In Episode 31, The Mortal Realm's Emperor explained to Youqin why he had to treat his daughter Yentan like a piece of shit. In a nutshell, he's basically saying he's a fucking coward. How does it make sense that she is to blame for the calamities befalling the mortal realm just by being born second??? THEY'RE TWINS IT DOES NOT MAKE SENSE. At most, they're only a few minutes apart. How is she to blame and not Qingkiu???
AND THEN HE HAS THE AUDACITY TO IMPLY HE HAS BEEN PROTECTING HER IN HIS OWN WAY??? YOU ARE NOT PROTECTING HER IF SHE HAD TO DEFEND HERSELF FROM SOMEONE WHO TRIED TO KILL HER IN HER SLEEP OR GUARDS LEAVING HER TO HER DEATH IN THE FOREST. HOW IS IT PROTECTING HER WHEN SHE DOESNT KNOW IT. YOU DO NOT LOVE YOUR DAUGHTER IF SHE DOES NOT SEE IT. YOU DO NOT GET TO SAY YOU LOVE HER WHEN YOU ENABLED EVERYONE TO SHIT ON HER.
Of course, during the discussion, she happened to overhear everything her father said. Now, she's going to forgive her father and live happily ever after. I'm sorry, i am furious. It's fine to create shitty parents but why should the daughter be the first to reach out to him when it's him who has wronged her for 18 YEARS. The only reaction i've seen done right is in LLTG. I liked how she handled it. Just because they're your parents does not mean they should be understood & forgiven immediately. Her mother treated her badly & that's that. There is no excuse. I have a lot more to say but i'm going to stop here. Otherwise, it'll be a 200 page book.

I've had some beautiful lower dose experiences that have helped me out quite a lot when I was feeling stressed and "stuck." I like lower doses because they let me think. Here's an easy guided trip method that I've found to be pretty reliable personally:
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Step 1: Play this song
(https://youtu.be/AsIjyJvhR9A)
Or (https://youtu.be/TY7T1qTJvOk) if you want something more grounded
• Headphones if you have them, but it's beautiful out loud as well
• Go ahead and put it on loop, don't wait to have to fool with it before the trip ends.
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Step 2: Take your dose
• I would recommend sticking to a lower dose. It's okay if you choose a dose that's too high for you to really "think" at first, but I would pick one that at least allows you to think after the peak in the comedown/afterglow time period. Something sub breakthrough.
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Step 3: Enjoy the trip
• You don't need to jump into the "thinking" part right away. Sometimes the peak makes it difficult think about worldly things even on lower doses haha. Also, allowing yourself to just enjoy the trip for a minute can really help you unwind and lower the inhibitions that make it hard for personal reflection. Enjoy the song, enjoy your visuals, they're both beautiful.
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Step 4: What worry is at the front of your mind?
• Whatever you think about most immediately, it doesn't have to be the most impactful thing in your life. Sometimes the little things can be your biggest stressors, without you even realizing it. It could be something a coworker said today that bothered you, or it could be something more impactful like big financial stresses. Whatever comes to mind first is likely one of your most frequently thought about stressors and thus one that impacts your mind the most.
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Step 5: Reflect on these questions
• Is this thing hurting you (physically or otherwise)? Could it hurt you in the future?
• How could you be happy in the event that this thing does negatively impact you? What are things you could enjoy despite the change in your situation? If you think there is truly no way to be happy with this thing, then remind yourself that you'll be able to move past it and be happy again someday. Think of the things that you might enjoy in your life once you move past it. This is the most important question. Once you realize you'll still be happy despite this thing, you'll be able to let go of the stress that this thing causes.
• What can you do to prevent this thing from hurting you or minimize its negative impact? What habits could you change, what action could you take? Make a plan to start doing what you need to do. When you do them, remind yourself how much happier you'll be because of doing this.
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Step 6: Repeat steps 4 and 5 until you feel it's a good time to stop.
• Sometimes this takes a while, but don't worry, it can be a very enjoyable experience.
• redose DMT as desired
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Step 7: Think about things you love now.
• Think about someone or something makes you happy. A hobby, a loved one, anything.
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Step 8 [optional]: Enjoy some entertainment.
• If you've had stressors weighing on your mind, then it's likely been a while since you've gotten to truly lay back and enjoy the moment. Do something you enjoy, now that you've dropped a lot of your stress it'll be much more enjoyable, and soothing to remember how enjoyable things can be when you have things a little more figured out.
• This helps with the "What action could you take?" question of step 5. It's a lot easier to get things done when you're able to remind yourself that it'll allow you to feel this feeling again. Knowing that you're doing your best to move in the right direction allows you to really let go when you have the chance to do so. You lose that "I need to be doing _____" feeling that holds you back.
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I would write these steps down if you choose to try them. You don't want to have to remember 8 different things on DMT and you don't want to have to operate your phone to read them either haha. Here they are for writing purposes:
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1: play the song
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2: take your dose
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3: enjoy the peak
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4: determine the worry at the front of your mind
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5: let go of your worry
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6: repeat 4 and 5 until feeling better
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7: think about something you love
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8: unwind with some entertainment
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I know thinking about stressors is intimidating, but you have to face difficult feelings head on. You can't push feelings away, you have to let them pass through.
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That's all. Sorry if this shit is cheesy, I'm pretty high haha. If anyone tries this let me know, I'm curious if it helps anyone else as much as it has helped me. Had some beautiful experiences.

