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Hello! This is my first time ever posting on Reddit.
Long story short, I was born here in Canada but I grew up in Tunisia from like 3 years old til 14, then I came back to Canada. Now I am 22, still in University. I have no idea what I'm doing with my life. All I know is that I genuinely hate it here, I've always hated it here and I would like to move somewhere else and Spain has been my dream country since forever, plus I'm fluent ish in Spanish so that should be helpful. Anyways, I am currently enrolled in Sociology (wanted psychology but I wasn't accepted and it seemed like the closest thing to it but it isn't and I hate it). I'd like to know, as a student, still not close to finishing my degree, can I just move to a university in Spain and complete my bachelor's there or restart in Psychology or anything like that? is it possible? Will I be wasting many years?
Main reasons why I hate it here is the weather and people (not all ofc). As I mentioned above, I grew up in Tunisia, a country with a hot weather. I spent my entire childhood near beautiful beaches, beautiful historical cities, people there are very friendly and warm. I woulda moved back there if the country wasn't struggling economically and shit. Canada is completely different. It just feels grey. It's very cold, and I am very affected by weather changes. I feel lazy and unproductive and overall down whenever it's cold/cloudy (which is most of the time). Plus I find it extremely hard to befriend new people, it feels like most friend groups have been friends since childhood. At an adult age it's hard to find new friends and whenever I make plans with people they never happen. It's just so lonely here. I'm straying from the main subject but I wanted to explain where I'm coming from. Keep in mind this is just my personal experience. Nothing objective about it. I'm sure other people are thriving here.

This is not meant to offend anyone if your religion is mentioned. I am not trying to force you to believe me. I am not starting a cult or a new religion.I could possibly be going insane.
First of all,I know there has to be a god out there. Some kind of deity,at least one,because things have happened to me that can’t be a coincidence. Second of all,I believe I have contacted this “god”,Asking for signs with certain keywords (eg:if you’re really there make my top Reddit recommendation from [insert sub). If I am really speaking to god,then I know it can’t completely be the Christian or Muslim god,or any other religion that forbids witchcraft as this deity has told me that they are ok with witchcraft and those who participate in witchcraft will not be punished. I say “completely” because it’s still possible that the holy texts are partially right. This god has the ability to “bless” objects,creating some kind of benefit when you have a certain object near you. I plan to ask about gays today,also,in times of emergency im sent signs,thoughts telling me to do or not to do certain things. Like how my mother had gave me leftover chicken, chicken except I felt an urge to not eat it,so I didn’t. She was in the hospital for food poisoning for almost 12 hours. Since that had happened,breakfast ended up being on me the next day,however since the day before we had strawberries in the house,I originally planned to eat the whole pack,but I felt an urge to save some for tomorrow. The next day,since there was nothing for breakfast….except an almost full large thing of strawberries. This god will answer you no matter what name you call it by. I decided to call the deity “Starclan” because why not? Now,again,I could be insane,so you probably shouldn’t trust me,but this is my view on the concept of a god being existent.

So my job may in the future require travel to mines in Columbia, ecuador and such in the future. The mine site itself I'm not too worried about as I've been around construction sites my entire career and I'm doing surface site infrastructure work anyways. As long as I'm not a total moron I should be ok.
However it's the going to site I'm concerned about. First, idk if these areas are controlled heavily by gangs, cartels and paramilitaries. Hell even corrupt officials looking to kidnap for ransom a westerner so really its danger lurking everywhere. So I'm thinking from the airport to that deep into the jungle drive to site you are essentially in no man's land and anything can happen. You dont know who is watching you like prey and you have no idea who you are speaking to and what their intentions are. I grew up in a third world shithole and have had robberies and guns pulled on me and have known of corrupt gang affiliated government officials, so I'm extremely paranoid and viscerally afraid of this stuff.
Secondly, I'm concerned about the site infrastructure itself. Idk how common or how big of a deal it is but landslides, failing roads, breaking down in the middle of nowhere and dangeorus wild animals seem to be an ever present danger inherent to the job. Unlike USA or Canada I don't think any infrastructure is safe and i dont think the authorities in these countries care to or have the capability to do anything.
But idk. I could be overthinking this and havent been in mining long enough to say. I mean tons of people work in mining so it can't be that risky. Can someone whos been in this environment give me their 2 cents? Am I thinking rationally here?

