Hi everyone,
I found a forgotten lot of games at my parents house when I went to visit. I thought I had sold all my games and systems in the past, but I was very wrong. Previously I sold my N64, NES, etc. games on eBay, but all the best ones were literally bought by Lukie Games. I'd rather list here than sell it to resellers.
Since I’ve got no confirmed transactions here, I’d be happy to do PayPal G&S to build community confidence. I’d eventually prefer to move away from it to other methods like F&F, Venmo etc. once it's felt I'm more established.
Nearly all of the games are in excellent condition and many come CIB. A number of the loose games (Game Boy) also have instruction manuals that are in excellent condition, which are noted in the table below. Most of the items should have pics in the links below, please let me know if I'm missing anything (Warning, photo dumps!):
https://imgur.com/a/ZCq1tAe
https://imgur.com/a/V22CkwY
https://imgur.com/a/JvOwlCY
I'm very happy to take more pictures for anyone who would like; please let me know whatever you need and I'll be glad to provide. I have twin 10mo old girls and one of them requires extra special attention, so I may need more time than the average person to get you them :) Apologies in advance!
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All prices are shipped. Combining games would take some $ off the total. Open to offers for most listed, some are more firm than others.
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System/Games/Items	Notes	Price
Game Cube
Animal Crossing + AC Memory Card	CIB	90
Harvest Moon - Another Wonderful Life	CIB	40
Luigi’s Mansion	CIB	70
Mario Power Tennis	CIB	40
Metroid Prime	CIB	45
Paper Mario The Thousand Year Door	CIB	125
Starfox Adventures	Game & Box, No Manual it seems, but other inserts there	35
Super Mario Sunshine	CIB	50
The Legend of Zelda The Wind Waker	CIB	75
The Lord of the Rings The Two Towers (Players’ Choice)	Game & Box, No Manual	10
Dreamcast
Centipede	Complete	15
Crazy Taxi	Complete	30
House of the Dead 2 w/ Gun	Gun is in great condition but untested	75
Hydro Thunder	Complete	40
NBA2k	Complete	10
NFL2k	Complete	10
NHL2k	Complete	10
Ready 2 Rumble	Complete	25
Resident Evil: Code Veronica	Complete	55
Sonic Adventure	Complete	60
Sonic Adventure 2	Complete	120
Soul Calibur	Complete	40
Tony Hawk's Pro Skater 2	Complete	25
Trick Style	Complete	20
Game Boy
Bomberman GB	+ Clear Protective Game Case + Manual	25
Game & Watch Gallery	+ Manual	15
Game Boy Color Atomic Purple	Tested & Working	90
Game Boy Color Carrying Case	Official 1990's	30
Gameboy Camera (Green)	Tested & Working	50
Game Boy (Original)	Tested working, but left side of the screen does not display completely (streaks down the left side, about 1cm thick) and the contrast is very light overall. Also missing back plate. Likely repairable?	40
Gameboy Pocket	Clear 'color'. Turns on, games play, but the screen is very, very dark. Good condition otherwise; likely repairable?	40
Gameboy Printer	Tested & Working (+ Link Cable & Half a roll)	125
Ghostbusters II	Cart only	50
Hyper Lode Runner	Cart only	15
James Bond 007	Manual Only	8
Marble Madness	Cart Only	15
Mario Golf	+ Manual	35
Pokemon Blue	+ Clear Protective Game Case + Pokemon Blue Manual	80
Pokemon Gold (Japanese)	+ Clear Protective Game Case + Pokemon Gold Japanese Manual	60
Pokemon Pinball	Manual Only	10
Pokemon Red	+ Clear Protective Game Case + Pokemon Red Manual	90
Pokemon Yellow	+ Clear Protective Game Case	60
Tetris	Cart only	20
Wario Land II	+ Clear Protective Game Case + Manual	50
Worms Armageddon	Manual Only	15
WWF King of the Ring	+ Manual	15
WWF Warzone	Cart only	10
PlayStation 1
Area 51	Manual + Case Only	10
Final Fantasy VIII	CIB	30
Final Fantasy VIII	Missing Disc 4 - Unsure how to price	20? Make an Offer
GamePro Ultimate Video Game Code Book Vol 3	Good Condition	10
Gauntlet Legends	CIB	25
Gran Turismo 2	CIB	20
Grind Session	CIB	15
Knockout Kings 2000	CIB	15
NBA Jam Extreme	Damaged/Destroyed Jewel Case	12
NBA Live 98	Loose	8
NBA Live 99 / Triple Play Combo	CIB	10
Need for Speed III Hot Pursuit	Porsche Unleashed Back, Hot Pursuit Front/Manual, though.	10
Sony Playstation Console Booklet Insert	Included with console I believe?	8
Tony Hawk's Pro Skater	CIB	20
WCW NWO Thunder	CIB	15
PlayStation 2
Dark Cloud 2	CIB	35
Dragon Quest VIII - Journey of the Cursed King	CIB + FF Demo disc	30
FIFA soccer 2002	Game & Case only	10
Fight Night 2004	CIB	8
Final Fantasy X	CIB	10
Gran Turismo 3 A-spec (Greatest Hits)	CIB	10
Gran Turismo 4	CIB	15
Grand Theft Auto San Andreas	CIB + map	25
Grand Theft Auto Vice City	CIB + map	20
Kingdom Hearts (Greatest Hits)	CIB	12
Kingdom Hearts 2	CIB	14
Madden 2005	CIB	8
MLB The Show 06	Game & Case only	8
Mortal Kombat Deception	CIB	20
MVP baseball 2004	CIB	10
NBA Ballers	CIB	12
NCAA Football 2004	CIB	10
Need For Speed Underground	CIB	20
NFL 2k3	CIB	8
Rampage Total Destruction	CIB	15
Spider-Man 2	CIB	25
SRS Street Racing Syndicate	Box & Manual Only, No Game	8
The Godfather The Game	CIB + NYC Map	20
The Simpsons Road Rage (Greatest Hits)	CIB	25
Tony Hawk’s Pro Skater 3 (Greatest Hits)	CIB	15
Game Gear
Arch Rivals	Cart only	10
Castle of Illusion	Cart only	35
Columns	Cart only	8
Dragon Crystal	Cart only	25
NBA Action	Cart only	5
Pac-Man	Cart only	10
Popils	Cart only	25
RBI Baseball 94	Cart only	8
Revenge of Drancon	Cart only	20
Shinobi	Cart only	25
Slider	Cart only	12
Sonic Chaos	Cart only	15
The Majors Pro Baseball	Cart only	5
Woody Pop	Cart only	15
Nintendo 64
Console	NUS-001 - All hookups, Tested working, but no controller	80
Rumble Pak	Cleaned, but untested	15
Memory Card	Untested, white out used on the front. Comes with case.	15
Nintendo DS
Silver Handheld Console	Tested & Working, includes stylus & Charger	75
My Spanish Coach	CIB	8
Misc (Booklets, Posters, Manuals, etc.)	All in very good to excellent condition.
Acclaim Game Boy Poster	No idea how to price these posters but they seem to be around this online	25
Age of Empires 2 + Expansion Booklet (Combo)		10
Age of Empires Booklet		10
Clayfight 63 1/3 Instruction Booklet		15
Diablo 2 Official Strategy Guide		15
Gameboy Insert Poster	Unsure how to price; showcases Gameboy games it seems. Not sure I've ever opened it all the way.	20
007 Goldeneye 64 Instruction Booklet		15
Half Life Game of the Year Edition (PC) Manual		5
Ken Griffey Jr's Winning Run		10
Legend of Zelda Ocarina of Time Instruction Booklet		25
Mario Brothers Movie Soundtrack CD	CIB	50
Mortal Kombat Trilogy 64 Instruction Booklet		20
NBA Hangtime N64 Instruction Booklet		10
NCAA Road to the Final Four User Manual	Reads like an NCAA rule book lol	10
Nintendo Power Pokemon Wall Calendar	Unused, not even sure I've ever unfolded it. Great condition.	40
Official Nintendo 64 Mario Mouse Pad	Not sure how I got this; officially licensed from the mid-late 90's - has some small punctures in it, but mostly just needs a good wipe-down	30
Pokemon Snap - Snap Station Stickers	Still in the wrapping.	20
Pokemon Trading Card Game Rules 1999		10
San Fransisco Rush Extreme Racing 64 Manual		20
SEGA Genesis Sonic The Hedgehog Manual		15
Skyrim Canvas Map	Unused, also not sure if I've ever opened this	25
SNES Game Insert Posters	2x - Again not sure how to price these	25 each
South Park 64 Official Insert Poster	Great condition, never opened	25
South Park Chef Aid Soundtrack		15
[REMOVED] Starfox 64 Strategy Guide [REMOVED]	can't find strategy guide now, will relist once found	20
Super High Impact Instruction Manual		10
Super Mario 64 Instruction Booklet		15
Super Mario All Stars Instruction Booklet		10
Wayne Gretzky's 3D Hockey Instruction Booklet		10
WCW NWO World Tour Poster		20
Where in the World is Carmen Sandiego? PC-CD Rom Booklet		10
Wrestlemania 2000 Instruction Booklet		15

Greeting friends,
I've been playing D&D for 22 years, and doing sound design for 10. I've recently decided to combine my two favourite things into a youtube channel specifically for soundscapes to accompany parties on their numerous (mis)adventures. I love what I do, and will be releasing new 'scapes as regularly as my real-life work schedule permits.
May one of the following suit your needs, and accompany your players' mighty deeds 🧙

