And the same went on for nearly everything about the house until I said, “Let’s go explore the roof, there’s a lot of beauty in the nature that surrounds us here.”
Her tone changed and it didn’t take a moment for me to realize how insensitive that might’ve been.
Even though I’ve known her for years I still had no clue on how to proceed but she changed herself almost forcefully and proceeded to hold my hand and take me to the forest outside, on foot.
After all that, the drinking game came. Neither I nor my wife was much of a hard drinker so it ended quickly. She could only tolerate three shots though I cranked it up to five. We were to bed by 12, but I didn’t feel sleepy. My wife was groggy though. At around 12:50 I decided to go to the balcony to spend some time on my phone when the memory of last night came back to me. I opened YouTube to have the same video recommended to me.
But this was uploaded only an hour ago. The thumbnail was the same and it too didn’t have any title but it was only an hour old. I clicked on the channel but it was the channel’s first upload.
Well that was creepy.
But that didn’t stop me from watching the video. I didn’t have my headphones on me so I watched it on no sound and this time inside the first 20 seconds the face appeared. Knowing what will come I didn’t feel scared but before the eyes were revealed I did have a fleeting thought of turning my phone off. The eyes despite being enlarged were human-like. Despite the utter darkness I could make out that her eyes were hazel colored. She was mouthing something so I turned the volume up just a bit and got it close to my ear.
“She shouldn’t have done that.”
“I shouldn’t have done that.”
Two distinct voices came to me simultaneously, one from the phone and the other from my bedroom. It wasn’t new to have my wife sleep talking but this was a creepy co-incidence. Not more came off the video but this time I did complete the full length, which was still 3 minutes and 22 seconds.
The next day I was about to put the tray of tea-cups on the table for my wife when they fell to the floor. She tended to my wounds made by the scathing tea right away and cleaned up the floor as well. I think she came here in her childhood as she had a very good idea of where all the cleaning equipment were kept.
Looking at the radio in our bedroom I remembered the videos of the night. I thought about telling my wife about those but thought she might be angry at me for breaking my promise. As we both sat dull on the bed I decided to break the silence.
“So there was this video last night-”
Shit. I didn’t intent to break the silence with those words. Her eyes gleamed back to me, not with anger. I decided to keep on with it and told her the story. I was so into telling her about the videos that it was only after I finished did I notice the tears streaming down her cheeks.
“Can you please get out of the home with me for a sec?”
She had requested me many things in her life but somehow I realized that it was the most important thing she has ever wanted for me.
Under the tree she told me everything.
“Remember the day we fought about none of us having a future because of the way things are going? I went straight to my mom after that and she requested me to go visit my aunt as she’d feeling quite depressed lately. I went to her house, or mansion you should say. She was happy to see her niece after ages but somehow I wasn’t. I didn’t like how that loner of an old woman had so much yet she was feeling what, depressed? How privileged. She had a whole mansion to herself when me and you had to live inside that cramped apartment, both of us having to put up with each other’s shit. Each day I saw her, closely and for the love of my life I couldn’t understand why she was so down all the time. You have everything I could ever want! That’s when it hit me. I can just put her out of her misery. It would benefit her and benefit myself, greatly. I imagined a life where both of us could live here with all the freedom one could want. But I knew that the thoughts will only remain as an imagination. Never could I kill my aunt. But I think one cheat code that old people have is experience. One evening as I was tending to her she told me, “You’re having dark thoughts, haven’t you?” I was taken aback. “What do you mean”?
“You are right, I don’t deserve this.”
I decided not to delve further as I was scared that perhaps she was just rambling about and I would mistakenly let thoughts be known to her. The next day I heard a loud shriek from the roof and by the time I reached there I saw my burning aunt fling herself to the lake.”
I didn’t know how to feel about all this. I couldn’t anger up on her since I knew the thoughts she had were to improve the condition of our lives. She didn’t even act on those impulses. This mansion is nice though, I wondered. “Would I have been able to conceal my desires if I had been in her place?”
“I was absolutely lifeless as I saw the scene.” – She restarted. “But after I read the letter my feelings were left nowhere to shelter itself. The letter was kept under a radio on the table. I tore down the letter and burned it as it could be used for evidence against me as it mentioned my dark thoughts in the end but I don’t know what anyone would’ve done knowing her dark desires in her youth. Getting a girlfriend, a rich one at that in an age where she wouldn’t even be accepted by her own family she moved in with her at this mansion. Secretly, they put each other on their wills as well. Not that my aunt had anything to leave her to. But somehow, someway she killed her. She described it as strangulation but didn’t go much into the details. The guilt had been eating her up ever since and I think my desires pushed her off the edge on the day.”
She was near tears at this point and I held her close. I forgave her. How could I not? Her tears couldn’t stop falling, but mine didn’t fall. It never did.
Until now. Five years later I’m writing this, thinking it would absorb me of my guilt somehow. It won’t. Someway, somehow I killed her. I don’t know if I can enjoy living in this mansion now, but I hope that whoever finds me here can even if that comes at the expense of my life.