Today I planned to start some seeds. I got a late start on my day and instead wound up transplanting some seedlings and doing an "emphasis patrol" around the yard to gather up random buckets, planters, and plant pots. The rotten buckets and broken pots are in the wheelie bin, and I think I have the "stashes" of planters and pots narrowed down to 2 places now. It was hot enough to come inside and start on indoor projects, then get some lunch.
The local supermarket had a sale on canned soda in the week leading up to the Memorial Day weekend. I stocked up. DH brought the boxes out of my car, but left them on the stoop. They'd now been there a week, so I started to put them away and promptly found I needed to declutter the place where it would go. In the spot where we put the Coke, among other things I found a bag of potatoes DH forgot about. The potatoes should never have been there in the first place and were now liquid; there was no moving what was now a bag of goo without making a worse mess. I needed to clean that mess up before I put the Coke away, which involved scrubbing a concrete floor with a scrub brush..
After I scrubbed the floor, it needed the area to dry thoroughly before I put the Coke away. So I decided to look up something online.
We want to replace a dilapidated fence and need to confirm the property line first. The situation is such that we need to bring in a professional. (We've already been to the county courthouse and talked to appropriate people there, and have a map of what the property line should look like. The hodgepodge of fences don't reflect what "should" be. Neither the city nor the county have staff who comes out and confirms for you where your property lines are.) The professional we need to contact is called a surveyor, and none of the people in our circle know of one. After locating a surveyor who serves our area, I went to the personal email I use for professional contacts (rather than the one I use to sign up for store discounts) and realized that the reason I don't check that email on any kind of a regular basis is because the inbox has become overwhelming as the result of email I'm receiving from specific senders. I started with 2000 and am down to under 500, and will go back in a couple of weeks to unsubscribe where I need to.
It's time to step away from this and go get some lunch. We're doing take out from a sandwich shop; then we'll come home and I'll clean the fridge. My husband doesn't get to clean the fridge this time because he's too squishy on expiration dates and his version of what "finished cleaning the fridge" looks like is too far off from what mine is, and the fridge is now in such a state that I need to be the one to clean it. (He will get to deal with the things that need to be soaked in the bath tub and scrubbed there, mostly because he's the one who let that happen.)
I tried to work with my husband, but he can't prioritize what needs to be done first. When he chooses a project, we disagree regarding its priority and it's better for my nerves to just leave him to it. I can't help him with a task because he cannot maintain focus on any one thing long enough for me to be of any real assistance to him. We went out with the intent to plant some seedlings a family member gave to him. We were going to put them in the raised bed, then I would start my seeds and he would move to string trimming the edges of the lawn. This was the back up plan after he couldn't find the batteries for the string trimmer (he thought they were lost; it turned out that they were in other tools, and I don't have the spoons today to deal with the saga of the thing that is never put away where it actually belongs). The seedlings aren't planted, because he decided to not put them in the raised bed and he's now considering three different locations in the yard, none of which have been prepared for seedlings.
I told him it was too hot for him to work outside, and he should come in and clean his tool bench.
This is why we work all day and it looks like nothing has been done.
He told he he's overwhelmed and doesn't know where to start, and needs my help (not physical help, help with the mental load that goes with all this). I told him that I can't, because he rejects anything I suggest. We did have a conversation about him being evaluated for ADHD and open to treatment. This was the most receptive he's ever been to the suggestion.

I obviously want to have the 200k reward, but I'd like to delay the arrest as much as possible, since loosing the mafia perks blows. it's day 80, the only one left in the Sand gang is Christopher and I archived that case. I've read that Robespierre kills Sand at some point in the game, I assume you're not able to arrest him after that. On what day that happens? What is the deadline for the arrest?

