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So my dad and I work the same hours. 2Pm to 10:30PM.
We take a car home. Get home, eat, relax, the usual. However! He stays up til 3 - 4in the morning on either his laptop, or his phone. It will always be in the living room area as well where the light reaches my room and it annoys and irritates me so much that I cant sleep.
Since I alsp pay for the cable and internet, I have access to the spectrum account. I've set up a pause schedule for his phone and laptop that starts at 1AM, and ends at 3AM.
He can try using his data, but we live in a rural area so pffft fat chance that'll do him good. It's supposed to be the 22 year old with the phone addiction, not the 54 year old.

If I (28HL M) initiate it’s always a no. No exceptions. Every time I try to initiate anything sexually or even just try to give and receive some form of intimacy, she (26LL F) will have an excuse or a reason for saying no.
If she initiates, I can’t say no. No matter what’s happening, what time it is, I’m expected to be ready to go.
Finally falling asleep at 2AM on a Wednesday in the middle of a work week after being up for 28 hours? Nope, she’s grabbing my dick and expecting me to perform. I try to initiate at 9AM on a Saturday morning when we’re both rested? “Absolutely not.” “Maybe later.”
I feel like I’m crazy and probably ranting about nothing, but I can’t help it. I feel like I have no say or input in regards to our sex life. I don’t know how to put in words how exactly it makes me feel, but it’s not good.