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/AskTO

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Haunted places near Toronto where one could stay overnight?	Kitchen-Rub-6454	0
Fighting speeding tickets	mocha_ninja	0
Best way to book month long stay ?	master_wayne22	1
Massive hail Mary	jacobstanley5409	3
Get What You Get Tattoo / Tattoo Roulette?	abslander	0
Would you rather live in a condo or an independent house? Why?	niru88	18
Psychedelic assisted therapy	tihlo	0
TV stand and options	Dangerous_Fudge_2468	3
Does anyone know the price of either Toronto Golf Club, or Lambton, for an intermediate (or full mens)? 31 yrs old	__CosmoKramer	0
What’s going on tonight/tomorrow? Need to get out of my hotel room.	anxietyrunner888	7
Best place to get V02 max and lactate threshold testing done?	FRO5TB1T3	3
WFH and never get to see family. Any active Toronto discords I can join that feel like a community?	Lunar_Solar_	2
Is Green P lot safe overnight?	Icy_Flight9634	3
Can you buy Coureur des Bois maple cream in Pearson?	OperationShoddy4288	2
Has anyone been able to take pictures of the planet parade? Can you share them?	dexsst	0
Where to donate men’s suits to those in need?	ths3333	10
Finding a job in TO	jayae_mhmm	3
Neighbour Died - What is Canadian custom/okay to do?	Frosty_Egg_4872	52
Slo-Pitch Leagues in Toronto?	averagecyclone	2
Rub&Tugs lol	DivineShinji	26
Is Suraj brand owned by Loblaws??	FoodRivalry	1
Best time to get a Blood Test at St. Joe's?	AnxietyJolly971	1
How much are you paying for utilities for 1 bedroom apartment?	Adorable_Sorbet_7595	4
Restaurants for large groups	bunzaway	0
I have an internship in Toronto from June to September (3 months total), what are some good sites to look at?	verylargeturd	1

/TorontoJobs

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Apply to be an "Innovator in Residence" for 10 weeks at Toronto Public Library [Paid position; April 12 deadline]	TPL_on_Reddit	1
Hey y’all! Looking for Leads!	shyzonal	5
Looking for an Opportunity as a Buyer	Many_Ad6308	2

/TorontoEvents

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CANADIAN FAMOUS COMEDY SHOW	CowbellComedy	0
May 14 - Home opener. Toronto Maple Leafs vs London Majors. Free baseball back at Christie Pits	sprungy	0
Thursday Night Fever Comedy Show	bighairbignose	0
VIP Radwimps concert ticket for the 26th!	Electronic_Baker2776	0
Interested in learning Japanese? Also interested in yoga? Yoga in Japanese! Thursdays at 5pm	fomorian	1

/GTAMarketPlace

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Nav tickets	Sexcasian_chick	0
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My son is 7 weeks and doesn’t seem to want to be shushed or soothed to sleep. Don’t get me wrong during the day he loves to be held and contact nap and nurse to sleep. But when it comes to bedtime as long as his needs are met (fed, dry,burped) he will only sleep if we leave him alone in his bassinet and leave the room.
I watch him on the baby monitor, and when I leave the room, he’s never crying. Sometimes he’s a little fussy, whimpering a little but not crying he’s just looking around the room. After like five maybe 10 minutes of doing that. He falls asleep and stays asleep for his first big overnight stretch of sleep. I’m trying really hard to practice attachment parenting and I absolutely do not want to sleep train at any age but I try and soothe him for hours to go to sleep at night and he will never go down. He will only go down if I leave him alone for a few minutes is this normal? Should I be soothing him to sleep?

My son is 7 weeks and doesn’t seem to want to be shushed or soothed to sleep. Don’t get me wrong during the day he loves to be held and contact nap and nurse to sleep. But when it comes to bedtime as long as his needs are met (fed, dry,burped) he will only sleep if we leave him alone in his bassinet and leave the room.
I watch him on the baby monitor, and when I leave the room, he’s never crying. Sometimes he’s a little fussy, whimpering a little but not crying he’s just looking around the room. After like five maybe 10 minutes of doing that. He falls asleep and stays asleep for his first big overnight stretch of sleep. I’m trying really hard to practice attachment parenting and I absolutely do not want to sleep train at any age but I try and soothe him for hours to go to sleep at night and he will never go down. He will only go down if I leave him alone for a few minutes is this normal? Should I be soothing him to sleep?