I asked my significant other to tell me something they had never told anyone before and I was not prepared for what they were going to tell me. He said when he was 6 years old he played house with a girl a year older than him as well as her younger brother that he went camping with every weekend in the summer (i’m not sure of the exact timeline or when it ended) He said they were the mom and dad and her brother was their son. He told me they had sex multiple times as 6 year old children. I was blown away, and he seemed surprised by my reaction. I told him those kinds of things are something that happens due to sexual trauma. He says he was never touched, that “maybe they saw their parents do it” and that’s what they thought they were supposed to do… I don’t know who’s letting their kid see the mechanics of how sex works at such a young age.. I just can’t help but think that poor little girl was exposed to sexual behaviors and thought it was appropriate and normal. I did not want details about the situation because it makes me sick to think about so I don’t know what to think. I guess I just need someone to tell me i’m not crazy and that children don’t just do that without having been assaulted previously. And I can’t help to think that he thought that was normal and did it throughout his childhood with other little girls. I was eating dirt when I was 6 years old… And i played house with children of the opposite sex every day in school. Nothing like that ever happened! And what kind of parents leave their baby children unattended for so long and often that they can have intercourse not only once but many times?! I feel like Im going to have a heart attack because thinking about it makes my chest sink. He has a sister who is 11 years old. I think he would be sick too if he found out she had lost her virginity 5 years ago. Please offer some advice on how I can ease my mind about this, my partner just felt like I was judging them and accusing them of being predatory somehow. But he doesn’t see it as trauma or even a big deal, and that also bothers me. What if the younger brother saw them and thought that’s what he is supposed to do with other kids too?? I just don’t see how he doesn’t understand my shock and disgust at this secret I asked him to tell me. Has anyone ever experienced something similar?

For reference I am from Iowa and trying to transition ftm.
I've tried looking stuff up but only see things about transitioning being banned for minors but no laws about adults? Before I even try to go to a therapist or start the process I want to know if I can safely do so without anything bad happening through therapists, surgeons, or anyone else that may take part in this.
I am currently living with my father who is supportive of me liking women and saying I'm like a son but I don't feel safe telling him I want to transition. I plan on living alone next year but want at least to get things in gear because I can easily hide paperwork as we have respect for each others privacy.
I also am on disability for medical and mental health but do not know if it's going to affect what I do. Is it safe to start the process? Should I move to another state? Is there a community I can trust to help? Does disability and transitioning work?

I have been in the community for about 2 years, for a year now and then I wake up automatically after 3 or 4 hours, sometimes after 2, in a state similar to sleep paralysis or sats, (It could be the same) the The case is that I don't know what to do, I start to feel vibrations in my spine dorsal, or sometimes a buzzing in my ear, I assume that what happens to me is what is sought in methods similar to wbtb or raduga, but I stay as in white, since I don't quite understand what to do from there, what should I do? visualize? say affirmations? I don't know if this question has been answered before, but even if I visualize I start to feel like I'm too "awake", from time to time I feel the sounds in my cr disappear or fade away, but eventually this state ends when I become too aware, or wake up too fast

ok so this hasn't like come completely out of the blue or anything, I'm 14 now, when I was like..12ish, yeah 12 I was like totally convinced I had ADHD, i saw a tik tok which is really embarrassing to think about now but i wasn't like really pretending either, you know. Like I did relate to the tik tok. Anyway so I like told my teacher about it. Then my dad died and I was going to this like therapist guy and I actually wasn't told this but he told my mum that he thought I was neurodivergent and she was like, livid which is kind of weird to think about but her husband had like just died so she had bigger fish to fry but then again they had kind of split up, i don't really know what was happening but I got to eat a load of biscuits and at my dads house he had like little packets of sugar and now I'm wondering if he could afford sugar. Anyway so then I started secondary school and i started seeing the school counsellor because i like couldn't deal with noise but it turns out it wasn't the noise it was repeating noises like leg shaking or the clock or pens or whatever so then I started going to occupational therapy and i still go there and then i went to another place and the lady told me i was neurodivergent and then i was like oh shit yeah i have autistic cousins so then i was like im totally autistic because thats what made the most sense at the time and whatever and then i went for an assessment which was kind of fun but really wierd because i read a book about frogs and i dont really know what that has to do with anything but i dont have autism so then i was like well i totally have something is that offensive to say? I dont think its bad but anyway i was googling and was like oh geez i might have aspergers but thats like just autism now right? and then i was like well im more unstimulated than i am overstimulated but i still get really emotional and i hate when people like tell me i said something when i didnt because i like dont really forget what i say but sometimes i do and then i was with my friend and she asekd if i was getting tested for adhd and i was like woah what are you allowed to ask that and then i did more research and im like 103% sire im adhd and then sometimes i get really friendlt and then people think we're closer than we are and then they like act like im their bff and i shit myself ans then i dont walk because i am like a dog and have to stop and feel everything im actually a danger to bring shopping anyway yeah i think i have adhd and i dont know what to do because ive been throught this rodeo a hundred times and couldnt be bothered but i want my friends to know because they dont understand and like violate me not really but like you get what i mean. guys i dont know how to get rid of the flair im so sorry oh idid it nevermind