This sub has been an incredible source of information and inspiration, so I gave myself an hour to write down and share some insights from the recent three-week road trip I’ve had with my partner.
General remarks:
- Our main goal was to enjoy nature, so we were okay with spending absolutely no time on the golden circle or in Reykjavik. Due to the weather, we ended up doing both anyway; but these would be the parts of the trip I would skip first. Coming from continental Europe, we had almost no jetlag and could safely start directly with our journey. With more jet lag, some more time to adapt is definitely a good idea.
- We rented a 2WD campervan from Star Car Rental and spent all but the final night on campsites. Our experience with Star Car was very good. The price was competitive and included unlimited mileage, additional driver and all necessary utensils (chairs, table, cooking stuff). We got picked up from the airport and were ready to go within 15’. When giving back the car, we got driven to our hotel without any inspection (we did have zero excess insurance).
- Mid-May to beginning of June was a very nice time to travel. The days are long (I’ve seen no darkness), almost all camping places are open, but the crowds at the highlights are small – except for the big boys in the south.
- We started our days quite early and therefore typically arrived during the afternoon at the campsites. The kitchen area, showers and laundry spaces were often free to use. Be prepared to go to campsites that have only 2 stoves and 1 shower. During prime time, expect some waiting times.
- We picked up around 100 € worth of cash – two campsites were cash-only, everything else was absolutely card-first / cash-free.
Useful ressources:
- Vedur and Safetravel: This sub is absolutely right. Learn how to read and anticipate the weather before you get there. We were there during two yellow warnings and these things are really no joke. It helps to have plenty of time to spontaneously adapt the schedule. And we’ve seen it all: blizzard in the West, hail up North, storm in the East and sun in the South.
- Google reviews & park4night: These were pretty accurate for the campsites. 4+ stars are no-brainers, 3+ depend on your needs (kitchen, shower, electricity) and less than 3 should be avoided. Also, remember to rate them yourself during/after your trip to increase the statistical significance ;)
- Google Maps/MyMaps: MyMaps was useful during our planning to fill with random highlights (waterfalls, hotpots, hikes, campsites) and to set up a rough itinerary. Google Maps is accurate on paved roads. On gravel roads, expect some significant delays. Maps calculates with 80 km/h, while you will probably never exceed 50 km/h. In the Westfjords, we guess-timated our times with 2 minutes per kilometer on the gravel roads. The Happy Campers Campsite Map as well as the Hot Pot Iceland Map were nice to have in the back-pocket to check with some time to spare whether something is close by.
- Polarsteps: This was a cute little App, which we used to keep family and friends informed. You can add pictures and some text to your highlights. This way, you don’t send the same picture into various chats and there is a location- and time-dependent context.
Cost: This is the per-person cost breakdown for our 21-day trip (20-day camper rental, 1 hotel stay, total 3’500€).
- Rental (zero excess insurance, additional driver): 1’135 €
- Flight (from continental Europe): 700 €
- Activities (Pools, Spas, Horse-riding, Kayak): 300 €
- Camping (pretty consistent 2’000 +- 500 ISK p.P.): 275 €
- Groceries (Bonus, Kronan, Netto): 255 €
- Coffee, Beers, Food in Restaurants: 260 €
- Petrol (420 € in total for roughly 3’600 km): 210 €
- Souvenirs: 180 €
- Ferries (into Westfjords and to Westman Islands): 95 €
- Hotel: 75 €
Highlights:
- Sundlaug and Spas: When camping in small towns, very often there will be a swimming pool close by. They are not expensive (around 1000 ISK pP) and a great way to relax after a long day. Also, it feels nice to take longer, hot showers without knowing people are waiting in line. We decided to go for some smaller premium spas and were very happy with all of them: Krauma was one of our first stops, the Forest Lagoon was incredible during evening hours and GeoSea was also fantastic. Re: nudity. It takes a bit to get used to, but its very refreshing to see this very open approach to nudity in the pools. No one cares, no one watches – just do your thing. It’s cool to see groups of friends at all age groups be so open about it. Certainly very different compared to continental Europe.
- As we had to skip the Eastfjords a bit due to storm, we had some time left at the end. We spent the last 3 nights on the Westman Islands. It was great to leave the car for a longer while and do everything by foot. There are plenty of things to do and the swimming pool is fantastic.
- Mulagljufur: Use Google Maps to find the exact location, as of now, there is no sign along the road. The canyon is very beautiful and we ended up hiking for almost three hours. Couldn’t get enough of the views.
- Glymur: The infamous log wasn’t placed when we were there, but the short hike to the cave and towards the canyon was absolutely worth it.
- Camping highlights: Melanes campsite at Raudasandur beach (Westfjords): incredible scenery, wild drive to get there; Thingeyri campsite (Westfjords): directly at the fjord, fantastic infrastructure (probably the best kitchen we’ve had) and IMHO a great alternative to the Tungudalur campsite in Isafjordur; 66.12 N campsite (near Husavik): insane ocean view, good infrastructure, one of the best sites along the diamond circle; Glamping&Camping (Westmann Islands): beautiful setting, good infrastructure.
Itinerary (Highlights: *, ** or ***)
Day 1: Arrival at KEF during the afternoon in pouring rain, set up campervan, first grocery stops at Bonus and Kronan, Dinner at Issi’s Fish&Chips*, Camp at Hjalli Kjos
Day 2: Glymur hike** (up to river, no log), Krauma Spa**, scenic drive into Snaefellsnes, Camp at Freezer Hostel
Day 3: Check out Snaefellsnes highlights, get to Stykkisholmur in the afternoon, Ferry Baldur to Brjanslaekur, Hellulaug hotpot*, drive to Melanes campsite*** on Raudasandur beach
Day 4: full day at Raudasandur, great hikes, another night at Melanes campsite.
Day 5: Long drive through westfjords. Highlights included the self-service fish station in Talknafjordur (amazing fisk bollur**), Dynjandi waterfall and Sandfell hike. Camping at Thingeyri*, relax in local swimming pool
Day 6: drive to Isafjordur, check out city (kind of underwhelming, but it was a national holiday; the brewery is nice), do some small hikes in the area. Camp at Tungudalur.
Day 7: very long drive out of westfjords towards Varmahlid. Hot dog stop in Holmavik and arrive at Lambeyri campsite (cash only)
Day 8: woke up with dead battery, but got jump start by campsite owner. Horseriding tour at Lytingsstadir* was very nice, drive to Akureyri, visit Forest Lagoon**. It was Saturday night when we visited, upon leaving we had police checking every driver for alcohol – so better hold off the pool-side bar ;) wanted to camp at Vaglaskogur but campsite wasn’t open. Went up until the CJA campsite in Laugar with a late-night stop at Godafoss (around 10pm, were the only people there)
Day 9: check out Myvatn area: Dimmuborgir hike, Hverir, Leirhnjukur hike**. Then continue to Dettifoss and camp at Asbyrgi. Late night hike to Asbyrgi ‘island’*.
Day 10: Hike in Asbyrgi canyon, continue to Husavik, visit GeoSea**, camp at 66.12N***
Day 11: long drive with very strong winds. We had to go back to Akureyri (optician to fix broken glasses), so went through Myvatn again with a quick stop at Grjotagja. Beautiful drive, weather was too bad for Studlagil canyon, so we continued all the way to Borgarfjordur eystri. Crazy winds during the night and we were happy that our car didn’t get blown away.
Day 12: unfortunately, no hikes in this beautiful area. Waited for storm to pass until lunchtime, visited harbor with puffins**, drive to Egilsstadir (hot dog stop), continue to Seydisfjordur (kind of underwhelming town, the drive is gorgeous though) and, due to weather forecast, continue all the way to Djupivogur campsite.
Day 13: Incredible drive from Djupivogur to Höfn, stops at Hvalnes and Jökulsarlon. Hike at Mulagljufur***, camp at Svenifell.
Day 14: early-morning hike in Skaftafell**, continue to Kirjubaersklausur for campsite. Had to skip Fjardrargljufur due to weather, visited local swimming pool.
Day 15: yellow warning again. Continued to Vik for Skool Beans Coffee*, quick stop at Reynisfjara beach (red alert was on, so we didn’t go further than the sign), continue to Skogarfoss and hike part of Fimmvorduhals*, camp in Selfoss – swimming pool was closed unfortunately.
Day 16: Weather forecast was very bad, so we spent the day in Reykjavik. Walked around town, grabbed some coffees and visiting the local Sundhöll*. Camp at Mosskogar** (cash-only)
Day 17: Golden circle: hike at Thingvellir, look at Geysir, skipped Delfoss. Camp in Selfoss again.
Day 18: quick stop at Seljalandsfoss, ferry to Westman islands. Set up camp at Glamping&Camping** for the next 3 nights. Visited Brothers Brewery*.
Day 19: Kayak tour with Kayak-and-Puffins-company***. Visited local swimming pool* (trampoline slide was very nice) and watched a local handball game.
Day 20: Hike along volcanoes and coast**, visit brewery again, go to puffin bay**
Day 21: Ferry back to mainland. Drive back towards KEF. Drop-off campervan and spent night in Konvin Hotel. Early morning shuttle to airport (we arrived about 2h early for our 7 am flight and had plenty of time).
Of course, I’m very happy to answer any questions you might have!
Hope this is helpful to some of you :)