My son is 7 weeks and doesn’t seem to want to be shushed or soothed to sleep. Don’t get me wrong during the day he loves to be held and contact nap and nurse to sleep. But when it comes to bedtime as long as his needs are met (fed, dry,burped) he will only sleep if we leave him alone in his bassinet and leave the room.
I watch him on the baby monitor, and when I leave the room, he’s never crying. Sometimes he’s a little fussy, whimpering a little but not crying he’s just looking around the room. After like five maybe 10 minutes of doing that. He falls asleep and stays asleep for his first big overnight stretch of sleep. I’m trying really hard to practice attachment parenting and I absolutely do not want to sleep train at any age but I try and soothe him for hours to go to sleep at night and he will never go down. He will only go down if I leave him alone for a few minutes is this normal? Should I be soothing him to sleep?

Welcome new readers. Please start with chapter one https://www.reddit.com/HFY/comments/11ai7iv/last_of_the_defenders_ch_01/
Previously https://www.reddit.com/HFY/comments/1219ns7/last_of_the_defenders_ch_29/
Allah leaned against one of the tables, purring softly. Li was beside her swiftly, gripping her shoulder reassuringly.
“But we’re not gonna let that happen,” the human promised. “And you’re going to help.”
“I knew they were evil,” Allah started to say but stopped. She bit her lip, tail flicking up a cloud of dust in the long disused room. The lights flickered again and the U’knock clawed at the glow stick on the table beside her, holding it before her, eager to have something stable to hold onto.
Li patted her shoulder again and turned to the table with the helmets. She lifted one to Allah’s head, pursed her lips and set it down. She picked up another, nodding in satisfaction, and began taking it apart. “I’m sure they think the same thing about humans,” she said.
“Who would care what they think?” Allah tried to keep the bile from her voice.
“PsyOps,” Li answered, as if the strange word should explain everything. When Allah only lowered her ear in confusion she said “‘If you know the enemy and know yourself, you need not fear the result of a hundred battles. If you know yourself but not the enemy, for every victory gained you will also suffer a defeat. If you know neither, you will fail in every battle’.” The human smiled. “The swarmers consider us a meddling subspecies that steals the resources that are rightfully theirs. We keep getting in their way, preventing ‘progress’ and forming unnatural alliances with other, lesser, organisms.”
“You sound like you have spoken to them.”
Li nodded. She removed two panels from the top of the helmet. “I’ve spoken to millions of them,” she admitted, then said softly, “I was probably the last voice most of them ever heard.”
She lifted the helmet and adjusted it to fit atop Allah’s head. “These millions,” the U’knock asked, “are all dead?”
The Defender nodded. “Very much so,” Li’s tone was light but the human face was a stone mask in the green light. The overheads flickered like lightning, casting her in hard brightness before the green gloom returned to paint dark shadows under her eyes and mouth. It made her look more predatory; a hunter hiding in tall grass, bent to pounce.
Li removed more sections from the helmet, the odd thing sliding down around Allah’s ears.
“I would like to know how to kill that many.”
A different kind of shadow crossed the human’s face, a sadness that cracked through the hardness.
Li turned to the panels she had removed, taking a pair of tiny buttons out. She held one up and turned Allah’s head, trying to fit the button in the U’knock’s ear.
“Let's hope you don’t have to find out,” Li said, trying a different button from a different helmet. “It was a pretty expensive day for me.
“And I’m still paying the tab.”
Li patted Allah’s shoulder again. The U’knock turned to look at her.
“Looks like that fits,” the human forced a grin. She handed Allah another button. “How's it feel?”
“Strange,” Allah admitted. She shook her head and felt the button wiggle inside her ear. “What is this?”
“Virtual Reality Education Helmet,” Li grinned again but the smile did not reach her eyes. “Welcome to Primary School.”
Allah tapped the thing on her head with a claw. It was stiff, but not hard like bronze. And it held an odor--several--of something cheesy and vinegary and a little moldy all at once.
“Careful,” Li cautioned. “Plastic that old can get pretty brittle.”
The U’knock wondered why humans would use something so obviously inferior if they could make things with the new metal. Then she considered her mother’s Com’Cha and retracted her claw from the gift. Even if a warrior offered a replacement made entirely of new metal, the old bronze weapon held a special place in her life.
Perhaps these helmets held such prestige for Li’s people?
“This will teach me to fight?” she asked, trying to muster the proper amount of reverence for the object.
“No,” Li shook her head, “I’ll take on that job. And Jung, too. This,” she tapped the helmet on Allah’s head, “will teach you basic commands and instructions for ground equipment and the extravehicular combat suit. You remember the mess hall? How hard it was just to get hot water from Demeter?” Allah nodded, perking and flattening her ears, “That's because you weren’t ‘thinking’ the right words. We’ll start you out with English because Demeter uses that by default. Once you have basic commands memorized, we’ll move to general tactics, strategy, and combat.”
“You used this,” Allah touched the helmet. It was cool, hard, alien in her head, “as a child?”
Li chuckled. “No,” she admitted. “V-REHs are intended to acclimate xenoforms--species other than human--to our ways. From farmer to front line fighter, there’s a training program for just about any job.