So where do I even begin honestly. My (22ftm) best friend (22f) and I met at school and instantly became best friends one night drinking. She knocked on my door and asked me to take a shot with her, a complete stranger. I loved her deeply immediatly and fell for her HARD. For a year or so things were back and forth - flirting, drunken almost sex and serious fighting in between. Nothing beyond that ever happened. Then, we just,,,,kept coming back and keeping in touch despite almost never having the time to make the long drive to meet up. It's important to note that she was raised by Jehovah’s Witnesses amd thus a lot of our issues that kept something from happening was the fact that I am transgender and her family is very dysfunctional and disapproving of me.
The years went by and I thought we never would become a thing. I met my amazing girlfriend (21F) about a year ago, and we have been a serious couple for 6 months. I love her a lot and we've built a very strong base relationship. I also see a lot of potential with her, and have been feeling like she must be my soulmate. The last month or so we've been having issues mostly because of her familiy(a whole other story,,) and because we've individually been under crazy pressure. It caused us to explode at each one night because i asked for help around the house. The argument turned into one of her needing space and not being able to find a compromise, I had to move back into my apartment (which I only still rent since we planned to move in proper over summer when we have time). We also talked about breaking up because of this.
Currently things are on the right track again with my girlfriend. We talk and kissed goodbye the last two days. I feel like I have never missed anyone more than this last week alone. Then tonight I get a call from my best friend. She suddenly confesses that she's been insanely in love with me all these years and that I am her only true one. She wants us to be together since I told her I broke up with my girlfriend. She still feels stuck choosing between me and her family since they will cut her off. I just don't know what to say. I told her I loved her too, no matter what, and that we would always be together somehow. But I'm running on no sleep and can't even think. Obviously my girlfriend deserves my loyalty in this, and my gut says immediatly to stay with her. But another part of me always thought maybe one day I'd end up with my bestfriend, and maybe that's the 'right' relationship for me? I'm planning on telling my girlfriend about the call tomorrow, but honestly all comments are welcome right now.
TLDR: been having issues with my girlfriend for a bit, but close to being fully back together. Best friend confessed to being in love with me out of the blue. I'm confused.

TL;DR: Friend and I had plans to go out tonight for drinks. Friend's female co-worker (Bri) and her friends that he's never spent time with outside of work have invited us out to a different town to join them for drinks and a live band. Upon asking him if he wanted to go or not, he begins to act a little recreant, because as a part of his "code", he doesn't like to fraternize with co-workers.
FULL DESCRIPTION:
My friend who I'll refer to as Jay and I have been friends since 1998. Jay is a very high strung person with abnormal amounts of worrying when it comes to his physical health, almost a hypochondriac level of worrying. There's also a psychological aspect to this as well; when his daughter (who I'll call Emma) is spending the week with her mother (Jay and his daughter's mother are not together and have split custody) he OVERLY worries that something is going to happen to Emma and has gotten himself so worked up that one time I've had to feed him an anti-anxiety tablet to get him to calm down. Every time Jay freaks out over one of these fears, everything turns out completely fine and normal and it's a complete waste of energy. Every single time this happens I've been very supportive and understanding, and do everything I can to just sympathize and not talk down to him and say he's being irrational, because I suffer ADHD and anxiety myself, and I know how much that sucks. I feel like I should also mention that Jay has a very long history of bailing out on me and other people with absolutely no communication of his intentions, he'll just bail out on you and ignore you on Facebook messenger for a week until he feels less guilty about it, or so it seems.
The conversation that occurred today between us kind of made me snap out just a little bit through text message. This is the conversation:
Jay: \sends picture of meme**
Jay: oh by the way, sorry for not getting back to you last night, I zonked out pretty early because now my boss needs to me work at 8:30 AM on Saturdays now
Me: LMAO that meme is hilarious. And no worries about last night, that sucks you had to be up so early for work. So are we still hanging out/going out for drinks tonight? I don't care if we go out of town with your co-worker or not, it doesn't matter to me.
Jay: Oh I'm down. I'm feeling weird. BP is high. Feel dizzy. Pressure in my head. But we're going. (This seems like a social anxiety type of issue right people?)
Me: Bro. Everything is going to be alright, I promise you
Jay: I know that. I have high blood pressure. I drank too much caffeine. I don't mean to come off as rude, but if I'm having an issue, especially a physiological one, don't trivialize it. I know my body. I know what's up. It'll pass with food and rest. I was just saying.
Ok, so if it's just him worrying about a physiological health problem and he knows that he'll be alright, then number 1: why say anything at all? And number 2: to me, the message about his BP level is worded and implied as him being anxious about socializing with his co-workers. So I think he's trying to back-pedal and change the issue to him drinking to much caffeine because I called him out for being a pansy.
So what am I to do in this situation? I want to be supportive of him and not be a dick, but at the same time it's very frustrating that I have to hold his hand through the most trivial worries of his to the point where we end up staying at his house/my house while he drinks alcohol to calm his nerves. I'm only getting older as time goes on and I want to go out and have fun when I can. The 3 times we've tried MDMA together, he became such a nervous wreck about what could go wrong before dosing, and all 3 times once the drug wears off he says "yeah you're right, it wasn't that bad, I had a great time and I was worried for nothing. One of these days I'm just gonna shut up and listen to you."