• Forest campfire
  
• Exotic Markets
  
• Ship at Sea
  
• City Streets
  
• The Blacksmith's Shop
  
• Haunted House
  
• Halls of the Academy
  
• Sleeping in the Barn
  
• Desert Journey
  
• Music to adventure to
  

Enjoy

I have found the old post (somehow I was smart to save it-)
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My Life in a Homophobic and Lowkey Racist Family
I am a Mexican teenager that uses the pronouns “They/Them”. If you came up to me, you wouldn’t know what my gender is since I have my hair cut short, I wear baggy yet nice clothes, and I have a mask on majority of the time when I’m in public. The only problem is my family. See, I live with my dad and my step-mom (my real mom abandoned me when I was a kid because she thought drugs was more important than her four kids). Both side of the family (I’ll refer my step-mom “mom” and her family “my family” in order to not confuse people) are Christians. I’m an atheist. I have been since I was 10. So whenever I have to do anything for a church, I am usually in a awkward position to the point where I ask my mom to pick me up. I also hate a lot of people, so don’t expect me to be in a party (unless I’m forced by my parents but that’s another story). I’m just an awkward kid that likes anime and hates people. Well, I came out pansexual to my parents. Well, mostly my dad. My mom on the other hand hates it. My dad supports me. I came out a year ago. I then thought that my dad would support me if I used the term “They/Them”. I came out as Non-Binary a day in October. My dad took me outside (in the cold without a coat) and left me outside for nearly 30 minutes. He told me that I would always be a girl.
“You were born as a girl, so you will always be a girl. You won’t be a boy or whatever the hell you want to be.”
His words, not mine.
I have been depressed ever since I was 11. It’s not major as before, but I’ve tried to commit suicide twice already. When I tried to, my parents sent me to a mental hospital. Then when I came back, I was acted all nice just to hide my true self. My parents believed that I was just trying to cause drama. I have actually starved myself, cut myself, making myself throw up. What’s worse is that my family likes to bring up things from my past and stuff like, “Remember the time when you thought of being a boy? (My dad told me this year when my younger cousins were right next to me). They think I’ll end up like my real mother. I can’t tell anybody in my family that I’m pansexual and non-binary because they hate gay people and will disown anyone.
I forgot to mention that my family on my dad side is kind of racist. You see, I have a Korean brother. Both me and him look alike, so people just assume that we’re both Mexicans. My dad likes to call me his ‘beaner’ because I’m part Mexican. Then, earlier this year, my dad’s mom said, “I wish all of these Mexicans and Black people would just leave me alone. Or probably go back to wherever they came from. I can’t stand them.”
Again, her words, not mine.
I also can’t forget about all the things I have to do while my little sister gets to be on her iPad all day and yet I get yelled at. I have chores before school, after school, and during the weekends/breaks/etc. My sister is 9 and I was 7 when I started to mow the whole yard (and I have 6 acres). The only thing my sister has to do is to water the dogs and I have to tell her to because she has her eyes on her iPad. I didn’t get my iPad until this year, and I saved my money for it! She got hers four years ago on Christmas! I was never allowed an electrical device until I was in my double digits and was in high school. Then, whenever I tell my parents that my sister should take some of my chores, they would get mad and say, “You’re not doing a lot so stop complaining.”
A lot…
I’m not doing a lot…
Morning:
Wake up at 6
Dishes
Get ready for school
Feed Dogs/Cats
Water for Cats
Get Sister up and ready for school
Be ready by 6:45
Afternoon:
Feed Dogs/Cats
Water Cats
Clean the liter box
Sweep
Vacuum
Dust
Clean mirrors
Clean windows
Clean couches
Clean bathroom
Dishes
Laundry
Mop
Clean basement stairs
Sweep in the basement
Vacuum in the basement
Clean the walls in the basement
Outside (when nice)
Sweep the barn
Mow the whole yard
Clean around the fences
Burn the trash
Clean around the house
Clean around the barns (we have 2)
Clean around the trees
Clean the barns (inside)
Clean around the burn hole
*clean-cutting raking picking sticks etc.
Outside (Winter)
Shovel the back porch/front porch
Shovel the driveway
Burn the trash
All of my chores are done by myself….
I can’t even get a job until I’m out of the house because my parents said, “Who’s going to do all of the stuff.”
I don’t know if this goes to entiledparents or toxic-family, but here you go. Just two more years until I’m free.

Single mother lives in her car with her son and daughter. The daughter has a friend who doesn’t know they live in the car, and the mom of the daughters friend gets mad at her for having food on her shirt.
At the end of the movie the single mom moves into the guest house/room of the daughters family.

Bruno's power sounds like something the PRT would salivate over. He's essentially a precog that can clearly see into any point of the future he wants, that also lets anyone with him view it, that also shows how to change the outcome, while also creating a tablet that shows the prediction? That also has no user lash back or side effects? He'd probably have an entire department at Watchdog dedicated towards him. I almost want to say he's a thinker 10+. That feels way too high but at the same time almost all thinkers in the setting seem to be kneecapped so hard that he'd warrant it for being such an outlier.
Pepa also has the same problem of simultaneously sounding incredibly powerful on paper while also being absolutely uncontrollable and not that useful. If she could summon tornadoes or entire hurricanes in mere moments I'd say shaker 10+. If it's only general weather such as rain or clear skies I'd dump her all the way down to shaker 2.
Julieta is a tough one because her power seems so hard to classify. I guess it's technically a tinker power? It really doesn't fit any of the categories and it's completely useless as a combative power. I want to say tinker 0 because it's just healing bread and a single mall cop could neutralize her (the threat ratings are supposed to be about how hard they are to neutralize) but at the same time I could see them giving her an absurd rating (8+) just to drill it through people's heads that she is a priority in any situation. As far as everyone else is concerned she is essentially Panacea 2.0 and she can cook tinker food using regular ingredients that has zero upkeep and has no side effects on the user. If the PRT was proactive they'd be paying her a seven digit sum to just cook nonstop in one of the most heavily fortified buildings they could build. She would probably be one of the most prolific capes in existence just from the sheer amount of lives she'd save globally with her food. But at the same time you can just shoot her in the head. Another rating that'd almost entirely be political.
Dolores is a character I assumed was weak at first and then realized would have an absurd rating. Being able to process noise from hundreds of miles all around her while picking out any conversations she wants without having sensory overload? An easy thinker 5 stranger 8 combo right off the bat. If anything I'm probably underselling her since the only way to get around her is either knowing she's within a few hundred miles of you and avoiding saying anything or just completely soundproofing a room, which is a lot harder than you'd think. She'd be the ultimate informant. Just drop her in a city for a week and she'd probably have the locations of just about every gang hideout or villain haunt for you.
Camilo feels like he'd be a stranger 1. Can perfectly imitate people, but has none of the memories of them and would instantly be found out by the most basic M/S protocols. If he could imitate brutes and get their strength then he'd probably be a stranger 2 trump 6. Only reason the trump rating isn't higher is because he can only do it with brutes. I doubt he'd be able to though, so I'd stick with stranger 1.
Antonio feels like a strictly worse version of Dolores once you get down to it. Since he has to talk to the animals around him this means he's both completely limited to whatever animals are nearby but that he can't even master more than a few at a time because he needs to verbally ask them to do what he wants. I want to say master 1+ stranger 1+ because his power just feels so gimped by his surroundings. Maybe if he was in the middle of the jungle I'd give him a positive rating. I imagine he'd have great synergy with certain capes (such as Bitch).
Luisa feels like a Brute 6 shaker 1+ because of how casually she can toss around entire houses while also applying an effect on them that keeps them completely structurally stable while moving them. That brute rating might be a little too high, I'm not sure.
Isabela would probably be a shaker 9. Her range is insane, the plants she grows aren't even effected by physics or their normal limitations, and she could easily create poisonous plants or even mix and match them alongside other plants. I imagine she'd be able to destroy an entire city if she just went all out as fast as possible.
Mirabel is a trump 0. Her power can instantly permanently neutralize any power it wants and turn the cape into a baseline human. Unfortunately the power automatically activated on itself. /s

Been playing with ChatGPT and thought about using it to generate the base of an adventure setting to help flesh things out and have been very happy with the results so far.
Here is an example for creating a ruin feeding it random rolls after getting it to generate a random realm for one of my Gods. It is a bit simple at parts, just kind of parroting the prompt, but its easy to expand upon whatever seems interesting, with with the tool or just your own imagination.
I also included the prompt it gave me when I asked it to build a realm after describing its creator to ChatGPT.
Example

Can you create a ruin located somewhere in the wilderness of Nocturnis?
It should be a cultural site that is a monument site to past glories.
There is a major inhabitant and the remnants of another group or pack they deposed. The major inhabitant originally came here to guard something precious and now stay as they are waiting for someone else to arrive. The major inhabitants should be Outsider prisoners that have gone native and the remnant group should be the altered human servitors of the former owner.

Ruin Name: The Echoing Halls
Description: The Echoing Halls is an ancient, crumbling ruin located deep within the wilderness of Nocturnis. Once a glorious temple and cultural center, it now stands as a monument to the past glories of a long-forgotten civilization. The architecture of the Echoing Halls reflects a beautiful, yet eerie combination of gothic and organic design elements, with twisted columns and arches that seem to grow out of the ground like the roots of ancient trees.
Major Inhabitants: The Forsaken The Forsaken are a group of Outsider prisoners who were captured by Kasu and his followers during the early days of Elysium. Over time, these prisoners have gone native, embracing the darkness of Nocturnis and forsaking their monstrous origins. They now dwell within the Echoing Halls, having taken it upon themselves to guard a precious artifact hidden within the ruins. This artifact, known as the Soulshard, is a fragment of Kasu's own essence, imbued with immense necromantic power.
The Forsaken are an enigmatic group, bound together by their shared history and their duty to protect the Soulshard. They are a formidable force, having honed their combat and magical skills in their time within Nocturnis. They await the arrival of someone they believe is destined to claim the Soulshard and harness its power for the greater good of Elysium.
Remnant Group: The Shadowbound The Shadowbound are the altered human servitors of the former owner of the Echoing Halls. Once loyal guardians and caretakers of the temple, they were twisted by the darkness that enveloped Nocturnis after the Outsiders' arrival. Now, they are shadows of their former selves, their minds and bodies warped by the corrupting influence of the Outsiders.
The Shadowbound are a tragic reminder of the past, their once-noble purpose now reduced to a bitter struggle for survival. They haunt the depths of the Echoing Halls, hiding from the Forsaken and eking out a meager existence amid the crumbling ruins.
Points of Interest:

• The Soulshard Chamber: A hidden chamber located deep within the Echoing Halls, housing the precious artifact guarded by the Forsaken. The chamber is protected by a series of complex magical wards and traps.
• The Hall of Whispers: A vast, echoing chamber that once served as a gathering place for the temple's visitors. The walls are adorned with intricate bas-reliefs depicting scenes from the long-forgotten civilization that built the temple.
• The Shadowbound Sanctuary: A subterranean refuge where the remnants of the Shadowbound dwell. The area is filled with makeshift shelters, shrines, and the remnants of their once-proud culture.
• The Forgotten Gardens: A series of overgrown courtyards and terraces that once served as the temple's lush gardens. Now, they are home to twisted, nocturnal flora and the occasional dangerous creature that lurks in the shadows.