“That's also why the helmets are so modular,” she gestured to the discarded pieces. “They can accommodate almost any ‘head’ shaped configuration; kitty cat ears, literal four eyes. In some cases, like the Shoo, they can accommodate a species with no head at all.
“I gotta get back to work,” Li left the mess where it lay and strode toward the door. “Demeter, offload basic command lessons one through thirty to a microcore at the Romeo-02 terminal.
“C-c-commmmmmmmmmmPlying!”
“Can we trust Demeter to provide proper instructions?” Allah asked. Fears from last night--particularly one about melting brains--crossed her thoughts as they strode down the hall.
“I’ll do a quick file check to make sure but,” Li looked over her shoulder. She chuckled at Allah’s expression: ears flat, lips pushed out and constantly glancing upward to try to “see” the thing on her head. “V-REHs can’t hurt you. Maybe trick you into walking into a wall, but that won’t be an issue; the basic lessons are designed to be used while seated.
Do you need to poop or anything before you start? You could be in there for a while.
Allah nodded, eliciting another trip to another room similar to the showers aboard Star dancer, filled with more tiny rooms. This one was cream colored, and inside each room was a tiny cream colored throne with a bowl in the seat.
Li stood outside, giving instructions on the throne’s--the bidet toilet’s--use. Then it was back to the room of warriors--the security station, Li corrected--and Allah’s first lesson.
“Touch the V-REH,” Li lifted her hands to her own head, pressing her palms to her temples, “here. It’ll run through a self adjustment process and I’ll link it to your nanites. That should speed things up a lot.”
“Will it hurt?” Allah asked, “as much as last time?”
“This shouldn’t hurt at all,” Li said with a grin, “so if it does either take it off immediately or ask me to. It might be disorienting at first though so get comfy.”
Allah returned to the corner and settled on the hard floor, sitting cross legged. As she did, Li returned to and began tapping on the face of the monitor. A soft click sounded and a tiny shiny stone flickered in the faltering lights. Allah had still not touched the V-REH when Li moved the stone to another hole, pressed on her keyboard with her fingers and nodded in satisfaction. She turned in the tiny throne and regarded Allah quizzically.
“I can’t initiate a session for you,” Li said by way of explanation. “It’s designed to be voluntary, so nothing can. I can disengage you but that's about it.” She stood, walked the short distance to Allah’s corner and held out the stone to the U’knock. “The V-REH will need to calibrate with you, then recognise it needs this,” Li pressed the stone into Allah’s paw.
“I’ll be right here if you need anything,” the human pointed to the monitor, turned and strode to the throne.
Allah looked at the tiny stone. In the flickering lights, she had thought it was white. Up close, however, it looked more of a pale green. She carefully picked it up to inspect. As she did, it moved away from the light of the glowing stick beside her and captured the myriad hues projected by Li’s monitor. The stone shifted in color again, a dizzying burst of different colors packed so close together they appeared white again.
Why was she hesitating? Allah had pledged to help defend her planet, had stood before the quorum of Umati’clam and professed it as fact. Now, she dithered. Li had returned to her work, finger beating a rhythm like raindrops on the surface of the table. Allah felt alone, ignored. And part of her realized that she was. Li had good reason to--she was working to save Allah’s people--and to grow upset because her friend so easily turned to the task was beyond petty.
“What if I don’t?” Allah asked aloud.
Li’s fingers stopped suddenly, then the human placed her hands in her lap. She did not turn to look at Allah, but sat with the stone mask again and stared at the monitor.
“It's your choice, Allah,” she said slowly, “and it’s not one I can make for you. If you’re asking ‘Will I throw you out on the street?’ or ‘Will we stop looking for your father?’ the answer to both is no. I took you in last night, frankly, because you had the lowest chance of survival of those around me. Those that,” Li sighed, pulling on the thin cored that held her hair in a tail. “Those that had a chance.”
She shook her head, combing her fingers through the long, thick black hair. “I know you’re worried that you won’t be much help. And you’d rather be out there,” she gestured to the screen, wiggling her fingers. The glyphs disappeared to be replaced by images from seven times two plus two drones patrolling the city and the surrounding wasteland. “Looking for him right now.”
“That’s not what I--”
“And I know you’re scared,” Li interrupted. “And angry. You’ve got good reason to be. This…won’t be much fun when the shooting starts.” She did turn now, the sad smile that would not reach her eyes painting her lips. “But you were right,” she said. “I do need a friend. I’d like that friend to still be you in the morning.”
The human shrugged her shoulders. “I'm sorry to put that on you. I don't want to add to your burdens.” And Li turned back to the monitor and began tapping again.
Allah did not know what to say. She sat in the corner, watching Li return to work. Allah had felt alone, afraid. And angry, yes. But what must Li be feeling right now? Her own people had abandoned her quest. She stood in defiance of the bullies and defenders now.
This planet's protector.
“When I finish with this machine,” Allah asked, “we will pop the corn and speak of mates?”
The corner of Li’s mouth rose. “And watch Journey To The West while I paint your claws.”
Allah nodded. This was a burden she could, would, must happily bear. To stand beside Li, no matter the cost. Not out of honor, nor pride. Not even to save her people.
She would do this because her friend asked her to.
The U’knock raised her paws to either side of the helmet, pressing gently.