TRIGGER WARNING FOR SA
my mother and i lived alone although i have many other siblings all step or half siblings except my youngest sister (14F) who is 100% biologically related to me. i despise the rest of my family apart from my mother or sister because when i was younger i was rped by my brother and mlested by my father and only my mother believed me.
my mother was the kindest woman you could know, of course she had her issues but who didn't. she had drinking problems, i always begged her to stop but it never worked. my younger sister pleaded with her as well but it never helped.
my entire life i had never gone more than 2 days without talking to my mother, we were as close as you can be to one another. the week prior to her passing her drinking was exceptionally bad and she had a fall during the week and i wanted to maybe speak to my school and see if they could help me get her help, the entire staff dismissed me. throughout the week i was being super bitchy and blunt to my mum because i was sick of her drinking, she was so bad i started taking photos and recording all our conversations. i even tried calling helplines for her but nobody wanted to speak to me. saturday night i had a party to go to and i was having a friend come back to my house after the party to stay the night but before i left for the party my mums room which she hasn't left most of the week reeked and she wasn't eating any of the food i was giving her even after se complained her blood sugar was dropping and her blood pressure was rising, doctors described her as a ticking time bomb because her medical issues were so bad. but that night i still felt like going to a party. at the party i started feeling extremly sick although i hadn't drank or anything i was looking at myself and i was going green and i couldn't help but just lay backwards on a bed trying to keep my eyes open. i started saying something was wrong and i tried calling and texting my mum for an uber home because i wanted to leave but she wasn't replying, when i eventually got an uber home i didn't greet my mum like i usually would when i arrive home from an event i just went straight to bed with my friend. and in the morning i went to say good morning to my mother and just saw her laying on the floor with blood streaming from her nose i went to go her cpr But i couldn't work up the courage to touch her so i screamed for my friend to call the ambulance and i ran outside throwing up and calling my other best friends be i know i couldn't do this alone. i had to see my brother who raped me as he was the only family i had in the state which just made it all so much worse for me and as i'm only 17 my brother was made senior next of kin and he was making all the decisions on everything.
mums memorial was this past saturday and today is one month since i found her, i have never gone over two days without speaking to her and it's been a month. i don't know how i'm gonna do this it's so scary for me and i need her so badly i miss her with my whole heart i act like i'm okay but i can't do it the dark scared me running water scares me simple noises scare me the wound of abulace scares me i am so scared i've never imagined life without her i always told her we would live together when we're both old now i'm 17 and i've moved in with a friend but i have so much love around me but nothing is the same as it was before.
i don't know what to do without her all i see when i close my eyes is her dead body just laying there and i try leaving her alone that night so badly.