Realm Name: Nocturnis
Geography: Nocturnis is a realm of dark beauty, approximately the size of Australia. The landscape is diverse, featuring vast obsidian plains, bone-white deserts, dense forests of shadowy trees, and great swamps that emit an eerie glow. Jagged mountains dominate the skyline, and the air is filled with the scent of magic and decay.
Climate: The climate of Nocturnis is mostly temperate with significant regional variations. The realm is perpetually shrouded in twilight, with the sky transitioning between deep indigo and a muted violet. This perpetual twilight provides a fitting environment for the creatures and denizens that call Nocturnis home.
Biomes and Flora: The biomes of Nocturnis are as varied as the realm itself. Obsidian plains are dotted with luminescent fungi that provide faint illumination, while bone-white deserts are home to hardy, skeletal cacti. The shadowy forests are filled with trees that have dark, twisted trunks and leaves that seem to absorb light. In the swamps, eerie will-o'-the-wisps float above the water, casting a dim glow on the twisted mangroves below.
Fauna: Nocturnis is home to many unique creatures, most of which are the result of Kasu's experiments. The realm is populated by various undead creatures, demihumans, and nightmarish beasts. Some of the more notable inhabitants include the Lichenthrope, a werewolf-like creature with the ability to control plant life; the Vampiric Chimera, a fearsome beast with the combined traits of various nocturnal predators; and the Reanimated Behemoth, a colossal undead monstrosity created by Kasu as a guardian for his realm.
Society and Culture: The inhabitants of Nocturnis are a diverse mix of races and cultures, many of which have been shaped by Kasu's experiments and influence. The society of Nocturnis values cunning, intelligence, and adaptability. The denizens often undergo voluntary body modifications and magical enhancements in the pursuit of knowledge and power.
Politics: Nocturnis is governed by a council of eight powerful necromancers known as the Ebon Conclave. They rule with a combination of cunning, magical prowess, and an iron grip on the realm's secrets. Each member of the council is a master of necromancy, and they all maintain their own research facilities, armies of undead, and legions of loyal followers.
Magic and Technology: Magic is an integral part of Nocturnis society. Necromancy, in particular, is widely practiced and is deeply intertwined with the realm's politics and culture. Technology is also present, with many advancements driven by Kasu's penchant for experimentation and body modification. Steam-powered machines and clockwork devices are often combined with magic to create fantastical inventions and enhancements.
Points of Interest:

• Kasu's Necropolis: A sprawling city of the dead, filled with tombs, crypts, and research facilities. It serves as the center of power for the Ebon Conclave and is the nexus of necromantic research in Nocturnis.
• The Fractal Sea Port: A bustling port city built around a massive harbor, connecting Nocturnis to the Fractal Sea and the other realms of Elysium.
• The Labyrinth of Shadows: A vast, subterranean network of tunnels and caverns, filled with traps, treasure, and terrifying creatures. It serves as a testing ground for Kasu's creations and a trial for ambitious adventurers.
• The Obsidian Citadel: A massive fortress carved out of a single piece of obsidian, home to an elite order

Hi, i Will start saying i probably don't have DID, i dont know. I Hope i am not offending anybody...but i felt like this community could maybe help me to understand what happened to me. (Even If this is a pretty short resume). Thank u ALL for your time and support....
When i was around 19 i started to date who would be my husband. I did used marijuana at the time. I remember one night we went to a bar, and then when we got home we started a fight. I don't remember what It was about but i felt like It wasnt me at all. Like i was watching this other person fighting with him, this person wanted him to feel guilty about something. It was odd. We married 4 years after we started dating, and It wasnt a smart move, since the relationship was problematic. We divorced after he claimed i cheated on him with an old friend of mine. I thought he was crazy because, aside our problems within the relationship, i did wanted to love him so badly, because he is such a Nice Guy. He didn't satisfied me sexually, but i thought since he was so good, and such a dear friend i wasnt going to get any better and i prefered things being like this. But i never cheated on him. He Said a Lot of times when we were fighting, i simply got out of the house and sometimes just appeared in the morning, saying i needed a walk after everything. I have no memories of that whatsoever.I Just remember going to sleep. I stopped smoking marijuana or doing any substance abuse. After the divorce, i spend the night in a friend home, and she Said she had to stay the night at work. She has a Guy roommate. I remember i Said good night to him and went to sleep at her bed. He was sleeping at the other bedroom. I cried till sleep, because i was really depressed by the breakup at the time. I woke up the next day with my genitals hurting, even my ass. I went home thinking, its hurting like i had rough sex all night long. But It was just a feeling. Later, my friend Said that the neighbour told her i had sex all night with this Guy, and he heard everything, and i was really enjoying. And asking him to do things to me. I started to ask myself if this things my ex Said could be true. I actually had proof short time later that i did went out after our fights. I started to fear myself. Like i didn't know what i was capable to do anymore, like ALL my thoughts that i wasnt really happy with him were controling my body. I never had other episodes of that, not that i am awere of. But sometimes people Tell me little things like "hey whats the name of that dude, you know the one who was always talking to you at the class". And i couldnt remember this person whatsoever, or that i talked to someone in that class at all. I went to a time where i thought i was going mad. But now i am happy with myself, but always wondering...what happened? Its scary. Like idk what some...part of me is capable to do. I dont have moments like idk how i get in somewhere or something like that. I Just sleep. Or i simply remember the time as something and then i have the prove that It wasnt. What was going on with me.......? 😭😭😭

advice is welcomed and encouraged. i’ve always had this fear of becoming a terrible person like those in my family. all of my life i tried my best to be helpful, kind and compassionate. while i do my best to forgive myself and let go of past mistakes, they honestly haunt me sometimes. like those times where i got angry and said cruel things. recently my ex best friend and i got into a huge fight. i felt like he was mad at me all day because there was tension and i kept overanalyzing everything i said because he seemed mad or upset sometimes.i told myself i was overthinking it cuz it seemed fine later on but at the end of the day he raised his voice at me telling me i need to calm down and watch how i talk to him. i didnt call him names and i was trying my best to be kind? idk like im not saying he made it all up or something. i could have had an attitude and not noticed but from my perspective in that moment i did nothing wrong & had no idea he was mad until he was raising his voice at me. tbh i tried to be patient but eventually lost it and said he thinks everyone is a big bully, which was pretty harsh. its just that his reaction caught me off guard and he went from always saying how grounded and calm i was to saying im always angry and triggered. once i became more aware of what i could do to help myself mentally, its been my top priority. i rarely get angry these days because of it like i’ve never been this happy in my life. i overthink but im a fairly positive person in my day to day like small things dont get me down. he isnt and acknowledges this. most of the time i felt like talking to him encouraged more negative thoughts in me. u are who u hang around type beat. but i loved him, i always will. before this i told myself to be patient during times it drained me bcuz thats my best friend and he just needs some time. anyways idk i didnt like being told i feel this way because i cant express this enough: i felt fine all day, i rarely get angry anymore. i laughed while explaining something over and over but it upset him because now im assuming it came off as condescending. but yeah ironically enough, him calling me triggered when i wasnt, triggered me lmao. but this isnt a typical feeling i have with him. i just didnt like him raising his voice at me and expecting me to apologize more than once while saying he handled it perfectly. it felt like he was projecting, calling me angry and triggered when he finds a new person to be mad at everyday. its almost like my brain said “triggered? i can show u triggered!” idk. he may have bpd as well, idk if thats at all relevant. anyways we just went at each other and it ended terribly. it always ends this way with us, we have known each other for 10 years so maybe its just time to close the chapter and stop pretending we dont know how it ends fr. but my problem is now i cant stop thinking im a fraud and hes right i speak to everyone terribly. everyone has bad moments but what if thats who i am? what if everyone else thinks i speak to everyone “like shit” too?? truthfully we both fucked up imo cuz i should've put my phone down when i got mad. but dude ive taken like 10000 "am i mean?" "am i bad person?" quizzes and keep reading endless articles about "how to tell if people secretly think ur mean." after i did that stuff i realized i was ruminating A LOT and try to replace the thoughts with other things like tv or songwriting.but then i think "no, if ur a bad person u need to know now" THEN i think "just try ur best to be nice and dont be reactive." idek if someone will read this but if u do, thank u cuz tbh i need to tell someone even if its a random reddit person

Hello everyone...
Anyone who has read my previous deleted post will know that both my biological father and stepmother have been treating like garbage and that my younger half-sister has been treated like a princess. Please forgive me that I have deleted the previous post because of being scared that my parents will find it. Well, here are some updates:
So, my stepmother has gotten worse. I will do all of my chores and she will have the audacity to complain about something small (for example: I will clean the sweep the floors and she will find a spot of dog hair and yell at me about not cleaning the floors properly).
A couple months ago, I was in a discord group chat with a group of my friends and one of them was talking about how bad my stepmother is (I believe that they were replying to one of my vent messages that I wrote a while before they replied). I wasn't involved in the conversation, meaning that I didn't agree nor disagree with them. One day, I left my phone at home on accident and my mom looked through my phone and saw the message, and got my dad involved in the situation and I was in trouble even though I wasn't part of it. And when I mean that she looked through my phone, I mean it. She looked through my messages with my friends, families, and got super mad when they looked at my pictures because I recorded them yelling at each other because they were getting really negative at each other and if one of them got physical, I would have used the video as evidence.
After my last soccer game, I asked my mom (I am referring my stepmother as mom because she is the closest thing as a mother than my biological mother even though she is toxic) if I could ride with her instead of riding the bus with my team. Boy, that was a mistake. She wanted me to look up at something for her and as I was showing her the picture, I got a notification from my half-brother that she absolutely hates. She got so mad about that I got a notification from him that she called my father to pull over (he was driving a different car) and they looked through my phone once again. They later accused me of planning on meeting my brother at my high school's football game. The thing is, at the time, I couldn't even drive at the time. How was I even supposed to get there? Walk at least 20 miles to the high school, oh heck nah. So, I got my phone taken again. They weren't even mad that I was using Instagram to text him because at the time, I wasn't supposed to have Instagram.
On my last post, I stated that my father was somewhat on my side. That has changed now. They both get pretty disappointed whenever I do something that they don't like. There are a few times where he defends me, but that is so rarely now. Even when I tell them that my younger sister has been kicking/hitting/throwing things at me, they get mad at me and telling me that I was the one who provoked her, in reality, I was doing nothing to provoke her.
They both acknowledge that I am bisexual, but my father is the only one who accepts it. My mother believes that I am in a relationship with my best friend, which is kind of normal for me to hear that because I spend a lot of time with her, and a bunch of people think that we are dating. They still don't accept anyone who is nonbinary/transgender, but they are being hypocrites because my nephew's stepfather is a trans man. They do accept that I wear masculine clothes, but my mother asks me whenever am I going to wear feminine clothes. I always reply with, "When I feel like it." Sure, I do have feminine clothes in my closet, but I feel very comfortable in wearing baggy clothes as I am very uncomfortable with my body, especially my chest area. A couple of weeks ago, they kept asking me why I am not going to prom this year and I told them that I just don't want to, but I really want to say that I want to wear a tuxedo instead of a dress that way I could be the 'man' for my best friend (I do have a thing for my best friend, but I can never tell her).
My mom has been complaining about my room being a mess and that I am so lazy. I am sorry but I am up at 6:00 getting my sister and myself ready for school, get done with school at 3:20, and then I have to practice until 5:30, and if possible, I will have to go to my sister's practice until 6:15. After that, I have to do my homework because I have four advanced classes (which is more than half of my classes) and each class as at least two assignments almost every night. I have to study, take notes, do homework, etc. Not only that, but I have to work outside, clean the house, feed the animals, take a shower, take care of my sister, and I am the lazy one? I am not allowed to have food in my room and my parents are both eating on their bed watching television.
On the bright side, I do have my driver's license. The bad side, I have two tracking apps on my phone that way my parents can see where I am. They have told me that I have to text them when I am leaving or I just arrived at a certain spot, if not, they will call me and yell at me, asking me where I am. I wish they would just look at the apps and see where I am because there are times where I am late for a place and texting them will make me very late as I am not a fast typer. They even have the audacity to call me while I am driving when I am not allowed to because it is illegal to call and drive where I live, and I am not old enough to have my phone near me while I am driving. They will get so mad when I don't answer, but when there were times where I answered, they yell at me for answering the phone.
Other than that, my family has gotten worse mentally. Two weeks ago, while I was practicing, according to my sister, both of our parents were arguing, and it was so bad to the point where my father slapped my mother. I wasn't notified until after my parents were talking nice to me and my dad telling me that they were not getting well together. I was beyond mad that my dad slapped my mother even though she has treated me poorly. I am not a big fan of my father being physical because he can actually cause damage (like bruising my brother and making me bleed when we were little). I don't know how they are managing this kind of situation, but I will be going away with my mother and sister to see my stepbrother (even though I don't have a very good relationship with him, I am assuming that this trip is just for my mother and sister even though she said that I will have fun).
That is my update on my life.... just one more year left...
By all means, I will be keeping this post since they don't know what reddit is nor my username for this because I changed it, so it is different than my other social media usernames. You can ask questions about anything; I will try and reply to them.