english is not my first language so excuse my grammatical errors
so to start with i have social anxiety ever since i started noticing girls(yes only around girls my age group not around men. i turn into extrovert around people are older and kids also people i know from childhood) im 21 now decided to go to college then go abroad to complete masters and settle there (i live in india) i didn't not to go to college after graduating high school when i was 17 cause of bullying even tho im 5"11"(tall for indian man cause average here is 5.6 and i never encountered anyone taller than me) my mom wanted me to go to college and was fully gonna fund me(i live with her she has a terrible disease dont know i should tell it but she is always weak and sick) but i said no.besides i got a small online work at home job right after high school with decent pay these past 4 years were okayish i did whatever i want bought my fav consoles,games,built a pc cause i dont have to pay for anything my mom earns a lot she does all the paying and she still treats me like a kid which really bothers me whenever i ask her to take me dentist for bracers that i will pay it with my own money she says something like "nah its alright you look great my intertsomeworkername's son has worst teeth i have ever seen its normal it will cover up when you get into your 30s"(it was 20s when im a teenager) and i cant deal with anxiety with going outside alone to a hospital getting appointment and explaining doctor about my teeth so stopped asking her carried on doing what i do.but these past 2-3 months i keep feeling really alone and miserable like something is missing in my life(it started with a dream i had early morning was so good felt very real)games doesn't feel entertaining anymore.
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reality check:
i ran into my classmate 22M last month in who is about to graduate college he was never my friend just a casual at times made fun of me and played along when someone bullied but i can tell he matured and moved on from high school phase we were greeting each other he was with his 3 years relationship girlfriend she was complaining they have gotten to city at 5:30 am been waiting for her license and that she is hungry for breakfast so i took them to a coffee shop nearby we were having breakfast he paid for it we are catching up about our lives that made me realize how much of idiot i am laid back in outside world stuff, he was talking about all this taxes, political stance,government plans,laws etc i was agreeing with as i no idea most of it that he noticed it and changed the topic and started treating like a kid(not in a insulting way) explaining everything in more detailed way started asking questions about games asked me if im still playing Skyrim and it was a great game i felt so embarrassed said no(but i do) he said something like "dude are you like 7ft or something how many you been with" he said while laughing he is 5.7 i didn't pluck up the courage tell him i haven't even kissed a girl yet so i said 3 girls,his girlfriend was into this and started asking details about breakups and meetups and kept laughing at scenarios im saying about these imaginary girlfriends. my friend smile disappeared kept awkwardly smirking not because i was flirting with his girlfriend or anything he picked it right off the bat i making these up she kept pressing me i panicked said i had my first girlfriend in 10th grade but i studied till 12th with him i never talked with girl in my class ever he knows it.while leaving he never confronted me about anything about lying maybe felt bad about me then started telling how he approached his girlfriend and made moves in the most detailed way possible almost like telling me how to get a girlfriend he asked for my Instagram(guess what i don't have one cause people use Instagram post pictures of themselves and i dont rate myself as good looking person)and said we should hangout sometime he took my number then we said goodbye went our ways.
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my childhood
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ever since this conversation i felt like the biggest loser of all time. i have a hard time eating,sleeping,working and my depression got worse . i had traumatic cheating parents childhood involving AP's sidechick(yes not his wife and he lied to my mom being single) beating the living hell out of my mom and stomping her face on the ground infront of 9 year old me and in laws allowing and encouraging giving ap wife full support against my mom for cheating on my sick dad, my grandma has big castle type house all her children live together they kicked us out of house after my dad died my mom got my dad's job according Indian rules thought everything was going great until she contracted HIV we still have no idea how it happened as she only had affair with 1 guy my mom keeps telling someone planned against her could be in laws or AP's wife and the're totally capable of doing it.i know what you people might be thinking my mom but she is not that type of person she is the most caring and generous person i ever known goes out help homeless people,animals. even though i completely agree cheating is wrong any situation this is only time i can justify as my dad is completely selfish passive aggressive person beating my mom is common thing for him i used see it as kid sometimes he used yell most vulger dirtiest insults at her loudly that everyone around us can hear it(we lived separately when my dad was healthier) my mother told me he cheated on her multiple times(could be true but i didnt believe as i was not born yet i only believe what i see)she also told me beat her infront of my uncle(her brother)when she said got a job and going to do it even after they are married( i asked my uncle and few people around they told me its true) she put with this for 7 years before he got sick running away is not an options as we live in india and she is jobless and wives leave husbands are shamed.she did all