Check out u/se05239 for his amazing fanart of Tarho!
Anyway, I hope you haven’t gotten too depressed.
Expect some intensity coming up.
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Memory Transcription Subject: Tarho, venlil civilian and former predator disease facility patient
Date[standardized human time]: November 7, 2136
Blank.
That’s the only thing describing my afterlife so far.
Bleak emptiness, without any meaning.
That is, until I opened my eyes to bright lights over my head.
At first, I was confused. Did I survive the fall? Did the drugs finally-
Wait.
I called them drugs, not medicine.
Did… did I finally regain control?
I bolted myself into an upright position. I was in a hospital room. Things still felt a little disproportional, probably because there was still a small amount of drugs in my system, but aside from that, it was just… a hospital room.
I felt myself over. My fleece felt… clean. I could no longer feel the sticky texture of mold and mildew coating me. I moved to my mouth. It seemed that all of my remaining teeth had been pulled, probably because they were too rotten to save. Thankfully, my gums didn’t seem to ache anymore.
I…
I’VE DONE IT! I FINALLY HAVE CONTROL OVER MY LIFE!
Morning time, time for medicine.
…
Oh no.
“You’re shtill here.” I said out loud. I took notice of the lisp caused by my missing teeth.
Of course I am, I live here.
“You… you aren’t alive. You’re jusht a trace mixchure of drugs shtill in my body.” I said out loud, hoping that volume would make it easier for me to banish the false identity.
So long as I am in your mind, I’m real, because reality is subjective.
I stared into space. What kind of philosophical bullshit was that supposed to be?
The kind that a healthy mind can come up with.
I became quite angry. I grabbed the nearest reflective surface, which turned out to be a glass of water. I drank the fresh water, savoring the taste, before starring at the barely visible face in the clear reflection of the glass.
The reflection’s eyes were clouded, and the fleece and mouth were still infected by mold and disease. It was most definitely him.
“Listhen here you little shit. Thish ish MY body, controlled by MY brain. YOU are jusht a stowaway in my life, keeping yourshelf alive with the ushe of dangerous chemicals. I shwear that when my syshtem is finally fully flushed of those drugs, both you and that shentient fight or flight response are going to FUCKING DIE! YOU HEAR ME! YOU ARE GOING TO CEASE TO EXIST-“
“Sir?” I heard a feminine voice speak.
I screamed like a little girl and nearly leapt full out of my bed at the interruption.
Predator?
SHUT UP, YOU SURVIVALIST PSYCHOPATH!
“Yesh?” I asked simply, as though there was absolutely nothing wrong with anything that I had probably just done right in front of the nurse.
“Are you alright?” She asked.
“No.” I answered with 100% honesty. “No I am not alright.”
“I assume that it’s related to the drugs?” She asked.
“They aren’t drugs. They are medicine.*
“They are not medichine you fucking retard.” I spoke, almost on reflex, straight at a wall.
“… medicine?” She asked.
“Those drugsh were preshcribed by ‘doctors’ from the ‘predator disease’ fachility.” I made sure to stress my words to focus of how ridiculously cruel my situation was.
The nurses confusion increased as it mixed with shock.
I looked down at the floor in pain of my memories. I was finally able to tell my story, but I needed to keep myself from sobbing as well.
“It was only a couple of yearsh ago when I was dragged away. I didn’t do anything wrong. I was jusht having a bad day. The outbursht I had out on the shtreet was jusht me letting out my anger. Nobody even got hurt. Of course, the exterminatorsh immediately mishtook my anger for a shign of predatory behavior, and dragged me to the fachility. They put me in the chair. I hated that fucking chair. I begged for a way out, and they offered a way out. ‘Tesht out this batch of medichine’ they shaid. ‘If you shurvive, you can leave with shome preshcription’ they explained. I took the drugs, and I jusht happened to not die, and the effects that the drugs had were what they conshidered acceptable. Now, they require that I take the preshcribed doshes every day. As I took the medicine, I began to hear voices. As the voices got louder and louder I realized something.” I explained, my voice growing more cracked as I spoke.
I felt my stress cloud my mind. I could feel my sentient fight or flight response wanting to lash out. To add to the description. I honestly didn’t have the will to stop it.
”I hate them. I fucking hate them. They just like the predatorsh. They inflict shuffering for their own pershonal gain. They desherve to die horrible deaths.” I turned my head at the ‘nurse’. “You desherve to die ash well. All of you shtood by and watched as my body washted away! How could you do that?! You’re shupposed to be empathetic you shick fucks! WHY THE FUCK DOESHN’T ANYONE SHARE THAT WITH ME!?!”
I continued to stare at the nurse as she started back with…
…sympathetic horror in her eyes.
I regained control over myself as I broke into sobs. “I jusht want to go back. Back to the way thingsh once were. Ish that sho much?” I said, trying not to choke between sobs.
I felt a pair of comforting arms wrap around me. With some hesitation, I returned the embrace.
“Sir… I’m sorry to inform you…” What? Sorry to inform me what?
Am I going to die?
I hope you die, in all honesty.
“We took scans of your brain. We compared them to scans from the last time you were screened. I’m sorry to inform you that… the drugs have permanently altered your brain chemistry. In other words. You now have a mental illness.” The nurse explained.
Yay! I’m not dying!
My blood ran cold. I was too shocked by the revelation to have any meaningful reaction. That means that I now have to deal with these horrible voices forever.
Heh.
The irony isn’t lost on me.
The facility meant to cure predator disease actually afflicted me with it instead.
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I'm working on small project with orange pi zero that requires four cameras. We need to make it as cheap as possible but at same have some reasonable image quality to pass to our OCR. By now SQ11 is one of our favouirs options but I'd like to know what are some more options that we should consider? consider we live in a place where USD $1 = 5 so any USD $10 camera to the project be will over 50 hence our need to make it as low-cost as possible.
Thanks in advance!