My dad died last year in January. I'm still mourning, but I'm making it. Anyways, my dad was very sick for basically my entire life. The last few years of his life, starting a little before COVID, he became very handicapped and essentially could not leave the house at all without somebody with him, so as a result he stayed home and lot and I went out. My dad did have friends on facebook and on the phone, but they never came to see him is the point I'm trying to get at.
Before he died he was in the hospital for a month, came home on hospice, and died two days later. His friends spoke (at the time) about how they knew he was in the hospital, one or two even mentioned how they thought about seeing him, but didn't. My dad made it clear to me a handful of times he's fine with whatever decision I make regarding arrangements.
But for some reason I feel worried he would be upset with me that I didn't give him a memorial service. I'm sure he wouldn't be and it's irrational, but what if? I'm content with my decision, but if he were to be upset with me for it I don't think I could live with it. The only people upset about it is his brother, but honestly, for some reason, that doesn't bother me that much. I don't know. Would y'all be mad if you had a kid in a situation like this and you didn't get a memorial service? I don't know, I guess I'm just looking for advice/support. I love and miss my dad, and I wouldn't want to do something to upset him from beyond the grave, especially since this decision is so unconventional.

Hi! I'm hunting for a bunch of pop vinyl for my collection to fill in some gaps, and I wanted to check here before I looked on resale sites. Please PM me if you have anything and are willing to sell! Here is the list as of now (in alphabetical order):
Adele

• Chasing Pavements - 7", 45 RPM, Single
• Cold Shoulder - 7", Single, 45 RPM
• Hometown Glory - 7", 45 RPM, Single, Stereo
• Hometown Glory - 7", 45 RPM, Single, Limited Edition
• Make You Feel My Love - 7", 45 RPM, Single
• Rolling In The Deep - 10", Record Store Day, Limited Edition
• Skyfall - 7", 45 RPM, Single

Allie X

• CollXtion I - 12", 33 ⅓ RPM, EP, Limited Edition
• Super Sunset - Analog - Cassette, Mini-Album, Limited Edition, Yellow

Aly & AJ

• Insomniatic - LP, Album, Limited Edition, Reissue, Grey & White Swirl
• Into The Rush - LP, Album, Limited Edition, Reissue, Clear w/Yellow Splatter
• Potential Breakup Song Explicit - 7", 45 RPM, Single, Stereo, Black & Red

Ariana Grande

• Break Up With Your Girlfriend, I'm Bored - 7", 45 RPM, Single, Limited Edition, Clear
• My Everything - LP, Album, Lavender
• Thank U, Next - 7", 45 RPM, Single, Limited Edition
• Stuck With U (w/ Justin Bieber) - 7", 45 RPM, Single, Window Cover
• Boyfriend (w/ Social House) - 7", 45 RPM, Single, Limited Edition

Billie Eilish

• All The Good Girls Go To Hell - Flexi-disc, 7", 45 RPM, Single Sided, Limited Edition
• Bad Guy - Flexi-disc, 7", 45 RPM, Single Sided
• Everything I Wanted - Flexi-disc, 7", 45 RPM, Single Sided, Single
• Party Favor - 7", Record Store Day, Single, Limited Edition, Pink
• You Should See Me In A Crown / Bitches Broken Hearts - 7", Limited Edition, Amber

Camila Cabello

• Crying In the Club - 7", 33 ⅓ RPM, Single, Limited Edition
• Romance - Album, Limited Edition, Red [Translucent Red], Single Sided, Etched

Charli XCX

• Boom Clap - 7", Single Sided, Single, Etched, Limited Edition
• Stay Away - 12", 45 RPM, Single, Promo, Stereo
• Sucker - LP, Album, Pink Marble
• Sucker - LP, Album, Mispress, Reissue, Pink Opaque
• True Romance - LP, Album, Reissue, Silver
• Vinyl [No Fun] - 7", 45 RPM, Sampler

Conan Gray

• Sunset Season - 10", 33 ⅓ RPM, EP, Reissue, Sea Glass & White Marble

Doja Cat

• Say So - 12", 45 RPM, Single, Coke Bottle Clear

Dua Lipa

• Dua Lipa - 3 x Vinyl, LP, Album, Complete Edition
• The Only EP - 12", 33 ⅓ RPM, EP

Gracie Abrams

• Minor - 12", EP

Halsey

• Color Therapy - (Manic) / Double Feature - 7", Single, Limited Edition, Stereo
• Colors - 7", 45 RPM, Single, Limited Edition, Numbered, Coke Bottle Clear
• Manic - LP, Picture Disc, Metallic Rainbow, Album, Deluxe Edition, Lenticular Cover
• Now Or Never - 7", 45 RPM, Single, Limited Edition, Promo
• Without Me - 7", 45 RPM, Single, Clear Blue

Janelle Monáe

• Dirty Computer - LP, 45 RPM, Album, Limited Edition, Neon Pink
• Dirty Computer - LP, 45 RPM, Album, Limited Edition, Special Edition, Stereo, Yellow, Lenticular

Jess Glynne

• Always In Between - LP, Album, Blue
• I Cry When I Laugh - LP, 45 RPM, Album
• This Christmas - 7", 45 RPM, Single Sided, Single

Kacey Musgraves

• Golden Hour - LP, Album, Picture Disc
• High Horse / Remixes - 10", 45 RPM, Maxi-Single, Limited Edition, White, 180-gram, Record Store Day Black Friday 2018
• Same Trailer Different Park - LP, Album, Club Edition, Reissue, Remastered, Stereo, Green Galaxy, 180g
• The Kacey Musgraves Christmas Show - LP, Album, Limited Edition, Red Translucent

Katy Perry

• Ur So Gay - 7", 45 RPM, Promo, Pink
• Waking Up In Vegas - 12", 33 ⅓ RPM, Single, Promo
• Witness - LP, Album, Limited Edition, Exclusive Cover

Kelsea Ballerini

• Spotify Singles - 7", Record Store Day, Single, Limited Edition
• The First Time - LP, Album, White

Kim Petras

• Turn Off The Light - LP, 45 RPM, Green Galaxy & Pink Galaxy, Album, Limited Edition

Lady Gaga

• Artpop - LP, Album, Original Pressing
• Born This Way - The Remix - LP, Compilation
• Joanne - LP, Album, Deluxe Edition, Limited Edition, Pink Fluorescent
• The Remix - LP, Compilation
• Rain On Me (w/ Ariana Grande) - 7", 45 RPM, Single, Limited Edition, Stereo, Yellow Translucent

Lana Del Rey

• Born To Die - LP, Album, Deluxe Edition, Repress
• Honeymoon - LP, Album, Red Translucent, 180g
• Honeymoon - LP, Album, Limited Edition, Red Translucent, Alternative Cover
• Love / Lust For Life - 7", Shape, Single, Limited Edition, Red Translucent Heart-Shaped
• Lust For Life - LP, Album, Limited Edition, Coke Bottle Clear
• NFR! - LP, Album, Limited Edition, Blue Translucent
• Norman Fucking Rockwell! - LP, Album, Limited Edition, Pink

Laufey

• Everything I Know About Love - LP, Album, Limited Edition, Blue [Dark], Alt Cover
• Typical Of Me - 12", 45 RPM, EP, Limited Edition, Clear

Lizzo

• Big GRRRL Small World - LP, Album, Special Edition, Purple
• Good As Hell - 12", 45 RPM, Single, Limited Edition, Clear
• Lizzobangers - LP, Album, Reissue, Unofficial Release, Red
• Paris / Faded - 7", Record Store Day, Numbered
• Truth Hurts - 12", 45 RPM, Single, Limited Edition, Baby Blue

Lorde

• Pure Heroine - LP, Album, Limited Edition, Reissue, Clear
• Tennis Court - 7", 45 RPM, Single
• The Love Club EP - 10", 33 ⅓ RPM, EP, Limited Edition

Melanie Martinez

• After School EP - 12", 45 RPM, EP, Blue
• Cry Baby - LP, Pink [Baby] Opaque, Blue [Baby] Opaque, Album, Deluxe Edition, Reissue
• Dollhouse EP - 12", EP, Record Store Day, Limited Edition, Numbered, Baby Pink / Translucent Blue Split
• Gingerbread Man - 12", 45 RPM, Single Sided, Single, Etched, Limited Edition, Apple Red
• K-12 - LP, Album, Limited Edition, Lilac

Miley Cyrus

• Bangerz - LP, Album, Record Store Day, Limited Edition, Numbered, Pink

Poppy

• Choke - Cassette, EP
• I C U (Music To Read To) - LP, Album, Limited Edition, White
• Time Is Up / In A Minute - 10", 33 ⅓ RPM, Shape, Single, Picture Disc

Rina Sawayama

• Cyber Stockholm Syndrome - 12", 45 RPM, EP, Limited Edition, Orange, 180g
• RINA - 12", Mini-Album, Yellow Butterscotch

Sabrina Carpenter

• Evolution - LP, Album, Limited Edition

SZA

• Ctrl - LP, Album, Limited Edition, Coke Bottle Clear
• Ctrl - LP, Album, Limited Edition, Reissue, Clear
• Ctrl - LP, Album, Limited Edition, Teal Marbled

Tate McRae

• The One Day LP - LP, Repress, Light Blue (Opaque)