these sacrifices and put up with him cause she loved him when he got both his kidneys failed she took real care him he cant even walk without holding someone and became deaf 1 year after the condition 2nd year they took something out his body idk what and placed a machine he cant pee they used do something called dialysis to remove waste from his body so their sexual relationship is dead so she cheated on him (which is still wrong )leaving him would worsen him all alone no one to take care.when he found he got pissed called my uncle(his brother) he came insulted my mom took us and dad home to grandma grandparents and all in laws started making me and my sister hate my mom telling us insult her and we did when she use to call i was pissed at that time watching someone else in my dad's position.three days we realized all in laws taking care of their children(cousins) no one actually making breakfast lunch or anything for us everyone kept ignoring our needs so i called mom so she sent her brother we went back to her. my dad needs dialysis his brothers kept delaying it saying they are busy its been weeks so he called mom she came picked him up took him to hospital it takes like entire day he died few years later. we moved in with grandma where she tortured daily verbally and used like maid but we dont have anywhere else stay then found out her ap had 1 wife and 1 affair his wife left him. mom distanced herself from him my mom is 4 ft ap's affair beat her so many times cause my uncles and aunts kept calling her they hated her so much idk why. we moved out she got aids i have panic attack when someone makes an aids joke. as kid i dont know what it is or why my mom kept crying holding the reports or why she distanced herself from us and kept her seperate plates glasses has her own seperate bathroom stopped us from kissing her i thought its just a random sickness then searched about it google back in 2019 it said they only live between 9-15 years and its already been 13 years she is getting skinner everyday her blood count dropped to 4 i been having nightmares recently about her i wake up cant sleep anymore and start getting emotional start praying all this things fucked my mind up when someone even says the word cheating or aids my heart starts beating and i have panic attack
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fixing myself
i did my best ignoring it went with other hobbies like playing games and lot of daydreaming fantasy stuff like me present in lord of rings being Aragorn and it worked infact daydreaming is my favorite thing i lock my room walk around thinking about these cool stuff it makes so happy takes me into a place where everything happens according to my favor i control everything.but after conversation with my friend i wanted fix my life bought a motorcycle started going out for groceries got my bracers(went with mom tho) started going to gym(its been 1month by tomorrow) nervous at start thought people would stare at me but no one did there were more skinny and shorter guys than me applied to college starting next month. want to be in a relationship but it comes with cheating(not all don't get triggered but could be the one i gotten myself into)so i went reddit to see how people do post infidelity to prepare myself mentally if i ever get cheated and oh boy this is the biggest mistake of my life the things i 've read till now i always thought some personality traits makes someone loyal but everything is a lie and the way people got fucked over even after years after marriage and the stories i read im really empathic to the people got cheated on i feel like it happened to me and get emotional idk what to do im depressed and overthinking too much about something that never happened to me that i decided im done with this shit should just face the very own thing i fear and talk to actual girls rather than reading online about them
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im going to college this is where i most likely find any relationship since im working on myself i feel i have a chance if im confident.i have been practising interactions with strangers getting motorcycle really helped as everyone kept asking for a ride picked like 4 people in the past week(noticed they all start conversation and keep talking) for them it might be free ride and i lose petrol but interactions helped .so to the point like 2 hours ago 10pm i went out buy my energy drink and some medicines for mom's headache saw this women lives in the same apartment started buying medicines i talked with her like 3 times i call her aunty. my mom is not social either she talked with her like 4 times this women has parlor few weeks ago in elevator she asked my mom is she wants her hair done she agreed gave appointment next day(sunday).next day she came but my mom didnt go she said she will come later but she never did or talked to her after.i had feeling she is pissed at my mom thought it would make it worse and make me look like a jerk if i let her walk at 10pm while there are so many drunks around when im actually going to the same place i thought it wouldn't hurt give her ride home asked her if she is going home she said yes i told her i could give her ride she said no need there is my husband. when i turn around there is her husband on motorcycle with kids he gave me an angry look asked her who is it then she said boy from 3rd floor i came back home did i do anything wrong in here i am making up all these scenarios that he will confront me tomorrow. i told my mom she got pissed she is angry recently about me giving lifts random people wasting fuel.dont help anyone unless they ask. she said i didnt do anything wrong she told this women's husband is controlling and they are in toxic relationship they always fight(there's always screams and fights in our apartment i dont know who is who even tho i live here) and he is really suspicious of her i should apologize if he confronts.or forgot it like never happened.given everything im going through this is the last thing i need