I am filing for emergency custody for the 2nd time in a week. I was denied the first time due to lack of evidence I am assuming because I was not descriptive enough on my paperwork. This time I wrote a whole decoration and hired a lawyer to accompany me on the day of the emergency hearing. My sons father recently ended is lease and sold his vehicle. My son whose 6 has brought to my attention that his father is frequently taking him to mexico every weekend with his fathers girlfriend. My son is of fair complexion with blond hair and blue eyes. He does not speak the language and exhibits signs of illness when he returns. There is currently a non travel advisory in certain places in mexico and because my son’s appearance i fear he could become a prime target. I have been trying to divorce my sons father for 4-5 years now but he contests every time. On one of my most recent positions for divorce i offered 50/50 custody legal and physical but he contested seeking full custody and to strip my rights away and then did not pay the court fees. I am terrified my son will be taken to Mexico and not return. We only have verbal custody arrangements as of now. I wrote a declaration to the court seeking emergency full custody but I am afraid it will be denied again. My son has also expressed his dad stays in a shed. I am deeply concerned for the safety of my child. Is this situation grounds for emergency custody? Can anyone give me advice? Insights? Ideas? Thank you.
I forgot to mention my sons father will not reveal his new address. I have expressed my concerns to his father but because we have no custody orders he says “he has no restrictions on him because there is no orders by the judge and he doesn’t have to tell me anything.” He is absolutely correct. I feel helpless.

I hate blaming everything that occurs with me on long Covid. I am working on my sixth month right now. Newest thing is that I got a stye in my left eye.nw I have had styes before mind you, but rare and easily resolved. This one puffed my eye up (I look like Rocky —-“cut me Mick”) and insomnia s not getting better. Now I have one in my right eye. Never had two at same time. Anyone else with this weird one?