Taylor Swift

• Fearless (Taylor's Version) - Cassette, Album
• Red - LP, Album, Limited Edition, Promo, Red Opaque, ACM
• Reputation - Cassette, Album, Limited Edition
• Teardrops On My Guitar - 7", Jukebox
• Love Story - 7", 45 RPM, Single, Jukebox
• Should've Said No - 7", Jukebox
• Picture To Burn - 7", Jukebox
• ME! (feat. Brendon Urie) - 7", 45 RPM, Single, Limited Edition, Sitting Cover
• ME! (feat. Brendon Urie) - 7", 45 RPM, Single, Limited Edition, Jean Jacket Cover

Hi first post I’m going to explain a bit about my home first, in 2019 I after a breakup moved back into my home, I grew up in the house I own now and purchased it from my parents when I was 21, growing up here the house was always haunted and had a lot of activity example: windows going up and down on there own, the storm door on the back of the house would unlocked and open, this one is rare but disembodied voices or men yelling,
So it was January 2019 had broken up with my ex my hood paying job had gone bankrupt and life was hard I moved back into the house to live alone, around this time life had been hard I was dealing with some health problems, the paranormal activity had always been kind of constant little things like doors opening, foot steps and a very uneasy feeling of being watched at night led me to leave the light on, tv running at moderate volume and I’d block my bedroom door when I went to sleep just to feel safe/help ignore the activity. I had been moved back in for about 3 months and one night at while I was alseep a voice woke me up I heard a little girl say hi pause hi hi my eyes still shut I assumed it was the tv then again Hi this time it sounded as if the voice was inches from my ear then Hiiiii in a happy kind of way I open my eyes the tv Is off. I check the room no one is in the room I check my entire house at 3am no one in it no one outside and a ghost little girl voice was not ever something any of us heard here. I never forgot that voice fast forward to may 2021 my daughter is born she’s very intelligent for her age stared saying mama dada around 5 months old I don’t remember when she started saying hi but the voice that woke me in 2019 was my daughter I feel like she knew how sad and lonely I was at this time in my life and knew i had went to bed that night very upset and just feeling like I should give up. Things changed after that I got a decent job then a year later opened a business met my now fiancée and found out we had a baby on the way just 11 weeks into dating and our little girl was born before our one year anniversary my business has grown substantially and my fiancée and I have an amazing happy relationship like we were literally made for each other and our daughter is just amazing. I feel like she knew her dada needed her that night lol
has anyone else had something like this happen??

When i was around 19 i started to date who would be my husband. I did used marijuana at the time. I remember one night we went to a bar, and then when we got home we started a fight. I don't remember what It was about but i felt like It wasnt me at all. Like i was watching this other person fighting with him, this person wanted him to feel guilty about something. It was odd. We married 4 years after we started dating, and It wasnt a smart move, since the relationship was problematic. We divorced after he claimed i cheated on him with an old friend of mine. I thought he was Crazy because, aside our problema within the relationship, i did wanted to love him so badly, because he is such a Nice Guy. He didn't satisfied me sexually, but i thought since he was so good, and such a dear friend i wasnt going to get any better and i prefered things being like this. But i never cheated on him. He Said a Lot of times when we were fighting, i was simply get out of the house and sometimes Just appear in the morning, saying i needed a walk after everything. I have no Memories whatsoever of thet. I Just remember going to sleep. I stopped smoking marijuana or doing any substwnce abuse. After the divorce, i spend the night in a female friend home, and she Said she had to stay the night at work. There was a Guy living with her. I remember i Said good night to him and went to sleep at her bed. He was sleeping at the other bedroom. I cried till sleep, because i was really depressed by the breakup at the time. I woke up the next day with my genitals hurting, even my ass. I went home thinking, its hurting like i had rough sex all night long. But It was just a feeling. Later, my friend Said that the neighbour told her i had sex all night with this Guy, and he heard everything, and i was really enjoying. And asking him to do things to me. I started to ask myself, If this things my ex Said could be true. I actually had proof short time later that i did went out after our fights. I started to fear myself. Like i didn't know what i was capable to do anymore, like ALL my thoughts that i wasnt really happy with him were controling my body. I never had other episodes of that, not that i am awere of. But sometimes people Tell me little things like "hey whats the name of that dude, you know the one who was always talking to you at the class". And i couldnt remember this person whatsoever, or that i talked to someone in that class at all. I went to a time where i thought i was going mad. But now i am happy with myself, but always wondering...what happened? Its scary. Like idk what some...part of me is capable to do. I dont have moments like idk how i get in somewhere or something like that. I Just sleep. Or i simply remember the time as something and then i have the prove that It wasnt. What was going on with me?

My sis, Sarah, has been in an off an on relationship with a guy named "Jeff" for 15 years. They're currently friend zoned, but he asked her to go on a trip with him out of state next week and the room he reserved only had a queen size bed. Sarah said she told Jeff they could go on the trip to heal their "friendship," but only if he would stop going out the week prior to their trip. Jeff's a 43 yo single male who lives alone in a house, works an executive office job, and is currently off work for about 2-3 months. Jeff has never been in a LT relationship with anyone but my sis. That's not to say that Jeff's shy or that he doesn't go out a lot because he DOES seem to go out a lot. Anyway, he promised Sarah that he wouldn't go out on dates, but there was no way he wasn't going to go out with his friends.
She hasn't been happy that he's gone out every night since he asked her to go on the trip. I think it's been about 5 nights in a row. But, Sarah said Jeff has a habit of calling her and telling her he's going out, then he'll name some person she doesn't know that he's going with, and say he won't be out late and he'll call her when he's home. He rarely does what he says and then he has some excuse for why he didn't call her.
TONIGHT: she called me asking for my opinion about what he told her tonight and I'm not sure if I'm the right person to ask because I think the guy is a 100% a jerk. Jeff called her at 5:30 pm tonight. She said she answered and before he could speak said, "Let me guess. You're calling to tell me you're going out tonight and not to call because you'll be out." He said, "That's amazing, how did you know?" Duh. He then said that he's wasn't going out but that he invited a friend over to his house just to listen to some vinyl records. Sarah asked a bunch of questions and basically he said he had no other plans with his friend "David," except sitting in his living room, listening to records and drinking whisky together. No food. No sports games. Just him and some married dude she'd never heard of supposedly in his late 30s - 40 yo sitting on the couch with Jeff in the living room, sipping whisky and playing records at night. Now, call me suspicious because this man literally cheated on Sarah with a woman on NYE and lied to her face about it. Sarah only found out when she showed up at his house to surprise him, only to see a woman walking into his house. The woman stayed with Jeff overnight. Sarah and Jeff broke up. What's the consensus here? Is this guy lying to her again and had a woman lined up tonight or is it totally normal dinner time behavior for a single dude in his 40s to invite over another dude in his 40s to listen to records while sitting on the living room couch together while sipping whisky? Sarah said Jeff swore he was really having a dude over, but they were planning to spend several hours in his house doing nothing but drinking and listening to records together.
I'm sorry, but I just don't see that as average behavior. It totally seems like a booty call date night for Jeff whether it's with a woman or another dude. BTW, when Sarah told Jeff I offered to go over and take photos of whoever was meeting him tonight, he canceled his plans with "David." That's a huge red flag, right? I told her he is totally gaslighting her, and Jeff told her I'm a homophobe or something like that because I said he was either lying to her or he's in the closet. What's the consensus? Should I mind my own business or tell her she needs to cancel that trip and never speak to that jerk again? I think she'll listen to me, but I seriously could use some feedback because I don't want to tell her something isn't normal if this is something single guys in their late 30s to mid 40s do with other single/married guys. (Nope. I don't see it.)

Hello guys, a bit on me if you'd like: I'm a person who's always been fond for writing, but never really had my hand in it though, in fact, I wrote this incomplete should-have-been series a year ago, but never really completed it. I've only dabbled in it for a bit, writing scraps and throwing them away, but this is the only thing I found that was noteworthy and decided to share it, it's a copy-paste directly from the writing program, but I cleaned it up a bit of course, anyway, I really hope you guys enjoy!
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You don't know who I am, or where I come from, you don't know anything, but if you're reading this that's good, it means you're alive, and maybe the world is better, maybe it's enjoyable, and there are parks again, and kids laughing and cheering. But that's all a maybe, an outcome with an unfair possibility of not happening, but I guess it makes sense, someone decided to destroy the world, and with the technology we had, it probably wasn’t that hard. What happened? well, I don't really know, all I know is that the world is falling apart, it's cracking, small cracks are apparent in almost every surface I come across that's been untouched or unmoved for a while, and they aren't normal cracks, they have a dim white glow, when I say dim I mean almost non-existent but the glow was still there nonetheless, and it feels like the world isn’t as bright, the world just lost all its life, all the grays got greyer and every other color looks dull and monotonous, but that’s just what came about.
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After the first day, all available power disappeared, it was an exposition, a cardinal signal foreshadowing the apocalyptic future yet to come, of course, people started to panic. after one week the water shut off, at this point people had started to get irritable, and heated arguments were becoming a much too common thing to see in a lonely town like mine, then the third week hit, it's when the cracks became noticeable, it's also when people were being discovered, dead people, not many in the first few days, only two or three found a day. Soon enough people had run out of supplies, it's not like people were restocking the stores so no one could get any food or drink.
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The streets were littered with bodies, most died from asphyxiation or gunshots, which was unlike the first killings, the first body found had his throat ripped out and his guts spilled, yet there was no blood anywhere on the body and no signs of a struggle, although I noticed this, I paid little attention to it. Nothing happened after that, aside from me staying in the basement which held enough food and water to sustain me for about a month and then some if I rationed carefully. It sucked in there, I had to have the little lamp in there off most of the time because of the lack of power, and the battery was already three-quarters full when I got down there, but I managed for thirty-two painfully slow and lightless days, then I emerged into my home.
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I saw what I had expected, shattered glass everywhere, tables turned on their sides, and everything else characteristic of a ransacking, but I was not expecting to find a body stuck in a wall, his waist and below stuck in the wall, the wall wasn't broken, it was like something had made the wall a liquid, stuck him in, and made the wall solid again. I didn’t see any fractures in the wall's surface aside from the small squiggly white cracks that remained on almost every surface. At that point I realized I hadn't shed a single tear or even once felt the need to vomit, I felt ashamed of myself, I felt emotionless and lifeless, I could have gone ahead and made my morning coffee and watched the news without giving a care in the world about the body that lay in my home… too bad there was no coffee, or tv.
10/16/2027 Stock:
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• Food: Can of Beans(6x cans). Can of Mangos (2x cans). Jack Link’s Beef Jerky (2x bags).
  
• Drink: Water(4x bottles). BodyArmor(3x bottles). (Empty Large Canteen).
  