Before people say "but elektro, it's March!" I subscribe to an Everyday is Halloween(™️) lifestyle and I know I'm not the only one! There are dozens of us! Dozens!
I'm hoping this amazing community will have some horror themed recommendations to share. I am primarily interested in perfume and makeup, not so much nail polish, but I'm happy to browse anything that someone thinks is especially awesome and on theme. I already have a not-tiny collection, which I'll list below. I'm very curious for Beetlejuice or Edward Scissorhands, Hannibal, Scream, modern horror (like Midsommar, The Witch, Hereditary), Hellraiser, or vampires (love Blade, Dracula, and Underworld) but any good old school slasher is also of interest to me!
Ones I am already in possession of: Usual disclaimers on Sixteen92 and Hexennacht apply (search the sub for history)
Midsommer Inspired

• Strange Fire and Fumery May Queen - Geranium, daisies, meadow greens, vetiver, mead, a unique blend of red and blue musks
  
• Death & Floral You Are Our May Queen! - A sinister floral blend of chrysanthemums, hyacinths, and bright red poppies laid on a bed of stark white linen sitting upon a pile of bluegrass. Blended with green tea and hallucinogenic juniper leaves. Warm, inviting, and completely unnerving
  
• Bloodbath Midsommar - Passionfruit, tart pomegranate, apple, orange blossom, bright white florals, benzoin and labdanum
  

The Witch Inspired

• Hexennacht Black Philip - black amber, dragon’s blood, black musk, tonka, black oak, firewood embers, black currant, soft woods, black pepper
  
• Siren Song Elixirs Black Phillip - Warm goat's milk, Cloves, Black Chamomile, Aged Honey, Vetiver, Black Cashmere, Aged Black Leather
  
• Sixteen92 I Be The Witch of the Wood - Wheat and straw, dark forest, poisoned apple, chimney smoke, fur, blood
  
• Tater Rounds Beauty eyeshadow in Live Deliciously and Taste of Butter
  

The Shining Inspired

• Bloodbath Overlook - Cool Seabreeze, Fresh Fallen Snow, Bergamot, Chamomile, Cedar, Evergreen and Peppermint
  
• Sixteen92 Redrum - The muffled din of a ghostly masquerade party - faint clink of champagne flutes, a ticking ebony clock, expensive furs, hazy hallways, and specters moving through shadow
  
• Sixteen92 Room 237 - Cold glass, distant woodsmoke, frozen vines, petrichor, typewriter ink, splintered wood, deep snow, spectral musk
  
• Tater Rounds Beauty eyeshadow in Redrum and Overlook Hotel
  

IT Inspired

• Sixteen92 Losers Club - Rain-drenched iron, distant circus lights, candy floss, a red balloon
  
• Spirit and Venom We All Float - Rainwater, cotton candy, evil musk, & a few kernels of buttered popcorn
  
• Tater Rounds Beauty Dancing Clown lipstick
  

Beetlejuice Inspired

• CocoaPink Handbook for the Recently Deceased - inspired by the ghost with the most in the stripy suit - just don’t say his name! Wedding cake accord; sticky strawberries and raspberries; a shock of green melon and vibrant lime; an electric hint of mint and cilantro; grave soil; and a puff of smoke
  
• Bella Beaute Bar Strange & Unusual palette
  

Other Horror Movies

• Black Baccara Halloween Shop - Highlights include rubber face masks, vinyl costumes, theatrical pancake makeup, fog machine, fake blood, and the distant caramelized whispers of wrapped candies. It's dark, creepy, and odd. Instead, it's an experience scent. You'll reach for this when you want to take a journey through this particular type of nostalgia. You'll want to wear this one when you fancy smelling like a vintage wall of horror masks or a 200-year-old haunted doll
  
• Sixteen92 Dead is Better (Pet Semetary) - Sharp fir needles, cracked asphalt, wild blackberry thorn, grave mud, cold fur
  
• Spirit and Venom His Name Was Jason (Friday the 13th) - This scent may make you want to visit Camp Crystal Lake. The atmospheric scent of lake water, muddy foot prints, hints of greenery, and an old wooden cabin hidden behind pine trees
  