Good morning to everyone. I'm 19yo, trans girl pre-transition, Italian and annoyed with studying at university. For this I'll take a year of break to cure my depression and possibly find a simple and "easy" job. I don't know if I'll ever transition, so I could remain as a "man". I want to drop off computer science course because I don't like it and start a simple job, where I don't have to think. I don't a job as real estate, or which I have to study. I'd like a job with fixed hours : 5pm? OK, go home and don't think about job until tomorrow at 8am. I still live with my family, so I don't have to pay a rent or other.
I'd like to work as a beautician or cashier, I suppose. For now I'm not interested in growing up in position or a high salary.
Any advice of careers linked with what I wrote or other feedback?

Good morning.
I can't connect my Rohde & Schwarz spectrum analyser to LabVIEW via USB or LAN. I can't find the corresponding VI. Please help me.

Morning / Evening all ~
First of all I really appreciate it if you get through this post and any help is so beyond appreciated. My names Max I’ve been posting on and off for a bit, learnt a lot since I’ve been here. I’ve had sleep apnea for over a decade but it’s only been diagnosed back in September 2022. It was diagnosed moderate to severe but I very much suspect it’s severe as my sleep study was not good and my last study detected no REM sleep.
I was only prescribed a MAD device which I received 2 weeks ago. I have been monitoring my sleep with the SnoreLab app and whilst I know snoring and OSA are two different things sadly I am still snoring like a banshee with both the MAD in and mouthtape. I am an athletic guy, by no means overweight - but like many in this sub I am really, really struggling. I’m struggling with driving, I don’t think I’m getting REM - (maybe a little on my side) and I’m waking up so depressed. I cannot focus on simple cognitive exercise (I’m a carpenter so I often don’t notice how bad this is because my work is physical) but when it comes to reading a book or simple things like that I’m useless - but basically all the symptoms I see here from many many people.
I believe the issues stem from my jaw and neck region. I have a low hyoid and slightly recessed jaw as well as jaw imbalance / TMJ issues (all be them minor).
What I wanted to ask today as I have been getting nowhere with my GP is any advice in navigating my annual follow up appointment tomorrow with Guys & Thomas sleep specialist. Does my experience echo that of anyone else’s? If so how would you proceed? I’m desperate to see a maxillofacial specialist or ENT but these requests seem to be met with resistance and go nowhere. I don’t want to make too much of a fuss in case my drivers license is taken away.. but what I’m really after is progress in what to me see obvious next steps because it’s just ruining me.
Thanks for reading, even more for responding! All the best and keep going! Max

i have found my sleep schedule to be absolutely smashed in again, yay me!
nightowl gamer? cool, me too. early morning gamer? cool, I can catch a few games before bed xD
casual as heck, giggles probably too much and notorious for saying I’m the best in the game after hitting a lucky shot and immediately dying two seconds later c:
what games am I playing?:

• Destiny 2
  
• League of Legends
  
• Valorant
  
• Apex (I really want to get back into this u.u)
  