• Items: Empty Large Canteen. Flashlight. Extra Batteries.(2x)
  
• Weapons: Colt 1911 (2x 8-Round Magazines, .45 ACP(44x)
  Remington Model 700(2x 3-Round Magazines, .308 WIN(18x) Hunting Knife
  

Note-1: After digging through my dad's closet and finding a false floorboard that always creaked, I gained access to two guns, a Remington Model 700 and a Colt 1911, and their corresponding ammunition.
Note-2: due to me living here for long enough I had the insight into areas of suspicion, an example is the floorboard, it’s unlikely I’ll get the luck to find hidden spaces like that again, but maybe when I’m skillful enough at looting, finding hidden spaces would become more common.
10/16/27
I gathered all of my supplies and put them in a backpack, aside from the M1911 and the 700, I put the M1911 in a holster on my hip and slung the 700 on my back, after I was ready, I left, the first thing I noticed was the lack of wildlife, I don’t live in a big city, it’s just a somewhat sparsely housed town, there’d always be an acre or two between homes at the very least, and birds were usually everywhere, but now I only see a few, only hear a few chirps here and there, I haven’t seen any terrestrial animals yet aside from insects, it seems there are fewer insects though as well. After I left my home I stood on the doorstep, I looked around at the dull scenery, I used to step outside to just look at the trees and the sky, but now everything is unappealing, I took the steps through the grass to my beat up car, all the glass was broken, I opened the door, sat inside and turned the ignition, nothing happened, as I expected cars don’t work anymore either, which put me on edge, what if guns don’t work anymore? But I silenced that thought, I still have a knife if guns won’t work.
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I stepped out of the car and went to the trunk to see if anything was left of value. I opened it and found nothing, with no new supplies I decided the first place I’ll go to is the gas station, there was bound to be something there, even if it was only a little something. I started my two-mile trek to the gas station, I hiked a lot before all of this happened, two miles was nothing at all. There was a trail not too far from my house that I and my dog used to walk at, my dog died a few months back luckily enough, I wouldn’t have been able to support him now, not with the looming fear of starvation following me around. I had walked about one mile when all of a sudden everything went quiet, birds stopped chirping, the wind stopped blowing.
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I got off the road and hid in a bush, I heard things moving, rustling the brush, stopping every now and then, almost as if they were looking for something, I’d hear what sounded like someone taking a knife to glass, it pained my ears and I felt they would start bleeding if the sounds lasted a second longer. I never saw them, I don’t know if it was because they were behind me or on the other side of the road in a ditch or something, but after 10 minutes it went away, nature’s sounds returned after 5 minutes, I had to wait another 10 minutes, my body, shocked and stiff, wouldn’t allow me to move. I stood and dusted myself off, since I didn’t know where the sounds came from I just started searching on the opposite bank of the road, no signs of anything being there, no tracks, no broken twigs, no blood.
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I thought I had gone insane while wallowing in my lonesome, but then I remembered the birds reacted to whatever it was, or whatever they were, I don’t know how many there were, it constantly alternated between the sound of one of them and the sound of an uncountable amount. Happy to get out of the area, I continued to my destination. When I got to the gas station there was only one broken window, and a body with characteristics of the first killings laying on the floor near the register, a broken knife next to him. I looted his body without remorse or disgust. I found a pack of cigs and pocketed them there was also a scrunched paper.
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I read it once, then twice, and even a third time, my stomach churned and felt like it was about to implode, it looked to be a message from the man’s daughter saying how much she loved him and she wants him to be safe because of all the “bad people”, a smiley face sat at the top of the paper, I flipped the paper over to find distinctly different handwriting, presumingly the man’s, it detailed how he was sorry, as well as how he’d been at the station for 3 days, said he couldn’t leave because if he did they would get him, his last words, being written hastily were hardly legible, but I could read enough to understand that the cracks in the world that appeared in the station were much more distinct than in other places, and those things could come in, but they were just staring at him tauntingly. I could barely hold myself back from puking, it wasn’t hard to look at someone’s corpse, it had no effect on me, but the second I realized that man had a family, and had ambitions and potential… I continued looking around the store. I realized there would be more loot on dead bodies because people don’t want to touch them. After looking through all the shelves and in all of the back rooms I found a lighter under the lip of a bottom shelf, lucky me.
10/20/27
I had hoped there would be more, more of everything, but there’s nothing, I’ll put another list of my supplies soon but at this rate, I won't make it to see next week, every single store has been ransacked completely, all the bodies always have empty already eaten foods, I don’t know what to do. I’ve not seen a single soul, everything is dead, not even the insects anymore, the birds are gone too, maybe it has something to do with the cracks, they’ve progressed enough to where they are visible from up to a foot away, I’ve had to hide from those screeching things a couple of times, still haven’t seen them yet, I realized when the wind abruptly stops they’ve appeared, it’s a good thing the birds were still singing those few days ago or I wouldn’t have realized the pattern, I’d probably be dead, just like everyone else.
10/23/27
Nothing much has happened, I’ve seen a bird or two, and it’s nice to know that at least for a little bit longer animals will still be alive, I’ve theorized that whenever I hear the noise it’s only one entity doing it, I think this because I’ve heard an exceptionally large commotion a way off, I assume there was two there. Fortunately, the screeching has only happened near me only once, I’ve heard them in the distance though, in the night while I sleep I hear them far off, searching, waiting for their sinister roulette to hit, hoping, anticipating the kill. I decided to head to the(SO AND SO) I’ll update this then or if something happens along the way.
10/26/27
I’ve come across a hunting stand in the woods, it’s a jackpot. There’s too much stuff to carry, there was a map too so I’ll mark the general location once I find a landmark to orient myself with, I’ll put a list after this log but there’s more to talk about. The fragmentation, It’s what I’ve come to call the cracks, is still spreading of course. I’m starting to see a noticeable separation between the two edges of some individual fragments, still not big enough to stick anything in but instead of being small white lines spread wildly around, They’ve become a prominent feature of every object, I’ve been to some areas where the fragmentation is severe, white snakes slithering across any surface they can find, trying to fracture this world, they do end up doing it I suppose, that’s how the screechers exist, but the breaks only hold for so long until they close. That’s what I think happens at least, it’s not like I’ve seen them yet, and as long as I continue to find zones with little to no fragmentation as I have been, I think I’ll be fine, I just hope my luck doesn’t run out.
PUT A LOG HERE
10/29/27
I think I’m near (VarA), I should be out of the woods soon, but for now, I’ve got my bedroll down and am cooking some beans over the fire I’ve made, I’ll be fed for a while.
This may sound stupid but the fire keeps going out, the flames just disappear, no more heat. The charcoals lose their ember, everything becomes the regular temperature of the air around me. It still works though, there is no reliable frequency I can predict so sometimes it’ll die out as soon as I light it, and other times it takes an hour or two.
11/02/27
()()(())()()(()()()…I was walking when the wind stopped, the biggest problem for me at first was the fact there was nowhere to run, no depressions to dip in, I heard what sounded like a sharp camera shutter that immediately followed the deadening silence, the second I heard it I ran, a branch caught the strap of my bag, pulling it away from me. I couldn’t care though, all I could do was run, the trees vied for me, closing in. I was tripping and falling over and over, nearly impaling myself on the branches of trees I could hardly see.
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I felt a push and fell over, I knew that running couldn’t have saved me, I knew it was there, right behind me, I couldn’t hear it though, I could only hear my breath but it wasn’t like that, I couldn’t hear it because it wasn’t making any noise, I thought for sure it would be screeching out for as long as it’s astral body would allow it to, but it didn’t, in fact, it lay on the ground, the white body, which looked as if it consisted of bolts of white grey lightning and string, pulsated, morphing into a consuming goop of unlight, and then back into it’s shimmering somewhat humanoid form, that process took a minute. I too lay there, my foot just a stone toss away from its hungry hand, the tips of its fingers eager to detach from its parent body, but was disallowed. I lay on the ground staring at it, and for some reason, it didn’t move, I took that opportunity to regenerate as much of my energy as possible, but from fear of losing my safety, I stood up slowly, emphasizing my steadiness, even though it probably detects me through a different means, I shouldn’t let it hear me, some caution is better than no caution at all.
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I rose and took a gradual step back, but my back was met by a thick, gnarled arm of wood, as if that wasn’t enough, I had also stepped on a branch, probably from the same tree. The screecher stirred, its spectral head raised, maybe it used its sight for precision. It tried to raise the rest of its body, but its foot was stuck in a root, not like it was trapped under it, its foot was fused with the root. I guess it noticed it too because immediately the tone of its body got dimmer, I knew it was going to morph into the darkness, to free itself, to kill me. I took the chance I had, the 10s of seconds I had left were diminishing, and every second I wasted increased my chance of death. I turned, and immediately crouched and ducked under my guard that was the trees arm, I didn’t expect to have the keenness I had during that run, I’ve never been a particularly agile person, but in that moment I could see, without any blur caused by my abrupt motions, ducking and weaving through what seemed like the thickest forest I had ever seen.
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I collapsed after only minutes of running, which was unsurprising though, the previous running and endless walking cost me an obscene amount of energy, taxing my body till the end, draining it of its power. I could hear them now, screaming, coming for me, it shouldn’t take as long as it’s taking them, but I guess they’re fighting each other, that’s why there is noise. I turned around and waited, I saw the two of them approaching me, they kept pushing and shoving each other, they were walking so slowly, as if they were sapped for energy, and the density of their body was low, it seems most of the strings of white grey abandoned the parent body for some reason, and with every step they took a few more disappeared, falling off into the ground. One of the entities fell to the ground, and the second took the opportunity and fell on top of it, tearing it to shreds, and repairing its own body with its meal, it seems it was only able to regain a menial percentage of its power back though, it’s speed only bolstered for a minute or so, still not fast enough to keep up with a hasty back step.
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It fell to the ground after a while, and everything below its torso disappeared shortly after, it desperately sunk its claws into the soil, pulling with its full ability, trying to get me. It disappeared, shortly after, leaving quite a thick strand of vibrant white light. I pondered whether picking it up or not would be a good idea, in the end, I decided a little glowing string couldn’t hurt me that much. I plucked it from its place on the ground and immediately felt a strong, radiant sensation, a pulsating heat and cold piercing my body as if it was filling me with energy, I dropped it, even holding it for a few seconds easily removed most of the exhaustion from my body, I wanted to grab it again for another hit of pure energy, but I felt if I did I would explode, my body was not meant for this type of power, although it seemed capable enough to absorb what I presume was a little bit of it, I think it’s capacity is quite high, and powering what was but a little bit of myself was probably the least intensive thing this string could do.