• Sixteen92 Death by Stereo! (Lost Boys) - Night air on the boardwalk, spun sugar and cider, melted ice cream, cannabis accord, whirling tendrils of nag champa
  
  • CocoaPink Can't Rain All the Time (The Crow) - Because sometimes a crow can bring a spirit back, for revenge, for love. A disturbed cemetery at night, city rain, a veil of smoke, salt tears. All embraced by vanilla, benzoin, and a berry-sweet kiss
• CocoaPink Back Off, I’m a Scientist! (Ghostbusters) - A tribute to the ghost-busting trio of New York: Mounds of molten marshmallow and warm burnt sugar; glowing green apple and neon pink rhubarb; gritty dark streets; a wisp of smoke; and a sly hint of black chocolate.
  
• CocoaPink You’ll Never Grow Old (Lost Boys) - A vintage amusement park on a summer night boardwalk where the coolest vampires hang out. The irresistible mingling of cotton candy, waffle cones, caramel popcorn, and candy apple is stalked by the tang of an oncoming storm, sea salt, freshly-dug dirt, and a primal, seductive musk.
  
• Deconstructing Eden It Can't Rain All the Time (The Crow) - Cold rain, asphalt, the promise of sun
  
• Widow Witch Halloween Pumpkin palette (Michael Myers, Halloween)
  
• Wicked Sisters Cosmetics Slash My Heart palette (Scream)
  
• Wicked Sisters Cosmetics Clarice palette (Silence of the Lambs)
  
• Shroud Cosmetics Hallobean palette
  
• Shroud Cosmetics It's Freakin Bats! palette
  

34 F / married poly here. About six months ago I posted about my FWB fails. In general, I was disappointed by a few situations that made me feel regret for being a sexually liberated woman after having been essentially ghosted whilst hoping for more consistency. It’s not easy to be a poly woman and not be treated like a sex object, folks — turns out I’d like to be seen as a whole person. Anywho, I was looking for actual friendship in addition to sexual chemistry, and y’all lovely people gave me tons of great advice as to how better parse and navigate potential FWBs.
Flash forward 5 months, and I have a really lovely FWB I’ve been seeing for that duration. We’ve been able to develop sexual and friendship relationships concurrently, we’ve become super close, we have tons of fun together, and we have insane chemistry and insanely good sex. I’ve supported him through a breakup, he’s supportive of my marriage, we’ve met one another’s friends, he and hubs are happy to kick it (makes me heart so happy), we’ve had a threesome (hottest night of my life, need a repeat soon). But it hasn’t been seamless — hubs and I are in therapy, and FWB and I have had a few moments of contention at times due to the casual but invested nature, similar but not exactly parallel expectations of one another, and just getting to know one another in general. But overall, things are going swimmingly with FWB who has become one of my favorite people on the planet.
I’m newly open, and he’s a poly baby/solo dating poly person. So together we’re learning how to have a meaningful connection without needing to subscribe to the relationship escalator, and we’re both getting more comfortable and secure in our situationship. He makes me super happy, it’s reciprocal, and it feels good as hell.
Anywho- my top tips/lessons learned for finding a great FWB: - the spectrum of what FWB means is broad, so be real clear with your expectations - date only other actual poly or NM people - for M/F couples/dating, does this person have other friends of the opposite sex? Yes is a green flag - Don’t lower your expectations for anyone - Be wary of those who promise you the moon, as well as shiny penny chasers - Emphatic yeses only
Thanks for listening and for being there for me, community! 😘

I’ve been thinking of you… I don’t have your number though. Are you still on Reddit and will I ever find you again? You told me to meet you at The Green Lady Lounge. You referenced HIMYM a lot, and by the end of the night we decided you were Ted and I was Robin. Posting this seems like something Ted would do, so maybe you’re Robin and I’m Ted. Either way, just know you left an impression. :)

Because there was lots of variance in the small amount of lists posted, I'm just posting all the results.

1. Carmensita (33 pts)

2-t. Sea Horse (20 pts)
2-t. Mi Negrita (20 pts)

1. Shabop Shalom (17 pts)
   
2. Middle Names (16 pts)
   
3. A Sight to Behold (14 pts)
   

7-t. This Is the Way (13 pts)
7-t. The Body Breaks (13 pts)
7-t. Never Seen Such Good Things (13 pts)

1. Für Hildegard Von Bingen (12 pts)

11 kantori ongaku
11 i feel just like a child
10 theme for a taiwanese woman in lime green
10 korean dogwood
9 volta e meia
9 the other woman
9 lazy butterfly
9 hey mama wolf
9 crop circle jerk 94
9 cripple crow
8 your fine petting duck
8 saturday night
8 lover
8 fancy man
8 bad girl
7 will is my friend
7 quedate luna
6 tonada yanomaminista
6 long haired child
6 at the hop
5 rejoicing in the hands
5 little yellow spider
5 last song for b
4 wont you come over
4 this beard is for siobhan
4 inaniel
4 freely
3 wont you come home
3 santa maria de
3 now that i know
3 daniel
2 is this nice?
1 samba vexillographica