• Honkai Star Rail (we obvi can’t play together but you can stream your pulls to me and I will cry as you get all the good luck and I don’t)
  

not much else to say, I’m a very casual and laid gamer! shy at first, but don’t let that scare you off. let’s game? Nixie#3597

I'm actually ecstatic. After 3 years of yo-yo-ing with the scale moving up for the most part, it finally went down without any conscience miserable weeks spent cutting calories.
Weightloss is incredibly difficult for me due to my unhealthy relationship with food. Being a highly anxious person, I eat to keep the thoughts at bay. From the last 2 months, I had been actively trying to lose weight but just couldn't keep up with any changes. Then last week I went on a 2 day vacation and I ate alot of different food but I told myself if I just keep myself satiated and not full, I can eat more different things. I continued to do that this week too. Ate whatever I wanted but was mindful of not eating the whole thing. So portion control without any actual calorie counting or weighing was how it began.
Second thing I started was walking more, just moving more. Crossed 10k steps once or twice a week.
Third thing I did was I ate my dinner almost 6 hours before bedtime. Since I'm sedentary, I dont need the energy at night. This put me in a fortunate intermittent fast every night. Without actually having to consciously think of fasting or cutting calories.
Fourth thing I did was replace my milk tea with coffee with a splash of milk. It drastically cut down calories for me while still giving me the caffeine i craved. Again, without me feeling a difference or feeling miserable about it.
5th thing I did was get 8 hours of sleep. 2 weeks back I was hardly sleeping 6 hours at night and getting up to go to the gym early morning. Then eating a big meal after gym cause i worked out and then falling asleep for another 4 hours. My physique improved because of the weights I lifted at the gym, the scale however only went up and I felt bloated most of the time. I cut down on the gym and increased energy spent doing nothing. Made me realize maybe I dont need to go to the gym everyday to feel good. To each their own.
2 weeks later I've lost 4 lbs. I understand weightloss is faster initially and it would slow down to less than a lb a week. But I'm very happy to see the scale change in a different direction without feeling completely miserable and over calculating my weightloss. I have another 30lbs to lose. But my goal right now is to lose another 4 to 6 lbs by next month and not feel anguish doing it. Hope my post helps someone out there who's struggling with food like I do.

Hey guys. How was your day?
Good morning, I hope today has many oppotunties ahead so great things happen.
My morning has been great so far, lol, how has yours so far? And also do you have any ideas about what you want to see on this community and if so just comment and I'll do my best to do it for you.
LOVE YOU ALL AND HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY!!!!! <3

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I know the topic is pretty old by now but seeing how majority of players seem to be displeased in how the events of the lich mythic path play out in act 5 (and how I picked up the game only few weeks ago and couldn't participate in the discussion earlier), I decided to step in and point something out. Something that I didn't see anyone else point out to this very day.
So a5 hits, you 'save ;)' (or not) the queen, go back to drezen and... go on a murderhobo rampage against your fellow human crusaders. Everyone seems to be pointing out the lack of choice, how they'd like a good or at least neutral lich to be a thing or at least a build-up leading to this carnage. But... there IS one (the build-up, not the choice).
In every thread about the subject not a single soul cared to remember papa Zacharius' teachings. I won't quote him directly because I'm way past this point and I don't remember his exact words but he did say one, VERY important thing: that the crusaders/living WILL sooner or later betray you and that in order to not let that happen, you must betray them first.
It's not a matter of IF but WHEN. And would you look at that, you arrive at Iz and (assuming you did) save the Sword of Valor and the crusaders, and when you go back to Drezen, what do the meatbags do? Mumble curses under their noses, throw deathstares at you because you recycled troops that would otherwise go to waste AND they decide to leave your side - no doubt acting as a fuel in the future crusade against YOU.
Zacharius foretold that this would happen and it did - no matter how loyal someone may be to you, there's ALWAYS a chance that they'll betray or leave you (Anevia, anyone?). And the dead? You just subjugate them to your will and they will obey and stay unwaveringly loyal to you for eternity (or at least for as long as their bodies allow it before crumbling to dust). The culling of the living was logical and pragmatic seeing how they decided to turn their backs on you.
So yes, while Owlcat did not present us with a choice on the matter, it was NOT thoughtless - it presented the natural order of things when it comes to being a lich and it made perfect sense from the lore/story standpoint.
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TLDR:
Zacharius said 'betray them before they betray you' and since the living failed to remain loyal, they HAD TO die - allowing them to live could backfire when they aim another crusade vs you.