So some back story in this in December of 2020 I tried to kill myself like a week before Christmas. Found out I have BPD, severe anxiety, severe depression, bipolar, PTSD. The doctors told me while I was 51/50 in the psych ward at our hospital and put me in Lithium and Seroquel. I was DRUGGED up like I had no emotions could literally not care about anything.
Well I got out and my immediate family came to my parents place for Christmas, kind you my brother and sister had just had kids and it was a relatively new experience and I was just so uncomfortable being in my own skin that all the new freaked me out. Sounds weird but I don’t really like kids anyway.
But I pushed through it, because I knew that’s what they wanted. But it got to the point where I was crying because I was so overwhelmed that I just had to leave. And on Christmas Eve I left right before dinner and drove two hours to my boyfriends house. My sister tried to convince me I didn’t need him and that I didn’t need the meds and all this shit about how it’s all in my head. Which my ex husband did to me and basically gaslit me our entire relationship. Now if you know about BPD the favourite person syndrome hits me heavy, has since I was 12. And my boyfriend is my favourite person.
Basically lost my relationship with my mother, and siblings. Mainly no one knew how to approach me because I was learning about myself and discovering my mental health ticks. So I tried to reach out a month or so after just like ‘Hey how are you doing’s?’ my sister sent one word responses until October off 2021 decided she couldn’t talk to me anymore because she was angry for the way I was living my life.
Like what the fuck does that even mean? So I respected her wishes and took her off all social media platforms because if she’s mad about the way I’m living my life why would I keep her on my socials? Right? Wrong. She got mad at me for it and says it made everything worse. So now I’m to the point where it’s two years this October have not talked to her or seen her she now has me blocked on socials and is telling our family that I’m making it all about me. And my family is trying to justify her saying she was going through her own things mentally and she stopped talking to our other siblings. Except she’s good now and she’s been talking to our siblings even though they’ve actually done and said shit to her for her to be mad about. Sorry for the long rant but UGHHHHHH I’m so tired of this and I’m ready to just stop caring but she was my favourite sibling.