AITA for telling my roommate she shouldn't have been masturbating?
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I'll try to keep this short. So basically I(19F) am a first year college student and live in the dorms with two roommates(both 19F). Our families all live nearby, so all three of us go home pretty often. My one roommate, Allie, goes home VERY often so a lot of the times it's just me and the other roommate Victoria. Anyway, this week is finals week during college and all of Allie's finals are online so she just went home for the weekend and isn't coming back this week. I came back a few days into the week, while Victoria came back on Sunday. The important part is that Victoria has been alone in our dorm room for a few days now. The second important thing is that our dorm room is just one room with three beds, three closets, and three desks. Admittedly that's very little privacy.
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Anyways, Victoria had texted me and asked when I was going to be back in the dorms, and I told her Wednesday afternoon. However, unfortunately on Tuesday night at around 11 pm I had a pretty big fight with my family and decided to come back early right at that very second. I took the train back and ended up arriving at around 2 am(Wednesday morning). I was trying to be quiet and enter so I didn't wake Victoria up but to my absolute shock I walked in on her masturbating openly.
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It was super awkward as I apologized and looked away while she got herself decent really quickly. She was all red-faced but didn't apologize, and just said a quick goodnight and went to sleep. I got into bed too but thought about it and decided she was an asshole for doing that.
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Like, the three of us share this one room. I woke up her and told her that (I don't think she was really asleep though). I just said I wanted an apology but to my absolute shock she said she was sorry I saw that but wasn't sorry for masturbating because it's her room too and that she hadn't expected me back at 2 am of all times and that I should have at least texted. I guess that last part is true but hindsight is 20/20 and also I was really shaken up after the fight with my parents and wasn't thinking too straight. I mean I guess she's always been less conservative than me and Allie but I never thought she would go this far. I was too shocked to say anything else so I just got back into bed. AITA ??????

It's day 4 of being separated physically from my ex. We were living together up until last week, but have been on and off for a year now, with the last breakup being 3 weeks ago, because of my inability to handle it anymore. He wanted to be friends, and considering how close we were as friends and able to be mature about everything in the end, I believed him. Cut to me simply communicating with him day 2 of being officially separated from each other and he is doing the same thing he did in the relationship. Stonewalling when he can't handle an emotion and confusing the hell out of me by saying he cares and wants to be friends but his actions being too emotionally immature for me to take it seriously. Because of this, I asked a pretty reasonable question which was, hey, do you think you're able to be friends with me? Is that what you really want? I thought we were both pretty capable of communicating our needs to one another at this point but all I got in response was yes but shutting down emotionally and then blocking me on everything except tiktok. We sent each other a few tiktoks today, which is day 4 and I simply reached out to get some communication and also figure out where we stand and he simply said he can't handle anymore, he's sorry and he blocked me. It's not the blocking me that hurts, it's the fact that for 2 years he's struggled to effectively tell me what he needs and then because I am unable to give it since I don't know, I'm the bad guy. And I'm so tired of being the bad girlfriend in his narrative. I still love him. I want him to be happy, more than anything. But I was just trying to touch base and figure out where we stood and he broke my heart all over again. It devasted me so much that I officially blocked him on everything and have given up entirely. I think in a few weeks he'll unblock me, as he has done this numerous times before, and he'll reach out. Unfortunately, he won't be able to reach me... because I made the decision final for the both of us now. We can't be friends. And that hurts. It hurts worse than the breakup... I've never posted something so emotionally vulnerable online before, but I just needed to get this out. I'm going through a terrible breakup at 30 and with absolutely zero friends as well. They have all abandoned me... So how do I do this alone? I'm no stranger to liking my own company. But not having anyone to confide in is extremely difficult and I had no idea it would be this hard.