We need oil and gas for industry. Let's face it. Fossil fuels are the life blood of manufacturing.
For most manufacturing, process heat is required, or carbon is too integrated in the process for it to be easily removed.
Process heat is needed to generate steam, and steam is used for heating, cooling, moving turbines and much more.
How do you generate steam without fossil fuels? Geothermal? That's location restricted. Electricity? You'll dumb as rocks to use electric boilers. It's too capital intensive and the $/GJ is about 5 times as much as gas. Biomass? That still produces co2, and we would still need gas as an baseload header.
That's not including carbon integrated process like steel making, cement. Ie we need carbon (from coal) to reduce iron ore to steel. We need natural gas or coal to "cook" the cement ingredients. We need gas to act as an header in pulp mills.
This leaves to my point. Decarbonisation is a game of chicken. I have explained how fossil fuels are integral to industry. Any country who decides to decarbonise will have to deindustrialise.
The might of a country is weighted in its industrial output. Let's say the United States decides to decarbonise and consequently deindustrialise, it will be overtly dependant on China or India for manufacturing important products, like paper, steel, cement, fertiliser.....
Even with electricfication, you still need: - coal for reducing iron ore ( possibly replaced with green H2? Expensive)

• Ammonia for Fertilisers (Green H2 can make ammonia, but not large scale enough and expensive)
  
• Process heat in general
  
• Heat for kilns in cement making and paper making.
  

Yes, decarbonisation would be good for the environment. But unless the whole agrees to decarbonise at the same time, the last to the table have significant advantages. So no one will seriously decarbonise. I have heard from my European colleagues that their government are actually shelving decarbonisation goals. - don't quote me on this.
I view policy as a cost benefit ratio. I'm a geopolitical realist. I'm from NZ and let's say we would decarbonise to meet the Paris Accords. Remember NZ is a small country with little significance, other countries may have geopolitical considerations too.
Benefits

• Look good in front the UN - showboating
• Attract ESG investors?

Cons

• We lose a significant percentage of our GDP
• We lose valuable talent and know-how in manufacturing
• We strangle our dairy industry with climate regulations
• Spend untold billions for no public gain.
• we lose all internal manufacturing capacity

You can see where I stand from the cost benefit ratio analysis. I feel decarbonisation is fucking stupid, and don't get me started on electricfication