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Just because you’re transported to another world, doesn’t mean you’ll escape from your pain.
Abused by her parents, thirteen-year-old Frances only wants to be safe and for her life not to hurt so much. And when she and her class are transported to the magical world of Durannon to fight the monsters invading the human kingdoms and defeat the self-titled Demon King, Frances is presented with a golden opportunity. If she succeeds, Frances will have the home she never had. If she fails, Frances will be summoned back to the home she escaped.
Yet, despite her newfound magic and friends, Frances finds that trauma is not so easily lost. She is dogged by her abuse and its physical and invisible scars. Not only does she have to learn magic, she has to survive the nightmares of her past, and wrestle with her feelings of doubt and self-loathing.
If she can heal from her trauma, though, she might be able to defeat the Demon King and maybe, just maybe, she can find a home for herself.
Teaser: Martin and Ginger are thrust into an unenviable role.
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Despite his curly crimson beard and heavyset build King Jerome was quite a mild-mannered man. His soft chin and cheekbones lent the man a face more inclined to smiling than scowling.
He was doing both, which wasn’t something Martin nor Ginger had seen that. His eyes were narrowed and brow furrowed. His lips however were tilted in a wry smile.
“We did give you the authority to make treaties with Queen Janize directly, but these are harsh terms for us, Sir Martin, Lady Ginger.”
Martin had set up their mirror so he and Ginger were standing in front of it. He dipped his head, placing one hand over his chest. “I am afraid I don’t see any other option, Your Majesty. You know of the strategic situation and the dragons that Thorgoth has under his command. We didn’t want the civil war in the first place, but now we must end it or risk annihilation.”
Queen Forowena, despite her limp, was pacing around her chair. One hand clenched her chin. “We don’t even know if Janize will agree to meet with us in the first place. Though, that’s beside the point. You want to know if we ought to approve of this at all.”
“Yes ma’am, I mean, Your Majesties.” Ginger swallowed. “More importantly, we want to know if there are any terms you are demanding Queen Janize to accept.”
The eyes of Forowena and Jerome met. No words passed between them. Jerome only raised a thick eyebrow and Forowena nodded, before turning to the pair. “No, but I do have one question. Did Elizabeth and Frances tell you about my infertility?”
Martin winced, whilst Ginger coughed officiously. “Elizabeth did, Your Majesty. She said that she will take full responsibility for that breach, and states that trying to keep the secret was impossible given the nature of her mission and our involvement in it.”
Nodding, Martin braced himself and clasped his hands behind his back. “Which brings the question, Your Majesty, with all due respect, did you intend for us to assassinate Queen Janize and her child?”
Forowena and Jerome again glanced at one another. This time, Jerome was giving his wife a knowing smile and the Earl was pinching her nose.
“To speak truthfully, Sir Martin, Lady Ginger, we were not sure ourselves whether we wanted to kill Janize if she was pregnant. We have continued to debate the question and its consequences,” said Forowena.
Jerome grimaced. “What we knew for sure was that Erisdale had to be put to siege. Now, I argued that my sister should be spared as with her child.”
“And I argued that Janize and her child were a threat to our rule and our chosen successors. I don’t want to kill them for both moral and practical reasons, but I was not sure how to neutralise them.” The Earl ran a hand through her hair and glanced at her husband. “Dear, I believe that we can accept most of the terms that Martin and Ginger have offered our behalf except for the second point.”
The king took her hand, running his scarred fingers over Forowena’s knuckles “You are correct my dear. We will allow Janize's child to enter the line of succession, but we have chosen our successors.”
Martin did his best to keep his expression neutral. “Your Majesty, I don’t understand. There’s no other direct descendant of House Grey left.”
Forowena sighed, her eyes meeting Martin and Ginger’s. “No. That’s why after very careful thinking, we planned to appoint our successors. We have even talked to all the other lords and ladies who support us and even our kingdom’s most powerful mages. That’s why there’s no way we can fully accept that second condition. It would be impractical if not impossible to get them to switch their support.”
Martin frowned. He suddenly recalled a call where his mothers and sister had given him a very strange look. They seemed oddly proud, even when they’d just been talking about family gossip.
Jerome nodded, “That and we would still be at war with Alavaria. A child successor would be inherently less appealing, and especially one underneath the influence of Queen Janize at that.”
Rubbing her temples, Forowena drawled, “It’s also why Janize and her child are such a threat. Unless Janize formally renounces her claim, she’d always be able to make a bid for the throne through her child. Not to mention she could just influence the throne through her child if he or she becomes ruler of Erisdale.”
Ginger coughed into her fist. Lifting her chin, she glared defiantly at the mirror. “With all due respect, Your Majesties, it would be better than continuing this pointless civil war. So long as we execute Darius and strip the rest of the Traditionalists of their power, who cares if Janize has some influence over her child? She won’t be able to harm Alavari in Erisdale, or affect lasting change. We’ll still be here. We’ll watch her and if she goes too far we will have Queen Titania’s Alavaria assisting us.”
Martin narrowed his eyes. Forowena and Jerome were exchanging looks again. Both were smiling at each other, but the ends of their lips were curled into just a bit of a smirk.
“Your Majesties, perhaps you can enlighten us on who you decided to be your successors? If they are not a very popular choice, maybe we can accept Janize’s terms.” The knight watched the king and queen carefully as his words hung in the air. He watched as King Jerome blinked, tried to avert his gaze, before forcing himself to look him in the eye. He noted how Queen Forowena forced her features into an expressionless mask.
Martin felt a cold shiver run through the very core of his being. Unconsciously he grabbed Ginger’s hand. His fiance blinked, tuning to look at him with wide eyes. Martin swallowed.
“That is, unless for some insane reason you’ve chosen me and Ginger?”
The queen let out a small breath, while trying to keep her neutral expression. Jerome’s shoulders sagged and he patted Forowena’s shoulder. “Told you he’d figure it out.”
Ginger’s head whipped back to face the royal couple. “Wait, what? Impossible. I’m a commoner. A former convict!”
Forowena’s eyes narrowed and her voice rose. “You’re also popular with the people, one of our national heroes. If your little rebuke to us was any indication, you also are loyal not to Erisdale’s monarchy, but our country and people. As for the matter of your commoner background, you’re marrying Martin and you know what that means.”
Ginger hands clasped behind her head, almost screamed, “Yes, I am marrying into a distant relation of the Royal Family and one of the founding noble houses of Erisdale. I was ready for that! You’re asking me—us to become King and Queen of Erisdale!”
“Yes.” Forowena growled, bitter tears wetting her eyes. “And we would never do so if there was no other option, Lady Ginger, but I can’t conceive a child!”
Jerome’s hand reached over to squeeze his queen’s shoulder. “And there’s no way I’m divorcing my queen. I am a man of my word and I vowed to be with Forowena until death do us part. That won’t change.”
Martin coughed to clear his throat and crossed his arms. “Then why didn’t you just have a surrogate give birth to your child, Your Majesty? I know it would be shameful but did you consider that we may not want to be king and queen?”
The king blinked, looking a little like an owl caught by torchlight. Forowena grimaced. “I did discuss this with Jerome, but I couldn’t quite convince him. You do have a good point, Sir Martin. However, even if Jerome did finally agree to father a child with a surrogate, we would still want you and Ginger to become the next King and Queen.”
“Right, potential child ruler. Not good for Erisdale,” Ginger muttered.
Forowena grimaced. “That and how many children could Jerome father? He cannot simply start fathering children haphazardly. More importantly, children are vulnerable. Even if by some miracle I could bear children, I would push for you both to be added in the line of succession.”
Jerome nodded solemnly. “Neither of us are willing to risk the fate of Erisdale on a child, even if it was our own. Considering that our original discussion was about the potential for Janize’s child to inherit, I think you see our point.”
Ginger, biting the tip of her thumb, yanked her hand out of her mouth. “We couldn’t have been that popular a choice, though…right?”
Forowena grinned. “You weren’t everybody’s first choice, but you were on the lips of many and once we started to seriously press those who were hesitant, they agreed you two were the best option. They even pledged to support you.”
Ginger glanced at her husband, but he was still crossing his arms. He’d gone so still for a moment she wondered if he was breathing. Then her mind caught up with her.
“Every lord and lady under your command agreed on us?” she stammered.
“Including your sister Mara, Martin,” said Jerome.
Clutching her hands, Ginger took a deep breath. “But why not Lady Edana—
“Of Erlenberg and not Erisdalian,” said Forowena.
“Frances!”
Jerome shook his head, wincing. Forowena sighed. “Otherworlder and clearly too close to Prince Timur to make her look out for Erisdale’s interest.”
Ginger pressed a hand over her mouth, her free hand clenching into a fist and opening. “Shit. This…this is really happening.”
Martin closed his eyes and nodded. “I believe so. My…personal feelings aside, I will do my duty. But what do we tell Janize?”
“That we’ve appointed our own successors, but her child will be in the line of succession, with our successors house to take precedent over her own. That might complicate the succession law for the future, but that can be resolved in time.” Forowena snapped her fingers. “Ah, and we will also make it a condition that the amount wealth and land confiscated will be determined on the basis of who the Traditonalists persecuted and to provide compensation for property damaged by their forces in the war.”
Martin and Ginger exchanged a glance. “Including Alavari, Your Majesty?” Martin asked, his voice quiet.
Jerome nodded. “That is the intention, Sir Martin. Now…I believe you and your fiance have much to discuss. If that is all, you may request to be dismissed.”
“We do wish, Your Majesties,” said Martin, bowing. Ginger mirrored her fiance and the images of the king and queen faded.
Promptly walking over to one of their chests, Ginger fished into it and drew out a bottle of wine.
“Care for glass?” she asked as she fetched a goblet.
Martin sat down heavily onto his bedroll. “Yes. We…well nothing is guaranteed. I mean we haven’t even gotten married yet.”
Ginger poured herself and her fiance two glasses and handed one to Martin. “But we pledged to after the war, and so have the other lords and ladies of Erisdale. Damnit, of course Frances, Elizabeth and the others would support us, but everybody else?”
“It’s unexpected, but now that I think about it, most people wouldn’t want to be named heirs to Erisdale. It’ll be a hard job rebuilding this kingdom after the war and essentially starting a new dynasty.”
Sitting down, Ginger sipped from her glass. “Dynasty. Fuck, I’ll have to do something about my family.”
“Give your parents a stipend and nothing else.” Martin pursed his lips. “Of course, if you don’t want to be queen, Ginger, you can just—”
His fiance leant against his shoulder. “Finish that sentence and I will smack you. We’re in this together, Martin.”
“I know and I love you. I just wanted to make sure.” Martin took a deep gulp of wine and swallowed hard. “Hopefully, this is the last of the big responsibilities we get.”
Ginger snorted. “I would not bet on it my dear knight.”
Her fiance chuckled, before his lips pinched together. “Promise that you’ll never start calling me Your Majesty, please.”
Wrapping her arm around the blonde man, Ginger smiled. “You’ll always be my shining knight, Martin. Nothing will change that.”
“Thank you, Ginger.”
Pulling her feet off the table where Janize’s mirror was and sliding them back into slippers, Leila crossed her arms. “How many years since you’ve seen your brother?”
“Not since the civil war started, so about two years.” Janize smiled gave Leila a peck on the cheek. “Honestly, I am both irritated and a little proud of Jerome. I didn’t expect him to hold out, much less turn the tables on me. I always teased him when we were younger. He was too honorable, to the point that he was dumb. I suppose he just needed to find the right group of people to help him along. How long before the meeting by the way?”
Leila glanced at the high noon sun outside. “Not long now. I’ve also redoubled the security spells and checked the room.”
Janize nodded serenely. “Good. Anything else you can think of with regards to the conditions we have and their terms?”
The Otherworlder tapped her fingers on her arm. “Well, it’s not exactly something they demanded, but it might come up. They probably will demand compensation for the Alavari that we’ve been experimenting on. It’s probably why they demanded land and wealth from our rebelling nobles.”
“Pardon?”
Leila frowned, meeting Janize’s narrowed grey eyes. “I mean, it’ll be hard to argue with them. They’ve captured several of the labs and have our research notes—”
Janize raised her hand, her usually relaxed brow now furrowed. “Leila, what are you talking about? What do you mean by labs and experiments?”
The Otherworlder’s eyes widened and she found herself sitting up ramrod straight. “Um, is this a particularly amusing prank of yours?”
“We are minutes away from a critical meeting. Why would I joke about this with you now?” Janize hissed.
Leila blinked and slowly shook her head. “You’re kidding me. There’s no way you could have not been aware of this. The castles and labs were garrisoned with army troops and Red Order mages.”
“Leila this is the first time I’ve heard about these labs and castles—” Janize grimaced as the mirror began to glow, the sign that a call was coming. “Oh dear. Oh dear. I…I suppose I will have to request to be informed.” Settling herself, the queen touched the mirror and watched as King Jerome, Queen Forowena, Elizabeth, Ayax, Martin and Ginger appeared.
“Hello Janize,” said Jerome, coolly.
Janize smiled without mirth. “Greetings, Jerome. I must begin this meeting with a bit of a somewhat incredulous confession. But please bring me up to date on what exactly has been going on in the labs you have found that were apparently operated by my forces?”
The queen’s smile thinned as sceptical scowls and narrowed eyes met her question. Ayax blinked, tail whipping side to side. “You’re joking right?”
Janize cut before the stunned looking Reformists could ask another question. “I wish I was, but I was just informed by Leila here that they did exist. Speaking of which, how did you come to know about them, Leila? This is not something discussed in my palace.”
A grim, almost haunted look came over Leila’s face. “I found out about it recently as well. A few months ago, Master Scarlet of the Red Order requested Otherworlder assistance in defending their outposts and castles. They had no strategic value so we pressed her and she told us they were magical research laboratories and they couldn’t move the research easily. After that meeting, Earl Darius tried to convince me, saying that it would please Janize if I sallied forth. I wouldn’t normally have believed him, but our situation was so desperate I thought it made sense. I started to prepare a counterattack, but then it didn’t matter anyway because you folks in the Lightning Battalion started to attack them and there is no way in hell we would survive a fight with a full army division.”
Taking a deep breath, Elizabeth tried her best to get her own temper and confusion under control. “You mean you weren’t told what was going on in there? When did you find out about the children?”
“Our standing orders were to take Alavari prisoners of war and hand them over to the Red Order. So I figured—” Leila dropped her arms to her side. “Hold on. Children? What the fuck are you talking about? I thought they were experimenting with prisoners of war and criminals?”
A cold snarl twisting her normally serene expression, Ayax rose to her feet. “You Traditionalists haven’t even been fighting the Alavari! How could you have gotten prisoners of war? And experimenting on them is still wrong!”
Feeling a headache coming on, Janize gingerly massaged the side of her temple. “Wait, children? I thought that was propaganda you were spreading. Where the hell did you even get children from?”
“From the Alavari that lived in Erisdale, and from those that you kidnapped from Alavaria!” Elizabeth hissed.
“I authorized funding and troops for magical research, not that.” Her stony-masked stoicism wavered as her lips twitched. It was as if the queen was trying to prevent a wince. “It’s not that I don’t believe you, but this is extraordinary.”
His eyes narrowed, King Jerome leaned onto his elbows. “Janize, I don’t understand. How could you have known nothing? You don’t trust Earl Darius or Master Scarlet that much.”
Janize pulled her hands from her temples. Drawing herself straight, she narrowed her eyes at the mirror. “No I don’t, but this is the first time I’ve heard about these experiments.”
Leila blinked. She knew her lover better now and as good at hiding her feelings the queen was, she did have some subtle tells. In this case, her shoulders were just a bit too stiff, stretching skin across her high collarbone. “Janize, I’m sorry, but that’s…not entirely true isn’t it?”
The queen tilted her head toward the Otherworlder. Her grey eyes glared daggers at Leila for a brief moment, before she turned back to the mirror. In an arch tone, she hissed between gritted teeth, “I know they were making mana batteries. However, it’s the first time I’ve heard about children. I have been suspicious about why Master Scarlet and Earl Darius require so many facilities for some time and have been trying to audit them. They’ve been stonewalling me with magical and military jargon or burying it in budget books under nondescript lines.”
Leila blinked. “Oh that’s why you were asking me what those words meant.”
“Yes, dear. Now, if the interrogation is over, I will agree to offer compensation to those children and their surviving family members. In return, I have my own conditions.”
Forowena sneered. “Name them. We have our own conditions as well.”
Janize grinned back. “First, my child is not to be next in line to the throne of Erisdale. In fact, I would like to renounce my right of succession and that of my child.”
It was rather hard for Elizabeth, Ayax and their allies to hide their surprise. Admirably, King Jerome only managed to show his shock through a series of rapid blinks. “That’s a major concession, sister.”
The queen turned her chin up. “In return, once you depose Earl Darius, you grant me his personal lands and make me an Earl.”
Crossing her arms, her thoughts racing a mile-a-minute, Elizabeth muttered. “You’d become Erisdale’s chief powerbroker.”
“I am surrendering after all and most of my allies will be gone. You got to give me something. Besides, if I remain Earl, I’d be able to keep what remains of the Traditonalists in check. Exile honestly doesn’t suit me, as comfortable as it would be. I want my child to have a future, not one where he or she has no allies and is bound to the crown.”
Forowena and Jerome glanced at one another, exchanging frowns.
Martin also looked to Ginger, who shook her head. He nodded. They’d had their own discussion about Janize’s possible offers and they had their own opinion.
“Go get em, Martin,” Ginger rasped.
The knight swallowed and coughed officiously. “If I may be so bold, Your Majesties, I propose we grant Queen Janize a county, not an earldom. In return, we shall protect her from reprisals and reparations that the Crown of Alavaria will undoubtedly request.”
Leila rolled her eyes. “What crimes? As you said, we didn’t fight Alavaria.”
A shit-eating grin blossomed over Ginger’s face. Idly twirling a lock of her hair, she crossed her legs. “Earl Darius’s forces kidnapped Queen Titania’s niece, Princess Morgan Greyhammer from the Alavari Academy of Magic and subjected her to a year of torture and experimentation.”
In the silence that followed, all that could be heard was Leila trying not to sputter. Janize was quiet and still. Yet the color was drained from her face.
“That dumb bastard,” Janize whispered.
Leila slammed her fist on the table, causing Janize to flinch. “Fuck.”
“So a county it is, then?” Ginger asked in an airy tone.
“Yes. Do you confirm your side of your terms?” Janize asked.
“We do. Our demand was that your child could not be our successor, which you have agreed to.”
“So the dynasty of the House of Grey ends I suppose.” Janize let out a shuddering breath and shook her head. “Then who is to be your successor?”
Martin and Ginger clasped each other’s hands in unison before facing the group.
“We are,” said Martin slowly.
“Until someone better is found,” said Ginger.
Janize arched an eyebrow. Leila sighed. The queen, however, nudged her Otherworlder quiet and gave a nod of assent. “A wise choice. Shall we continue?”
Author’s Note: So yeah, this is a bit of a twist, let’s see what happens.

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Greeting friends,
I've been playing D&D for 22 years, and doing sound design for 10. I've recently decided to combine my two favourite things into a youtube channel specifically for soundscapes to accompany parties on their numerous (mis)adventures. I love what I do, and will be releasing new 'scapes as regularly as my real-life work schedule permits.
May one of the following suit your needs, and accompany your players' mighty deeds 🧙

• Forest campfire
  
• Exotic Markets
  
• Ship at Sea
  
• City Streets
  
• The Blacksmith's Shop
  
• Haunted House
  
• Halls of the Academy
  
• Sleeping in the Barn
  
• Desert Journey
  
• Music to adventure to
  

Enjoy