TLDR: the guy that I have a crush on may be straight, but he still sends me love messages and I worry to become to obsessed with him.
The guy and I work for the same company, but in different cities and departments, so we don't see each other at work. However, we've known each other for years. We met at company events, and we also have a big chat where all staff can talk about anything.
Although I always found him cute, I assumed he was straight, so I didn't really think much of him until this year. We met at a corporate New Year event, where there were many people, and I socialized with everyone, not just him. However, we had a few beers together and ended up talking more than usual.
That night, after the party, I was alone in a hotel room and found myself thinking about how cute, smart, and sexy he is, and how I want to be with him. It was the first time I'd thought this way about him.
That's where my crush began. At the time, all I knew was that he was trying to date some girls with no luck. Some people in our chat even asked him if he was gay, to which he replied no. So I decided not to act, not wanting to get hurt. But a few days later, he messaged me on WhatsApp, saying that he enjoyed our time at the event and that I had some very interesting thoughts. Mostly, we talked about our work gossip, but we also discussed some personal topics. It turned out that we had some things in common, such as favorite books, food, and video games. So we started to chat on daily basis - not too much, but quite pleasantly.
One night, things escalated and he confessed his love for me. I was surprised, but happy to hear it. I replied saying that I also loved him and admired how intelligent and wonderful he is. We discovered that we have a lot in common. He sent me a heart emoji and it felt like a dream come true. We discussed the possibility of meeting in person, but it was getting late so we had to go to bed.
Something weird is happening between us. We talk and call each other a lot, but whenever I try to flirt, make sexy comments, or share gay art that I think he'd like, he usually doesn't respond. Even when I send him small physical gifts with love confessions, he ignores any sexual undertones. Instead, he talks more about work or hobbies. When he say that he loves me, it is just a simple statements, without elaborations. I tried being honest with him, but he still ignored me. I even asked him directly about his sexuality, but he just changed the subject!
I was really worried, so I talked to a guy I know in the same city as my crush. He's gay and works with my crush. He told me something in secret - my crush is definitely straight, but he might be on the autism spectrum. He's also single and doesn't have many friends. It turns out that telling people he loves them is just something he does sometimes, and I'm not the first person he's told. So, there was nothing romantic or sexual about it.
I didn't think that my source had lied to me, but I couldn't be certain, could I? So, I wrote my guy a letter expressing how much he meant to me, and how he was the best person I knew. I included a link to the letter, telling him that it was something work-related, so he would read it. All I received in response was a correction of some minor data I had included about him. He completely ignored the rest of the letter and proceeded to discuss work gossip. I felt heartbroken.
Last Friday, I informed my crush that I wanted to take a break from social media and disabled all notifications for the weekend. However, I still checked WhatsApp and saw a message from him saying "I love you" today. I didn't open or reply to it, but now I'm left wondering what he wants from me. He never really responds, so I'm unsure if he's questioning his orientation, is just lonely and weird, or if he's asexual. I'm hesitant to investigate further because I don't want to come across as a creepy stalker with an overbearing interest in a guy who might identify as straight.
Maybe we didn't understand each other well, and I wasn't clear enough. I want to go back to our enjoyable talks with him, but I also want to move on from this strange obsession. We haven't met face to face since that first incident this year, and I don't think we should. I don't want to make things awkward for him or our colleagues. Nonetheless, I don't feel comfortable continuing our friendship, especially with the strange love confessions he's been sending me.
After speaking to my source again, he told me that the person doesn't drink much and hasn't been seen using drugs or doing anything else suspicious. They do sometimes feel sad, but usually just because they had a bad date with a girl. I decided to stop talking to avoid seeming creepy.
So am I the strange and creepy one here? Have I imagined too much and embarrassed the poor guy?