I (28f) and my bf have been together for almost 3 years. To be completely honest I shouldn’t have jumped into this relationship but idk he just won me over. He was different. He’s a great guy. He was respectful kind responsible, so I said yes. Well a month after we started dating I got pregnant and we were actually happy about it (also I have a daughter, 3) so I know it was a big change for him being single for a long time to having a little family and a baby on the way. Also a big change for me since I had no idea how to deal with my daughters father. He would blow me up all the time and I would answer because he had our daughter, then we had got her and brought her home with us and her dad would blow me up even more just fighting and trying to tear me down. I didn’t know how to handle it. But after a while I had a few people telling me that I don’t have to do anything for him or be in contact with him (he’s an alcoholic drug addict) so eventually I figured it out but I guess it was too late since it kinda messed with our groove. So anywho, I’m pregnant for a month before we find out. We have some appointments cool. Next one was a ultrasound “we” were so excited to see our baby! As we’re sitting there they checked everything and the nurse didn’t say much.. just said she’d be right back.. she eventually came back and handed me a phone. It was the doctor on the line.. they said our baby had no heartbeat and that he was measuring at 9 weeks when we were supposed to be at 12…. I had her repeat it on speaker so my bf could hear it since I didn’t want to tell him. I just broke down. After that they scheduled an appointment for a d&c. We went to pick my daughter up. Cried with loved ones after telling what happened.. So I get the procedure done.. some time passes and we’re both sad of course and we don’t really know what to say or how to talk about it. I just cried and bled.. One morning he goes to the gym but the whole time he was gone I had this weird feeling. My intuition was trying to tell me something.. Like maybe he didn’t love me anymore, he had been acting different and my mind didn’t go to cheating that was actually the last thing I had in my mind. He’d n e v e r do me like that.
When he got back I didn’t say much so he asked what was wrong. I was honest and told him that I’ve noticed a difference in him like he was pulling away from me and if he had anything to tell me he can, that he didn’t have to be afraid of hurting my feelings. He stayed very quiet for a long time. Whatever it was, he wanted to say it but he didn’t know how. So I cut in before giving him the chance and basically gave him a good excuse. “is it because of the baby?” “Yes” he answered almost immediately and even shed a few tears.. we finished up our talk and it ended on how maybe we needed some alone time and we went on a date later that evening. After this I started noticing more stuff like him taking longer to get ready for the gym and work and a certain girl he followed who had posted a picture and the day I had my d&c procedure. The caption read “happy Friday” and he liked it. ON THAT DAY?? (He wasn’t with me at the hospital he had to drop me off, went home for a few hours and then picked me up) I had also checked her other posts and he had liked a few in the past. I had to bring it up to him and basically admitted that she was a girl from a story he had already told me a few days into our relationship. So I had a face. I felt sick to my stomach. And on top of that he had a girl he screwed on social media?? Can’t be the only one..
I just felt so hurt. It was NOT a happy Friday for us.. how could he do that? All he could do was unlike the post.. a couple weeks later he was still cold towards me and was getting this feeling like something was still off I can’t explain the feeling but it was at the pit of my stomach.. I turned and looked at his Apple Watch that had been sitting on the charger for the last several months. Never touched never even thought about it for a second.. but there we were.. just staring at each other. Something told me to look though it. I never wanted to go though his things but I did. I went to his text messages.. there they were.. tinder codes, bumble codes, hud codes, mature.. soo many times he deactivated and logged back in. The dates and times will forever be ingrained in my mind (2/20-3/25 ish)
He was on tinder the day of our ultrasound and Later that night!
(He called his job to let them know he lost his baby and they gave him 3 days to recover, apparently tinder was able to help with this)
While MY DAUGHTER AND HIM waited for me in his car to get the D&C appointment made! The day of the D&C procedure! When he was getting ready for the gym! While he was at the gym! At work! (He “only” gets a lunch and he FaceTimes me everyday) While getting us food! He even paid for tinder! ANYTIME HE LEFT ANYWHERE!
I never cried so much.. I was so shook my heart felt like it was going to explode. But I didn’t say anything. I pretended for maybe 2 or 3 days until it started driving me nuts. I got a call from him after work, he was telling me that he was gonna go across the street with his manager for a drink and to talk about work. I felt sick thinking he was finally maybe going on a date with a match and there was absolutely NOTHING I could do about it. After maybe 2 hours he came home, he had on a different shirt (to this day I don’t really know if he was telling the truth or if it was a date) I kept it short with him never asked how it went or what they talked about. HE started rambling on himself about how it went. I didn’t say much and he started noticing so he asked if I was ok. He asked if something was wrong I said no. But then after a while I figured how I’d do it. “Are you on any dating apps?” “No!” “My friend told me she saw your picture” He tried to laugh it off, but I wasn’t. I stayed firm with tears in my eyes “Are you on any dating apps?” “No” “Have you been on any dating apps in the last week” “I’m not on any dating apps” Have you been on any dating apps in the last month?” “No I’m not on any dating apps”
He didn’t lie. But he was going around truth using loopholes. He wasn’t on any dating apps, ANYMORE. The last day he went on before deleting them all was the day we went on our date after our miscarriage.. because of the guilt I think.. or he was scared of getting caught.
I told him I knew the truth and I was only giving him the chance to admit it.
Deny deny deny of course
I gave him 3 chances to come clean until I had no choice but to tell him.
“I saw everything” “What do you mean?” “You remember your watch?” “What watch?” “Your watch that’s been sitting on that charger for months?” “Oh” His face immediately changed. He knew he was defeated and I knew now that he’d be more careful with his watch.
He started apologizing. But in reality, he was never going to come clean. Was he really sorry? Or just sorry he got caught?