​
Thursday, April 25, 2002
Columnist Oriana Fallaci: On Jew-Hatred in Europe
Columnist Oriana Fallaci: On Jew-Hatred in Europe
[Originally published in Italian in the Panorama magazine , April 17, 2002 ]
​
I find it shameful that in Italy there should be a procession of individuals
dressed as suicide bombers who spew vile abuse at Israel,
hold up photographs of Israeli leaders on whose foreheads they have drawn
the swastika, incite people to hate the Jews. And who, in order to see Jews
once again in the extermination camps, in the gas chambers, in the ovens of
Dachau and Mauthausen and Buchenwald and Bergen-Belsen et cetera, would sell
their own mother to a harem.
​
I find it shameful that the Catholic Church should permit a bishop, one with
lodgings in the Vatican no less, a saintly man who was found in Jerusalem
with an arsenal of arms and explosives hidden in the secret compartments of
his sacred Mercedes, to participate in that procession and plant himself in
front of a microphone to thank in the name of God the suicide bombers who
massacre the Jews in pizzerias and supermarkets. To call them "martyrs who
go to their deaths as to a party."
​
I find it shameful that in France, the France of Liberty-Equality-
Fraternity, they burn synagogues, terrorize Jews, profane their cemeteries.
​
I find it shameful that the youth of Holland and Germany and Denmark flaunt
the kaffiah just as Mussolini's avant garde used to flaunt the club and the
fascist badge.
​
I find it shameful that in nearly all the universities of Europe Palestinian
students sponsor and nurture anti-Semitism. That in Sweden they asked that
the Nobel Peace Prize given to Shimon Peres in 1994 be taken back and
conferred on the dove with the olive branch in his mouth, that is on Arafat.
​
I find it shameful that the distinguished members of the Committee, a
Committee that (it would appear) rewards political color rather than merit,
should take this request into consideration and even respond to it. In hell
the Nobel Prize honors he who does not receive it.
​
I find it shameful (we're back in Italy) that state-run television stations
contribute to the resurgent anti-Semitism, crying only over Palestinian
deaths while playing down Israeli deaths, glossing over them in unwilling
tones. I find it shameful that in their debates they host with much
deference the scoundrels with turban or kaffiah who yesterday sang hymns to
the slaughter at New York and today sing hymns to the slaughters at
Jerusalem, at Haifa, at Netanya, at Tel Aviv.
​
I find it shameful that the press does the same, that it is indignant
because Israeli tanks surround the Church of the Nativity in Bethlehem, that
it is not indignant because inside that same church two hundred Palestinian
terrorists well armed with machine guns and munitions and explosives (among
them are various leaders of Hamas and Al-Aqsa) are not unwelcome guests of
the monks (who then accept bottles of mineral water and jars of honey from
the soldiers of those tanks).
​
I find it shameful that, in giving the number of Israelis killed since the
beginning of the Second Intifada (four hundred twelve), a noted daily
newspaper found it appropriate to underline in capital letters that more
people are killed in their traffic accidents. (Six hundred a year).
​
I find it shameful that the Roman Observer, the newspaper of the Pope- -a
Pope who not long ago left in the Wailing Wall a letter of apology for the
Jews--accuses of extermination a people who were exterminated in the
millions by Christians. By Europeans.
​
I find it shameful that this newspaper denies to the survivors of that
people (survivors who still have numbers tattooed on their arms) the right
to react, to defend themselves, to not be exterminated again.
​
I find it shameful that in the name of Jesus Christ (a Jew without whom they
would all be unemployed), the priests of our parishes or Social Centers or
whatever they are flirt with the assassins of those in Jerusalem who cannot
go to eat a pizza or buy some eggs without being blown up.
​
I find it shameful that they are on the side of the very ones who
inaugurated terrorism, killing us on airplanes, in airports, at the
Olympics, and who today entertain themselves by killing western journalists.
By shooting them, abducting them, cutting their throats, decapitating them.
(There's someone in Italy who, since the appearance of Anger and Pride,
would like to do the same to me. Citing verses of the Koran he exhorts his
"brothers" in the mosques and the Islamic Community to chastise me in the
name of Allah. To kill me. Or rather to die with me. Since he's someone who
speaks English well, I'll respond to him in English: "Fuck you.")
​
I find it shameful that almost all of the left, the left that twenty years
ago permitted one of its union processionals to deposit a
coffin (as a Mafioso warning) in front of the synagogue of Rome, forgets the
contribution made by the Jews to the fight against
fascism. Made by Carlo and Nello Rossini, for example, by Leone Ginzburg, by
Umberto Terracini, by Leo Valiani, by Emilio Sereni, by women like my friend
Anna Maria Enriques Agnoletti who was shot at Florence on June 12, 1944, by
seventy-five of the three-hundred- thirty-five people killed at the Fosse