My husband and I are in our 30s, with a house and a son. We've got a good life.
About ten years ago he dated a girl. It wasn't really a "first love" thing, but he had just become an adult so it was the first person he really planned his life with. They broke up because he got a job offer for life-changing amounts of money across the country (where he met me) and she needed to stay home to look after some sick family members, or something like that.
He doesn't talk about her much because I think he doesn't want me to feel less wanted, but from what little he says they were perfect for each other and if that job offer hadn't happened they'd have a picture perfect life right now. Regardless, he's assured me he doesn't have feelings for her anymore, they stay in only sporadic contact, and she's been nothing but supportive of our relationship.
Recently, she died, of some sudden unexpected medical thing or another, one of those that you just never expect. This wasn't actually very recent, it was a few months ago but he's just found out. And since then he's been absolutely torn up. He's still a fantastic parent, but when our son is out of he house he hasn't been doing much but looking at old photos of them (which he said he got rid of) and crying. He's even taken a few sick days from work to grieve.
If it was a single day I get it, it must've been a shock, but it's nearing two weeks now and he's still completely inconsolable. He won't open up to me and I'm not sure if it's because he doesn't want to upset me by telling me at length how much he loved his ex-girlfriend or because he doesn't have any put-together thoughts besides sadness.
I got a little upset at him two days ago for not doing anything around the house (he's basically paralysed in bed sobbing when it comes to anything besides playing with our son) and I told him it was a little ridiculous he was this sad because he didn't even really know her anymore and that he told me she didn't matter to him anymore. I'm also a little pissed he kept the photos of them and I told him that. He started crying harder and I didn't apologize because I didn't feel like I was in the wrong.
Since then he hasn't said a single word to me. I'm just not sure what to think, AITA?
This post is a little rambly so I might edit it down over time.

Alex is 10/10 buying followers right? she has gone up 1k on each of the last few days
I know she has a mass following on Tik Tok so maybe it’s genuine growth from there but it seems like now would be a time she would be loosing followers if anything

Hey all
Last week, after having moved into a new apartment and getting my first proper surround setup, I came across the fact that both audio and visual quality would likely be better using a dedicated streaming device as opposed to the smart TV functions of my older LG C8.
After doing a quick comparison of the Apple TV 4K, and the Nvidia Shield Pro, I spotted Gamestream mentioned on the Nvidia product page, and it quickly became a no-brainer- seeing as I was also trying to find an alternative to a long optical HDMI cable to play PC games on my TV.
Fair to say, I was more than bummed when I started running into issues and could read that Gamestream had already been killed before I made my purchase… but Nvidia’s product page for the shield conveniently didn’t mention that …
So, my doubts are the following:
I can currently play Hogwarts Legacy using Gamestream, having added the game manually through GeForce Experience. However, I need to force a custom 4K resolution to get it to work, and for whatever reason my PS5 controller is recognized as an Xbox controller in that game, even if both my Nvidia shield and my PC recognize it as a PS5 controller.
I’m guessing that any new games will not get full support for Gamestream, since they’ve well… stopped supporting it altogether, meaning I guess the chances new games will work are lower and lower as time passes.. (Was expecting to play Jedi Survivor on it since Fallen Order had been officially supported)
I keep hearing mention of Sunlight, Moonlight, and then of course Steam link. My understanding is that Steam link won’t do 4K, which is a huge bummer. What about moonlight /sunlight? What’s the deal with those? Are they part of the same solution or two competing solutions with similar names?
Is the fact that Gamestream has lost support likely a sign that Nvidia will stop supporting the shield altogether? A bet on GeForce Now instead? Or something else? If the latter, is GeForce now worth it in any way (looks like I get either a free trial or something since I own a 3080)
Any recap/guidance would be much appreciated!