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genuinely want to cry at this point. the constant utis ive been getting have been UNBEARABLE. i had finished antibiotics for a uti last monday and today i got a uti, AGAIN. last time my urine was sent to culture so they did send me different antibiotics to treat it last time bc the ones i was taking werent strong enough, so i know that they are sending me the right ones. this shit happens to me after sex and i honestly dont know what else to do. i pee before and after. i clean myself front to back. i’ve used different condoms (latex free.) i make sure my bf’s hands and parts are clean. i drink plenty of water. i take cranberry vitamins (which did help for a few months but clearly it doesnt help anymore). ive gone to my gyno, they did tests and everything came back fine. but nothing seems to work. my bf has not been checked in years but he did after his ex and he was clean regardless. plus, we use condoms so his dick cant be the issue can it?? the only thing i havent done was go to a urologist. i wanna know,is a urologist going to be helpful as to why i get so many utis? i plan on going to one but i do need a referral and i dont have a pcp so its taking me some time. what have you girls done for utis?? please, anything will help.

We are Black and a mom at the park was touching my daughters hair and commenting on the texture. My daughter has thick curly hair.
The mom and her child had straight blonde hair.
Our children were playing together so I guess she felt comfortable enough to do this.
I moved my daughter away using the excuse that she’s pretty shy with strangers. I did not want to turn this into a lesson on body autonomy with another adult.
We left shortly after.
This was the first time anything like this has happened to my daughter, so I was kind of shocked at first.
Has this happened to any of your children? What did you do?
What would you do in this situation?

The fact of the matter right now is that the Raspberry Racers are not doing well.
We've recently hit rock bottom thanks our own subpar performance despite repeated half-decent qualification positions. It's now basically undeniable that the Raspberry Racers are disproportionately awful at M1.
I write this to plead one thing to JMR: please don't mess with the team structure over this. The RR are a thousand times more promising in the Marble League than they've ever been in M1- they have the most dominant win in history under their belts, two podiums, solid results even when they're not on the podium and an MVM in Razzy. These are all things they've achieved with their roster as it is, unchanged changed since '18.
Razzy's an incredible captain and a superb individual athlete. Berry's the most successful Marble League coach ever measured by podium spots produced for their team. Rizzy's a great team athlete, and literally everything else about our team is fine and stable for the things we're actually good at.
I'm concerned that, like Hazy's sabbatical and the BOC roster being reshuffled based at least partially on M1 (both of which nearly imploded the teams), we're going to experience some combination of this three before ML23: lose Razzy (which would be a huge blow to the Racers, I can't overstate this enough), fire Berry or demote Rizzy to reserve. All three would be pretty horrendous decisions. It would be extremely cruel to fans to interfere with a good team based on its performance in what is essentially 10 repetitions of its consistently weakest event. It'd be like doing an entire roster swap for the Kobalts before M1S4 despite the 3rd place in S3 because of the '22 relegation- or, imagine if the Hazers roster decisions were made based on ten rounds of sand rally and block pushing?
Also, and perhaps most significantly, JMR chose to put the Razzies in when they didn't really deserve it based on prior performances. I won't object to that decision here, but I will say that setting us up to fail and then making a bunch of unnecessary changes after that happens (and probably, rightfully, booting us from S5 anyway) would be very underhanded, especially when M1 is by all counts shorter, less representative of overall skill and entirely optional (a team can be ML exclusive but not M1 exclusive). Also, in keyfabe, it's just not that realistic a decision for such big changes to be made right before a really important qualifying period in the event they're actually slated to do well in.
I don't think it's unrealistic that we'll finish this season in last, and it'd take a miracle to get us past 12th. If that happens: kick us out. Hell, kick us out even if we don't! It would be better for us. Just leave the roster alone and keep Berry around. We've got a season to qualify for and we don't need drastic change.