Ardeatine, by the infinite others killed under torture or in combat or
before firing squads. (The companions, the teachers, of my infancy and my
youth.)
​
I find it shameful that in part through the fault of the left--or rather,
primarily through the fault of the left (think of the left that
inaugurates its congresses applauding the representative of the PLO, leader
in Italy of the Palestinians who want the destruction of
Israel)-Jews in Italian cities are once again afraid. And in French cities
and Dutch cities and Danish cities and German cities, it is
the same.
​
I find it shameful that Jews tremble at the passage of the scoundrels
dressed like suicide bombers just as they trembled during Krystallnacht, the
night in which Hitler gave free rein to the Hunt of the Jews.
​
I find it shameful that in obedience to the stupid, vile, dishonest, and for
them extremely advantageous fashion of Political Correctness the usual
opportunists--or better the usual parasites--exploit the word Peace. That in
the name of the word Peace, by now more debauched than the words Love and
Humanity, they absolve one side alone of its hate and bestiality. That in
the name of a pacifism (read conformism) delegated to the singing crickets
and buffoons who used to lick Pol Pot's feet they incite people who are
confused or ingenuous or intimidated. Trick them, corrupt them, carry them
back a half century to the time of the yellow star on the coat. These
charlatans who care about the Palestinians as much as I care about the
charlatans. That is not at all.
​
I find it shameful that many Italians and many Europeans have chosen as
their standard-bearer the gentleman (or so it is polite to say) Arafat. This
nonentity who thanks to the money of the Saudi Royal Family plays the
Mussolini ad perpetuum and in his megalomania believes he will pass into
History as the George Washington of Palestine. This ungrammatical wretch who
when I interviewed him was unable even to put together a complete sentence,
to make articulate conversation. So that to put it all together, write it,
publish it, cost me a tremendous effort and I concluded that compared to him
even Ghaddafi sounds like Leonardo da Vinci. This false warrior who always
goes around in uniform like Pinochet, never putting on civilian garb, and
yet despite this has never participated in a battle. War is something he
sends, has always sent, others to do for him. That is, the poor souls who
believe in him. This pompous incompetent who playing the part of Head of
State caused the failure of the Camp David negotiations, Clinton's
mediation. No-no-I-want-Jerusalem-all-to-myself. This eternal liar who has a
flash of sincerity only when (in private) he denies Israel's right to exist,
and who as I say in my book contradicts himself every five minutes. He
always plays the double-cross, lies even if you ask him what time it is, so
that you can never trust him. Never! With him you will always wind up
systematically betrayed. This eternal terrorist who knows only how to be a
terrorist (while keeping himself safe) and who during the Seventies, that is
when I interviewed him, even trained the terrorists of Baader-Meinhof. With
them, children ten years of age. Poor children. (Now he trains them to
become suicide bombers. A hundred baby suicide bombers are in the works: a
hundred!). This weathercock who keeps his wife at Paris, served and revered
like a queen, and keeps his people down in the shit. He takes them out of
the shit only to send them to die, to kill and to die, like the
eighteen-year-old girls who in order to earn equality with men have to strap
on explosives and disintegrate with their victims. And yet many Italians
love him, yes. Just like they loved Mussolini. And many other Europeans do
the same.
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I find it shameful and see in all this the rise of a new fascism, a new
Nazism. A fascism, a nazism, that much more grim and revolting because it is
conducted and nourished by those who hypocritically pose as do-gooders,
progressives, communists, pacifists, Catholics or rather Christians, and who
have the gall to label a warmonger anyone like me who screams the truth.
I see it, yes, and I say the following. I have never been tender with the
tragic and Shakespearean figure Sharon. ("I know you've come to add another
scalp to your necklace," he murmured almost with sadness when I went to
interview him in 1982.) I have often had disagreements with the Israelis,
ugly ones, and in the past I have defended the Palestinians a great deal.
Maybe more than they deserved.
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But I stand with Israel, I stand with the Jews. I stand just as I stood as a
young girl during the time when I fought with them, and when the Anna Marias
were shot. I defend their right to exist, to defend themselves, to not let
themselves be exterminated a second time. And disgusted by the anti-Semitism
of many Italians, of many Europeans, I am ashamed of this shame that
dishonors my Country and Europe. At best, it is not a community of States,
but a pit of Pontius Pilates. And even if all the inhabitants of this planet
were to think otherwise, I would continue to think so.