I thought I'd make a post here for anyone who has a hard time find parts, or has a hard time finding people with the knowledge to help them get the right parts.
We are a Gun Parts Supplier and Manufacturer of Obsolete Gun Parts. We inventory around 8 million gun parts and are always buying more. We specialize in .22 Bench Rest Rifles. We are extremely well known for Winchester 52's. Also the Winchester 69A's and 75's as we are the manufacturer of most bolt parts and miscellaneous other parts We also are well know for Remington 540, 541, 580, 581, 582 parts as we manufacture multiple parts for this series of rifle as well. We inventory parts for all the major manufacturers as well as little know or long since gone gun companies.
However, we inventory parts for just about everything. We are somewhat weak on AR-15 parts, as there are so many others companies competing for that business. And Military parts we have a good inventory, but are weaker on knowledge of these parts. But, we are willing to help any way we can.
We also have a large selection of Stock, Butt Stocks, and Forends. We manufacturer Plastic Butt Plates and Trigger Guards along with other plastic parts. In total, we manufacture around 700+ plastic parts. We also manufacture around 1000+ Cast and Machine Parts.
We are willing to help anyone we can. We've been in business now for close to 40 years, and we haven't advertised since about 2008. We are so busy just based on our reputation and service. We will spend as much time and effort to sell you a $4.50 Buttplate Screw as we will to sell $450 set for Target Sights and Attaching Bases and whatever else you are looking for. Customer Service is our first priority!
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I'll try to keep this short. So basically I(19F) am a first year college student and live in the dorms with two roommates(both 19F). Our families all live nearby, so all three of us go home pretty often. My one roommate, Allie, goes home VERY often so a lot of the times it's just me and the other roommate Victoria. Anyway, this week is finals week during college and all of Allie's finals are online so she just went home for the weekend and isn't coming back this week. I came back a few days into the week, while Victoria came back on Sunday. The important part is that Victoria has been alone in our dorm room for a few days now. The second important thing is that our dorm room is just one room with three beds, three closets, and three desks. Admittedly that's very little privacy.
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Anyways, Victoria had texted me and asked when I was going to be back in the dorms, and I told her Wednesday afternoon. However, unfortunately on Tuesday night at around 11 pm I had a pretty big fight with my family and decided to come back early right at that very second. I took the train back and ended up arriving at around 2 am(Wednesday morning). I was trying to be quiet and enter so I didn't wake Victoria up but to my absolute shock I walked in on her masturbating openly.
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It was super awkward as I apologized and looked away while she got herself decent really quickly. She was all red-faced but didn't apologize, and just said a quick goodnight and went to sleep. I got into bed too but thought about it and decided she was an asshole for doing that.
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Like, the three of us share this one room. I woke up her and told her that (I don't think she was really asleep though). I just said I wanted an apology but to my absolute shock she said she was sorry I saw that but wasn't sorry for masturbating because it's her room too and that she hadn't expected me back at 2 am of all times and that I should have at least texted. I guess that last part is true but hindsight is 20/20 and also I was really shaken up after the fight with my parents and wasn't thinking too straight. I mean I guess she's always been less conservative than me and Allie but I never thought she would go this far. I was too shocked to say anything else so I just got back into bed. AITA ??????

i went on here a couple of times posting the same argument based on my opinion but updating my opinion & argument based on (thoughtful, intelligent) feedback. i also talked about this with my best friend. i realized i'm wrong and that my own views fundamentally conflict eachother. what i said and what i believed until now is antinatalism for the fact that every life is equally important in the world and some lives are nothing but pain and misery until painful death whether natural or self inflicted.
my core view that this conflicts with, and why i've been soul searching for a while (check my post history if you care) is that the world is perfect as it is and cannot be improved. this belief is derived from the tao te ching. i couldn't let go of this cognitive dissonance so i kept asking people about it. my best friend told me that this is how evolution works. i said no it isn't, it's adaptation because each generation learns behavior and derives a different way of parenting and choices of having kids or not. he said no, that is evolution.
he's right. that is how evolution works, our brains keep becoming better at pattern recognition over generations due to the way of the world. some of the people that engaged in earnest discussion with me have helped sway my view in that it's not an absolute good or bad right or wrong to create a life just because of the chances of it being a life of pain, suffering, then death. the chance for life being beautiful is greater and weighs more because the more individuality there is between us, the more beautiful life is, and beauty creates a propensity for there to be more beauty. my life was a tragedy up until i could take control of it from my abuser. but where would my fiancee be if i hadn't survived? she would have nowhere to be right now. or not, i don't know, because no one can know the way of the world. i was being arrogant to provoke discussion but it yielded results that humbled me by proving i am wrong as life has forever and always will until i die.

My cat passed away last month due to health complications. It accumulated so quickly within a span of 1-2 months, it felt like seconds passed and now suddenly she’s gone. I am still processing that.
And now that she’s gone, life’s really gone down the shitter. I have nothing to remember her by because my parents took everything of her belongings and sold them or trashed them.
My house isn’t the same. My view of the world isn’t the same, and my emotions haven’t been in check. I’m struggling to take care of myself, and I keep being told by my parents to move on because it happened a month ago. It’s frustrating because I don’t get how everyone else is fine but I can’t let go of the emotional weight this has given me.
I’m struggling to be creative, I’m struggling to work, I’m struggling to get out of my bed. I miss my cat so much.

Hi All,
I first want to say that I’m an anxiety sufferer. The way I describe anxiety, at least for myself is a “monkey brain”. Meaning there is apart of me that doesn’t reason with sound logic and regardless of facts or good points, still gets anxiety. Problem is, the monkey brain is louder than my rational side of the brain at times.
I feel like Covid really ruined a good chunk of my 20s so far. That is, the fear of getting it and getting long Covid. It has put a damper on my dating life, exercise, social life, and my personality as a whole. If I go out to a bar with friends I’m constantly looking over my shoulder to see if someone is sick or not, instead of enjoying my time. Now, i understand we are in a pandemic, and life shouldn’t be 100% normal, as it isn’t. But now that the virus isn’t what it was in 2020, I feel like things can be different.
I had Covid in June of 2022, I luckily had a very mild infection, basically just congestion that I honestly thought was allergies. I recovered 100% shortly after. When I did recover, it felt like the whole world opened up for me again as a I had some immunity and been through one of my biggest fears and realized it wasn’t the nightmare scenario I had in my head. 9 months later, I feel like I have regressed. That is because no one seems to be caring about the virus anymore. Yet, we have one of the most transmissible versions of itself out there right now.
Every time I go out, I think I probably got it even though I’m masked up. I’m going to be the best man to a wedding next month and terrified of getting it on the plane, getting it, and ruining the wedding. It feels like I don’t feel safe anywhere. It also doesn’t help that I live alone in another state from most friends and family. My question is, how can I enjoy life and not let us control my life while still being smart about Covid? I should note that I’m not worried about dying from Covid, just the long terms side effects that can lead me permanently disabled. I feel like I just want to be those people that don’t care about this virus anymore. But man, this is really ruining my life lately.

I'm going to be moving within the next month. I plan to setup a new c&c cage before I move in so I can just transfer my babies right in. I'm hoping I have enough panels and bedding. I bought a waterproof tarp for the bottom layer. I also hope they like it and my dominants do okay being closer to everyone else. Right now I have 3 dominants, 1 in each pair of 2 and 1 solo because she is so bossy. I also am working on introducing my new baby into the mix but it's been hard so I'm hoping this will help. Also, injury isolation will be so much easier. I just hope I do it right for my babies.

Large chance if you are here you are addicted to sex. You are a sex/porn addict. .
Most guys who I assume aren't sex addicts but pigs brag about their solo adult entertainment they ingage in.
All the women in my betray truma from porn addicted husbands groups always talk about how hard it is to get our husband's to talk about their acting out. They tell no one.
Why does the addict carry so much shame when non addicted men seem to think it's cool?
I'm hanging with my ex tonight because I'm sorta stuck right now and his place was a place for me to chill for awhile and he makes a point that he hasn't done anything is a very long time when I just caught him 3 weeks ago?
Bikini swim suit youtube video. I said show me your subscription list and he freaked out. Trying to make me believe he's not acting out when he clearly is. He knows were not getting back together.. Why does he have to keep lying to me? I don't care any more what he's doing. Hes always pushing how hes not doing anything any more. For 2 years since we broke up every time we are around any more he makes a point to tell me hes not doing anything any more and then i find out he is. He knows i know he hasnt stopped acting out. Hes 72 years old and he cant make it longer than a week. His lies are worse then his acting out. Why not just say I can't quit and accept that we're just over?
There's no way we are getting back together because he can't quit and there's no way he's going to be able to hide it from me again.
Password protecting his subscription list is the stupidest thing he could have done. Like that's not obvious. It's things like that that just makes it worse. It's better if he would just say he can't stop. At least with that there truth.
He lost me anyway his lies and hiding what he's doing only makes it so much worse. At least if he was honest I'd still have some respect for him.
To all you men who have a porn addiction and you are hiding it from your women and she finds out if you can't be real with her before she catches you and she will catch you just be honest with her. The lies are the worst. . .
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Need help understanding the codes of spells and witchcraft. You "spell" words with letters right? And if math is the language of the universe, than you are spelling equations and operations. Now I know numbers are damage (I think, cause you do "a number on someone") cause time and years and seconds are numbers and time is light, burning people spiritually. But is it the same with letters? What do letters even symbolize?
I know the letter c has something to do with this "light", cause c is the speed of light and you see (c) with your eyes (cameras) like superman who shoots light out of the eyes, and you "shoot" a movie seen or scene by recording (re and cor, bringing something to someones heart). But what are the other letters? is A the symbol for air? is "it" the sun or the false christ? If so, the I is literally I and the t is a cross or dagger? Im confused
And what are numbers? 6 seconds is an amount of light, but 6 + 8 x 2 = 22? How does this even work and what kind of spell is this...